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Whoops. Didn't mean to, but my plan didn't work out lol
Got my coffee maker! And can make hot water~ wheee~
Got home, & ended up setting my printer up 'til class. Was going to go to the Pencil Lab, but I heard so many people inside I got scurred so didn't go. I think I need to go in the morning... sigh.

Emoji Clan aka Adrian, Samantha, Jenny, & Linda came to visit. Kinda awk, but not really? I had to leave for hip hop. Hip hop was fun! I met up with the other half of Tater Tots, but there's no meeting on Thursday because of the free concert SJ is holding. We danced to "Cold Water;" the dance was fairly easy! I'm so sore... wow... super rusty.
Me & Steph gymed yesterday too, just on the ellipticals for like 30min though.

Still need to catch up posts, but I forgot about this. Jim was annoyed/angry when she and Jen were going home, about her cats and whatnot. I guess they got home & were still angry & weren't talking to each other, because next thing I know, Jobee Kakoed me and said "... ting im scareeddddddddd" and like what is she scared of? Because them two were hangry. Y'ALL SCARED THE BBY. She said she was gonna die, & I told her to just be a good girl haha

Welp. I'm getting super distracted. I should hurry & do homework. I'm excited about my light board that's coming in Thursday~ Waiting for my books to come in & to pick up the cork strips. Still working on that future of mine. Apparently choosing a concentration helps with advising; I think I'll go with animation... though vis dev seems fun too (modeling, character design, background etc; the creative side)

I think I'm already stressing out. I'm already lagging behind a bit (actually caught up today) so let's keep working hard. I want to get on the ball this semester. I just submitted an application to On the Fourth by the way. I'm super scared if I even get the interview.

On a side note, I bought a coffee maker + grounds + creamer~ *sigh* This is why I need money. I don't even know if I can work? because 3rd semester is coming up, which means portfolio review leading to only 2 studios recommended for future semesters, leading up to BFA. Wow. BFA. Seems so close *insert crying emoji* but there's still a lot of work to do. Which also means, somewhere in my 3rd/4th year summer, I should be working toward an internship... My future is so... dark. I don't know what lies in wait, but I mean, no one does really, right? Right now, I'm stuck with deciding between animation and visual development. I can't decide because I'm interested in both. But I should focus on the NOW. I have so much on my mind, so much to do. I need to FOCUS.
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So far, living in the apartment has been great. I still find some moments awkward with everyone. Yes, even Steph, but with her, I'm not as tense?-ish. We all cook our own food, sometimes sharing. We deal with our own stuff. Lately, I've been out with Steph more than with the other 2, too. Laundry stole all my quarters ($4 total!). Learned to cook ramen for myself though! I think it's better because it's an electric stove. I should learn to cook stuff, but where's the time? I was so tempted to buy some sushi molds & whatnot at Daiso; I want to make bento rice/sushi/triangle onigiri etc, but I know I won't have time too (also, that I won't really at the moment).
My table is still a mess; I can't really clean up 'til I get my cork strips and going home to get some Command hooks etc. I got my 1TB external drive today from Best Buy; super happy because I cleaned out my laptop! for the most part lol. Can you believe? Almost 200GB in the drive. There's still quite a bit of stuff in my laptop, but I don't think it'll be much stuff that I would want on an external drive. I downloaded LoL. I don't know if it can run at speed though LOL

I really want to sleep right now, but LoL is still updating. I guess I'll leave it on. Heading out to Target tomorrow! I have so much going on, physically & mentally, that I don't even think I wrote down everything I was thinking about (which is every time I'm updating), but I sure do need to catch up on a few things that happened over the weekend.
Also, today was embarrassing because Michael & I had a super awkward encounter! >///< "I'm embarrassed for life" --quote from my rant text to Steph haha. I said hi to him, but even before we were next to each other, to passing each other, you can feel there's a hesitation and indecisiveness of whether we should stop and talk to each other. He took out his earphone, but didn't stop so what was up with that? LOL because I kinda slowed & literally watched him walk by me. I WATCHED HIS BACK, for like 2 seconds lol.
Steph's tummy is growling haha anyway, off to sleep for me~

Yes my baby~ I ended up buying his songs kill me nowww. Maybe around $4-5 total? His EP costed aroud $3.96, but that's all that shows up on my billing so I don't know. I was able to download one song from his Weibo (& I think it was free), but not the other, so I ripped it off YT, along with one other song. Another song I happened upon was hard to find, but I managed to find a Yukou link so I ripped the audio off that, but for some reason it's 7 min.. so I need to cut off some of it. Then I had to rip both of Meng Rui's song from YT. I found NINETY NINE'S Hibernation through a forum, & I managed to get his(?) whole album. I need to reorganize my music; rename and whatnot. [[I just ripped the instrumental of "Dream," & it is also 7min? But if I let it play, it plays correctly & at the end it's just silence 'til 7min are up. Once I scrub anywhere, it plays. Hmph. This isn't the first time.]] Also, gotta watch their fanmeets/interviews/backstages etc omgeeee
P.S. While on music, let me mention that Love Live 5th Stage finally released on DVD so now I'm just waiting for download; omgeeee watching the concerts always gets me so happy~~~

I'm sad that I can't have any of IVVY's songs.... they only have 1 EP & 1 single on iTunes store... ToT

**Next task is to download his videos where he performed various songs on the show, & to rip them too.
Because he sang this song, I looked up the original~ Check it out here~ Here's my baby here~ Too bad he didn't sing the full 3-4min of the song :p

On a side note, Adobe is freakin' messin' with me D:< The person who helped ended up not really understanding what I was asking for (I just read the e-mail today; I was assuming I was getting an e-mail by tomorrow). Which means I need to re-"purchase" Adobe, but it's not letting me because it says I'm not a student... I don't know if it's because I need to be using campus Wi-fi, but that shouldn't be the case. I could add the item to cart yesterday, when I was on campus though, so I'ma try tomorrow.
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Went to the ART building to do my animation. Yay~ first simple animation~ but sad I drew twice the number of needed frames so I wasted those extra pieces of paper ToT Afterward, me & Steph had Pizza My Heart for dinner. It was really good~ My gum really hurts; I don't know if it's because my wisdom tooth is coming out? But it's swollen & hurts ToT
I didn't write much about today, but hope I didn't forget to write about what I wanted (ie. about the music & stuff, which I did).
Wow, much distracted. Haven't read for ANI 28, & forgot about daily sketches. Yikes!

OMG.
I just finished Uncontrollable Love 2. And omg. I hate this. Why is there an uncut version? Are they saving it for the happy ending version of the movie? Ugh. Now I got to wait. Maybe it'll be worth it...
It was such a rollercoaster watching it. The ending was sad, but not to the point where I cried. I teared, but not to the point where others were bawling their eyes out. Now I'm looking for their songs. I can find all of 王博文/Bowen Wang's but not 孟瑞/Meng Rui's. MR only has 2 songs, while BW has quite a few releases, but other than the iTunes one and the ones from TrackID, there are possibly a few more tracks that he released but I'd have to dig for.
His song "Dream" doesn't have an instrumental in the release, but they do play the whole thing at the end of the movie, so I'm probably going to try to rip it.

Ugh, I think I'ma end up buying his albums *insert laughing-crying emoji* HALP. MR's discography is too hard to look for; BW is hard too, but I think I found most of them. Anyway, I really need to sleep; this week since school started, I had to wake up around 7:30 because of my 8:30 classes ToT Gah, the OST is gonna haunt me nowwww. At least his albums aren't too expensive haha

So an update on how school's going. First day of school was on Wed, and it went pretty well. To be honest, it felt like I didn't sleep at all, because suddenly I got up and checked my phone and it was 5am. I knew I was rolling around a lot; it felt like it was really hot but then get cold. I think I may have been actually pretty nervous (refer to prev. post).
ANI 28 seemed pretty fun; I'm with a lot of my previous classmates. Not too many supplies needed, and not too expensive, but I have to buy this book that's pretty expensive if I bought new, but I bought a good used one. Twice, though, it got bought out before I ordered (I found a $18+ one, then a $19+, & ended up buying $24+ one). Then I tried to find a pretty cheap light table, & I did for about $31. Hopefully it's good. Peg bar & Col-erase pencils at the Spartan bookstore for about $7, and animation paper for $14.14 (bought today, because they ran out on Wed). After class, I bumped into Thomas who just got off of work since 6am (it was 11:20). He seemed so tired, and I was going to walk him back to his apartment, but I was meeting Steph at the lib.
ANI50 was kinda scary because they were all first years (what makes them scarier is that they're so outgoing). Also, there's hecka transfers. There's only one other 2nd year I think, but I don't talk to him~ I don't need to spend much for this class either because I'm not buying the kit, since it's not required.
Spent time at the library, saw Mouk bboying outside; that boy still thinks I'm Julia/e. Took my "First Day of School" class photo in both ANI28 & 50, omg Dave Chai xD I got kinda awk (to myself) when Uli came into 28, like did we have eye contact when he was at the door & me from the back of the room? Bc when I was coming to class, he was scootering by, but I pretended I didn't see, but out of the corner of my eye, I feel like he last-minute knew it was me & turned back a bit. Is he and Ray TAs for my 28? Hm.
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Today I tried to crash ANI 12, but wow, it was packed so I didn't bother to try. After buying the paper, I just went home and went back to sleep. I woke up around 1:19 to eat and go to my 3pm class. Class was kinda boring... lol
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I forgot to blog about Welcome Week Kickoff! which was Tues I think? Well that day Nancy was going to look for her classes so Jen came over, since she was off too. So we went and got some free stuff; watched my bbys Pitch, Please, perform~ & Pride of the Islands perform too. I'm so sad Hip Hop didn't perform... Oh yeah, at one point I was walking around alone & happened upon Pride's booth. Manny saw me & started walking over so I walked over & he gave me a hug. Talked very little & I left. When did we become good friends? haha. At the end of the day, we were sitting on a bench, waiting for PINK's raffle(?), and SHM were cleaning up their booth so some of them were leaving. I saw Uli~ okay, I saw that they were going to be walking past us, but I didn't want to stare at them as they do. Man, it was kinda awk (to my conscious self) bc I pretended to look away then back at them. Uli saw me and waved & I said "hi~" and waved, but his friend Ray was blocking him a lil (Uli's kinda small 'kay LOL) and I don't think he knew I was waving to Uli bc he awkwardly waved back LOL Kyaaa~ missed his adorkable smile ^///^

Yesterday I was uploading Pride's performance, so I was looking at the Running Man vids from before, and thought I'd send out to the respective "actors" LOL so I Snapchatted to them. Michael got back to me pretty fast lol Then he suddenly messaged "hey i wanna see u and biri soon" and I seriously went 두근두근 haha but I was so happy he missed us! haha 'cause I really missed him & everyone else~ (At Target night, while waiting in line, we saw Andres! omgeeee~) and he was like should he come over now --it was like 10pm-- and I told him Biri said he should come tonight and he said "haha ok ill go". d'awwww~ so he brought his roommate, who is also his high school(?) friend, Van (I feel like it's spelled like Vahn or something haha). He was pretty nice~ and not shy? haha They chatted in Biri's room for quite some time, then came in to our room to watch the video. And then I walked them out; Van was having trouble opening the door haha. I wanted to give them a hug before they left, but psh, his back was to me the whole time. Awww I missed him a lot keke It was just nice seeing him again~ [[I didn't finish typing but I left off at "oh yeah" but I don't know what I was going to keep writing about.... o.o]]
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[12am] There was a 12th floor reunion at Zeke's apt dorm, but when we got there, it was just Zeke's usual friends. The people I hoped to see weren't there, so it wasn't really a reunion. It was great to see Zeke again! Aww, I missed him. They were drinking & smoking. The RAs knocked, and I was worried we were gonna get in trouble, but they just wanted them to turn down the volume. Zeke though *insert laughing-crying emoji* He rushed to hide the bottle lol We didn't stay too long, maybe half an hour at most? But he asked if we had class. When I told him my class started at 8:30, he was like, "GIRL. What are you doing here then?" (read with emphasis on each word haha) & I told him it's because I wanted to see them & he was like aww xD When we left he gave me a really tight hug~ ^w^ To be honest though, I was really awkward with them, because other than Dario & Zeke, I'm not that close with Sarah or Leilani. I felt bad because it felt like LeAnn & Biri couldn't stay & party as "free" as they wanted. Oh yeah, before we went, Biri was craving ice cream, so she hooked us up at Cream. Her co-worker was super nice & wow. Big scoops xD He was super outgoing & really funny too~

Wow this post went on for way too long since I just felt like writing today. I think I missed out some stuff... (apparently in the paragraph before this) Maybe it was someone else I saw? I really shouldn't see people I miss. Because before seeing them, I'll just be thinking 'oh I kinda miss them' but when I see them and we say bye, I start to miss them a lot more LOL well, early morning class tomorrow with Sheldon. Need to shower. I think I cut down on a lot of my thoughts since Kickoff. I'll also need to post about some "internal struggle/thoughts" of mine since living here at the apt.

Ugh, I want to update so badly, but I need to sleep! I still need to read that darn book for history.... I'm splitting the rent price of the textbook with LeAnn, but we also need to get those other supplementary readings... (which reminds me, LeAnn said someone gave her a mint-colored mouse (or a mouse that was my style) & that I could have it if I wanted. I would, if I liked it (I haven't seen it), but I'd feel bad just accepting it from her, even though she didn't pay for it... but yeah. Maybe I'll hold off 'til I really need to buy a new one? even this mouse of mine, that I apparently loved, the cap keeps popping off)
I was just shopping for some ART stuff. Trying to buy cheap since I don't need to spend as much this semester... I don't think so at least...

1st day of class was pretty good, but why do I feel like I'm forgetting to upload stuff online already... hm... Ugh. It's late & I didn't sleep last night bc I was paranoid about waking up late, nervous for class, & nervous about my M being here > >

Right now, we're all chilling in the new opened TeenHQ, but just got told that the room is for 12-18yo (luckily I'm still 18 haha) but that's so inconvenient hmph. Me and Steph just moved in this Saturday. We cleaned up quite well hehe I still have a box of my trash to deal with, but I'm doing the best I can with the limited space (no desk) of mine. Biri came back from home this morning & LeAnn moved in Sunday. I really hate our shower ugh. The water pressure is so low that I can't even lather enough shampoo into my hair -.- Been busy with doing lots of stuff before school starts (ie. Steph & her cards, SJSU welcome week events, etc); school starts in 2 days! I really don't like my schedule...? well, not until I get ANI 12, but it doesn't seem like I will bc his class is full... we'll see I guess. If I don't get that class, then I don't start my Tues/Thur 'til 3pm. I guess I'll get a job? Well, Steph keeps telling me I should get a job. She's making me applyyyyy >~<

I was right: I won't remember what I want to say about "DmmD" or Love & Gelato lol but after reading L&G, it makes me want to visit Italy. They made Italy sound really pretty. But I mean, it must be lols On a side note, I finally got to satisfy my café coffee+cake at Empresso. I got my latte art; it was a small cup, but it looked medium. I was so full after the coffee. It was pretty good actually. The cake was disappointing; pfft, seeing all those professionally made cakes in AB made me have high expectations xD

I guess I'll finally end things.
Well, back to the story about that sudden Pokémon outing with Lee & his friend Alvin (let me mention that Alvin was really nice! That was what I thought when I got into the car-- okay, I said he was cool in the first 2 minutes I was in the car LOL-- He reminded me so much of Clarence. When Lee was going to take us home, he asked me if I wanted to sit in the front. I said it was fine & that he could sit back in the front. He said 'are you sure?' hehe) To be honest, I thought it was going to be really awk; it was only slightly awk, I mean, Lee even left me with Alvin at one point while we were catching Pokémon. Then Alvin said, "do you wanna go now, or stay here forever?" haha we went after Lee though. Then that same night, Robin came to pick me up. We went to watch Pete's Dragon & then went to eat at In n' Out. Hanging out with both of them in one day gave me a chance to "evaluate"? I guess? lol and there really wasn't much; it's bc I knew Robin for 4 years. We went to the same school, had the same class. So I felt more free to talk to him, but the way he talks gives me so much pressure. I even told this to Jessica and them, when we had flan at her place. It was really hard to bring up bc it's an awkward topic lol and I don't know what I wanted to achieve by telling them. Lee doesn't try; Robin tries too hard. I'm just so done. But after that day, I finally made up my mind (in like 2 days) to cut Robin off. If he wants to stay friends, that's fine. He keeps persisting on something more, well, I guess 'being friends' is off the list. I guess me unconsciously mentioning going out with Lee & his friend was my way of telling him he's just like any other guy FRIEND I have. Mom teased me about hanging out with too many guys haha Jojo claims I'm cheating bc I'm going out with both of them pft. (I already forgot about the so-called "other day" lol)
But at least I came to a sort-of conclusion.
I really need to get myself a boyfriend... -.-

On another side note, I'm almost done with Bakuman! ! I'm kinda sad... haha guess it's time for the anime~

Hm. I just keep putting off the idea of writing here. I'm so lazy. Everything is piling up so that there's gonna be such a loooong post. Well, I finished DRAMAtical Murder. The ending... I can't believe I teared a bit and wanted to cry :'( but it was still really good. So happy for Aoba; for a second I really thought Ren was gone. The ending when Virus & Trip calls him again, I really couldn't figure out why he called "Sei" Ren. But after I looked up the Wiki, it made sense, but it made me wish Sei wasn't dead. I really like the song Clear sings; it's such a lullaby.
***now I'm here again, in the dark room, at 1:36am, searching desperately for the 2nd disc... only to find out his song was the last 3 songs in the drama CD omg I'm so dumb***
Any who. That relaxed me lol & it did lead me to more links~

Jim is in the dark too, applying for jobs? Aiyo, she works too hard. And dad is still so annoying. I hate it when she's already looking for jobs, and he comes over to see what she's doing and asks her is she looking for jobs. Is this the typical Asian (Chinese) pressure that I haven't felt "correctly"?
あーっ もうー. 面倒くさい -.-

Another thing I don't know why I'm doki doki for is Lee & Robin. (Well, I guess I know lols) Well, Robin wanted to hang tomorrow night. Of course I wouldn't mind. As a friend right? Then Lee texts me that he wanted to pick up his keychain tomorrow morning. The funny thing is, I'm messaging these 2 guys at the same; it's like I'm cheating on them (this will make sense when I post about the other day/yesterday) I kept trying to think... who is it I'm more comfortable with? To be honest... neither? lol Lee's always teasing me. Hmph. I don't know how to respondddd (bc I guess, sometimes I take his "jokes" literally? Iunno) Yet, it's not like he's always serious. If it had to come down to anything... L or R? At times like these, I wish I didn't feel like this... overthinking things & whatnot. It stresses me...
Welp. My eyes are starting to water because they're so dry. Time to sleep!

Originally I was going to post about rafting and then about DRAMAtical Murder, "Love & Gelato," and my guilt when I go on my art insta. (I think that was all...) I'm probably gonna forget about what I was going to say about the anime so far & what I thought about when I finished the book. I'll try though. Right now I'm feelin' a lil' sleepy so I shall sleep now.

My dolphin-sunburn hurts when I try to lift my arm.

Woops. I was driving sort of reckless today haha but no one got hurt! lol We sort of cleaned up in the morning then went out to buy Taco Bell for Jobee's lunch. We cleaned up some more at home. When Jo got home, we went to Wal-Mart to buy her notebook. I drove on the freeway. Gosh Jen being picky about my speed limit xD
Woke up early this morning, & happened to come up with so many theories for 24K's "Still 24K" MV LOL

Going rafting in Sac tomorrow! Coach asked about the bows, but I wasn't even close to done x'D Jim helped a bit, my slight OCD didn't allow me to let her do it LOL. After we finished the green set, I started on the yellow set while trying to finish Antique Bakery (K-drama). I did all 8 pew bows by myself. They all looked better than the green set that we finished, probably because I was on a roll~ & the 2nd glitter tulle I used wasn't as stiff and "sticky" as the 1st one I used; a lot softer. So the yellow bows definitely looked nicer. I finished in like 2hrs? Around 1am. Technically not done because I still need to tie the bows to the front; but I'll do that in the car tomorrow.

Welp. Jo is over here memorizing the 1st Amendment for journalism lol I will finish my drama finally~ while Robin is trying to figure out what to do because he wants to hangout before I go back to SJ. Lee needs to come by to pick up his keychain.... hm. Why do guys only take me to movies? LOLOL

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It's almost 3am right now & I just finished the drama! Omg the ending was really good~ well, better than the anime's ending. There was some explanation. Some translations that didn't really make sense in the anime, made sense in the movie (the scenes were pretty much identical).
I really like the café's interaction with each other when they found out he saved the kidnapped kid and he himself was fine; that was like some amazing friendship/acquaintance <3 Jinhyuk lets them have a group hug, but the group hug went on for too long that he pushed them off. As soon as he turned around, he ran! lol and the other 3 chased after him; that was so cute~
Apparently Jinhyuk was homophobic (as shown in the anime, since the drama didn't really say but hinted), and it's known that Sunwoo is afraid of women, and we also see that. At the end Sunwoo gave Jinhyuk a hug while greeting these 3 school girls who regularly come to the café; I really love how they both changed after going through everything together--Jinhyuk was less homophobic and Sunwoo was getting more comfortable around girls.
I think my favorite part was when they spent Christmas together; Jinhyuk says 'merry christmas' to them secretly outside the store & pretend to be all cool and stuff when they were celebrating. (Also when he went to make deliveries & he told them to be good boys & watch the store, Gibeom and Sunwoo gave him such cute smiles and waved him off <3)
It's crazy what a little makeup and new hairstyle could do. Seriously, when I watched the beginning, I was like these guys aren't cute & these aren't the same people... right?. After watching the ending, and they had school flashbacks, I realized the people were the same xD
Gibeom looked like Eric Nam when I first saw him; such a cutie. Guess who it was? Yoo Ah-in xD The child actor for young Jinhyuk was Yeo Jin-goo & wow, he's actually a pretty well-known actor now, too. (His wiki picture wasn't cute though) & Ju Ji-hoon, who played Jinhyuk reminds me of Road Boyz's Maca in some pics haha & Kim Jae-wook reminds me of Kangnam, especially at some angles in the movie.
Well, I shouldn't over-analyze or -comment about the drama. I think it was overall really good (except for some creepy/exorcisy effects... hehe...) <3 <3

Today I went out to Bon Mange with Jessica, Jessie, Steph, and Meimei. Afterward we went to Marshall's. There wasn't much to do so we eventually went home pretty soon.

School is starting soon; Jo is going to school tomorrow! So fast. I'm going soon too /cries. Guess no cover. Jim is coming home tomorrow nightttt~ (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡
I stayed up a little too late saving and looking up info on Dynamic Chord, which of course would lead me to different stuff. I happened upon Eight of Triangle, and their song "Adagio" is my favorite. I found them on Spotify today, and when I pushed play, it was the first song played! :D On a side note, Dynamic Chord's BGM is really nice. I only heard one, but I'm pretty sure all the other BGM are up to par~ wonder if they'll release some kind of BGM soundtrack CD...
So many albums/singles I want, but seems like Hikarinoakari won't have it or will be slow with it (when I will forget about it). But yeah. I have such a wide range of music taste....

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I just finished watching "Antique Bakery" (anime) & damn. The cakes looked so yummy! I seriously love vintage cafés/coffee shops. Why is it so hard to find oneeeee? Anyway, it was supposed to be shounen ai, but it wasn't much too be honest. It was only a little bit in the beginning, then it turned to wow cakes story, then leading to a traumatic kidnapping lol Overall I think it was pretty good, though it was really slow. I'ma watch the K-drama, but apparently, the J-TV series focused mostly on the bakery and their traumatizing backstories, so I'm not watching that. Really love the OP & ED too 

I woke up kinda late today. Watched Massugu ni Ikou, both seasons. They're cute lil' episodes & I cried at some parts, especially at Gen's episodes. It really gives you a dog's perspective, but how accurate it is. Well, who can say. I think I'ma go watch DRAMAtical Murder later.

I don't even know where to start haha Lessee. Well, where I left off; Nancy came to pick me and Jo up for badminton at SF. It's been a while since I've played~ still getting those corner shots ;D but still missing my drops hmph. Afterward we ate thai food. It was too late for desserts and Tong was already so tired. We packed up the cats and we came home.  2 days later we ended up going back to SF with them for the weekend (which was Wed-Fri).

-The night of Wed, there wasn't much to do but Jen took us to Mr.T café for "dinner" lol It was really cold and we were wearing shorts. We had to grab my camcorder from the car so we had to fight the wind and climb uphill lol
-Thurs. we woke up early bc Mocha was being loud and hungry, smacking her crunchie bag so we were up around 9:30. Pitch black in the room & Jo thought it was 6am LOL we went to Mr.T café for breakfast and I got my sea salt iced coffee. Mmm~ at first it was very bitter, almost like black coffee. After mixing it and letting it sit, it didn't taste as bitter. The after taste still tasted like black coffee though. I have a thing for coffee... lol Then we played at the playground. First time on see-saws! Jobee fell off omg that was hilarious xD and we did "practice" covers. When Jen got off, we went to play badminton. We get to see Jim's favorite "Benjamin" coach lol. Bc it was only us 4, we were going a little crazy. Apparently when 3 of us fell on the floor laughing, he and his assistant coach ((correction: apparently not assistant coach lol)) laughed at us. *shrugs* He was bored teaching his lil' beginner students; we were his only entertainment. He stared after us when we left o.o We had sushi for dinner~ Mmm~ I could barely finish my udon. First time eating raw fish too. I think it was salmon? But it was thin slice. We also took out dessert from Sweet Indulgences~
-Friday we didn't wake up as early. Mr.T café wasn't open. Did we eat anything? I can't remember. I only remember we drank soup. Then we went out to film my "Emptiness" cover. It was kinda rushed. Jen got off work early and brought us boxed sushi and bibimbap. Eating while dancing keke. After we finished, we headed off to Japantown~ Rushed around to different stores, trying not to waste time. Didn't buy stuff in the beginning. Nothing to buy at Daiso... we tried the Dragon's Breath and was pretty disappointed with it. Other than tasting like Froot Loops, the fog didn't last very long. And it was hard for me to puff much fog like other people (bc I don't vape! lol) It was cool at first, but we didn't even finish half of it before the fog was all gone. Of course, other than the vape, that thing was probably not worth the 4.99 (we got the small one). We looked at Kinokuniya and Maido (really good felting set was $20! > <). Things were too $$$. I wanted a purikura but after taking a look inside, I had a 2nd thought bc it actually was "too much" I guess you could say. We also bought a crepé but we should've gotten the animal one instead of Sophie's crepé :p Next time. We went downstairs to Kinokuniya's manga/anime part of the store. I got... so... tempted... I spent around $30-40 on a box of Uta no Prince-sama's posters, 3 keychains - one from Tsukiuta and another from K-project. Eep. They were pretty much $8.99 each. The poster box included 2 posters (if you realize that most anime merchandise are limited edition, it was a pretty good deal!)

*[After opening them, I'm quite happy with what I got; except for the K-project one. And Jim chose that one. She wasn't having a very lucky day LOL my Uta no Prince-sama, I got Syo and Ranmaru. I really wanted Ai, but luckily Ranmaru was my #2~ lol. I think I'm destined for pink; for Tsukiuta, I didn't really have a favorite other than wanting Rui bc Shouta voiced him, but I got Koi~ he's pink-haired and born in Feb~ I kinda wished I got another poster box instead of the K-project keychain... but eep! I want more! >x<]

We drove to Oakland bc that's where Dad picked us up. I drove the rest of the way home when we hit Tracy. I think it's been awhile since I've sat in my dad's car; it was so jerky. I had fallen asleep on the ride home and I just know my head's been lolling in every which way. 
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Jo's going back to school in like 2 days. Me, another a week or so. Kinda not ready? *shrug* Still debating over 12u or 15u. 4 ANI classes... I don't know if I can do it... It definitely means no job for me. I don't want to overestimate myself... I'm always thinking about my future... how it will be. I want it one way, but I always doubt that it'll happen. I surround myself with people who are really good and who are really into it to motivate me. Half the time, it just tells me I don't have the same passion as them; I can't do as well as them bc I don't have the talent & obviously too lazy to have the skill (well, it's just coming really slow). But since I chose this path, I guess I'll just have to see what lies at the end of the road. Just one day... I hope I get to realize all those lil' big dreams I have. Just one day... I hope all this money and time spent at school was worth it.
So little time but I need to meet up with POLARIS and gotta finish up Coach's stuff. She just messaged me today to ask me to felt her a penguin couple for her cake table. I also messaged Lee about his keychain & I guess he's picking it up some time. Another busy weekend ahead bc apparently I'm going rafting on Saturday. Still need to accept my finaid...
It's amazing I remembered so much still.

I don't want to be an adult yet... sigh
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On a side note, I want to watch that J-drama Minar watched. I keep telling myself I need a good cry & I still haven't gotten it! I still need to watch Hachiko Monogatari. 

So apparently my hives were because I pretty much overheated? lol Steph took me to SJ yesterday & the weather was a lot cooler. By the end of the trip, all my hives disappeared. I woke up this morning & they were permanently gone.

Me and Steph were accidentally matching! <3 lol When we got to SJ, we set up her bed frame and stuff. Then we waited for KG & went to get crepes with Biri too. It was really filling; not too sweet. Then we went to catch Pokemon on the way when we went grocery shopping with Biri. Steph's sister came to pick us up and we went to iTea. I'm still pretty full lol. We went to the Great Mall. After Marshall's, we went to Daiso. I think I splurged again. It's already 9pm and we went to a plaza for dinner, had shawarma for the 1st time. I got a pita bread one and I had to eat slowly. They had to wait a little bit for me lol It was pretty good. Then we went to Honey Berry because her sister wanted roti buns. Dude, the place smelled so good~ My hair ended up soaking it up.

I ate so much that day. Since I've only been eating mostly congee, I think my stomach was slow at digesting. I was so full still. Fell asleep on the ride back. Woke up when we gassed up. Thought we were in Stockton, but nope lols.
Going to SF tomorrow for badminton, wheee! :D

Today I finished 3 more bows for Coach. I also want to start crocheting. I bought UV resin, crochet hook, and a letter set at Daiso yesterday lol Fought with moths again after we fixed the vacuum cleaner. We had to unscrew the back bc we weren't able to remove the hose bc it was really stuck. Mom vacuumed a glove so it was clogged. We vacuumed a lot of moths but when we finished, more appeared > > War pt3 tomorrow...

Whoops. Didn't mean to, but my plan didn't work out lol
Got my coffee maker! And can make hot water~ wheee~
Got home, & ended up setting my printer up 'til class. Was going to go to the Pencil Lab, but I heard so many people inside I got scurred so didn't go. I think I need to go in the morning... sigh.

Emoji Clan aka Adrian, Samantha, Jenny, & Linda came to visit. Kinda awk, but not really? I had to leave for hip hop. Hip hop was fun! I met up with the other half of Tater Tots, but there's no meeting on Thursday because of the free concert SJ is holding. We danced to "Cold Water;" the dance was fairly easy! I'm so sore... wow... super rusty.
Me & Steph gymed yesterday too, just on the ellipticals for like 30min though.

Still need to catch up posts, but I forgot about this. Jim was annoyed/angry when she and Jen were going home, about her cats and whatnot. I guess they got home & were still angry & weren't talking to each other, because next thing I know, Jobee Kakoed me and said "... ting im scareeddddddddd" and like what is she scared of? Because them two were hangry. Y'ALL SCARED THE BBY. She said she was gonna die, & I told her to just be a good girl haha

Welp. I'm getting super distracted. I should hurry & do homework. I'm excited about my light board that's coming in Thursday~ Waiting for my books to come in & to pick up the cork strips. Still working on that future of mine. Apparently choosing a concentration helps with advising; I think I'll go with animation... though vis dev seems fun too (modeling, character design, background etc; the creative side)

I think I'm already stressing out. I'm already lagging behind a bit (actually caught up today) so let's keep working hard. I want to get on the ball this semester. I just submitted an application to On the Fourth by the way. I'm super scared if I even get the interview.

On a side note, I bought a coffee maker + grounds + creamer~ *sigh* This is why I need money. I don't even know if I can work? because 3rd semester is coming up, which means portfolio review leading to only 2 studios recommended for future semesters, leading up to BFA. Wow. BFA. Seems so close *insert crying emoji* but there's still a lot of work to do. Which also means, somewhere in my 3rd/4th year summer, I should be working toward an internship... My future is so... dark. I don't know what lies in wait, but I mean, no one does really, right? Right now, I'm stuck with deciding between animation and visual development. I can't decide because I'm interested in both. But I should focus on the NOW. I have so much on my mind, so much to do. I need to FOCUS.
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So far, living in the apartment has been great. I still find some moments awkward with everyone. Yes, even Steph, but with her, I'm not as tense?-ish. We all cook our own food, sometimes sharing. We deal with our own stuff. Lately, I've been out with Steph more than with the other 2, too. Laundry stole all my quarters ($4 total!). Learned to cook ramen for myself though! I think it's better because it's an electric stove. I should learn to cook stuff, but where's the time? I was so tempted to buy some sushi molds & whatnot at Daiso; I want to make bento rice/sushi/triangle onigiri etc, but I know I won't have time too (also, that I won't really at the moment).
My table is still a mess; I can't really clean up 'til I get my cork strips and going home to get some Command hooks etc. I got my 1TB external drive today from Best Buy; super happy because I cleaned out my laptop! for the most part lol. Can you believe? Almost 200GB in the drive. There's still quite a bit of stuff in my laptop, but I don't think it'll be much stuff that I would want on an external drive. I downloaded LoL. I don't know if it can run at speed though LOL

I really want to sleep right now, but LoL is still updating. I guess I'll leave it on. Heading out to Target tomorrow! I have so much going on, physically & mentally, that I don't even think I wrote down everything I was thinking about (which is every time I'm updating), but I sure do need to catch up on a few things that happened over the weekend.
Also, today was embarrassing because Michael & I had a super awkward encounter! >///< "I'm embarrassed for life" --quote from my rant text to Steph haha. I said hi to him, but even before we were next to each other, to passing each other, you can feel there's a hesitation and indecisiveness of whether we should stop and talk to each other. He took out his earphone, but didn't stop so what was up with that? LOL because I kinda slowed & literally watched him walk by me. I WATCHED HIS BACK, for like 2 seconds lol.
Steph's tummy is growling haha anyway, off to sleep for me~

Yes my baby~ I ended up buying his songs kill me nowww. Maybe around $4-5 total? His EP costed aroud $3.96, but that's all that shows up on my billing so I don't know. I was able to download one song from his Weibo (& I think it was free), but not the other, so I ripped it off YT, along with one other song. Another song I happened upon was hard to find, but I managed to find a Yukou link so I ripped the audio off that, but for some reason it's 7 min.. so I need to cut off some of it. Then I had to rip both of Meng Rui's song from YT. I found NINETY NINE'S Hibernation through a forum, & I managed to get his(?) whole album. I need to reorganize my music; rename and whatnot. [[I just ripped the instrumental of "Dream," & it is also 7min? But if I let it play, it plays correctly & at the end it's just silence 'til 7min are up. Once I scrub anywhere, it plays. Hmph. This isn't the first time.]] Also, gotta watch their fanmeets/interviews/backstages etc omgeeee
P.S. While on music, let me mention that Love Live 5th Stage finally released on DVD so now I'm just waiting for download; omgeeee watching the concerts always gets me so happy~~~

I'm sad that I can't have any of IVVY's songs.... they only have 1 EP & 1 single on iTunes store... ToT

**Next task is to download his videos where he performed various songs on the show, & to rip them too.
Because he sang this song, I looked up the original~ Check it out here~ Here's my baby here~ Too bad he didn't sing the full 3-4min of the song :p

On a side note, Adobe is freakin' messin' with me D:< The person who helped ended up not really understanding what I was asking for (I just read the e-mail today; I was assuming I was getting an e-mail by tomorrow). Which means I need to re-"purchase" Adobe, but it's not letting me because it says I'm not a student... I don't know if it's because I need to be using campus Wi-fi, but that shouldn't be the case. I could add the item to cart yesterday, when I was on campus though, so I'ma try tomorrow.
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Went to the ART building to do my animation. Yay~ first simple animation~ but sad I drew twice the number of needed frames so I wasted those extra pieces of paper ToT Afterward, me & Steph had Pizza My Heart for dinner. It was really good~ My gum really hurts; I don't know if it's because my wisdom tooth is coming out? But it's swollen & hurts ToT
I didn't write much about today, but hope I didn't forget to write about what I wanted (ie. about the music & stuff, which I did).
Wow, much distracted. Haven't read for ANI 28, & forgot about daily sketches. Yikes!

OMG.
I just finished Uncontrollable Love 2. And omg. I hate this. Why is there an uncut version? Are they saving it for the happy ending version of the movie? Ugh. Now I got to wait. Maybe it'll be worth it...
It was such a rollercoaster watching it. The ending was sad, but not to the point where I cried. I teared, but not to the point where others were bawling their eyes out. Now I'm looking for their songs. I can find all of 王博文/Bowen Wang's but not 孟瑞/Meng Rui's. MR only has 2 songs, while BW has quite a few releases, but other than the iTunes one and the ones from TrackID, there are possibly a few more tracks that he released but I'd have to dig for.
His song "Dream" doesn't have an instrumental in the release, but they do play the whole thing at the end of the movie, so I'm probably going to try to rip it.

Ugh, I think I'ma end up buying his albums *insert laughing-crying emoji* HALP. MR's discography is too hard to look for; BW is hard too, but I think I found most of them. Anyway, I really need to sleep; this week since school started, I had to wake up around 7:30 because of my 8:30 classes ToT Gah, the OST is gonna haunt me nowwww. At least his albums aren't too expensive haha

So an update on how school's going. First day of school was on Wed, and it went pretty well. To be honest, it felt like I didn't sleep at all, because suddenly I got up and checked my phone and it was 5am. I knew I was rolling around a lot; it felt like it was really hot but then get cold. I think I may have been actually pretty nervous (refer to prev. post).
ANI 28 seemed pretty fun; I'm with a lot of my previous classmates. Not too many supplies needed, and not too expensive, but I have to buy this book that's pretty expensive if I bought new, but I bought a good used one. Twice, though, it got bought out before I ordered (I found a $18+ one, then a $19+, & ended up buying $24+ one). Then I tried to find a pretty cheap light table, & I did for about $31. Hopefully it's good. Peg bar & Col-erase pencils at the Spartan bookstore for about $7, and animation paper for $14.14 (bought today, because they ran out on Wed). After class, I bumped into Thomas who just got off of work since 6am (it was 11:20). He seemed so tired, and I was going to walk him back to his apartment, but I was meeting Steph at the lib.
ANI50 was kinda scary because they were all first years (what makes them scarier is that they're so outgoing). Also, there's hecka transfers. There's only one other 2nd year I think, but I don't talk to him~ I don't need to spend much for this class either because I'm not buying the kit, since it's not required.
Spent time at the library, saw Mouk bboying outside; that boy still thinks I'm Julia/e. Took my "First Day of School" class photo in both ANI28 & 50, omg Dave Chai xD I got kinda awk (to myself) when Uli came into 28, like did we have eye contact when he was at the door & me from the back of the room? Bc when I was coming to class, he was scootering by, but I pretended I didn't see, but out of the corner of my eye, I feel like he last-minute knew it was me & turned back a bit. Is he and Ray TAs for my 28? Hm.
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Today I tried to crash ANI 12, but wow, it was packed so I didn't bother to try. After buying the paper, I just went home and went back to sleep. I woke up around 1:19 to eat and go to my 3pm class. Class was kinda boring... lol
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I forgot to blog about Welcome Week Kickoff! which was Tues I think? Well that day Nancy was going to look for her classes so Jen came over, since she was off too. So we went and got some free stuff; watched my bbys Pitch, Please, perform~ & Pride of the Islands perform too. I'm so sad Hip Hop didn't perform... Oh yeah, at one point I was walking around alone & happened upon Pride's booth. Manny saw me & started walking over so I walked over & he gave me a hug. Talked very little & I left. When did we become good friends? haha. At the end of the day, we were sitting on a bench, waiting for PINK's raffle(?), and SHM were cleaning up their booth so some of them were leaving. I saw Uli~ okay, I saw that they were going to be walking past us, but I didn't want to stare at them as they do. Man, it was kinda awk (to my conscious self) bc I pretended to look away then back at them. Uli saw me and waved & I said "hi~" and waved, but his friend Ray was blocking him a lil (Uli's kinda small 'kay LOL) and I don't think he knew I was waving to Uli bc he awkwardly waved back LOL Kyaaa~ missed his adorkable smile ^///^

Yesterday I was uploading Pride's performance, so I was looking at the Running Man vids from before, and thought I'd send out to the respective "actors" LOL so I Snapchatted to them. Michael got back to me pretty fast lol Then he suddenly messaged "hey i wanna see u and biri soon" and I seriously went 두근두근 haha but I was so happy he missed us! haha 'cause I really missed him & everyone else~ (At Target night, while waiting in line, we saw Andres! omgeeee~) and he was like should he come over now --it was like 10pm-- and I told him Biri said he should come tonight and he said "haha ok ill go". d'awwww~ so he brought his roommate, who is also his high school(?) friend, Van (I feel like it's spelled like Vahn or something haha). He was pretty nice~ and not shy? haha They chatted in Biri's room for quite some time, then came in to our room to watch the video. And then I walked them out; Van was having trouble opening the door haha. I wanted to give them a hug before they left, but psh, his back was to me the whole time. Awww I missed him a lot keke It was just nice seeing him again~ [[I didn't finish typing but I left off at "oh yeah" but I don't know what I was going to keep writing about.... o.o]]
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[12am] There was a 12th floor reunion at Zeke's apt dorm, but when we got there, it was just Zeke's usual friends. The people I hoped to see weren't there, so it wasn't really a reunion. It was great to see Zeke again! Aww, I missed him. They were drinking & smoking. The RAs knocked, and I was worried we were gonna get in trouble, but they just wanted them to turn down the volume. Zeke though *insert laughing-crying emoji* He rushed to hide the bottle lol We didn't stay too long, maybe half an hour at most? But he asked if we had class. When I told him my class started at 8:30, he was like, "GIRL. What are you doing here then?" (read with emphasis on each word haha) & I told him it's because I wanted to see them & he was like aww xD When we left he gave me a really tight hug~ ^w^ To be honest though, I was really awkward with them, because other than Dario & Zeke, I'm not that close with Sarah or Leilani. I felt bad because it felt like LeAnn & Biri couldn't stay & party as "free" as they wanted. Oh yeah, before we went, Biri was craving ice cream, so she hooked us up at Cream. Her co-worker was super nice & wow. Big scoops xD He was super outgoing & really funny too~

Wow this post went on for way too long since I just felt like writing today. I think I missed out some stuff... (apparently in the paragraph before this) Maybe it was someone else I saw? I really shouldn't see people I miss. Because before seeing them, I'll just be thinking 'oh I kinda miss them' but when I see them and we say bye, I start to miss them a lot more LOL well, early morning class tomorrow with Sheldon. Need to shower. I think I cut down on a lot of my thoughts since Kickoff. I'll also need to post about some "internal struggle/thoughts" of mine since living here at the apt.

Ugh, I want to update so badly, but I need to sleep! I still need to read that darn book for history.... I'm splitting the rent price of the textbook with LeAnn, but we also need to get those other supplementary readings... (which reminds me, LeAnn said someone gave her a mint-colored mouse (or a mouse that was my style) & that I could have it if I wanted. I would, if I liked it (I haven't seen it), but I'd feel bad just accepting it from her, even though she didn't pay for it... but yeah. Maybe I'll hold off 'til I really need to buy a new one? even this mouse of mine, that I apparently loved, the cap keeps popping off)
I was just shopping for some ART stuff. Trying to buy cheap since I don't need to spend as much this semester... I don't think so at least...

1st day of class was pretty good, but why do I feel like I'm forgetting to upload stuff online already... hm... Ugh. It's late & I didn't sleep last night bc I was paranoid about waking up late, nervous for class, & nervous about my M being here > >

Right now, we're all chilling in the new opened TeenHQ, but just got told that the room is for 12-18yo (luckily I'm still 18 haha) but that's so inconvenient hmph. Me and Steph just moved in this Saturday. We cleaned up quite well hehe I still have a box of my trash to deal with, but I'm doing the best I can with the limited space (no desk) of mine. Biri came back from home this morning & LeAnn moved in Sunday. I really hate our shower ugh. The water pressure is so low that I can't even lather enough shampoo into my hair -.- Been busy with doing lots of stuff before school starts (ie. Steph & her cards, SJSU welcome week events, etc); school starts in 2 days! I really don't like my schedule...? well, not until I get ANI 12, but it doesn't seem like I will bc his class is full... we'll see I guess. If I don't get that class, then I don't start my Tues/Thur 'til 3pm. I guess I'll get a job? Well, Steph keeps telling me I should get a job. She's making me applyyyyy >~<

I was right: I won't remember what I want to say about "DmmD" or Love & Gelato lol but after reading L&G, it makes me want to visit Italy. They made Italy sound really pretty. But I mean, it must be lols On a side note, I finally got to satisfy my café coffee+cake at Empresso. I got my latte art; it was a small cup, but it looked medium. I was so full after the coffee. It was pretty good actually. The cake was disappointing; pfft, seeing all those professionally made cakes in AB made me have high expectations xD

I guess I'll finally end things.
Well, back to the story about that sudden Pokémon outing with Lee & his friend Alvin (let me mention that Alvin was really nice! That was what I thought when I got into the car-- okay, I said he was cool in the first 2 minutes I was in the car LOL-- He reminded me so much of Clarence. When Lee was going to take us home, he asked me if I wanted to sit in the front. I said it was fine & that he could sit back in the front. He said 'are you sure?' hehe) To be honest, I thought it was going to be really awk; it was only slightly awk, I mean, Lee even left me with Alvin at one point while we were catching Pokémon. Then Alvin said, "do you wanna go now, or stay here forever?" haha we went after Lee though. Then that same night, Robin came to pick me up. We went to watch Pete's Dragon & then went to eat at In n' Out. Hanging out with both of them in one day gave me a chance to "evaluate"? I guess? lol and there really wasn't much; it's bc I knew Robin for 4 years. We went to the same school, had the same class. So I felt more free to talk to him, but the way he talks gives me so much pressure. I even told this to Jessica and them, when we had flan at her place. It was really hard to bring up bc it's an awkward topic lol and I don't know what I wanted to achieve by telling them. Lee doesn't try; Robin tries too hard. I'm just so done. But after that day, I finally made up my mind (in like 2 days) to cut Robin off. If he wants to stay friends, that's fine. He keeps persisting on something more, well, I guess 'being friends' is off the list. I guess me unconsciously mentioning going out with Lee & his friend was my way of telling him he's just like any other guy FRIEND I have. Mom teased me about hanging out with too many guys haha Jojo claims I'm cheating bc I'm going out with both of them pft. (I already forgot about the so-called "other day" lol)
But at least I came to a sort-of conclusion.
I really need to get myself a boyfriend... -.-

On another side note, I'm almost done with Bakuman! ! I'm kinda sad... haha guess it's time for the anime~

Hm. I just keep putting off the idea of writing here. I'm so lazy. Everything is piling up so that there's gonna be such a loooong post. Well, I finished DRAMAtical Murder. The ending... I can't believe I teared a bit and wanted to cry :'( but it was still really good. So happy for Aoba; for a second I really thought Ren was gone. The ending when Virus & Trip calls him again, I really couldn't figure out why he called "Sei" Ren. But after I looked up the Wiki, it made sense, but it made me wish Sei wasn't dead. I really like the song Clear sings; it's such a lullaby.
***now I'm here again, in the dark room, at 1:36am, searching desperately for the 2nd disc... only to find out his song was the last 3 songs in the drama CD omg I'm so dumb***
Any who. That relaxed me lol & it did lead me to more links~

Jim is in the dark too, applying for jobs? Aiyo, she works too hard. And dad is still so annoying. I hate it when she's already looking for jobs, and he comes over to see what she's doing and asks her is she looking for jobs. Is this the typical Asian (Chinese) pressure that I haven't felt "correctly"?
あーっ もうー. 面倒くさい -.-

Another thing I don't know why I'm doki doki for is Lee & Robin. (Well, I guess I know lols) Well, Robin wanted to hang tomorrow night. Of course I wouldn't mind. As a friend right? Then Lee texts me that he wanted to pick up his keychain tomorrow morning. The funny thing is, I'm messaging these 2 guys at the same; it's like I'm cheating on them (this will make sense when I post about the other day/yesterday) I kept trying to think... who is it I'm more comfortable with? To be honest... neither? lol Lee's always teasing me. Hmph. I don't know how to respondddd (bc I guess, sometimes I take his "jokes" literally? Iunno) Yet, it's not like he's always serious. If it had to come down to anything... L or R? At times like these, I wish I didn't feel like this... overthinking things & whatnot. It stresses me...
Welp. My eyes are starting to water because they're so dry. Time to sleep!

Originally I was going to post about rafting and then about DRAMAtical Murder, "Love & Gelato," and my guilt when I go on my art insta. (I think that was all...) I'm probably gonna forget about what I was going to say about the anime so far & what I thought about when I finished the book. I'll try though. Right now I'm feelin' a lil' sleepy so I shall sleep now.

My dolphin-sunburn hurts when I try to lift my arm.

Woops. I was driving sort of reckless today haha but no one got hurt! lol We sort of cleaned up in the morning then went out to buy Taco Bell for Jobee's lunch. We cleaned up some more at home. When Jo got home, we went to Wal-Mart to buy her notebook. I drove on the freeway. Gosh Jen being picky about my speed limit xD
Woke up early this morning, & happened to come up with so many theories for 24K's "Still 24K" MV LOL

Going rafting in Sac tomorrow! Coach asked about the bows, but I wasn't even close to done x'D Jim helped a bit, my slight OCD didn't allow me to let her do it LOL. After we finished the green set, I started on the yellow set while trying to finish Antique Bakery (K-drama). I did all 8 pew bows by myself. They all looked better than the green set that we finished, probably because I was on a roll~ & the 2nd glitter tulle I used wasn't as stiff and "sticky" as the 1st one I used; a lot softer. So the yellow bows definitely looked nicer. I finished in like 2hrs? Around 1am. Technically not done because I still need to tie the bows to the front; but I'll do that in the car tomorrow.

Welp. Jo is over here memorizing the 1st Amendment for journalism lol I will finish my drama finally~ while Robin is trying to figure out what to do because he wants to hangout before I go back to SJ. Lee needs to come by to pick up his keychain.... hm. Why do guys only take me to movies? LOLOL

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It's almost 3am right now & I just finished the drama! Omg the ending was really good~ well, better than the anime's ending. There was some explanation. Some translations that didn't really make sense in the anime, made sense in the movie (the scenes were pretty much identical).
I really like the café's interaction with each other when they found out he saved the kidnapped kid and he himself was fine; that was like some amazing friendship/acquaintance <3 Jinhyuk lets them have a group hug, but the group hug went on for too long that he pushed them off. As soon as he turned around, he ran! lol and the other 3 chased after him; that was so cute~
Apparently Jinhyuk was homophobic (as shown in the anime, since the drama didn't really say but hinted), and it's known that Sunwoo is afraid of women, and we also see that. At the end Sunwoo gave Jinhyuk a hug while greeting these 3 school girls who regularly come to the café; I really love how they both changed after going through everything together--Jinhyuk was less homophobic and Sunwoo was getting more comfortable around girls.
I think my favorite part was when they spent Christmas together; Jinhyuk says 'merry christmas' to them secretly outside the store & pretend to be all cool and stuff when they were celebrating. (Also when he went to make deliveries & he told them to be good boys & watch the store, Gibeom and Sunwoo gave him such cute smiles and waved him off <3)
It's crazy what a little makeup and new hairstyle could do. Seriously, when I watched the beginning, I was like these guys aren't cute & these aren't the same people... right?. After watching the ending, and they had school flashbacks, I realized the people were the same xD
Gibeom looked like Eric Nam when I first saw him; such a cutie. Guess who it was? Yoo Ah-in xD The child actor for young Jinhyuk was Yeo Jin-goo & wow, he's actually a pretty well-known actor now, too. (His wiki picture wasn't cute though) & Ju Ji-hoon, who played Jinhyuk reminds me of Road Boyz's Maca in some pics haha & Kim Jae-wook reminds me of Kangnam, especially at some angles in the movie.
Well, I shouldn't over-analyze or -comment about the drama. I think it was overall really good (except for some creepy/exorcisy effects... hehe...) <3 <3

Today I went out to Bon Mange with Jessica, Jessie, Steph, and Meimei. Afterward we went to Marshall's. There wasn't much to do so we eventually went home pretty soon.

School is starting soon; Jo is going to school tomorrow! So fast. I'm going soon too /cries. Guess no cover. Jim is coming home tomorrow nightttt~ (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡
I stayed up a little too late saving and looking up info on Dynamic Chord, which of course would lead me to different stuff. I happened upon Eight of Triangle, and their song "Adagio" is my favorite. I found them on Spotify today, and when I pushed play, it was the first song played! :D On a side note, Dynamic Chord's BGM is really nice. I only heard one, but I'm pretty sure all the other BGM are up to par~ wonder if they'll release some kind of BGM soundtrack CD...
So many albums/singles I want, but seems like Hikarinoakari won't have it or will be slow with it (when I will forget about it). But yeah. I have such a wide range of music taste....

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I just finished watching "Antique Bakery" (anime) & damn. The cakes looked so yummy! I seriously love vintage cafés/coffee shops. Why is it so hard to find oneeeee? Anyway, it was supposed to be shounen ai, but it wasn't much too be honest. It was only a little bit in the beginning, then it turned to wow cakes story, then leading to a traumatic kidnapping lol Overall I think it was pretty good, though it was really slow. I'ma watch the K-drama, but apparently, the J-TV series focused mostly on the bakery and their traumatizing backstories, so I'm not watching that. Really love the OP & ED too 

I woke up kinda late today. Watched Massugu ni Ikou, both seasons. They're cute lil' episodes & I cried at some parts, especially at Gen's episodes. It really gives you a dog's perspective, but how accurate it is. Well, who can say. I think I'ma go watch DRAMAtical Murder later.

I don't even know where to start haha Lessee. Well, where I left off; Nancy came to pick me and Jo up for badminton at SF. It's been a while since I've played~ still getting those corner shots ;D but still missing my drops hmph. Afterward we ate thai food. It was too late for desserts and Tong was already so tired. We packed up the cats and we came home.  2 days later we ended up going back to SF with them for the weekend (which was Wed-Fri).

-The night of Wed, there wasn't much to do but Jen took us to Mr.T café for "dinner" lol It was really cold and we were wearing shorts. We had to grab my camcorder from the car so we had to fight the wind and climb uphill lol
-Thurs. we woke up early bc Mocha was being loud and hungry, smacking her crunchie bag so we were up around 9:30. Pitch black in the room & Jo thought it was 6am LOL we went to Mr.T café for breakfast and I got my sea salt iced coffee. Mmm~ at first it was very bitter, almost like black coffee. After mixing it and letting it sit, it didn't taste as bitter. The after taste still tasted like black coffee though. I have a thing for coffee... lol Then we played at the playground. First time on see-saws! Jobee fell off omg that was hilarious xD and we did "practice" covers. When Jen got off, we went to play badminton. We get to see Jim's favorite "Benjamin" coach lol. Bc it was only us 4, we were going a little crazy. Apparently when 3 of us fell on the floor laughing, he and his assistant coach ((correction: apparently not assistant coach lol)) laughed at us. *shrugs* He was bored teaching his lil' beginner students; we were his only entertainment. He stared after us when we left o.o We had sushi for dinner~ Mmm~ I could barely finish my udon. First time eating raw fish too. I think it was salmon? But it was thin slice. We also took out dessert from Sweet Indulgences~
-Friday we didn't wake up as early. Mr.T café wasn't open. Did we eat anything? I can't remember. I only remember we drank soup. Then we went out to film my "Emptiness" cover. It was kinda rushed. Jen got off work early and brought us boxed sushi and bibimbap. Eating while dancing keke. After we finished, we headed off to Japantown~ Rushed around to different stores, trying not to waste time. Didn't buy stuff in the beginning. Nothing to buy at Daiso... we tried the Dragon's Breath and was pretty disappointed with it. Other than tasting like Froot Loops, the fog didn't last very long. And it was hard for me to puff much fog like other people (bc I don't vape! lol) It was cool at first, but we didn't even finish half of it before the fog was all gone. Of course, other than the vape, that thing was probably not worth the 4.99 (we got the small one). We looked at Kinokuniya and Maido (really good felting set was $20! > <). Things were too $$$. I wanted a purikura but after taking a look inside, I had a 2nd thought bc it actually was "too much" I guess you could say. We also bought a crepé but we should've gotten the animal one instead of Sophie's crepé :p Next time. We went downstairs to Kinokuniya's manga/anime part of the store. I got... so... tempted... I spent around $30-40 on a box of Uta no Prince-sama's posters, 3 keychains - one from Tsukiuta and another from K-project. Eep. They were pretty much $8.99 each. The poster box included 2 posters (if you realize that most anime merchandise are limited edition, it was a pretty good deal!)

*[After opening them, I'm quite happy with what I got; except for the K-project one. And Jim chose that one. She wasn't having a very lucky day LOL my Uta no Prince-sama, I got Syo and Ranmaru. I really wanted Ai, but luckily Ranmaru was my #2~ lol. I think I'm destined for pink; for Tsukiuta, I didn't really have a favorite other than wanting Rui bc Shouta voiced him, but I got Koi~ he's pink-haired and born in Feb~ I kinda wished I got another poster box instead of the K-project keychain... but eep! I want more! >x<]

We drove to Oakland bc that's where Dad picked us up. I drove the rest of the way home when we hit Tracy. I think it's been awhile since I've sat in my dad's car; it was so jerky. I had fallen asleep on the ride home and I just know my head's been lolling in every which way. 
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Jo's going back to school in like 2 days. Me, another a week or so. Kinda not ready? *shrug* Still debating over 12u or 15u. 4 ANI classes... I don't know if I can do it... It definitely means no job for me. I don't want to overestimate myself... I'm always thinking about my future... how it will be. I want it one way, but I always doubt that it'll happen. I surround myself with people who are really good and who are really into it to motivate me. Half the time, it just tells me I don't have the same passion as them; I can't do as well as them bc I don't have the talent & obviously too lazy to have the skill (well, it's just coming really slow). But since I chose this path, I guess I'll just have to see what lies at the end of the road. Just one day... I hope I get to realize all those lil' big dreams I have. Just one day... I hope all this money and time spent at school was worth it.
So little time but I need to meet up with POLARIS and gotta finish up Coach's stuff. She just messaged me today to ask me to felt her a penguin couple for her cake table. I also messaged Lee about his keychain & I guess he's picking it up some time. Another busy weekend ahead bc apparently I'm going rafting on Saturday. Still need to accept my finaid...
It's amazing I remembered so much still.

I don't want to be an adult yet... sigh
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On a side note, I want to watch that J-drama Minar watched. I keep telling myself I need a good cry & I still haven't gotten it! I still need to watch Hachiko Monogatari. 

So apparently my hives were because I pretty much overheated? lol Steph took me to SJ yesterday & the weather was a lot cooler. By the end of the trip, all my hives disappeared. I woke up this morning & they were permanently gone.

Me and Steph were accidentally matching! <3 lol When we got to SJ, we set up her bed frame and stuff. Then we waited for KG & went to get crepes with Biri too. It was really filling; not too sweet. Then we went to catch Pokemon on the way when we went grocery shopping with Biri. Steph's sister came to pick us up and we went to iTea. I'm still pretty full lol. We went to the Great Mall. After Marshall's, we went to Daiso. I think I splurged again. It's already 9pm and we went to a plaza for dinner, had shawarma for the 1st time. I got a pita bread one and I had to eat slowly. They had to wait a little bit for me lol It was pretty good. Then we went to Honey Berry because her sister wanted roti buns. Dude, the place smelled so good~ My hair ended up soaking it up.

I ate so much that day. Since I've only been eating mostly congee, I think my stomach was slow at digesting. I was so full still. Fell asleep on the ride back. Woke up when we gassed up. Thought we were in Stockton, but nope lols.
Going to SF tomorrow for badminton, wheee! :D

Today I finished 3 more bows for Coach. I also want to start crocheting. I bought UV resin, crochet hook, and a letter set at Daiso yesterday lol Fought with moths again after we fixed the vacuum cleaner. We had to unscrew the back bc we weren't able to remove the hose bc it was really stuck. Mom vacuumed a glove so it was clogged. We vacuumed a lot of moths but when we finished, more appeared > > War pt3 tomorrow...

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^

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