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So I was sort of caught up, and now I'm not ahaha. Nothing new so far (I'm learning how to keep my posts short ;) be proud of me~)

It's almost 3am & I have class at 9. Keel me nowwww. I wasn't very productive over the weekends? Well, I did finish my bio but that was about it. I still have a bunch of stuff to do. I went to watch "The Boss" with Biri on Friday. Saturday I went out with Josue, and he treated me to Old Spaghetti Factory (his cute friend works there! haha) We also went to Muji before we dropped Biri off work & heading to OSF. Muji's hiring! I was pretty excited bc I was so down to work there lol. I even started on my resumé when I got back to the dorm. Writing one was harder than I thought...
I maybe should start stressing over ANI14? But I have been doing pretty well, I mean I never got lower than a 70. *shrugs* Still, the homework's about piling up now.

On Tues I really was in a sort of bad mood bc first off, I got some bad comments on my pear paintings (not like I never got bad comments, but that day, those comments really irked me) and then Steph tells me that the really nice 360Res unit was gone. And then I sorta started stressing? Not really... but anyway I was really down. Not to mention I had to get to ANI1 early bc we were having an extra credit screening before class. I got to class and there were a lot of people going in and out, so I just held the door open. When the 'masses' started thinning out, this dude stood in front of the entrance next to me and offered to hold the door but I said it was okay and that he could go first. So he went in but then turned back to ask if I was in the class. I nodded and he was like "ohhh! then come in come in!" (I don't really remember word for word, but he was really nice) He insisted on holding the door open--from the inside LOL so I scurried in so he didn't have to awkwardly hold it open. He said to me as I passed by something like wouldn't want you to be stuck outside if you have class. That kinda lifted my spirits. Oh yeah, there was also an Earth Day event with a petting zoo. Soft bunniessss~

On Wed, Jen & Jim came over and took me to do my observational lab field thingy. We made friends with a Canadian goose! It was right next to me keke. It was really hot that day. Afterward, we went to the mall & did some Mother's Day shopping. There was also a Brookstone! We spent a lil' over $200? I wonder if we're returning the massageeee thingies for cheaper on Amazon...

Haven't gone to the gym last week I don't think... LOL. Today I went to the library to study with KG, Biri, and Paola. To be honest, I didn't do anything really, so yeah, technically I wasted my time. But the fun thing was, when we were going there, we got a lift on the UPD cart. When we were leaving they wanted a lift but KG asked for an escort so we got a walking escort. He was pretty nice, pretty chill. It was kinda awkward walking back with him but he was chatting with KG. I didn't have much to eat today. I had my leftover chicken breast with canned ravioli for lunch at around 3? with Quickly. Spent time watching Qmentary--> Omg I died xD & was also Skyping with Jim. And then left for the library around 8:50pm.
At the library Meimei HAD to send me fantaken photos of FREAKIN' WEI WITH SMOKY MAKEUP. I ALMOST DIED. HE WAS WINKING TOOO WINKING I TELL YOUUU sigh. lol

Oops, falling behind again hehe.
This week went faster than I hoped I guess?
Well, for ANI14 homework we had to do 10 tonal drawings w/ our Tombow dual markers. I did them all the morning of class. Uli said it was good & he couldn't find anything to say to me & he said "I have to tell you at least one thing...." Other than drawings being off and reflected light is too light, he said I did really well ^w^ I think that made my day.
And then there was Jobee's talent show performance.... AT LUNCH. I still don't get it... *shakes my head*

One day I went down to eat sushi after class, and before my 6:30pm class. (When I got out of ANI14, I was going to take the elevator, but I saw Joey too late & I was so awkward avoiding the elevator--I walked out and back in after they left. phew. So I ended up taking the next elevator w/ "jawline"--this dude that has a really nice jawline according to Bea lol)
I was peacefully eating when this dude suddenly sits down in front of me and asks me about blind date advice. Uhm, ahaha, awkwardly we talked. I couldn't give him much advice that he didn't already know. He was really nice still I guess? He's a junior, but he talked so shy? Anyway I haven't seen him (& even if I did, I prob wouldn't even recognize LOL)

Amy and I also went back to hip hop for Jonny's workshop. Dude it was so scurry bc it was all his Syndicate friends TuT and it was super windy that day, my eyes were so dry & we were all freezing LOL

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Yesterday was Admitted Spartans' Day & Steph came over w/ her mom, aunt, & sis. It was kinda awk? lol I kinda gave them a sort of tour but I think I failed LOL. Psh, Steph even left me w/ her mom & aunt alone (when I guided them to use the restroom). After ASD, we ate and went apartment scouting w/ Biri. I really like the one at 360 Res., though it's a lil' far by walking, but I think we'll get use to it. Also, Thirst Tea is hiring!? *sigh* I'm too scared to ToT but what's the worst?
We ate at Johnny Rockets; ate a lil' too much. I've been going to the gym w/ KG on Mon, Wed, & I guess Fri now too. And I just ate all that back... *sigh*

Also, I haven't had time for DTA's and stuff ToT
U10 comeback~ <3

*Right now I'm listening to my blog's music, listening to the piano version of Winter Blossom. Ah, memories. Can't wait for Season 4~*

Anyway, a lot of stuff's been happening I guess? This past weekend I stayed over at Jen's place in SF. I've been working out with KG, starting last Wed. Only Wed. though since I'm busy every other day. Maybe Friday... but I went with her this Monday too. She's training me ^^ I'm weak but at least when she's training me, I force myself to do it. It's not like it's unpleasant, but in the case with Bea, I won't force myself because, well, it's Bea! Lol.
Hyung also brought some bad news hmph. He's leaving SJ and going to a community college in Tracy. He wants to transfer to a UC, & it's easier from a community college... I was so sad :(( but I mean, he's doing what's best for him. He said he's been losing weight, about 6-7lbs since he was here. Poor hyung...

Yesterday my classmate took me & 3 other girls to Palo Alto Baylands for our field trip. It was pretty cool I guess. We saw a very pretty Annas Hummingbird ^^ Remember that funny (but not so funny) dude in my lab class? Nothing 'bout him really lol he's just taller than I thought LOL

Also, Luis. Omgee lol we've been kinda really, friendly? lately, I guess. He just casually comes into our room when our door is open haha just twice really; he came in last night. Kinda more comfortable with him now though so it's good. ^^

I wanted to sleep earlier lately... it almost worked? Uhm, but I slept late last night because I spent so much time after lab catching up on performances > < sheesh too many comebacks, & more to come! Then gym-ed. So when I got back to the dorm & showered, it was like 930? And when I started my homework, I ended up finishing around 230. I finished the rest this morning. I didn't wake up as early as I wanted to though.
Something that bothered me last night: Biri was going to get off work late, & she wanted a sandwich so asked LeAnn/Bea to get it. Bea kept dilly-dallying, asking if she'll make it in time since there's like 15min left. We said she could, but she just kept making excuses. In the end they said that actually, they would have already cleaned up. I was just thinking, what kind of friend wouldn't go get food for them? instead of making excuses -.- I know she can't really say no, I don't want to go get it because that's mean, but she could've just changed & attempted or something instead of making all these excuses. Sigh.

POLARIS is having a comeback this summer! Hopefully it actually goes through this time haha. I really want to comeback... <3

Thanks Minar! <3

Anyway, hyung hyung hyung.
Yesterday when I was going to class, I left at a time when there were only guys waiting for the elevator (luckily, Biri ended up coming too). So when I opened the door, I was really surprised. Hyung was the closest to the door & he boo-ed me; I was really taken aback x2 LOL. It was Travis, Josh & Andres, & Hyung waiting. When I got there, the elevator had just come. I held the door open for Biri & hyung starts saying to Andres & Josh about how I'm a junior standing academically omg hyung even I don't brag about myself LOL & when we were in the elevator he was like "her sisters go to like Berkeley and... Davis?" *looks at me* so I awkwardly nod LOL. I was kinda standing next him--not close (he's left of me)--& behind Andres with Josh next to him. Biri stood behind Josh & next to me (it's like a square, us 4. in my point of view can you imagine it? LOL)
Josh was the only one still listening to hyung LOL. Hyung also mentioned, I guess my major? but I didn't say anything. He said something like "....art.... that's talent." I wasn't really listening, all I saw was Josh nodding & with his usual smirk LOL I am so dead ahahaha all my favorite people in an elevator. Okay, he stops talking when we hit like the 9th floor I think.
That is just so awkward LOl does he have to bring up my standing everytime I'm with him & other people? pfft.
well I mean *shrug*

Originally I was going to write a pretty long post after thinking so long on the drive back to SJ (yes, I'm back in SJ), but my mood went up so now I don't feel the need to, though I guess I have a few things to share?

I think I should've had an "emo" phase.
To be honest, I'm very much a 'happy virus' ya know? I'm super optimistic & peppy, for the most part. But the con of that kind of personality is, once you're sad/depressed, it's extreme sadness. I mean, it balances right? Being extremely happy all the time just means being extremely sad when your mood drops. So I kinda wished I had an emo phase. I almost did, but I think it was very short & temporary. Once I'm feeling down, I just lose all motivation and just, desire to do nothing at all; including not going to school etc. (not to the point of not wanting to live though). There's just no more desire of anything... and I'm just spaced out for a while.

I was mad/sad/annoyed/lost all at the same time.
I wish I never found out... never found out that the black hard drive in our room was not ours. To find out that it's possible my dad returned OUR hard drive because he thought it was his. We're hoping for a possibility that maybe ours is placed elsewhere, but the chances are pretty low. It had all our backups to old memories and whatnot. Imagine not getting any of those back... I can't. Too many emotions spilled out at once. I didn't know how I should be feeling. What's the right emotion to feel? Yes, I'm always annoyed at my dad & I'm sure I've written posts about how much I disliked him (mostly his actions; "hate" is a strong word). Yes, everyone makes mistakes. And so what? Once it's done, it's done. There's nothing that can be done to bring it back. There's nothing arguments can do to bring it back. So why bother? I don't even know... He didn't do it on purpose, yet we want someone to take the blame. The way we treat him? It's not right, we know that. But in our standards, what he's saying. Doing. It's not right. Yet in his standards, it's all good. Who's correct? Or, he just doesn't know. [No, I did not have an argument with him over the hard drive.]

I usually don't know when I'm stressing.
Because I don't feel like I'm breaking down, or need to. And it's not like I keep things to myself; I let it all go in my blog. I'm not telling someone, but I'm telling something I guess you could say. Times when I know I'm stressing is when I suddenly feel like I won't get something done, or that I'm straining myself so much that I want to cry yet don't want to. It's also when I feel so overwhelmed that I don't know what to do. Lists of things to do is what keeps me straight, calm-minded, and clear. Kind of. But things just pile up and become really stressful. Sometimes, they're not important. Not important things that stress me out is keeping up with my favorite groups on music shows, special music shows etc, shows, SNS, V app etc. What used to stress me out was saving every single pic of my babs from tumblr (that means going through hundreds of pages on various tumblr fanpages), and I finally broke that bad habit, though it occasionally comes back when I get hooked to a new group--though I keep telling myself they're not needed. I think a new thing (not really) that is stressing me out is knowing if I have every released album/single/song from artists, sometimes going all the way back to their debut. To be honest, will I listen to the old albums? Most likely not. Maybe sometimes I would want to listen to an old song or two. I'm trying to break that bad habit right now. Important things that are stressing me out are everyday homework, apartments for next year, money, and jobs.

I don't even know.

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Well there's my rant of the day... I should really find a good cry. 
I took the opportunity of LeAnn & Bea not back yet so I cleaned my table. I need to buy a bookshelf stand...? I love being in the dorm by myself~ So much freedom.

*A happy tidbit of the day: I got to eat crêpes with Steph, Mina, & Jessica. Then we had K-bbq. I was so full omg my tummy was sticking out so much (also bc I've been eating well at home).
Time to work out a lil' here & there. Time to go back to hip hop (soon). Time to learn all my babs' new dances~ (oi, I really cannot get stressed out bc I haven't watched a bajillion different shows and cuts of my babs ToT)

Well. It's time for me to sleep. My head is itchy > > Also, I'm typing in the dark. The cpu screen is gonna be sooo bad for my eyes >.<

So I was sort of caught up, and now I'm not ahaha. Nothing new so far (I'm learning how to keep my posts short ;) be proud of me~)

It's almost 3am & I have class at 9. Keel me nowwww. I wasn't very productive over the weekends? Well, I did finish my bio but that was about it. I still have a bunch of stuff to do. I went to watch "The Boss" with Biri on Friday. Saturday I went out with Josue, and he treated me to Old Spaghetti Factory (his cute friend works there! haha) We also went to Muji before we dropped Biri off work & heading to OSF. Muji's hiring! I was pretty excited bc I was so down to work there lol. I even started on my resumé when I got back to the dorm. Writing one was harder than I thought...
I maybe should start stressing over ANI14? But I have been doing pretty well, I mean I never got lower than a 70. *shrugs* Still, the homework's about piling up now.

On Tues I really was in a sort of bad mood bc first off, I got some bad comments on my pear paintings (not like I never got bad comments, but that day, those comments really irked me) and then Steph tells me that the really nice 360Res unit was gone. And then I sorta started stressing? Not really... but anyway I was really down. Not to mention I had to get to ANI1 early bc we were having an extra credit screening before class. I got to class and there were a lot of people going in and out, so I just held the door open. When the 'masses' started thinning out, this dude stood in front of the entrance next to me and offered to hold the door but I said it was okay and that he could go first. So he went in but then turned back to ask if I was in the class. I nodded and he was like "ohhh! then come in come in!" (I don't really remember word for word, but he was really nice) He insisted on holding the door open--from the inside LOL so I scurried in so he didn't have to awkwardly hold it open. He said to me as I passed by something like wouldn't want you to be stuck outside if you have class. That kinda lifted my spirits. Oh yeah, there was also an Earth Day event with a petting zoo. Soft bunniessss~

On Wed, Jen & Jim came over and took me to do my observational lab field thingy. We made friends with a Canadian goose! It was right next to me keke. It was really hot that day. Afterward, we went to the mall & did some Mother's Day shopping. There was also a Brookstone! We spent a lil' over $200? I wonder if we're returning the massageeee thingies for cheaper on Amazon...

Haven't gone to the gym last week I don't think... LOL. Today I went to the library to study with KG, Biri, and Paola. To be honest, I didn't do anything really, so yeah, technically I wasted my time. But the fun thing was, when we were going there, we got a lift on the UPD cart. When we were leaving they wanted a lift but KG asked for an escort so we got a walking escort. He was pretty nice, pretty chill. It was kinda awkward walking back with him but he was chatting with KG. I didn't have much to eat today. I had my leftover chicken breast with canned ravioli for lunch at around 3? with Quickly. Spent time watching Qmentary--> Omg I died xD & was also Skyping with Jim. And then left for the library around 8:50pm.
At the library Meimei HAD to send me fantaken photos of FREAKIN' WEI WITH SMOKY MAKEUP. I ALMOST DIED. HE WAS WINKING TOOO WINKING I TELL YOUUU sigh. lol

Oops, falling behind again hehe.
This week went faster than I hoped I guess?
Well, for ANI14 homework we had to do 10 tonal drawings w/ our Tombow dual markers. I did them all the morning of class. Uli said it was good & he couldn't find anything to say to me & he said "I have to tell you at least one thing...." Other than drawings being off and reflected light is too light, he said I did really well ^w^ I think that made my day.
And then there was Jobee's talent show performance.... AT LUNCH. I still don't get it... *shakes my head*

One day I went down to eat sushi after class, and before my 6:30pm class. (When I got out of ANI14, I was going to take the elevator, but I saw Joey too late & I was so awkward avoiding the elevator--I walked out and back in after they left. phew. So I ended up taking the next elevator w/ "jawline"--this dude that has a really nice jawline according to Bea lol)
I was peacefully eating when this dude suddenly sits down in front of me and asks me about blind date advice. Uhm, ahaha, awkwardly we talked. I couldn't give him much advice that he didn't already know. He was really nice still I guess? He's a junior, but he talked so shy? Anyway I haven't seen him (& even if I did, I prob wouldn't even recognize LOL)

Amy and I also went back to hip hop for Jonny's workshop. Dude it was so scurry bc it was all his Syndicate friends TuT and it was super windy that day, my eyes were so dry & we were all freezing LOL

---
Yesterday was Admitted Spartans' Day & Steph came over w/ her mom, aunt, & sis. It was kinda awk? lol I kinda gave them a sort of tour but I think I failed LOL. Psh, Steph even left me w/ her mom & aunt alone (when I guided them to use the restroom). After ASD, we ate and went apartment scouting w/ Biri. I really like the one at 360 Res., though it's a lil' far by walking, but I think we'll get use to it. Also, Thirst Tea is hiring!? *sigh* I'm too scared to ToT but what's the worst?
We ate at Johnny Rockets; ate a lil' too much. I've been going to the gym w/ KG on Mon, Wed, & I guess Fri now too. And I just ate all that back... *sigh*

Also, I haven't had time for DTA's and stuff ToT
U10 comeback~ <3

*Right now I'm listening to my blog's music, listening to the piano version of Winter Blossom. Ah, memories. Can't wait for Season 4~*

Anyway, a lot of stuff's been happening I guess? This past weekend I stayed over at Jen's place in SF. I've been working out with KG, starting last Wed. Only Wed. though since I'm busy every other day. Maybe Friday... but I went with her this Monday too. She's training me ^^ I'm weak but at least when she's training me, I force myself to do it. It's not like it's unpleasant, but in the case with Bea, I won't force myself because, well, it's Bea! Lol.
Hyung also brought some bad news hmph. He's leaving SJ and going to a community college in Tracy. He wants to transfer to a UC, & it's easier from a community college... I was so sad :(( but I mean, he's doing what's best for him. He said he's been losing weight, about 6-7lbs since he was here. Poor hyung...

Yesterday my classmate took me & 3 other girls to Palo Alto Baylands for our field trip. It was pretty cool I guess. We saw a very pretty Annas Hummingbird ^^ Remember that funny (but not so funny) dude in my lab class? Nothing 'bout him really lol he's just taller than I thought LOL

Also, Luis. Omgee lol we've been kinda really, friendly? lately, I guess. He just casually comes into our room when our door is open haha just twice really; he came in last night. Kinda more comfortable with him now though so it's good. ^^

I wanted to sleep earlier lately... it almost worked? Uhm, but I slept late last night because I spent so much time after lab catching up on performances > < sheesh too many comebacks, & more to come! Then gym-ed. So when I got back to the dorm & showered, it was like 930? And when I started my homework, I ended up finishing around 230. I finished the rest this morning. I didn't wake up as early as I wanted to though.
Something that bothered me last night: Biri was going to get off work late, & she wanted a sandwich so asked LeAnn/Bea to get it. Bea kept dilly-dallying, asking if she'll make it in time since there's like 15min left. We said she could, but she just kept making excuses. In the end they said that actually, they would have already cleaned up. I was just thinking, what kind of friend wouldn't go get food for them? instead of making excuses -.- I know she can't really say no, I don't want to go get it because that's mean, but she could've just changed & attempted or something instead of making all these excuses. Sigh.

POLARIS is having a comeback this summer! Hopefully it actually goes through this time haha. I really want to comeback... <3

Thanks Minar! <3

Anyway, hyung hyung hyung.
Yesterday when I was going to class, I left at a time when there were only guys waiting for the elevator (luckily, Biri ended up coming too). So when I opened the door, I was really surprised. Hyung was the closest to the door & he boo-ed me; I was really taken aback x2 LOL. It was Travis, Josh & Andres, & Hyung waiting. When I got there, the elevator had just come. I held the door open for Biri & hyung starts saying to Andres & Josh about how I'm a junior standing academically omg hyung even I don't brag about myself LOL & when we were in the elevator he was like "her sisters go to like Berkeley and... Davis?" *looks at me* so I awkwardly nod LOL. I was kinda standing next him--not close (he's left of me)--& behind Andres with Josh next to him. Biri stood behind Josh & next to me (it's like a square, us 4. in my point of view can you imagine it? LOL)
Josh was the only one still listening to hyung LOL. Hyung also mentioned, I guess my major? but I didn't say anything. He said something like "....art.... that's talent." I wasn't really listening, all I saw was Josh nodding & with his usual smirk LOL I am so dead ahahaha all my favorite people in an elevator. Okay, he stops talking when we hit like the 9th floor I think.
That is just so awkward LOl does he have to bring up my standing everytime I'm with him & other people? pfft.
well I mean *shrug*

Originally I was going to write a pretty long post after thinking so long on the drive back to SJ (yes, I'm back in SJ), but my mood went up so now I don't feel the need to, though I guess I have a few things to share?

I think I should've had an "emo" phase.
To be honest, I'm very much a 'happy virus' ya know? I'm super optimistic & peppy, for the most part. But the con of that kind of personality is, once you're sad/depressed, it's extreme sadness. I mean, it balances right? Being extremely happy all the time just means being extremely sad when your mood drops. So I kinda wished I had an emo phase. I almost did, but I think it was very short & temporary. Once I'm feeling down, I just lose all motivation and just, desire to do nothing at all; including not going to school etc. (not to the point of not wanting to live though). There's just no more desire of anything... and I'm just spaced out for a while.

I was mad/sad/annoyed/lost all at the same time.
I wish I never found out... never found out that the black hard drive in our room was not ours. To find out that it's possible my dad returned OUR hard drive because he thought it was his. We're hoping for a possibility that maybe ours is placed elsewhere, but the chances are pretty low. It had all our backups to old memories and whatnot. Imagine not getting any of those back... I can't. Too many emotions spilled out at once. I didn't know how I should be feeling. What's the right emotion to feel? Yes, I'm always annoyed at my dad & I'm sure I've written posts about how much I disliked him (mostly his actions; "hate" is a strong word). Yes, everyone makes mistakes. And so what? Once it's done, it's done. There's nothing that can be done to bring it back. There's nothing arguments can do to bring it back. So why bother? I don't even know... He didn't do it on purpose, yet we want someone to take the blame. The way we treat him? It's not right, we know that. But in our standards, what he's saying. Doing. It's not right. Yet in his standards, it's all good. Who's correct? Or, he just doesn't know. [No, I did not have an argument with him over the hard drive.]

I usually don't know when I'm stressing.
Because I don't feel like I'm breaking down, or need to. And it's not like I keep things to myself; I let it all go in my blog. I'm not telling someone, but I'm telling something I guess you could say. Times when I know I'm stressing is when I suddenly feel like I won't get something done, or that I'm straining myself so much that I want to cry yet don't want to. It's also when I feel so overwhelmed that I don't know what to do. Lists of things to do is what keeps me straight, calm-minded, and clear. Kind of. But things just pile up and become really stressful. Sometimes, they're not important. Not important things that stress me out is keeping up with my favorite groups on music shows, special music shows etc, shows, SNS, V app etc. What used to stress me out was saving every single pic of my babs from tumblr (that means going through hundreds of pages on various tumblr fanpages), and I finally broke that bad habit, though it occasionally comes back when I get hooked to a new group--though I keep telling myself they're not needed. I think a new thing (not really) that is stressing me out is knowing if I have every released album/single/song from artists, sometimes going all the way back to their debut. To be honest, will I listen to the old albums? Most likely not. Maybe sometimes I would want to listen to an old song or two. I'm trying to break that bad habit right now. Important things that are stressing me out are everyday homework, apartments for next year, money, and jobs.

I don't even know.

--
Well there's my rant of the day... I should really find a good cry. 
I took the opportunity of LeAnn & Bea not back yet so I cleaned my table. I need to buy a bookshelf stand...? I love being in the dorm by myself~ So much freedom.

*A happy tidbit of the day: I got to eat crêpes with Steph, Mina, & Jessica. Then we had K-bbq. I was so full omg my tummy was sticking out so much (also bc I've been eating well at home).
Time to work out a lil' here & there. Time to go back to hip hop (soon). Time to learn all my babs' new dances~ (oi, I really cannot get stressed out bc I haven't watched a bajillion different shows and cuts of my babs ToT)

Well. It's time for me to sleep. My head is itchy > > Also, I'm typing in the dark. The cpu screen is gonna be sooo bad for my eyes >.<

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^

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