 konnichiwa~
Hello there & welcome to my blog. Here you'll read tidbits about my daily life, some random thoughts, & maybe a rant here and there. I'm sure you'll learn something about me, if you don't know me of course. Down below are links to find me (personal accounts not posted). I hope you enjoyed your stay while listening to the songs I'm recently listening to. Come back & read again~ ^w^/
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Hangry.
written on Monday, November 19, 2018 @ 1:54 PM ✈
Went to my photography class today & he actually pushed the due date back to the last day of class IN EXCHANGE for one more roll of film, instead of 1-2, he wants 2-3. Aside from that, that means I got out of class earlier. I texted Steph and Jessie because we planned to meet up. They took forever to text back; I should've went back home. But since Steph was coming to campus to get masks, I went with her. WHO KNEW we'd get pulled in to get our flu shot. I kept saying no, but Steph couldn't say no, and the guy kept pushing me to get my shot even though I kept saying no. Is that pressuring? Ugh. I hate being forced against my will. AND they couldn't confirm that I didn't have to pay because it's not like I had my insurance or anything. So being "forced" into my shot, they better not make me pay -.-
We got the masks but they were weird beak-looking and didn't fit nicely on the face -.-
Anyway, I'm kinda super annoyed right now; and it's probably because I'm hangry, yet I refuse to go eat. Is this flu shot messing with my hormones? Or is it because... I didn't get to talk to him today?
Another week
written on Saturday, November 17, 2018 @ 12:17 AM ✈
Well. Let me tell you how life's been.
Steph and I spent the last weekend in Irvine with Robin & Meimei and it was fun! It was my first time on the plane. I'm glad it went well lol Us and Robin were super tired & the day seemed to go by super slow. A lot happened, at the same time hmm, not much lol We went to a lot of places. Robin won't let me spend gosh dang it. He kept paying for everything. We also went to the museum. We separated with Meimei & Stephanie & when Robin & I went to get the car, there were issues. (Oh, & Robin & I sorta had a "fight" beforehand so I was slightly frustrated. I was calming down, and not being able to find them brought it back) I was super quiet when we finally managed to pick them up, and I figured they noticed. They were all trying to cheer me up ToT I'm sorryyyy
We were on our way to LINE x BTS, and we couldn't find parking so we parked at In n' Out. When we got out Meimei apologized and then I felt bad because I wasn't mad at them or anything. I was just frustrated things were going wrong, and at myself because I felt like I was miscommunicating with them. (Also, the map was acting stupid so we couldn't get back to the museum.) I still wasn't in the mood to "talk" but I tried to. While we were waiting for Meimei and Robin at In n' Out, Steph asked me what's wrong and stuff, but I just shook my head. I kinda wanted fries but also no, but I told Steph. Apparently while I was in the restroom, they had a talk or something? I came out and was presented with fries. It took me a while to get in a better mood.
We also went to the Spectrum, Friday night. I got emotional when Robin got annoyed at the guy at the Apple store. And then he seemed to get mad at me, and so I went quiet. He tried to make me talk it out, but that just made me wanted to cry. And so I cried when they were at 85c; I didn't even get to look at the breadssss. I was crying a little too hard outside the store, and it was funny because he was like, Ey. Stop cryinggg. We're in publicccc. Because it looked like he was bullying me LOL
[Don't let him know you guys know about this hahaha]
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Aside from that, CA's been on fire. Literally. The air quality in northern/central CA is worse than China. Classes were cancelled because of the air quality.
I've been just doing homework the past 2 days, catching up on stuff. I finished almost all the homework for 128A, but still need to work on 115 and PHOT 110. Luckily, PHOTO 110 project due date got postponed due to Veteran's Day and the campus closures. Today I also attempted to work on my portfolio site, but I think I got overwhelmed and then I just burned out. Like, I just don't know. I don't know what I'm doing, what I need to do, or how to do it, etc. My mind got so cluttered with so many things that it couldn't keep out, and I was like a robot that malfunctioned. I had to take a break from working. I watched Violet Evergarden while eating dinner & I kept cryinggg.
Meanwhile, I was on call with Robin before I went to cook food. He said he wasn't gonna sleep early (it was like 8:30!). I came back from cooking and guess who's sound asleep. Hmph.
Alright, I'm about to head to bed too since I want to stop thinking about everything I need to do and want to do. Thanksgiving is next week and I can't wait to go home! Foood and K/DA ;)
(Side note, I'm failing on diet and getting myself to exercise LOL)
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Hangry.
written on Monday, November 19, 2018 @ 1:54 PM ✈
Went to my photography class today & he actually pushed the due date back to the last day of class IN EXCHANGE for one more roll of film, instead of 1-2, he wants 2-3. Aside from that, that means I got out of class earlier. I texted Steph and Jessie because we planned to meet up. They took forever to text back; I should've went back home. But since Steph was coming to campus to get masks, I went with her. WHO KNEW we'd get pulled in to get our flu shot. I kept saying no, but Steph couldn't say no, and the guy kept pushing me to get my shot even though I kept saying no. Is that pressuring? Ugh. I hate being forced against my will. AND they couldn't confirm that I didn't have to pay because it's not like I had my insurance or anything. So being "forced" into my shot, they better not make me pay -.-
We got the masks but they were weird beak-looking and didn't fit nicely on the face -.-
Anyway, I'm kinda super annoyed right now; and it's probably because I'm hangry, yet I refuse to go eat. Is this flu shot messing with my hormones? Or is it because... I didn't get to talk to him today?
Another week
written on Saturday, November 17, 2018 @ 12:17 AM ✈
Well. Let me tell you how life's been.
Steph and I spent the last weekend in Irvine with Robin & Meimei and it was fun! It was my first time on the plane. I'm glad it went well lol Us and Robin were super tired & the day seemed to go by super slow. A lot happened, at the same time hmm, not much lol We went to a lot of places. Robin won't let me spend gosh dang it. He kept paying for everything. We also went to the museum. We separated with Meimei & Stephanie & when Robin & I went to get the car, there were issues. (Oh, & Robin & I sorta had a "fight" beforehand so I was slightly frustrated. I was calming down, and not being able to find them brought it back) I was super quiet when we finally managed to pick them up, and I figured they noticed. They were all trying to cheer me up ToT I'm sorryyyy
We were on our way to LINE x BTS, and we couldn't find parking so we parked at In n' Out. When we got out Meimei apologized and then I felt bad because I wasn't mad at them or anything. I was just frustrated things were going wrong, and at myself because I felt like I was miscommunicating with them. (Also, the map was acting stupid so we couldn't get back to the museum.) I still wasn't in the mood to "talk" but I tried to. While we were waiting for Meimei and Robin at In n' Out, Steph asked me what's wrong and stuff, but I just shook my head. I kinda wanted fries but also no, but I told Steph. Apparently while I was in the restroom, they had a talk or something? I came out and was presented with fries. It took me a while to get in a better mood.
We also went to the Spectrum, Friday night. I got emotional when Robin got annoyed at the guy at the Apple store. And then he seemed to get mad at me, and so I went quiet. He tried to make me talk it out, but that just made me wanted to cry. And so I cried when they were at 85c; I didn't even get to look at the breadssss. I was crying a little too hard outside the store, and it was funny because he was like, Ey. Stop cryinggg. We're in publicccc. Because it looked like he was bullying me LOL
[Don't let him know you guys know about this hahaha]
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Aside from that, CA's been on fire. Literally. The air quality in northern/central CA is worse than China. Classes were cancelled because of the air quality.
I've been just doing homework the past 2 days, catching up on stuff. I finished almost all the homework for 128A, but still need to work on 115 and PHOT 110. Luckily, PHOTO 110 project due date got postponed due to Veteran's Day and the campus closures. Today I also attempted to work on my portfolio site, but I think I got overwhelmed and then I just burned out. Like, I just don't know. I don't know what I'm doing, what I need to do, or how to do it, etc. My mind got so cluttered with so many things that it couldn't keep out, and I was like a robot that malfunctioned. I had to take a break from working. I watched Violet Evergarden while eating dinner & I kept cryinggg.
Meanwhile, I was on call with Robin before I went to cook food. He said he wasn't gonna sleep early (it was like 8:30!). I came back from cooking and guess who's sound asleep. Hmph.
Alright, I'm about to head to bed too since I want to stop thinking about everything I need to do and want to do. Thanksgiving is next week and I can't wait to go home! Foood and K/DA ;)
(Side note, I'm failing on diet and getting myself to exercise LOL)
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^
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: afeeqah azhar, 19 march, malaysian .
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