 konnichiwa~
Hello there & welcome to my blog. Here you'll read tidbits about my daily life, some random thoughts, & maybe a rant here and there. I'm sure you'll learn something about me, if you don't know me of course. Down below are links to find me (personal accounts not posted). I hope you enjoyed your stay while listening to the songs I'm recently listening to. Come back & read again~ ^w^/
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Motivation or inspiration?
written on Wednesday, December 22, 2021 @ 9:49 PM ✈
Where to begin... It's only been 3 months since I started working at Apex, yet it feels so long. Business has been the usual; slow but still getting some customers. To be honest, I went from getting 1-2 customers in a month to around 1-2 customers a week, and I think that's good! I wonder if I really buckled down with my business, what would happen... Well, I'm too busy at the moment for that. Seesaw has been on and off. Mainly doing boards for the alphabet series, and we're finishing them up for the end of the this month for the outsource company to bill for the year. I wonder what I'll do after... I'm still working on the history project, but they've been having issues so I've been mostly on hold. Plus I got a change in manager as well. Lately, I've had time to indulge in my anime/manga and drawing. I watch anime on Jojo's Amazon Prime while at work hehe. Work's been... stuck, so it's not like they need us to work fast. I've been watching whatever anime comes on there. Just finished "Anonymous Noise" and "After the Rain," and just started "Iroduku." Interestingly enough, the latter two seem to be about goals/dreams... I don't know if that's motivating me to draw more or what. Something is pushing me to do more haha. Maybe it's "One Piece" LOL I have been liking what I've been drawing (my OP chibis), and I feel like, maybe I'm finally figuring out my style. I also finished drawing cat peeker stickers, based off of the coffee cats, Miko, and Mango, and I really want to try to printing my own, though I need UV sealant, but I don't even know if it'll really help or not. Right now, I'm struggling between gaming and drawing. I also want to enter Clip Studio's 30th contest and the Pokemon TCG Illustration contest LOL. Ah. Maybe it's because I've been super productive at Starbucks this past week. It's been super cold and we're trying to avoid using the heater by stealing Sbucks heater lol (either way, we still use the heater at night and the electricity bill is $100+ this and the upcoming month). I guess, also seeing Taco's book made me want to keep drawing, studying, and improving. I've also been into "character against screen" type of wallpapers and decided to draw matching couple chibis heh. I think they'll turn out cute! So far, the style is cleaner than my usual chibi, and can't say it's close to how I usually draw, but there's still "me" in it haha. I just finished the lineart today, but I wonder how the coloring will turn out... Ooh but I think this clean style would be good for emotes, just need to be simplified a bit more. Just the other day, a recruiter from a studio in Spain reached out to me on LinkedIn for a remote 3D Blender animator position. This reminded me that, maybe I should work on my 3D animation, update my resume and portfolio, and start applying again... There's internships open right now too... I also picked up Mystic Messenger again. HAAA. I forgot the pain of going through these chat rooms and calls lol I wonder if there were any different chat rooms... I don't remember. I also just realized I only got 1-2 endings for each character lol I did miss the music too. But UGH Rayyyy. I am in love with this sad baby again. I wonder if I can get a different ending... I don't even remember what ending I did get heh. [ah! I just got a new Zen photo LOL so maybe some of the chats are new keke]
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Motivation or inspiration?
written on Wednesday, December 22, 2021 @ 9:49 PM ✈
Where to begin... It's only been 3 months since I started working at Apex, yet it feels so long. Business has been the usual; slow but still getting some customers. To be honest, I went from getting 1-2 customers in a month to around 1-2 customers a week, and I think that's good! I wonder if I really buckled down with my business, what would happen... Well, I'm too busy at the moment for that. Seesaw has been on and off. Mainly doing boards for the alphabet series, and we're finishing them up for the end of the this month for the outsource company to bill for the year. I wonder what I'll do after... I'm still working on the history project, but they've been having issues so I've been mostly on hold. Plus I got a change in manager as well. Lately, I've had time to indulge in my anime/manga and drawing. I watch anime on Jojo's Amazon Prime while at work hehe. Work's been... stuck, so it's not like they need us to work fast. I've been watching whatever anime comes on there. Just finished "Anonymous Noise" and "After the Rain," and just started "Iroduku." Interestingly enough, the latter two seem to be about goals/dreams... I don't know if that's motivating me to draw more or what. Something is pushing me to do more haha. Maybe it's "One Piece" LOL I have been liking what I've been drawing (my OP chibis), and I feel like, maybe I'm finally figuring out my style. I also finished drawing cat peeker stickers, based off of the coffee cats, Miko, and Mango, and I really want to try to printing my own, though I need UV sealant, but I don't even know if it'll really help or not. Right now, I'm struggling between gaming and drawing. I also want to enter Clip Studio's 30th contest and the Pokemon TCG Illustration contest LOL. Ah. Maybe it's because I've been super productive at Starbucks this past week. It's been super cold and we're trying to avoid using the heater by stealing Sbucks heater lol (either way, we still use the heater at night and the electricity bill is $100+ this and the upcoming month). I guess, also seeing Taco's book made me want to keep drawing, studying, and improving. I've also been into "character against screen" type of wallpapers and decided to draw matching couple chibis heh. I think they'll turn out cute! So far, the style is cleaner than my usual chibi, and can't say it's close to how I usually draw, but there's still "me" in it haha. I just finished the lineart today, but I wonder how the coloring will turn out... Ooh but I think this clean style would be good for emotes, just need to be simplified a bit more. Just the other day, a recruiter from a studio in Spain reached out to me on LinkedIn for a remote 3D Blender animator position. This reminded me that, maybe I should work on my 3D animation, update my resume and portfolio, and start applying again... There's internships open right now too... I also picked up Mystic Messenger again. HAAA. I forgot the pain of going through these chat rooms and calls lol I wonder if there were any different chat rooms... I don't remember. I also just realized I only got 1-2 endings for each character lol I did miss the music too. But UGH Rayyyy. I am in love with this sad baby again. I wonder if I can get a different ending... I don't even remember what ending I did get heh. [ah! I just got a new Zen photo LOL so maybe some of the chats are new keke]
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^
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: afeeqah azhar, 19 march, malaysian .
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