 konnichiwa~
Hello there & welcome to my blog. Here you'll read tidbits about my daily life, some random thoughts, & maybe a rant here and there. I'm sure you'll learn something about me, if you don't know me of course. Down below are links to find me (personal accounts not posted). I hope you enjoyed your stay while listening to the songs I'm recently listening to. Come back & read again~ ^w^/
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PARK BONGYOUNG
written on Saturday, December 31, 2016 @ 5:13 AM ✈
It's been a whole day, and I still can't get over my dream. Like Park Bongyoung... WHAT YOU DOING IN MY DREAM. He was so aslkdflkasdfjlk *melts* In short, he asked me out and I pecked him on the lips LOL bruh it felt so real. The hug felt so real too I CAN'T. I didn't want to wake up so when I did, I was like TT. He was so huggable~ his smile in my dream... WAS TOO SWEET. I won't even talk about the rest of the dream because it's not interesting bahaha it was weird but -shrugs- Anyway, I don't know why I would suddenly dream about him because I didn't even watch anything related to him. I woke up and was so sldfjlalks I just went onto IG to screenshot his pictures LOL KMN.
Anywho, another busy few days because I went back to SF again; with Jim because she started work. Helped them settle in. Wasn't much. Jim got off work earlier than expected because work is slow due to holidays. I did the cooking for them. Jen had 3 days off, instead of 2, when they called to ask if she could take a day off lol. We did a lot of shopping, but still can't find a felting mat (speaking of which, I have so many things I want to do that I should really start doing). I dunno. I've been sorta high these few days lol I laughed too much. Since I was finally able to sit down in their in-law house today, I was able to design some MYOs, like 2 species lol and did some practice in my Bootcamp book. Jim drove back to Stockton after she got off work, and we got home around 1am. It was so foggy when we got to a little before Lathrop. First thing she did was open her 24K stuff lol Then she bleached my hair again (which is why I'm up this late because I just showered).
My Tsukiuta. fan artbook never came in. I is sad. I asked the seller for a replacement, and after some time, if they don't respond, I guess that book was never meant to be and I'll just get a refund.. ToT
BRUH. I ate way too much. I seriously need to do some exercise, even if it's just a little. -grumble grumble- This weight gain is ridiculous.
Also meeting up with friends tomorrow [today]~ ah, it's been difficult to get a date where everyone can go. Everyone has their own agenda and plans so it's hard to find a date within the time before Meimei has to leave for UCI. And we have to squeeze in 'TT' cover, and I really do want to!
And I'm finally gonna be home for longer than a few days! Meaning! I can finally catch up on music, videos, anime, & dramas~
Zzzz... Getting sleepier now. Blood vessels reachin' my pupils. Time to sleep! My skin is getting so bad... Even if my hair is still wet... Let me dream about PBY again~ *heart eyes*
Can you believe it's almost 2017? I hope it'll be a better year.
Happy Holidays!
written on Tuesday, December 27, 2016 @ 1:55 AM ✈
Hey! It's been a while ^^; I've been off school almost a week now? And I've been so busy to sit and actually post. There's actually been quite a lot of stuff that happened ^u^
Did I even mention Jim went to New Jersey for 3 weeks? Jen spent almost a week with Jim. I got off Wed (12/21) and Jen picked me up after my ANI screening. I stayed over at Jen's until Friday, when we went to pick up Jim from the airport. That night Jen stayed home and left for work around 5:30am. Me and Jo ended up talking about her "boyfriend" bahaha late into the morning & Jen was up while we were still talking. We were being too loud and Jim woke up too LOL.
The next day we went to SF again so Jim and Mom & Dad could go see the new apartment. We also spent time in Chinatown. After checking out the in-law house (easier to say apartment lol) we went out to have dinnah! Ah, I'm just lazy to say much lol
Then of course on Christmas we had family dinner. Can you believe I slept in on Christmas LOL I woke up at 3pm. Hm, I wonder why... I think I slept late 'cause Jo made me play Revelation Online Beta, and I ended up showering late and sleeping at 3am. Also finished my first run-through of MM's Christmas DLC and ended up being kidnapped by Unknown. Ahaha...hahaha... haha..
And my Christmas ended with Lee teasing me omg I still can't believe he brought up the letter. Man, every time we chat or something he always brings up relationships gah. He also mentioned he'll be moving out of Stockton next year. I wondered what happened... looks like something bad happened. I asked a bit, and he just brushed it off, so I kept the text light and happy. But man... he tease me too much >///< I was dying sheesh. But it wasn't too bad? It was like... a friendly fluster? since he wasn't teasing me in a bad way (I don't think lol) I don't really know how to explain it... I didn't mind too much that he brought it up and was teasing me. and it was just kinda funny. I guess I got over that letter. What was it he said, I wanted to make you shy again. Like, what is up with that boy? xD He's really weird sometimes... but I ended the conversation pretty casually, and following his joke. Hm... do you understand it? lol
Today I went to Arianne's for "TT" practice with Jessica and Meimei. I also gave them their charms~ We didn't practice a lot. It's been a while, so it was sort of awkward. I tried to ignore the fact that it was awkward LOL and tried to make it like how it always was. It was a mess though ^^; we took a break, that ended up being pretty long. We made cookies~ and played with Arianne's cat and bunny~ Louegie was there and I felt bad that I didn't greet him; it was just too awkward haha Then Robin came. I was not expecting him, but I guess Louegie felt awkward with only us girls there lol Ahhh, what do you do when a couple is acting lovey-dovey haha
But Robin is still as clingy to me as ever. I got another massage (like, his instinct is to massage me? Iunno...), and he also gave me a ride home. Ah, I don't know how he does it. It's almost 2 years now, and still...? I don't know if he's doing that just to "act that way" or if he's serious... he's a little bit more mature now I guess... ah, what am I saying.
If y'all know me, I melt pretty easily LOL but... feels bad when I was just texting Lee yesterday and texting Robin today. Why does it always feel like I'm two-timing when I'm dating neither. Oi.
Anyways, happy late Christmas to my blog. Another year going gone~ Tomorrow gonna help Jim move in ZZzz where is my book from Amazon -.- delivery so late...
Oh! I totally forgot about my projects. Ah, well, still didn't do very well in ANI 12, but at least it's not a fail. C- is still eh, but like, I can't take it anymore anyway? Oh wells. ANI 50 project did well! Even though it wasn't fully complete with 100 masterworks. I don't know if she noticed? I even got a special mention during our book potluck. I also talked to the other girl who got special mention. Man, hers was super cool. Compared to her mine was nothing, but she was still so nice ToT
Wow. Priorities.
written on Saturday, December 10, 2016 @ 10:24 PM ✈
Now playing: Pokemon XY - Unwavering Emotions
Where to start... well yesterday Nancy drove me to her brother's place 'cause she was holding a potluck (I keep thinking hot pot lol) & we ate a lot~ We also watched Pride & Prejudice Zombies, which was cool and all... LOL cute ending (before the actual ending haha) Alin drove me home. I woke up this morning & my throat is so dead. I think I'm "yeet hei" so I drank 2 cups of ha song gook. Spicy foods yesterday, not really, but also very salty etc. Now drinking hot choco~ I was craving the other day, & I was sad we didn't have any lol Nancy's Christmas gift was just in time, plus a microwaveable cup! haha
I spent almost the whole day working on my journal. Seeing how far I've gotten, I question how much I could've done if I made better decisions and actually worked on the journal diligently instead of procrastinating. I keep saying "I'll finish, I'll finish," but the hours fly by and I barely finished like a thing or two because they're so time-consuming. I don't think I would be even close to finish if my sisters didn't help me research ToT
I watched this FB video where Asian Americans were asked when was the last time they said 'I love you' to their parents. I skipped some parts and watched the parts where they're talking to their parents. And these 2 girls started crying when they were telling their mom how much they appreciated them. I started crying even before she did. No. Not just tearing. I was literally crying like I just watched some sad part (not a sad movie because I would've been bawling, but it was close). I guess it just hit home really hard.
--had to stop typing for a while because I started crying thinking about the video. currently crying as I'm typing. Doesn't help that that song is on loop LOL--
I don't know if it really hit home that hard, or if the stress is secretly creeping out because the tears got triggered.
ANYWHO. Bless my lazy sisters who helped me research x'D I think I would've died if not. ToT <3
Well. Back to work. This was just nagging in my mind. Also, hikarinoakari got a new admin :D & the species I'm helping out with on dA seems to be going good. The creator is always messaging me, to bad I can't get any work done for her 'til winter break ^^; I also giving up on the UP10TION cover LOLOL technically in 3rd, who knows, there could be a 1K view I didn't see yet xD but I pretty much stopped checking
Grind
written on Wednesday, December 7, 2016 @ 1:47 AM ✈
I finally got my KMR green hoodie! Happy happy~ Plus Cheritz's replacement barcode card.
Anyway, I gave myself a sort of break today. I didn't really do homework except finish notes for 28. Attempted to finish my daily sketchbook. Almost there! 10 more + 80 masterwork sketches (which are probably easier to do). Grabbed Taco Bell at it too. Need to do my research, but I think I'll search & type as I go through the artists... For some I need to do research first because I need to know if they're old masters or illustrators. Plan to do some 12 work during gap time. I will have 2 projects done by next week then I can focus on 12! Bless Inga for delaying the notebook 'til the week after TvT
Let's grind! It's final weeks and project deadlines are looming ahead. While I still get distracted, I have an urge to reach my goals etc. The printing of the journal might be pushed to Friday, depending on where I am by Thursday morning... don't really want to risk it because there are so many people needing to print... & I haven't gotten quotes, so I need to head out earlier too...
Sketchbooks! I'm someone who doesn't have a habit of carrying around a sketchbook. Last year for 24, I pretty much failed the daily sketchbook. This time around I did slightly better. And it's surprising coming from someone who doesn't draw in sketchbooks everyday, but artists everywhere, bring a sketchbook! Or even just loose paper and a clipboard/folder. And observe everything~
Music--it's distracting me. The owner for HikarinoAkari is deciding to "retire", probably taking the site with him/her. I haven't even had the chance to download everything I wanted. Plus, where am I gonna get future musicccc aka Uta no Prince-sama that's currently still releasing duet units, & Tsukinopro's music (when they get their own anime plus Tsukiuta's bonus episode ending songs)!!! He/she said they'll keep the site up if their Twitter account gets 4K followers. I think that's stretch...
Anyway I read and watched a few inspirational/motivational stuff and got a few ideas to put into motion. I can't wait for winter break to do some DIYs, arts, sewing/felting & cooking/baking! ^u^
New goals
written on Sunday, December 4, 2016 @ 8:09 PM ✈
Still struggling with the woodpecker rendering. At least I forced myself to start; it doesn't look super bad yet...
So did you know, I'm someone who's afraid of a bad result? I like to try new things, but ironically, I'm scared of starting because I'm afraid of it turning out bad. As an artist, I can't have that fear; because of 10,000 drawings, only 1 is actually good. I haven't had a time where something came out horribly unacceptably terrible yet... so I don't know why I always have an attitude of "It's gonna turn out bad anyway so why start". I always feel pressured to be up to par with my classmates; if it's something not worthy, I don't feel like sharing you know? Even though I have to face the (constructive) criticism to grow, I'm afraid. It's not like anyone has come up to me and said "what the heck is that?" with distaste or anything like that. Everyone has been totally supportive.
Ah, I came here to talk about goals xD I found out about Artella, and I can't wait 'til my skills are up to par so I can participate in collaborations all over the world~ with a possibility to be in my portfolio~ ((Speaking of portfolio, gah, I have the portfolio review ToT))
(Un)healthy animate addiction?
written on @ 4:00 PM ✈
While I am probably putting myself up for failure because I decided to waste another hour or 2 looking at TsukiPro stuff, let me tell you about this...
Why are Blu-ray DVDs so expensive!? ToT I cry... I got addicted to watching lives of seiyuus after Uta no Prince-sama lol while Tsukipro Live 2016 in Nakano isn't a main, the Tsukiuta stage play is! I managed to find links for the 1st stage, but the 2nd one, 2.5 Dimension Dance Live: Act II Yumemigusa is ToT It's coming out in 2017, but it'll probably be really hard to find links for that... the limited edition, which include both the Sakura and Tsuki parts--aka Six Gravity and Procellarum stage performances and the bonus footages, is almost $118, while individually, it would cost about $69. Today is the live for their 3rd one, Lunatic Live ToT
While looking those stuff up, I found that IDOLM@STER also had a live stage for ST@RTING LINE and I'm like adslkjfaskdfj The Moon/Sun version individually is about $53. Though IDOLM@STER is also not a main (yet).
Speaking of Tsukipro, the whole Tsukipro team is getting an anime! So we get to see SolidS/QUELL, Soara, and Growth~ I'm excited~Labels: animate, live, quell, soara, solids, stageplay, tsukino pro, tsukipro, tsukiuta
Screwed
written on @ 12:40 AM ✈
The cycle continues... I knew it was gonna happen again >x<
I kept rolling in bed this morning, not wanting to get up. I finally got out of bed around 12. The rest of the day just went by so fast afterward. There was a corgi event today; I did plan to go but since I woke up so late I didn't deserve corgis ToT (I would've seen him too...) ANYWAY, I was sort of distracted today, not really since I forced myself and did spend almost 2 hours on the woodpecker. The plan was to start rendering today. Screwed because I haven't even done the mechanical yet. I was so done with the woodpecker that I worked on stuff for 50, which ended up being around 4 hours? Then I worked on saving pictures for the artist research. That took a good 2 hours. After that, I realized... I have yet to do the research, almost 80 masterwork studies, & still need around 20 daily sketches... & I need to have all that done by at least Wednesday night because I want it printed Thursday. And it doesn't seem likely.
I have a few more notes to do for 28, that is supposedly due Wed. Notebook for 12 which I ended up lagging behind almost a month or 2?
The woodpecker render, sketches and mechanical for illuminated cube-like object due for 12 on Monday, plus another pass for my animation for 28. Also History quiz on Tuesday, and I haven't even read the book yet. I could have crossed off more stuff if I had only woken up! I hate this...
Starting to stress because I kept eating today...? Sigh, excited for our apartment bonding day aka baking & Christmas in the Park, maybe, & for the end of the semester though!
Was watching Birdy vids, and it got me wanting to work. Also the Tsukiuta series FB page is updating on the TsukiSta actors tweets because today is the Lunatic Live stage (3rd live I think?) & the actors are tweeting. Gah they're so cute~ seeing their pics and tweets make me happy ^^ but I cannot let them distract me! >x<
Finding Jobs
written on Thursday, December 1, 2016 @ 1:17 PM ✈
Random thought: should I or should I not be worried if I could get a job in the industry?
To be honest, at my skill level, I should just focus on improving LOL but why do people say it's hard to find a job in my field? I just read an email from my advisor, and there's like over 20 jobs. I get that that's little for everyone who's graduating, but still, that's a lot right? My teachers say "no worries, there's jobs out there" yet sometimes it's "there's plenty of jobs, but so competitive" which equals in, maybe you won't get a job. I don't know. Just some random ramblings.
Side note, Anna's kickstarter is funded! I can't wait :D but a little bit regretting not getting the package LOL Just a little.
Decent
written on @ 12:28 AM ✈
Today was a... decent day.
Not great, but better than Monday 'aight. I worked on my journal cover in 50 today & I really like how it came out! :D Then came 12... it was better than I thought (& I thought really bad okay lol) Didn't eat anything today except for a sandwich so I was really hungry. I planned to just eat a fruit, shower and sleep, but then naww lol so I made cup noodle. Only 1 more left! lol Finally posted my cover for UP10TION's "White Night." I am so embarrassed posting it up on SNS & asking for views. How do people do eeet. lol There's only one other person who's uploaded a cover, but I don't know if she's entering the contest? Well, I should've showered an hour ago, but I got distracted on Twitter, doing nothing to be honest.
I swear, "Giraffe Blues" is so addictive. I really have an urge to pull out my violin and attempt a cover, knowing I will most definitely give up after a measure or two LOL
Alright, time to go. Guilty for not doing anything productive during my 3 hours home :p La Lune Sucrée is a European pastry café close by, and I just looked at their menu... and wow things look delicioussss~
EDIT: Gah! I got distracted again! I can't believe I'm getting all squealy because of a random webtoon I'm reading. He, Him and Us. Why is it so cute! xD I need like 57 tokens to read all the chapters... how.... can I get enough fast... lol
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PARK BONGYOUNG
written on Saturday, December 31, 2016 @ 5:13 AM ✈
It's been a whole day, and I still can't get over my dream. Like Park Bongyoung... WHAT YOU DOING IN MY DREAM. He was so aslkdflkasdfjlk *melts* In short, he asked me out and I pecked him on the lips LOL bruh it felt so real. The hug felt so real too I CAN'T. I didn't want to wake up so when I did, I was like TT. He was so huggable~ his smile in my dream... WAS TOO SWEET. I won't even talk about the rest of the dream because it's not interesting bahaha it was weird but -shrugs- Anyway, I don't know why I would suddenly dream about him because I didn't even watch anything related to him. I woke up and was so sldfjlalks I just went onto IG to screenshot his pictures LOL KMN.
Anywho, another busy few days because I went back to SF again; with Jim because she started work. Helped them settle in. Wasn't much. Jim got off work earlier than expected because work is slow due to holidays. I did the cooking for them. Jen had 3 days off, instead of 2, when they called to ask if she could take a day off lol. We did a lot of shopping, but still can't find a felting mat (speaking of which, I have so many things I want to do that I should really start doing). I dunno. I've been sorta high these few days lol I laughed too much. Since I was finally able to sit down in their in-law house today, I was able to design some MYOs, like 2 species lol and did some practice in my Bootcamp book. Jim drove back to Stockton after she got off work, and we got home around 1am. It was so foggy when we got to a little before Lathrop. First thing she did was open her 24K stuff lol Then she bleached my hair again (which is why I'm up this late because I just showered).
My Tsukiuta. fan artbook never came in. I is sad. I asked the seller for a replacement, and after some time, if they don't respond, I guess that book was never meant to be and I'll just get a refund.. ToT
BRUH. I ate way too much. I seriously need to do some exercise, even if it's just a little. -grumble grumble- This weight gain is ridiculous.
Also meeting up with friends tomorrow [today]~ ah, it's been difficult to get a date where everyone can go. Everyone has their own agenda and plans so it's hard to find a date within the time before Meimei has to leave for UCI. And we have to squeeze in 'TT' cover, and I really do want to!
And I'm finally gonna be home for longer than a few days! Meaning! I can finally catch up on music, videos, anime, & dramas~
Zzzz... Getting sleepier now. Blood vessels reachin' my pupils. Time to sleep! My skin is getting so bad... Even if my hair is still wet... Let me dream about PBY again~ *heart eyes*
Can you believe it's almost 2017? I hope it'll be a better year.
Happy Holidays!
written on Tuesday, December 27, 2016 @ 1:55 AM ✈
Hey! It's been a while ^^; I've been off school almost a week now? And I've been so busy to sit and actually post. There's actually been quite a lot of stuff that happened ^u^
Did I even mention Jim went to New Jersey for 3 weeks? Jen spent almost a week with Jim. I got off Wed (12/21) and Jen picked me up after my ANI screening. I stayed over at Jen's until Friday, when we went to pick up Jim from the airport. That night Jen stayed home and left for work around 5:30am. Me and Jo ended up talking about her "boyfriend" bahaha late into the morning & Jen was up while we were still talking. We were being too loud and Jim woke up too LOL.
The next day we went to SF again so Jim and Mom & Dad could go see the new apartment. We also spent time in Chinatown. After checking out the in-law house (easier to say apartment lol) we went out to have dinnah! Ah, I'm just lazy to say much lol
Then of course on Christmas we had family dinner. Can you believe I slept in on Christmas LOL I woke up at 3pm. Hm, I wonder why... I think I slept late 'cause Jo made me play Revelation Online Beta, and I ended up showering late and sleeping at 3am. Also finished my first run-through of MM's Christmas DLC and ended up being kidnapped by Unknown. Ahaha...hahaha... haha..
And my Christmas ended with Lee teasing me omg I still can't believe he brought up the letter. Man, every time we chat or something he always brings up relationships gah. He also mentioned he'll be moving out of Stockton next year. I wondered what happened... looks like something bad happened. I asked a bit, and he just brushed it off, so I kept the text light and happy. But man... he tease me too much >///< I was dying sheesh. But it wasn't too bad? It was like... a friendly fluster? since he wasn't teasing me in a bad way (I don't think lol) I don't really know how to explain it... I didn't mind too much that he brought it up and was teasing me. and it was just kinda funny. I guess I got over that letter. What was it he said, I wanted to make you shy again. Like, what is up with that boy? xD He's really weird sometimes... but I ended the conversation pretty casually, and following his joke. Hm... do you understand it? lol
Today I went to Arianne's for "TT" practice with Jessica and Meimei. I also gave them their charms~ We didn't practice a lot. It's been a while, so it was sort of awkward. I tried to ignore the fact that it was awkward LOL and tried to make it like how it always was. It was a mess though ^^; we took a break, that ended up being pretty long. We made cookies~ and played with Arianne's cat and bunny~ Louegie was there and I felt bad that I didn't greet him; it was just too awkward haha Then Robin came. I was not expecting him, but I guess Louegie felt awkward with only us girls there lol Ahhh, what do you do when a couple is acting lovey-dovey haha
But Robin is still as clingy to me as ever. I got another massage (like, his instinct is to massage me? Iunno...), and he also gave me a ride home. Ah, I don't know how he does it. It's almost 2 years now, and still...? I don't know if he's doing that just to "act that way" or if he's serious... he's a little bit more mature now I guess... ah, what am I saying.
If y'all know me, I melt pretty easily LOL but... feels bad when I was just texting Lee yesterday and texting Robin today. Why does it always feel like I'm two-timing when I'm dating neither. Oi.
Anyways, happy late Christmas to my blog. Another year going gone~ Tomorrow gonna help Jim move in ZZzz where is my book from Amazon -.- delivery so late...
Oh! I totally forgot about my projects. Ah, well, still didn't do very well in ANI 12, but at least it's not a fail. C- is still eh, but like, I can't take it anymore anyway? Oh wells. ANI 50 project did well! Even though it wasn't fully complete with 100 masterworks. I don't know if she noticed? I even got a special mention during our book potluck. I also talked to the other girl who got special mention. Man, hers was super cool. Compared to her mine was nothing, but she was still so nice ToT
Wow. Priorities.
written on Saturday, December 10, 2016 @ 10:24 PM ✈
Now playing: Pokemon XY - Unwavering Emotions
Where to start... well yesterday Nancy drove me to her brother's place 'cause she was holding a potluck (I keep thinking hot pot lol) & we ate a lot~ We also watched Pride & Prejudice Zombies, which was cool and all... LOL cute ending (before the actual ending haha) Alin drove me home. I woke up this morning & my throat is so dead. I think I'm "yeet hei" so I drank 2 cups of ha song gook. Spicy foods yesterday, not really, but also very salty etc. Now drinking hot choco~ I was craving the other day, & I was sad we didn't have any lol Nancy's Christmas gift was just in time, plus a microwaveable cup! haha
I spent almost the whole day working on my journal. Seeing how far I've gotten, I question how much I could've done if I made better decisions and actually worked on the journal diligently instead of procrastinating. I keep saying "I'll finish, I'll finish," but the hours fly by and I barely finished like a thing or two because they're so time-consuming. I don't think I would be even close to finish if my sisters didn't help me research ToT
I watched this FB video where Asian Americans were asked when was the last time they said 'I love you' to their parents. I skipped some parts and watched the parts where they're talking to their parents. And these 2 girls started crying when they were telling their mom how much they appreciated them. I started crying even before she did. No. Not just tearing. I was literally crying like I just watched some sad part (not a sad movie because I would've been bawling, but it was close). I guess it just hit home really hard.
--had to stop typing for a while because I started crying thinking about the video. currently crying as I'm typing. Doesn't help that that song is on loop LOL--
I don't know if it really hit home that hard, or if the stress is secretly creeping out because the tears got triggered.
ANYWHO. Bless my lazy sisters who helped me research x'D I think I would've died if not. ToT <3
Well. Back to work. This was just nagging in my mind. Also, hikarinoakari got a new admin :D & the species I'm helping out with on dA seems to be going good. The creator is always messaging me, to bad I can't get any work done for her 'til winter break ^^; I also giving up on the UP10TION cover LOLOL technically in 3rd, who knows, there could be a 1K view I didn't see yet xD but I pretty much stopped checking
Grind
written on Wednesday, December 7, 2016 @ 1:47 AM ✈
I finally got my KMR green hoodie! Happy happy~ Plus Cheritz's replacement barcode card.
Anyway, I gave myself a sort of break today. I didn't really do homework except finish notes for 28. Attempted to finish my daily sketchbook. Almost there! 10 more + 80 masterwork sketches (which are probably easier to do). Grabbed Taco Bell at it too. Need to do my research, but I think I'll search & type as I go through the artists... For some I need to do research first because I need to know if they're old masters or illustrators. Plan to do some 12 work during gap time. I will have 2 projects done by next week then I can focus on 12! Bless Inga for delaying the notebook 'til the week after TvT
Let's grind! It's final weeks and project deadlines are looming ahead. While I still get distracted, I have an urge to reach my goals etc. The printing of the journal might be pushed to Friday, depending on where I am by Thursday morning... don't really want to risk it because there are so many people needing to print... & I haven't gotten quotes, so I need to head out earlier too...
Sketchbooks! I'm someone who doesn't have a habit of carrying around a sketchbook. Last year for 24, I pretty much failed the daily sketchbook. This time around I did slightly better. And it's surprising coming from someone who doesn't draw in sketchbooks everyday, but artists everywhere, bring a sketchbook! Or even just loose paper and a clipboard/folder. And observe everything~
Music--it's distracting me. The owner for HikarinoAkari is deciding to "retire", probably taking the site with him/her. I haven't even had the chance to download everything I wanted. Plus, where am I gonna get future musicccc aka Uta no Prince-sama that's currently still releasing duet units, & Tsukinopro's music (when they get their own anime plus Tsukiuta's bonus episode ending songs)!!! He/she said they'll keep the site up if their Twitter account gets 4K followers. I think that's stretch...
Anyway I read and watched a few inspirational/motivational stuff and got a few ideas to put into motion. I can't wait for winter break to do some DIYs, arts, sewing/felting & cooking/baking! ^u^
New goals
written on Sunday, December 4, 2016 @ 8:09 PM ✈
Still struggling with the woodpecker rendering. At least I forced myself to start; it doesn't look super bad yet...
So did you know, I'm someone who's afraid of a bad result? I like to try new things, but ironically, I'm scared of starting because I'm afraid of it turning out bad. As an artist, I can't have that fear; because of 10,000 drawings, only 1 is actually good. I haven't had a time where something came out horribly unacceptably terrible yet... so I don't know why I always have an attitude of "It's gonna turn out bad anyway so why start". I always feel pressured to be up to par with my classmates; if it's something not worthy, I don't feel like sharing you know? Even though I have to face the (constructive) criticism to grow, I'm afraid. It's not like anyone has come up to me and said "what the heck is that?" with distaste or anything like that. Everyone has been totally supportive.
Ah, I came here to talk about goals xD I found out about Artella, and I can't wait 'til my skills are up to par so I can participate in collaborations all over the world~ with a possibility to be in my portfolio~ ((Speaking of portfolio, gah, I have the portfolio review ToT))
(Un)healthy animate addiction?
written on @ 4:00 PM ✈
While I am probably putting myself up for failure because I decided to waste another hour or 2 looking at TsukiPro stuff, let me tell you about this...
Why are Blu-ray DVDs so expensive!? ToT I cry... I got addicted to watching lives of seiyuus after Uta no Prince-sama lol while Tsukipro Live 2016 in Nakano isn't a main, the Tsukiuta stage play is! I managed to find links for the 1st stage, but the 2nd one, 2.5 Dimension Dance Live: Act II Yumemigusa is ToT It's coming out in 2017, but it'll probably be really hard to find links for that... the limited edition, which include both the Sakura and Tsuki parts--aka Six Gravity and Procellarum stage performances and the bonus footages, is almost $118, while individually, it would cost about $69. Today is the live for their 3rd one, Lunatic Live ToT
While looking those stuff up, I found that IDOLM@STER also had a live stage for ST@RTING LINE and I'm like adslkjfaskdfj The Moon/Sun version individually is about $53. Though IDOLM@STER is also not a main (yet).
Speaking of Tsukipro, the whole Tsukipro team is getting an anime! So we get to see SolidS/QUELL, Soara, and Growth~ I'm excited~Labels: animate, live, quell, soara, solids, stageplay, tsukino pro, tsukipro, tsukiuta
Screwed
written on @ 12:40 AM ✈
The cycle continues... I knew it was gonna happen again >x<
I kept rolling in bed this morning, not wanting to get up. I finally got out of bed around 12. The rest of the day just went by so fast afterward. There was a corgi event today; I did plan to go but since I woke up so late I didn't deserve corgis ToT (I would've seen him too...) ANYWAY, I was sort of distracted today, not really since I forced myself and did spend almost 2 hours on the woodpecker. The plan was to start rendering today. Screwed because I haven't even done the mechanical yet. I was so done with the woodpecker that I worked on stuff for 50, which ended up being around 4 hours? Then I worked on saving pictures for the artist research. That took a good 2 hours. After that, I realized... I have yet to do the research, almost 80 masterwork studies, & still need around 20 daily sketches... & I need to have all that done by at least Wednesday night because I want it printed Thursday. And it doesn't seem likely.
I have a few more notes to do for 28, that is supposedly due Wed. Notebook for 12 which I ended up lagging behind almost a month or 2?
The woodpecker render, sketches and mechanical for illuminated cube-like object due for 12 on Monday, plus another pass for my animation for 28. Also History quiz on Tuesday, and I haven't even read the book yet. I could have crossed off more stuff if I had only woken up! I hate this...
Starting to stress because I kept eating today...? Sigh, excited for our apartment bonding day aka baking & Christmas in the Park, maybe, & for the end of the semester though!
Was watching Birdy vids, and it got me wanting to work. Also the Tsukiuta series FB page is updating on the TsukiSta actors tweets because today is the Lunatic Live stage (3rd live I think?) & the actors are tweeting. Gah they're so cute~ seeing their pics and tweets make me happy ^^ but I cannot let them distract me! >x<
Finding Jobs
written on Thursday, December 1, 2016 @ 1:17 PM ✈
Random thought: should I or should I not be worried if I could get a job in the industry?
To be honest, at my skill level, I should just focus on improving LOL but why do people say it's hard to find a job in my field? I just read an email from my advisor, and there's like over 20 jobs. I get that that's little for everyone who's graduating, but still, that's a lot right? My teachers say "no worries, there's jobs out there" yet sometimes it's "there's plenty of jobs, but so competitive" which equals in, maybe you won't get a job. I don't know. Just some random ramblings.
Side note, Anna's kickstarter is funded! I can't wait :D but a little bit regretting not getting the package LOL Just a little.
Decent
written on @ 12:28 AM ✈
Today was a... decent day.
Not great, but better than Monday 'aight. I worked on my journal cover in 50 today & I really like how it came out! :D Then came 12... it was better than I thought (& I thought really bad okay lol) Didn't eat anything today except for a sandwich so I was really hungry. I planned to just eat a fruit, shower and sleep, but then naww lol so I made cup noodle. Only 1 more left! lol Finally posted my cover for UP10TION's "White Night." I am so embarrassed posting it up on SNS & asking for views. How do people do eeet. lol There's only one other person who's uploaded a cover, but I don't know if she's entering the contest? Well, I should've showered an hour ago, but I got distracted on Twitter, doing nothing to be honest.
I swear, "Giraffe Blues" is so addictive. I really have an urge to pull out my violin and attempt a cover, knowing I will most definitely give up after a measure or two LOL
Alright, time to go. Guilty for not doing anything productive during my 3 hours home :p La Lune Sucrée is a European pastry café close by, and I just looked at their menu... and wow things look delicioussss~
EDIT: Gah! I got distracted again! I can't believe I'm getting all squealy because of a random webtoon I'm reading. He, Him and Us. Why is it so cute! xD I need like 57 tokens to read all the chapters... how.... can I get enough fast... lol
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^
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: afeeqah azhar, 19 march, malaysian .
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