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Continuing from where I left off...
On Wednesday I went out with Arlene! I rode the bus to the Great Mall, and surprisingly the bus ride was pretty short. The plan was to go sketching, but we ended up shopping lol we went to Daiso and Arlene's friends were working there too. She was talking to one for a long time ^^; It was a little awk but we talked a bit too. She told me he was Mickey's other owner xD (Mickey is the doggo we saw in our neighbor's apartment, Erin's dog) and then he told us my neighbor was also working x'D
So when we finished shopping, my neighbor checked me out. And they were telling him we were neighbors and when we left he was like, "see you around" LOLOL
We went to Forever21 and she got so much stuff ahaha. I ended up buying a sweater too. Lessee... afterward we wanted to get Jollibee but there was such a long line, we went straight to Paris Baguette and we got some pastries. Ended up being so full, I had to take home my one pastry lol Her friend was working then too. We went to Happy Lemon afterward. It was pretty good. She had to meet up with her boyfriend afterward, so she dropped me back off at Great Mall.
At first I was thinking of sketching in the mall, but there was no room at all anywhere to sit. So I ended up walking to the lightrail, decided to just sketch a bit outside. It was all good until this Black guy comes up and started asking me inappropriate questions. I kept trying to ignore him but he kept pestering me! At some point my heart started racing and I had a danger signal like during the Joey incident. Anyway, I had to call Jo on the phone. He still kept pestering me so I was like, "gotta catch the bus" and high-tailed it to the lightrail. Afterward, he ended up coming up to the lightrail station too. Everytime he started walking toward my direction, I hid behind one of the walls of the waiting station(?) and when I saw his shadow pass by, I walked the opposite direction. He kept walking in my direction so I had to keep hiding ALSKDKFJ.
...sigh...
Anyway, I got home safe afterward, on call with Jo the whole time.
--Also I had a very emotionally disturbing dream about Chazny that I ended up voice recording. Currently too lazy to type the story, so I'll save that for another post--

I did laundry and made baked potatoes! Despite waking up a little late lol
Work yesterday was pretty slow. Eh... I don't really remember what happened. Only that I was working with Henry at the end. I don't remember if I mentioned him... anyway, we were filling up the coolers with whipped cream. Poor him, digging under ice water. His hands were pretty red. Er, I made a shlee (breath intake through clenched teeth) sound because I sorta hurt myself or whatever (but not actually getting an injury) and he was like "are you okay" x'D So nice. After we finished filling the last cooler and putting it back, he was like "we did it~" and high fived me LOL I worked with him like twice and I barely found out his name but he knew mine LOL Andrew and Reese left for lunch so I had to step in for pots. But somehow, I ended up being an unofficial step-in manager...? ^^; I don't know why people ask me stuffffff alskdjf. But yeah, working with the usual crew. Ehhh, Randy, Henry's brother, came over to help out. I was cleaning the coolers so I'm bent down next to one of the trash cans. Andrew was throwing away trash and trying to push the trash down, but one of the whipped cream cans squirted and I got whipped cream on meeee x'D and he laugheddd how meannn lolol
After we finished, we waved and said bye to Randy and Henry. They're so nice~ (with the way they talk though, and sometimes their gestures? seem a lil'... feminine. But I shouldn't judge ^^; _) I walked with Andrew and Reese down to the Christmas in the Park booth, but before we made it, we saw Bekah's car stop at the red light, so I ran across and hopped in since she was dropping me off. Funny thing was, she asked if I needed a ride but I told her Joley's been taking me home. And she was joking around and complained to Joley, and then I was like okay you can take me home ^^;
Anyway, I got home realizing I left my tips in my apron! ToT
Luckily I didn't put the apron for laundry so I managed to pick it up this morning.

Speaking of this morning, I woke up after a 3 hr nap (slept at 6am because I was up doing some quick silhouettes for the Party Banter critique, which ended up being moved to next Wed at 10am so I stayed up for NOTHING. *ahem* anyway...) and Katie was opening manager for the 1st time! She couldn't unlock the door with the code, so she had another of the younger(?) workers to try the lock. They managed to get in. (That guy reminds me of Patrick C. from SECA) and I only saw him once, but when he saw me waiting at the door, he gave me a peace sign? Surprised, I just 'supped him (head gesture). After grabbing my tips I said bye to them and the dude (whom I still don't know the name of) said, "already?" (I think) and I was like "yup, just getting my tips that I left in my apron, see yah!" and he responded too. They all gave me that "you're leaving already?" sad puppy look ^^;
I ended up going home and took a nap. Risky, because I didn't even set an alarm. I woke up at 2:30 so it was all good though.

I got to work, and Katie was like, "are you working now?" lol
The dude was like, "oh you're back" LOL dang, okay peoples xD I was almost late waiting for my coffee from Gongcha. I made it within 5min. PHEW.
It was a slow day because the ice rink was closed due to some problems. Shannon ended up letting most people go, and calling others who were scheduled to not come in. I ran errands to the other booth, and awww~ Kat was happy to see me :3 so was Wendy lol
I took 2 trips. Dead tired. I was going to clock out soon after, but a line ended up forming, so I hopped on the window for 30min or so. lolol Afterward, Joley wanted to stay so me and Bekah were sent home. Bekah dropped me off but we couldn't find her car in the parking garage LOL
Also I keep hurting myself??? Yesterday I banged my back on the cash register after trying to move the cooler for Randy, and now it's bruised. Tonight, Henry gently accidentally elbowed my back LOL and I bumped into the time stamp card machine again x'D

But anyway, I'm home now. Going to finish that galaxy painting... and do some more silhouettes? I don't think I forgot anything... I finished watching "Dynamic Chord" yesterday, and also started "Tsukipro the Animation." Seeing these characters and mascots makes me want to sculpt and make keychains etc. Eep, where's the time though?
Did I mention I cried a lot for "Song of the Sea"? I guess not. I was BAWLING at the end. I cried my heart out. It was a good movie :'D

Today wasn't too busy.

I made perfect rice.

Okay, so yesterday I just pre-ordered Chertiz's Believer package ^^; KMN it's more $$$ than RFA VIP package.

Anyway, I just want to sleep right now, but I better write some stuff up... wow, but I actually don't know where to start hm... Lessee~

So it's been so long so I can't really write a whole lot but, on Wed, 12/13, me and Steph walked with Alan (her new friend from stats; her cutie lol) to the library. They were going to study. I thought it would be awkward. It was, but Alan was really easy to get along with. So they didn't start studying 'til later. He gets easily distracted and talks a lot lol. Later that night, Jessie and Romuel joined us. We had so many laughs omg it was a great night! I was working, so no worries lol I was doing my animation for Raquel's final (51B animation). My renders took forever. Jessie left around 1am or so. The rest of us didn't leave until 5 or 6am omg. It was freezing cold when we left. Steph showered and slept. Meanwhile, I had to keep rendering. I barely made it on time, before 8. Well, I submitted at like 7:30am, but when I saw a mistake, I didn't have time to fix it because the render would've taken too long. I showered after that and went to sleep... at 8:30am LOL Lucky for us, we didn't need to go to class for our final. I slept in and woke up around 4:30 pm LOL
Went to Target after Steph got out of her final (I think).
Also, Anna finally connected with me LOL and I told her that we already talked when she asked me about Birdy's hoodie when she was still working at Quickly LOL


Sat, 12/16: Work
I don't remember much but... I had work at the Ice Rink. There was a cosplay gathering so there were so many cute outfits~ Anyway, today I was getting off my lunch and was washing my hand and suddenly the pipe/bucket under the sink disconnected and back flowed so I got dirty water all over my pants and I had wet socks for the rest of the night... YUP. There was 2-hour, never-ending crowd tonight.
Andrew (non-manager, Econ major) clocked out, and I saw him outside the door, but someone closed the door. I was about to clock out too. I wasn't sure if he was waiting...? but when someone came in, I looked out and he wasn't there anymore. Oops. My other co-workers, Rebecca (Beka)h and Matt offered to take me home, so I took it, since Andrew already walked off. I thought Bekah was dropping off her parking pass first. So when she asked me where my apt was, & I was like "you're dropping me off?" she was like, "oh, are you coming home with us?" And I was so confused lol but Matt reminded her she needed to drop off the pass LOL Today Tom (boss) also popped in the booth and once again, praised my drinks. Aww :3

Sun, 12/17: Work
Last night, I was joking with Andrew and Roy and told them I'm working again tomorrow too~ but Andrew was like, but are you at this booth. I thought about it and was like, you're right I'm at the other booth. He said, that's what I thought. But I said, "hey, but Tom keeps modifying my schedule so you never know." And I was right. Tom switched my schedule and I was working at the Ice Rink again.
I was wearing my Pokémon t-shirt with the Unova starters, and Andrew asked which one I picked. I told him Oshawott, but I probably should've went with Snivy. He was like, "you should've" LOL I was in a good mood today (I think) I saw Kevin (in a long while) but I'm guessing he was working at the other booth, just came by to pick up some cider. And then Chazny was working today! :D I was busy so I couldn't properly greet him. And someone was working between us lol 
I think today was the day we ended up running out of a lot of stuff. Later that night, Andrew (manager) left Eli in charge as "manager-in-training" and I was asking him what I should do and he told me to talk to Eli. So I ask Eli; he told me to bar back. When another worker needed a job, he sent her to me LOL WHUT ELI. I worked at the end window, near the storeroom and Eli and Chaz were refilling the coolers so they were putting it back under my counter. I squeezed to the side because I was making a drink for a customer. They pushed, and ended up hitting my leg LOL Chazny apologized, touched my shin(?) where the cooler hit, and asked if I was okay lol and he kept apologizing xD
We closed at 10 today, so we finished around 11:30pm. Since we were scheduled 'til 1am, we went to the other booth, but Berto said they didn't need us since they were pretty much cleaned up too. Lyxi missed me~ aww~
[also the night we found out Jonhyun passed away...]

Mon, 12/18: Surprise visit & all-nighter
Today, Meimei, Arianne/Louegie, & Jessica/Karla came to visit. They called me at 10-ish AM but I was still asleep. The day before, Meimei asked if we had parking so I kinda expected them, but not really the day after being asked lol Steph was still asleep.
They chose the wrong day to come though because I had work at 4:30 and Steph had a final at 5 (so she didn't get to study) but yeah, there's only so many things we could do in so little time ToT Jessie and Zairah hung out with us too. We had Greek food, and Gongcha. Walked around campus. There wasn't much to do. We sent them off to Eastridge to Round 1 lol
Doesn't look like I had much for work... but that my co-worker, Joley, dropped me off but she lost her parking ticket so it took us a while to get out of the lot. I got home, and after grabbing some stuff and dropping stuff off, I headed to La Vic's to grab food (my treat) for Jonathan and Celine since we were going to be working in the PC lab for the final. Jonathan was hyperactive because he was tired. I felt bad, because the last part was the rocks, which I didn't texture yet, so Celine ended having to do most of it. But she was really nice about it and taught me stuff. We went home around 6am.

Tues, 12/19: Final
I was running a little late for finals, but Dave, Jonathan, and Callum went to grab coffee anyway. So I made it to finals technically. There were cheddar biscuits and cookiessss yummmm lol I ate so many cheddar biscuits... x'D We looked at everyone's work, then Dave "taught" us how to render the fly-through properly, so he had us do it in class. But it wasn't working, but we finally got it to work, but the render was taking hours. Justin and David came in to crash the finals. They were talking to Lily about stuff, and Dave and I just popped in randomly in their convo lol I actually talked to Justin, wow. lol Dave had us upload the fly-through by the end of the day. I had my RTVF final to attend to so Lily had to stay to watch the render. As soon as I was done with the final, I made a Starbucks run, and treated Lily to coffee. When I got there, she had to go to the hospital to attend to some family things. So I waited for the rest of the render. When it was finished, it was messed up, so I had to make some fixes, and re-render. It was another 3 hours. The computer display slept, so I had to text Jonathan for his password since we were on his computer, but he was out on a date, so I didn't get a reply 'til an hour later. But I fell asleep on the chairs in the PC lab lol so Jonathan called me x'D Issok, 300 frames were rendered while it slept anyway lol. Steph stopped by to give me my TonTon blanket because it was cold lol We also went to Student Union to grab food. At first I was going for a salad, but I already had salad recently, so I went for Steak n' Shake. Someone paid for my meal! because they had too many Dining Dollars left, so they gave the cashier their ID, and had her swipe for any following customers. Put me in a totally good mood after finals! What a treat!
We ate in the PC lab. Steph grabbed leftover donuts from class lol and then she went to her final a lil' before 5. The render finally finished around 5pm. Afterward, I went home, dropped off stuff and grabbed Arlene's present, and met her and Angeline at Christmas in the Park. There wasn't much to do. After a walk around the park, we went to Muji's for a bit. It was Arlene's 2nd time that day, and she bought so many pens LOL the cashier recognized her, and I think she told him she forgot to buy some stuff and he said "that's a lot of things you forgot" LOL Afterward, I met up with Steph at Student Union, and from there we met up with Jessie at Boba Bar.
I couldn't resist and opened my gift from Arlene, and I got this cute sleeping Shiba Inu pillow and a Pokemon notebook.


Wed, 12/20: Round 1
I was going to go to the final day screening, but I woke up late; late because the screening started at 10, I thought it started at 10:30 :p So I ended up not going, and instead, went to the art building to grab some files before they locked the labs.
Afterward, I got home and Steph was still sleeping. So after I woke her up, I met up with Jessie and we went to Target. I decided to draw while on the bus, and this guy started talking to me, because he was like I'm an artist too. So cool, I thought it'd be a fun chat. He wanted to sit next to me, so I move to the seat next to Jessie, but he was like, oh, I was gonna sit there. Uhm... why did it matter? It felt like he wanted to get between me and Jessie (a feeling I got afterward). He shows me his sketchbook. I find out that he's self-taught, obviously starting out with anime. But hey, he spent time to learn and study anatomy so props to him. I feel like he doesn't have anyone he can "talk" to about his art and stuff, so he was overly excited and wanted to just tell me everything. At some point I started to feel weirded out; a sort of "Joey-incident" all over again, where I thought things were normal but then I get a danger warning from within. Not long after, we reached our stop, so I started getting off. And he was like "oh, are you leaving already?" and I reply, yeah and apologize etc and he says "I was gonna show you more stuff." I continue to apologize and leave. As I get off the bus, he yells out to ask what my name was. WHY DID I SAY MY NAME OTL. Why do I always do this... I hope I never bump into him again... I'm never drawing in public again ToT
Steph meets up with us at Panera. (Panera's soup was so good~) First time at Panera.
After we got back to Jessie's apartment to wrap her co-worker's gift, we sent her off to work and me and Steph went to Eastridge. It was a long day. For some reason, I didn't want to go home at all. So we kept going back into Round 1. We literally spent all day there, 'til the mall closed. We didn't leave Round 1 'til 11:30pm. We went all out at the arcade. We played some games. I danced some. She played a shooting game. And we raced each other. We got tickets. We analyzed the ticket games LOL And we just relaxed and played all day. It was a great de-stress day after finals. Of course, our poor wallets lol so we had to limit ourselves for once a month x'D (We get home & Steph was like, if we're going to spend so many credits, we might as well buy the max credits lolol) We would've left earlier, but Steph was suddenly attached to this elephant plush so we had to get it. I finally got it for her, on our very last try. That cost a lot haha. 


Thur, 12/21: Work (Christmas in the Park booth)
Steph slept over at Kune's today. Jim Snow video-called me and we chatted for like an hour x'D Didn't sleep 'til like 3am. I was telling her about Jacob at work and showed her the TonTon friends plushies.
Speaking of Jacob, he was very talkative today o.o My first time actually talking to him. He's sociable today because "his boys" Keenan (Yo, I totally guessed on his spelling. Checked HotSchedules and I got it right x'D) and Eli were working too, except they were towards the other end of the booth when we were at the end end lol. He set up station next to me. [I told Jim all those, and I already forgot for the most part] But I found, he's actually a really nice and fun guy! When I first worked with him, he looked mean and scary. He didn't talk a lot. Today... he was really talkative lol It was really slow today. There wasn't much to do; our stations were clean and stocked. So I started to take the candy canes out of the wrappers and hanging them on the container. He joined me. This boy though; there is so much room on the other side of the container, but he had to hang them on my side, so our hands kept hitting each other, especially when we tried to take the candy canes out of the container. It was super cold today too so I was really shivering. After a while he said, let's see how many we can fit. So we just kept at it. When either of us had a customer who ordered more than 3 drinks, we technically shared the load lol We chatted about how customers don't come to the ends and instead go for the middle. This old man was walking towards me, but my very energetic co-worker next to us was like "I can help you over here if you're ready!" so the old man drifted toward him, and Jacob was like, "and he was coming for you too" lol (but the old man ended up going down the booth and away) After the candy canes, we were very idle. I'm over here shivering, and I realized he was standing so close to me lol are you trying to keep me warm boy? I could feel his body heat like very, very slightly. And then he was sorta playing around, trying to call Keenan but he had a customer. And he wasn't being loud either LOL but while he was trying to get Keenan's attention, in between he was telling me, those are my boys over there x'D Michelle was being initiated as manager, so she was manager today while Berto watched over things. So during our idle time, Michelle came over to tell us about how managers need to check bills greater than $20, and she was explaining to us. But at this point, there were customers in front of us; they didn't come up to us yet to order, but we both weren't sure if we should interrupt Michelle while she was talking. I glanced at the customers, but tried to give attention to Michelle. Same for Jacob lol after she left, Jacob told me how he didn't know if we should call over customers and I was like, "same" lol I think we ended up helping them afterwards anyway. I was helping a customer and he was talking to me. He was about to yell out "I can help the next customer in line" but he stopped because there was no line LOL (sometimes, we get a crowd just milling about and we don't know if they're in line or not) And he said "I feel stupid when I'm yelling and there's no one" LOL same Jacob, same.
At some point I got called for my 10min break. When I got back, I think it was Christian on my left and then Jacob on the right. So I go between them, and said "I'm back~" to let them know, I'm squeezing back in. And Jacob was like, "were (are?) you leaving me?" but I replied, "No~ I was just on my 10" and got back to work. Later in the night, Michelle comes over to double check I took my 10, and I tell her I did, but that Jacob hadn't yet.
Oh yeah, I bumped butts with Eli. IT WAS SO AWKWARD OMG. I was getting hot apple cider from the station behind him, and he bent down to grab a can of whipped cream from the coolers so fast... that he bumped butts with me. I almost spilled. BUT IT WAS AWK.
Manager's siblings took me home. $27 in tips~
Got home, and made potstickers. Room smelled like potstickers afterward lol Also, bought the Believers package~ Wheee~ <3 there goes $100+. It's $10 more than RFA VIP package, but I shipped with K-packet, instead of EMS this time.
[Edit: I totally forgot this until today, but when it was slow, Jacob started singing behind me. It wasn't even like really quiet LOL and I sorta turned towards him and he was like, I know you know this song. LOL it was "Rocketeer" I think... but I just laughed a bit and turned my attention out the windows LOL]


Fri, 12/22: Grocery shopping & Work
I went to the post office to ask about my photo card; only told that if wasn't deliverable, it'll be sent straight back to the sender. Poor guy at the post office had blood shot eyes. My bus driver was very peppy ^^;
I walked to Safeway afterward to do some grocery shopping. Decided to get ingredients for quesadilla, Chinese chicken salad, and baked potato wedges. Everything totaled up to around $26+, which is all my tips from yesterday LOL I met Steph on the walk back to the apartment. She was going to be late for work lol I walked her to work, but since I didn't eat anything, I got fish balls from Gongcha and Steph used her employee discount. She was like 3min late because of that I think LOL
Worked at the ice rink today. Jacob had an angry look again, but got so peppy as soon as Eli walked in LOL Around 6-ish, Eli asked everyone if anyone wanted to go home at 11. Nobody said they did. I was on my 10min break. I thought about it and decided I should go home early, since Steph was getting off around 11 too. So I went and told Andrew that I could go home early, and he told me Eli wanted to work 'til 1 to stay with Jacob. Oh the bromance ahahaha I can't with them xD I got sent on my lunch soon after my 10 lol I asked Eli just to double check that we could get an ice cream. He confirmed and I was like, "I want an Its-it kekeke" or something along those lines and Eli. ELI. Mocked me lol he was like "teehee. sneaky~" omg xD Oh, and when Reed saw me on break, again, I told him it's because I'm going home early because of Eli. And Eli, walking by, was like "thanks~" hahaha
I was at the 1st window, closest to the booth's door, so when security guards wanted drinks, I was told to make them and take them out the window. My boss was there and he kept praising my drinks and thanked me because I made those drinks for the officers. And then he asked me how I did on the finals (for the contest, but I don't know haha) So I got off early, not too many tips :p Didn't really meet up with Steph because she already walked off to campus lol so I had to wait for her at the corner, gave her her hot chocolate, and I got baked potato wedges from Jack-in-the-Box (2nd time in a row) & curly fries.


Sat, 12/23: Work? [so, my 1st draft of this didn't save so now I need to re-write it, & of course, it's not going to be as good as when I first wrote it -.-]
Anyway, I went to work today when I wasn't scheduled. I mean, I was, but for some reason my HotSchedules didn't have a shift for me today, and I didn't get an e-mail that my schedule was changed .-. So I went to work & didn't realize until my manager Wendy told me I wasn't on her roster. At lunch, I double-checked and found out, yup, wasn't scheduled today. Told Wendy, and she said she wasn't going to send me home because she needed me. I told Michelle too, and she said the same thing lol They give me way too much credit. So I stayed the whole time. Nothing much happened today. Michelle and I are the finalists for the "Best Hot Chocolate Snowman" contest on Facebook, so near the end of the night, we both made a new drink for a picture. Didn't even feel like we were against each other; she put marshmallows in my drink for me, and I went to grab her her cherries while she opened a new can of whipped cream LOL I love Michelle. My right arm is currently sore because I mopped too much yesterday. I forgot I bought a sandwich from Togo's from lunch, so I ate it when I got home :p
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Wow. I managed to blog about the week and some. No biggie, just took like 2-3 hours or so OTL lol
Well, it's been a good run. Today I didn't have work, so I chilled at home, went to sketch at Gongcha. And then went to practice photography at Sonic Runway~
Can't wait 'til the 27th because I'm trying to meet up with Arlene~

Alright, I'm also trying to get back into dA and working with the group I started on there lol Let's try to enter some DTAs, finish some WAAAY overdue art, and concept work for Party Banter?

I've been going back and forth from being really sad and then happy.

Sad, because every time I read more news about Jonghyun, I just start crying...
Why do we live?
Because he couldn't find a way to be happy alive, he decided to end it.
...
It's the choices we make... I choose to endure the pains and hardships because for me, the happy moments I cherish outweigh the pain by a lot. (Wow, this is a heavy topic... it probably doesn't help that I'm listening to Reynah's "Y Si Fuera Ella" piano cover either ^^; )
I still mourn for Jonghyun... the reality that he's not with us anymore is constantly hitting me every time I think about him, and the tears won't stop.
But I'll live. Because he'd want all his fans to continue to live... to live on and to find their reasons to live... to be happy...
It was disheartening to realize that despite all the friends he could rely on, he still felt the need to choose his final path... the fact that he planned everything--who knows for how long--and to end it all at the end of the year...
Now every song that I listen to, I can't help but redirect the subject to him/them actually singing about their depression or their inner selves, not some girl...

It took me a while to be able to collect my thoughts...
May this beautiful angel finally gain the peace and happiness he could not find with the Living.

[I had planned to blog about this week, but who knew I'd end up crying again, and I'm not in the mood to write about it... so you'll see me again. Soon. The end of 2017 is just not going so well huh...]

I was in a really good mood after work...
Got home, finished my quick dinner/snack, ready to work on my final...
only for my mood to plummet to the depths of Earth (or so) tonight.

I'm not feeling "well" so I'm gonna head to bed...
I'll blog later when I feel better...

RIP SHINee's Jonghyun... </3

Just got off work. My co-worker Andrew walked me up to campus since he lived on campus. He's pretty chill. A good friend :3
An awkward-ish walk though LOL
Let's start from the beginning of work.

Shannon (our manager) was running late because of her previous work, so we were all waiting for the booth to open. I greeted Andrew when I got there. It's my first time opening/prepping so it was cool. It was slow today; it didn't start to rush until after 8.
Overall, it was a good day. I was busy at the window for the most part. Talked to Stephanie, Cynthia, and Love-lie (Loveline? I forget) a lot today. Talked to others too, but not as much. When I was going for lunch, Andrew was telling Shannon he'll take over my window 'cause he was washing dishes, but he said the wrong name LOL
[Also, we have this contest where if we make a really good looking chocolate, we take a pic and it gets posted or something? So Shannon said I made it really nice but I didn't tell them to take a pic (I'm not really into the contests lol) & I all said was thanks, then I made my 2nd one & she said, that one's good too, here let me take a pic. So I did x'D And she was telling my co-workers that I made it really good & they need to beat it. At some point she also mentioned not to pre-sleeve the cups, and that I knew what I was doing because I didn't pre-sleeve the cups and I make nice snowmen hot chocolate x'D I got 2 pics, one in the beginning of work, and another towards the middle of work. I don't know why Shannon always watches me LOL I think she realized I'm not the type to really show myself off lol]

It was towards the last couple hours of work. Andrew got into a strife with some customers. Shannon ended up just giving them the drinks for free & said it wasn't even worth dealing with (over payment). Speaking of which, apparently we got some fake $100 last week. Today I got a really old $20 and we couldn't tell if it was real or not, so we had to ask for a different bill.
Anyway, minutes later, when we had down time, Andrew turns to our other co-worker, Roy (whom he was talking with when the customers started arguing with him) and Roy was like, still thinking about it? to which he nodded, and I'm like aw :( I know how he feels because that was me when a customer "yelled" at me for not having a 'cash only' sign. She didn't yell at me, but she was my customer, so, yeah. I almost had another customer who wanted to argue about the 'cash only' sign; luckily, they only grumbled about it and walked away. I could just feel his whole mood drop.

When we were cleaning up, Andrew asked where I parked, to which I said I walked, and he said he'll walk me. Shannon, who was listening on, said psychhh, you were going to walk alone young lady? x'D (managers don't let us walk home alone after 12:30am) At first I thought we were going to walk with Cynthia and Gloria, but they said bye to us halfway, so it ended up being just me and Andrew walking to campus.

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Woops, I took a break from typing. Just finished showering & is currently masking. Always sleeping late + cold weather = really bad/dry skin. My hands have been really dry too, from that, & the bleach during work. I really need to do laundry tomorrow too... but anyway, to continue my story...

So Andrew & I are walking to campus. He's judging me for not going to parties and getting f*d up ("let loose," he says), asking 'bout my major. Afterwards, he asks me what kind of art I like (technically), and y'all know I ain't a Old Masters kind of gal, but if I had to answer... I told him if he meant an art era, it'd probably be Impressionism. And he was like, so like van Gogh. I tell him I don't particularly like that, instead, more of Monet. MAH-nay (Manet), he says.
Me: hm? no, Monet.
Him: You mean Manet.
Me: No~ that's a different artist.
And here he continues to argue with me that he's right LOL "ask your roommate, ask your boyfriend. I think I'm right about this." Of course, this is just us joking around.
Then he asks, "are you seeing someone?" I answer no~ and he says, "Sorry, this is a weird question". And I'm thinking in my head, yes it is, why you suddenly ask that~, but answer "It's totally fine~ but no, I'm not seeing anyone." He asks me if I knew what "cuffing season" was. I didn't, but I heard of it; it was the feeling of needing to be in a relationship, he said. So he's asking me why etc. I don't remember what I said? Something along the lines of: not thinking about it, too busy for it. He asks, "so the guys in animation are no good?" I answer, "..... mm, not my type?" And he goes "OKAY. Right through the heart. Dayum" (or something) lolol And I try to answer it better lol He tells me that he gets that question too, about why he doesn't have a girlfriend, and he answers that he just got out of a 10-month thing and doesn't want to get back into another one so fast. I don't remember if there was something else to that. Then he asks me, "so what's your type?" I really hate this question because I can never answer it lol I tell him that I don't really know/have one? And he keeps trying to get me to say, so I answer, "someone nice?" He said that's too general, that as a friend, he'll help me narrow it down LOL And I keep telling him it's really hard etc. So he says, "okay, how about an ideal date?" That's even harder because no one's ever asked me that. LOL So I'm thinking. I answer along the lines of: going out to eat... it doesn't matter as long as it's with the guy I like (?)... but I did want to go to the zoo.
He asks, don't I want a date at the museum, and I say, I actually don't like going to museums LOL and then I mention the zoo. I think at this point, we reached the spot where we have to part ways. I was slightly away from him, but he extended his arm so I gave him a hug. And he said "walk home safe, I'll see you tomorrow."
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Yup. It was a slightly awkward convo ^^;
I wonder if I forgot anything... anyway, it's 5:22am right now. I think I'm done masking. Wow, I better wake up at a decent time tomorrow.
I meant to write about that day we pulled an all-nighter at the library on Tues; I'll write tomorrow. This post ended up being quite long ^^;

By the way Minar, that was a really cute story! I could see a whole drama unfolding haha (plus, I also thought it was a story you wrote on yourself LOL at first. I could totally imagine her as you. *raises eyebrows, up & down* You be seeing your neighbor and classmate on the buses LOL
Also, totally understand the "I-remember-them, they-don't-remember-me" thing x'D

Alright, forreal goodnight. My shoulder blades hurt and I'm sleepy ZZzzz

gotta keep going.

I'm super tired; work was tiring last night.
Today was the last day of class. Raquel cancelled this morning though, so I got up, walked almost to the end of the block, checked my e-mail, & went home to nap before Dave's class. Dave ended up coming back an hour late from Las Vegas.
I just got back from working with Tanner on our RTVF group project (I was there for 30min, doing nothing) and walking Steph to class. Now waiting for Steph and Jess, so we can go get dinner.

Currently looking at videos for inspiration because I'm starting to work on my sketchbook... If you want, check some of them out! (Of course there's more :3 )

• Sketchbook Tips
• Building Confidence
• Crhistine's Sketchbook
• Inspirational Quotes
• 7 Ways to Fill a Sketchbook

... is not a good combo x'D

I was, of course, closing again. I worked at the Ice Rink. The manager there when I got there-- she was like 18 y/o-- was addressing me, but she called me Kathy x'D I was like, I'm not Kathy lolol she said I really looked like her haha. Anyway, after I clocked in, Andrew came in a lil' bit later and was manager for my shift. He brought 2 other guys (his friends?) to work and they all ended up taking me home after closing.

It was busy like usual. Okay, maybe more than usual; we had a never-ending crowd for like 2 or 3 hours OTL. Everyone at the window was dying. We were so busy we had to ask for a worker from Christmas in the Park. It was Benson! haha
I also saw Chazny! To be honest, he looked really familiar but I wasn't sure who he was lolol and my only guess was, Chazny. I was working at the window when he and his friends came up. I was finishing up a drink. I look up and see him on the side, coming up. He flashes me this really bright, gentle, innocent cute smile (Okay. Y'all know I'm a sucker for eyes and smiles) And I don't remember how I reacted, but I turn back to finish up with the customer. He comes up to the window and asks for 3 large chocolates, so I start making them while constantly thinking, why'd he smile... Then Derek who was working next to me was like, give it to him for free. I'm like, okay in my head, thinking, so he works with us? My mind is just constantly thinking lol. So then he and Derek starts talking about working tomorrow and I'm like, okay, so he does. He was also saying he feels bad getting 3 large drinks (for his friends) and was gonna pay for it but Derek was like nah, you good. After giving his friends the drinks, he asks Derek for one more large. I couldn't stand not knowing so I ask him, have we worked together before? And he was telling me his first shift at Christmas in the Park a week or 2 ago and I'm still trying to think lol Derek finishes up and Chazny leaves.
After a while I was turn to Derek, what was his name? Derek laughs and says he doesn't remember his name. And I say, oh so you just recognized him? He says they worked together last night. lol. And I say, was his name Chazny? And Derek goes, oh yeah. Lol And I'm feeling bad forgetting Chazny xD (Sorry Chaz)
Hey, to my credit I did remember him, just wasn't sure xD He looked different okay. He wasn't wearing the hat, and he was dressed so fanxy. So adorable haha. Awwww
Anyway, also saw Jassimran and Jessamae!

Okay, that was probably all. Me and Steph be waking up too late to do anything before work ^^; Same with today too. OTL Well, I slept to my heart's content Friday night because I was dead tired from the week. Not to mention, I was out all Friday from 9am for final, to picking up my Tonton Friends package (look forward to an unboxing!), to having the winter Party Banter meeting (we doing some character designs :p), to going to 14F later that night.
I have work soon! I didn't pick up a shift to close, but that's what Tom did... denied that 1st one but decided to book me for closing. AGAIN. I hate being an available 20 y/o LOL (minors can't do closing) Also planning to work 'til end of December, since the season's gonna be over and might as well.
I want Parmesan bites.
~Lip & lip & hips~

EDIT: EEYYYY I just got my paycheck~ :D

Yesterday, Steph and I went out after classes. (I was late to ARTH, & was only there for 15min because she let class out early for extra credit quiz) I was pretty much getting annoyed because of the stupid bus not coming. We wasted like 30min waiting for it. And not to mention I hadn't eaten yet, so I was hangry. We finally changed bus stops and got on the bus to Wal-mart. I was sleepy.

We finally got to Wal-mart and accidentally binged on snacks--chocolate and chips x'D We also ate a quick snack at McD. We almost left without picking up my heater, which was the whole point lol. Afterward we went to Thai Chili's for dinner. Who knew we'd bump into Jonathan Weiser and Michael Fullilove xD And omg, I was totally calling them out lol because all we saw were 2 guys coming in. And one of them (Jonathan) was looking at the menu outside and held the door open, so I was complaining that he could've just come in to look at the menu x'D And then when they came in to order, I realized LOL We chatted a bit, they talked with Steph lol Jonathan was teasing Steph lol and then they got their food and sat behind us, and we were going to leave. I jokingly told Steph to give them chocolate, and she really did LOL weird xD

We got home and looked at our haul of snacks x'D Also, I got a note of missed delivery OTL. I thought it was the UV lamp, but when I got to the post office today, I was surprised that it was the Tonton Friends package! Super excited about it~ and embarrassed because the packaging was way too cute lol So when I got home, Steph helped me with the unboxing. Super. Cute.
I went to check the mail, and my UV lamp and glow-in-the-dark powder was in there xD
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On another note, I finished my DSGN 100W final today. It okay. And last night, I worked 'til 2:30am typing up presentation evaluations that I forgot to do; ended up not really fulfilling the requirements but whatever.
Also on Wednesday, we went over the winter sketchbook for portfolio part2 OTL kinda nervous about it, but I wanna have fun with it :p

Currently at Gongcha, waiting for the Party Banter meeting at 3pm (for Winter, character design project :p) Still debating whether to go to 14F or not... I probably will. Grr I have so much to do.

Today I slept longer than I wanted to, so I obviously didn't get work done. I did clean up a bit though, & organized my craft supplies.

Work was good today.
Me & Steph walked to work together. I grabbed a milk tea before work & I barely managed to finish it 😅 I worked with Cindy (Steph's groupmate) today, with Wendy, the manager-on-duty. At one point, she asked me how old I was & after finding out I was 20, she asked if I could stay longer. Which I did & she gave me a hug because I agreed lol

She also gave me & 3 other workers a challenge: to fill 40 cases of cherry snowmen, & we'd get free company t-shirts. I wonder how many cases we actually did; no one was counting 😅 Me & Cindy delivered supplies to the Ice Rink booth & later had to go over to help out. I barely helped out for 5 minutes before Tom took me back to the Christmas in the Park booth. Wendy told me to barback but since it was busy, she told me to take a window instead. So I took the window next to Kevin :D

We chatted a bit while making drinks. He was asking me where I was & I told him I was sent to the Ice Rink to help & he was like no wonder you weren't around, I was wondering where you went. And I was thinking in my head aww lol To be honest, when people started clocking out, I was seeing if he left or not LOL (I wonder if he came over to restock for me earlier in my shift & said something along the lines of "just making sure you had everything etc" 🤔 I can't remember. I like it when he looks out for me lol) And I didn't have fresh whipping cream so I took his & he said "did you just jack my frosting?" 😂

I barely worked 5 minutes at the window & Wendy told me to take a 10 minute break. My last customer just tipped me $8, I'm 😭 <3

When we were starting to clean up I think, Kevin asked if I was going to head to campus & I said yes, so he asked if we should walk together so I said okay. I ended up clocking out half an hour earlier than him, but since we already said we'd walk together, I waited for him. He did say I could go ahead but, I mean, we already agreed on walking together lol We didn't leave 'til 1am. Tom was at our booth, & when Wendy was going to walk Katie to her car, she was telling Tom who needed to clock out etc. He questioned what I was doing/if I needed to clock out etc. I told him I clocked out already; he asked how I was getting home. I told him I was walking with him -points to Kevin who had his back turned to us because he was washing the pot- & Tom said, oh you're walking with Kev. I glance at Wendy, & she's giving an aww how sweet reaction & I'm like wuhhhhh 😂
We finally walk back & it was okay. We chatted here & there, but we did have some silent moments. He was scootering xD We got to the parking garage, & he once again asks if I was okay walking home. I said yeah since it was really a short distance & he kept shaking his head, saying it's not safe lol so he ended up walking me. I thought he was just gonna watch me cross the street but he said he was already here anyway & walked me back to the apartment. Gave him a hug before he left :3 I guess I won't be seeing him for a while 😔
On a side note, Benson forgot my name 🙄 lol

It's 4am, I need to get up early to bus to the bank to get quarters for laundry. I have so much homework to do. My stomach is currently crying for food because the only thing I ate was some potstickers. I wasn't hungry & was lazy to get food when I was on my lunch break.
Goodnight

I don't know why, but this week has been a bad week. There were some good moments.
Only moments.

It has finally ended, so hopefully things will turn for the better. I've been super tired lately because of work. Today's presentation went horrible, but it's whatever. I'm just glad I don't have to deal with it anymore; well, that's not completely true since I still have to write my essay for it. There's just so much work & the cold & this bubble on the inside of my lip isn't helping either.
Some good things that happened this week was, work was pretty fun :3 I'm also waiting on various packages, including crafting supplies and my computer screen~
Speaking of packages, I'm still waiting on a latte pen HMM

Well anyway, I should go shower and sleep and just not think about anything right now... I was supposed to sleep like 2 hours ago LOL

Continuing from where I left off...
On Wednesday I went out with Arlene! I rode the bus to the Great Mall, and surprisingly the bus ride was pretty short. The plan was to go sketching, but we ended up shopping lol we went to Daiso and Arlene's friends were working there too. She was talking to one for a long time ^^; It was a little awk but we talked a bit too. She told me he was Mickey's other owner xD (Mickey is the doggo we saw in our neighbor's apartment, Erin's dog) and then he told us my neighbor was also working x'D
So when we finished shopping, my neighbor checked me out. And they were telling him we were neighbors and when we left he was like, "see you around" LOLOL
We went to Forever21 and she got so much stuff ahaha. I ended up buying a sweater too. Lessee... afterward we wanted to get Jollibee but there was such a long line, we went straight to Paris Baguette and we got some pastries. Ended up being so full, I had to take home my one pastry lol Her friend was working then too. We went to Happy Lemon afterward. It was pretty good. She had to meet up with her boyfriend afterward, so she dropped me back off at Great Mall.
At first I was thinking of sketching in the mall, but there was no room at all anywhere to sit. So I ended up walking to the lightrail, decided to just sketch a bit outside. It was all good until this Black guy comes up and started asking me inappropriate questions. I kept trying to ignore him but he kept pestering me! At some point my heart started racing and I had a danger signal like during the Joey incident. Anyway, I had to call Jo on the phone. He still kept pestering me so I was like, "gotta catch the bus" and high-tailed it to the lightrail. Afterward, he ended up coming up to the lightrail station too. Everytime he started walking toward my direction, I hid behind one of the walls of the waiting station(?) and when I saw his shadow pass by, I walked the opposite direction. He kept walking in my direction so I had to keep hiding ALSKDKFJ.
...sigh...
Anyway, I got home safe afterward, on call with Jo the whole time.
--Also I had a very emotionally disturbing dream about Chazny that I ended up voice recording. Currently too lazy to type the story, so I'll save that for another post--

I did laundry and made baked potatoes! Despite waking up a little late lol
Work yesterday was pretty slow. Eh... I don't really remember what happened. Only that I was working with Henry at the end. I don't remember if I mentioned him... anyway, we were filling up the coolers with whipped cream. Poor him, digging under ice water. His hands were pretty red. Er, I made a shlee (breath intake through clenched teeth) sound because I sorta hurt myself or whatever (but not actually getting an injury) and he was like "are you okay" x'D So nice. After we finished filling the last cooler and putting it back, he was like "we did it~" and high fived me LOL I worked with him like twice and I barely found out his name but he knew mine LOL Andrew and Reese left for lunch so I had to step in for pots. But somehow, I ended up being an unofficial step-in manager...? ^^; I don't know why people ask me stuffffff alskdjf. But yeah, working with the usual crew. Ehhh, Randy, Henry's brother, came over to help out. I was cleaning the coolers so I'm bent down next to one of the trash cans. Andrew was throwing away trash and trying to push the trash down, but one of the whipped cream cans squirted and I got whipped cream on meeee x'D and he laugheddd how meannn lolol
After we finished, we waved and said bye to Randy and Henry. They're so nice~ (with the way they talk though, and sometimes their gestures? seem a lil'... feminine. But I shouldn't judge ^^; _) I walked with Andrew and Reese down to the Christmas in the Park booth, but before we made it, we saw Bekah's car stop at the red light, so I ran across and hopped in since she was dropping me off. Funny thing was, she asked if I needed a ride but I told her Joley's been taking me home. And she was joking around and complained to Joley, and then I was like okay you can take me home ^^;
Anyway, I got home realizing I left my tips in my apron! ToT
Luckily I didn't put the apron for laundry so I managed to pick it up this morning.

Speaking of this morning, I woke up after a 3 hr nap (slept at 6am because I was up doing some quick silhouettes for the Party Banter critique, which ended up being moved to next Wed at 10am so I stayed up for NOTHING. *ahem* anyway...) and Katie was opening manager for the 1st time! She couldn't unlock the door with the code, so she had another of the younger(?) workers to try the lock. They managed to get in. (That guy reminds me of Patrick C. from SECA) and I only saw him once, but when he saw me waiting at the door, he gave me a peace sign? Surprised, I just 'supped him (head gesture). After grabbing my tips I said bye to them and the dude (whom I still don't know the name of) said, "already?" (I think) and I was like "yup, just getting my tips that I left in my apron, see yah!" and he responded too. They all gave me that "you're leaving already?" sad puppy look ^^;
I ended up going home and took a nap. Risky, because I didn't even set an alarm. I woke up at 2:30 so it was all good though.

I got to work, and Katie was like, "are you working now?" lol
The dude was like, "oh you're back" LOL dang, okay peoples xD I was almost late waiting for my coffee from Gongcha. I made it within 5min. PHEW.
It was a slow day because the ice rink was closed due to some problems. Shannon ended up letting most people go, and calling others who were scheduled to not come in. I ran errands to the other booth, and awww~ Kat was happy to see me :3 so was Wendy lol
I took 2 trips. Dead tired. I was going to clock out soon after, but a line ended up forming, so I hopped on the window for 30min or so. lolol Afterward, Joley wanted to stay so me and Bekah were sent home. Bekah dropped me off but we couldn't find her car in the parking garage LOL
Also I keep hurting myself??? Yesterday I banged my back on the cash register after trying to move the cooler for Randy, and now it's bruised. Tonight, Henry gently accidentally elbowed my back LOL and I bumped into the time stamp card machine again x'D

But anyway, I'm home now. Going to finish that galaxy painting... and do some more silhouettes? I don't think I forgot anything... I finished watching "Dynamic Chord" yesterday, and also started "Tsukipro the Animation." Seeing these characters and mascots makes me want to sculpt and make keychains etc. Eep, where's the time though?
Did I mention I cried a lot for "Song of the Sea"? I guess not. I was BAWLING at the end. I cried my heart out. It was a good movie :'D

Today wasn't too busy.

I made perfect rice.

Okay, so yesterday I just pre-ordered Chertiz's Believer package ^^; KMN it's more $$$ than RFA VIP package.

Anyway, I just want to sleep right now, but I better write some stuff up... wow, but I actually don't know where to start hm... Lessee~

So it's been so long so I can't really write a whole lot but, on Wed, 12/13, me and Steph walked with Alan (her new friend from stats; her cutie lol) to the library. They were going to study. I thought it would be awkward. It was, but Alan was really easy to get along with. So they didn't start studying 'til later. He gets easily distracted and talks a lot lol. Later that night, Jessie and Romuel joined us. We had so many laughs omg it was a great night! I was working, so no worries lol I was doing my animation for Raquel's final (51B animation). My renders took forever. Jessie left around 1am or so. The rest of us didn't leave until 5 or 6am omg. It was freezing cold when we left. Steph showered and slept. Meanwhile, I had to keep rendering. I barely made it on time, before 8. Well, I submitted at like 7:30am, but when I saw a mistake, I didn't have time to fix it because the render would've taken too long. I showered after that and went to sleep... at 8:30am LOL Lucky for us, we didn't need to go to class for our final. I slept in and woke up around 4:30 pm LOL
Went to Target after Steph got out of her final (I think).
Also, Anna finally connected with me LOL and I told her that we already talked when she asked me about Birdy's hoodie when she was still working at Quickly LOL


Sat, 12/16: Work
I don't remember much but... I had work at the Ice Rink. There was a cosplay gathering so there were so many cute outfits~ Anyway, today I was getting off my lunch and was washing my hand and suddenly the pipe/bucket under the sink disconnected and back flowed so I got dirty water all over my pants and I had wet socks for the rest of the night... YUP. There was 2-hour, never-ending crowd tonight.
Andrew (non-manager, Econ major) clocked out, and I saw him outside the door, but someone closed the door. I was about to clock out too. I wasn't sure if he was waiting...? but when someone came in, I looked out and he wasn't there anymore. Oops. My other co-workers, Rebecca (Beka)h and Matt offered to take me home, so I took it, since Andrew already walked off. I thought Bekah was dropping off her parking pass first. So when she asked me where my apt was, & I was like "you're dropping me off?" she was like, "oh, are you coming home with us?" And I was so confused lol but Matt reminded her she needed to drop off the pass LOL Today Tom (boss) also popped in the booth and once again, praised my drinks. Aww :3

Sun, 12/17: Work
Last night, I was joking with Andrew and Roy and told them I'm working again tomorrow too~ but Andrew was like, but are you at this booth. I thought about it and was like, you're right I'm at the other booth. He said, that's what I thought. But I said, "hey, but Tom keeps modifying my schedule so you never know." And I was right. Tom switched my schedule and I was working at the Ice Rink again.
I was wearing my Pokémon t-shirt with the Unova starters, and Andrew asked which one I picked. I told him Oshawott, but I probably should've went with Snivy. He was like, "you should've" LOL I was in a good mood today (I think) I saw Kevin (in a long while) but I'm guessing he was working at the other booth, just came by to pick up some cider. And then Chazny was working today! :D I was busy so I couldn't properly greet him. And someone was working between us lol 
I think today was the day we ended up running out of a lot of stuff. Later that night, Andrew (manager) left Eli in charge as "manager-in-training" and I was asking him what I should do and he told me to talk to Eli. So I ask Eli; he told me to bar back. When another worker needed a job, he sent her to me LOL WHUT ELI. I worked at the end window, near the storeroom and Eli and Chaz were refilling the coolers so they were putting it back under my counter. I squeezed to the side because I was making a drink for a customer. They pushed, and ended up hitting my leg LOL Chazny apologized, touched my shin(?) where the cooler hit, and asked if I was okay lol and he kept apologizing xD
We closed at 10 today, so we finished around 11:30pm. Since we were scheduled 'til 1am, we went to the other booth, but Berto said they didn't need us since they were pretty much cleaned up too. Lyxi missed me~ aww~
[also the night we found out Jonhyun passed away...]

Mon, 12/18: Surprise visit & all-nighter
Today, Meimei, Arianne/Louegie, & Jessica/Karla came to visit. They called me at 10-ish AM but I was still asleep. The day before, Meimei asked if we had parking so I kinda expected them, but not really the day after being asked lol Steph was still asleep.
They chose the wrong day to come though because I had work at 4:30 and Steph had a final at 5 (so she didn't get to study) but yeah, there's only so many things we could do in so little time ToT Jessie and Zairah hung out with us too. We had Greek food, and Gongcha. Walked around campus. There wasn't much to do. We sent them off to Eastridge to Round 1 lol
Doesn't look like I had much for work... but that my co-worker, Joley, dropped me off but she lost her parking ticket so it took us a while to get out of the lot. I got home, and after grabbing some stuff and dropping stuff off, I headed to La Vic's to grab food (my treat) for Jonathan and Celine since we were going to be working in the PC lab for the final. Jonathan was hyperactive because he was tired. I felt bad, because the last part was the rocks, which I didn't texture yet, so Celine ended having to do most of it. But she was really nice about it and taught me stuff. We went home around 6am.

Tues, 12/19: Final
I was running a little late for finals, but Dave, Jonathan, and Callum went to grab coffee anyway. So I made it to finals technically. There were cheddar biscuits and cookiessss yummmm lol I ate so many cheddar biscuits... x'D We looked at everyone's work, then Dave "taught" us how to render the fly-through properly, so he had us do it in class. But it wasn't working, but we finally got it to work, but the render was taking hours. Justin and David came in to crash the finals. They were talking to Lily about stuff, and Dave and I just popped in randomly in their convo lol I actually talked to Justin, wow. lol Dave had us upload the fly-through by the end of the day. I had my RTVF final to attend to so Lily had to stay to watch the render. As soon as I was done with the final, I made a Starbucks run, and treated Lily to coffee. When I got there, she had to go to the hospital to attend to some family things. So I waited for the rest of the render. When it was finished, it was messed up, so I had to make some fixes, and re-render. It was another 3 hours. The computer display slept, so I had to text Jonathan for his password since we were on his computer, but he was out on a date, so I didn't get a reply 'til an hour later. But I fell asleep on the chairs in the PC lab lol so Jonathan called me x'D Issok, 300 frames were rendered while it slept anyway lol. Steph stopped by to give me my TonTon blanket because it was cold lol We also went to Student Union to grab food. At first I was going for a salad, but I already had salad recently, so I went for Steak n' Shake. Someone paid for my meal! because they had too many Dining Dollars left, so they gave the cashier their ID, and had her swipe for any following customers. Put me in a totally good mood after finals! What a treat!
We ate in the PC lab. Steph grabbed leftover donuts from class lol and then she went to her final a lil' before 5. The render finally finished around 5pm. Afterward, I went home, dropped off stuff and grabbed Arlene's present, and met her and Angeline at Christmas in the Park. There wasn't much to do. After a walk around the park, we went to Muji's for a bit. It was Arlene's 2nd time that day, and she bought so many pens LOL the cashier recognized her, and I think she told him she forgot to buy some stuff and he said "that's a lot of things you forgot" LOL Afterward, I met up with Steph at Student Union, and from there we met up with Jessie at Boba Bar.
I couldn't resist and opened my gift from Arlene, and I got this cute sleeping Shiba Inu pillow and a Pokemon notebook.


Wed, 12/20: Round 1
I was going to go to the final day screening, but I woke up late; late because the screening started at 10, I thought it started at 10:30 :p So I ended up not going, and instead, went to the art building to grab some files before they locked the labs.
Afterward, I got home and Steph was still sleeping. So after I woke her up, I met up with Jessie and we went to Target. I decided to draw while on the bus, and this guy started talking to me, because he was like I'm an artist too. So cool, I thought it'd be a fun chat. He wanted to sit next to me, so I move to the seat next to Jessie, but he was like, oh, I was gonna sit there. Uhm... why did it matter? It felt like he wanted to get between me and Jessie (a feeling I got afterward). He shows me his sketchbook. I find out that he's self-taught, obviously starting out with anime. But hey, he spent time to learn and study anatomy so props to him. I feel like he doesn't have anyone he can "talk" to about his art and stuff, so he was overly excited and wanted to just tell me everything. At some point I started to feel weirded out; a sort of "Joey-incident" all over again, where I thought things were normal but then I get a danger warning from within. Not long after, we reached our stop, so I started getting off. And he was like "oh, are you leaving already?" and I reply, yeah and apologize etc and he says "I was gonna show you more stuff." I continue to apologize and leave. As I get off the bus, he yells out to ask what my name was. WHY DID I SAY MY NAME OTL. Why do I always do this... I hope I never bump into him again... I'm never drawing in public again ToT
Steph meets up with us at Panera. (Panera's soup was so good~) First time at Panera.
After we got back to Jessie's apartment to wrap her co-worker's gift, we sent her off to work and me and Steph went to Eastridge. It was a long day. For some reason, I didn't want to go home at all. So we kept going back into Round 1. We literally spent all day there, 'til the mall closed. We didn't leave Round 1 'til 11:30pm. We went all out at the arcade. We played some games. I danced some. She played a shooting game. And we raced each other. We got tickets. We analyzed the ticket games LOL And we just relaxed and played all day. It was a great de-stress day after finals. Of course, our poor wallets lol so we had to limit ourselves for once a month x'D (We get home & Steph was like, if we're going to spend so many credits, we might as well buy the max credits lolol) We would've left earlier, but Steph was suddenly attached to this elephant plush so we had to get it. I finally got it for her, on our very last try. That cost a lot haha. 


Thur, 12/21: Work (Christmas in the Park booth)
Steph slept over at Kune's today. Jim Snow video-called me and we chatted for like an hour x'D Didn't sleep 'til like 3am. I was telling her about Jacob at work and showed her the TonTon friends plushies.
Speaking of Jacob, he was very talkative today o.o My first time actually talking to him. He's sociable today because "his boys" Keenan (Yo, I totally guessed on his spelling. Checked HotSchedules and I got it right x'D) and Eli were working too, except they were towards the other end of the booth when we were at the end end lol. He set up station next to me. [I told Jim all those, and I already forgot for the most part] But I found, he's actually a really nice and fun guy! When I first worked with him, he looked mean and scary. He didn't talk a lot. Today... he was really talkative lol It was really slow today. There wasn't much to do; our stations were clean and stocked. So I started to take the candy canes out of the wrappers and hanging them on the container. He joined me. This boy though; there is so much room on the other side of the container, but he had to hang them on my side, so our hands kept hitting each other, especially when we tried to take the candy canes out of the container. It was super cold today too so I was really shivering. After a while he said, let's see how many we can fit. So we just kept at it. When either of us had a customer who ordered more than 3 drinks, we technically shared the load lol We chatted about how customers don't come to the ends and instead go for the middle. This old man was walking towards me, but my very energetic co-worker next to us was like "I can help you over here if you're ready!" so the old man drifted toward him, and Jacob was like, "and he was coming for you too" lol (but the old man ended up going down the booth and away) After the candy canes, we were very idle. I'm over here shivering, and I realized he was standing so close to me lol are you trying to keep me warm boy? I could feel his body heat like very, very slightly. And then he was sorta playing around, trying to call Keenan but he had a customer. And he wasn't being loud either LOL but while he was trying to get Keenan's attention, in between he was telling me, those are my boys over there x'D Michelle was being initiated as manager, so she was manager today while Berto watched over things. So during our idle time, Michelle came over to tell us about how managers need to check bills greater than $20, and she was explaining to us. But at this point, there were customers in front of us; they didn't come up to us yet to order, but we both weren't sure if we should interrupt Michelle while she was talking. I glanced at the customers, but tried to give attention to Michelle. Same for Jacob lol after she left, Jacob told me how he didn't know if we should call over customers and I was like, "same" lol I think we ended up helping them afterwards anyway. I was helping a customer and he was talking to me. He was about to yell out "I can help the next customer in line" but he stopped because there was no line LOL (sometimes, we get a crowd just milling about and we don't know if they're in line or not) And he said "I feel stupid when I'm yelling and there's no one" LOL same Jacob, same.
At some point I got called for my 10min break. When I got back, I think it was Christian on my left and then Jacob on the right. So I go between them, and said "I'm back~" to let them know, I'm squeezing back in. And Jacob was like, "were (are?) you leaving me?" but I replied, "No~ I was just on my 10" and got back to work. Later in the night, Michelle comes over to double check I took my 10, and I tell her I did, but that Jacob hadn't yet.
Oh yeah, I bumped butts with Eli. IT WAS SO AWKWARD OMG. I was getting hot apple cider from the station behind him, and he bent down to grab a can of whipped cream from the coolers so fast... that he bumped butts with me. I almost spilled. BUT IT WAS AWK.
Manager's siblings took me home. $27 in tips~
Got home, and made potstickers. Room smelled like potstickers afterward lol Also, bought the Believers package~ Wheee~ <3 there goes $100+. It's $10 more than RFA VIP package, but I shipped with K-packet, instead of EMS this time.
[Edit: I totally forgot this until today, but when it was slow, Jacob started singing behind me. It wasn't even like really quiet LOL and I sorta turned towards him and he was like, I know you know this song. LOL it was "Rocketeer" I think... but I just laughed a bit and turned my attention out the windows LOL]


Fri, 12/22: Grocery shopping & Work
I went to the post office to ask about my photo card; only told that if wasn't deliverable, it'll be sent straight back to the sender. Poor guy at the post office had blood shot eyes. My bus driver was very peppy ^^;
I walked to Safeway afterward to do some grocery shopping. Decided to get ingredients for quesadilla, Chinese chicken salad, and baked potato wedges. Everything totaled up to around $26+, which is all my tips from yesterday LOL I met Steph on the walk back to the apartment. She was going to be late for work lol I walked her to work, but since I didn't eat anything, I got fish balls from Gongcha and Steph used her employee discount. She was like 3min late because of that I think LOL
Worked at the ice rink today. Jacob had an angry look again, but got so peppy as soon as Eli walked in LOL Around 6-ish, Eli asked everyone if anyone wanted to go home at 11. Nobody said they did. I was on my 10min break. I thought about it and decided I should go home early, since Steph was getting off around 11 too. So I went and told Andrew that I could go home early, and he told me Eli wanted to work 'til 1 to stay with Jacob. Oh the bromance ahahaha I can't with them xD I got sent on my lunch soon after my 10 lol I asked Eli just to double check that we could get an ice cream. He confirmed and I was like, "I want an Its-it kekeke" or something along those lines and Eli. ELI. Mocked me lol he was like "teehee. sneaky~" omg xD Oh, and when Reed saw me on break, again, I told him it's because I'm going home early because of Eli. And Eli, walking by, was like "thanks~" hahaha
I was at the 1st window, closest to the booth's door, so when security guards wanted drinks, I was told to make them and take them out the window. My boss was there and he kept praising my drinks and thanked me because I made those drinks for the officers. And then he asked me how I did on the finals (for the contest, but I don't know haha) So I got off early, not too many tips :p Didn't really meet up with Steph because she already walked off to campus lol so I had to wait for her at the corner, gave her her hot chocolate, and I got baked potato wedges from Jack-in-the-Box (2nd time in a row) & curly fries.


Sat, 12/23: Work? [so, my 1st draft of this didn't save so now I need to re-write it, & of course, it's not going to be as good as when I first wrote it -.-]
Anyway, I went to work today when I wasn't scheduled. I mean, I was, but for some reason my HotSchedules didn't have a shift for me today, and I didn't get an e-mail that my schedule was changed .-. So I went to work & didn't realize until my manager Wendy told me I wasn't on her roster. At lunch, I double-checked and found out, yup, wasn't scheduled today. Told Wendy, and she said she wasn't going to send me home because she needed me. I told Michelle too, and she said the same thing lol They give me way too much credit. So I stayed the whole time. Nothing much happened today. Michelle and I are the finalists for the "Best Hot Chocolate Snowman" contest on Facebook, so near the end of the night, we both made a new drink for a picture. Didn't even feel like we were against each other; she put marshmallows in my drink for me, and I went to grab her her cherries while she opened a new can of whipped cream LOL I love Michelle. My right arm is currently sore because I mopped too much yesterday. I forgot I bought a sandwich from Togo's from lunch, so I ate it when I got home :p
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Wow. I managed to blog about the week and some. No biggie, just took like 2-3 hours or so OTL lol
Well, it's been a good run. Today I didn't have work, so I chilled at home, went to sketch at Gongcha. And then went to practice photography at Sonic Runway~
Can't wait 'til the 27th because I'm trying to meet up with Arlene~

Alright, I'm also trying to get back into dA and working with the group I started on there lol Let's try to enter some DTAs, finish some WAAAY overdue art, and concept work for Party Banter?

I've been going back and forth from being really sad and then happy.

Sad, because every time I read more news about Jonghyun, I just start crying...
Why do we live?
Because he couldn't find a way to be happy alive, he decided to end it.
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It's the choices we make... I choose to endure the pains and hardships because for me, the happy moments I cherish outweigh the pain by a lot. (Wow, this is a heavy topic... it probably doesn't help that I'm listening to Reynah's "Y Si Fuera Ella" piano cover either ^^; )
I still mourn for Jonghyun... the reality that he's not with us anymore is constantly hitting me every time I think about him, and the tears won't stop.
But I'll live. Because he'd want all his fans to continue to live... to live on and to find their reasons to live... to be happy...
It was disheartening to realize that despite all the friends he could rely on, he still felt the need to choose his final path... the fact that he planned everything--who knows for how long--and to end it all at the end of the year...
Now every song that I listen to, I can't help but redirect the subject to him/them actually singing about their depression or their inner selves, not some girl...

It took me a while to be able to collect my thoughts...
May this beautiful angel finally gain the peace and happiness he could not find with the Living.

[I had planned to blog about this week, but who knew I'd end up crying again, and I'm not in the mood to write about it... so you'll see me again. Soon. The end of 2017 is just not going so well huh...]

I was in a really good mood after work...
Got home, finished my quick dinner/snack, ready to work on my final...
only for my mood to plummet to the depths of Earth (or so) tonight.

I'm not feeling "well" so I'm gonna head to bed...
I'll blog later when I feel better...

RIP SHINee's Jonghyun... </3

Just got off work. My co-worker Andrew walked me up to campus since he lived on campus. He's pretty chill. A good friend :3
An awkward-ish walk though LOL
Let's start from the beginning of work.

Shannon (our manager) was running late because of her previous work, so we were all waiting for the booth to open. I greeted Andrew when I got there. It's my first time opening/prepping so it was cool. It was slow today; it didn't start to rush until after 8.
Overall, it was a good day. I was busy at the window for the most part. Talked to Stephanie, Cynthia, and Love-lie (Loveline? I forget) a lot today. Talked to others too, but not as much. When I was going for lunch, Andrew was telling Shannon he'll take over my window 'cause he was washing dishes, but he said the wrong name LOL
[Also, we have this contest where if we make a really good looking chocolate, we take a pic and it gets posted or something? So Shannon said I made it really nice but I didn't tell them to take a pic (I'm not really into the contests lol) & I all said was thanks, then I made my 2nd one & she said, that one's good too, here let me take a pic. So I did x'D And she was telling my co-workers that I made it really good & they need to beat it. At some point she also mentioned not to pre-sleeve the cups, and that I knew what I was doing because I didn't pre-sleeve the cups and I make nice snowmen hot chocolate x'D I got 2 pics, one in the beginning of work, and another towards the middle of work. I don't know why Shannon always watches me LOL I think she realized I'm not the type to really show myself off lol]

It was towards the last couple hours of work. Andrew got into a strife with some customers. Shannon ended up just giving them the drinks for free & said it wasn't even worth dealing with (over payment). Speaking of which, apparently we got some fake $100 last week. Today I got a really old $20 and we couldn't tell if it was real or not, so we had to ask for a different bill.
Anyway, minutes later, when we had down time, Andrew turns to our other co-worker, Roy (whom he was talking with when the customers started arguing with him) and Roy was like, still thinking about it? to which he nodded, and I'm like aw :( I know how he feels because that was me when a customer "yelled" at me for not having a 'cash only' sign. She didn't yell at me, but she was my customer, so, yeah. I almost had another customer who wanted to argue about the 'cash only' sign; luckily, they only grumbled about it and walked away. I could just feel his whole mood drop.

When we were cleaning up, Andrew asked where I parked, to which I said I walked, and he said he'll walk me. Shannon, who was listening on, said psychhh, you were going to walk alone young lady? x'D (managers don't let us walk home alone after 12:30am) At first I thought we were going to walk with Cynthia and Gloria, but they said bye to us halfway, so it ended up being just me and Andrew walking to campus.

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Woops, I took a break from typing. Just finished showering & is currently masking. Always sleeping late + cold weather = really bad/dry skin. My hands have been really dry too, from that, & the bleach during work. I really need to do laundry tomorrow too... but anyway, to continue my story...

So Andrew & I are walking to campus. He's judging me for not going to parties and getting f*d up ("let loose," he says), asking 'bout my major. Afterwards, he asks me what kind of art I like (technically), and y'all know I ain't a Old Masters kind of gal, but if I had to answer... I told him if he meant an art era, it'd probably be Impressionism. And he was like, so like van Gogh. I tell him I don't particularly like that, instead, more of Monet. MAH-nay (Manet), he says.
Me: hm? no, Monet.
Him: You mean Manet.
Me: No~ that's a different artist.
And here he continues to argue with me that he's right LOL "ask your roommate, ask your boyfriend. I think I'm right about this." Of course, this is just us joking around.
Then he asks, "are you seeing someone?" I answer no~ and he says, "Sorry, this is a weird question". And I'm thinking in my head, yes it is, why you suddenly ask that~, but answer "It's totally fine~ but no, I'm not seeing anyone." He asks me if I knew what "cuffing season" was. I didn't, but I heard of it; it was the feeling of needing to be in a relationship, he said. So he's asking me why etc. I don't remember what I said? Something along the lines of: not thinking about it, too busy for it. He asks, "so the guys in animation are no good?" I answer, "..... mm, not my type?" And he goes "OKAY. Right through the heart. Dayum" (or something) lolol And I try to answer it better lol He tells me that he gets that question too, about why he doesn't have a girlfriend, and he answers that he just got out of a 10-month thing and doesn't want to get back into another one so fast. I don't remember if there was something else to that. Then he asks me, "so what's your type?" I really hate this question because I can never answer it lol I tell him that I don't really know/have one? And he keeps trying to get me to say, so I answer, "someone nice?" He said that's too general, that as a friend, he'll help me narrow it down LOL And I keep telling him it's really hard etc. So he says, "okay, how about an ideal date?" That's even harder because no one's ever asked me that. LOL So I'm thinking. I answer along the lines of: going out to eat... it doesn't matter as long as it's with the guy I like (?)... but I did want to go to the zoo.
He asks, don't I want a date at the museum, and I say, I actually don't like going to museums LOL and then I mention the zoo. I think at this point, we reached the spot where we have to part ways. I was slightly away from him, but he extended his arm so I gave him a hug. And he said "walk home safe, I'll see you tomorrow."
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Yup. It was a slightly awkward convo ^^;
I wonder if I forgot anything... anyway, it's 5:22am right now. I think I'm done masking. Wow, I better wake up at a decent time tomorrow.
I meant to write about that day we pulled an all-nighter at the library on Tues; I'll write tomorrow. This post ended up being quite long ^^;

By the way Minar, that was a really cute story! I could see a whole drama unfolding haha (plus, I also thought it was a story you wrote on yourself LOL at first. I could totally imagine her as you. *raises eyebrows, up & down* You be seeing your neighbor and classmate on the buses LOL
Also, totally understand the "I-remember-them, they-don't-remember-me" thing x'D

Alright, forreal goodnight. My shoulder blades hurt and I'm sleepy ZZzzz

gotta keep going.

I'm super tired; work was tiring last night.
Today was the last day of class. Raquel cancelled this morning though, so I got up, walked almost to the end of the block, checked my e-mail, & went home to nap before Dave's class. Dave ended up coming back an hour late from Las Vegas.
I just got back from working with Tanner on our RTVF group project (I was there for 30min, doing nothing) and walking Steph to class. Now waiting for Steph and Jess, so we can go get dinner.

Currently looking at videos for inspiration because I'm starting to work on my sketchbook... If you want, check some of them out! (Of course there's more :3 )

• Sketchbook Tips
• Building Confidence
• Crhistine's Sketchbook
• Inspirational Quotes
• 7 Ways to Fill a Sketchbook

... is not a good combo x'D

I was, of course, closing again. I worked at the Ice Rink. The manager there when I got there-- she was like 18 y/o-- was addressing me, but she called me Kathy x'D I was like, I'm not Kathy lolol she said I really looked like her haha. Anyway, after I clocked in, Andrew came in a lil' bit later and was manager for my shift. He brought 2 other guys (his friends?) to work and they all ended up taking me home after closing.

It was busy like usual. Okay, maybe more than usual; we had a never-ending crowd for like 2 or 3 hours OTL. Everyone at the window was dying. We were so busy we had to ask for a worker from Christmas in the Park. It was Benson! haha
I also saw Chazny! To be honest, he looked really familiar but I wasn't sure who he was lolol and my only guess was, Chazny. I was working at the window when he and his friends came up. I was finishing up a drink. I look up and see him on the side, coming up. He flashes me this really bright, gentle, innocent cute smile (Okay. Y'all know I'm a sucker for eyes and smiles) And I don't remember how I reacted, but I turn back to finish up with the customer. He comes up to the window and asks for 3 large chocolates, so I start making them while constantly thinking, why'd he smile... Then Derek who was working next to me was like, give it to him for free. I'm like, okay in my head, thinking, so he works with us? My mind is just constantly thinking lol. So then he and Derek starts talking about working tomorrow and I'm like, okay, so he does. He was also saying he feels bad getting 3 large drinks (for his friends) and was gonna pay for it but Derek was like nah, you good. After giving his friends the drinks, he asks Derek for one more large. I couldn't stand not knowing so I ask him, have we worked together before? And he was telling me his first shift at Christmas in the Park a week or 2 ago and I'm still trying to think lol Derek finishes up and Chazny leaves.
After a while I was turn to Derek, what was his name? Derek laughs and says he doesn't remember his name. And I say, oh so you just recognized him? He says they worked together last night. lol. And I say, was his name Chazny? And Derek goes, oh yeah. Lol And I'm feeling bad forgetting Chazny xD (Sorry Chaz)
Hey, to my credit I did remember him, just wasn't sure xD He looked different okay. He wasn't wearing the hat, and he was dressed so fanxy. So adorable haha. Awwww
Anyway, also saw Jassimran and Jessamae!

Okay, that was probably all. Me and Steph be waking up too late to do anything before work ^^; Same with today too. OTL Well, I slept to my heart's content Friday night because I was dead tired from the week. Not to mention, I was out all Friday from 9am for final, to picking up my Tonton Friends package (look forward to an unboxing!), to having the winter Party Banter meeting (we doing some character designs :p), to going to 14F later that night.
I have work soon! I didn't pick up a shift to close, but that's what Tom did... denied that 1st one but decided to book me for closing. AGAIN. I hate being an available 20 y/o LOL (minors can't do closing) Also planning to work 'til end of December, since the season's gonna be over and might as well.
I want Parmesan bites.
~Lip & lip & hips~

EDIT: EEYYYY I just got my paycheck~ :D

Yesterday, Steph and I went out after classes. (I was late to ARTH, & was only there for 15min because she let class out early for extra credit quiz) I was pretty much getting annoyed because of the stupid bus not coming. We wasted like 30min waiting for it. And not to mention I hadn't eaten yet, so I was hangry. We finally changed bus stops and got on the bus to Wal-mart. I was sleepy.

We finally got to Wal-mart and accidentally binged on snacks--chocolate and chips x'D We also ate a quick snack at McD. We almost left without picking up my heater, which was the whole point lol. Afterward we went to Thai Chili's for dinner. Who knew we'd bump into Jonathan Weiser and Michael Fullilove xD And omg, I was totally calling them out lol because all we saw were 2 guys coming in. And one of them (Jonathan) was looking at the menu outside and held the door open, so I was complaining that he could've just come in to look at the menu x'D And then when they came in to order, I realized LOL We chatted a bit, they talked with Steph lol Jonathan was teasing Steph lol and then they got their food and sat behind us, and we were going to leave. I jokingly told Steph to give them chocolate, and she really did LOL weird xD

We got home and looked at our haul of snacks x'D Also, I got a note of missed delivery OTL. I thought it was the UV lamp, but when I got to the post office today, I was surprised that it was the Tonton Friends package! Super excited about it~ and embarrassed because the packaging was way too cute lol So when I got home, Steph helped me with the unboxing. Super. Cute.
I went to check the mail, and my UV lamp and glow-in-the-dark powder was in there xD
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On another note, I finished my DSGN 100W final today. It okay. And last night, I worked 'til 2:30am typing up presentation evaluations that I forgot to do; ended up not really fulfilling the requirements but whatever.
Also on Wednesday, we went over the winter sketchbook for portfolio part2 OTL kinda nervous about it, but I wanna have fun with it :p

Currently at Gongcha, waiting for the Party Banter meeting at 3pm (for Winter, character design project :p) Still debating whether to go to 14F or not... I probably will. Grr I have so much to do.

Today I slept longer than I wanted to, so I obviously didn't get work done. I did clean up a bit though, & organized my craft supplies.

Work was good today.
Me & Steph walked to work together. I grabbed a milk tea before work & I barely managed to finish it 😅 I worked with Cindy (Steph's groupmate) today, with Wendy, the manager-on-duty. At one point, she asked me how old I was & after finding out I was 20, she asked if I could stay longer. Which I did & she gave me a hug because I agreed lol

She also gave me & 3 other workers a challenge: to fill 40 cases of cherry snowmen, & we'd get free company t-shirts. I wonder how many cases we actually did; no one was counting 😅 Me & Cindy delivered supplies to the Ice Rink booth & later had to go over to help out. I barely helped out for 5 minutes before Tom took me back to the Christmas in the Park booth. Wendy told me to barback but since it was busy, she told me to take a window instead. So I took the window next to Kevin :D

We chatted a bit while making drinks. He was asking me where I was & I told him I was sent to the Ice Rink to help & he was like no wonder you weren't around, I was wondering where you went. And I was thinking in my head aww lol To be honest, when people started clocking out, I was seeing if he left or not LOL (I wonder if he came over to restock for me earlier in my shift & said something along the lines of "just making sure you had everything etc" 🤔 I can't remember. I like it when he looks out for me lol) And I didn't have fresh whipping cream so I took his & he said "did you just jack my frosting?" 😂

I barely worked 5 minutes at the window & Wendy told me to take a 10 minute break. My last customer just tipped me $8, I'm 😭 <3

When we were starting to clean up I think, Kevin asked if I was going to head to campus & I said yes, so he asked if we should walk together so I said okay. I ended up clocking out half an hour earlier than him, but since we already said we'd walk together, I waited for him. He did say I could go ahead but, I mean, we already agreed on walking together lol We didn't leave 'til 1am. Tom was at our booth, & when Wendy was going to walk Katie to her car, she was telling Tom who needed to clock out etc. He questioned what I was doing/if I needed to clock out etc. I told him I clocked out already; he asked how I was getting home. I told him I was walking with him -points to Kevin who had his back turned to us because he was washing the pot- & Tom said, oh you're walking with Kev. I glance at Wendy, & she's giving an aww how sweet reaction & I'm like wuhhhhh 😂
We finally walk back & it was okay. We chatted here & there, but we did have some silent moments. He was scootering xD We got to the parking garage, & he once again asks if I was okay walking home. I said yeah since it was really a short distance & he kept shaking his head, saying it's not safe lol so he ended up walking me. I thought he was just gonna watch me cross the street but he said he was already here anyway & walked me back to the apartment. Gave him a hug before he left :3 I guess I won't be seeing him for a while 😔
On a side note, Benson forgot my name 🙄 lol

It's 4am, I need to get up early to bus to the bank to get quarters for laundry. I have so much homework to do. My stomach is currently crying for food because the only thing I ate was some potstickers. I wasn't hungry & was lazy to get food when I was on my lunch break.
Goodnight

I don't know why, but this week has been a bad week. There were some good moments.
Only moments.

It has finally ended, so hopefully things will turn for the better. I've been super tired lately because of work. Today's presentation went horrible, but it's whatever. I'm just glad I don't have to deal with it anymore; well, that's not completely true since I still have to write my essay for it. There's just so much work & the cold & this bubble on the inside of my lip isn't helping either.
Some good things that happened this week was, work was pretty fun :3 I'm also waiting on various packages, including crafting supplies and my computer screen~
Speaking of packages, I'm still waiting on a latte pen HMM

Well anyway, I should go shower and sleep and just not think about anything right now... I was supposed to sleep like 2 hours ago LOL

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^

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