 konnichiwa~
Hello there & welcome to my blog. Here you'll read tidbits about my daily life, some random thoughts, & maybe a rant here and there. I'm sure you'll learn something about me, if you don't know me of course. Down below are links to find me (personal accounts not posted). I hope you enjoyed your stay while listening to the songs I'm recently listening to. Come back & read again~ ^w^/
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Cried awake
written on Tuesday, August 11, 2015 @ 11:30 AM ✈
It's so weird that I would cry myself awake; my dream wasn't even sad or anything! It had something to do with Light/Dark theme and fluffy beds and the cold.... LOL see, it doesn't even make sense. Then in the same realm, it was like Happy Mother's Day. And I think it was me (I was watching myself) give someone something for Mother's Day, even if she wasn't my mother, but she took care of me. At the moment she was going to give me a hug, I came back to reality and felt tears in my closed eyes. I opened them and the tears just rolled down. It was almost 6am.
Then I couldn't stop crying, well at least "wanting" to cry. I thought to myself, maybe I just need to cry myself out while watching a movie lol. So I wiped my tears and took a trip to the bathroom, thinking I would have calmed down then. As soon as I lay down and closed my eyes, I had the urge to cry. I thought, maybe if I keep trying to sleep by closing my eyes, I'll fall asleep (which I think was what happened last time) After a bit, I still had the urge to cry and tears kept rolling, I just sat up. Mocha sat at the end of the bed and I tried to tempt her up onto the bed; then she left. My Kakao went off & I wondered who it was so early in the morning; it was Mina. So I decided to text her for a bit. Afterward, I went on deviantart and looked up "Hanagai" and "Haganai." Apparently people cosplayed them! Looked through a few cosplays, got my mind off that dream, and finally got to sleep. It was already like 6:30am.
I don't know... I just felt super sad and an urge to cry -shrugs-
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Cried awake
written on Tuesday, August 11, 2015 @ 11:30 AM ✈
It's so weird that I would cry myself awake; my dream wasn't even sad or anything! It had something to do with Light/Dark theme and fluffy beds and the cold.... LOL see, it doesn't even make sense. Then in the same realm, it was like Happy Mother's Day. And I think it was me (I was watching myself) give someone something for Mother's Day, even if she wasn't my mother, but she took care of me. At the moment she was going to give me a hug, I came back to reality and felt tears in my closed eyes. I opened them and the tears just rolled down. It was almost 6am.
Then I couldn't stop crying, well at least "wanting" to cry. I thought to myself, maybe I just need to cry myself out while watching a movie lol. So I wiped my tears and took a trip to the bathroom, thinking I would have calmed down then. As soon as I lay down and closed my eyes, I had the urge to cry. I thought, maybe if I keep trying to sleep by closing my eyes, I'll fall asleep (which I think was what happened last time) After a bit, I still had the urge to cry and tears kept rolling, I just sat up. Mocha sat at the end of the bed and I tried to tempt her up onto the bed; then she left. My Kakao went off & I wondered who it was so early in the morning; it was Mina. So I decided to text her for a bit. Afterward, I went on deviantart and looked up "Hanagai" and "Haganai." Apparently people cosplayed them! Looked through a few cosplays, got my mind off that dream, and finally got to sleep. It was already like 6:30am.
I don't know... I just felt super sad and an urge to cry -shrugs-
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^
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: afeeqah azhar, 19 march, malaysian .
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