 konnichiwa~
Hello there & welcome to my blog. Here you'll read tidbits about my daily life, some random thoughts, & maybe a rant here and there. I'm sure you'll learn something about me, if you don't know me of course. Down below are links to find me (personal accounts not posted). I hope you enjoyed your stay while listening to the songs I'm recently listening to. Come back & read again~ ^w^/
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The System
written on Tuesday, February 27, 2018 @ 1:20 AM ✈
Really quick update because I'm really tired ^^;
I finally finished my stop motion ToT which you can watch here!
I woke up to finish editing the photos, and managed to finish before class. Needed to buy soap, but since Steph was near Walgreens, she bought them for me which gave me more time to edit the video. It really took me about 3 days... OTL. but it's done! Bad, but done! I missed taking pictures...
I kept eating all day. Uhm, I gave myself a break. Afterward I started working on my pinecone painting. I cheated just a little ^^; Ahh, so bad. Didn't get much progress. Plus, I need to animate for 114 ToT And then I made pasta again for dinner. Steph and I watched "Black Mirror" S4: Hang the DJ. It was an interesting episode, not scary, but gives a lot of food for thought. We couldn't get over the ending, so I had to look up stuff before we managed to come to a conclusion that made sense lol
Was supposed to sleep at 12, but we didn't finish the episode 'til 12. And then I showered. I tried to work on the pinecone some more, but you know what, whatever ^^; I missed using Clip Studio Paint too LOL
Also I've been sitting on my chair for hours and hours. I was scared my cushion was gonna flat. But after my shower, I see that it has poofed again! :D lol I'ma try to use it less where it wouldn't flatten... haha
I also realized today, I actually made lots of progress on my cooking skills, albeit, most of the time they're bland lol. I made my 1st cheesecakes, curry, potato wedges, & 1st sauce (alfredo). I think that's all the new ones hehe
Okay, Steph's outta the shower. Time to sleep!
Gah, really need to clean my desk so I can just relax and sleep. Currently I need to move everything from my bed to my desk (and vice versa) so it's kina annoying but I haven't gotten around to "hiding" everything in the closet LOL (My closet's out of room too o.o )
Also, it snowed in Stockton!?
You know, that's crazy awesome and all, but like, that's just another sign of climate change > <
Inspiration
written on Sunday, February 25, 2018 @ 6:12 PM ✈
I spent all day shooting for my stop-motion. I feel so bad for Clover because she needs to be on the floor, getting her white paws dirty :(
I need to go edit the photos., to edit myself out lol I had to stop shooting because the sun was starting to set and the apartment got dark. Gotta finish tomorrow morning then. I only have the last scene to shoot, so I should be good... hopefully ^^; I still have my animations and pinecone painting due... OTL.
Anyway, this morning while eating cereal, I was just watching videos, and watched these. (Also, failed making coffee AND latte art. hmph)
Leigh Ellexson's Sketchbook Tour
furrylittlepeach's HOW TO WORK WHEN YOU FEEL BLERGH
and my absolute favorite~
ashiyaart's IN THE CITY
These were really nice, especially IN THE CITY because, hey, new ideas! Love Leigh's sketchbook; her animals are so cute, and I really love her color palettes, even though they're not local colors for the most part. She says she doesn't follow color theory, but it sure helps me understand color theory 'cause I just think about it and compare it to hers.
I just had a nice bacon cheeseburger & bacon cheddar potato wedges. Sooo yummyyy~
Now it's time to get back to work!
Le Petit Prince
written on Friday, February 23, 2018 @ 5:37 PM ✈
The problem isn't growing up; it's forgetting.
I just finished watching this 2 hour film.
I've read that people cried, but like, it didn't seem like I would?
But I did.
Almost as much as "Song of the Sea" but a little less.
It was a great film, with a deep message.
I really loved the stop motion in the middle of the scenes.
Anyway, Steph left for Stockton. She'll be back tomorrow. Guess it's time for me to spend the rest of the day doing homework.Labels: Le Petit Prince, The Little Prince
Busy night
written on Tuesday, February 20, 2018 @ 1:34 AM ✈
헐...
I didn't think I'd end up being this busy, but I'm glad I started earlier than usual...
After class (4:15pm), I was in the Pencil Test Lab until 12:30am. Though stressed, it was quite enjoyable because my peers were there.
One particular one: Andy. He was there when I first entered, but eventually left for a storyboard workshop. I wasn't sure if he'd come back, but he did, like 2 hours later. No lie, I was pretty happy to see him (but not like crazy, fangirl happy LOL)
I was still working. I was "taking a break" & he took a break too, & came over to talk. Aigoo, my voice caught in my throat. No idea why, I just didn't know how to answer him? But eventually I managed myself, & was able to comfortably, sort of, hold a conversation with him. As normal as I could be as if he was any other classmate.
Towards the end, I really had to focus on my work, so I animated for like 2 hours straight. Meanwhile, after most people have left & there were only like 5 of us, Jo and Andy started singing to some throwbacks. Quite entertaining as I had my back turned to them.
It's really funny how my classmates don't care who's listening in on their "relationship" talks, & even more interesting that it's usually the guys who get advice from the girls lol (It seems that... guys prefer their girl friends' advice on relationships lol) Anyway, I learned a lot lol Andy is very precious x'D He has his eyes on an upperclassmen, but he was saying how he has no hope, that he was way out of her league, & I'm like awww. My other classmates kept trying to cheer him up :D
As I was packing, they were talking about pinecones for class, & about bugs. And we found out Andy is "deathly afraid of spiders." Jo said that was cute, & I totally agree haha. Though Andy's like how is that cute xD
I said bye to Genai and them, & was headed out & Andy asked if I was gonna be okay (don't get me wrong; he also asked another of our classmate. He's just looking out for us) but I told him I was gonna be fine. And when he asked "you sure?" I nodded with a firm, peppy "yup." Genai was worried too ^^ And on my way out, Flora came out of the PC lab so we stood at the door, talked for a bit, Genai tells her to wait so they can walk home together. Her attention turns toward Andy & asks "you wear glasses?" (Same lol) & he was like no, and we laughed because Jo just so happened to be looking for them LOL. What a great end to the night ^^ (despite me still needing to paint the dang acorn...)
On a side note, when I was finishing packing, he had just worn the glasses so I was shocked internally, but like, yo, he cute/adorable in glasses xD I was texting Arlene the whole time, and when I told her he had a crush on our upperclassmen, she was worried about me LOL but it's not like I was "in love" or anything. It was just a crush, and I'm not hurt haha
Alright, that's the quick end to the day.
Saeran...
written on Monday, February 19, 2018 @ 9:21 AM ✈
[9am]
I can't keep posting on Twitter about Mystic Messenger lol but there's also no one to talk to about it hmm...
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Saeran... he sounds like he's throwing hatred at MC but it also sounds like his way of protecting MC like omg why is he so precioussss.
My heart breaks for him...
Will MC ever be able to save him... will he finally get to meet Seven & learn the truth? (Not the ending for Deep Story)
Hng...
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[12:30pm]
I'm back again.
The wait between chatrooms are longer because apparently MC's cleansing is tonight... I don't know if this means bad ending...
But I just called Saeran... & he kept saying the only reason MC is alive is because of him... (He didn't say it aggressively... it sounded like he was just tired & he wanted to give up...)
More than looking for someone who is weaker than him so that he feels stronger, he's trying his hardest to protect MC.
I mean, it's the same I guess lol looking for someone weaker, looking for someone to protect.
I don't know, I just feel his personality trying to be Ray... that's not even the correct way of putting it. But yeah, not just reading the text. Actually listening to the voice actor & the way he says things... (he's really good lolol)
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[1:16am]
The last CG novel with Saeran up 'til now... I loved the whole script of it. I loved the VA's breathiness that totally expressed how he was giving up.
I totally love this route... but it seems there will not be a fairy tale ending no matter what...
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SHMCON2018
written on @ 2:00 AM ✈
Volunteered at SHMcon today! It was fun but really tiring. We hardly did anything as volunteers though ^^; Arlene and I literally walked around asking artists if they needed help, but they didn't want us helping them pack. In the end, an artist came looking for helpers, asked us if we were volunteers and if we could help them. We were like "yes, please!" lol and he joked like "(you guys were like) just give us something to do!" xD So we ended up carrying their stuff for them to their car, and chatted a bit. Most of the artists had already left by the time we got back to the ballroom. (Technically, Arlene's shift already ended, but she just stuck with me, since I was with her on her shift, but she didn't really do anything much either lol)
Aigoo. Yesterday when Jen dropped me off, I had a throbbing headache, so I ended up napping. Steph didn't come back after 9 so I thought something happened to her, or maybe closing took longer. After 12, I was like UHHH. So I ended up calling her lol She was just at work cutting chicken :p They took longer because there were only 2 of them.
Anyway, that headache. It was gone when I woke up from my nap. It almost sorta came back this morning. I got ready to go meet Arlene at SHMcon. Ah, when we got there, we saw Celine and Andy. When we were walking towards them she was nudging me alsdkf lol. Celine and Arlene went to the props table, and I was trying to pin my volunteer pin on my sweater, and Andy came over to greet me. ALSDKFJ I don't know why, I was pretty flustered for some reason. Maybe because he seemed so unsure or something when talking to me. He literally just asked me how's it going, and me tryna focus on the pin, waited and then said "I'm good, just woke up with a headache this morning" and he was like "aww" and I forgot what happened? I think I just walked to Arlene at the table and I had forgotten to return the question. WHY DO I ALWAYS DO THAT ToT It sounded like I didn't want to talk to himmmm and then we were getting ready for our photobooth picture and he told Celine he was gonna go, I didn't even get to say bye to him ToT REGERTS.
It bothered me the whole time the three of us walked throughout the con. Who knew that it'd take us an hour to visit all the tables. Celine also said my waves (I had braided my hair overnight) were cute TvT At the end, we took a break and ate snacks from BFA's bake sale. After we were done, we went around to actually buy stuff. Celine ended up saying an early bye to us so she can zoom through the tables since she had to leave for work. After Arlene and I finished buying stuff, we went out to eat pizza. I just had to tell her about the Andy incident. lol And she was like "but it's so long ago!" Me: "I know! but it was bothering me the whole time we were walking the con~" xD
After pizza, Arlene's shift was about to start, so she went ahead and I met her in there later. There wasn't much for her to do, so we ended up walking the con again LOL (I also noticed Andy had come back with his friends, chilling at the side tables) She also bought stuff, even though she was on duty. lol Someone asked for water, so we went to Starbucks for water since we ran out of bottled water. On our way to the door, Andy and his friends were also leaving, so we were walking towards each other. I pretended I didn't see, and faced Arlene, talking to her. And she goes "oh!" and starts nudging me LOL and I was like "I knuuuu" x'D Couldn't bring myself to greet him OTL.
Speaking of greetings. ULI. We saw Uli like 3 times today, and we greeted him (or at least, I) with a nod, and/or a silent hi. Why do I nod to people nowadayssss. I don't know when this habit came about hahaha. I think Arlene caught it too x'D Oh, and I was buying a shirt from Yuki at the SHMerch table. And then Uli came over and stood RIGHT NEXT TO ME. I turned to say hi, but he didn't hear/see (my hi) and ignored me ALSKDFJ hmph lolol
Anyway, con was really fun! Also got to see Flora~
We talked about tabling next year~ It sounds fun, if we can keep it simple for our first time. Arlene creates a Pug character and I create a Corgi/-cat specie- character and we create some kind of "joint collab" thingy ^^ I mean, I already have research done. For con, we'll probably look for a local print shop or something... It's still a dream, but it's something Arlene and I look forward to attempting? ^^; tabling looks fun so we wanna try~
I didn't realize we spent so much, but I'm happy with all the prints and stickers etc I got~ Redecorated my wall to fit everything ^^ Seems busy, but also nicely busy hehe
Also, it was 2/18, our club's anniversary~
Ahh, also, I'm currently playing Ray's route and you cannot believe how intense it is. I'm worried about every single decision I'm making... Well, 3 more days still. Let's manage for a good/normal ending.
Anyway, time to sleep. Gotta wake up early :p
[Also, I didn't write a post about when Chris and Yishan just randomly came up to talk to me when I was just tryna have my salad. Literally didn't know them. Chris came up to me asking if I was in his class 2 semesters ago ahahaha..... but anyway, I'm too lazy to type that up xD it was a funny story that I told my fam though lol]
My poor phone...
written on Thursday, February 15, 2018 @ 2:49 AM ✈
I totally forgot to post that 4 days ago, my phone fell 2.5 floors to its doom.
Amazingly, nothing broke. The screen was scratch-free despite landing on its face, and the screen protector flew off.
$50 phone case was worth. Despite the little broken, removable flap popped off so I had to glue it for the 3rd time. BLESS.
At least, I don't think I have posted about it yet? Aigoo, bad memory with what I had or hadn't posted.
Crushes
written on @ 2:20 AM ✈
I gotta make this quick because I gotta sleep soon (even though I feel like I haven't done any homework... )
--ahh I said I'd make it quick but guess who just got distracted for a good 30 or so minutes LOL
Let's see, I woke up this morning and found out my only class today (MATH 42) got cancelled. Whoop whoop! So Steph and I walked to the Student Union. We both woke up in a pretty good mood? Idunno, I "dressed up" LOL (not really apparently x'D) But anyway, she had to interview someone & I went to Starbucks because there was a live music show. I got a table, and dude, it was weird because this Asian guy comes and just takes a seat. Like, I understand we'd share tables, but usually people would ask if it's okay to sit there. And then he kept cursing under his breath? At one point he asked me to watch his stuff and he took his laptop elsewhere. He came back later and he placed his laptop like really close to mine. Also, he had to take the seat next to me instead of across from me (it's a + seating around a round table). But yeah, he eventually slowly packed and left. I was just creeped for a bit lol. And then a girl asks to sit across from me. I think that dude came back later because out of the corner of my eye, I saw his purple sweater, but then he walked away. I think it's because the girl was sitting in front of me. When she left, Celine later joined me. And then Steph joined me and we saw Romuel. I spent around 2 hours going through my Udacity course. My laptop was low on battery and it was time for Steph to go to class, so I walked her to class. I got to the Art building only to find out I had left my key and ID at home, so I couldn't get into the Pencil Test Lab, plus it sounded like there were a lot of people in there, so I didn't want to knock. I ended up putting my stuff in the locker and sat outside the PTL next to a plug and I kept working on my coding.
I glanced around, and I saw Andy going into the PTL. I internally panicked lol Later I hear him coming out saying "I'll see you guys later, like in 10 minutes" and I'm focusing on my coding, but I looked up because he was walking past me (I realized... I may have used passed/past wrong in previous posts LOL). I didn't think we'd make eye contact, but his body wasn't even completely forward. He was slightly turned in my direction... Aigoo we were awkward but we still greeted each other lol. I didn't greet him when he came back though.
Then met up with Steph, got her keys to get mine, met up with her again in the SU, waited for Arlene to get out of class. Met up with Arlene at the locker. She was surprised at the big pinecone, and as I was about to explain to her about it, Andy came out of the PTL, and I don't know why but I automatically said "it's his" while laughing, because well, we were both laughing. And he was like "huh?" and stepped back and was like "ohhh yeah" and then he reminded me to bring it to class :p Oh, awk.
I took my stuff and sat in the SU with Arlene. Well, we went out to play with "snow" but they were super icy lol Back in the SU, she got food and when she got back, I was slowly started my painting but I ended up talking a lot about Andy... Like, you just know if I start to constantly talk about someone LOL and I guess Arlene picked that up and started teasing me about it LOL she's so funny <3 To be honest, I don't really think I accepted that until like tonight (but did I really accept it? haha) I told her about the hike and how we went to Sweet Corner afterward, and she like "oh~ a date~" and how the whole thing was so K-drama lol I'M DEAD. I showed her the group posts and our messages and stuff. And she was like sing-songing "kiss kiss and fall in love" and I was like omg nooo alskdfj xD And Steph joined us a lil' later, and I keep bringing up stuff, and Arlene mentions how I keep talking about him and Steph was like "I know right" GOSH LOL.
So then Steph left. Arlene had to go too so she walked me back to the Art building, but I kept whining to her like, what if it's just himmm alskdfj lol I got into the PTL and there was a few other people. I was trying so hard not to be awkward. I was carrying my set-up in, and straight ahead, Andy is sitting at the corner of the table closest to 218. I can't even remember how he greeted me. I just remember I gave a slight nod, looked down as I tried to gently close the door. I walk in and Sean is like staring at me? And I think I may have nodded first? but then he says hey, so I say hey. I wasn't sure where to sit, my goodness, so I sat a seat away from Andy, 'cause y'know, we need room for our set-up. GAWD I WAS READY TO DIE. But anyway, Andy asks me what I was working on, and I tell him acorn, and he says he hadn't even started on it yet. I was so confused as to why he was still working on his walnut, and I can't remember what he said, but he replied. And then he offered acorns to me? and I felt like I was betraying him or something (because we had picked acorns and I'm not using those, also because he offered but I didn't accept them) and then I told him I got acorns from Celine. He asked if they had caps, so I gave him the extra ones. I knew he liked a challenge, so I gave him the acorn with the 2 caps first and he got so excited he exclaimed loudly lol and then he apologized. But yeah. I was frantic and kept messaging Arlene lol She was teasing me again ahaha she told me to "TALK TO ANDY!!!!!" and then asked how close we were sitting lol Okay, so I'm like working on my acorn, and then he decides to take a break, and GOSH I can't paint with him standing behind me! He did ask about my acorn photos, and I tried to answer as normal as possible ^^;
[was scrolling through IG. It's so funny how both of our 1st photos on our feed is the same sun x'D >///< ]
Other than me panicking internally, it was all good I guess? because I was the only one working, and everyone else was talking to each other and laughing over a video. So there's this girl who I don't know, but everyone called her Jessica. Some reason they started talking about "Asian tradition to beat their kids when they're young" and Andy mentioned how he's half-Taiwanese (because Sean asked?) and Sean was like "everyone's Taiwanese" and I'm like whispering that I'm not, and Jessica saw me but didn't hear me, so she walked over and I told her and she was like "it's okay!" xD She walked back to Sean. He was "dissing China" and then she came over to ask me where I was from. I was so flustered, I don't know why. I don't know why I didn't know how to answer the question. Yo, my whole face was probably super red. IT WAS HOT. I was so incoherent, but I managed to say "here?" lol And she was like "oh oh! okay." She wanted to know if I was from China because Sean was dissing LOL and then I just laughed and said "No I'm good" or something like that. And then Andy asked, "Wait, where are you from?" and yeah lol I texted this to Arlene and she was like "it's understandable you're nervous w andy HAHAHAHA" DANG IT ARLENE x'D
I turned off my lamp and was using a red brush to outline my acorn because I didn't like the shape. And Andy started "mocking" (yelling?) me saying, "what!? you're painting without lighting? what are you doing?" (not exact wording) I tried to explain while laughing a bit, because I knew he was playing around. And then he switched to, "wow, you're really working that highlight. It's so red." OMG ANDY x'D He was talking to Haruka, asking if she started her acorn yet and she said no. And somehow he got to mentioning me, and how my acorn is good to go like that for class. And I turned in his direction a bit, and just smilingly nodded in agreement because (inside joke).
Then Steph texted me about going to Boba Bar with her and Jessie. To be honest, I didn't want to leave x'D but then Steph called me, and I decided I'll join them. So I started packing up, and then Andy asked if I finished lol I said "Nope, but you said my acorn was good to go~" and he was like "you right." I wanted to say bye but at the moment I was about to grab my stuff and go, Haruka called him over for help on her modeling so he had turned his back to me. I wasn't too close to the people in the lab so I didn't really say bye >x<
(Also, Jo was in the lab too and said "Oh yeah, happy PALentine's" and she said something about how she's never had a Valentine in her 20 years. Me in my head: same. And Andy was like, "Me too. I don't think." Me: huh? but you had a girlfriend, possibly girlfriends, but none for V-day? and then he was like "oh, maybe I did" x'D)
As I was leaving, I was texting Arlene. Here's how the text went:
Me: I CANT. I CANT BE AROUND HIM LOL// I could barely talk to him normally.
A: omg HAHAHAHA AWWW
Me: Nope. Nope. NOPE. lolol
A: *crying laughing emoji* 3x
At Boba Bar, we just talked a lot. It was funny because the topic somehow got to talking about the past. (all related in a way lol) It's really hard to summarize what we ended up talking about, because it was literally everywhere but it was really funny! I laughed so much. I mentioned that I went on a hike with a classmate, and she was all attentive with that smile of hers, and curled her hair behind her ears LOL I didn't tell her about 'til later though.
On the walk back, I guess I really wanted to talk about it again so I asked her if she wanted to hear about it, but we were almost at our parting intersection, and she was like "tell me. cross at Williams (which was her apartment street)" So I had to summarize everything within a block. At Williams, she was like "let me know when there's a 2nd date" OMG x'D
My text with Arlene continues:
Me: Its been a while since I talked bout crushes & i just met up w my friend w steph & we were just talking bout the past. And then she wanted to hear about the hike so I summarized it w/i one block to her house. Lol oh lawd i need to stop talking bout him *blush emoji*
A: omgggg HAHAHA that's so sweeeet
Me: & i hate that its vday LOL
Me: -crying cat sticker img-
A: omg nooooo it's ok have these photos from my downloads LOOL
A: -images of random cute/funny animals- 3x
But yeah, the fact that I even mentioned "crushes"... it's been a while lol. She also knows about Lee already too :p Anyway, I didn't mean to expose so much of our text lol
I don't know why, but I'm really dreading class tomorrow AHAHAHA
I am totally overthinking... ^^;Oh I just remembered, I don't think I mentioned this but he talked about Idolm@ster & I told him I watched SideM lol he said we were on opposite sides lol because he watches Cinderella Girls xD He asked me what I thought about SideM but it wasn't bad, but it's not super good and that's what I told him and he was like "WOW. What a glowing review" LOL I also don't remember if I mentioned he talked about his trip to Japan in the winter? Also, he also has a red Axentwear lolol
Also, with it being V-day and I was oddly hyper and emotional, I sent love stickers to POLARIS & cute digital Valentine's to Arlene & Celine :3 Also, I'm going home tomorrow night whoop whoop! But I have to come back to SJ on Saturday for SHM-con volunteer on Sunday.
The week felt so fast because 113B got cancelled yesterday, and then MATH 42 today lol Felt like I didn't go to school or something x'D
Okay, time to sleep because my head is starting to hurt .-.
Hiking for acorns
written on Monday, February 12, 2018 @ 2:14 AM ✈
I'm super sleepy right now. I just finished my PHYS homework.
Today was a fun day though. Facebook group for class --> looking for acorns. Katherine said there were acorns at Alum Rock Park, so Andy said he'll drive there and "Feel free to come. Or I'll just go by myself. That's cool. I won't be sad or anything." AW. I didn't want him to go pick acorns for the whole class by himself, but I didn't know him to go with him. I waited for someone to reply but only Haruka commented, to say thanks and to remember to get them acorns LOL I was freakin' out before I posted because I though it'd be weird since we don't "know" each other? but I finally commented, after Haruka, that I'll come along, so I met him at the art quad. (He didn't let me know he parked, so he ended up waiting for me at the quad ^^; )
On the way to the quad, he messaged me to let me know he was there and said "Looks like it'll just be us two hopefully that's ok?" and I was like awww so nice! That was so polite of him to make sure it was okay for me for us two to be alone. Because we literally "don't know" each other. He tried to make a joke during the message, but I didn't get it because I didn't know the guy he said and he was like "Don't worry about it/ that was a super dumb joke." I sent a blushing Pusheen sticker and said "Sorry LOL" and he said "It's ok/ It wasn't witty/ Or even smart/ I just say things" and I was like ALKSDJF as I was walking to him.
He got up to greet me and was like "Justina?" Like, uh, yah? LOL I just nodded and we shook hands. Me in my head, why so formal LOL he said "I don't think we really met" when we shook hands and I said, "mhm, just in the same classes." And he just started talking as we walked to the parking garage. Uh, I realized he walks fast LOLOL I thought it'd be awkward, but the walk there was okay because he talked a lot lol I guess the only awkward thing was I would try to say something, but it'd accidentally cut him off LOL We got to the garage, walked up the stairs. To the 5th floor. WHY WE NO TAKE THE ELEVATOR. But anyway, as we walked up the stairs, he said that after he posted it, it sounded creepy. He's "that" guy, who tells someone to hey, come sit in a car with a stranger to go some place. My response: "It's not like you're gonna kidnap me" (I think). And he said just saying it like that sounded creepy LOL and people saw the post but didn't respond and he was worried people might think that lol but I said, "Naw, I don't think people thought that." He said that Haruka replied so it kinda made up for it and that he was glad that I offered to go along. awww.
Andy has a really nice 2-door Scion. Short, but nice haha. So the "rules of his car," as he put it, is that the passenger has to navigate lol On the spiral drive out the garage, we were talking about how he doesn't look like an otaku LOL because he apologized for listening to his anime music, and I had to tell him I listen to it too. And he mentioned Vocaloid, which is how we got to how he didn't look like an otaku LOL When we were almost there, we were following behind motorcyclists, and he brought up how he loves motorcycles and stuff.
When we got to the park, it was literally trails? So we ended up hiking. It was about 3 hours with him hiking up the trail, so that's too much to cover. Just know, he talked a lot LOL his excuse was because he had milk tea and 3 coffees yesterday, and he slept late. (Oh, he was just getting out of his sickness). When he said he wanted milk tea afterward, I said he just had it yesterday and he said he can't enjoy yesterday's milk tea today lol and then he suddenly dropped the bomb that he and his girlfriend broke up. It was a long-winded correlation, but it was because he was saying he likes to live in the present, and the analogy was, when he and his girlfriend broke up his friends told him at least you have your memories with her and he said he doesn't want the "memories," but to be in the present (with her, I guess?)
It was a fun hike. At the beginning we just talked a lot about anime lol Like what kind of anime we watched etc. He was thirsty because he forgot water. He was like "there's running water! should I drink it?" LOL (On the drive I told him he should've told me to bring him water and he was like, "I can't just say hey stranger, bring me water. And I said I would've still did it, and he said "well, I didn't know you, but now I know." LOL) Luckily, we managed to find a water fountain on the way. We also picked up a large pinecone for him, which I carried. On the hike up he said, "I'm glad you can walk." Me: ?? lol and he mentioned how Gia and Celine would've been out of breath already ahaha. I told him we weren't dressed for hiking, nor did we have water LOL We ended up going to the top, climbed a large rock to get a better view of the sun setting. I climbed the rock after him, but I was wearing my sweater on the front of me, and it was really windy so the hood kept flying in my view. Plus it was difficult climbing with a pinecone. There wasn't much footing near the top, and I was too scared to continue, so I just crouched. We were still talking, and then we had eye contact, and I said "I'm scared" so he had to come over to help me up LOL He literally had to pull me up. Uhm, I don't think I trusted anyone else with my life except Tong LOL
We saw quail on the hike~ <3
Anyway, we went back to a tree we passed to look for acorns. Our first time passed it, we saw only caps. So on our way back down, we really looked hard for them. And we found a few, but most were babies. I found most of them LOL A lady asked us what we were looking for lol I let Andy do the talking. Anyway, he was looking out for me when I was climbing the lil' incline up to the tree, and I'd pass the acorns to him. The sun was setting and he said we should go before it gets to dark. So we finished gathering and started going down. On the way down we spotted a decaying bird wing with feathers attached. I think I kinda told him I want a feather? I forgot how lol but I told him I had notepad paper; I gave it to him so he plucked a feather and we put it in the pinecone/acorn bag. He went for another one; this one was attached to the wing bone still. So I had to help him snap the tip. I tried to step on the bone but missed lol it was on a decline. I had to support my weight by holding on to his shoulder, and I stepped down on the wing bone and he pulled the feather off. Afterward I gave him hand sanitizer because he touched the wing LOL We finally got down, and he drove us to Sweet Corner. He asked me where I wanted to go but I said he could choose. We took the wrong freeway LOL aigoo, I always panic and give wrong directions lol but we got back on track. At one point, I said "how are you driving 40-45mph but it feels so fast? xD" and he goes into explaining his car and speed and race cars lol. He said acceleration on turns feel faster than acceleration going straight; it was true. Sheesh, his turns were really sharp, even though they really weren't. Sharp as in, I had to resist the force? I don't know how to explain lol but it was fun; his car was manual.
On the way there, he was saying he was getting sleepy, and that the mountain was really tiring. I said something along the lines of "crashing from the caffeine" lol At Sweet Corner, there were cakes~ but I thought we were going to grab our drinks and go. Nope. He said "let's unwind for a bit." So we just sat there for a while. He finished his Thai Tea really fast and I said that, and he said "I'm thirsty AF" LOL He looked at his watch and said "we should at 7, or whenever you want." And when I asked him why me, he said it's because he chose the place, so I should choose when to leave. OY, decisions decisions. Since I didn't want him to get home too late, I just said "let's go" after a minute or two. And then he dropped me off at home, and I took home the pinecone and acorns. (AH! I forgot to tell him to drive safe...)
His heater was... really good. Like, it was so hot. Because he was recovering from his sickness, he was still cold after the hike (it was really windy on that rock) and I guess I just warm up faster than he does? And he turned on his heater. There was a fan blowing right in my face and it was so hot. I got home with a red face I think. It's a really good heater because it was only on 1, and on the lowest heat setting but it was still so freakin' hot LOL His car is still cool :p
I think he waited a bit for me to get to the stairs before leaving. Or not. Lol I didn't turn back.
Genai had commented an hour later, like she would've joined if she saw the post, but I enjoyed our time alone lol because we got to know each other a lot. I wonder if we'll go back to being awkward classmates... lol
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Also, I got home and got a notification from Lee. He "waved" to me on Messenger. So I waved back. I thought it may have been an accident that he waved so I said "?? lol" and then he was like "how you been?"
Me in my head: ??
But I answer casually. And when I said "hbu?" he said he got back from a "being in a drama." Note that I'm still hyper from hiking with Andy so my brain is overthinking so many scenarios right. Like, I know Lee wouldn't message me after so long unless something's up, and I really hoped it didn't have anything to do with his girlfriend. The fact that he mentioned 'drama' felt like he wanted to talk about it so I asked "should i ask bout this drama?" and he said "you should/ lol/ but it's up to you." So, I let him vent. (At first he asked if I was still in SJ. I hope that wasn't a precursor for "meeting up" if I was in Stockton kind of thing :p ) So then he dropped the bomb: "My girlfriend just broke up with me lol" (By the way, it was a stupid reason she decided to break up with him) It's a delicate subject right? I mean, I don't know. It's only delicate depending on the person, so I was really cautious that I wasn't helping him make decisions. I just asked the questions. After a few other messages I asked, "And how are you feeling?" He said "Idk/ I'm supposed to be heartbroken but somehow I feel happy" so like, hey, if you feelin' good, then the break up is no big deal LOL and that's what I told him after I asked if he wanted to get back with her. He said "Definitely/ No/ Lol" I said "Ahh, in that case, is no big deal?" followed up by "Dude, i feel bad, like I'm telling you not to get with her/ But like, whether you want to really depends on you" and he flat out said "I don't want to"
Me in my head: then why are you messaging me...??? Like, I thought he wanted to vent because he was sad or something. And he was super positive afterward... LOL weird...
Also, because I haven't talked to him in so long, I found that his many uses of "lol" were odd because I still remember him as a person who doesn't really use lols or stickers/emojis. Usually I'm the one who spams stickers, but he ended our convo with a (:p) sticker and a thumbs up. Like... is this the Lee I know? hahaha Anyway, I just find it really weird that the unexpected messages from Lee tend to be timed around when I finish hanging out/messaging with a guy LOL (alone sometimes at that o.o) Like, if you read previous posts where he's involved, it's either I just messaged Robin/Deilys/Victor or I just came back from hanging with them or something LOL
Weird...
Ah the post ended up being super long because so many things happened > < I tried to eliminate stuff, but, haha, no can do when I want to write it all. Andy messaged me after he got home, I guess, and after talking about the acorns, I asked if he washed his hands. He said "Uhhh/ If we're thinking fourth dimensionally/ I already did when I get* home" LOL I have no idea what he meant but I just said "LOL ok good/ Now go get some rest :p dont get sick again" (nagging him already LOL) and he tried to joke around again but it flew over my head. Again LOL Then I showed him my taped feather later that said "Erm, dont really need to clean it right? ^^; " and he replied "LOL/ Bruh that dirty A F" LOLOL he so fun to talk toooo, I really wish we could stay, y'know, friends.
Lol, anyway, I should really sleep. Darn my eventful day LOL
Steph napped liked around 12:30am... I should wake her to shower after I wash up.
*his actual typo :p
A good day~
written on Saturday, February 10, 2018 @ 1:27 AM ✈
Welp. I had CS minor advising this morning. I was pretty nervous, but the advisor was really friendly! Reminded me of Inga. She said it's not impossible, just really difficult and very unlikely. She's still letting me try though, so I gotta do paperwork...
Then I met up with Jessie so she can get Philz and I ended up getting Gongcha, and delivery for Hsiu Hsiu. Took Jessie to the pencil test lab, and got there to be greeted by David and Justin. AWK. Hsiu Hsiu had gone to the SU for food. ^^; Later I went with Jessie to eat before she left for work. When I got back, another surprise. Lol. Monique and Jewlinna were in the seats on either side of me lol
Later Arlene joined us~ Ah, I was so focused painting my walnut I didn't check my texts. So she called me, and my phone was loud x'D playing EDM (Virtual Self - "Particles" was my ringtone) LOL So we just kept working because we were waiting for James Baxter's presentation. Justin kept talking about his love life with Tiffany and Monique ^^; (Also, Arlene and I went out to film reference for PHYS homework. Tiffany and Justin happened to be walking back from the SU. Arlene was filming me, but she didn't see but Justin asked Tiffany, what's that for? lolol)
So yeah, we're working in the pencil test lab and suddenly Dave Yee opened the door to introduce us as "oh, these are our younger students" lol we didn't know what was happening, just thought they were giving a tour to someone. We just automatically said hello. Dave asked if they wanted to go in, but the guest was already walking away. After they left, we started talking amongst ourselves lol It was freakin' James Baxter x'D
After a while, Jewlinna left for the auditorium. 10 minutes after, Arlene was like let's go, so I started packing up. Then Justin and Aerik got up too. Tiffany was like, "are you guys going already?" and they were like yeah, she was like "so early!" and Aerik: "I like to get there earlier" xD When I went out to meet Arlene, I told her how I thought they started packing because we did lol (Justin offered Hello Panda cookies to us earlier, but I kinda just looked at it because I was still thinking but the others didn't respond to him. And he was like "oh okay" awkwardly, and I felt bad, so I took one LOLOL)
The James Baxter presentation was pretty awesome~
We had to wait out in the lobby though because they were still setting up. It was so hot. Uli came in and we had like eye contact twice. The first time was like, both of us had flitting eyes and weren't sure if we should maintain eye contact. Ugh, we both weren't sure if we should say hi LOL Our 2nd eye contact was a little longer, so we did say hi. It was such an awkard hi toooo ToT Because he had pretty much passed by us. And it was too crowded for him to raise his hand to say hi, but he moved his arm back to sorta wave. Oh it was so awkward. The exchange was between me and him, and I was with Arlene and Elaine. Arlene asked me if he was saying hi to me or her. I forgot how I answered, but I think I just said me really quick and followed up with that was such an awkward hi. I could feel my face heating up. Was it turning red? Let's just say the lobby was getting too hot. Aigoo, must be because I haven't really seen Uli in so long OTL.
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I loved his animation demo, and it made me want to animate. There were non-ANI majors sitting behind us, and they fangirling over the animation for this one animation I haven't watched. At the end of the presentation, the guy in front of us were like "we love you!" (non-ANI LOL) and as everyone was leaving, the girls behind us were talking to each other, about how they're gonna go to the next one too. LOL. NICE.
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I walked Elaine to her car, and then met up with Steph to go to Gongcha. Wow, her co-worker Matthew was working again. It was probably the third time that he and Huey were working and we were customers. I was in a really good mood, so I sorta waved to him when Steph went to get her check and he glanced over the counter. I don't think he saw my wave hmph. Matthew's like, so adorable??? He has a funny laugh and dorky smile. He always plays TWICE for Steph? and complies to Steph's song requests? haha and with Steph's personality toward them, she jokes/teases them, so yeah. I was laughing a lot today. Erm, so me and Steph literally got the same drinks as last time. And I mentioned to her we got the same drinks as last time, and I think he tried to guess my sugar level lol. He made my smoothie and he filled it to the top, to the point it kept spilling lol Meanwhile, Steph's milk tea was a little low LOL
Steph requested BTS songs, so Matthew happily complied, then Huey got "mad" (because he always goes against Steph lol) and Matthew "fought" him off before he could change the song. Lol he kept kicking Huey back to the kitchen. One time, Huey changed the song and then he back hugged Matthew and Matthew kept yelling at him to get off, while laughing. The first time I almost choked on my smoothie LOL Toward the end, I was kinda just staring off into space, and had like a 2 sec eye contact with him. Every time we were there and he's making drinks, he always looks over and then we just all burst out laughing lol
I really like him, but probably not in that way LOL He's a fun and nice dude lol
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Gah, I have "work" with Arlene tomorrow, and we gotta go to the zoo too.
I should sleep now eek.
My Idol~
written on Friday, February 9, 2018 @ 12:32 AM ✈
Uwah! Today hip hop was tiring~
Jonny taught today and uwahhhh I feel like I haven't seen him in forever? I mean, I have in photos and stuff but YO. IN PERSON.
OMG FANGIRL MOMENT. My spirits were waaaay high when I saw him walking toward us, yellow FIFA (?) hoodie, and black dance sweats (what are they called? lol) and YO. HE JUST MODEL STATUS AIGHT.
I was walking to them, but there were very little people? Jonny wasn't here yet. BJ saw me first and he waved and then I awkwardly waved with all my stuff in my hand (I carry my phone and water bottle) and he was still waving. And I think he was waving with both his hands? So I had lowered my hand at first, but when he continued waving, so I waved both my hands at him. Some time during this, Vira saw me and waved too LOL
Amy & Herman were behind Jonny (not directly) & I was super happy because I haven't seen Amy in so long! So I was excitedly waving both my hands at her. There was a guy in front of me who I have never seen. So I was lowering my hands while scanning my eyes left, and then Jonny and I had a short eye contact and he raised his hand in a sort of wave gesture. And I wasn't sure if he was greeting the guy in front of me or if he thought I was saying hi to him. Automatically I gave him a nod of acknowledgement just in case and quickly looked away. Afterward I was trying to process all that. Uh, the guy in front of me didn't even respond to him? So I'm pretty sure he didn't know Jonny... lol. And obviously, Jonny wouldn't know him. Uhm that guy's mom(?) also came to pick him up or something? She was recording him. How cute...? ^^;
Some of the dancers thought she needed to move her car or something, because we never have elders here, so they were like "CAR." to Jonny. Jonny turned off the music, apologized to the group who was gonna dance, and then turned to the dancers who said car. Jonny was like "where?" Literally, everyone was looking in the lady's direction, but she was also looking around. We figured there was no car needing to leave, so the dancers peaced him out (they were already on their way to leave) and Jonny started the music again. It was a weird moment lol
Anyway, so after workshop ended, I wanted to go give him a hug, because like, it's my only chance LOL I was sitting down and he be walking back and forth in front of me. Usually I leave right after workshop ends. So I finally get up (he already passed me) and say bye to Amy & Herman who were heading off to Modern (Akbayan dance) and then I walk passed him, made short eye contact:
Me: thanks for teaching -bows a little-
Him: thank you for coming -returns bow with hands together-
Me: -bows a little as I walk off-
I backed out of the hug in the end LOL I continue walking toward Matthew to give him a hug and say bye. I think Dillon was with BJ and Vira, so I was walking away and Dillon yelled bye to me (he still calls me Justine) and so I waved back to them. (Dillon came midway in the dance, and he was also in the back. He was walking toward me, and then I looked over at him and then he noticed me and gave me a hug)
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Other than that, classes were okay? Jef was joking around like usual. Owen had to keep our sketchbooks because he didn't have time to mark them. Eek. I didn't finish the 7 trees... I hadn't really been eating a lot the past few days? And last night I didn't eat dinner, so I knew my stomach would probably end up growling in class. It did, and Cindy who was next to me heard it. At first it was a short grrr, but then it was longer that I had to hold my stomach. Me and Cindy kept laughing at it 'cause it happened like 3 times? And the last time, she was drinking water and it happened. She almost choked on her water? We bursted out laughing, and she was like "It's just so cute. I just want to feed you." Like, aww Cindyyy x'D I barely talk to her :p We had 112A together like 2 semesters ago, and just started talking to each other more because we sit next to each other.
I was really tired because I had woken up around 6 because I was gonna do my trees. I woke up, didn't feel like it, and went back to sleep. Had a short, stressed "nightmare" and woke up thinking I was late. So yeah, I was sleepy, but I was in the pencil test lab to do my animation rough for 114 (my last class). I thought I'd take longer, but I finished pretty fast, so I went to do my coding, but wasn't really able to finish the assignment. I thought my rough was pretty crappy and was worried about what Jef was gonna say about it. But he was like it was looking good :o
Oh yeah, I was taking notes and suddenly I felt my hands trembling. Also, it suddenly got very hot, and I was feeling all tingly. Guess who was low on sugar? ^^; I told Hsiu Hsiu that I wanted candy, and Vivian gave us some Swedish Fish. I don't really like them, but I needed the sugar so I ate some. I felt better afterward. Accidentally ate all her fishies ^^;
In class, he kept telling us to not put down our own work, and told us a story about he had an interview. And the guy came in, saw his portfolio, and said "that's some good work." My professor, being young then said they weren't good. So the guy packed his portfolio pieces back in my professor's folder and left. The receptionist told him he was done. A week or 2 later, my professor gets the courage to call them and ask about it. They told him, "you said it sucked." So basically, if it sucks, it wasn't worth looking in to?
Basically, even though you don't like it or think it was good work, someone else is going to have a different view of it. You telling them, oh I messed up here or this part sucked is literally telling your viewers to find the mistakes and flaws, even though they wouldn't have seen it if you hadn't pointed it out.
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After hip hop, I showered and waited for Jim because she was making a delivery~ Mmm and then I ate dinner kekeke
Love Live 6th Stage!
written on Monday, February 5, 2018 @ 1:21 AM ✈
I AM SO DONE WITH THIS EGG.
I've been working on the egg since like 12pm. I did well and all, only for my classmate to tell me my values did not have enough contrast so I redid it. Now theres a lot more darks. But is it too dark? Aiyah.
Also, I was watching Maji LOVE LIVE 6th stage. Not HD but OMG. STILL LOVE.
Hontoni saikou suteji! <3
HEAVENS' first stage, & OMG they were crying so much ToT
MAMO. WHY YOU CRY SO MUCH.
Terashii & Mamo are such best friends omg <3
Tattsun is so adorable? like?? Maeno's makeup & hair is <3 (Dude, Maeno's so cute??)
Kiryun's seiyuu is so cute?? hahaha
Daiki's adorable~
My precious loves.
Also, watched 연애하루전 (A Day Before Us) on Youtube. The English subs are slow updates, but it's really cute! And the OST is <3 Watching that led to a Dingo playlist called, When a Man Loves a Woman, I think? I thought it was a live-action of A Day Before Us because they were so similar haha
Ah... I feel like I have lots to do this week ^^; I'm not procrastinating.. at the same time I'm procrastinating on other stuff? Well, I've been waking up pretty early lately anyway. Let's make it a habit? I'm probably gonna die mid-way into the semester LOL
Alright, time to go fold my laundry & get ready to sleep... & fall in to post-6th stage feels ToT
I LOVE UTAPRI
Taking Lessons
written on Saturday, February 3, 2018 @ 1:22 AM ✈
I'm currently taking the Sexual Assault Prevention education thingy. So many freakin' slides, when am I doneee I just want to sleeeep.
But anyway, I'm on the trauma section. And they mention that trauma causes them to recall the event hesitantly or have difficulty recalling things in a linear fashion... so if studies show that trauma impacts memory... why do lawyers question rape victims in such way and says they're lying because they couldn't recall things? Like, wouldn't the question be invalid anyway? (or does this only happen in movies, lol, with the questioning etc)
Finally done OTL
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Today I woke up early to go work with Arlene in the ART building, but I got distracted by Uta no Prince-sama: Shining Live lol I played too much xD I was confused at first, but I think I'm getting the hang of it. I finally headed over at around 1:30 LOL Mckenzie brought leftover Psycho Donuts from work! Worked for a bit, and then we went to the SU for Starbucks. Afterward, we went to 14F. Gah, I spaced out and was daydreaming here and there. And thinking about all the things I want/need to do.
Afterward, I walked Arlene to the parking garage, and then she dropped me off at home. It's been a long day ^^; I've been pretty productive this semester? Hahaha. Ate dinner of curry. After I showered, I tried to catch up with the Google/Udacity thing. 1 hour of basics OTL. Am I ever gonna catch up ahaha
Steph just came back from ASTRO's concert. She seems dead again ahaha. She's showering right now, which means she'll be sleeping soon. My tummy hasn't been feeling well because it's here. At least it'll be gone when Jonny teaches at hip hop! Speaking of hip hop... guess what Dillon surprised us with yesterday!? Choreo to "I Need a Girl"! I was really feelin' it last night haha and because I'm super familiar with the song, I didn't forget the moves, and I was pretty much on beat. Definitely my most confident dance ahahaha I was center back for the group! kekeke. Also, I was super happy when Dillon brought Beau ahaha.
It's been a good week. Trying to be super productive because I have lots to do ToT
Good days~ Good week~
written on Thursday, February 1, 2018 @ 12:20 AM ✈
Currently nomming on Hokkaido Melon Kit-Kat from Japan~
Ahh I'm really sleepy right now, but I still have homework to do. ^^;
Yesterday was a good day~ It's been a while since I last animated traditionally lol FAIL.
Anyway, it was a good day because hip hop was fun! Also, because Steph treated me to Gongcha and then walked me to hip hop. I thought I was late, but Matthew hadn't even arrived yet. Thien from Parang greeted me. Vira brought his Dachshund, Beau! Beau was so adorable~~ I gave Matthew a hug when he arrived, and Vira gave me a hug too, interestingly enough LOL like, we hardly talked. We knew of each other though xD Then there's same ol' same ol' Anthony haha.
Matthew taught the choreo to Chris Brown's "Is This Love" and hm, I was feelin' it? lol When it came to the group dances, Matthew split us into pairs since there were only 14 of us. But then he made us switch our partner to someone we don't know/talk to. I'm glad Thien decided to partner with me because he's so peppy haha so much moral support; it was fun. For the last 8 counts, he had us choreo a groove with our partner. Fuhhh I was freakin' out so much lol but Thien was like, just have fun. And I was thinking, had I partnered with the other girl, we would've been screwed ^^;
While waiting for our turn, I went to play with Beau. He/she sat on my lap~ sooo cute~ and it kept nudging its nose into my hand; I ended up covering its eyes here and there lol I didn't want to let him/her go. When it came to our turn, I of course messed up a bit, but at one part Thien messed up and forgot what the next move was. For some reason, I had the extra energy and courage to keep going? (Matthew gestured toward me with the face that said, what? she gots it! lol at least, that's what I got at a glance) He turned to look at me and exclaimed "ah that's it!" and he kept going afterward like nothing happened xD We finished with our grooveeee woot woot!
It was such a good time that I took the initiative to say bye to Matthew (usually I just sneak away lol) BJ (a choreographer who taught us before but I never talked to) made eye contact with me as I moved away from the hug with Matthew, so I waved to him. I said bye to Celine, waved to Anthony who was ecstatically saying bye to me, and then Vira saw that I was leaving and he waved too. D'awww everyone~ <3
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This morning I met up with Arlene to work in the Pencil Test Lab. Stupid me forgot my egg, so I walked back for it. [A quick note. This girl came in and sat across from me. She had headphones on, looking at her laptop, and started vlogging? saying, "Right now I'm in the Pencil Test Lab, and I'm gonna be doing some work... etc etc" and the girl next to her just kinda glanced over. You know, when someone is talking loudly in a place where you should speak quietly? A little later, she asks "So, uh, did you pass portfolio review yet?" I look up at her. She's staring at her laptop, so I thought she was talking to someone else. So I continue helping Arlene. A few minutes later she repeats it again. I give her a quick glance; still looking at her laptop, so I ignore it. Again, it happens. I look at her, the girl next to her glanced at us and said, "I think she's talking to you" quietly and I point to myself and I ask the girl "are you asking me?" and she says "yeah" and I'm like whoops in my head lol So I answer that question, and then she just starts asking me question after question! I answer stiffly with some awkward laughs here and there. Afterward, I just had to text Arlene because that was such an awkward interaction.
I also gave her and Celine a cheesecake cupcake, and they both liked it. Yays~
I only had MATH 42 today. I did pretty much all the homework last night, thinking we had a quiz today. But it was next week. And then I headed over to the Blue Sky Studio presentation. Later I chilled with Arlene, Celine, and Gia in the SU before heading home to make curry.
The curry took me about 2 hours to cook? but just in time, because Jessie got out of class! The curry rice was good. Kune was also there for dinner. They and Steph got seconds, so I'm glad! ^^
Also! John's back!? Like, what a surprise! haha He's moving back here for school tomorrow; right now he's commuting from Santa Barbara or Monterey...
I also got my Believer's Package and it's so freakin' amazingggg! Taking the CDs out of the case was so difficult though xD It felt like I was going to snap it. I was stressin' so much ahaha. I'm feeling good because I'm excited for the next 2 days: SHMeeting = new hoodie! on Thursday; Dillon's teaching at hip hop; 14F on Friday, Best of Ottawa~
OH! I totally forgot to mention that I got accepted into...
I totally missed this when I checked my e-mail? and totally forgot about it, 'til one of the project manager's reminded me, and I was so confused LOL I'm a week behind but I'll working on Android Development. Ah, there's just so much to do, but we'll make it happen~
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Ah, I didn't mean to post so much. I really am sleepy, and it's a long day tomorrow, so I'ma quickly do 2 tree drawings and sleep
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The System
written on Tuesday, February 27, 2018 @ 1:20 AM ✈
Really quick update because I'm really tired ^^;
I finally finished my stop motion ToT which you can watch here!
I woke up to finish editing the photos, and managed to finish before class. Needed to buy soap, but since Steph was near Walgreens, she bought them for me which gave me more time to edit the video. It really took me about 3 days... OTL. but it's done! Bad, but done! I missed taking pictures...
I kept eating all day. Uhm, I gave myself a break. Afterward I started working on my pinecone painting. I cheated just a little ^^; Ahh, so bad. Didn't get much progress. Plus, I need to animate for 114 ToT And then I made pasta again for dinner. Steph and I watched "Black Mirror" S4: Hang the DJ. It was an interesting episode, not scary, but gives a lot of food for thought. We couldn't get over the ending, so I had to look up stuff before we managed to come to a conclusion that made sense lol
Was supposed to sleep at 12, but we didn't finish the episode 'til 12. And then I showered. I tried to work on the pinecone some more, but you know what, whatever ^^; I missed using Clip Studio Paint too LOL
Also I've been sitting on my chair for hours and hours. I was scared my cushion was gonna flat. But after my shower, I see that it has poofed again! :D lol I'ma try to use it less where it wouldn't flatten... haha
I also realized today, I actually made lots of progress on my cooking skills, albeit, most of the time they're bland lol. I made my 1st cheesecakes, curry, potato wedges, & 1st sauce (alfredo). I think that's all the new ones hehe
Okay, Steph's outta the shower. Time to sleep!
Gah, really need to clean my desk so I can just relax and sleep. Currently I need to move everything from my bed to my desk (and vice versa) so it's kina annoying but I haven't gotten around to "hiding" everything in the closet LOL (My closet's out of room too o.o )
Also, it snowed in Stockton!?
You know, that's crazy awesome and all, but like, that's just another sign of climate change > <
Inspiration
written on Sunday, February 25, 2018 @ 6:12 PM ✈
I spent all day shooting for my stop-motion. I feel so bad for Clover because she needs to be on the floor, getting her white paws dirty :(
I need to go edit the photos., to edit myself out lol I had to stop shooting because the sun was starting to set and the apartment got dark. Gotta finish tomorrow morning then. I only have the last scene to shoot, so I should be good... hopefully ^^; I still have my animations and pinecone painting due... OTL.
Anyway, this morning while eating cereal, I was just watching videos, and watched these. (Also, failed making coffee AND latte art. hmph)
Leigh Ellexson's Sketchbook Tour
furrylittlepeach's HOW TO WORK WHEN YOU FEEL BLERGH
and my absolute favorite~
ashiyaart's IN THE CITY
These were really nice, especially IN THE CITY because, hey, new ideas! Love Leigh's sketchbook; her animals are so cute, and I really love her color palettes, even though they're not local colors for the most part. She says she doesn't follow color theory, but it sure helps me understand color theory 'cause I just think about it and compare it to hers.
I just had a nice bacon cheeseburger & bacon cheddar potato wedges. Sooo yummyyy~
Now it's time to get back to work!
Le Petit Prince
written on Friday, February 23, 2018 @ 5:37 PM ✈
The problem isn't growing up; it's forgetting.
I just finished watching this 2 hour film.
I've read that people cried, but like, it didn't seem like I would?
But I did.
Almost as much as "Song of the Sea" but a little less.
It was a great film, with a deep message.
I really loved the stop motion in the middle of the scenes.
Anyway, Steph left for Stockton. She'll be back tomorrow. Guess it's time for me to spend the rest of the day doing homework.Labels: Le Petit Prince, The Little Prince
Busy night
written on Tuesday, February 20, 2018 @ 1:34 AM ✈
헐...
I didn't think I'd end up being this busy, but I'm glad I started earlier than usual...
After class (4:15pm), I was in the Pencil Test Lab until 12:30am. Though stressed, it was quite enjoyable because my peers were there.
One particular one: Andy. He was there when I first entered, but eventually left for a storyboard workshop. I wasn't sure if he'd come back, but he did, like 2 hours later. No lie, I was pretty happy to see him (but not like crazy, fangirl happy LOL)
I was still working. I was "taking a break" & he took a break too, & came over to talk. Aigoo, my voice caught in my throat. No idea why, I just didn't know how to answer him? But eventually I managed myself, & was able to comfortably, sort of, hold a conversation with him. As normal as I could be as if he was any other classmate.
Towards the end, I really had to focus on my work, so I animated for like 2 hours straight. Meanwhile, after most people have left & there were only like 5 of us, Jo and Andy started singing to some throwbacks. Quite entertaining as I had my back turned to them.
It's really funny how my classmates don't care who's listening in on their "relationship" talks, & even more interesting that it's usually the guys who get advice from the girls lol (It seems that... guys prefer their girl friends' advice on relationships lol) Anyway, I learned a lot lol Andy is very precious x'D He has his eyes on an upperclassmen, but he was saying how he has no hope, that he was way out of her league, & I'm like awww. My other classmates kept trying to cheer him up :D
As I was packing, they were talking about pinecones for class, & about bugs. And we found out Andy is "deathly afraid of spiders." Jo said that was cute, & I totally agree haha. Though Andy's like how is that cute xD
I said bye to Genai and them, & was headed out & Andy asked if I was gonna be okay (don't get me wrong; he also asked another of our classmate. He's just looking out for us) but I told him I was gonna be fine. And when he asked "you sure?" I nodded with a firm, peppy "yup." Genai was worried too ^^ And on my way out, Flora came out of the PC lab so we stood at the door, talked for a bit, Genai tells her to wait so they can walk home together. Her attention turns toward Andy & asks "you wear glasses?" (Same lol) & he was like no, and we laughed because Jo just so happened to be looking for them LOL. What a great end to the night ^^ (despite me still needing to paint the dang acorn...)
On a side note, when I was finishing packing, he had just worn the glasses so I was shocked internally, but like, yo, he cute/adorable in glasses xD I was texting Arlene the whole time, and when I told her he had a crush on our upperclassmen, she was worried about me LOL but it's not like I was "in love" or anything. It was just a crush, and I'm not hurt haha
Alright, that's the quick end to the day.
Saeran...
written on Monday, February 19, 2018 @ 9:21 AM ✈
[9am]
I can't keep posting on Twitter about Mystic Messenger lol but there's also no one to talk to about it hmm...
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Saeran... he sounds like he's throwing hatred at MC but it also sounds like his way of protecting MC like omg why is he so precioussss.
My heart breaks for him...
Will MC ever be able to save him... will he finally get to meet Seven & learn the truth? (Not the ending for Deep Story)
Hng...
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I'm back again.
The wait between chatrooms are longer because apparently MC's cleansing is tonight... I don't know if this means bad ending...
But I just called Saeran... & he kept saying the only reason MC is alive is because of him... (He didn't say it aggressively... it sounded like he was just tired & he wanted to give up...)
More than looking for someone who is weaker than him so that he feels stronger, he's trying his hardest to protect MC.
I mean, it's the same I guess lol looking for someone weaker, looking for someone to protect.
I don't know, I just feel his personality trying to be Ray... that's not even the correct way of putting it. But yeah, not just reading the text. Actually listening to the voice actor & the way he says things... (he's really good lolol)
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The last CG novel with Saeran up 'til now... I loved the whole script of it. I loved the VA's breathiness that totally expressed how he was giving up.
I totally love this route... but it seems there will not be a fairy tale ending no matter what...
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SHMCON2018
written on @ 2:00 AM ✈
Volunteered at SHMcon today! It was fun but really tiring. We hardly did anything as volunteers though ^^; Arlene and I literally walked around asking artists if they needed help, but they didn't want us helping them pack. In the end, an artist came looking for helpers, asked us if we were volunteers and if we could help them. We were like "yes, please!" lol and he joked like "(you guys were like) just give us something to do!" xD So we ended up carrying their stuff for them to their car, and chatted a bit. Most of the artists had already left by the time we got back to the ballroom. (Technically, Arlene's shift already ended, but she just stuck with me, since I was with her on her shift, but she didn't really do anything much either lol)
Aigoo. Yesterday when Jen dropped me off, I had a throbbing headache, so I ended up napping. Steph didn't come back after 9 so I thought something happened to her, or maybe closing took longer. After 12, I was like UHHH. So I ended up calling her lol She was just at work cutting chicken :p They took longer because there were only 2 of them.
Anyway, that headache. It was gone when I woke up from my nap. It almost sorta came back this morning. I got ready to go meet Arlene at SHMcon. Ah, when we got there, we saw Celine and Andy. When we were walking towards them she was nudging me alsdkf lol. Celine and Arlene went to the props table, and I was trying to pin my volunteer pin on my sweater, and Andy came over to greet me. ALSDKFJ I don't know why, I was pretty flustered for some reason. Maybe because he seemed so unsure or something when talking to me. He literally just asked me how's it going, and me tryna focus on the pin, waited and then said "I'm good, just woke up with a headache this morning" and he was like "aww" and I forgot what happened? I think I just walked to Arlene at the table and I had forgotten to return the question. WHY DO I ALWAYS DO THAT ToT It sounded like I didn't want to talk to himmmm and then we were getting ready for our photobooth picture and he told Celine he was gonna go, I didn't even get to say bye to him ToT REGERTS.
It bothered me the whole time the three of us walked throughout the con. Who knew that it'd take us an hour to visit all the tables. Celine also said my waves (I had braided my hair overnight) were cute TvT At the end, we took a break and ate snacks from BFA's bake sale. After we were done, we went around to actually buy stuff. Celine ended up saying an early bye to us so she can zoom through the tables since she had to leave for work. After Arlene and I finished buying stuff, we went out to eat pizza. I just had to tell her about the Andy incident. lol And she was like "but it's so long ago!" Me: "I know! but it was bothering me the whole time we were walking the con~" xD
After pizza, Arlene's shift was about to start, so she went ahead and I met her in there later. There wasn't much for her to do, so we ended up walking the con again LOL (I also noticed Andy had come back with his friends, chilling at the side tables) She also bought stuff, even though she was on duty. lol Someone asked for water, so we went to Starbucks for water since we ran out of bottled water. On our way to the door, Andy and his friends were also leaving, so we were walking towards each other. I pretended I didn't see, and faced Arlene, talking to her. And she goes "oh!" and starts nudging me LOL and I was like "I knuuuu" x'D Couldn't bring myself to greet him OTL.
Speaking of greetings. ULI. We saw Uli like 3 times today, and we greeted him (or at least, I) with a nod, and/or a silent hi. Why do I nod to people nowadayssss. I don't know when this habit came about hahaha. I think Arlene caught it too x'D Oh, and I was buying a shirt from Yuki at the SHMerch table. And then Uli came over and stood RIGHT NEXT TO ME. I turned to say hi, but he didn't hear/see (my hi) and ignored me ALSKDFJ hmph lolol
Anyway, con was really fun! Also got to see Flora~
We talked about tabling next year~ It sounds fun, if we can keep it simple for our first time. Arlene creates a Pug character and I create a Corgi/-cat specie- character and we create some kind of "joint collab" thingy ^^ I mean, I already have research done. For con, we'll probably look for a local print shop or something... It's still a dream, but it's something Arlene and I look forward to attempting? ^^; tabling looks fun so we wanna try~
I didn't realize we spent so much, but I'm happy with all the prints and stickers etc I got~ Redecorated my wall to fit everything ^^ Seems busy, but also nicely busy hehe
Also, it was 2/18, our club's anniversary~
Ahh, also, I'm currently playing Ray's route and you cannot believe how intense it is. I'm worried about every single decision I'm making... Well, 3 more days still. Let's manage for a good/normal ending.
Anyway, time to sleep. Gotta wake up early :p
[Also, I didn't write a post about when Chris and Yishan just randomly came up to talk to me when I was just tryna have my salad. Literally didn't know them. Chris came up to me asking if I was in his class 2 semesters ago ahahaha..... but anyway, I'm too lazy to type that up xD it was a funny story that I told my fam though lol]
My poor phone...
written on Thursday, February 15, 2018 @ 2:49 AM ✈
I totally forgot to post that 4 days ago, my phone fell 2.5 floors to its doom.
Amazingly, nothing broke. The screen was scratch-free despite landing on its face, and the screen protector flew off.
$50 phone case was worth. Despite the little broken, removable flap popped off so I had to glue it for the 3rd time. BLESS.
At least, I don't think I have posted about it yet? Aigoo, bad memory with what I had or hadn't posted.
Crushes
written on @ 2:20 AM ✈
I gotta make this quick because I gotta sleep soon (even though I feel like I haven't done any homework... )
--ahh I said I'd make it quick but guess who just got distracted for a good 30 or so minutes LOL
Let's see, I woke up this morning and found out my only class today (MATH 42) got cancelled. Whoop whoop! So Steph and I walked to the Student Union. We both woke up in a pretty good mood? Idunno, I "dressed up" LOL (not really apparently x'D) But anyway, she had to interview someone & I went to Starbucks because there was a live music show. I got a table, and dude, it was weird because this Asian guy comes and just takes a seat. Like, I understand we'd share tables, but usually people would ask if it's okay to sit there. And then he kept cursing under his breath? At one point he asked me to watch his stuff and he took his laptop elsewhere. He came back later and he placed his laptop like really close to mine. Also, he had to take the seat next to me instead of across from me (it's a + seating around a round table). But yeah, he eventually slowly packed and left. I was just creeped for a bit lol. And then a girl asks to sit across from me. I think that dude came back later because out of the corner of my eye, I saw his purple sweater, but then he walked away. I think it's because the girl was sitting in front of me. When she left, Celine later joined me. And then Steph joined me and we saw Romuel. I spent around 2 hours going through my Udacity course. My laptop was low on battery and it was time for Steph to go to class, so I walked her to class. I got to the Art building only to find out I had left my key and ID at home, so I couldn't get into the Pencil Test Lab, plus it sounded like there were a lot of people in there, so I didn't want to knock. I ended up putting my stuff in the locker and sat outside the PTL next to a plug and I kept working on my coding.
I glanced around, and I saw Andy going into the PTL. I internally panicked lol Later I hear him coming out saying "I'll see you guys later, like in 10 minutes" and I'm focusing on my coding, but I looked up because he was walking past me (I realized... I may have used passed/past wrong in previous posts LOL). I didn't think we'd make eye contact, but his body wasn't even completely forward. He was slightly turned in my direction... Aigoo we were awkward but we still greeted each other lol. I didn't greet him when he came back though.
Then met up with Steph, got her keys to get mine, met up with her again in the SU, waited for Arlene to get out of class. Met up with Arlene at the locker. She was surprised at the big pinecone, and as I was about to explain to her about it, Andy came out of the PTL, and I don't know why but I automatically said "it's his" while laughing, because well, we were both laughing. And he was like "huh?" and stepped back and was like "ohhh yeah" and then he reminded me to bring it to class :p Oh, awk.
I took my stuff and sat in the SU with Arlene. Well, we went out to play with "snow" but they were super icy lol Back in the SU, she got food and when she got back, I was slowly started my painting but I ended up talking a lot about Andy... Like, you just know if I start to constantly talk about someone LOL and I guess Arlene picked that up and started teasing me about it LOL she's so funny <3 To be honest, I don't really think I accepted that until like tonight (but did I really accept it? haha) I told her about the hike and how we went to Sweet Corner afterward, and she like "oh~ a date~" and how the whole thing was so K-drama lol I'M DEAD. I showed her the group posts and our messages and stuff. And she was like sing-songing "kiss kiss and fall in love" and I was like omg nooo alskdfj xD And Steph joined us a lil' later, and I keep bringing up stuff, and Arlene mentions how I keep talking about him and Steph was like "I know right" GOSH LOL.
So then Steph left. Arlene had to go too so she walked me back to the Art building, but I kept whining to her like, what if it's just himmm alskdfj lol I got into the PTL and there was a few other people. I was trying so hard not to be awkward. I was carrying my set-up in, and straight ahead, Andy is sitting at the corner of the table closest to 218. I can't even remember how he greeted me. I just remember I gave a slight nod, looked down as I tried to gently close the door. I walk in and Sean is like staring at me? And I think I may have nodded first? but then he says hey, so I say hey. I wasn't sure where to sit, my goodness, so I sat a seat away from Andy, 'cause y'know, we need room for our set-up. GAWD I WAS READY TO DIE. But anyway, Andy asks me what I was working on, and I tell him acorn, and he says he hadn't even started on it yet. I was so confused as to why he was still working on his walnut, and I can't remember what he said, but he replied. And then he offered acorns to me? and I felt like I was betraying him or something (because we had picked acorns and I'm not using those, also because he offered but I didn't accept them) and then I told him I got acorns from Celine. He asked if they had caps, so I gave him the extra ones. I knew he liked a challenge, so I gave him the acorn with the 2 caps first and he got so excited he exclaimed loudly lol and then he apologized. But yeah. I was frantic and kept messaging Arlene lol She was teasing me again ahaha she told me to "TALK TO ANDY!!!!!" and then asked how close we were sitting lol Okay, so I'm like working on my acorn, and then he decides to take a break, and GOSH I can't paint with him standing behind me! He did ask about my acorn photos, and I tried to answer as normal as possible ^^;
[was scrolling through IG. It's so funny how both of our 1st photos on our feed is the same sun x'D >///< ]
Other than me panicking internally, it was all good I guess? because I was the only one working, and everyone else was talking to each other and laughing over a video. So there's this girl who I don't know, but everyone called her Jessica. Some reason they started talking about "Asian tradition to beat their kids when they're young" and Andy mentioned how he's half-Taiwanese (because Sean asked?) and Sean was like "everyone's Taiwanese" and I'm like whispering that I'm not, and Jessica saw me but didn't hear me, so she walked over and I told her and she was like "it's okay!" xD She walked back to Sean. He was "dissing China" and then she came over to ask me where I was from. I was so flustered, I don't know why. I don't know why I didn't know how to answer the question. Yo, my whole face was probably super red. IT WAS HOT. I was so incoherent, but I managed to say "here?" lol And she was like "oh oh! okay." She wanted to know if I was from China because Sean was dissing LOL and then I just laughed and said "No I'm good" or something like that. And then Andy asked, "Wait, where are you from?" and yeah lol I texted this to Arlene and she was like "it's understandable you're nervous w andy HAHAHAHA" DANG IT ARLENE x'D
I turned off my lamp and was using a red brush to outline my acorn because I didn't like the shape. And Andy started "mocking" (yelling?) me saying, "what!? you're painting without lighting? what are you doing?" (not exact wording) I tried to explain while laughing a bit, because I knew he was playing around. And then he switched to, "wow, you're really working that highlight. It's so red." OMG ANDY x'D He was talking to Haruka, asking if she started her acorn yet and she said no. And somehow he got to mentioning me, and how my acorn is good to go like that for class. And I turned in his direction a bit, and just smilingly nodded in agreement because (inside joke).
Then Steph texted me about going to Boba Bar with her and Jessie. To be honest, I didn't want to leave x'D but then Steph called me, and I decided I'll join them. So I started packing up, and then Andy asked if I finished lol I said "Nope, but you said my acorn was good to go~" and he was like "you right." I wanted to say bye but at the moment I was about to grab my stuff and go, Haruka called him over for help on her modeling so he had turned his back to me. I wasn't too close to the people in the lab so I didn't really say bye >x<
(Also, Jo was in the lab too and said "Oh yeah, happy PALentine's" and she said something about how she's never had a Valentine in her 20 years. Me in my head: same. And Andy was like, "Me too. I don't think." Me: huh? but you had a girlfriend, possibly girlfriends, but none for V-day? and then he was like "oh, maybe I did" x'D)
As I was leaving, I was texting Arlene. Here's how the text went:
Me: I CANT. I CANT BE AROUND HIM LOL// I could barely talk to him normally.
A: omg HAHAHAHA AWWW
Me: Nope. Nope. NOPE. lolol
A: *crying laughing emoji* 3x
At Boba Bar, we just talked a lot. It was funny because the topic somehow got to talking about the past. (all related in a way lol) It's really hard to summarize what we ended up talking about, because it was literally everywhere but it was really funny! I laughed so much. I mentioned that I went on a hike with a classmate, and she was all attentive with that smile of hers, and curled her hair behind her ears LOL I didn't tell her about 'til later though.
On the walk back, I guess I really wanted to talk about it again so I asked her if she wanted to hear about it, but we were almost at our parting intersection, and she was like "tell me. cross at Williams (which was her apartment street)" So I had to summarize everything within a block. At Williams, she was like "let me know when there's a 2nd date" OMG x'D
My text with Arlene continues:
Me: Its been a while since I talked bout crushes & i just met up w my friend w steph & we were just talking bout the past. And then she wanted to hear about the hike so I summarized it w/i one block to her house. Lol oh lawd i need to stop talking bout him *blush emoji*
A: omgggg HAHAHA that's so sweeeet
Me: & i hate that its vday LOL
Me: -crying cat sticker img-
A: omg nooooo it's ok have these photos from my downloads LOOL
A: -images of random cute/funny animals- 3x
But yeah, the fact that I even mentioned "crushes"... it's been a while lol. She also knows about Lee already too :p Anyway, I didn't mean to expose so much of our text lol
I don't know why, but I'm really dreading class tomorrow AHAHAHA
I am totally overthinking... ^^;Oh I just remembered, I don't think I mentioned this but he talked about Idolm@ster & I told him I watched SideM lol he said we were on opposite sides lol because he watches Cinderella Girls xD He asked me what I thought about SideM but it wasn't bad, but it's not super good and that's what I told him and he was like "WOW. What a glowing review" LOL I also don't remember if I mentioned he talked about his trip to Japan in the winter? Also, he also has a red Axentwear lolol
Also, with it being V-day and I was oddly hyper and emotional, I sent love stickers to POLARIS & cute digital Valentine's to Arlene & Celine :3 Also, I'm going home tomorrow night whoop whoop! But I have to come back to SJ on Saturday for SHM-con volunteer on Sunday.
The week felt so fast because 113B got cancelled yesterday, and then MATH 42 today lol Felt like I didn't go to school or something x'D
Okay, time to sleep because my head is starting to hurt .-.
Hiking for acorns
written on Monday, February 12, 2018 @ 2:14 AM ✈
I'm super sleepy right now. I just finished my PHYS homework.
Today was a fun day though. Facebook group for class --> looking for acorns. Katherine said there were acorns at Alum Rock Park, so Andy said he'll drive there and "Feel free to come. Or I'll just go by myself. That's cool. I won't be sad or anything." AW. I didn't want him to go pick acorns for the whole class by himself, but I didn't know him to go with him. I waited for someone to reply but only Haruka commented, to say thanks and to remember to get them acorns LOL I was freakin' out before I posted because I though it'd be weird since we don't "know" each other? but I finally commented, after Haruka, that I'll come along, so I met him at the art quad. (He didn't let me know he parked, so he ended up waiting for me at the quad ^^; )
On the way to the quad, he messaged me to let me know he was there and said "Looks like it'll just be us two hopefully that's ok?" and I was like awww so nice! That was so polite of him to make sure it was okay for me for us two to be alone. Because we literally "don't know" each other. He tried to make a joke during the message, but I didn't get it because I didn't know the guy he said and he was like "Don't worry about it/ that was a super dumb joke." I sent a blushing Pusheen sticker and said "Sorry LOL" and he said "It's ok/ It wasn't witty/ Or even smart/ I just say things" and I was like ALKSDJF as I was walking to him.
He got up to greet me and was like "Justina?" Like, uh, yah? LOL I just nodded and we shook hands. Me in my head, why so formal LOL he said "I don't think we really met" when we shook hands and I said, "mhm, just in the same classes." And he just started talking as we walked to the parking garage. Uh, I realized he walks fast LOLOL I thought it'd be awkward, but the walk there was okay because he talked a lot lol I guess the only awkward thing was I would try to say something, but it'd accidentally cut him off LOL We got to the garage, walked up the stairs. To the 5th floor. WHY WE NO TAKE THE ELEVATOR. But anyway, as we walked up the stairs, he said that after he posted it, it sounded creepy. He's "that" guy, who tells someone to hey, come sit in a car with a stranger to go some place. My response: "It's not like you're gonna kidnap me" (I think). And he said just saying it like that sounded creepy LOL and people saw the post but didn't respond and he was worried people might think that lol but I said, "Naw, I don't think people thought that." He said that Haruka replied so it kinda made up for it and that he was glad that I offered to go along. awww.
Andy has a really nice 2-door Scion. Short, but nice haha. So the "rules of his car," as he put it, is that the passenger has to navigate lol On the spiral drive out the garage, we were talking about how he doesn't look like an otaku LOL because he apologized for listening to his anime music, and I had to tell him I listen to it too. And he mentioned Vocaloid, which is how we got to how he didn't look like an otaku LOL When we were almost there, we were following behind motorcyclists, and he brought up how he loves motorcycles and stuff.
When we got to the park, it was literally trails? So we ended up hiking. It was about 3 hours with him hiking up the trail, so that's too much to cover. Just know, he talked a lot LOL his excuse was because he had milk tea and 3 coffees yesterday, and he slept late. (Oh, he was just getting out of his sickness). When he said he wanted milk tea afterward, I said he just had it yesterday and he said he can't enjoy yesterday's milk tea today lol and then he suddenly dropped the bomb that he and his girlfriend broke up. It was a long-winded correlation, but it was because he was saying he likes to live in the present, and the analogy was, when he and his girlfriend broke up his friends told him at least you have your memories with her and he said he doesn't want the "memories," but to be in the present (with her, I guess?)
It was a fun hike. At the beginning we just talked a lot about anime lol Like what kind of anime we watched etc. He was thirsty because he forgot water. He was like "there's running water! should I drink it?" LOL (On the drive I told him he should've told me to bring him water and he was like, "I can't just say hey stranger, bring me water. And I said I would've still did it, and he said "well, I didn't know you, but now I know." LOL) Luckily, we managed to find a water fountain on the way. We also picked up a large pinecone for him, which I carried. On the hike up he said, "I'm glad you can walk." Me: ?? lol and he mentioned how Gia and Celine would've been out of breath already ahaha. I told him we weren't dressed for hiking, nor did we have water LOL We ended up going to the top, climbed a large rock to get a better view of the sun setting. I climbed the rock after him, but I was wearing my sweater on the front of me, and it was really windy so the hood kept flying in my view. Plus it was difficult climbing with a pinecone. There wasn't much footing near the top, and I was too scared to continue, so I just crouched. We were still talking, and then we had eye contact, and I said "I'm scared" so he had to come over to help me up LOL He literally had to pull me up. Uhm, I don't think I trusted anyone else with my life except Tong LOL
We saw quail on the hike~ <3
Anyway, we went back to a tree we passed to look for acorns. Our first time passed it, we saw only caps. So on our way back down, we really looked hard for them. And we found a few, but most were babies. I found most of them LOL A lady asked us what we were looking for lol I let Andy do the talking. Anyway, he was looking out for me when I was climbing the lil' incline up to the tree, and I'd pass the acorns to him. The sun was setting and he said we should go before it gets to dark. So we finished gathering and started going down. On the way down we spotted a decaying bird wing with feathers attached. I think I kinda told him I want a feather? I forgot how lol but I told him I had notepad paper; I gave it to him so he plucked a feather and we put it in the pinecone/acorn bag. He went for another one; this one was attached to the wing bone still. So I had to help him snap the tip. I tried to step on the bone but missed lol it was on a decline. I had to support my weight by holding on to his shoulder, and I stepped down on the wing bone and he pulled the feather off. Afterward I gave him hand sanitizer because he touched the wing LOL We finally got down, and he drove us to Sweet Corner. He asked me where I wanted to go but I said he could choose. We took the wrong freeway LOL aigoo, I always panic and give wrong directions lol but we got back on track. At one point, I said "how are you driving 40-45mph but it feels so fast? xD" and he goes into explaining his car and speed and race cars lol. He said acceleration on turns feel faster than acceleration going straight; it was true. Sheesh, his turns were really sharp, even though they really weren't. Sharp as in, I had to resist the force? I don't know how to explain lol but it was fun; his car was manual.
On the way there, he was saying he was getting sleepy, and that the mountain was really tiring. I said something along the lines of "crashing from the caffeine" lol At Sweet Corner, there were cakes~ but I thought we were going to grab our drinks and go. Nope. He said "let's unwind for a bit." So we just sat there for a while. He finished his Thai Tea really fast and I said that, and he said "I'm thirsty AF" LOL He looked at his watch and said "we should at 7, or whenever you want." And when I asked him why me, he said it's because he chose the place, so I should choose when to leave. OY, decisions decisions. Since I didn't want him to get home too late, I just said "let's go" after a minute or two. And then he dropped me off at home, and I took home the pinecone and acorns. (AH! I forgot to tell him to drive safe...)
His heater was... really good. Like, it was so hot. Because he was recovering from his sickness, he was still cold after the hike (it was really windy on that rock) and I guess I just warm up faster than he does? And he turned on his heater. There was a fan blowing right in my face and it was so hot. I got home with a red face I think. It's a really good heater because it was only on 1, and on the lowest heat setting but it was still so freakin' hot LOL His car is still cool :p
I think he waited a bit for me to get to the stairs before leaving. Or not. Lol I didn't turn back.
Genai had commented an hour later, like she would've joined if she saw the post, but I enjoyed our time alone lol because we got to know each other a lot. I wonder if we'll go back to being awkward classmates... lol
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Also, I got home and got a notification from Lee. He "waved" to me on Messenger. So I waved back. I thought it may have been an accident that he waved so I said "?? lol" and then he was like "how you been?"
Me in my head: ??
But I answer casually. And when I said "hbu?" he said he got back from a "being in a drama." Note that I'm still hyper from hiking with Andy so my brain is overthinking so many scenarios right. Like, I know Lee wouldn't message me after so long unless something's up, and I really hoped it didn't have anything to do with his girlfriend. The fact that he mentioned 'drama' felt like he wanted to talk about it so I asked "should i ask bout this drama?" and he said "you should/ lol/ but it's up to you." So, I let him vent. (At first he asked if I was still in SJ. I hope that wasn't a precursor for "meeting up" if I was in Stockton kind of thing :p ) So then he dropped the bomb: "My girlfriend just broke up with me lol" (By the way, it was a stupid reason she decided to break up with him) It's a delicate subject right? I mean, I don't know. It's only delicate depending on the person, so I was really cautious that I wasn't helping him make decisions. I just asked the questions. After a few other messages I asked, "And how are you feeling?" He said "Idk/ I'm supposed to be heartbroken but somehow I feel happy" so like, hey, if you feelin' good, then the break up is no big deal LOL and that's what I told him after I asked if he wanted to get back with her. He said "Definitely/ No/ Lol" I said "Ahh, in that case, is no big deal?" followed up by "Dude, i feel bad, like I'm telling you not to get with her/ But like, whether you want to really depends on you" and he flat out said "I don't want to"
Me in my head: then why are you messaging me...??? Like, I thought he wanted to vent because he was sad or something. And he was super positive afterward... LOL weird...
Also, because I haven't talked to him in so long, I found that his many uses of "lol" were odd because I still remember him as a person who doesn't really use lols or stickers/emojis. Usually I'm the one who spams stickers, but he ended our convo with a (:p) sticker and a thumbs up. Like... is this the Lee I know? hahaha Anyway, I just find it really weird that the unexpected messages from Lee tend to be timed around when I finish hanging out/messaging with a guy LOL (alone sometimes at that o.o) Like, if you read previous posts where he's involved, it's either I just messaged Robin/Deilys/Victor or I just came back from hanging with them or something LOL
Weird...
Ah the post ended up being super long because so many things happened > < I tried to eliminate stuff, but, haha, no can do when I want to write it all. Andy messaged me after he got home, I guess, and after talking about the acorns, I asked if he washed his hands. He said "Uhhh/ If we're thinking fourth dimensionally/ I already did when I get* home" LOL I have no idea what he meant but I just said "LOL ok good/ Now go get some rest :p dont get sick again" (nagging him already LOL) and he tried to joke around again but it flew over my head. Again LOL Then I showed him my taped feather later that said "Erm, dont really need to clean it right? ^^; " and he replied "LOL/ Bruh that dirty A F" LOLOL he so fun to talk toooo, I really wish we could stay, y'know, friends.
Lol, anyway, I should really sleep. Darn my eventful day LOL
Steph napped liked around 12:30am... I should wake her to shower after I wash up.
*his actual typo :p
A good day~
written on Saturday, February 10, 2018 @ 1:27 AM ✈
Welp. I had CS minor advising this morning. I was pretty nervous, but the advisor was really friendly! Reminded me of Inga. She said it's not impossible, just really difficult and very unlikely. She's still letting me try though, so I gotta do paperwork...
Then I met up with Jessie so she can get Philz and I ended up getting Gongcha, and delivery for Hsiu Hsiu. Took Jessie to the pencil test lab, and got there to be greeted by David and Justin. AWK. Hsiu Hsiu had gone to the SU for food. ^^; Later I went with Jessie to eat before she left for work. When I got back, another surprise. Lol. Monique and Jewlinna were in the seats on either side of me lol
Later Arlene joined us~ Ah, I was so focused painting my walnut I didn't check my texts. So she called me, and my phone was loud x'D playing EDM (Virtual Self - "Particles" was my ringtone) LOL So we just kept working because we were waiting for James Baxter's presentation. Justin kept talking about his love life with Tiffany and Monique ^^; (Also, Arlene and I went out to film reference for PHYS homework. Tiffany and Justin happened to be walking back from the SU. Arlene was filming me, but she didn't see but Justin asked Tiffany, what's that for? lolol)
So yeah, we're working in the pencil test lab and suddenly Dave Yee opened the door to introduce us as "oh, these are our younger students" lol we didn't know what was happening, just thought they were giving a tour to someone. We just automatically said hello. Dave asked if they wanted to go in, but the guest was already walking away. After they left, we started talking amongst ourselves lol It was freakin' James Baxter x'D
After a while, Jewlinna left for the auditorium. 10 minutes after, Arlene was like let's go, so I started packing up. Then Justin and Aerik got up too. Tiffany was like, "are you guys going already?" and they were like yeah, she was like "so early!" and Aerik: "I like to get there earlier" xD When I went out to meet Arlene, I told her how I thought they started packing because we did lol (Justin offered Hello Panda cookies to us earlier, but I kinda just looked at it because I was still thinking but the others didn't respond to him. And he was like "oh okay" awkwardly, and I felt bad, so I took one LOLOL)
The James Baxter presentation was pretty awesome~
We had to wait out in the lobby though because they were still setting up. It was so hot. Uli came in and we had like eye contact twice. The first time was like, both of us had flitting eyes and weren't sure if we should maintain eye contact. Ugh, we both weren't sure if we should say hi LOL Our 2nd eye contact was a little longer, so we did say hi. It was such an awkard hi toooo ToT Because he had pretty much passed by us. And it was too crowded for him to raise his hand to say hi, but he moved his arm back to sorta wave. Oh it was so awkward. The exchange was between me and him, and I was with Arlene and Elaine. Arlene asked me if he was saying hi to me or her. I forgot how I answered, but I think I just said me really quick and followed up with that was such an awkward hi. I could feel my face heating up. Was it turning red? Let's just say the lobby was getting too hot. Aigoo, must be because I haven't really seen Uli in so long OTL.
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I loved his animation demo, and it made me want to animate. There were non-ANI majors sitting behind us, and they fangirling over the animation for this one animation I haven't watched. At the end of the presentation, the guy in front of us were like "we love you!" (non-ANI LOL) and as everyone was leaving, the girls behind us were talking to each other, about how they're gonna go to the next one too. LOL. NICE.
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I walked Elaine to her car, and then met up with Steph to go to Gongcha. Wow, her co-worker Matthew was working again. It was probably the third time that he and Huey were working and we were customers. I was in a really good mood, so I sorta waved to him when Steph went to get her check and he glanced over the counter. I don't think he saw my wave hmph. Matthew's like, so adorable??? He has a funny laugh and dorky smile. He always plays TWICE for Steph? and complies to Steph's song requests? haha and with Steph's personality toward them, she jokes/teases them, so yeah. I was laughing a lot today. Erm, so me and Steph literally got the same drinks as last time. And I mentioned to her we got the same drinks as last time, and I think he tried to guess my sugar level lol. He made my smoothie and he filled it to the top, to the point it kept spilling lol Meanwhile, Steph's milk tea was a little low LOL
Steph requested BTS songs, so Matthew happily complied, then Huey got "mad" (because he always goes against Steph lol) and Matthew "fought" him off before he could change the song. Lol he kept kicking Huey back to the kitchen. One time, Huey changed the song and then he back hugged Matthew and Matthew kept yelling at him to get off, while laughing. The first time I almost choked on my smoothie LOL Toward the end, I was kinda just staring off into space, and had like a 2 sec eye contact with him. Every time we were there and he's making drinks, he always looks over and then we just all burst out laughing lol
I really like him, but probably not in that way LOL He's a fun and nice dude lol
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Gah, I have "work" with Arlene tomorrow, and we gotta go to the zoo too.
I should sleep now eek.
My Idol~
written on Friday, February 9, 2018 @ 12:32 AM ✈
Uwah! Today hip hop was tiring~
Jonny taught today and uwahhhh I feel like I haven't seen him in forever? I mean, I have in photos and stuff but YO. IN PERSON.
OMG FANGIRL MOMENT. My spirits were waaaay high when I saw him walking toward us, yellow FIFA (?) hoodie, and black dance sweats (what are they called? lol) and YO. HE JUST MODEL STATUS AIGHT.
I was walking to them, but there were very little people? Jonny wasn't here yet. BJ saw me first and he waved and then I awkwardly waved with all my stuff in my hand (I carry my phone and water bottle) and he was still waving. And I think he was waving with both his hands? So I had lowered my hand at first, but when he continued waving, so I waved both my hands at him. Some time during this, Vira saw me and waved too LOL
Amy & Herman were behind Jonny (not directly) & I was super happy because I haven't seen Amy in so long! So I was excitedly waving both my hands at her. There was a guy in front of me who I have never seen. So I was lowering my hands while scanning my eyes left, and then Jonny and I had a short eye contact and he raised his hand in a sort of wave gesture. And I wasn't sure if he was greeting the guy in front of me or if he thought I was saying hi to him. Automatically I gave him a nod of acknowledgement just in case and quickly looked away. Afterward I was trying to process all that. Uh, the guy in front of me didn't even respond to him? So I'm pretty sure he didn't know Jonny... lol. And obviously, Jonny wouldn't know him. Uhm that guy's mom(?) also came to pick him up or something? She was recording him. How cute...? ^^;
Some of the dancers thought she needed to move her car or something, because we never have elders here, so they were like "CAR." to Jonny. Jonny turned off the music, apologized to the group who was gonna dance, and then turned to the dancers who said car. Jonny was like "where?" Literally, everyone was looking in the lady's direction, but she was also looking around. We figured there was no car needing to leave, so the dancers peaced him out (they were already on their way to leave) and Jonny started the music again. It was a weird moment lol
Anyway, so after workshop ended, I wanted to go give him a hug, because like, it's my only chance LOL I was sitting down and he be walking back and forth in front of me. Usually I leave right after workshop ends. So I finally get up (he already passed me) and say bye to Amy & Herman who were heading off to Modern (Akbayan dance) and then I walk passed him, made short eye contact:
Me: thanks for teaching -bows a little-
Him: thank you for coming -returns bow with hands together-
Me: -bows a little as I walk off-
I backed out of the hug in the end LOL I continue walking toward Matthew to give him a hug and say bye. I think Dillon was with BJ and Vira, so I was walking away and Dillon yelled bye to me (he still calls me Justine) and so I waved back to them. (Dillon came midway in the dance, and he was also in the back. He was walking toward me, and then I looked over at him and then he noticed me and gave me a hug)
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Other than that, classes were okay? Jef was joking around like usual. Owen had to keep our sketchbooks because he didn't have time to mark them. Eek. I didn't finish the 7 trees... I hadn't really been eating a lot the past few days? And last night I didn't eat dinner, so I knew my stomach would probably end up growling in class. It did, and Cindy who was next to me heard it. At first it was a short grrr, but then it was longer that I had to hold my stomach. Me and Cindy kept laughing at it 'cause it happened like 3 times? And the last time, she was drinking water and it happened. She almost choked on her water? We bursted out laughing, and she was like "It's just so cute. I just want to feed you." Like, aww Cindyyy x'D I barely talk to her :p We had 112A together like 2 semesters ago, and just started talking to each other more because we sit next to each other.
I was really tired because I had woken up around 6 because I was gonna do my trees. I woke up, didn't feel like it, and went back to sleep. Had a short, stressed "nightmare" and woke up thinking I was late. So yeah, I was sleepy, but I was in the pencil test lab to do my animation rough for 114 (my last class). I thought I'd take longer, but I finished pretty fast, so I went to do my coding, but wasn't really able to finish the assignment. I thought my rough was pretty crappy and was worried about what Jef was gonna say about it. But he was like it was looking good :o
Oh yeah, I was taking notes and suddenly I felt my hands trembling. Also, it suddenly got very hot, and I was feeling all tingly. Guess who was low on sugar? ^^; I told Hsiu Hsiu that I wanted candy, and Vivian gave us some Swedish Fish. I don't really like them, but I needed the sugar so I ate some. I felt better afterward. Accidentally ate all her fishies ^^;
In class, he kept telling us to not put down our own work, and told us a story about he had an interview. And the guy came in, saw his portfolio, and said "that's some good work." My professor, being young then said they weren't good. So the guy packed his portfolio pieces back in my professor's folder and left. The receptionist told him he was done. A week or 2 later, my professor gets the courage to call them and ask about it. They told him, "you said it sucked." So basically, if it sucks, it wasn't worth looking in to?
Basically, even though you don't like it or think it was good work, someone else is going to have a different view of it. You telling them, oh I messed up here or this part sucked is literally telling your viewers to find the mistakes and flaws, even though they wouldn't have seen it if you hadn't pointed it out.
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After hip hop, I showered and waited for Jim because she was making a delivery~ Mmm and then I ate dinner kekeke
Love Live 6th Stage!
written on Monday, February 5, 2018 @ 1:21 AM ✈
I AM SO DONE WITH THIS EGG.
I've been working on the egg since like 12pm. I did well and all, only for my classmate to tell me my values did not have enough contrast so I redid it. Now theres a lot more darks. But is it too dark? Aiyah.
Also, I was watching Maji LOVE LIVE 6th stage. Not HD but OMG. STILL LOVE.
Hontoni saikou suteji! <3
HEAVENS' first stage, & OMG they were crying so much ToT
MAMO. WHY YOU CRY SO MUCH.
Terashii & Mamo are such best friends omg <3
Tattsun is so adorable? like?? Maeno's makeup & hair is <3 (Dude, Maeno's so cute??)
Kiryun's seiyuu is so cute?? hahaha
Daiki's adorable~
My precious loves.
Also, watched 연애하루전 (A Day Before Us) on Youtube. The English subs are slow updates, but it's really cute! And the OST is <3 Watching that led to a Dingo playlist called, When a Man Loves a Woman, I think? I thought it was a live-action of A Day Before Us because they were so similar haha
Ah... I feel like I have lots to do this week ^^; I'm not procrastinating.. at the same time I'm procrastinating on other stuff? Well, I've been waking up pretty early lately anyway. Let's make it a habit? I'm probably gonna die mid-way into the semester LOL
Alright, time to go fold my laundry & get ready to sleep... & fall in to post-6th stage feels ToT
I LOVE UTAPRI
Taking Lessons
written on Saturday, February 3, 2018 @ 1:22 AM ✈
I'm currently taking the Sexual Assault Prevention education thingy. So many freakin' slides, when am I doneee I just want to sleeeep.
But anyway, I'm on the trauma section. And they mention that trauma causes them to recall the event hesitantly or have difficulty recalling things in a linear fashion... so if studies show that trauma impacts memory... why do lawyers question rape victims in such way and says they're lying because they couldn't recall things? Like, wouldn't the question be invalid anyway? (or does this only happen in movies, lol, with the questioning etc)
Finally done OTL
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Today I woke up early to go work with Arlene in the ART building, but I got distracted by Uta no Prince-sama: Shining Live lol I played too much xD I was confused at first, but I think I'm getting the hang of it. I finally headed over at around 1:30 LOL Mckenzie brought leftover Psycho Donuts from work! Worked for a bit, and then we went to the SU for Starbucks. Afterward, we went to 14F. Gah, I spaced out and was daydreaming here and there. And thinking about all the things I want/need to do.
Afterward, I walked Arlene to the parking garage, and then she dropped me off at home. It's been a long day ^^; I've been pretty productive this semester? Hahaha. Ate dinner of curry. After I showered, I tried to catch up with the Google/Udacity thing. 1 hour of basics OTL. Am I ever gonna catch up ahaha
Steph just came back from ASTRO's concert. She seems dead again ahaha. She's showering right now, which means she'll be sleeping soon. My tummy hasn't been feeling well because it's here. At least it'll be gone when Jonny teaches at hip hop! Speaking of hip hop... guess what Dillon surprised us with yesterday!? Choreo to "I Need a Girl"! I was really feelin' it last night haha and because I'm super familiar with the song, I didn't forget the moves, and I was pretty much on beat. Definitely my most confident dance ahahaha I was center back for the group! kekeke. Also, I was super happy when Dillon brought Beau ahaha.
It's been a good week. Trying to be super productive because I have lots to do ToT
Good days~ Good week~
written on Thursday, February 1, 2018 @ 12:20 AM ✈
Currently nomming on Hokkaido Melon Kit-Kat from Japan~
Ahh I'm really sleepy right now, but I still have homework to do. ^^;
Yesterday was a good day~ It's been a while since I last animated traditionally lol FAIL.
Anyway, it was a good day because hip hop was fun! Also, because Steph treated me to Gongcha and then walked me to hip hop. I thought I was late, but Matthew hadn't even arrived yet. Thien from Parang greeted me. Vira brought his Dachshund, Beau! Beau was so adorable~~ I gave Matthew a hug when he arrived, and Vira gave me a hug too, interestingly enough LOL like, we hardly talked. We knew of each other though xD Then there's same ol' same ol' Anthony haha.
Matthew taught the choreo to Chris Brown's "Is This Love" and hm, I was feelin' it? lol When it came to the group dances, Matthew split us into pairs since there were only 14 of us. But then he made us switch our partner to someone we don't know/talk to. I'm glad Thien decided to partner with me because he's so peppy haha so much moral support; it was fun. For the last 8 counts, he had us choreo a groove with our partner. Fuhhh I was freakin' out so much lol but Thien was like, just have fun. And I was thinking, had I partnered with the other girl, we would've been screwed ^^;
While waiting for our turn, I went to play with Beau. He/she sat on my lap~ sooo cute~ and it kept nudging its nose into my hand; I ended up covering its eyes here and there lol I didn't want to let him/her go. When it came to our turn, I of course messed up a bit, but at one part Thien messed up and forgot what the next move was. For some reason, I had the extra energy and courage to keep going? (Matthew gestured toward me with the face that said, what? she gots it! lol at least, that's what I got at a glance) He turned to look at me and exclaimed "ah that's it!" and he kept going afterward like nothing happened xD We finished with our grooveeee woot woot!
It was such a good time that I took the initiative to say bye to Matthew (usually I just sneak away lol) BJ (a choreographer who taught us before but I never talked to) made eye contact with me as I moved away from the hug with Matthew, so I waved to him. I said bye to Celine, waved to Anthony who was ecstatically saying bye to me, and then Vira saw that I was leaving and he waved too. D'awww everyone~ <3
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This morning I met up with Arlene to work in the Pencil Test Lab. Stupid me forgot my egg, so I walked back for it. [A quick note. This girl came in and sat across from me. She had headphones on, looking at her laptop, and started vlogging? saying, "Right now I'm in the Pencil Test Lab, and I'm gonna be doing some work... etc etc" and the girl next to her just kinda glanced over. You know, when someone is talking loudly in a place where you should speak quietly? A little later, she asks "So, uh, did you pass portfolio review yet?" I look up at her. She's staring at her laptop, so I thought she was talking to someone else. So I continue helping Arlene. A few minutes later she repeats it again. I give her a quick glance; still looking at her laptop, so I ignore it. Again, it happens. I look at her, the girl next to her glanced at us and said, "I think she's talking to you" quietly and I point to myself and I ask the girl "are you asking me?" and she says "yeah" and I'm like whoops in my head lol So I answer that question, and then she just starts asking me question after question! I answer stiffly with some awkward laughs here and there. Afterward, I just had to text Arlene because that was such an awkward interaction.
I also gave her and Celine a cheesecake cupcake, and they both liked it. Yays~
I only had MATH 42 today. I did pretty much all the homework last night, thinking we had a quiz today. But it was next week. And then I headed over to the Blue Sky Studio presentation. Later I chilled with Arlene, Celine, and Gia in the SU before heading home to make curry.
The curry took me about 2 hours to cook? but just in time, because Jessie got out of class! The curry rice was good. Kune was also there for dinner. They and Steph got seconds, so I'm glad! ^^
Also! John's back!? Like, what a surprise! haha He's moving back here for school tomorrow; right now he's commuting from Santa Barbara or Monterey...
I also got my Believer's Package and it's so freakin' amazingggg! Taking the CDs out of the case was so difficult though xD It felt like I was going to snap it. I was stressin' so much ahaha. I'm feeling good because I'm excited for the next 2 days: SHMeeting = new hoodie! on Thursday; Dillon's teaching at hip hop; 14F on Friday, Best of Ottawa~
OH! I totally forgot to mention that I got accepted into...
I totally missed this when I checked my e-mail? and totally forgot about it, 'til one of the project manager's reminded me, and I was so confused LOL I'm a week behind but I'll working on Android Development. Ah, there's just so much to do, but we'll make it happen~
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Ah, I didn't mean to post so much. I really am sleepy, and it's a long day tomorrow, so I'ma quickly do 2 tree drawings and sleep
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^
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