 konnichiwa~
Hello there & welcome to my blog. Here you'll read tidbits about my daily life, some random thoughts, & maybe a rant here and there. I'm sure you'll learn something about me, if you don't know me of course. Down below are links to find me (personal accounts not posted). I hope you enjoyed your stay while listening to the songs I'm recently listening to. Come back & read again~ ^w^/
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Bummer...
written on Thursday, October 29, 2020 @ 5:47 PM ✈
I've been really pushing myself to be making content... but I think I'm unconsciously mentally draining myself creatively (all those -ings LOL) I do feel good when I'm able to post something. I'm pretty sure this slump started from that chicken/fruit tart DTIYS lol on top of that, I wanted to do a painterly-style for Asia's birthday DTIYS, and I was very iffy about my sketch -- like, I kind of liked it, but also hated it. So I took a break from it, rightly so. I get into this art slump very easily because I don't really have a strong foundation, which also makes my art very inconsistent. So I want to improve myself! I started off by watching a lot of foundation videos on Youtube (Sinix is very good for detailed explanations), then I pushed myself to actually do studies! I'm starting with lips, I don't know why haha. Next is probably eyes? or nose. Eventually I would have the whole face/head studied! Of course, I can't be tunnel-visioned in only studying the lips, I also gotta study human anatomy as a whole, so I really need to practice gesture drawing. Need to break apart the whole anatomy and study bits and pieces. While at first I did Croquis Cafe videos, it wasn't... enjoyable? I don't know, I feel like I need something to break the monotony...
I found this video/playlist/channel today! I can't understand a thing he says LOL at least it feels like I'm in class with someone? He also chooses random "topics" to draw, so it's not always a full body, which is good. I think I'll do videos between CC and his. I also watch a lot of art/studio vlogs, and to be honest, they've just been keeping my afloat instead of that usual push of inspo/motivation... I am also very glad to have two books with me: "Sketch with Asia" and "Sketch Every Day with Simone Grunewald." Having those books visually there keeps my motivation up a bit more. Excited to start/keep studying them :) -- My mind goes faster than what I can achieve. It also has ideas that I am... "afraid" to accomplish, to start. I'm resisting so much because... I'm scared to fail? Even though a part of me tells me, "you can do it... if others can do, you can too" it's just so hard to actually DO IT. It's about a month or two later than I had hoped to launch my online store. I have so much support from my sisters and Robin, I don't want to disappoint... Plus I'm still jobless, so I also want to work on my animation skills, but everything I do takes time and there's only so much time in a day... Well, I guess that's off my chest. I probably have more stuff I wanted to say but he HAD to keep interrupting me because the typing is TOO LOUD for him -.- Granted he is at work but it's not my fault this keyboard is clacking. HMPH.
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Bummer...
written on Thursday, October 29, 2020 @ 5:47 PM ✈
I've been really pushing myself to be making content... but I think I'm unconsciously mentally draining myself creatively (all those -ings LOL) I do feel good when I'm able to post something. I'm pretty sure this slump started from that chicken/fruit tart DTIYS lol on top of that, I wanted to do a painterly-style for Asia's birthday DTIYS, and I was very iffy about my sketch -- like, I kind of liked it, but also hated it. So I took a break from it, rightly so. I get into this art slump very easily because I don't really have a strong foundation, which also makes my art very inconsistent. So I want to improve myself! I started off by watching a lot of foundation videos on Youtube (Sinix is very good for detailed explanations), then I pushed myself to actually do studies! I'm starting with lips, I don't know why haha. Next is probably eyes? or nose. Eventually I would have the whole face/head studied! Of course, I can't be tunnel-visioned in only studying the lips, I also gotta study human anatomy as a whole, so I really need to practice gesture drawing. Need to break apart the whole anatomy and study bits and pieces. While at first I did Croquis Cafe videos, it wasn't... enjoyable? I don't know, I feel like I need something to break the monotony...
I found this video/playlist/channel today! I can't understand a thing he says LOL at least it feels like I'm in class with someone? He also chooses random "topics" to draw, so it's not always a full body, which is good. I think I'll do videos between CC and his. I also watch a lot of art/studio vlogs, and to be honest, they've just been keeping my afloat instead of that usual push of inspo/motivation... I am also very glad to have two books with me: "Sketch with Asia" and "Sketch Every Day with Simone Grunewald." Having those books visually there keeps my motivation up a bit more. Excited to start/keep studying them :) -- My mind goes faster than what I can achieve. It also has ideas that I am... "afraid" to accomplish, to start. I'm resisting so much because... I'm scared to fail? Even though a part of me tells me, "you can do it... if others can do, you can too" it's just so hard to actually DO IT. It's about a month or two later than I had hoped to launch my online store. I have so much support from my sisters and Robin, I don't want to disappoint... Plus I'm still jobless, so I also want to work on my animation skills, but everything I do takes time and there's only so much time in a day... Well, I guess that's off my chest. I probably have more stuff I wanted to say but he HAD to keep interrupting me because the typing is TOO LOUD for him -.- Granted he is at work but it's not my fault this keyboard is clacking. HMPH.
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^
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: afeeqah azhar, 19 march, malaysian .
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