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Omy freakin' GOD.
How can Richard be so god damn stupid. Like SHUT UP.
GOD. Why does he gotta be a freakin' damn kid.

NOBODY wants to tell you anything because you always forget. Both just to tell you and to tell you to do something. You freakin' forget EVERYTHING we tell you.
NOBODY wants to tell you anything because you always want it your goddamn way. NOBODY freakin' cares about what/how you want something. Like the freakin damn thing is for auntie or whoever, not for you.

This is why I'm starting to not bother with your permission for anything.
I am switching my major away from pre-pharm whether you freakin' like it or not.
I'm gonna go get a boyfriend, whether he's Chinese or freakin' not. 
I DON'T EVEN CARE WHAT YOU THINK ANYMORE.

I wonder why I even agree to those phone calls xD Like, I seriously hesitate to talk to people on the phone, only a few people talk to me on the phone. lol.

So he wanted one last call xD
Apparently, he didn't wake up at all last night, so when I said he answered me, he was really sleep talking to me! LOL

He sounded better at least~ He fell asleep on me again xD oh wells~ 

Omgeee parents just had a freakin dumb argument. Like seriously, how do things escalate so fast -_-

Dad (ew) picked up Grandpa from mahjong & like before he came back over here, Gramp's called and directly asked for Mom. At that point, I already knew something happened.
Just cried for awhile... Talking to Jen too. To get my mind off things, I told her about yesterday ^^,

He's sick so he wanted someone to talk to. Don't know if I would be the right person haha can't talk xD

I think he fell asleep on me now xD
At one point he woke up? But asleep again I guess.
I think he's hitting the phone... lols

I need to make sure I don't overthink things. Always cautious.

*Omgeee this presentation TT

So I had this weird dream about Junior.
LOL must be because I was anticipating today's hangout. xD

He was in our room. The room was different, with the bed b/t the restroom door and the heater.
He and Jo were sleeping. He was sleeping on the short side of the bed, like he was sitting there and just fell asleep. Blah blah I forgot what happened. I went to sleep too. Then we "woke" up. And I was asking him what he was doing at our house & he was like why can't I & blah blah xD

So today met up with Junior at the mall. Omgee it was supposed to be at 3 but we ended up walking around at 3:40 because he thought the mall would be closed because of Magical Night of Giving (but it was at 6:30 xD)
So I sat in the food court; so lonely & awkward LOLOL

I kept thinking it was gonna be awkward but it went waaay better than I thought~
So he bought some Chinese food but I wanted ice cream (but McD ran out -_-) so instead we walked to the other mall & he got me Peppermint Mocha (Starbucks people put Justine -3-)
After we sat down so he could finish his food & he just asked me a whole bunch of questions. lol

Then we went to H&M. He loves clothes ahaha
We tried the minion crane game. He was so close! haha
Then we went to Tilt and raced (driving) and he played basketball. He was so proud of himself beating the guy next to him haha. We tried to DDR but uh, it didnt take his first 3 coins, so like it didn't work & then yeah.. it was a mess. we couldn't get the 2nd player to join so we were stuck with 1st player only xD we ended doing the tutorial only ahaha but we didn't finish. and so he got me green sour punch with his 12 tickets lol
Afterwards uh I think Forever21. And he was looking for a messenger bag & stuff. He was talking about how the boyfriends are stuck with their girlfriends shopping xD (but it's the other way around + we aren't a couple; also really awkward when we saw Jose & his friends at the mall xDD) Then he wanted to go look at jewelry, but wouldn't usually go by himself because people would see him as a girl, but that it was okay this time because it looks like I was shopping haha.

Then we walked through JCPenney. Left afterward. He didn't want to meet mommy & daddy haha he still did though xD
Anyway it was a fun day and enough for me to de-stress before ComSt. > <

Yesterday we watched Big Hero 6 and omgee~ ♥♥♥
I want to make a Baymax keychain now :3

Anyhow, today is Veteran's Day so no school. I was planning on doing HW but got distracted & lacked motivation. Just texting Deilys & Victor. And stressing about everything...
And I don't know. It's probably me, but texting Victor felt different today? After I had asked him about "adopting" me for my project and asking him about his culture...
I'm probably just worrying too much, like my usual self, right? I guess I get worried when I get really close with some people and suddenly it feels like he/she is distancing from me... Hm...

I just can't wait to get this semester over with...
Need to read some mangas/watch some animes. I'm in a mood to cry my heart out... I dunno. lol
And I want to do some covers~ both dance and vocal ^w^

Yesterday & today I was GOTV for Dyane. Phone banking today and it was pretty fun ^^
Today I went to the office at 9AM and no one was there. I called Steph and she told me it was at 11. I was like omgee why'd I wake up so early then. xD So I arrived like 2 hrs early. (I was texting Victor & he told me he went to work 3 hrs early LOL)
Yesterday we were out walking; Carrie drove us. Weird day though because it rained on our precincts. xD And we couldn't get them done. Then when we were going back, the train just stopped so we went to the street parallel to it. There was no train so we went. As soon as we neared it, the bars dropped down. Just our luck. So Carrie U-turned. I turn around and the bars were going back up. A buggy drove over the tracks. Then Carrie U-turned again and we made it through. We U-turned a lot LOL.

I came home & showered. Instead of doing my hw, I don't even know what I was doing. I was helping Junior's mom's costume get likes lol. That took about an hour or 2 maybe? But now I don't want to do hw (& I don't have that much either...)

We changed the time back an hr at 2AM. It feels like a long day. I mean, it's only 9 right now. And I thought I wasted so much time lol It's really cold now. My hands & feet are freezing. Jo just made me hot chocolate. I should start some kind of hw now TT

*Baymax! Big Hero 6 is coming out this Friday! ♥ Can I go~
Am I crushing again? I don't even know anymore, but I'm sure I don't like Raccoon anymore... :/

Oh yeah, & I've been talking to Victor & playing LoL with him. I can't stop thinking about how much he makes my day ^^ I mean, don't get me wrong: he's the loving big brother I never had ♥ You don't know how much I owe him~

Omy freakin' GOD.
How can Richard be so god damn stupid. Like SHUT UP.
GOD. Why does he gotta be a freakin' damn kid.

NOBODY wants to tell you anything because you always forget. Both just to tell you and to tell you to do something. You freakin' forget EVERYTHING we tell you.
NOBODY wants to tell you anything because you always want it your goddamn way. NOBODY freakin' cares about what/how you want something. Like the freakin damn thing is for auntie or whoever, not for you.

This is why I'm starting to not bother with your permission for anything.
I am switching my major away from pre-pharm whether you freakin' like it or not.
I'm gonna go get a boyfriend, whether he's Chinese or freakin' not. 
I DON'T EVEN CARE WHAT YOU THINK ANYMORE.

I wonder why I even agree to those phone calls xD Like, I seriously hesitate to talk to people on the phone, only a few people talk to me on the phone. lol.

So he wanted one last call xD
Apparently, he didn't wake up at all last night, so when I said he answered me, he was really sleep talking to me! LOL

He sounded better at least~ He fell asleep on me again xD oh wells~ 

Omgeee parents just had a freakin dumb argument. Like seriously, how do things escalate so fast -_-

Dad (ew) picked up Grandpa from mahjong & like before he came back over here, Gramp's called and directly asked for Mom. At that point, I already knew something happened.
Just cried for awhile... Talking to Jen too. To get my mind off things, I told her about yesterday ^^,

He's sick so he wanted someone to talk to. Don't know if I would be the right person haha can't talk xD

I think he fell asleep on me now xD
At one point he woke up? But asleep again I guess.
I think he's hitting the phone... lols

I need to make sure I don't overthink things. Always cautious.

*Omgeee this presentation TT

So I had this weird dream about Junior.
LOL must be because I was anticipating today's hangout. xD

He was in our room. The room was different, with the bed b/t the restroom door and the heater.
He and Jo were sleeping. He was sleeping on the short side of the bed, like he was sitting there and just fell asleep. Blah blah I forgot what happened. I went to sleep too. Then we "woke" up. And I was asking him what he was doing at our house & he was like why can't I & blah blah xD

So today met up with Junior at the mall. Omgee it was supposed to be at 3 but we ended up walking around at 3:40 because he thought the mall would be closed because of Magical Night of Giving (but it was at 6:30 xD)
So I sat in the food court; so lonely & awkward LOLOL

I kept thinking it was gonna be awkward but it went waaay better than I thought~
So he bought some Chinese food but I wanted ice cream (but McD ran out -_-) so instead we walked to the other mall & he got me Peppermint Mocha (Starbucks people put Justine -3-)
After we sat down so he could finish his food & he just asked me a whole bunch of questions. lol

Then we went to H&M. He loves clothes ahaha
We tried the minion crane game. He was so close! haha
Then we went to Tilt and raced (driving) and he played basketball. He was so proud of himself beating the guy next to him haha. We tried to DDR but uh, it didnt take his first 3 coins, so like it didn't work & then yeah.. it was a mess. we couldn't get the 2nd player to join so we were stuck with 1st player only xD we ended doing the tutorial only ahaha but we didn't finish. and so he got me green sour punch with his 12 tickets lol
Afterwards uh I think Forever21. And he was looking for a messenger bag & stuff. He was talking about how the boyfriends are stuck with their girlfriends shopping xD (but it's the other way around + we aren't a couple; also really awkward when we saw Jose & his friends at the mall xDD) Then he wanted to go look at jewelry, but wouldn't usually go by himself because people would see him as a girl, but that it was okay this time because it looks like I was shopping haha.

Then we walked through JCPenney. Left afterward. He didn't want to meet mommy & daddy haha he still did though xD
Anyway it was a fun day and enough for me to de-stress before ComSt. > <

Yesterday we watched Big Hero 6 and omgee~ ♥♥♥
I want to make a Baymax keychain now :3

Anyhow, today is Veteran's Day so no school. I was planning on doing HW but got distracted & lacked motivation. Just texting Deilys & Victor. And stressing about everything...
And I don't know. It's probably me, but texting Victor felt different today? After I had asked him about "adopting" me for my project and asking him about his culture...
I'm probably just worrying too much, like my usual self, right? I guess I get worried when I get really close with some people and suddenly it feels like he/she is distancing from me... Hm...

I just can't wait to get this semester over with...
Need to read some mangas/watch some animes. I'm in a mood to cry my heart out... I dunno. lol
And I want to do some covers~ both dance and vocal ^w^

Yesterday & today I was GOTV for Dyane. Phone banking today and it was pretty fun ^^
Today I went to the office at 9AM and no one was there. I called Steph and she told me it was at 11. I was like omgee why'd I wake up so early then. xD So I arrived like 2 hrs early. (I was texting Victor & he told me he went to work 3 hrs early LOL)
Yesterday we were out walking; Carrie drove us. Weird day though because it rained on our precincts. xD And we couldn't get them done. Then when we were going back, the train just stopped so we went to the street parallel to it. There was no train so we went. As soon as we neared it, the bars dropped down. Just our luck. So Carrie U-turned. I turn around and the bars were going back up. A buggy drove over the tracks. Then Carrie U-turned again and we made it through. We U-turned a lot LOL.

I came home & showered. Instead of doing my hw, I don't even know what I was doing. I was helping Junior's mom's costume get likes lol. That took about an hour or 2 maybe? But now I don't want to do hw (& I don't have that much either...)

We changed the time back an hr at 2AM. It feels like a long day. I mean, it's only 9 right now. And I thought I wasted so much time lol It's really cold now. My hands & feet are freezing. Jo just made me hot chocolate. I should start some kind of hw now TT

*Baymax! Big Hero 6 is coming out this Friday! ♥ Can I go~
Am I crushing again? I don't even know anymore, but I'm sure I don't like Raccoon anymore... :/

Oh yeah, & I've been talking to Victor & playing LoL with him. I can't stop thinking about how much he makes my day ^^ I mean, don't get me wrong: he's the loving big brother I never had ♥ You don't know how much I owe him~

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^

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