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Wow. I don't know why the topic about Andrew was up all day today xD Just bc I didn't go to prom. During Art, Angela was talking about how I should've went w/ Andrew, how we were a match made in heaven (bc we both play badminton etc).
Then 3rd period, Orion Alena & John were killing me. It all started w/ me telling Orion I wasn't going to go Santa Cruz on Wed (bc he asked if I filled out the form yet). Then he goes on about how I hate the senior class, & I'm defending, saying I don't hate them LOL. My excuses were not to miss practice etc & then he says "I'm missing practice too" and I say I have a game the next day, I cannot miss practice. He says "It's okay. It's just one practice" and I said "You don't get itttt" LOL (bc w/o practice, I'ma suck xDD) Plus, Coach was missing his practice too :p
Then Alena comes over and that's when he tells her everything, from me not going to SC to me not having gone to prom. She starts saying how I should've went with Andrew. (like seriously guys? Y'all ship this badminton couple that badly? LOL) And then everything goes on to me going out with him, Alena setting things up w/ a group hangout (Orion says we ain't even together & Alena says "they can go as friends. they don't have to go as lovers... yet") 
They keep asking me if I liked him or anything. And I'm over here being embarrassed (but I'm pretty sure I wasn't blushing yet) and Orion's like "no need to get red" and "you're red as a tomato" and "is it hot? do you need to take off your sweater?" How am I supposed to answer? It's not that I don't like him... but it's not like I like him either. I mean, what about Lee? LOL. So I ended up telling them I never thought about it. And Orion says "well, now she's thinking about it." Wow I'm bad at answering xD
Then John comes over and Alena asks him if I should go out with Andrew. John says "she's too pretty for him." and something about how Andrew's not at his level & having to find someone w/ higher (standards?) than himself. Orion asks "what's higher?" John says "exactly" (basically he's saying no one is as good "boyfriend" quality, if you will, than him. They burst out laughing and Orion's like "I literally meant the definition of 'higher'" xDD
Somewhere we talked about how awkward I am. Well, Orion describing how awkward I am :p how I don't talk, can't carry on a conversation.
Alena goes on about having a group hangout, that coincidentally I'm there and Andrew's there. And how we'll sit together talking about badminton. She says that we both play badminton, we're both smart. Orion throws in that I play "a little bit of League." She was also talking about how he likes smart and athletic girls, which I am she says. She wanted to arrange a "hangout" on the weekends to grab boba, if I wanted her to. And I'm over here telling her nooooo bc it'll be so awkward. She says you'll get used to it (as in, it won't be awkward once we get to know each other). Still denying! Man, she loves being matchmaker lol apparently she got Jenny/Aaron together and Katelyn/John together and herself/Orion too (although John says it's all him lol)
After we got out of 3rd per, Alena's still asking me if I wanted to go, and Orion butts in: "or should I talk to Jamie about that Edison guy" and I'm like "don't talk to Jamie about it" really defiantly xD and he was like "oh does he know?" and I said "No he doesn't but don't talk to him about it" lol Orion said something like if I liked "him" then I should tell him. And I'm in my head like hecks noooo (or did I tell him no?) either way, Orion basically said I need to take the chance, tell him how I feel. Then he and John were just saying/singing stuff really loud behind me. Eventually they directed that toward Rachel as I got out of the hallway.

Man, now I'm thinking about it. I told Stephanie too and I was telling her how I fall easily. I don't even know. Would I mind if I did go out w/ Andrew? or should I say, Would I say yes if he even asked me out? Ugh, this conflicts w/ my crush on Lee. I even told Steph this: I have a crush on Lee & if I went out w/ Andrew, I feel like I had done wrong. Dude... I don't know >x< I just wouldn't want to regret anything... or make anyone feel bad... or.... I just don't know. Dang it Alena why you make it so harddddd ToT And then Steph was like Alena wouldn't be doing all that if there wasn't something up with him. Gosh, am I going 두근두근 when I tweet him? Gaaah. Stupid feelings that can't tell itself what it wants -.-
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Practice today though. I didn't even talk to Lee at all. I felt like I had eye contact w/ him a few times, just bc I happened to be watching his game or whatever he's doing (nooo I wasn't watching him the whole time). Feeling distant bc I didn't get to talk w/ him... then I came home, thinking I should message him about his leg? but ended up not bc he wasn't on. Just thought, "if he's on when I'm on, then I'll message him" but that didn't happen so no messaging. He looks fine anyway... Idunno.
Anyway, goodnight. Half-day all week. Got a Econ quiz tomoro that seems to be super hard according to others. *overthinks things in sleep* Bye.

I woke up pretty early today for no reason, making me so confused. I thought I was late for school!

So my dream was super weird O.O
We were in our single-building campus in one of the college classrooms. Prof. McCandless was the teacher I guess. She picked on me to write stuff on the board. I don't even know what I wrote, but remember that Victor, I think, was telling me something in Spanish and I was writing it on the board (I was attempting to translate it in my dream too) Then music starts playing. Eli comes up to me with a rose, and I'm getting embarrassed (?) Jessica comes up to me. Then Eli starts rapping. Apparently, here I discuss something w/ Jessica real fast, then she went back to her seat. I face Eli and he gives me the rose. After he was done, I gave him a hug, embarrassed (!?) and he's all like yesss and I go back to my friends. Here's where it gets confusing: what was that all about? Was that a promposal? But prom already passed (4/11, and I knew that LOL). Plus his date was Elizabeth. In my dream, Prof. McCandless also purposely said you're right. Today is 4/24. So I'm like, did he just ask me out?
Whatever it was, in my dream, I was deciding how to reject him, for whatever that was.

I wake up (was I shocked awake? o.o) and I'm all confused.
1) Am I late for school? (the time is 7:51am)
2) Why was Eli in my dream?
3) Was I promposed? Did I forget to go!? [but no LOL]
4) Prom is over right?
5) WHY WAS THAT WITH ELI!?

So my reality and dreams were mixed up when I woke up. Plus my tummy was feeling.... hurt/bloated. So I went to the restroom (but apparently I didn't really need to go).
And I kept thinking about how WEIRD this dream was. Then I was like I kinda miss Lee...? lolol

Anyway it's really late now but I had to finish the other posts or else they'll start piling up, and I'll start forgetting.

Fancy bus. Sat inside, window seat. Empty seat next to me. Lee gets on. Sits behind me but I didn't even know til he called me (and asked, again, when did you get here LOL) Sat w/ Mary instead.

Short ride? Felt shorter. Bus driver is, uh, newbie? xD We went in the parking lot of McNair the wrong way & blocked the cars from leaving. Bus had to back out. Getting off the bus, Lee complaining he's so tired/sleepy. Walked to the gym. Coach tells me Cindy's not here. Still barely beat the girl... hm... played so bad today Dx<
somewhat disappointed that I couldn't play Cindy... bittersweet, dude.
Girls lost bc only me and Joyce won. Mai could've won but she split.

While waiting for the matches to be done, talked w/ Joyce and ate Jose's gummiworms xD Somehow I ended up sitting almost next to Lee. He asked me if I had food bc he was "so hungry [he] was going to faint" LOL poor thing. When we left, the bus was parked all the way at the turn, so we had to walk to the bus. Adrian started complaining LOL he was tired and stuff. And I was like "want a piggyback ride?" He was like "really? with all my stuff?" xD I actually would have (for some odd reason LOL) if me and him weren't carrying so much. He also talked to me about Cindy. He was like Don't worry about her. and how I could probably beat her 'cause she plays like Victoria, is slow etc. Joyce was saying I could beat her too... so much faith~ (´•ω•̥`)
So we got back on the bus. Me and Lee both sat in the same seat, and he was like "yesss no one took my seat or else something something mf*" like did you have to cuss? xD Destiny sat next to me and Mary came after her. Mary ended up sitting behind the bus driver (sorry Mary! Dx) The bus wasn't going yet. Lee was hugging my seat so I could see his arm on the head rest so I turned around and he was really close so I ended turning back around, I think. He was looking at my white hair again. And I think he petted (or stroked) the side-back of my head. Still saying how I'm a try-hard, straight A student. I was gonna say no I'm not, but then I didn't know how to explain my white hair LOL.
Some time on the bus ride, I heard singing behind me(?) Jeremy was behind Lee (who was behind me) so I didn't think it was possible for me to hear Jeremy sing bc it was pretty quiet. So I'm guessing he was singing to himself xD

Anyway we got off the bus and were waiting in front of Taggart. He asked how was my game. Then Vito came over and started talking about beating Cindy and stuff xD Talking about how good she was. Then Vito was asking about my college and whether I'm really going to San Jose (and why not UCs and I was like meh). He's going to UCSD. Lee over here is saying he ain't going to college but wants to travel LOL. Then Vito says when you're 30 you'll be like "I wish I'd gone to college" LOL. So then mommy came and I said bye to them. Vito said bye to me :p I was walking to the car, waved to Shelly and them, and when I reached the car, Lee called me and said bye. and I waved. Why didn't you say bye to me when I said bye? LOL

Didn't expect to see Lee. (I kinda did 'cause I felt like he was lying to me about not going to school; he's too much of a "good boy" LOL) well anyway some returners were hitting with the newcomers. I'm guessing king of the court? I saw him walking, he wasn't limping as obviously (but he wasn't before anyway) Me/Joyce & Alaiza/Lee warmed up on the same court. Joyce asked if I wanted to hit with Lee instead, which surprised me. I was thinking maybe she wanted to hit with Alaiza? but I was like it doesn't matter. We were on the court, watching Lee limp over. He limped more obvious this time compared to earlier and last time, complaining "oww my leg" xD and I'm just watching him, smiling and shaking my head at him. He knows why ;)
After warming up, Coach made us hairpin and clear. Me and Joyce cleared while Lee and Alaiza hairpinned. We were on the same court. Me and Joyce weren't clearing correctly. All I see is Lee ducking down xD I think he almost got hit? haha. He was complaining about our clears xDD Then at one point, Alaiza hairpinned too high and he smashed the birdie... at me. XP He said sorry and laughed. Then we switched and me and Joyce were ducking xD
Also, all 3 of them fell at some point. LOL. Alaiza was like "we all fell except you" and I was like "seriously?" LOL. When Lee fell (I didn't really see him fall; he was just on the floor lolol) I told him not to hurt himself again. We were just laughing xD
Well that was fun. Then we got into drills. First she put the singles together: me Joyce and Jamie worked together. Axl was working with Mai Adrian and Jose. The next drill, she separated the singles with the doubles. I worked with Jeremy and John Jay. Near the end, Coach switched me to Vito and Lee's team, and said that they were hecka mean to Jamie xD
We did front net smash. Man, those 2 keep playing around. Lee kept mentioning his leg when he threw the birdie for me. On the first round when he was front net smashing and I was doing jumping jacks on the court, I was like don't smash on me. The next second, he smashed on me.. twice! lol. Once it almost hit me and I dodged but his second smash almost hit my foot. xD Okay, these guys kept playing around; I can hardly practice. I guess they were being nice to me? Lee threw the birdie for me, squatting kinda, and every time he threw the birdie he'd fall back a little xD and then complain about his leg. lol

After practice we were outside. (Coach was leaving, and he said bye to me but I wasn't leaving w/ Coach lol) Alex (newcomer) was talking about riding with Coach, and how Lee should ask Coach for a ride. Then he goes on about how he doesn't want people to know where he lives and then I say "what if I told you I know where you live?" He looked unbelievable and was like what xD I live in this trash can. But I didn't say anything afterward. Alex was like then why aren't you in there yet? lol. He said something I couldn't hear. I was on my phone kakao-ing Jen & Jim about all this. xD And then he calls me and asked if I was going to prom. I said no. Then he asks whether we even have prom and I was like yeahhhh it's this Saturday. He was like oh sh* nevermind then. Nevermind? Well I didn't pursue that. He was talking to the others, and they asked him if he was going to prom. He said he was thinking about it mumble mumble. :p I think soon after he had to leave. He waved bye but I don't think anybody else waved back to him xD (Well, he walked to his truck w/o saying bye. And only waved bye after getting inside. He probably wouldn't have waved if he didn't see me looking up)

Bear Creek game today. The girls were all pretty nervous. Coach kept telling us not to be nervous. All the guys varsities played first. Sat next to Axl watching the guys' games. Adrian's opponent looked really good "strong". I also watched Lee's and Vito's game. So funny 'cause Vito tried to jump smash, missed & dropped his racket, and Axl's like "stop jump-smashing!" to me, or mostly to himself lol. So I was watching their game, and I felt a few times, Lee would glance over when preparing for the serve or receive. (I did that too, at the Stagg tournament tbh, lol. When I faced the bleachers, I'd look up then shake him outta my head xDD)
Some time before we had to play our game, Coach made all the varsity girls go to the back room to do footwork (but the room was locked so we stayed in the hallway, doing random stuff like quick feet or side-hops or just jumping). I'm pretty sure it's so we stop watching the games and being nervous. Our games were next. Lost to the same girl I played in sections last year, but the score is a lot better: 10-21, 16-21. Coach said, as long as I beat her the next time around. Axl also said I did good when he watched, but I told him he just didn't see the mistakes lol. There was this one smash I was just lucky that I blocked. I just stuck out my racket w/o knowing where the birdie was gonna hit (bc I didn't think I'd get it) and it bounced off, barely dropping over the net :D
Anyway, Vito & Lee were the only ones who won for guys; and I was the only one who lost for girls.
After the games, varsities had to run around the school.

Some time before the games, I happened to see Lee limping and my first thought was, "his leg still hurts?" (from tournament) There was a tournament at Independence for doubles on May 2nd. Me and Jim are playing doubles. Jim is playing mixed with Axl (and she didn't even know til I told her I signed her up LOL) and Coach also asked if I wanted to play mixed, thinking I wouldn't want to, and that I should ask Lee or someone. I don't know why she would say Lee first LOL. I didn't know how to ask him. It felt like he wouldn't want to play mixed, but it's not like we never played doubles together before. After some debating with Jen & Jim, Jen texted Coach about me playing mixed with Lee and so I was forced to ask. So I had to FB him and he said yeah. When he registered he said he put Jim as his partner. I sent him a .o. sticker and he said jk. Then proceeded to send me a "bird on crutches" sticker and talked about his leg. So then I'm over here, messaging him, worrying about his leg LOL.

Ya know, he's pretty funny. xD So when I was registering I asked him if his "real name was Lee Xiong" 'cause I wasn't sure if he used Xiongbie or not. Then I said nevermind bc he was off FB and I was just gonna submit. Then he came on a little later, registering, and asked "what's my partner's name" and then said "nvm. got it" LOL man, he playing. Anyway, he said he gotta rest up so he went to sleep earlier. He also said he wasn't going to school tomoro, so I'm guessing I won't see him at practice tomoro.

I was unsure if he didn't want to be rude to say no to playing with me 'cause he was like "yeah sure" so I had to like "double check". Then he asked if I wanted to just play for fun or try hard and win. I said "both?" and then he said, "Okay then we'll go and turn on the 'Try Hard Mode'/see how far we'll get". Literally his words, haha.
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Before the game, I tweeted about BC and Andrew replied me. Came home after the game, looked through his twitter. Favorited some stuff, replied to some stuff. We ended up having a hella long Twit convo xD It's so funny. We're only best-badminton-friends on Twitter LOL. He talks to me like I'm his bro: dude, man LOL Sometimes, I can't imagine him talking like he does typing lolol

To be honest, I'm really lazy to update lol it was such a long day.
Talent Show is finally over with!
Anyway, this Saturday (3/28) we had a tournament in Palo Alto (to be honest, I had no idea where we were playing at xD) Anyway we got to Gunn HS. I played singles and doubles, but of course, I didn't get far :p But it was fun enough ^^
Ahhh I don't think there's anything to say, other than interactions with Lee bc Jim made everything seem hilarious xDD

I think the first thing that's funny for her was that he was about to sit in the same car as us, but since Tim was gonna drive the van, he took Lee with him :p
Got to Gunn & I was the first to play bc girls' singles was first. Oiii. Let's just skip to the Lee parts? LOL
Let's see, I didn't really talk to him til after me and Jim's last girls' doubles game. He just came in from the other gym and I was sitting in front of our lil "table" and there was a chair next to me. He sat down and said I heard you guys lost. And I was like yeah. He said good job. But jokingly/sarcastically :p Did we talk about some other stuff afterward? I think we did but I forgot, probably about his singles game.
Then the next thing I remember was me and Jim talking about how everyone was either playing/watching someone's game/or sitting out and no one's watching Lee's game. She told me to go, but I didn't want to be the only one to go watching him bc what am I gnna do when we gotta walk back to the main gym together? > < As we were "arguing" about that, he came in. Too late! LOL (she also said I should've went to watch his game bc he watched mine. I couldn't remember him watching my game...)
Then Coach and Jim went out to get food for the team. Lee and Mary/Joyce were playing in the small gym. I finally pulled myself off from the floor and walked to the small gym; everyone was there anyway. When the doubles were done playing, we waited for Lee's game to finish b4 walking back to the main gym. (at the stairs, there was a bee flying around my legs so I pretty much ran up the stairs xD) and Jim and Coach were asking us if we wanted Jamba Juice and what kind. In the main gym, Shelly was asking everyone & making sure they know they have to pay Coach back. Lee said he didn't want one bc he didn't know what it was. Jim was over here kakaoing me, teasing me asking if she needed to buy him one in my place and I was like noooo. lol. [Czarina hid Jeremy's phone in my pocket, and we were whispering to each other about when he'll notice. Lee was sitting in front of us and turned around suspiciously bc he mostly heard us say "him" so we be talking about a guy LOL]

Then Lee had a 2nd game after. Since I was up already, I walked over to the small gym. It was kinda empty. Jamie was sitting at the far end of the gym, watching Lee's game. So I joined him. Later Vito came and joined us. After the game, he looked like a super happy puppy or something. He gave Jamie & Vito fist bumps and me a hi-5 LOL and jogged to the table and out the gym. He went to turn in the form at the table and I sat down texting. He sat down next to me, asking who I was texting. I happened to be texting Jen/Jim about Tim but I was also texting Jim about Lee (but I was on the Jen/Jim chat). And I told him I was texting my sisters but instinctively held my phone close bc all I could think about was: I'm texting Jim about him. xD He didn't really sit down; hardly for half a sec. After I answered him, he kinda just got up again. That's when I was like: I'm so dummbbb. That was either so obvious (or rude). Plus it wasn't even the right chat. >///<

When the food was here, me and Czarina went out to bring them in. She ended up telling them to come out and eat instead. Me and Jim brought drinks inside. She told me to ask him if he wanted one but I couldn't do itttt I didn't know what to say. She made it look like a confession LOL. She made me share a White Gummy with her, so he had a choice of (Coach's) strawberry or the other White Gummy. So I went over to ask him if he wanted one. He said of course, reached for the strawberry one, and seeing Jim walk over, asked if it was free. In my head I was laughing bc, the main reason he didn't want one was bc he didn't want to pay? xDD Anyway Jim said yeah, and told me she was gnna go wash her hands and eat outside. I sat on the floor next to him, who was sitting on the chair, and we watched the games. He took his first "sip", next thing he says: ahh brain freeze. i'm so thirsty. He continues to drink. I asked: you've never tried Jamba Juice? His reply: Nope. I'm not the type of person to go out and drink/eat every day. Somewhere along the line, I also asked if he had eaten anything since this morning. He said no. ---- I glance at him and sees he's almost done. How. Lol. Anyway, I took his empty cup and delivered Vito his drink bc he "demanded" it lol So I walked back out, and when I was close to the van, Vito was like, are you delivering? xD Ate a slice of pizza and went back inside.
I told Jim all that. Afterward, Lee played his last game, and lost. He looked tired. He changed and just sat by the wall, then with Tim. Jim kept telling me to feed him bc he hadn't eaten anything all day. I felt like the whole day I was being so obvious so I didn't really want to go tell him or even bring him to the van for pizza... Jim told Coach too but Coach was like let's see who's nice on the team to tell him about food. Since I couldn't do it, and nobody else did, she eventually took him to get pizza from the van. Jim kept teasing that if I didn't go tell him there was pizza, he's gonna faint :p

Wow. That was long. I think that was all... The most I've interacted with Lee? *shrugs*
Thinking back some more, b4 Jim left to buy food, she told me to check my phone. I didn't do it til later. [She was stalking me when I was playing my last game. Lee and Vito happened to be starting their game next to mine. One of Jim's pic showed him watching me (or looking in my direction) while drinking water, pfft, doesn't mean he was watching me :p] and I guess that's when I was like, so he did watch me... I guess I'll go watch him. and I went and watched his game w/ Jamie & Vito :p
Anyway, Coach took me and Jim home early, around 8. (We got OneTea though xD) The others didn't leave til 10:30 bc of Tim xD Well anyway, I guess that's all for right now. Too much typing, and I really gotta get to sleep. I'll post about today's practice (hopefully I remember though)

Edison's on their spring break already. Still have practice though. Jim and them were there yesterday; she was gonna see Lee but he wasn't gonna attend practice this week. He came today though~ surprise surprise~
Talked with him a little though.

I still wonder... questions keep running through my head. Complicated questions that seem impossible to answer. They sound stupid though.
The question that so many wonder: do I really like you, or is it a mistaken feeling?
When I try to answer the questions that float by, I feel like I'm forcing the answer to be that way.
I mean, it's my last year, none of this will matter anyway *shrugs*
So, like, would I miss him if I haven't seen him for a while? I don't know if I'm answering that question truthfully. I guess we'll see.

It's interesting--I haven't had a crush since the last "crush spike" with Javi LOL omgee those times were embarrassing. Last year was a... weird crush time :p

#np 날 만난 이후 | Jinyoung & Min Hyorin.

*EDIT/1:03AM-- "Love isn't something you describe or judge. It's just a feeling you have about someone." Ansel Elgort. Don't know who he is, but read his Q&A in Seventeen. I think that timing of finding that quote was just too on point.

*too lazy to update*
Anyway, today's game was pretty sucky. I was playing so bad. Before the game I even told Alaiza I was not feeling it today.
Almost all of us played hella bad today TT I don't get ittttt
Man, I lost so bad I don't even know why. It was like I think sophomore year, when I lost to Lodi I think, and I kinda scared Ron I guess. I think I scared Axl this time xD
After my loss, I felt like I couldn't even face Lee T/n\T *don't ask why :p

Coach kinda punished us. We had to do partner sit-ups and/or push-ups until Jose finished his game (which was pretty long) Afterward she took us to the back room to reflect...
I almost couldn't talk although I calmed down already. We had to think about how we played and something about the game/opponent. Vito was the only one praising themselves xD

Then we went back outside. They were still playing exhibition I think. Vito and Lee went to play the strong doubles team (I don't think they originally play doubles though) and I was watching sometimes, and one time I saw Lee got smashed on the arm. It was so fast he didn't even react xD
I was just sitting down texting Jim and Axl came over to talk to me. And he lightly fist-bumped my head... thanks Axl :3 Like most other guys, probably can't handle girls crying LOL

Man, this better not happen again > >

So tired... slept at maybe 4AM yesterday building the darn balsa wood airplane. Came home after practice and showered & ate too much. Took a shut-eye for maybe an hr or 2. It got too hot afterward...

So me and Jo had a dentist appointment today. Last time we went was 2 years ago! Woops :p Got 4 cavities (actually 3. one is just the missing filling)
Late to practice by like 11 min. Issok. I didn't do the conditioning workout. It felt awkward joining them at that moment. Started on footwork, then warm-up. Then singles & doubles split. Coach wasn't here today. After drills, Axl said we'll play the fun drill, 4v2, since we have game against Lincoln tomoro.
I was on a team with Lee, Mai, Yeng, Jamie, and Nanette. So we went against Jamie & Lee first. I find that Lee gets to the net so fast xD
After we rotated, it was me & Mai. When Lee/Jamie smash (since they're up front) we get so scared xD I got hit on the neck > > (Head shot = 40 pushups & Body shots  20 pushups?) I think Lee short-served, & I wanted to front net smash but I hesitated bc I got there too late to smash & I didn't swing so I turned my head & the birdie landed on my neck. Grrrr. I needed my revenge pssh. So I tried to smash on him twice, the 1st time I think he returned it or Yeng might have caught it in the back. The 2nd time it was really good smash! Loud too. Too bad it hit the net right in front of Lee. He was so shocked/scared he jumped! LOL that was the funniest reaction. xD He jumped a lil and spun around kekeke still couldn't get my revenge though bc we had to rotate after that :p
The 3rd round Mai got hit on the neck. Nanette hit it (like a medium-speed drop) and Mai swung and missed. She turned her head and it hit her neck. xD Mai got a head shot last time lol and she was getting all jokingly annoyed about getting head shots. Apparently it was Jamie's fault 'cause he set it up for Nanette xD so he was like he'll do 20 of her push-ups. lol
Me and Mai didn't do our push-ups though, wasn't even sure if Axl was serious about doing the punishment :p
Afterward Axl made us play games. I played Joyce, Mai, and Alaiza. We all had to play each other once. After we done, I just sat on the wall watching Axl play Jamie and Lee play JohnJay & Jeremy. There was this one time I think JohnJay smashed on Lee and hit his foot, but just as the birdie landed at his foot, Lee pulled his foot back so fast LOL. I don't know how he can play in sweats... :p

I wonder if I even like him... it's just like, why suddenly? I can't think of exactly what I like about him. I just happened to talk a lot about him I guess? But that doesn't necessarily mean I like him right? I can't tell bc the way I laugh at everything people say or do, and how I look away and stuff like that, I do that to pretty much anyone! It's hard to tell the difference. Oi.

Had a MESA meeting and couldn't find Arianne at lunch. Juan gave me tips on the plane. It unofficially flew for like 3 seconds. It was better than the last plane and the 1st time we tried this plane, so looking forward to getting Juan's help and making this thing fly. Okay, I'm off to do econ hw!

Conditioning today was tiring. Axlllll why'd you make us run so much todayyyy. Finger planks hurt my fingers! T_T My back was hurting really bad....
Anyway, the start of practice, we sprinted then we partnered up. I was gonna partner up w/ Jessamae & then Adrian was like "partner up boy-girl" and Lee just called my name (he was 2 people to the right of me).
So yup, did different exercises, and all I could think about was "I can't be the cause of us being last (bc then we'd have to do 50 push-ups)" and how gentle his "high-fives" were LOL [I don't remember what I was thinking when I partnered w/ Vito last time LOL] And to complete the conditioning, a high-5 and "good job" :D Anyway I was pretty happy pfftt.
*also when I partnered w/ Adrian (at SJ) and Vito the last time, we missed a lot of our hi-5 passes. but w/ Lee we didn't miss any, probably 'cause we didn't rush it :P*
So then the team split, singles worked w/ Axl & doubles worked w/ Coach.
Left practice pretty early bc volleyball came early :p
No practice tomorrow bc of a staff vs student game, & so I can focus on MESAAAA /cries

OMG Orion, in ASL TA xD when he asked if I was going to prom & I said no 'cause I went last year. Then he asked me, out of the blue, so which Edison guy do you like? Shocked. So I replied "why you suddenly ask that question?" He was like I can't ask that question? And I just said "it's just so random."
Him: Oh so you dooo. (something about me getting red). Tell me.
Me: Why do you need to know? *laughs shyly, the heh-heh-heh one*
Him: Bc I want to know. Who is it?
-bell rings & we were walking out- Me: You don't need to know xD
-He meets up with Alena- She likes someone at Edison.
Alena: Aww that's so cute. You should ask him out. -here, I'm in front of them 2 & I'm shaking my head, & I think I said naww/noo-
Me: No guys xD -Orion's still asking me who it is- I'm not gonna tell you.
-out the classroom- Orion: I'ma talk to Jamie
Me: Nuuu (here, he says Oh no not that Jamie, but I was like yeah I know, it's THAT Jamie -his cousin-) don't talk to him about thissss.
We cont. to "argue" about this until we got into the long hallway. omgee these guys are killing me xD
Why is Orion always so on-point? Pfftt.

Today was a pretty fun day :) Left school early to go San Jose w/ the varsity team. When I got to EHS, they had a fire drill bc of a gas leak :p Had to meet Mary & Axl in the tennis parking lot; they were locked out too lol. When the drill was over & the gate was opened, we went to the EHS vans. Coach had me and Lee go to her car to get the muffins & bananas (but he only found one bunch. when Coach said she had 2, I had to get out of the van & find it.)
Awkward thing was, when me & Lee went to her car, we were going to go through the small gate since the car gate was closed, but when I pushed the door open, it locked bc there were chains locking the door at the top! I felt stupid but hey, it's not my school :p After we got the stuff, we were heading back to the van. Axl already drove out; we weren't sure if we were supposed to get on or wait for Coach to drive out. So after Coach drove out, Lee handed me the food so he could close the gate.
The drive there, was I falling asleep? Maybe a nap here and there.

It was awkward when we got there at Independence HS. Their gym was big~
So everyone went to change. Me and some of the guys stayed in the gym to change, since we already had our clothes underneath. It was so weird bc I was the only girl LOL
We conditioned w/ Coach Mike's team. Adrian was my partner; that was fun.
Afterward they set up the courts, then we warmed up. After that, we did a 4v2 drill. So he paired us up. The guys had to stand up & introduce themselves, then the IHS people had to introduce themselves & choose one of the guys; it's so funny when the guys choose each other based off of what do you want to be when you grow up xD The girls did the same.
4v2 was pretty fun. I was on a court w/ Shelly. If we get hit by the birdie on the body = 20 pushups; in the face = 50 pushups. I had to do 20 :p
After was game. I played a girl who was a sophomore & played doubles. Oh yeah, IHS plays mixed doubles too :p The score was 21-6 for both sets. She kinda got mad at the end? Or like just frustrated & gave up... So apparently seeing that it wasn't a challenge for me (& Joyce), Coach Mike had us play one of his coaches. She was really nice. Score was 8-21, 15-21. It wasn't that bad ^^ At one point, she said I was testing her backhand. I wasn't! Well, I told Coach it was unconsciously lol. I didn't think I'd even score points. Coach said me & Joyce played better than we did during St. Mary's; which was probably bc she's a coach too & we didn't want to play bad LOL I was sweating so bad after that. I had to go to the restroom to wipe ma sweat. I was shocked when I got into the restroom: stars errywhere~ First thought: so patriotic LOL. Their colors are red, white, & blue... bc ya know, they're "independence" xD
It was almost 7--time to go. We had a fun time ^^

When we got settled in the vans, we got muffins to eat~ I got myself a blueberry muffin, & seeing Lee who wasn't eating anything (sitting behind me) I asked You don't want a muffin? He said no bc he didn't have any water, so then I was like would you like some water? and he was like oh no, laughing xD They had to gas up so while the vans were gassed, they all got out to buy food & whatnot. I just finished my muffin inside the van. JohnJay came back so I got out to let him in, & then sat at the edge of the seat. Lee was coming back so I was going to let him in, at first it was like I was going to scoot back to let him in, but then decided to just hop out & let him in. Almost "crashed" into him & he was like laughing, saying I was "going the wrong way." As people came back, Coach was like do they need so much drinks (bc they were getting like 2 bottles each) and I said to Lee, You got 2 bottles too? And he was like yeah, you want one? xD
The drive back to Stockton. In a while, Lee asked why I was so quiet *shrugs*
Then they watched Big Hero 6 on Mai's phone. I was watching too, but then I couldn't focus on the screen later. It was funny when Mai thought I couldn't see so she was going to hold it but then Lee in the back was like now I can't see it! xD Anyways, so I guess I dozed off. When we got back in town, I woke up (didn't really felt like I slept) & called home. After end call, I was going to unlock the seatbelt w/ my bobby pin (it's the one w/ the 2 "belts") and Lee was like I thought you were sleeping. And I just said yeah I was. Since I sat next to the door, I opened the door and got out first. I opened the other side of the door (opened from the side) and Lee almost "fell out" LOL and he was like woah. xD my bad. Good thing he wasn't leaning on that door lol. Axl was dropping off Adrian 'cause he had a "curfew" (if he didn't, the team wanted to go eat out). Dad came so I was leaving; Coach let me take the last 2 blueberry muffins home xD Didn't get to say bye to Lee bc he walked all the way to the front of Taggart, when the van was parked in front of the gate (next to Taggart)

Got home & decided to msg Lee on FB, asked him how'd he know I was sleeping. Embarrassing thing: "I can tell...when u sleep ur mouth always open.." >////< (at least I didn't drool :p but still...) & he said JohnJay took a pic of me too & I was like he better delete it *sends angry dog sticker* & he said "don't worry. i think he did. Just thinking. Idk" :p And then I said that it's unsafe to fall asleep around you guys & he said: "What!!!!! I didn't do anything.... just watching and laughing that's all"
-_- Meanie :p After he said he go shower, didn't come back :p
Why do I even tryyyyy. I gotta stahpppp. I give upppp.
Sigh, this guy.
He's seen the crappy side of meeee LOL. Like when I sweat a lot. & when I play weird. & when I sleep in the car (luckily, when I lie down to sleep, my mouth isn't open xP)

I gotta start on Econ hw. & MESA project fuuuu, but first, an update.

Nothing happened much during practice. I warmed up w/ Mary next to Lee (I did not like his hair today LOL), who was warming up w/ Adrian. He's over there saying I don't feel like playing and I'm thinking in my head Me neither, since I ran the 2mi. for PE. Then we did footwork; I wasn't sure if he wanted to take the court first or not but he was like I got this court and I was like okieee and got off xD

He, like, tripped (not all the way or anything, like a small slip) twice? And when he did, he looked at me w/ a smile, as if we just said a joke or when we smile off our embarrassment. When he was done, I got on the court, then he got on the court next to me. I think he called me? or did he say ow? I don't remember but I looked over at him, and I asked him if he was limping. I think it's 'cause he "slipped"-ish. After a while, he called me, & asked how many I had left and I told him. Then he said something about doing it really slow, and I just told him to take his time xD

Drilled w/ Sarah & Jose. Then played a game w/ Jamie. 15-21, 13-21. I lost, but I did a lot better than I thought I would, trying to hit those points. Not a bad game ^^
Signed up for doubles for Stagg tournament w/ Mary~ We better win, or at least go farther, than last year.
St. Mary's pre-season game tomorrow; Independence HS on Wed. Oiii

Ehhh it's already 3AM bc time skipped 2AM TT hate it when that happens...
Anyway today Anthony took me to Jim's to hangout. The drive there was okay, I thought it was going to be awkward but it was fine. We talked here & there (& I snuck a selfie LOL)

When we got to Jim's we sat in her apt. & talked a lil about what happened on the road & other stuff. Then we met up w/ Coach in Richmond at the Ranch 99 market. Couldn't find her yet so I dragged Jim to that one store we always go to. Interestingly enough, Coach was there too! LOL. Oi, I bought more sheepies =w= $28.31 oop. & something for Jen :p Anthony bought this "grow your own crystal" and Coach bought cards. We walked around, and ended up going to Daimo to eat.
We ordered and Coach ate a little before she had to go pick up Darren. When they came back and we talked about stuff. Coach was talking about a time when she and the twins were in Korea and they went to Haesindang Park in Korea, (I guess it's even worse than calling it a "love" park LOL) and they were showing us these statues and they were telling us to guess what it looked like. We didn't guess and Anthony couldn't stand it, he said "It's a penis!" and then covered his mouth. We were all in shock for like a split second & we all cracked up xDD It was like in a movie when somebody accidentally says something out loud (well to me at least xD) We went back to Ranch 99 market to shop. They bought bao from Shen Kee Bakery.

Afterward we went back to Jim's apt. I think I was nodding off & napped on the way back. We lounged around, used the restroom, "handled money for uncle" and then we went out again.
We walked around to ShareTea but decided to go to Daiso 1st in case it closed. When we got there, I looked around for stuff. I ended up getting some more craft kits~ and a fabric pen, and a section/divider box to hold my stuff. Coach & them bought stuff; Anthony got the lava thingies(?)

We walked a lil ways & went to TASTE and got green tea snow w/ mini mochi (bc they ran out of mango everything -.-) There was like 10 pieces of mochi > > it just wasn't even worth $0.50 of mochi >:p Afterward we went to Kimchi Garden to eat. I got udong & Jim got bulgogi I think. We were talking about a lot of random stuff, including Anthony's relationships LOL, and driving :p
We also took selfies at the end; I'm so ewww >x<
We were going to ShareTea but there was a long line & Anthony really had to get home so we decided to just get back to the apt. We went to the parking garage to get Anthony's rental car (our ticket was over an hr but nothing happened lol so we quickly left) and parked on the street a block from Jim's apt. Sat around in there again. I cleaned up my bag, Jim showed them her Korea scrapbook. Then we left. They walked me and Anthony back to the car; Coach & Darren walked Jim back to the apt.
On the way back, Anthony stopped at a gas station to buy an energy drink. I locked the doors 'cause just in case. I was kakao-ing when someone tried to open the door & I was like oops lol. We went on our way... it was pretty quiet. We talked like 3 times I think LOL. When I was trying to tell him what Coach texted me, he really couldn't hear me xD I was talking loud, psh. According to Jim, the whole day he was saying "what u talking about" when I'm saying stuff. I'm not that confusing dang lol.
When he dropped me off at home I was going to say like thanks, bye, drive safe, have a safe flight. But gaaaah I said drive safe & blanked out on saying have a safe flight. When I remembered and said it, he smiled and said thanks (I think he was laughing at that long pause I had :p ) Oh wells >3>

I am really sleepy now. I tried to dance for a while bc I seriously ate too much these past 2 days, but I was falling asleep dancing. & I just didn't feel like dancing.
So much to doooo... TT

Got to practice early-ish bc Coach said she wanted the returners to help the newcomers w/ doubles game. Was helping Jose to re-grip his racket. After he was done wrapping, Coach told him how to finish it, but also said you were supposed to start w/ the small end at the end of the racket & that most people do it wrong, starting from the wide end (I told him to start like that bc that's how Tong taught me! LOL woops xD)
We had a meeting in the lobby. Sarah was making sure ppl sign in; I raised my hand to tell her I need to sign in. Got the paper and kneeled on the floor; she told Lee to sign in but he was "complaining" and telling me to sign him in; Sarah "yelled" at him, saying he needs to do it himself & sign. xD So he signed. His signature had no last name & I forgot what he said about signing that. We got in trouble kinda (well he did) bc we were talking when Coach was about to speak xD
Talked about tournaments and stuff & MESA (he doesn't know what that is xD) and then Coach dismissed everyone except for returners who know the rules for a doubles game. Lee was going to go but I was like you're a doubles playerrrr; Coach called us 2 out, again! xD I wasn't even going anywhere! lol Seems like we get in trouble together often lol
We did drills for a while. Then we did footwork; funny thing was, Anthony, Bryan, & Kevin (coach/Kurt's bro) also did it with us xD so someone would yell court! and they'd hop on the court xD I think like once or twice only though.

We did the 2v1 drill (idr if this was b4 or after footwork). I was in a group w/ Yeng & Jessamae. After 3 drills, we had a water break. I didn't go get water. Lee was on the next court working on footwork then caught my eye and was like let's hit, and Yeng (across from me) passed him the birdie, so we were hitting the birdie across the 2 courts diagonally LOL
I really like it when I get to interact with him ^w^ He makes my day bright ^^

Working w/ the newcomers, the other returners Coach spoke w/ just watched the newcomers' games. Me and Jamie had to be part of the game & teach them on the way. Jamie was talking to his partner but I didn't know what I needed to tell my partner. Coach had said we didn't need to say anything unless they do something really wrong or if they ask. Jamie's over there "teaching" and I'm like I don't even know what to say; I'm such a bad mentor. I'm always scared that they're gonna get annoyed at me and stuff... Jamie had to leave and then we were waiting for Coach's instructions and then my partner asked me questions TuT

After practice Liang came and picked me up (w/ Nancy Tong & Alin) to go eat ramen w/ Jen & Kurt in Sac. I rushed to "clean myself" up: wiped myself w/ a wet towel, changed clothes, & body sprayed. I was falling asleep in the car. I tried to not make it obvious, but then my head nodded off onto Nancy's shoulder LOL. I is tired xD I opened my eyes and saw Nancy & Tong staring at me xD We got to this mall so Liang can pick something up, then we met up w/ Jen at Ramen House. I ordered too much LOL. I was so full, it was Eddie's pizza all over again. Then we went to get boba drink at Cool Tea Bar. Kendama & card games. At the end, they were talking about this FB drama involving their friends; it was scary--relationships. (They were still talking about it in the car xD)
I think I was thinking about Lee the whole ride home...

*title=idk lol nothing much happened today.

Warmed up with Lee bc I just got there and had no partner. Did I look lost? He had to announce to the whole gym that I have arrived wth LOL. He seemed excited to hit with me...? or maybe it was just me... Hehe he ditched Vito & Adrian xD
He accidentally hit Axl who was walking through the middle xD Idk if Lee was really going to hit my shot and the next thing I knew was, Axl making a sound and Lee asking him if he was okay. Oops, that was my bad too ^^'
We didn't get to hit that much 'cause then Axl told us to drill in groups. He not in my group :p

After drills, we conditioned. Afterward, Axl gave us free time. Lee wanted to play a game with me. So we played a game. Lost so badly /cries/. Made so many mistakesssss. He playing me man lol. Naw he went easy on me. Seriously, after the game I was sweating so much, it was stinging my eye. Went to the restroom to clean my face, and the red veins were touching my pupil! :o
Lee was getting ready to go I guess and I was sitting down, trying to call dad to come pick up. I sat at the wall corner near the doors. He was standing in front of doors & rug; I thought he wanted to say something to me, but I think it's 'cause I look like I was "busy"? Then he left :p

He was waiting outside but I went out the other door and avoided eye contact > <

Erm. I just finished Cherry Juice xD
Eh, I forgot what I wanted to write...

Our first drill was serving (after 10 suicides TT), long first then short. I was in a group with Nanette, Jim, and Lee (keke he kinda ditched Adrian for us xD) It was so funnay, I don't even know why. We talked a lot-ish. I tell him when his birdies are out, and he tells me too, but he also tells me good shot and stuff. When we were doing short serves, he kept saying watch and learn. Then this one time he said that, but he messed up his serve, and he was like don't learn that xD
He tipped me, like I shouldn't stand at the corner to short serve bc I won't be able to return the birdie, and it dawned on me LOL so now I tell myself to serve a lil further back.
Coach was telling us how strict the league/coaches gonna be about serves. She also came up and told Lee not to swing his racket after he serves bc then it'll be above his waist (or going sideways) and he showed me (cuz I asked). So I had to try not to either, like being more conscious. I was trying it that way, and I is baaaaad LOL not really :p
So he put his racket at the corner. I served: the 1st one didn't make it, but the 2nd one did! like right on his racket, yays~ the 3rd one landed where the 1st one was LOL. He's been helping me a lot. (and he still jokes around when I tell him his birdies are out =3=)

Anthony visited us today. Coach made him "drill" and play games with us. I warmed-up with him and stuff.

After practice we were just lounging around in the lobby. Then Coach was about to leave, so I left with her. Axl was holding the door, Vito and Lee were inside. I walked out and was saying bye to people but nobody heard/saw me -3-
Coach was driving out but there was "traffic" so we were in front of Taggart. Lee was about to leave. He saw us and me and coach both waved (did we look alike? lol) and he just smiled and turned away. I said to Coach, and he doesn't wave back. She said, it's okay. i know he saw us already :p

I'm just really friendly with Hmong people LOLOL.
Just finished talking to Mina's cousin John. It surprised me when he messaged me (just bc I liked his status xD) and we talked about a lot of random stuff. He 'lols' and 'xD's as much as I do! lol I don't know why it's easy to talk to people online :p I'm weird...
He asked if I danced. After answering that, I didn't get the chance to ask why he asked that :p He's fun to talk to ^^ So optimistic & encouraging. Too bad a month younger than me LOLOL

Lee brought up Facebook; HE DIDN'T KNOW I HAD ONE. What kind of foolish thought is that LOL I kinda wanted to be in his "drilling" group but got pulled out *pouts*
Anyway, we were going to play games. Vito borrowed my racket & I told him it's going to pop, but he said he wouldn't. Lee said he would. After his game, I was playing my game; he came over like someone guilty of something.... bc he popped my racket LOLOL.
After I finished my 2 games, Lee was playing Adrian in the middle court. I feel like he was high. LOL. They were about to play their 2nd set & Lee was saying he's going to hurry up and lose to Adrian. He looked like he was playing around, doing like trick shots YET he was still diving for the birdie. I don't get him LOL. I was watching him play & that is not the way he usually plays :p
There was this one time he didn't get the birdie, like I think he could've made it, & when I gave him that look (& pointed?) he gave me the "shush" sign. >//v\\< (no... it's not like that really :p)
After practice ended, he brought up FB again LOL (and every time he talks to me, he has to emphasize my name, seriously xD) But I think I busted myself? He kept saying he didn't know I had one, in a way that it was unbelievable that I had a FB *shrugs* and I said that I didn't know he had one (I really didn't LOL) and he was like "oh but someone added me 2 nights ago." I had no response >///< whoops. Was it even 2 nights ago? lol. sometime in Feb, maybe like end of Feb :p

Didn't have time to say this yesterday, but at yesterday's practice, Vito and Lee were matching: gray and white striped shirts (but opposite of each other, so like Lee's was grayer? or whiter, I forgot) and someone was like couple and Lee looked at him and Vito (they were standing next to each other) and then looked "shy"? Not really, but I just saw an anime/manga seen LOLOL. They're such best friends :3 Man, can't get that memory outta my mind. xD I just had to chuckle a little at his reaction when someone mentioned them couple-matching LOL.
Just thought about this last night too: His past long hair reminds me of Arisaka-san from V.B. Rose (freakin' love him and the manga!!) I like it short, dyed, & simply spiked (not mohawk lol). Oi. Just kill me now x_X

I didn't know what to put for the title.

So today we did somewhat an icebreaker xD shaking hands w/ someone you don't know (I forgot their names when I turned around. oop lol) Coach made us stand with the same grade group, and tested if we knew everyone else's name. The together in groups by birthmonth (me and Jim have the same bday (& year apparently)! :o) Then we had to do by height. Then we did youngest to oldest. I stood behind Jim and in front of Lee (his birthday's in August I think)
After that we sat down (we sat next to each other) and Coach passed out the schedule. Then paper for us to write our name in print caps. Lee told me he only writes in cursive lol so when the paper got passed to me, I wrote my name and he was like write mine too, so I did xD Coach emphasized writing it "neatly" and he was like yup, so neat. (psh he can't take credit for my handwriting lol)
Coach was talking about her expectations for 2nd, 3rd, & 4th year players. She thought only me and Lee were 4th years (bc she keeps thinking Mary is a junior) so she was like mastering skills/consistencies you two (emphasized bc we were hiding/having that uh-oh, nope. look lol). And then we looked at her somewhat surprised, and she said yes you two. xD Everyone else was like Mary too! xD

Yeah I don't know why we talked so much xD we were just whispering to each other lol

After practice he was leaving and I got a very happy, peppy bye xD (compared to Ivy and Sarah's xD Sarah's bye was like a whisper lolol)

Does this entertain you now Jimmmyyyyyy

am I fantasizing again? Somebody stop meeeee.
Went to practice today, and it felt really short. We did some drills. We did bow-tie drill & I was with Mary, Vito, and Lee (hmong group :p) Then Vito left so Axl then Michael took over his spot. Afterward Joyce took their spot. Lee was funny; he kept hitting the ceiling (luckily we didn't need to do push-ups for that xD)
Then we did smash-hairpin-flick drill and rotated left so we hit with different people. I ended up hitting with Lee and I managed to catch almost all his smashes. (Some of my smashes I thought were beautiful LOL) He did a fail smash and hurt himself? I dunno. He was holding his side xD He's fine though lol

Dude I don't know I just had too many laughs today.
Practice ended 30min early. I left with Ivy. We walked out to the parking lot and I saw Lee sitting on the benches next to Taggart.
Dad was driving out the parking lot and I saw him stare at the car so I reached my hand behind dad's seat and waved. He didn't wave back but I knew he saw me. So I waved again and he waved back. Kekekeke----- someone stahp mehhh >x<

So yesterday I only slept for 2 hrs. Around 5:45am Mom came and woke us up (tbh, for some reason I thought she was waking us up to volunteer & I was thinking what volunteer?)
Until I overheard dad speaking about Gramps. I remember my first thought was "Are you kidding me?" I really couldn't believe it.
We got to the care home to see our other relatives waiting there. We went into the building to see him one last time. Mom couldn't stop crying when she got into the room; she couldn't even go all the way into the room to see Gramps. (Man I couldn't even cry bc freakin' Richard was pissing me off. Already in the car he was already saying how he cried hecka for Grandma's passing but that when mom told him about Gramps', he didn't have any feelings omg yes, mad-hate does seem to overrule all other emotions. Anyway we waited there for the funeral home people to take Gramps away. We left around 8 or 8:30. Got home and had to tell Stephen and it was difficult. Dang...
Jo went back to sleep, and I ended up staying awake til 3 doing hw (bc I really didn't want to do hw).
Had to tell Jim and Jen. Jen ended up coming home...just to be home. She went home after that.

R.I.P. Gramps. We're gonna miss you, even though you nag us alot and sometimes you're stubborn about things. <3

Practice today from 4-6pm. It was cool. Near the end of practice Michael came to visit; what a surprise! I was hitting w/ Alaiza. Psh. Mary ditched me for her "friend" LOL who I'm pretty was her prom date hehe.

Okay so today we conditioned a bit. Seriously about to die already :p
There are like about 10 guys on our team, and when we were on the wall, they were pretty much grouped together. Axl was going to make us do exercises that may cause us to crash so he said guy girl guy girl. So I was going to get in line guy girl guy girl but in between 2 guys before Lee. I don't know why >///< Then Axl told me to move up one so I ended up standing next to Lee. 
So the exercises, girls went first then guys. Then some of them we did together. We had to do 30 & 45 seconds high knee. During the 45 I really wanted to stop. Lee next to me high-kneed in a circle encouraging me and Ivy. Then we ran? or was it lunges? Anyway we did full and half-court suicides. Uhm one was before the lunges? dude I don't remember the order of our workout xD

Anywayyyy we ran the full court suicides I think, 2 of them. His pace was the same as mine. Everytime I do a turn at the ends, I also do a small hop. So when I saw him hesitate or slow down for the first full court turn, I was wondering if he was pacing with me. We ran the rest of the suicides together. I'm pretty sure he could've finished earlier.
Man please don't make me go 두근두근.
Just to let you know, I fall really easily.
Don't make me fall if you're not going to catch me (/∇＼*)｡o○♡

This 4-day weekend passed by so fast! I'm sad. Me and Jen just came back from tong's sister's house. Liang was drunk when we got there. He kept asking for Jamie xD & he kept putting his arm on our shoulders. So scary LOL. We played pool for a while and ate. Then we went inside. The guys stayed out talking except for Ricky. He Connie and Nancy were playing Heads Up. Me and the kids were watching HTTYD2.

They've been playing/talking for a long time. I already finished the movie. Lily (Tong's niece) was sitting on my lap and hugging me watching the ending of HTTYD2 (it took me a long time to get her to stop playing & watch the movie.) then I rocked her and she finally fell asleep. whoo-whee. lol. It was getting hot. Then I joined Nancy and them playing Heads Up. It's like 2 something and the guys finally came back in. They played for a while and we were watching John Wick. Finally people were feeling sleepy so we all went home.

So yesterday me and Jo volunteered at Lathrop High School for ACADEC. We woke up earlier to get a ride with the bus around 6:30. We were runners; we had to go to our assigned rooms to pick-up/give tests. I got the room with 3 of our Timberwolves. Anyway it was weird weather: raining then sunny etc. There was this guy from Tracy High who was being so productive in the room, and then there's us being loud xD Every time we left he'd follow. Oohhh I just found that funny lol. Near the end he did talk to us a little though, like to tell us where we could get our lunch. hehe. We were waiting outside the room with him, and rain started POURING. So we filmed it. After I was done & posting, I saw him filming the rain too haha. Then the rain would suddenly let up. It was still slightly raining but the sun was out. And then I saw a super bright rainbow. A double rainbow! but the top rainbow was faint. I went over to take a picture. Well, we all did. xD Nice bonding moment? lol. When we were done, we went to the gym for the super quiz and award ceremony. We left him~ I felt bad. But that's 'cause his testing room is never on time xD

Award ceremony: so proud of our ACADEC students!! ♥︎♥︎♥︎ They make me want to study LOL
Me & Jo worked hard to live tweet the awards. Gahhh made some mistakes though, but people loved my tweets ^^

Came home with a headache & feeling sleepy. So after eating, I went to sleep. I woke up at 10 feeling sick. Took my temperature & I had a slight fever. Ate medicines, showered, and slept again. I woke up this morning at like 9:30. Ugh so much homework to do...

Sheeshus!
So yesterday my parents got in a freakin' argument over nothing. My aunt happened to be here and you know what happens when a relative is over: bigger fights.
My aunt kept yelling at my dad for "bullying" my mom (okay, this part of the whole argument was stupid from both sides, like ya'lls need to learn your definitions before you guys argue ugh) So my mom kept trying to force my aunt to go home but she wouldn't leave. These freakin' two people would not back down, I swear. So my dad yelled himself hoarse, I seriously do not understand how. [Forreals, he need to figure out why we all nag him so much. He finds no problem with his actions and/or speech.]
So now, my parents are sleeping separate. My dad still as annoying as ever.
Can't wait to leave this house. (I'm bound to come back but right now...)

Things happened... well I guess not really haha just that I feel like I should write this down & get it outta my head.

Tired from conditioning today > < My back hurts from the ab workout. Last Saturday we were at SF Bintang playing badminton. Barely got over my soreness today lol or yesterday. Other hangouts happened. Ricky made a GroupMe. So 'sticky sticky' LOL. I don't know what's up with him...

Anyway I'm so sleepy right now. We moved out of grandpa's place and yesterday we were busy moving things and cleaning up. Still not done. I have so much trashhh and things I want to keep. So didn't start econ. hw til around 10 something at night. Finished around 2? But I was distracted by deviantart and adopting that I slept at 3. I can't find my sharpener TT The one I got from 99c. 

So yesterday we went bowling from 10-12:45PM with Qi, Alin, Tong, Nancy, Connie, & Brandan. Ricky came later, ready for the 2nd round. After bowling, we went to Jack in the Box, grabbed some "breakfast." Jim rode in Ricky's car. The funny thing was Ricky, Brandan, & Tong ran into Alin's car, ordered with them, & ran out LOL. The other funny thing was, when we went to Nancy's, I noticed all the cars were boy+girl except for me & Jen LOL.

At Nancy's we ate and then played Taboo. After Taboo (around 3:15AM) we were messing around & they were betting on squatting while carrying Alin LOL. That was funny. Qi said she'll treat us to breakfast if we stay up past 5/ 5:30AM lol. After that, we sat around telling stories bc it started w Alin saying he saw something in our condo on the first night. *shivers* Then we just kept talking about random topics: ghosts, dogs, rats, superstitious stuff, high school memories, love letters in middle school (Tong's popularity+drama), Ricky showing off his body to a drunk girl so she would leave (LOLOLOLOLOLOL I'm dying), relationships-ish, funny/scary memories....

We were up til 8AM-ish. Everyone was lazy to get up. Liang texted Qi so we were like let's go visit him~ so we went to 8 Mile Road's McD in the Walmart. Liang served us & gave us free drinks~ kekeke. I got a Mocha Frap. so I was up after we got home. Everyone was tired so we all went home after saying bye to Liang. Tong & Brandan had to go cut up some pig or something.

It was crazyyy I was up til 7:45PM, took a 30 min nap, got up. Slept around 11-12 after putting on masks~

You wanna know all about it? Well I wanna remember it. lol

01.07.15
So we got ready in the morning on Wednesday, Jan 7. Liang came to pick me and Jim up to go to Sacramento to meet up with Ricky and Jen. But we had to wait for Brandan and Connie so we went to iHop since they were hungry. We ate at iHop and waited for Brandan & Connie but they were hecka late so we just packed some pancakes for them and were going to meet them at Nancy's house. We still had to wait for them after we got to Nancy's. Jim was getting annoyed waiting for them. When they finally got here, we packed up everything in Brandan's truck and drove to Sac. When we got there we had to wait for Ricky like 5-ish min. for him to get back from checking his car. Finally everyone was at Ricky's and when everything was ready, we headed out to Tahoe. Me, Jen, Jim, and Liang rode in Ricky's car. Alin, Tong, Nancy, and Connie rode in Brandan's truck. The ride was long. Our speed limit was slow bc we had to wait for Brandan's safe-driving; he was following our car & every time we turned around,  we'd lose his car xD We took a pit stop at this gas station. And then back on the road. I think I fell asleep a little on the way but nothing happened.
We finally got to Tahoe. It was around 5PM. Alin and the guys went to check-in for us. Then we moved into our little condo. It was so nice~ Then I think we went down to the lobby to play. We played ping-pong & billiard. They also hopped into the pool. When we played ping-pong, Ricky & Brandan played a game against this father & son who were from Maryland. They looked Chinese but we don't know. We went back to our apt. & prepared to eat dinna. Connie, Jim, Alin, & Nancy baked chicken wings in the oven while others took turn showering. They baked 3 thin crust pizzas but nobody really ate them. Nancy cooked rice that was dry xD
Brandan & someone bought Smirnoff, raspberry taste. It smelled pretty good. He wanted to do a group "gan bei" with shots (red shot cup). (I tried some too but like 2 drops mixed w Sunny D. It wasn't that bad, but probably cause I can hardly taste it. The aftertaste burned my throat for like 20 sec.) We were playing Cards Against Humanities and Ricky was a little high and crazy bc of the shots xD His face was red. Man, I was dying of laughter, & he was loud and everyone kept shushing him LOL. When we finally went to sleep, it was like a little after 2AM I think? and we were vlogging. Ricky was texting Jen/Jim, saying Alin & Liang were snoring so loud, so we invited him to sleep in our room. He came into our room with his bolsters and slept on the floor next to the bed, in front of the nightstand, under the window. 

01.08.15
We woke up the next morning, pretty early. Liang called Jim at 6:50AM, and Ricky popped up hecka fast when she picked up. Jim went over to Alin & Liang's room, across from us, to say good morning & got ready in our master bedroom. I have a slight memory of seeing Jim walk by and waking me but I was too tired so I told her I didn't want to go. Liang, Ricky, & Jim walked over to the lobby to the gym, from 7:15-8AM-ish. They came back and sat in the living room to kill time since no one else was awake. I woke up around 8ish, when they came back, & me and Jen went out to them. They decided to cook breakfast. Brandan & Connie who were sleeping in the living room's murphy bed (in-wall bed) got up. Ricky cooked rice & said "who cooked rice yesterdy? It was dry." It was the same thing Jim said LOL. They cooked a lot of bacon. Ricky cooked 2 eggs for Liang. Jim did the dishes. I came out of the room with the camera & ate some bacon. Alin woke up, a lil sick, & asked Jim if he should go wake up Nancy & Tong. She said yah, then she started cooking hash browns. I think Connie made pancakes afterward & made me a chocolate chip pancake; her pancakes were so floofy~ Then I think I went to play the Monopoly deal card game with Tong, Ricky, and Liang. Afterward we went to the lake, playing snowball fights along the way. It was a long walk. We had to go down the icy trail, & we took a pic there. We had to walk through this soft sand to reach the lakeside. We took lots of pictures and took a group one, which was difficult to take LOL Nancy & Jen left the camera on a stump up a slight rise, facing the lake. Then Ricky had to run down from there, after clicking the timer so we could take a pic of us looking out into the lake. We also met a fluffy dog named Ruby. So soft~ We trekked back around 1 or 2? I don't remember. On the way back we met a 12 week old puppy. It was so happy & loveddd attention. The owner was nice too. Me, Jen, & Jim stopped on the way to build a small snowman while the others went back first. We got back & I ate a pancake. They were watching Walking Dead & Jen and Jim were inside the room. Soon after went out to the city. The group that rode in Ricky's car hopped onto the back of Brandan's truck to get dropped off at Ricky's car, parked in the parking lot across the lodge. We drove to the city & parked in the casino's parking lot. We walked through the casino & arcade & when we got outside, we came out right next to the horse carriages/city tour. We went to meet the biggo horsie, named Duke! lol. I got to pet it. It was tooooo cute~ Then we just walked through shops. We were pretty bored though. We went to Starbucks after they bought candy at a store. I guess Ricky saw us look tired so he offered to drive us back. We walked back to the casino, but then they wanted to gamble for a while I guess so me, Jen, & Jim went down to the casino. We went a little crazy playing games. xD The rest came to see us when we barely just started to play. Ricky left us his keys and they went back up to the casino. After an hour or two, Alin, Liang, & Nancy joined us. We got around 700 points to redeem when the rest were done gambling so we redeemed a raccoon plush + 3 airplane kits. We drove back but they went back out to gamble, only me, Jen, Jim, Alin, & Nancy stayed. We were watching 2 Broke Girls; Jim fell asleep. Alin, Nancy, & Jen went out to buy stuff. The others came back before Jen did, so we waited. When everyone came back, some showered earlier while others prepared KBBQ stuff. We ate and watched The Giver. Afterward everyone went to sleep. Ricky slept in our room again. Ricky was talking a lot so when it was quiet, I thought they were done, so I fell asleep. I guess I fell asleep pretty fast bc apparently, Ricky and Jim talked til like 5:30AM before falling asleep.

01.09.15
Last day of the trip! The crew woke up around 9-10ish. We cleaned up and packed everything, moved everything to the cars. Alin checked us out around noon. I think we went to eat Thai food at MyThai after that. After eating we drove back to go to the icy lake (was it lake tahoe? 'cause maybe the 1st lake on day 2 was nevada beach ahaha) Anyway we played on ice and Ricky and them so "bak yeem", jumping on floating ice. They would step & jump on them and the water would come up onto the ice. We took lots of pics, selfies, & vids. Afterwards we were done, we went back to find some snow. We found a snowy slope & played for about 2 hours or so. We finally built an actual snowman. When I was at the bottom of the slope, Ricky threw a snowball at me unawares. It hit my ear & it hurt, real bad. We also built our own snowy slide. All that's on video! :D Our shoes & butt got wet so we towelled the car seats, changed our shoes, & went to McD to eat & change our clothes.

Whew. That's a lot of writing! But it's 3 days. I don't know if I missed anything but it was fun! Everyone got back to Ricky's in Sacramento. Then everyone's tired so we all went home.

Labels: lake tahoe

So earlier Friday (1/2) I went to hang w Meimei & Jessica. Mina couldn't make it. We went to Hobby Lobby and got stuff. I got my Sakura gelly roll and Shrinky Dinks! *swoon* But it took us forever to find the Shrinky Dinks, & when we did, there was only one left bc somebody decided to steal all the plastics from the other packet.

So at night, I called mom to come pick me up. She didn't bring her phone so she couldn't call me to tell me she was out there. So she waited about an hr. And I was talking with Jessica about Junior bc she doesn't know LOL. Anyway, got out there & mom was pissed. The next day was fine. The End :p

Today went on a movie date with Jessica~ we were both late xD
I had a tight schedule~ in the morning me & Jo went back to school for yearbook stuff & I had a headache. Then at 2:15 I went to badminton preconditiong (but got there early).
Conditioned but felt sick afterward. Then I rushed home to shower & meet up with Jessica. We were 20 min. late. The West Ln. theater was comfy & warm. We watched Penguins of Madagacar.
Junior & Deilys were supposed to come but they flaked lol jkay one is sick & the other couldn't come.
After the movies, me and Jessica played the gatchas. We went for the Birthstone Bears. Luckily I got mine! Keke & it's pink~ Jessica got a purple one (June)

Yesterday I asked Deilys for what time & he told me he couldn't go. So then I go ask Junior if he's still going & he said he's too sick to go, but maybe. Today he said he couldn't make it. To be honest, I didn't have much hope for him to say yes. Even though I felt like he didn't want to go any more after I said Deilys wasn't going? But, I don't wanna overthink things. 

Whee! Today we went rollerblading with Ricky, Liang, Alin, Connie, Linda, & Weicheng. It's too much to say but in summary, we went rollerblading at the rink. Tong was there too but he didn't skate. Leo and Mai came too. They were playing. And they did the 'Red Light Green Light' game lol
Weicheng played in-line skating before but he went too fast I guess and slipped. Owie. He was like 2ft in the air. We also did choo-choo train. xD He had to pull me, jim, nd jen. The 1st time, I was at the end and every time we turned, I'd swerve out of line. lol. The 2nd time I was holding onto him but I didn't know how to hold on to him. xD (I held on to Jen by her pants xD) so I was pulling so hard on his sweater that it was going to rip (not really) haha At the end when we were stopping we ended up crashing & I almost fell but Weicheng was holding me up LOL
Ricky was choo-choo train-ing w/ Liang and I was gonna grab onto Ricky, but Ricky let go-ed. The next second Liang slipped and fell back. Oh goodness xD

Afterward we went to In 'n Out ('cause I wanted In 'n Out) & we ate~ yumyumyum~ We ate outside bc there was no more room inside. It was so coldddd. After we were done eating we had to wait for Nancy, but it took them so long to get to us. Then we had to wait for their order of food (we were all done eating, just sitting/standing outside) but their food took too long & we had to leave to see grandpa (me & Jo went to hotpot at Auntie's w/ Gonggong & PoPo).

Now me is going to finish Free! :D Man.. this winter break is not long enough... I have to do stuff for colleges/scholarships but I don't know what. Ughhh

It's been another year! 2014 went by very fast, especially first semester.

Things happened since Winter Break started. Uhm, YeYe had to go to the hospital. He was at St. Joseph's ICU for a day or 2? Then he moved to the regular patient room. This week's gone by so fast and all we've done is doing our errands and visiting him. We stay at the hospital for quite a while.
Today we had a Christmas hotpot, drop off gifts, and stayed at YeYe's again. Hm. I don't know why it has to be during Christmas.

Not to mention I got a slight fever on Christmas Eve lol. But only for a day. It'd suck to be sick on Christmas. I've been lazy on my art too. Sigh I dunnooo~
I'm getting fat too TT and a sore throat; too much chocolate, candy, and I just ate chips. ugh. Gotta start winter workout for Coach. /dies
Nothing else worth mentioning sooo I guess I'll sleep :)

So Junior messaged me, and we were just chatting. Apparently something's bothering him, and I can't help him with that...
Even though it hasn't been "solved" yet, he sounded cheerful when he was talking to me. I hope whatever it is works itself out... Sounds serious though.

We were too "hak hei" to each other lol. Like he said, "We so polite and nice ~" LOL

So after school we went to B&N Starbucks to work on our moot court. Then we just started talking about guys and gossiping about couples at school. Then we got to who I like, I don't even know how LOL
Afterward we went to Stephanie's house. The whole time they were just teasing me about him. xD And Steph wouldn't tell us who she likes.

*a lot of stuff happened but that'll take too long to say. and it's too cold to type. and I have to go finish up hw*

Another burden lifted. I feel better. Then I came home and skyped Jen & Jim. And then they got me thinking about stuff again.
Like I daydream about stuff happening; in reality I know it won't; I'm 50/50 on wanting something to happen; and I wouldn't know what to say if something did happen-do I want to say yes or no?
Either way, it's senior year and I don't think anything's gonna happen :p

Today spent almost the whole day at Jessie's working on the moot court but we were distracted by Criminal Minds: Suspect Behavior lol.
They were looking through winter formal pics. Junior & Roberto took a pic and d'awww they so cute~ hehe. 
Man, he's still on FB. I wanted to chat w/ him, but naw.

Doing EOP but kind of gave up :p
Proud of doing Christmas cards~ ^^ Finishing them up and having mom send them tomorrow~ Then I gotta do the ones for my friends before Friday... 

Actually have to sleep since I gotta get up early to buy a blue book tomorrow... ugh. One final tomorrow. I actually don't even know what to dooo~
Anyway, nights! Can't wait til this week is ovah~

Tomorrow (today) is going to be my first college final of this year. Bleh. Com St 7. But woot! Then I don't have to worry about that class anymore~ Studying for it now.

Was working on the Anthro paper today. 3-ish hours and only got 2 paragraphs done -.-
Weellll I mean I guess.

Was talking to Min-E & she suddenly brought up how everytime she sees him, it reminds her of me. LOL. O gosh. xD (Huh. I seem to avoid using his name now lol I don't even know why >3>)

Badminton pre-conditioning on Mon, Wed, & Fri.
Why. On. Every. Day. I. Have. P.E. -__-
I mean, extra exercise. Yay (sarcasm) I'm just really lazy to go lol.

I think that's the day... and Yay! Lake Tahoe at the end of winter break! Let's bring Olaf to lifeeee! ^^

What have you done to meeee? lol
I don't regret meeting you, though :)
However, you're killing me right now (not to be dramatic/extreme), but I need to stop daydreaming... I need to stop thinking about you because you're distracting~ ♥
You make my heart skip a beat when I see you online...

Is it weird that sometimes I feel left out?

Came home after FNL to find my Mac accessories awaiting me~!
So I quickly put them on. The bottom case didn't snap on all the way tho -3- close enough I guess.
Now I can safely put them away~ <3

*now that I look at it, it looks more like turquoise. Oh wells. it looked more mint the first time I saw it! lol

Gotta make the decals now. Tomorrow maybe? Whee~

Huh. I wonder why this week is going so well~
Good days~ and on such happy days, I treat myself (Quickly, as of now haha)

When I'm stress-free, I guess I get really happy. ^^

So I finally told Min-E about my "crush" (I guess) lol
And I also told Samantha over FB. It was fun talking to her ahaha.
I told her most of the details. I don't know why but I felt like I had to tell someone about it.
Now I can stop thinking about it. Maybe. *sigh*

Anyway, I was also trying to deal with Mac stuff. It wasn't working -_-
I'm so done with Mac. :p

Wow. I don't know why the topic about Andrew was up all day today xD Just bc I didn't go to prom. During Art, Angela was talking about how I should've went w/ Andrew, how we were a match made in heaven (bc we both play badminton etc).
Then 3rd period, Orion Alena & John were killing me. It all started w/ me telling Orion I wasn't going to go Santa Cruz on Wed (bc he asked if I filled out the form yet). Then he goes on about how I hate the senior class, & I'm defending, saying I don't hate them LOL. My excuses were not to miss practice etc & then he says "I'm missing practice too" and I say I have a game the next day, I cannot miss practice. He says "It's okay. It's just one practice" and I said "You don't get itttt" LOL (bc w/o practice, I'ma suck xDD) Plus, Coach was missing his practice too :p
Then Alena comes over and that's when he tells her everything, from me not going to SC to me not having gone to prom. She starts saying how I should've went with Andrew. (like seriously guys? Y'all ship this badminton couple that badly? LOL) And then everything goes on to me going out with him, Alena setting things up w/ a group hangout (Orion says we ain't even together & Alena says "they can go as friends. they don't have to go as lovers... yet") 
They keep asking me if I liked him or anything. And I'm over here being embarrassed (but I'm pretty sure I wasn't blushing yet) and Orion's like "no need to get red" and "you're red as a tomato" and "is it hot? do you need to take off your sweater?" How am I supposed to answer? It's not that I don't like him... but it's not like I like him either. I mean, what about Lee? LOL. So I ended up telling them I never thought about it. And Orion says "well, now she's thinking about it." Wow I'm bad at answering xD
Then John comes over and Alena asks him if I should go out with Andrew. John says "she's too pretty for him." and something about how Andrew's not at his level & having to find someone w/ higher (standards?) than himself. Orion asks "what's higher?" John says "exactly" (basically he's saying no one is as good "boyfriend" quality, if you will, than him. They burst out laughing and Orion's like "I literally meant the definition of 'higher'" xDD
Somewhere we talked about how awkward I am. Well, Orion describing how awkward I am :p how I don't talk, can't carry on a conversation.
Alena goes on about having a group hangout, that coincidentally I'm there and Andrew's there. And how we'll sit together talking about badminton. She says that we both play badminton, we're both smart. Orion throws in that I play "a little bit of League." She was also talking about how he likes smart and athletic girls, which I am she says. She wanted to arrange a "hangout" on the weekends to grab boba, if I wanted her to. And I'm over here telling her nooooo bc it'll be so awkward. She says you'll get used to it (as in, it won't be awkward once we get to know each other). Still denying! Man, she loves being matchmaker lol apparently she got Jenny/Aaron together and Katelyn/John together and herself/Orion too (although John says it's all him lol)
After we got out of 3rd per, Alena's still asking me if I wanted to go, and Orion butts in: "or should I talk to Jamie about that Edison guy" and I'm like "don't talk to Jamie about it" really defiantly xD and he was like "oh does he know?" and I said "No he doesn't but don't talk to him about it" lol Orion said something like if I liked "him" then I should tell him. And I'm in my head like hecks noooo (or did I tell him no?) either way, Orion basically said I need to take the chance, tell him how I feel. Then he and John were just saying/singing stuff really loud behind me. Eventually they directed that toward Rachel as I got out of the hallway.

Man, now I'm thinking about it. I told Stephanie too and I was telling her how I fall easily. I don't even know. Would I mind if I did go out w/ Andrew? or should I say, Would I say yes if he even asked me out? Ugh, this conflicts w/ my crush on Lee. I even told Steph this: I have a crush on Lee & if I went out w/ Andrew, I feel like I had done wrong. Dude... I don't know >x< I just wouldn't want to regret anything... or make anyone feel bad... or.... I just don't know. Dang it Alena why you make it so harddddd ToT And then Steph was like Alena wouldn't be doing all that if there wasn't something up with him. Gosh, am I going 두근두근 when I tweet him? Gaaah. Stupid feelings that can't tell itself what it wants -.-
~
Practice today though. I didn't even talk to Lee at all. I felt like I had eye contact w/ him a few times, just bc I happened to be watching his game or whatever he's doing (nooo I wasn't watching him the whole time). Feeling distant bc I didn't get to talk w/ him... then I came home, thinking I should message him about his leg? but ended up not bc he wasn't on. Just thought, "if he's on when I'm on, then I'll message him" but that didn't happen so no messaging. He looks fine anyway... Idunno.
Anyway, goodnight. Half-day all week. Got a Econ quiz tomoro that seems to be super hard according to others. *overthinks things in sleep* Bye.

I woke up pretty early today for no reason, making me so confused. I thought I was late for school!

So my dream was super weird O.O
We were in our single-building campus in one of the college classrooms. Prof. McCandless was the teacher I guess. She picked on me to write stuff on the board. I don't even know what I wrote, but remember that Victor, I think, was telling me something in Spanish and I was writing it on the board (I was attempting to translate it in my dream too) Then music starts playing. Eli comes up to me with a rose, and I'm getting embarrassed (?) Jessica comes up to me. Then Eli starts rapping. Apparently, here I discuss something w/ Jessica real fast, then she went back to her seat. I face Eli and he gives me the rose. After he was done, I gave him a hug, embarrassed (!?) and he's all like yesss and I go back to my friends. Here's where it gets confusing: what was that all about? Was that a promposal? But prom already passed (4/11, and I knew that LOL). Plus his date was Elizabeth. In my dream, Prof. McCandless also purposely said you're right. Today is 4/24. So I'm like, did he just ask me out?
Whatever it was, in my dream, I was deciding how to reject him, for whatever that was.

I wake up (was I shocked awake? o.o) and I'm all confused.
1) Am I late for school? (the time is 7:51am)
2) Why was Eli in my dream?
3) Was I promposed? Did I forget to go!? [but no LOL]
4) Prom is over right?
5) WHY WAS THAT WITH ELI!?

So my reality and dreams were mixed up when I woke up. Plus my tummy was feeling.... hurt/bloated. So I went to the restroom (but apparently I didn't really need to go).
And I kept thinking about how WEIRD this dream was. Then I was like I kinda miss Lee...? lolol

Anyway it's really late now but I had to finish the other posts or else they'll start piling up, and I'll start forgetting.

Fancy bus. Sat inside, window seat. Empty seat next to me. Lee gets on. Sits behind me but I didn't even know til he called me (and asked, again, when did you get here LOL) Sat w/ Mary instead.

Short ride? Felt shorter. Bus driver is, uh, newbie? xD We went in the parking lot of McNair the wrong way & blocked the cars from leaving. Bus had to back out. Getting off the bus, Lee complaining he's so tired/sleepy. Walked to the gym. Coach tells me Cindy's not here. Still barely beat the girl... hm... played so bad today Dx<
somewhat disappointed that I couldn't play Cindy... bittersweet, dude.
Girls lost bc only me and Joyce won. Mai could've won but she split.

While waiting for the matches to be done, talked w/ Joyce and ate Jose's gummiworms xD Somehow I ended up sitting almost next to Lee. He asked me if I had food bc he was "so hungry [he] was going to faint" LOL poor thing. When we left, the bus was parked all the way at the turn, so we had to walk to the bus. Adrian started complaining LOL he was tired and stuff. And I was like "want a piggyback ride?" He was like "really? with all my stuff?" xD I actually would have (for some odd reason LOL) if me and him weren't carrying so much. He also talked to me about Cindy. He was like Don't worry about her. and how I could probably beat her 'cause she plays like Victoria, is slow etc. Joyce was saying I could beat her too... so much faith~ (´•ω•̥`)
So we got back on the bus. Me and Lee both sat in the same seat, and he was like "yesss no one took my seat or else something something mf*" like did you have to cuss? xD Destiny sat next to me and Mary came after her. Mary ended up sitting behind the bus driver (sorry Mary! Dx) The bus wasn't going yet. Lee was hugging my seat so I could see his arm on the head rest so I turned around and he was really close so I ended turning back around, I think. He was looking at my white hair again. And I think he petted (or stroked) the side-back of my head. Still saying how I'm a try-hard, straight A student. I was gonna say no I'm not, but then I didn't know how to explain my white hair LOL.
Some time on the bus ride, I heard singing behind me(?) Jeremy was behind Lee (who was behind me) so I didn't think it was possible for me to hear Jeremy sing bc it was pretty quiet. So I'm guessing he was singing to himself xD

Anyway we got off the bus and were waiting in front of Taggart. He asked how was my game. Then Vito came over and started talking about beating Cindy and stuff xD Talking about how good she was. Then Vito was asking about my college and whether I'm really going to San Jose (and why not UCs and I was like meh). He's going to UCSD. Lee over here is saying he ain't going to college but wants to travel LOL. Then Vito says when you're 30 you'll be like "I wish I'd gone to college" LOL. So then mommy came and I said bye to them. Vito said bye to me :p I was walking to the car, waved to Shelly and them, and when I reached the car, Lee called me and said bye. and I waved. Why didn't you say bye to me when I said bye? LOL

Didn't expect to see Lee. (I kinda did 'cause I felt like he was lying to me about not going to school; he's too much of a "good boy" LOL) well anyway some returners were hitting with the newcomers. I'm guessing king of the court? I saw him walking, he wasn't limping as obviously (but he wasn't before anyway) Me/Joyce & Alaiza/Lee warmed up on the same court. Joyce asked if I wanted to hit with Lee instead, which surprised me. I was thinking maybe she wanted to hit with Alaiza? but I was like it doesn't matter. We were on the court, watching Lee limp over. He limped more obvious this time compared to earlier and last time, complaining "oww my leg" xD and I'm just watching him, smiling and shaking my head at him. He knows why ;)
After warming up, Coach made us hairpin and clear. Me and Joyce cleared while Lee and Alaiza hairpinned. We were on the same court. Me and Joyce weren't clearing correctly. All I see is Lee ducking down xD I think he almost got hit? haha. He was complaining about our clears xDD Then at one point, Alaiza hairpinned too high and he smashed the birdie... at me. XP He said sorry and laughed. Then we switched and me and Joyce were ducking xD
Also, all 3 of them fell at some point. LOL. Alaiza was like "we all fell except you" and I was like "seriously?" LOL. When Lee fell (I didn't really see him fall; he was just on the floor lolol) I told him not to hurt himself again. We were just laughing xD
Well that was fun. Then we got into drills. First she put the singles together: me Joyce and Jamie worked together. Axl was working with Mai Adrian and Jose. The next drill, she separated the singles with the doubles. I worked with Jeremy and John Jay. Near the end, Coach switched me to Vito and Lee's team, and said that they were hecka mean to Jamie xD
We did front net smash. Man, those 2 keep playing around. Lee kept mentioning his leg when he threw the birdie for me. On the first round when he was front net smashing and I was doing jumping jacks on the court, I was like don't smash on me. The next second, he smashed on me.. twice! lol. Once it almost hit me and I dodged but his second smash almost hit my foot. xD Okay, these guys kept playing around; I can hardly practice. I guess they were being nice to me? Lee threw the birdie for me, squatting kinda, and every time he threw the birdie he'd fall back a little xD and then complain about his leg. lol

After practice we were outside. (Coach was leaving, and he said bye to me but I wasn't leaving w/ Coach lol) Alex (newcomer) was talking about riding with Coach, and how Lee should ask Coach for a ride. Then he goes on about how he doesn't want people to know where he lives and then I say "what if I told you I know where you live?" He looked unbelievable and was like what xD I live in this trash can. But I didn't say anything afterward. Alex was like then why aren't you in there yet? lol. He said something I couldn't hear. I was on my phone kakao-ing Jen & Jim about all this. xD And then he calls me and asked if I was going to prom. I said no. Then he asks whether we even have prom and I was like yeahhhh it's this Saturday. He was like oh sh* nevermind then. Nevermind? Well I didn't pursue that. He was talking to the others, and they asked him if he was going to prom. He said he was thinking about it mumble mumble. :p I think soon after he had to leave. He waved bye but I don't think anybody else waved back to him xD (Well, he walked to his truck w/o saying bye. And only waved bye after getting inside. He probably wouldn't have waved if he didn't see me looking up)

Bear Creek game today. The girls were all pretty nervous. Coach kept telling us not to be nervous. All the guys varsities played first. Sat next to Axl watching the guys' games. Adrian's opponent looked really good "strong". I also watched Lee's and Vito's game. So funny 'cause Vito tried to jump smash, missed & dropped his racket, and Axl's like "stop jump-smashing!" to me, or mostly to himself lol. So I was watching their game, and I felt a few times, Lee would glance over when preparing for the serve or receive. (I did that too, at the Stagg tournament tbh, lol. When I faced the bleachers, I'd look up then shake him outta my head xDD)
Some time before we had to play our game, Coach made all the varsity girls go to the back room to do footwork (but the room was locked so we stayed in the hallway, doing random stuff like quick feet or side-hops or just jumping). I'm pretty sure it's so we stop watching the games and being nervous. Our games were next. Lost to the same girl I played in sections last year, but the score is a lot better: 10-21, 16-21. Coach said, as long as I beat her the next time around. Axl also said I did good when he watched, but I told him he just didn't see the mistakes lol. There was this one smash I was just lucky that I blocked. I just stuck out my racket w/o knowing where the birdie was gonna hit (bc I didn't think I'd get it) and it bounced off, barely dropping over the net :D
Anyway, Vito & Lee were the only ones who won for guys; and I was the only one who lost for girls.
After the games, varsities had to run around the school.

Some time before the games, I happened to see Lee limping and my first thought was, "his leg still hurts?" (from tournament) There was a tournament at Independence for doubles on May 2nd. Me and Jim are playing doubles. Jim is playing mixed with Axl (and she didn't even know til I told her I signed her up LOL) and Coach also asked if I wanted to play mixed, thinking I wouldn't want to, and that I should ask Lee or someone. I don't know why she would say Lee first LOL. I didn't know how to ask him. It felt like he wouldn't want to play mixed, but it's not like we never played doubles together before. After some debating with Jen & Jim, Jen texted Coach about me playing mixed with Lee and so I was forced to ask. So I had to FB him and he said yeah. When he registered he said he put Jim as his partner. I sent him a .o. sticker and he said jk. Then proceeded to send me a "bird on crutches" sticker and talked about his leg. So then I'm over here, messaging him, worrying about his leg LOL.

Ya know, he's pretty funny. xD So when I was registering I asked him if his "real name was Lee Xiong" 'cause I wasn't sure if he used Xiongbie or not. Then I said nevermind bc he was off FB and I was just gonna submit. Then he came on a little later, registering, and asked "what's my partner's name" and then said "nvm. got it" LOL man, he playing. Anyway, he said he gotta rest up so he went to sleep earlier. He also said he wasn't going to school tomoro, so I'm guessing I won't see him at practice tomoro.

I was unsure if he didn't want to be rude to say no to playing with me 'cause he was like "yeah sure" so I had to like "double check". Then he asked if I wanted to just play for fun or try hard and win. I said "both?" and then he said, "Okay then we'll go and turn on the 'Try Hard Mode'/see how far we'll get". Literally his words, haha.
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Before the game, I tweeted about BC and Andrew replied me. Came home after the game, looked through his twitter. Favorited some stuff, replied to some stuff. We ended up having a hella long Twit convo xD It's so funny. We're only best-badminton-friends on Twitter LOL. He talks to me like I'm his bro: dude, man LOL Sometimes, I can't imagine him talking like he does typing lolol

To be honest, I'm really lazy to update lol it was such a long day.
Talent Show is finally over with!
Anyway, this Saturday (3/28) we had a tournament in Palo Alto (to be honest, I had no idea where we were playing at xD) Anyway we got to Gunn HS. I played singles and doubles, but of course, I didn't get far :p But it was fun enough ^^
Ahhh I don't think there's anything to say, other than interactions with Lee bc Jim made everything seem hilarious xDD

I think the first thing that's funny for her was that he was about to sit in the same car as us, but since Tim was gonna drive the van, he took Lee with him :p
Got to Gunn & I was the first to play bc girls' singles was first. Oiii. Let's just skip to the Lee parts? LOL
Let's see, I didn't really talk to him til after me and Jim's last girls' doubles game. He just came in from the other gym and I was sitting in front of our lil "table" and there was a chair next to me. He sat down and said I heard you guys lost. And I was like yeah. He said good job. But jokingly/sarcastically :p Did we talk about some other stuff afterward? I think we did but I forgot, probably about his singles game.
Then the next thing I remember was me and Jim talking about how everyone was either playing/watching someone's game/or sitting out and no one's watching Lee's game. She told me to go, but I didn't want to be the only one to go watching him bc what am I gnna do when we gotta walk back to the main gym together? > < As we were "arguing" about that, he came in. Too late! LOL (she also said I should've went to watch his game bc he watched mine. I couldn't remember him watching my game...)
Then Coach and Jim went out to get food for the team. Lee and Mary/Joyce were playing in the small gym. I finally pulled myself off from the floor and walked to the small gym; everyone was there anyway. When the doubles were done playing, we waited for Lee's game to finish b4 walking back to the main gym. (at the stairs, there was a bee flying around my legs so I pretty much ran up the stairs xD) and Jim and Coach were asking us if we wanted Jamba Juice and what kind. In the main gym, Shelly was asking everyone & making sure they know they have to pay Coach back. Lee said he didn't want one bc he didn't know what it was. Jim was over here kakaoing me, teasing me asking if she needed to buy him one in my place and I was like noooo. lol. [Czarina hid Jeremy's phone in my pocket, and we were whispering to each other about when he'll notice. Lee was sitting in front of us and turned around suspiciously bc he mostly heard us say "him" so we be talking about a guy LOL]

Then Lee had a 2nd game after. Since I was up already, I walked over to the small gym. It was kinda empty. Jamie was sitting at the far end of the gym, watching Lee's game. So I joined him. Later Vito came and joined us. After the game, he looked like a super happy puppy or something. He gave Jamie & Vito fist bumps and me a hi-5 LOL and jogged to the table and out the gym. He went to turn in the form at the table and I sat down texting. He sat down next to me, asking who I was texting. I happened to be texting Jen/Jim about Tim but I was also texting Jim about Lee (but I was on the Jen/Jim chat). And I told him I was texting my sisters but instinctively held my phone close bc all I could think about was: I'm texting Jim about him. xD He didn't really sit down; hardly for half a sec. After I answered him, he kinda just got up again. That's when I was like: I'm so dummbbb. That was either so obvious (or rude). Plus it wasn't even the right chat. >///<

When the food was here, me and Czarina went out to bring them in. She ended up telling them to come out and eat instead. Me and Jim brought drinks inside. She told me to ask him if he wanted one but I couldn't do itttt I didn't know what to say. She made it look like a confession LOL. She made me share a White Gummy with her, so he had a choice of (Coach's) strawberry or the other White Gummy. So I went over to ask him if he wanted one. He said of course, reached for the strawberry one, and seeing Jim walk over, asked if it was free. In my head I was laughing bc, the main reason he didn't want one was bc he didn't want to pay? xDD Anyway Jim said yeah, and told me she was gnna go wash her hands and eat outside. I sat on the floor next to him, who was sitting on the chair, and we watched the games. He took his first "sip", next thing he says: ahh brain freeze. i'm so thirsty. He continues to drink. I asked: you've never tried Jamba Juice? His reply: Nope. I'm not the type of person to go out and drink/eat every day. Somewhere along the line, I also asked if he had eaten anything since this morning. He said no. ---- I glance at him and sees he's almost done. How. Lol. Anyway, I took his empty cup and delivered Vito his drink bc he "demanded" it lol So I walked back out, and when I was close to the van, Vito was like, are you delivering? xD Ate a slice of pizza and went back inside.
I told Jim all that. Afterward, Lee played his last game, and lost. He looked tired. He changed and just sat by the wall, then with Tim. Jim kept telling me to feed him bc he hadn't eaten anything all day. I felt like the whole day I was being so obvious so I didn't really want to go tell him or even bring him to the van for pizza... Jim told Coach too but Coach was like let's see who's nice on the team to tell him about food. Since I couldn't do it, and nobody else did, she eventually took him to get pizza from the van. Jim kept teasing that if I didn't go tell him there was pizza, he's gonna faint :p

Wow. That was long. I think that was all... The most I've interacted with Lee? *shrugs*
Thinking back some more, b4 Jim left to buy food, she told me to check my phone. I didn't do it til later. [She was stalking me when I was playing my last game. Lee and Vito happened to be starting their game next to mine. One of Jim's pic showed him watching me (or looking in my direction) while drinking water, pfft, doesn't mean he was watching me :p] and I guess that's when I was like, so he did watch me... I guess I'll go watch him. and I went and watched his game w/ Jamie & Vito :p
Anyway, Coach took me and Jim home early, around 8. (We got OneTea though xD) The others didn't leave til 10:30 bc of Tim xD Well anyway, I guess that's all for right now. Too much typing, and I really gotta get to sleep. I'll post about today's practice (hopefully I remember though)

Edison's on their spring break already. Still have practice though. Jim and them were there yesterday; she was gonna see Lee but he wasn't gonna attend practice this week. He came today though~ surprise surprise~
Talked with him a little though.

I still wonder... questions keep running through my head. Complicated questions that seem impossible to answer. They sound stupid though.
The question that so many wonder: do I really like you, or is it a mistaken feeling?
When I try to answer the questions that float by, I feel like I'm forcing the answer to be that way.
I mean, it's my last year, none of this will matter anyway *shrugs*
So, like, would I miss him if I haven't seen him for a while? I don't know if I'm answering that question truthfully. I guess we'll see.

It's interesting--I haven't had a crush since the last "crush spike" with Javi LOL omgee those times were embarrassing. Last year was a... weird crush time :p

#np 날 만난 이후 | Jinyoung & Min Hyorin.

*EDIT/1:03AM-- "Love isn't something you describe or judge. It's just a feeling you have about someone." Ansel Elgort. Don't know who he is, but read his Q&A in Seventeen. I think that timing of finding that quote was just too on point.

*too lazy to update*
Anyway, today's game was pretty sucky. I was playing so bad. Before the game I even told Alaiza I was not feeling it today.
Almost all of us played hella bad today TT I don't get ittttt
Man, I lost so bad I don't even know why. It was like I think sophomore year, when I lost to Lodi I think, and I kinda scared Ron I guess. I think I scared Axl this time xD
After my loss, I felt like I couldn't even face Lee T/n\T *don't ask why :p

Coach kinda punished us. We had to do partner sit-ups and/or push-ups until Jose finished his game (which was pretty long) Afterward she took us to the back room to reflect...
I almost couldn't talk although I calmed down already. We had to think about how we played and something about the game/opponent. Vito was the only one praising themselves xD

Then we went back outside. They were still playing exhibition I think. Vito and Lee went to play the strong doubles team (I don't think they originally play doubles though) and I was watching sometimes, and one time I saw Lee got smashed on the arm. It was so fast he didn't even react xD
I was just sitting down texting Jim and Axl came over to talk to me. And he lightly fist-bumped my head... thanks Axl :3 Like most other guys, probably can't handle girls crying LOL

Man, this better not happen again > >

So tired... slept at maybe 4AM yesterday building the darn balsa wood airplane. Came home after practice and showered & ate too much. Took a shut-eye for maybe an hr or 2. It got too hot afterward...

So me and Jo had a dentist appointment today. Last time we went was 2 years ago! Woops :p Got 4 cavities (actually 3. one is just the missing filling)
Late to practice by like 11 min. Issok. I didn't do the conditioning workout. It felt awkward joining them at that moment. Started on footwork, then warm-up. Then singles & doubles split. Coach wasn't here today. After drills, Axl said we'll play the fun drill, 4v2, since we have game against Lincoln tomoro.
I was on a team with Lee, Mai, Yeng, Jamie, and Nanette. So we went against Jamie & Lee first. I find that Lee gets to the net so fast xD
After we rotated, it was me & Mai. When Lee/Jamie smash (since they're up front) we get so scared xD I got hit on the neck > > (Head shot = 40 pushups & Body shots  20 pushups?) I think Lee short-served, & I wanted to front net smash but I hesitated bc I got there too late to smash & I didn't swing so I turned my head & the birdie landed on my neck. Grrrr. I needed my revenge pssh. So I tried to smash on him twice, the 1st time I think he returned it or Yeng might have caught it in the back. The 2nd time it was really good smash! Loud too. Too bad it hit the net right in front of Lee. He was so shocked/scared he jumped! LOL that was the funniest reaction. xD He jumped a lil and spun around kekeke still couldn't get my revenge though bc we had to rotate after that :p
The 3rd round Mai got hit on the neck. Nanette hit it (like a medium-speed drop) and Mai swung and missed. She turned her head and it hit her neck. xD Mai got a head shot last time lol and she was getting all jokingly annoyed about getting head shots. Apparently it was Jamie's fault 'cause he set it up for Nanette xD so he was like he'll do 20 of her push-ups. lol
Me and Mai didn't do our push-ups though, wasn't even sure if Axl was serious about doing the punishment :p
Afterward Axl made us play games. I played Joyce, Mai, and Alaiza. We all had to play each other once. After we done, I just sat on the wall watching Axl play Jamie and Lee play JohnJay & Jeremy. There was this one time I think JohnJay smashed on Lee and hit his foot, but just as the birdie landed at his foot, Lee pulled his foot back so fast LOL. I don't know how he can play in sweats... :p

I wonder if I even like him... it's just like, why suddenly? I can't think of exactly what I like about him. I just happened to talk a lot about him I guess? But that doesn't necessarily mean I like him right? I can't tell bc the way I laugh at everything people say or do, and how I look away and stuff like that, I do that to pretty much anyone! It's hard to tell the difference. Oi.

Had a MESA meeting and couldn't find Arianne at lunch. Juan gave me tips on the plane. It unofficially flew for like 3 seconds. It was better than the last plane and the 1st time we tried this plane, so looking forward to getting Juan's help and making this thing fly. Okay, I'm off to do econ hw!

Conditioning today was tiring. Axlllll why'd you make us run so much todayyyy. Finger planks hurt my fingers! T_T My back was hurting really bad....
Anyway, the start of practice, we sprinted then we partnered up. I was gonna partner up w/ Jessamae & then Adrian was like "partner up boy-girl" and Lee just called my name (he was 2 people to the right of me).
So yup, did different exercises, and all I could think about was "I can't be the cause of us being last (bc then we'd have to do 50 push-ups)" and how gentle his "high-fives" were LOL [I don't remember what I was thinking when I partnered w/ Vito last time LOL] And to complete the conditioning, a high-5 and "good job" :D Anyway I was pretty happy pfftt.
*also when I partnered w/ Adrian (at SJ) and Vito the last time, we missed a lot of our hi-5 passes. but w/ Lee we didn't miss any, probably 'cause we didn't rush it :P*
So then the team split, singles worked w/ Axl & doubles worked w/ Coach.
Left practice pretty early bc volleyball came early :p
No practice tomorrow bc of a staff vs student game, & so I can focus on MESAAAA /cries

OMG Orion, in ASL TA xD when he asked if I was going to prom & I said no 'cause I went last year. Then he asked me, out of the blue, so which Edison guy do you like? Shocked. So I replied "why you suddenly ask that question?" He was like I can't ask that question? And I just said "it's just so random."
Him: Oh so you dooo. (something about me getting red). Tell me.
Me: Why do you need to know? *laughs shyly, the heh-heh-heh one*
Him: Bc I want to know. Who is it?
-bell rings & we were walking out- Me: You don't need to know xD
-He meets up with Alena- She likes someone at Edison.
Alena: Aww that's so cute. You should ask him out. -here, I'm in front of them 2 & I'm shaking my head, & I think I said naww/noo-
Me: No guys xD -Orion's still asking me who it is- I'm not gonna tell you.
-out the classroom- Orion: I'ma talk to Jamie
Me: Nuuu (here, he says Oh no not that Jamie, but I was like yeah I know, it's THAT Jamie -his cousin-) don't talk to him about thissss.
We cont. to "argue" about this until we got into the long hallway. omgee these guys are killing me xD
Why is Orion always so on-point? Pfftt.

Today was a pretty fun day :) Left school early to go San Jose w/ the varsity team. When I got to EHS, they had a fire drill bc of a gas leak :p Had to meet Mary & Axl in the tennis parking lot; they were locked out too lol. When the drill was over & the gate was opened, we went to the EHS vans. Coach had me and Lee go to her car to get the muffins & bananas (but he only found one bunch. when Coach said she had 2, I had to get out of the van & find it.)
Awkward thing was, when me & Lee went to her car, we were going to go through the small gate since the car gate was closed, but when I pushed the door open, it locked bc there were chains locking the door at the top! I felt stupid but hey, it's not my school :p After we got the stuff, we were heading back to the van. Axl already drove out; we weren't sure if we were supposed to get on or wait for Coach to drive out. So after Coach drove out, Lee handed me the food so he could close the gate.
The drive there, was I falling asleep? Maybe a nap here and there.

It was awkward when we got there at Independence HS. Their gym was big~
So everyone went to change. Me and some of the guys stayed in the gym to change, since we already had our clothes underneath. It was so weird bc I was the only girl LOL
We conditioned w/ Coach Mike's team. Adrian was my partner; that was fun.
Afterward they set up the courts, then we warmed up. After that, we did a 4v2 drill. So he paired us up. The guys had to stand up & introduce themselves, then the IHS people had to introduce themselves & choose one of the guys; it's so funny when the guys choose each other based off of what do you want to be when you grow up xD The girls did the same.
4v2 was pretty fun. I was on a court w/ Shelly. If we get hit by the birdie on the body = 20 pushups; in the face = 50 pushups. I had to do 20 :p
After was game. I played a girl who was a sophomore & played doubles. Oh yeah, IHS plays mixed doubles too :p The score was 21-6 for both sets. She kinda got mad at the end? Or like just frustrated & gave up... So apparently seeing that it wasn't a challenge for me (& Joyce), Coach Mike had us play one of his coaches. She was really nice. Score was 8-21, 15-21. It wasn't that bad ^^ At one point, she said I was testing her backhand. I wasn't! Well, I told Coach it was unconsciously lol. I didn't think I'd even score points. Coach said me & Joyce played better than we did during St. Mary's; which was probably bc she's a coach too & we didn't want to play bad LOL I was sweating so bad after that. I had to go to the restroom to wipe ma sweat. I was shocked when I got into the restroom: stars errywhere~ First thought: so patriotic LOL. Their colors are red, white, & blue... bc ya know, they're "independence" xD
It was almost 7--time to go. We had a fun time ^^

When we got settled in the vans, we got muffins to eat~ I got myself a blueberry muffin, & seeing Lee who wasn't eating anything (sitting behind me) I asked You don't want a muffin? He said no bc he didn't have any water, so then I was like would you like some water? and he was like oh no, laughing xD They had to gas up so while the vans were gassed, they all got out to buy food & whatnot. I just finished my muffin inside the van. JohnJay came back so I got out to let him in, & then sat at the edge of the seat. Lee was coming back so I was going to let him in, at first it was like I was going to scoot back to let him in, but then decided to just hop out & let him in. Almost "crashed" into him & he was like laughing, saying I was "going the wrong way." As people came back, Coach was like do they need so much drinks (bc they were getting like 2 bottles each) and I said to Lee, You got 2 bottles too? And he was like yeah, you want one? xD
The drive back to Stockton. In a while, Lee asked why I was so quiet *shrugs*
Then they watched Big Hero 6 on Mai's phone. I was watching too, but then I couldn't focus on the screen later. It was funny when Mai thought I couldn't see so she was going to hold it but then Lee in the back was like now I can't see it! xD Anyways, so I guess I dozed off. When we got back in town, I woke up (didn't really felt like I slept) & called home. After end call, I was going to unlock the seatbelt w/ my bobby pin (it's the one w/ the 2 "belts") and Lee was like I thought you were sleeping. And I just said yeah I was. Since I sat next to the door, I opened the door and got out first. I opened the other side of the door (opened from the side) and Lee almost "fell out" LOL and he was like woah. xD my bad. Good thing he wasn't leaning on that door lol. Axl was dropping off Adrian 'cause he had a "curfew" (if he didn't, the team wanted to go eat out). Dad came so I was leaving; Coach let me take the last 2 blueberry muffins home xD Didn't get to say bye to Lee bc he walked all the way to the front of Taggart, when the van was parked in front of the gate (next to Taggart)

Got home & decided to msg Lee on FB, asked him how'd he know I was sleeping. Embarrassing thing: "I can tell...when u sleep ur mouth always open.." >////< (at least I didn't drool :p but still...) & he said JohnJay took a pic of me too & I was like he better delete it *sends angry dog sticker* & he said "don't worry. i think he did. Just thinking. Idk" :p And then I said that it's unsafe to fall asleep around you guys & he said: "What!!!!! I didn't do anything.... just watching and laughing that's all"
-_- Meanie :p After he said he go shower, didn't come back :p
Why do I even tryyyyy. I gotta stahpppp. I give upppp.
Sigh, this guy.
He's seen the crappy side of meeee LOL. Like when I sweat a lot. & when I play weird. & when I sleep in the car (luckily, when I lie down to sleep, my mouth isn't open xP)

I gotta start on Econ hw. & MESA project fuuuu, but first, an update.

Nothing happened much during practice. I warmed up w/ Mary next to Lee (I did not like his hair today LOL), who was warming up w/ Adrian. He's over there saying I don't feel like playing and I'm thinking in my head Me neither, since I ran the 2mi. for PE. Then we did footwork; I wasn't sure if he wanted to take the court first or not but he was like I got this court and I was like okieee and got off xD

He, like, tripped (not all the way or anything, like a small slip) twice? And when he did, he looked at me w/ a smile, as if we just said a joke or when we smile off our embarrassment. When he was done, I got on the court, then he got on the court next to me. I think he called me? or did he say ow? I don't remember but I looked over at him, and I asked him if he was limping. I think it's 'cause he "slipped"-ish. After a while, he called me, & asked how many I had left and I told him. Then he said something about doing it really slow, and I just told him to take his time xD

Drilled w/ Sarah & Jose. Then played a game w/ Jamie. 15-21, 13-21. I lost, but I did a lot better than I thought I would, trying to hit those points. Not a bad game ^^
Signed up for doubles for Stagg tournament w/ Mary~ We better win, or at least go farther, than last year.
St. Mary's pre-season game tomorrow; Independence HS on Wed. Oiii

Ehhh it's already 3AM bc time skipped 2AM TT hate it when that happens...
Anyway today Anthony took me to Jim's to hangout. The drive there was okay, I thought it was going to be awkward but it was fine. We talked here & there (& I snuck a selfie LOL)

When we got to Jim's we sat in her apt. & talked a lil about what happened on the road & other stuff. Then we met up w/ Coach in Richmond at the Ranch 99 market. Couldn't find her yet so I dragged Jim to that one store we always go to. Interestingly enough, Coach was there too! LOL. Oi, I bought more sheepies =w= $28.31 oop. & something for Jen :p Anthony bought this "grow your own crystal" and Coach bought cards. We walked around, and ended up going to Daimo to eat.
We ordered and Coach ate a little before she had to go pick up Darren. When they came back and we talked about stuff. Coach was talking about a time when she and the twins were in Korea and they went to Haesindang Park in Korea, (I guess it's even worse than calling it a "love" park LOL) and they were showing us these statues and they were telling us to guess what it looked like. We didn't guess and Anthony couldn't stand it, he said "It's a penis!" and then covered his mouth. We were all in shock for like a split second & we all cracked up xDD It was like in a movie when somebody accidentally says something out loud (well to me at least xD) We went back to Ranch 99 market to shop. They bought bao from Shen Kee Bakery.

Afterward we went back to Jim's apt. I think I was nodding off & napped on the way back. We lounged around, used the restroom, "handled money for uncle" and then we went out again.
We walked around to ShareTea but decided to go to Daiso 1st in case it closed. When we got there, I looked around for stuff. I ended up getting some more craft kits~ and a fabric pen, and a section/divider box to hold my stuff. Coach & them bought stuff; Anthony got the lava thingies(?)

We walked a lil ways & went to TASTE and got green tea snow w/ mini mochi (bc they ran out of mango everything -.-) There was like 10 pieces of mochi > > it just wasn't even worth $0.50 of mochi >:p Afterward we went to Kimchi Garden to eat. I got udong & Jim got bulgogi I think. We were talking about a lot of random stuff, including Anthony's relationships LOL, and driving :p
We also took selfies at the end; I'm so ewww >x<
We were going to ShareTea but there was a long line & Anthony really had to get home so we decided to just get back to the apt. We went to the parking garage to get Anthony's rental car (our ticket was over an hr but nothing happened lol so we quickly left) and parked on the street a block from Jim's apt. Sat around in there again. I cleaned up my bag, Jim showed them her Korea scrapbook. Then we left. They walked me and Anthony back to the car; Coach & Darren walked Jim back to the apt.
On the way back, Anthony stopped at a gas station to buy an energy drink. I locked the doors 'cause just in case. I was kakao-ing when someone tried to open the door & I was like oops lol. We went on our way... it was pretty quiet. We talked like 3 times I think LOL. When I was trying to tell him what Coach texted me, he really couldn't hear me xD I was talking loud, psh. According to Jim, the whole day he was saying "what u talking about" when I'm saying stuff. I'm not that confusing dang lol.
When he dropped me off at home I was going to say like thanks, bye, drive safe, have a safe flight. But gaaaah I said drive safe & blanked out on saying have a safe flight. When I remembered and said it, he smiled and said thanks (I think he was laughing at that long pause I had :p ) Oh wells >3>

I am really sleepy now. I tried to dance for a while bc I seriously ate too much these past 2 days, but I was falling asleep dancing. & I just didn't feel like dancing.
So much to doooo... TT

Got to practice early-ish bc Coach said she wanted the returners to help the newcomers w/ doubles game. Was helping Jose to re-grip his racket. After he was done wrapping, Coach told him how to finish it, but also said you were supposed to start w/ the small end at the end of the racket & that most people do it wrong, starting from the wide end (I told him to start like that bc that's how Tong taught me! LOL woops xD)
We had a meeting in the lobby. Sarah was making sure ppl sign in; I raised my hand to tell her I need to sign in. Got the paper and kneeled on the floor; she told Lee to sign in but he was "complaining" and telling me to sign him in; Sarah "yelled" at him, saying he needs to do it himself & sign. xD So he signed. His signature had no last name & I forgot what he said about signing that. We got in trouble kinda (well he did) bc we were talking when Coach was about to speak xD
Talked about tournaments and stuff & MESA (he doesn't know what that is xD) and then Coach dismissed everyone except for returners who know the rules for a doubles game. Lee was going to go but I was like you're a doubles playerrrr; Coach called us 2 out, again! xD I wasn't even going anywhere! lol Seems like we get in trouble together often lol
We did drills for a while. Then we did footwork; funny thing was, Anthony, Bryan, & Kevin (coach/Kurt's bro) also did it with us xD so someone would yell court! and they'd hop on the court xD I think like once or twice only though.

We did the 2v1 drill (idr if this was b4 or after footwork). I was in a group w/ Yeng & Jessamae. After 3 drills, we had a water break. I didn't go get water. Lee was on the next court working on footwork then caught my eye and was like let's hit, and Yeng (across from me) passed him the birdie, so we were hitting the birdie across the 2 courts diagonally LOL
I really like it when I get to interact with him ^w^ He makes my day bright ^^

Working w/ the newcomers, the other returners Coach spoke w/ just watched the newcomers' games. Me and Jamie had to be part of the game & teach them on the way. Jamie was talking to his partner but I didn't know what I needed to tell my partner. Coach had said we didn't need to say anything unless they do something really wrong or if they ask. Jamie's over there "teaching" and I'm like I don't even know what to say; I'm such a bad mentor. I'm always scared that they're gonna get annoyed at me and stuff... Jamie had to leave and then we were waiting for Coach's instructions and then my partner asked me questions TuT

After practice Liang came and picked me up (w/ Nancy Tong & Alin) to go eat ramen w/ Jen & Kurt in Sac. I rushed to "clean myself" up: wiped myself w/ a wet towel, changed clothes, & body sprayed. I was falling asleep in the car. I tried to not make it obvious, but then my head nodded off onto Nancy's shoulder LOL. I is tired xD I opened my eyes and saw Nancy & Tong staring at me xD We got to this mall so Liang can pick something up, then we met up w/ Jen at Ramen House. I ordered too much LOL. I was so full, it was Eddie's pizza all over again. Then we went to get boba drink at Cool Tea Bar. Kendama & card games. At the end, they were talking about this FB drama involving their friends; it was scary--relationships. (They were still talking about it in the car xD)
I think I was thinking about Lee the whole ride home...

*title=idk lol nothing much happened today.

Warmed up with Lee bc I just got there and had no partner. Did I look lost? He had to announce to the whole gym that I have arrived wth LOL. He seemed excited to hit with me...? or maybe it was just me... Hehe he ditched Vito & Adrian xD
He accidentally hit Axl who was walking through the middle xD Idk if Lee was really going to hit my shot and the next thing I knew was, Axl making a sound and Lee asking him if he was okay. Oops, that was my bad too ^^'
We didn't get to hit that much 'cause then Axl told us to drill in groups. He not in my group :p

After drills, we conditioned. Afterward, Axl gave us free time. Lee wanted to play a game with me. So we played a game. Lost so badly /cries/. Made so many mistakesssss. He playing me man lol. Naw he went easy on me. Seriously, after the game I was sweating so much, it was stinging my eye. Went to the restroom to clean my face, and the red veins were touching my pupil! :o
Lee was getting ready to go I guess and I was sitting down, trying to call dad to come pick up. I sat at the wall corner near the doors. He was standing in front of doors & rug; I thought he wanted to say something to me, but I think it's 'cause I look like I was "busy"? Then he left :p

He was waiting outside but I went out the other door and avoided eye contact > <

Erm. I just finished Cherry Juice xD
Eh, I forgot what I wanted to write...

Our first drill was serving (after 10 suicides TT), long first then short. I was in a group with Nanette, Jim, and Lee (keke he kinda ditched Adrian for us xD) It was so funnay, I don't even know why. We talked a lot-ish. I tell him when his birdies are out, and he tells me too, but he also tells me good shot and stuff. When we were doing short serves, he kept saying watch and learn. Then this one time he said that, but he messed up his serve, and he was like don't learn that xD
He tipped me, like I shouldn't stand at the corner to short serve bc I won't be able to return the birdie, and it dawned on me LOL so now I tell myself to serve a lil further back.
Coach was telling us how strict the league/coaches gonna be about serves. She also came up and told Lee not to swing his racket after he serves bc then it'll be above his waist (or going sideways) and he showed me (cuz I asked). So I had to try not to either, like being more conscious. I was trying it that way, and I is baaaaad LOL not really :p
So he put his racket at the corner. I served: the 1st one didn't make it, but the 2nd one did! like right on his racket, yays~ the 3rd one landed where the 1st one was LOL. He's been helping me a lot. (and he still jokes around when I tell him his birdies are out =3=)

Anthony visited us today. Coach made him "drill" and play games with us. I warmed-up with him and stuff.

After practice we were just lounging around in the lobby. Then Coach was about to leave, so I left with her. Axl was holding the door, Vito and Lee were inside. I walked out and was saying bye to people but nobody heard/saw me -3-
Coach was driving out but there was "traffic" so we were in front of Taggart. Lee was about to leave. He saw us and me and coach both waved (did we look alike? lol) and he just smiled and turned away. I said to Coach, and he doesn't wave back. She said, it's okay. i know he saw us already :p

I'm just really friendly with Hmong people LOLOL.
Just finished talking to Mina's cousin John. It surprised me when he messaged me (just bc I liked his status xD) and we talked about a lot of random stuff. He 'lols' and 'xD's as much as I do! lol I don't know why it's easy to talk to people online :p I'm weird...
He asked if I danced. After answering that, I didn't get the chance to ask why he asked that :p He's fun to talk to ^^ So optimistic & encouraging. Too bad a month younger than me LOLOL

Lee brought up Facebook; HE DIDN'T KNOW I HAD ONE. What kind of foolish thought is that LOL I kinda wanted to be in his "drilling" group but got pulled out *pouts*
Anyway, we were going to play games. Vito borrowed my racket & I told him it's going to pop, but he said he wouldn't. Lee said he would. After his game, I was playing my game; he came over like someone guilty of something.... bc he popped my racket LOLOL.
After I finished my 2 games, Lee was playing Adrian in the middle court. I feel like he was high. LOL. They were about to play their 2nd set & Lee was saying he's going to hurry up and lose to Adrian. He looked like he was playing around, doing like trick shots YET he was still diving for the birdie. I don't get him LOL. I was watching him play & that is not the way he usually plays :p
There was this one time he didn't get the birdie, like I think he could've made it, & when I gave him that look (& pointed?) he gave me the "shush" sign. >//v\\< (no... it's not like that really :p)
After practice ended, he brought up FB again LOL (and every time he talks to me, he has to emphasize my name, seriously xD) But I think I busted myself? He kept saying he didn't know I had one, in a way that it was unbelievable that I had a FB *shrugs* and I said that I didn't know he had one (I really didn't LOL) and he was like "oh but someone added me 2 nights ago." I had no response >///< whoops. Was it even 2 nights ago? lol. sometime in Feb, maybe like end of Feb :p

Didn't have time to say this yesterday, but at yesterday's practice, Vito and Lee were matching: gray and white striped shirts (but opposite of each other, so like Lee's was grayer? or whiter, I forgot) and someone was like couple and Lee looked at him and Vito (they were standing next to each other) and then looked "shy"? Not really, but I just saw an anime/manga seen LOLOL. They're such best friends :3 Man, can't get that memory outta my mind. xD I just had to chuckle a little at his reaction when someone mentioned them couple-matching LOL.
Just thought about this last night too: His past long hair reminds me of Arisaka-san from V.B. Rose (freakin' love him and the manga!!) I like it short, dyed, & simply spiked (not mohawk lol). Oi. Just kill me now x_X

I didn't know what to put for the title.

So today we did somewhat an icebreaker xD shaking hands w/ someone you don't know (I forgot their names when I turned around. oop lol) Coach made us stand with the same grade group, and tested if we knew everyone else's name. The together in groups by birthmonth (me and Jim have the same bday (& year apparently)! :o) Then we had to do by height. Then we did youngest to oldest. I stood behind Jim and in front of Lee (his birthday's in August I think)
After that we sat down (we sat next to each other) and Coach passed out the schedule. Then paper for us to write our name in print caps. Lee told me he only writes in cursive lol so when the paper got passed to me, I wrote my name and he was like write mine too, so I did xD Coach emphasized writing it "neatly" and he was like yup, so neat. (psh he can't take credit for my handwriting lol)
Coach was talking about her expectations for 2nd, 3rd, & 4th year players. She thought only me and Lee were 4th years (bc she keeps thinking Mary is a junior) so she was like mastering skills/consistencies you two (emphasized bc we were hiding/having that uh-oh, nope. look lol). And then we looked at her somewhat surprised, and she said yes you two. xD Everyone else was like Mary too! xD

Yeah I don't know why we talked so much xD we were just whispering to each other lol

After practice he was leaving and I got a very happy, peppy bye xD (compared to Ivy and Sarah's xD Sarah's bye was like a whisper lolol)

Does this entertain you now Jimmmyyyyyy

am I fantasizing again? Somebody stop meeeee.
Went to practice today, and it felt really short. We did some drills. We did bow-tie drill & I was with Mary, Vito, and Lee (hmong group :p) Then Vito left so Axl then Michael took over his spot. Afterward Joyce took their spot. Lee was funny; he kept hitting the ceiling (luckily we didn't need to do push-ups for that xD)
Then we did smash-hairpin-flick drill and rotated left so we hit with different people. I ended up hitting with Lee and I managed to catch almost all his smashes. (Some of my smashes I thought were beautiful LOL) He did a fail smash and hurt himself? I dunno. He was holding his side xD He's fine though lol

Dude I don't know I just had too many laughs today.
Practice ended 30min early. I left with Ivy. We walked out to the parking lot and I saw Lee sitting on the benches next to Taggart.
Dad was driving out the parking lot and I saw him stare at the car so I reached my hand behind dad's seat and waved. He didn't wave back but I knew he saw me. So I waved again and he waved back. Kekekeke----- someone stahp mehhh >x<

So yesterday I only slept for 2 hrs. Around 5:45am Mom came and woke us up (tbh, for some reason I thought she was waking us up to volunteer & I was thinking what volunteer?)
Until I overheard dad speaking about Gramps. I remember my first thought was "Are you kidding me?" I really couldn't believe it.
We got to the care home to see our other relatives waiting there. We went into the building to see him one last time. Mom couldn't stop crying when she got into the room; she couldn't even go all the way into the room to see Gramps. (Man I couldn't even cry bc freakin' Richard was pissing me off. Already in the car he was already saying how he cried hecka for Grandma's passing but that when mom told him about Gramps', he didn't have any feelings omg yes, mad-hate does seem to overrule all other emotions. Anyway we waited there for the funeral home people to take Gramps away. We left around 8 or 8:30. Got home and had to tell Stephen and it was difficult. Dang...
Jo went back to sleep, and I ended up staying awake til 3 doing hw (bc I really didn't want to do hw).
Had to tell Jim and Jen. Jen ended up coming home...just to be home. She went home after that.

R.I.P. Gramps. We're gonna miss you, even though you nag us alot and sometimes you're stubborn about things. <3

Practice today from 4-6pm. It was cool. Near the end of practice Michael came to visit; what a surprise! I was hitting w/ Alaiza. Psh. Mary ditched me for her "friend" LOL who I'm pretty was her prom date hehe.

Okay so today we conditioned a bit. Seriously about to die already :p
There are like about 10 guys on our team, and when we were on the wall, they were pretty much grouped together. Axl was going to make us do exercises that may cause us to crash so he said guy girl guy girl. So I was going to get in line guy girl guy girl but in between 2 guys before Lee. I don't know why >///< Then Axl told me to move up one so I ended up standing next to Lee. 
So the exercises, girls went first then guys. Then some of them we did together. We had to do 30 & 45 seconds high knee. During the 45 I really wanted to stop. Lee next to me high-kneed in a circle encouraging me and Ivy. Then we ran? or was it lunges? Anyway we did full and half-court suicides. Uhm one was before the lunges? dude I don't remember the order of our workout xD

Anywayyyy we ran the full court suicides I think, 2 of them. His pace was the same as mine. Everytime I do a turn at the ends, I also do a small hop. So when I saw him hesitate or slow down for the first full court turn, I was wondering if he was pacing with me. We ran the rest of the suicides together. I'm pretty sure he could've finished earlier.
Man please don't make me go 두근두근.
Just to let you know, I fall really easily.
Don't make me fall if you're not going to catch me (/∇＼*)｡o○♡

This 4-day weekend passed by so fast! I'm sad. Me and Jen just came back from tong's sister's house. Liang was drunk when we got there. He kept asking for Jamie xD & he kept putting his arm on our shoulders. So scary LOL. We played pool for a while and ate. Then we went inside. The guys stayed out talking except for Ricky. He Connie and Nancy were playing Heads Up. Me and the kids were watching HTTYD2.

They've been playing/talking for a long time. I already finished the movie. Lily (Tong's niece) was sitting on my lap and hugging me watching the ending of HTTYD2 (it took me a long time to get her to stop playing & watch the movie.) then I rocked her and she finally fell asleep. whoo-whee. lol. It was getting hot. Then I joined Nancy and them playing Heads Up. It's like 2 something and the guys finally came back in. They played for a while and we were watching John Wick. Finally people were feeling sleepy so we all went home.

So yesterday me and Jo volunteered at Lathrop High School for ACADEC. We woke up earlier to get a ride with the bus around 6:30. We were runners; we had to go to our assigned rooms to pick-up/give tests. I got the room with 3 of our Timberwolves. Anyway it was weird weather: raining then sunny etc. There was this guy from Tracy High who was being so productive in the room, and then there's us being loud xD Every time we left he'd follow. Oohhh I just found that funny lol. Near the end he did talk to us a little though, like to tell us where we could get our lunch. hehe. We were waiting outside the room with him, and rain started POURING. So we filmed it. After I was done & posting, I saw him filming the rain too haha. Then the rain would suddenly let up. It was still slightly raining but the sun was out. And then I saw a super bright rainbow. A double rainbow! but the top rainbow was faint. I went over to take a picture. Well, we all did. xD Nice bonding moment? lol. When we were done, we went to the gym for the super quiz and award ceremony. We left him~ I felt bad. But that's 'cause his testing room is never on time xD

Award ceremony: so proud of our ACADEC students!! ♥︎♥︎♥︎ They make me want to study LOL
Me & Jo worked hard to live tweet the awards. Gahhh made some mistakes though, but people loved my tweets ^^

Came home with a headache & feeling sleepy. So after eating, I went to sleep. I woke up at 10 feeling sick. Took my temperature & I had a slight fever. Ate medicines, showered, and slept again. I woke up this morning at like 9:30. Ugh so much homework to do...

Sheeshus!
So yesterday my parents got in a freakin' argument over nothing. My aunt happened to be here and you know what happens when a relative is over: bigger fights.
My aunt kept yelling at my dad for "bullying" my mom (okay, this part of the whole argument was stupid from both sides, like ya'lls need to learn your definitions before you guys argue ugh) So my mom kept trying to force my aunt to go home but she wouldn't leave. These freakin' two people would not back down, I swear. So my dad yelled himself hoarse, I seriously do not understand how. [Forreals, he need to figure out why we all nag him so much. He finds no problem with his actions and/or speech.]
So now, my parents are sleeping separate. My dad still as annoying as ever.
Can't wait to leave this house. (I'm bound to come back but right now...)

Things happened... well I guess not really haha just that I feel like I should write this down & get it outta my head.

Tired from conditioning today > < My back hurts from the ab workout. Last Saturday we were at SF Bintang playing badminton. Barely got over my soreness today lol or yesterday. Other hangouts happened. Ricky made a GroupMe. So 'sticky sticky' LOL. I don't know what's up with him...

Anyway I'm so sleepy right now. We moved out of grandpa's place and yesterday we were busy moving things and cleaning up. Still not done. I have so much trashhh and things I want to keep. So didn't start econ. hw til around 10 something at night. Finished around 2? But I was distracted by deviantart and adopting that I slept at 3. I can't find my sharpener TT The one I got from 99c. 

So yesterday we went bowling from 10-12:45PM with Qi, Alin, Tong, Nancy, Connie, & Brandan. Ricky came later, ready for the 2nd round. After bowling, we went to Jack in the Box, grabbed some "breakfast." Jim rode in Ricky's car. The funny thing was Ricky, Brandan, & Tong ran into Alin's car, ordered with them, & ran out LOL. The other funny thing was, when we went to Nancy's, I noticed all the cars were boy+girl except for me & Jen LOL.

At Nancy's we ate and then played Taboo. After Taboo (around 3:15AM) we were messing around & they were betting on squatting while carrying Alin LOL. That was funny. Qi said she'll treat us to breakfast if we stay up past 5/ 5:30AM lol. After that, we sat around telling stories bc it started w Alin saying he saw something in our condo on the first night. *shivers* Then we just kept talking about random topics: ghosts, dogs, rats, superstitious stuff, high school memories, love letters in middle school (Tong's popularity+drama), Ricky showing off his body to a drunk girl so she would leave (LOLOLOLOLOLOL I'm dying), relationships-ish, funny/scary memories....

We were up til 8AM-ish. Everyone was lazy to get up. Liang texted Qi so we were like let's go visit him~ so we went to 8 Mile Road's McD in the Walmart. Liang served us & gave us free drinks~ kekeke. I got a Mocha Frap. so I was up after we got home. Everyone was tired so we all went home after saying bye to Liang. Tong & Brandan had to go cut up some pig or something.

It was crazyyy I was up til 7:45PM, took a 30 min nap, got up. Slept around 11-12 after putting on masks~

You wanna know all about it? Well I wanna remember it. lol

01.07.15
So we got ready in the morning on Wednesday, Jan 7. Liang came to pick me and Jim up to go to Sacramento to meet up with Ricky and Jen. But we had to wait for Brandan and Connie so we went to iHop since they were hungry. We ate at iHop and waited for Brandan & Connie but they were hecka late so we just packed some pancakes for them and were going to meet them at Nancy's house. We still had to wait for them after we got to Nancy's. Jim was getting annoyed waiting for them. When they finally got here, we packed up everything in Brandan's truck and drove to Sac. When we got there we had to wait for Ricky like 5-ish min. for him to get back from checking his car. Finally everyone was at Ricky's and when everything was ready, we headed out to Tahoe. Me, Jen, Jim, and Liang rode in Ricky's car. Alin, Tong, Nancy, and Connie rode in Brandan's truck. The ride was long. Our speed limit was slow bc we had to wait for Brandan's safe-driving; he was following our car & every time we turned around,  we'd lose his car xD We took a pit stop at this gas station. And then back on the road. I think I fell asleep a little on the way but nothing happened.
We finally got to Tahoe. It was around 5PM. Alin and the guys went to check-in for us. Then we moved into our little condo. It was so nice~ Then I think we went down to the lobby to play. We played ping-pong & billiard. They also hopped into the pool. When we played ping-pong, Ricky & Brandan played a game against this father & son who were from Maryland. They looked Chinese but we don't know. We went back to our apt. & prepared to eat dinna. Connie, Jim, Alin, & Nancy baked chicken wings in the oven while others took turn showering. They baked 3 thin crust pizzas but nobody really ate them. Nancy cooked rice that was dry xD
Brandan & someone bought Smirnoff, raspberry taste. It smelled pretty good. He wanted to do a group "gan bei" with shots (red shot cup). (I tried some too but like 2 drops mixed w Sunny D. It wasn't that bad, but probably cause I can hardly taste it. The aftertaste burned my throat for like 20 sec.) We were playing Cards Against Humanities and Ricky was a little high and crazy bc of the shots xD His face was red. Man, I was dying of laughter, & he was loud and everyone kept shushing him LOL. When we finally went to sleep, it was like a little after 2AM I think? and we were vlogging. Ricky was texting Jen/Jim, saying Alin & Liang were snoring so loud, so we invited him to sleep in our room. He came into our room with his bolsters and slept on the floor next to the bed, in front of the nightstand, under the window. 

01.08.15
We woke up the next morning, pretty early. Liang called Jim at 6:50AM, and Ricky popped up hecka fast when she picked up. Jim went over to Alin & Liang's room, across from us, to say good morning & got ready in our master bedroom. I have a slight memory of seeing Jim walk by and waking me but I was too tired so I told her I didn't want to go. Liang, Ricky, & Jim walked over to the lobby to the gym, from 7:15-8AM-ish. They came back and sat in the living room to kill time since no one else was awake. I woke up around 8ish, when they came back, & me and Jen went out to them. They decided to cook breakfast. Brandan & Connie who were sleeping in the living room's murphy bed (in-wall bed) got up. Ricky cooked rice & said "who cooked rice yesterdy? It was dry." It was the same thing Jim said LOL. They cooked a lot of bacon. Ricky cooked 2 eggs for Liang. Jim did the dishes. I came out of the room with the camera & ate some bacon. Alin woke up, a lil sick, & asked Jim if he should go wake up Nancy & Tong. She said yah, then she started cooking hash browns. I think Connie made pancakes afterward & made me a chocolate chip pancake; her pancakes were so floofy~ Then I think I went to play the Monopoly deal card game with Tong, Ricky, and Liang. Afterward we went to the lake, playing snowball fights along the way. It was a long walk. We had to go down the icy trail, & we took a pic there. We had to walk through this soft sand to reach the lakeside. We took lots of pictures and took a group one, which was difficult to take LOL Nancy & Jen left the camera on a stump up a slight rise, facing the lake. Then Ricky had to run down from there, after clicking the timer so we could take a pic of us looking out into the lake. We also met a fluffy dog named Ruby. So soft~ We trekked back around 1 or 2? I don't remember. On the way back we met a 12 week old puppy. It was so happy & loveddd attention. The owner was nice too. Me, Jen, & Jim stopped on the way to build a small snowman while the others went back first. We got back & I ate a pancake. They were watching Walking Dead & Jen and Jim were inside the room. Soon after went out to the city. The group that rode in Ricky's car hopped onto the back of Brandan's truck to get dropped off at Ricky's car, parked in the parking lot across the lodge. We drove to the city & parked in the casino's parking lot. We walked through the casino & arcade & when we got outside, we came out right next to the horse carriages/city tour. We went to meet the biggo horsie, named Duke! lol. I got to pet it. It was tooooo cute~ Then we just walked through shops. We were pretty bored though. We went to Starbucks after they bought candy at a store. I guess Ricky saw us look tired so he offered to drive us back. We walked back to the casino, but then they wanted to gamble for a while I guess so me, Jen, & Jim went down to the casino. We went a little crazy playing games. xD The rest came to see us when we barely just started to play. Ricky left us his keys and they went back up to the casino. After an hour or two, Alin, Liang, & Nancy joined us. We got around 700 points to redeem when the rest were done gambling so we redeemed a raccoon plush + 3 airplane kits. We drove back but they went back out to gamble, only me, Jen, Jim, Alin, & Nancy stayed. We were watching 2 Broke Girls; Jim fell asleep. Alin, Nancy, & Jen went out to buy stuff. The others came back before Jen did, so we waited. When everyone came back, some showered earlier while others prepared KBBQ stuff. We ate and watched The Giver. Afterward everyone went to sleep. Ricky slept in our room again. Ricky was talking a lot so when it was quiet, I thought they were done, so I fell asleep. I guess I fell asleep pretty fast bc apparently, Ricky and Jim talked til like 5:30AM before falling asleep.

01.09.15
Last day of the trip! The crew woke up around 9-10ish. We cleaned up and packed everything, moved everything to the cars. Alin checked us out around noon. I think we went to eat Thai food at MyThai after that. After eating we drove back to go to the icy lake (was it lake tahoe? 'cause maybe the 1st lake on day 2 was nevada beach ahaha) Anyway we played on ice and Ricky and them so "bak yeem", jumping on floating ice. They would step & jump on them and the water would come up onto the ice. We took lots of pics, selfies, & vids. Afterwards we were done, we went back to find some snow. We found a snowy slope & played for about 2 hours or so. We finally built an actual snowman. When I was at the bottom of the slope, Ricky threw a snowball at me unawares. It hit my ear & it hurt, real bad. We also built our own snowy slide. All that's on video! :D Our shoes & butt got wet so we towelled the car seats, changed our shoes, & went to McD to eat & change our clothes.

Whew. That's a lot of writing! But it's 3 days. I don't know if I missed anything but it was fun! Everyone got back to Ricky's in Sacramento. Then everyone's tired so we all went home.

Labels: lake tahoe

So earlier Friday (1/2) I went to hang w Meimei & Jessica. Mina couldn't make it. We went to Hobby Lobby and got stuff. I got my Sakura gelly roll and Shrinky Dinks! *swoon* But it took us forever to find the Shrinky Dinks, & when we did, there was only one left bc somebody decided to steal all the plastics from the other packet.

So at night, I called mom to come pick me up. She didn't bring her phone so she couldn't call me to tell me she was out there. So she waited about an hr. And I was talking with Jessica about Junior bc she doesn't know LOL. Anyway, got out there & mom was pissed. The next day was fine. The End :p

Today went on a movie date with Jessica~ we were both late xD
I had a tight schedule~ in the morning me & Jo went back to school for yearbook stuff & I had a headache. Then at 2:15 I went to badminton preconditiong (but got there early).
Conditioned but felt sick afterward. Then I rushed home to shower & meet up with Jessica. We were 20 min. late. The West Ln. theater was comfy & warm. We watched Penguins of Madagacar.
Junior & Deilys were supposed to come but they flaked lol jkay one is sick & the other couldn't come.
After the movies, me and Jessica played the gatchas. We went for the Birthstone Bears. Luckily I got mine! Keke & it's pink~ Jessica got a purple one (June)

Yesterday I asked Deilys for what time & he told me he couldn't go. So then I go ask Junior if he's still going & he said he's too sick to go, but maybe. Today he said he couldn't make it. To be honest, I didn't have much hope for him to say yes. Even though I felt like he didn't want to go any more after I said Deilys wasn't going? But, I don't wanna overthink things. 

Whee! Today we went rollerblading with Ricky, Liang, Alin, Connie, Linda, & Weicheng. It's too much to say but in summary, we went rollerblading at the rink. Tong was there too but he didn't skate. Leo and Mai came too. They were playing. And they did the 'Red Light Green Light' game lol
Weicheng played in-line skating before but he went too fast I guess and slipped. Owie. He was like 2ft in the air. We also did choo-choo train. xD He had to pull me, jim, nd jen. The 1st time, I was at the end and every time we turned, I'd swerve out of line. lol. The 2nd time I was holding onto him but I didn't know how to hold on to him. xD (I held on to Jen by her pants xD) so I was pulling so hard on his sweater that it was going to rip (not really) haha At the end when we were stopping we ended up crashing & I almost fell but Weicheng was holding me up LOL
Ricky was choo-choo train-ing w/ Liang and I was gonna grab onto Ricky, but Ricky let go-ed. The next second Liang slipped and fell back. Oh goodness xD

Afterward we went to In 'n Out ('cause I wanted In 'n Out) & we ate~ yumyumyum~ We ate outside bc there was no more room inside. It was so coldddd. After we were done eating we had to wait for Nancy, but it took them so long to get to us. Then we had to wait for their order of food (we were all done eating, just sitting/standing outside) but their food took too long & we had to leave to see grandpa (me & Jo went to hotpot at Auntie's w/ Gonggong & PoPo).

Now me is going to finish Free! :D Man.. this winter break is not long enough... I have to do stuff for colleges/scholarships but I don't know what. Ughhh

It's been another year! 2014 went by very fast, especially first semester.

Things happened since Winter Break started. Uhm, YeYe had to go to the hospital. He was at St. Joseph's ICU for a day or 2? Then he moved to the regular patient room. This week's gone by so fast and all we've done is doing our errands and visiting him. We stay at the hospital for quite a while.
Today we had a Christmas hotpot, drop off gifts, and stayed at YeYe's again. Hm. I don't know why it has to be during Christmas.

Not to mention I got a slight fever on Christmas Eve lol. But only for a day. It'd suck to be sick on Christmas. I've been lazy on my art too. Sigh I dunnooo~
I'm getting fat too TT and a sore throat; too much chocolate, candy, and I just ate chips. ugh. Gotta start winter workout for Coach. /dies
Nothing else worth mentioning sooo I guess I'll sleep :)

So Junior messaged me, and we were just chatting. Apparently something's bothering him, and I can't help him with that...
Even though it hasn't been "solved" yet, he sounded cheerful when he was talking to me. I hope whatever it is works itself out... Sounds serious though.

We were too "hak hei" to each other lol. Like he said, "We so polite and nice ~" LOL

So after school we went to B&N Starbucks to work on our moot court. Then we just started talking about guys and gossiping about couples at school. Then we got to who I like, I don't even know how LOL
Afterward we went to Stephanie's house. The whole time they were just teasing me about him. xD And Steph wouldn't tell us who she likes.

*a lot of stuff happened but that'll take too long to say. and it's too cold to type. and I have to go finish up hw*

Another burden lifted. I feel better. Then I came home and skyped Jen & Jim. And then they got me thinking about stuff again.
Like I daydream about stuff happening; in reality I know it won't; I'm 50/50 on wanting something to happen; and I wouldn't know what to say if something did happen-do I want to say yes or no?
Either way, it's senior year and I don't think anything's gonna happen :p

Today spent almost the whole day at Jessie's working on the moot court but we were distracted by Criminal Minds: Suspect Behavior lol.
They were looking through winter formal pics. Junior & Roberto took a pic and d'awww they so cute~ hehe. 
Man, he's still on FB. I wanted to chat w/ him, but naw.

Doing EOP but kind of gave up :p
Proud of doing Christmas cards~ ^^ Finishing them up and having mom send them tomorrow~ Then I gotta do the ones for my friends before Friday... 

Actually have to sleep since I gotta get up early to buy a blue book tomorrow... ugh. One final tomorrow. I actually don't even know what to dooo~
Anyway, nights! Can't wait til this week is ovah~

Tomorrow (today) is going to be my first college final of this year. Bleh. Com St 7. But woot! Then I don't have to worry about that class anymore~ Studying for it now.

Was working on the Anthro paper today. 3-ish hours and only got 2 paragraphs done -.-
Weellll I mean I guess.

Was talking to Min-E & she suddenly brought up how everytime she sees him, it reminds her of me. LOL. O gosh. xD (Huh. I seem to avoid using his name now lol I don't even know why >3>)

Badminton pre-conditioning on Mon, Wed, & Fri.
Why. On. Every. Day. I. Have. P.E. -__-
I mean, extra exercise. Yay (sarcasm) I'm just really lazy to go lol.

I think that's the day... and Yay! Lake Tahoe at the end of winter break! Let's bring Olaf to lifeeee! ^^

What have you done to meeee? lol
I don't regret meeting you, though :)
However, you're killing me right now (not to be dramatic/extreme), but I need to stop daydreaming... I need to stop thinking about you because you're distracting~ ♥
You make my heart skip a beat when I see you online...

Is it weird that sometimes I feel left out?

Came home after FNL to find my Mac accessories awaiting me~!
So I quickly put them on. The bottom case didn't snap on all the way tho -3- close enough I guess.
Now I can safely put them away~ <3

*now that I look at it, it looks more like turquoise. Oh wells. it looked more mint the first time I saw it! lol

Gotta make the decals now. Tomorrow maybe? Whee~

Huh. I wonder why this week is going so well~
Good days~ and on such happy days, I treat myself (Quickly, as of now haha)

When I'm stress-free, I guess I get really happy. ^^

So I finally told Min-E about my "crush" (I guess) lol
And I also told Samantha over FB. It was fun talking to her ahaha.
I told her most of the details. I don't know why but I felt like I had to tell someone about it.
Now I can stop thinking about it. Maybe. *sigh*

Anyway, I was also trying to deal with Mac stuff. It wasn't working -_-
I'm so done with Mac. :p

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^

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