I wonder if this bipolar, hot and cold, weather is making people sick.

Mama seems to be getting a cold. I was weirdly sick yesterday.

TMI ahead...

This happened in the morning when I woke up. I was awake in bed and was fine, but I got up and out of nowhere I see the room spinning, as if my eyes were constantly rolling around, even though I was focused at a certain point. At first I thought maybe I just got up to fast or something, but then my throat/chest started feeling uncomfy, like I wanted to throw up.

I thought it'd go away, but it just got worse. I tried to gag and force myself to throw up but couldn't. I sat in front of the toilet, and at one point it was almost there! I felt it coming up! But I wasn't able to push it :(

So we went to do laundry (to dry our clothes). I was hoping the motion would make me feel so bad that I would want to throw up. It did make me feel worse LOL but it wasn't enough to make me throw up. I stayed in the car and kept gagging. Again! It was almost there! But I wasn't able to keep going. It went away. I went to start the dryer cycle again. Got back to the car and tried again after a break.

Finally. FINALLY. I was able to throw up into the plastic bag. I felt so much better afterward.

I thought it'd be gone, but when we got home I could feel it coming back. My vision wasn't spinning anymore but I still felt nauseous, so I took a super short shut eye. Got up to eat, but I really didn't want to eat anything. He made some chicken nuggets. Just smelling it and looking at it made me feel nauseous. I tried to eat one, but I really didn't want to stomach it. I ended up eating a lot of saltine crackers, Ritz crackers and some Chips Ahoy. I didn't want anything that smelled too strong or anything savory.

I was able to eat dinner later though.

Anyway, it was such a random moment of sickness.

 It's currently raining right now.

A brief summary: I made it to "round 2" of interviews with Keyp, but even though the position called for a Junior Frontend, it was more like a Fullstack with 1-2 years of experience. I'm surprised they're even willing to speak with me and go through with the interview considering just from my resume and Github I don't have much.

I don't know, I think I may be going through a low point. I went from feeling, "hey I could do this" to "bruh I don't know anything". I was just going through the Udemy course again, and I broke down. Because of sorting algorithms. And (in my opinion) they're supposed to be easy! Especially because I was just reviewing as well. I was able to do it fine when I first went through it, but I was so frustrated with myself because I knew what was being asked but I wasn't able to write it out. If I couldn't even write a simple algorithm, how am I supposed to get a job that, y'know, requires you to know the basics?

On top of that, I wasn't able to solve the coding challenge for the interview. WHICH. I totally understand that I wouldn't be able to do it since it was related to Web3.0, and I knew nothing about that or backend stuff. I guess, I've just been feeling demotivated. I can't get myself to be productive. I'm all over the place again and I hate it.

Meanwhile, Robin's doing his best to help me not be stressed. He says there's no rush for me, but it's already been 3 years, and I've gone. Nowhere. More half-dug holes. I feel (know) like I'm just wasting time, but I just cannot get myself to get up and do things and stay focused. And when I do, the motivation/desire is sooo short.

Is there a way to reset?

I wonder if this bipolar, hot and cold, weather is making people sick.

Mama seems to be getting a cold. I was weirdly sick yesterday.

TMI ahead...

This happened in the morning when I woke up. I was awake in bed and was fine, but I got up and out of nowhere I see the room spinning, as if my eyes were constantly rolling around, even though I was focused at a certain point. At first I thought maybe I just got up to fast or something, but then my throat/chest started feeling uncomfy, like I wanted to throw up.

I thought it'd go away, but it just got worse. I tried to gag and force myself to throw up but couldn't. I sat in front of the toilet, and at one point it was almost there! I felt it coming up! But I wasn't able to push it :(

So we went to do laundry (to dry our clothes). I was hoping the motion would make me feel so bad that I would want to throw up. It did make me feel worse LOL but it wasn't enough to make me throw up. I stayed in the car and kept gagging. Again! It was almost there! But I wasn't able to keep going. It went away. I went to start the dryer cycle again. Got back to the car and tried again after a break.

Finally. FINALLY. I was able to throw up into the plastic bag. I felt so much better afterward.

I thought it'd be gone, but when we got home I could feel it coming back. My vision wasn't spinning anymore but I still felt nauseous, so I took a super short shut eye. Got up to eat, but I really didn't want to eat anything. He made some chicken nuggets. Just smelling it and looking at it made me feel nauseous. I tried to eat one, but I really didn't want to stomach it. I ended up eating a lot of saltine crackers, Ritz crackers and some Chips Ahoy. I didn't want anything that smelled too strong or anything savory.

I was able to eat dinner later though.

Anyway, it was such a random moment of sickness.

 It's currently raining right now.

A brief summary: I made it to "round 2" of interviews with Keyp, but even though the position called for a Junior Frontend, it was more like a Fullstack with 1-2 years of experience. I'm surprised they're even willing to speak with me and go through with the interview considering just from my resume and Github I don't have much.

I don't know, I think I may be going through a low point. I went from feeling, "hey I could do this" to "bruh I don't know anything". I was just going through the Udemy course again, and I broke down. Because of sorting algorithms. And (in my opinion) they're supposed to be easy! Especially because I was just reviewing as well. I was able to do it fine when I first went through it, but I was so frustrated with myself because I knew what was being asked but I wasn't able to write it out. If I couldn't even write a simple algorithm, how am I supposed to get a job that, y'know, requires you to know the basics?

On top of that, I wasn't able to solve the coding challenge for the interview. WHICH. I totally understand that I wouldn't be able to do it since it was related to Web3.0, and I knew nothing about that or backend stuff. I guess, I've just been feeling demotivated. I can't get myself to be productive. I'm all over the place again and I hate it.

Meanwhile, Robin's doing his best to help me not be stressed. He says there's no rush for me, but it's already been 3 years, and I've gone. Nowhere. More half-dug holes. I feel (know) like I'm just wasting time, but I just cannot get myself to get up and do things and stay focused. And when I do, the motivation/desire is sooo short.

Is there a way to reset?