Hello there & welcome to my blog. Here you'll read tidbits about my daily life, some random thoughts, & maybe a rant here and there. I'm sure you'll learn something about me, if you don't know me of course. Down below are links to find me (personal accounts not posted). I hope you enjoyed your stay while listening to the songs I'm recently listening to. Come back & read again~ ^w^/
Currently catching up on my artist research for ANI 50. Gotta catch up because sketchbook check next week! I still feel guilty that I'm not putting as much time and effort (not like I have a lot of time to spare) that I would like into practicing & studying.
Here are some portions of interviews by some artists I've come upon, and I really like what they had to say. If you guys want to read more of the interviews, go here.
What advise would you give to an artist who is dealing with an art-block? How do you boost your imagination and keep yourself creative? Stop comparing yourself to other artists, and be inspired rather than discouraged. I try to maintain a healthy balance of work and life experiences, which can be anything from traveling, trying new restaurants, watching movies, going dancing, or coffee shop sketching. I also continue to take classes, practice life drawing, and go plein-air painting. Stay motivated by surrounding yourself with people who share similar interests and goals in improving their art, which is helpful on those days you don't feel like waking up early to go painting! (Michelle Lin)
I think an art-block is something that everyone goes though at some stage of their artistic life. I struggled myself with it a lot. During that time, I was seriously considering of quitting art. I think it came when I was at a point where I felt sad with my work. No matter how much I practiced, I never got better. It got worse when people or myself started comparing my artwork with others. It lowered my self-respect and I felt like there was no hope to escape from that feeling. It all changed after my concepts were approved and I saw for the first time the final version of some 3d models based on my artwork in a company. It really encouraged me to practice and worked harder. Once I got inspired to work again, I started to study and watch my favorite art and movies and I kept drawing and painting until I felt satisfied. (Yewon Park)
DRAW DRAW DRAW! It really is the answer for everything! If you want to improve you have to draw anatomy, design, animation, illustration, expression, gesture, everything! The drawing way.. is the only way! (Nicola Sammarco)
If you’re experiencing art block go out and draw from life or pick a few master paintings/drawings to do copies of. It’s a good way to keep yourself drawing without having to think about what you’re going to draw because you’re just drawing what is in front of you. If I ever feel like I can’t think of what to do, I know I need more reference material. As a professional artist you can’t go into work and say “I couldn’t think of anything”, so you need to learn to keep drawing no matter what. (Ann Marcellino)
I report a funny sentence my friends heard from Marko Djurjevick during IFCC last May. " If you try to climb on a horse from the back it will kick you in your face and you'll die. There's only one way to climb on: from the side". Drawing is the main thing. If you want to become a good illustrator there's no shortcut, you must learn to draw. Another thing I found reassuring is knowing that everybody, also great pros, deals with artist-block! It helps me to say "Ok, don't panic, keep working". (Clarissa Corradin)
Art block is something that I can't seem to shake off! When I am in an artistic slump, I try to just sit down and draw things I am familiar with. It helps boost up my moral and get my spirit working again, which helps me get back to work. Studying successful artist helps a ton! It doesn't take a lot of brain power and allows me to figure out how they are coming across something that I am having a hard time figuring out. Life drawing is very relaxing. (Naomi Romero) Concept art, animation, illustration, comics, there are lots of choices. When you’re young, sometimes you know only one thing: you love to draw. What should a young artist take into consideration to make the right decision when choosing an artistic path? I know everyone says this, but do what you love--seriously! And if you don't know what you love, take time to discover what that is. There also isn't one path to finding success. Everyone's path is different and sometimes people take longer to discover what they love to do. Our interests change all the time too, so what we find exciting right now might be replaced by a new passion a few years later. (Michelle Lin)
Sure it's always drawing but the process and the industry can be different, indeed. What you need to take into consideration is whether you'll want to be alone at your table for months, or do you'll need to be in a team. Do you want to control everything or is it okay to be a small part in a pipeline? But the good news is, all these fields are not walled from one another. A lot of people do animation but also illustration and comics, for example. Young artists maybe should start by whatever attracts them and where there is the most opportunities, then see what they like or not. Life is for trying out! (Auérelie Neyret)
I think it is great to experience diverse art fields when you are still young. Some of my friends come from other fields like transportation design or graphic design. Even if they didn’t major something related to animation or concept art, sometimes they have more ideas or skills in many unexpected way. Therefore, experiencing new fields has a lot of potential and can be even better than focusing on only one path. (Yewon Park)
I think it’s important to follow the path of what you feel the strongest about, but don’t be afraid that you’ll be stuck there because professional artists often wear many different hats and change direction throughout the course of their career. When you get to art school (if you end up attending) it is important to stay focused on your portfolio for just one major, but nothing should stop you from making multiple portfolios when you get out or taking different jobs. (Ann Marcellino)
Life drawing, life drawing, life drawing! I wish someone drilled this into my head when I was younger. Yes, it is boring to draw a bowl of fruit.. but it is necessary! It helps you learn form, shape, values, and more. Figure drawing is extremely helpful. Don't be afraid to study from artists that you admire. It helps you figure out many styles! Everything doesn't need to look perfect. Feel free to put your own unique spin on life drawing.. it makes it a lot more fun! Try to draw things in many different ways. There isn't one way to draw a bird. You can draw a parakeet in at least one thousand ways. I am sure they are millions! Lastly, remember that there will be bad drawings. If you are experimenting, studying, or trying to improve, you will start off with drawings that aren't your best. This is okay! This is expected! Keep practicing and it will train your brain to see better and to put the pieces together. You will get to the good drawings soon! Date you drawings so you can see improvement. (Naomi Romero) What are some of the things you have learned from other artists who you have worked with or whose work you have seen? To always draw, to take risks and not be afraid to fail. (Cline Deregnaucourt)
Never get too attached to your work or ideas when working with clients! Your favorite idea may be the least favorite for your director. Remember.. you are envisioning THEIR ideas, not yours! Also, life drawing is so essential! It is like water to artists! (Naomi Romero) Did you go to an art school or are you self taught? How did you develop your skills? Both! I spent one year studying the basics of drawing in an art school in Lyon, named Emile Cohl. But I wasn't good enough at that time so I didn't make it to the next year. It was a very competitive school and I think it wasn't the good way to approaching it for me. Too much pressure gave me art blocks, so I wasn't making progress much. The funny thing is that when I left the school and I started drawing for fun again, without grades, I finally started to apply what I had been learning. I guess it depends on people, I personally need to explore and just draw for the sake of it to develop skills. So I just kept drawing, I took part into online challenges on forum and such, I shared my drawings asking for feedback.. I love learning while having fun, so I try to keep it up and question myself a lot, trying to improve all the time. (Aurélie Neyret)
Many art teachers and schools suggest to their students that a commercial artist should always work in one consistent style if they wish to have a healthy career. In your own experience, do you believe this to be true?
I beleve that artists should always be true to themselves. Of course, it is true that if you can be flexible with your style, you can get more jobs. I have always tried to adapt to any situation, but at the same time I have always tried to push a bit my style to my customers. The major studios need flexible artists, but at the same time they want unique artists in their field, and that's why it's not very easy to work for a major studio. In my opinion it is much easier to work as an independent cartoonist or illustrator. (Nicola Sammarco)
I ended up quoting too much so I'll make it easier to finish this post haha ^^; Mainly these are for myself~ A few quotes seem to apply to other things, not necessarily just art. ~~ I'm just really grateful for everyone who's been so supportive and understanding of my struggles haha Of course, everyone has struggles, just at different degrees. I probably would've collapsed without encouragement :)
Welp. I never finished that rendering. It took a lot longer than I estimated due to the fact that the board won't pick up any of the graphite... anyway, 'tis fine. I was depressed all day due to the guilt. Finally, the day is over. I was stressing so much Sunday night, even though I was working all day Saturday and Sunday... Now I must keep working to catch up. Today was such a mess I couldn't even clearly plan out a schedule. I stayed on campus all day today. Still didn't get much done though...? Side note, Cheritz is restocking the VIP package! Super excited to order it~ Can't believe I'm actually gonna order it lol Alright, I'm off to catch up on my notebook~
No no, not Mystic Messenger lol Yesterday I had My Milkshake for the first time, and I forgot to blog about it. Which reminds me, Biri treated us to Cream the other day~ I got a mini and a caramel macchiato shake. Her worker, Jorge I think?--the same one who served us the other time lol--served us again. It's so weird that we're like good friends when we entered lol well, of course because they were greeting Biri but it was such a warm welcome (even though she doesn't really like the manager LOL) It was comfortable I guess you could say. I got a tummy ache after... probably because of my weird combos of ice cream flavors lol So yesterday I craved Johnny Rockets' milkshake, but they didn't have sea salt caramel anymore. So when we went to Safeway, I couldn't help but go to MM. We looked at the menu from outside. I finally decided to get the Hulk that Leo told me to try. Walked in and guess who~ it was the DC cutie twins! and one of the Joe West RHA members lol Gosh, must they always work at the same place at the same time? LOL One is always nicer than the other~ the other one is alway so quiet/too cool lol The one who's always nicer seems to be the one who dyes his hair more? We walked in and can you tell it was our first time? Because he asked that LOL so nice~ too bad he didn't take my order... the RHA dude did lol but the other twin made my order~ (he doesn't smile as much as his brother). Anyway, glad to see them again LOL and the milkshake was really good! I got another tummy ache though... lolol Welp! I should be rendering my cube right now. Seeing my progress, it's probably going to take me a total of 7 hours just to put down tone on all the planes. Then another 5-ish hours to gradate? Probably longer too xD Ah I got distracted because I was thinking of a watermark; I want to do an Asian seal kind of thing. A small square stamp-like. I figured I could make one digitally, but I suddenly wanted a legit stamp LOLOL it's like $5 for a custom 0.5"x0.5"square stamp. I wonder if I'd really use it... lolol
written on Friday, September 30, 2016 @ 10:09 PM ✈
The one who worked on "Legend of Korra".... and directed... his very... first film... "Voltron"... introducing... Steve Ahn! He was so funny! Though I'd like to type in detail his jokes, I'm really tired right now. Class in the morning for 6 hours, then another 3 hours at his presentation. Of course, I enjoyed it. I might include some later haha [[check notes]] I was thinking about writing a super long post on everything he said, but... I'm tired and lazy haha A few things I just want to say is about his closing. "Have your own intentions in your artistic journey." "Don't pick a dream because you fear your true dream won't make it."(may not be exact words, but same meaning) His experiences were just too relatable. He was told he would never be accepted into an art college because he had too little time to prepare a portfolio (he was a junior in high school when he decided) and he just started going to a private art class. A year later, he was accepted into Cal Arts; it was also the only school he had applied to after high school due to somewhat "destined" reasons. A portfolio of over 300 works. Not the best, but showed lots of passion, hard work, and dedication. I think that's what really inspired me. Just like me, he didn't think he would choose the art path due to parents' expectations. Just like me, we decided to go into art in our 3rd year in high school. Just like me, he was inspired by anime (though technically he was just watching a basketball anime when he suddenly had the thought "I want to make something like that," and I had the same thought when I was watching the behind-the-scenes for Howl's Moving Castle.) When my experiences relate so closely to other artists, I feel like I can make it... just like them... So just like them, I have to work and not be lazy. Even when I'm surrounded by talented people (a 1st year is drawing Disney-styled (to me) characters!), I feel a lot of pressure, but that same pressure is what's pushing me, too. Dreams... so much talk about dreams lately lol Even Yoosung brought up dreams. "What I fear the most is that nothing will change even as time passes me by." "... no matter how fun the activity may be, it's difficult to be 'passionate' about something on [your] own." "Is it sad to not be able to do what you want? or... Is it sad not to know what you want?" This topic is difficult... but the start of one's dreams is something one must figure out on their own... Welp, I guess I'm going to shower. Maybe render a bit... Goodnight.
written on Wednesday, September 28, 2016 @ 1:44 PM ✈
The week seems to go by pretty fast? It's already Wednesday. I don't have homework that I need to rush for next class... but my neck hurts and I wanna just lay down. And my stomach hurts a bit; glad it came before the wedding though. It's next week. omg.
I think I'm handling work slightly better? If I spend the rest of this week doing catch-up homework, I should be able to catch up by next week. Then I just gotta stay on top of things. How many times have I said that? Haha.
I was pretty distracted in class today. I kept thinking about charms again... and I was thinking about an MCx707 charm. You see individual RFA member charms, and ships within the RFA charms, but not really with MC... Hm... I have an idea in my head but I just know it won't come out exactly like that LOL I also was thinking about a collab store with Nana and Moe, but don't know if they're down for it hehe not like I asked though. We may all be too busy...
On a side note, spending so much, I'm planning on a summer job in SJ. I mean, well, since I have an apartment here, might as well make use of that.
Ah, I already don't know what else I wanted to mention....
Yesterday I was doing my ANI 50 masterwork project. Everything was going super dandy... until I realized I cut the bottom of the board an inch too much... OTL I was so disappointed. It was 2:30 in the morning. Luckily it was an inch only so I moved the pictures up and made the top and bottom border 1.5" instead of 2". Oiii, and Lizz was just talking about following directions...
Well that's all I guess? Oh, and also that grayscale? It didn't pass. Technically. I don't have to re-do it, but I hate how it didn't pass. Other than there were like 2 values that seemed similar and "crushed" texture in the 2 darkest squares, there was no other problems; Inga kept praising my craftsmanship so why didn't it passsss ToT I think I put a lot of pressure on myself to do well in a course I've taken...
Ah, I'm tired. There's something nagging in the back of my mind, but since it's not revealing itself, I'ma take a super duper short nap before class. Zzzz
-- EDIT: While I'm on break in class right now let me just say: I thought I got my life together only to find it falling apart right now. Okay, so it's not that dramatic LOL but my masterwork project that I was pretty proud of despite the border problem? Well, the problem increased because I messed up on the borders on the images toooo! On top of that, I just remembered that I didn't do the 20 cubes for ANI 12, but I still have the cubes from last year. Sigh. And here I thought I finished all my homework early. Lesson to be learned: I will never finish homework and not need to rush it before the class. -- EDIT2: I remember! It was about Uta no Prince-sama's 4th season. Omgee it's coming out on Oct.1! I cannot wait for all those collab releases between HEAVENS & STARISH <3 There's also another anime movie coming out called "Koe no Katachi," by the director of "Kimi no na wa." Heard it's gonna be sad~ but a good movie.
written on Tuesday, September 27, 2016 @ 1:46 AM ✈
Just wondering... if my urge to work comes from because I'm spending so much? Lol I feel like I'm trying extra hard in school to make up for spending all my money LOL. At the same time, I just want to do well this semester and not repeat the same mistakes from last semester, so that after working so hard, I just want to reward myself. Haha it seems like a cycle. This morning I skipped ANI 28 because I had work to do for ANI 50 and 12 & I worried I wouldn't have time. Guess what? Ended up finishing maybe 2 hours earlier. Maybe shouldn't have skipped class... kinda guilty about it. It kinda throws me off a bit too... Welp. Let's keep trying to catch up! Ugh. Today was ridiculously hot. 101... whut. Waking up too early this morning when I slept at 3... oh yeah! After ANI 50, I helped Lily with her shadow, Jassimaran and Michelle with their transfer papers. In ANI 12, I asked Michelle if she could send me her notes. She's so adorable~ and dude, I saw her planner. Damn. It was so neat. She has this lil' box for her goals and then of course homework and to-dos. They looked like those really pretty notes by those Korean students on IG. Was going to read and take notes, but my hair's dried now, so I'ma nap! On a side note, I suddenly really really want Kaori Wakamatsu's art book ToT I saw it at Kinokuniya but didn't think I wanted it. Then I did.... but let's save that money for the VIP package //cries// I also tried Daiso's charcoal nose strips. It smelled weird, but not too bad... but bad after a while. I can't tell if it did any good but when I took it off, my nose was left with the sticky black residue from the strip. I don't even know if I waited long enough; it felt like it was coming off so I decided to take it off. Also, first presidential debate for 2016. How was it? From what I've heard/read, seems like it can be summarized as a "child's argument"? *shrugs*
My mind's a mess right now after almost 4 hours of re-rendering the grayscale. Currently at the library. Still have lots of homework to do, and doesn't seem like I'll be anywhere close to finishing any time soon, but here I am taking another break.
Yesterday I took the bart to Jen's. Then we went over to Coach's place to finish up with last minute decorations and stuff. After an hour or two, we headed out to Japantown~ First stop is always Daiso: we didn't buy much. Haven't bought stationery in a while. Then we headed over to Kinokuniya. They don't sell Tsukiuta Neko version anymore! I'm so sad... At first I didn't buy anything, but it feels off to not splurge when I'm at J-town lol so after looking at another cute store and eating a 'happy face' crêpe, I went back to Kinokuniya to buy at least one charm LOL me and Jim went while Jen was still at Face Shop. Jen ended up spending $200 :o I bought 2 charms~ a Tsukiuta standee (I will never get Rui :'D) and this random charm on sale lol
I also told them about my plan to sell charms and stuff; they said it sounds do-able! Well, I hope so too ^^;
Then we bought lots of sushi takeout and my udon at Mr. Teriyaki and ate dinner at Coach's, where we stayed and worked longer than planned. Since it was so late, I ended up staying over instead of coming back to SJ. Woke up early in the morning and Jim took me back. We didn't shower last night, so she showered at my place haha. I wanted food from Mr.T café, but nope, the lady didn't show up on time ToT I napped on the way back; I was turning for a long time last night before sleeping. Must've been the coffee. Hm.
Ahh, I made up my mind. To buy the RFA VIP package. The deal of selling the rest probably doesn't hold anymore... lol I think I'm probably gonna keep everything. There goes all me money T0T
Ah. I got distracted looking up suppliers for other products, influenced by this artist/seller from Berkeley. Kill me nowwww. Welp... back to homework. May be leaving soon.. gotta eat that dinner!
written on Friday, September 23, 2016 @ 12:17 AM ✈
Dreams grow haha I'm doing my drapery study right now. I should've been done already, but I got distracted looking up stickers and other products. It saddens me when I'm not at the level of making prints... Nevertheless, charms and stickers seem fun~ I'm a fan of buttons, but not really making buttons... LOL. I was telling Steph again because she asked if I was gonna do die cut or kiss cut stickers, so I was telling her my plan. She said "well, I'm free everyday" ahaha I love her xD She'd definitely be my business partner (sort of). I showed her a screenshot of someone's packaging and said "if our dreams ever come true" and she replied with Frodo(?) with heart eyes. If only I spent as much time on product research as I have on school work -sigh- On a side note, I finally made the decision to buy 2 Tsukiuta charms from Soumeki@storenvy. About $19 >x< I had to make the choice to buy only 2 instead of 4. Wow... I actually did it. Kind of don't want the VIP package anymore... but I'm really having war in my head right now because the "Top Secret" handbook that comes with it is apparently a concept book that I also want ToT and V's business card is super nice~ -cries- Wasting more money... ToT
written on Wednesday, September 21, 2016 @ 1:35 PM ✈
Last night I stayed up late when I could've avoided that. I went to sleep around 3 because I was working on my B/W masterwork. I would've started around 12 or 1, but ended up talking to Steph about selling charms, and then the flow just wouldn't stop, and me & Steph were brainstorming so much ahaha She said "YES. DO IT. I will package everything for you because I have nothing to do and I'm bored" or something along those lines lol We talked for almost 1-2 hours? I really want to; I mean, I even went as far as to contact some vendors LOL They were really nice about everything and oooh~ just thinking about it makes me jittery haha I wonder when that time will be... I was so sleepy this morning that I took a nap during break (not really a nap because I was still conscious, but at one point I may have really fallen asleep ^^' ) I think work is done... luckily there isn't much to do for ANI 12 but to fix my cube. For ANI 50 (the B/W masterwork), I kinda BS-ed it :p will end up fixing that plus the other files later too... I was looking up 'egg & toast' for some ideas for Steph's pin(?) and the pictures looked really yummy! Then I looked on YT for recipes and ooooh~ I wanna cook LOL Aiyah, better go fix that cube, but I think I'ma make a sandwich. Peace! xP
written on Tuesday, September 20, 2016 @ 10:56 AM ✈
It's almost 11am and I'm crying over here what the heck. It's an hour of Pokémon on kissanime, eps 42-43. Wow. Why did I start? I actually cry pretty easily lol I cried as soon as they showed Citron & Citroid (sorry for using their Japanese names; I'm only watching the subbed) I cried when Puni-chan started talking about why he believed humankind, when he listed all the "great things [he has] seen": cooperation. great efforts. happiness. beliefs. goals. progress. never give up... This probably wouldn't have triggered if they didn't show Citroid "dying" again and didn't play that sad BGM lol I cry when characters achieve what they thought they couldn't, or what they worked hard for; I cry because I'm happy for them... WOW I'M EMOTIONAL LOL Alright, short random rant done. Really need to study now
I cannot believe... that I want to buy more acrylic charms. Everything is so expensive though! (well, mainly shipping. the charms itself are only $5-8; but, they add up to a hefty amount ^^; ) Seeing these charms, I'm looking into making/selling my own charms! Of course, when I do any better on my art LOL I want to be a con artist... not the scamming ones! lol Some 1st years were talking about how getting a table during a convention was "goals." I've always wanted to too... lol selling online was also one for me. Since I'm so tempted, I'm asking the others if they want to buy any merchandise from this one Facebook page, that way shipping is much more worth it. I'm looking at charms from 2 different people so I'm debating... also, there's the problem that I've been wanting Birdy's hoodie and also planning on that RFA VIP package... Everything excluding Birdy's hoodie is ending pre-order in Oct. or starting (pre-)orders in late Sept./early Oct. The moment to make the decision? On a side note, I finally put up my Uta no Prince posters! Though Syo fell this morning, and I almost creased it lol Looks nice! but my side of the room looks so "otaku" LOL Me & Steph were talking last night while I was decorating, that everything I have are brighter/lighter colors compared to her darks and grays LOL Her side is more "aesthetic" while my side is cutesy lol Yesterday I was being so productive! It was a long day, but as usual, it ended as a good day ^^ I should have studied for my HIST midterm yesterday, but I got distracted (-ahem-, charms) The day is starting out differently than I planned, but I'll make it work. Well! Better study now! By the way, INFINITE's 'The Eye' is on loop lol I freakin' love the dance though~
written on Sunday, September 18, 2016 @ 10:43 PM ✈
Today was ridiculously hot omg. The heat made me sick; I felt like throwing up and had a headache. Did not feel well at all. Or maybe I worked too much too... lol When I got back Saturday night, I worked on the grayscale 'til I finished the 1st pass; slept at 2:30am. I woke up around 5:30am (didn't get out of bed 'til 6am though) to completely finish it. I don't know if it'll pass though, but I'm glad I finished that. I went back to sleep around 7:15am. I planned to wake up around 9:30. Couldn't, so I reset my alarm to 10:30. I didn't get up 'til 11. The grayscale was the most time-consuming so it's a good thing I finished that. Then I worked on ANI 50 stuff and finished pretty fast (if you count 1-3 hours fast lol). Then worked on ANI 12 stuff again, finished half. And BS-ed ANI 28, brick drop. Uh, I think it'll look like crap > < I have to wake up early in the morning to go animate it... -sigh- Anyway, now I have time to catch-up with as much stuff as possible! I guess it's ANI 28 readings first... then ANI 50 daily sketches & research... and lastly ANI 12 notebook. I really need to get that notebook done; it was what failed me last semester omg. Today was also Day 11 for Mystic Messenger. I CANNOT. OMG. Though I really want to jump in and play a 2nd route, I think I'ma take a break from it to focus on work. By the way, I've been thinking of getting the RFA VIP package because I really want the CD/DVD. If I did get it, I'd probably sell the other stuff, but I might be tempted to keep it LOL (it's $79+shipping = $90) Everyone says it's really worth it, but if I had to treat this purchase as "a treat to myself," I would rather get Birdy's hoodie as a treat lol I guess we'll see by October if I can't still find a download somewhere...
I do always refer to Espey as our Queen. hehe. It's the cycle of life.... Espey's been with us since we were kids; she watched us grow up. Sadly, today was her last day with us. For a few weeks or so, she has been sick. There wasn't anything the vet could do as s/he said she was old. I think she had an IV treatment though. Yesterday was my last day to see her. It scared me when she started to have her episodic seizure. We thought she was a goner then and there. Amazingly, she made it to today. Jen was able to get to her in time to see her during her last moments. They took her to the vet to put her to sleep. Espey was our first pet to be put to sleep I believe. All our pets were outside pets. When the cats feel like its their time, they quietly leave without us knowing. We know they will never come back when they don't return from a few weeks to a month. Even during her last moments, I believe Espey wanted to hide away and live her last days hidden from us. It feels odd now without her there...
written on Saturday, September 17, 2016 @ 12:47 AM ✈
I am super sleepy right now... early class is one thing, but so is this heat. On a side note, Mystic Messenger is escalating! (Yoosung route, Day 9) Like... wow. So much anticipation lol Right now waiting for Jim and Jo to come pick me up. I'm going home for a day, probably be back Saturday afternoon? Well, let me tell you about today. I may have posted something about this last year (or not) about my teachers. I really love SHM and the A/I major really. I think it was Jo/Flora/& Callum talking about the major, how we're like a big family. John was the dad, Inga the mom, Lizz our crazy fun aunt, Dave Chai the wacky uncle, Brandon the younger brother/uncle, Sheldon the stepdad, Bunny & Courtney the grandparents. Pretty much the major (well-known in the program) professors. And I was thinking "wow... that is so true." ---oh. they're here. gotta go! will finish tonight-- Well, fuck. Excuse the language. I was super pissed off when I realized I left my dirty laundry in my suitcase at the apartment; I only found out when we reached Stockton. I was just mad at myself for doing something so stupid. It sorta stressed? me out too I guess, and I've already been stressing too much. It took me a while to calm down; I calmed down after my shower. I really shouldn't let small things piss me off like that. To be honest, I was thinking about how I'd blog about that, when I was in the shower, and it had a lot more anger and f-bombs haha. But since I'm fine now, it's not necessary for them f-bombs. On a side note, I just re-read a few of the earliest posts. I CRINGE. My grammar and spelling was really off (not counting the text shortcuts), but even the content was ew. But hey, that's how a crushing 5th grader feels like LOL //hides in shame. -- I'm a little lazy to continue the previous post about my A/I family. Maybe next time... Ugh, I really want Birdy's hoodie, but it's now $77 ToT maybe I'll just get a sticker or something for my laptop... I guess I also hesitated on the hoodie because he said it might shrink if put in dryer... and if I'm gonna wash it, I will need to dryer it. Well, I could also hang it to dry.... -sigh- Well, most of his products are out-of-stock anyway. Maybe price will lower later? (his green hoodie was $65 last year...) Me & Steph were also looking at Mystic Messenger charms. They're so cuteeee! I really want, but it's like about $16 +shipping... = about $19... must resist! ToT Guess I just gotta satisfy myself with my own handmade ones haha -sigh- I was trying to finish my grayscale... but I guess it's not happening. Good night.
written on Friday, September 16, 2016 @ 12:50 AM ✈
I cannot believe I did this to myself... I watched 2 things today, and I ended up crying so much. I don't understand why so much for Pokémon but omg Citroid ToT darn AIs... Then I watched Futatsu no Kurumi & it's about the Tokyo bombing in the 1945. The art isn't that great, but damn that story line... and I kinda guessed the ending. I cried hella for this one. I'm still finishing 5cm per sec; there's like 3 "episodes" in it. Well, I had a whole plan to do and finish homework today but going to University Art & OSH took longer than I thought. When I got back, I was working on my icons for ANI 50, but that stupid airplane... > > After class, I attempted the plane again, gave up, and started working on the grayscale. Didn't accomplish anything today *cries* I'm still going home tomorrow though~ Also, almost everyone in POLARIS was on Facebook chatting today~ it felt nice~ ^^ It's been a while since we were all talking. What else... I had something to say... Aish forgot. Either way, I'm off to finish homework for tomorrow. Let's hope for a better plan in the future for my workload (aka next week/this weekend) The second I remembered I came back! Lol it was really about the animes I need to watch. Norn9 is completed, and I still need to watch Amnesia. Then there's Bakuman! that I was going to watch to motivate me -merong- lol Okay, I'ma wash the dishes and finish homework!
written on Thursday, September 15, 2016 @ 12:47 AM ✈
It seems to be like that lately; even though I'm really stressed, I end my Mondays & Wednesdays feeling really good/happy. ((I noticed because I talk a lot... haha)) I was working on my renders all day but we didn't even critique the 1st cube render, and the grayscale wasn't even due. During our mechanical cube critique though, Inga had to start at mine lol she asked it it's okay if she can "butcher" and "destroy" my homework. I just smiled and nodded, but it was the most uncruel butchering LOL she hardly criticized it much, other than 2-3 things, so I felt good about that. Also, Callum and Jo were critiquing grayscales. Callum said mine was really smooth; Flora said the same thing about my cube rendering in ANI 28 this morning :D よかった~ ^//w//^ My most stressful classes are finally over, but the workload is literally piling over /cries/ That horoscope was right: I did need to make a list of things-to-do to stay organized. It'd be crazy if I managed to finish everything by Friday so I can go home. Can I? I wish.... -sigh- I've been waking up pretty early this week, and sleeping super late... -sigh- Have to wake up early in the morning to go out and buy bricks and more paper > > On a side note, I really want Birdy's hoodie~ ToT ++ We had mooncake today! Bc Steph said it was molding D: but it was only the Napoleon brand; the Wing Wah one didn't mold because it was sealed whew. For once, we were all in the living room so we were chatting. That was nice. Andddd I can't keep my mouth shut xP why do I talk so much. wow. I have to sleep now. Long day tomorrow, and I'm going home Friday! and coming back on Saturday. I may be able to finish most of the homework by Friday... except for my brick drop animation.... and then spend Saturday night and all of Sunday reading and catching up on notes... -sigh-
written on Tuesday, September 13, 2016 @ 1:46 AM ✈
I did it again.... I didn't sleep 'til 3am ToT and I was up around 6:30am too~ (but didn't get UP 'til 7:45am) I was stressing for ANI 12 again... but thank goodness Inga is so lenient this week! Better take this chance to catch up. I drank almost 4 cups of coffee today; it still doesn't taste good. I don't know if it's the coffee or if it's because I didn't go into deep sleep that I'm not sleepy... which is a surprise. I also felt shaky in class at the end of the day; don't know if it's the caffeine or nervousness... Also, the 'Match Squares' that I barely finished before class the other day... passed on the first try! :D There was a fire (drill) during class. We were out in the cold for almost an hour! ... and there was no fire... but the firefighters did come though. I'm still thinking this year won't be too bad because I'm talking to people in classes ^^ The first years are really fun~ I was freezing in the cold because I didn't have a sweater and Jassimaran and Jenica(?) huddled up next to me to keep me warm~ ^u^ I've only talked to them 2 or 3 times though, but they're both really chill~ POLARIS spent the the rest of the day talking about MM haha I guess we're all playing~ I really hope Cheritz releases some kind of game soundtrack like other otomes do, especially the BGM~ Omg can you believe Sirius (johjune's friend) sang the ending to Yoosung's route with Han?!? I want clear & full versions~ I would love to talk all about MM haha but that would be too much to say lol MM sure does give a lot of good life advices... haha I'm fully flirting with Yoosung *insert laughing-crying emoji* Ah, been listening to Amber & KSUKE's Breathe Again. EDM, breh. For some reason, I want to do some kind of choreo for it... I have images in my head, but I don't know how to execute it... but I think I will attempt it... hahaha It was a long day, but a good day as soon as the stress was gone for the day. I feel like I was so tense all day today, and as soon as the day was over, I kinda just let it all go and I became full of energy, so I kept talking to Steph about things that happened today. .... and when I'm full of energy and suddenly talk about a topic I'm into... I just won't stop talking and get this short adrenaline rush LOL Well, other than that, it doesn't seem like I remember what else I wanted to say ((probably because I got distracted re-reading my posts; I did grammar corrections haha)) Yesterday while working, I was watching 37.5°C Tears,and I didn't know I was gonna end up crying at the end of each episode. I stopped on like ep4. I should've known with the word "tears" in the title... Hm. Well, I'm not gonna let this lost thought bother me. Time to rest!
written on Sunday, September 11, 2016 @ 11:33 AM ✈
You guys are both right; POLARIS is more than just a name... a group. Thank you for responding to my post. I guess I was getting doubtful, and my pretty optimistic self was becoming pessimistic with thoughts about POLARIS. Our journey here. The problems we had on the road haha I always thought, too, that even if we disbanded, we'll always still be POLARIS, and every memory made then, will be kept away in a secret place within ourselves. I reminisce a lot... haha quite often actually. I don't even remember how many times I re-watched our covers. It's because I worried that being in the group may be a burden to some members, but hearing (reading) your thoughts, you guys relieved me from all this doubt :) I did cry though (not bawling) when I was reading Nana's post, because I was also listening to this song. He covered the song from Jason haha Just like Biri's quote I used in her painting, "good friends are like stars; they are always there but you don't see them." You guys are my stars... that make up the North Star... and whenever I'm lost, I'll know where to look. I love you guys.
written on Saturday, September 10, 2016 @ 9:41 PM ✈
So I painted the sunflower "field" for Biri, and she liked it! :D Also, she recognized that the quote was from her IG haha. Happy happy~ Now off to actually do homework. Finally finished Maji Love Live 5th Stage after 3-4 days... wahhhh sad.
Ah, today's Saturday. The first football game for SJSU. Bea, Biri, and LeAnn went, but me & Steph stayed home. Originally to do work, but I ended up spending the last 4 hours painting a canvas for Biri. I felt like I had to give her something... she's like sooo nice TuT It's in acrylics and literally my first time painting with acrylics and on canvas. It actually didn't turn out too bad. Then I used my micron pen 03 to write a quote I found on her IG. It looks printed because of the ink quality; I messed up on the writing though ToT in some places. I still, and will, need to catch up on work and make sure I have everything done by Sunday. I woke up this morning around 9:30am to turn off my alarm, played MM, and then went back to sleep, not deep sleep, because I got up around 11? and started finishing the last 2 volumes of Bakuman! I was literally tearing up because, wow, they finally reached their dreams :') Steph made me this yummy mushroom omelette~ but she didn't put salt xD Yesterday me & Steph were out for so long after class. We went to Wal-mart to pick up my cork strips in Milpitas; we got back to SJ around 9:30pm and then had dinner at Johnny Rockets. I love Johnny Rockets *3* We were freezing cold haha. This lady who stood behind me in line at Wal-mart asked about my shirt; I was wearing the maroon Anoki Ouchii shirt. I am like a walking advertisement for them lol but I didn't advertise this time like I did last time at Costco. They should sponsor me haha When we finally got home, Steph mopped and I organized my bbys~ They are all nicely pinned up on the cork strip above my headboard. It's a lot shorter in length and depth of the cork, but it still works. I also finally put up my whiteboard. Next up is my Uta no Prince-sama posters~ Aside from that, me and Steph are still playing MM and omgee I can't anymore haha. The game is going to start focusing on a route. "Talking" with them, it's kinda relaxing and always makes me laugh (or stressed), but since they're not real people, I don't have to worry too much about hurting anyone's actual feelings LOL I see Yoosung as Jo (YS plays LOLOL and Jo plays LoL ahaha); Jumin as Jen, because they're both crazy for cats. Speaking of cats, Espey's sick :( She apparently has kidney failure. Jim said, the choices were to prolong her life, or put her to sleep... I don't know... Right now, they're taking care of her in Gramp's house... Also, I hate BigHit LOL yesterday I was looking at 'things you (probably) didn't notice...' for their short films. It gave me the creeps. I had goosebumps up and down my body, it was crazy. But I want to read Demian... and The Little Prince. ~~ Well those weren't really thoughts huh? Actually, thoughts have been running through my head a lot when I'm with Steph, just because I'm not really sure what she's thinking... and I'm always worried that she's actually annoyed at me or something? (because I talk a lot... sometimes ^^; I actually can't/don't know how to explain what exactly I mean) When she's loud, she's loud. When she's quiet, she's quiet. People are like that, but it always feels like we're drifting on two separate icebergs next to each other when we don't talk. It's nothing too negative though; I just worry about what other people think about me-- about my actions-- too much. I don't let it bother me though. We live very different lives (of course), but that's why it seems so hard to live together at some points. I don't know where I'm getting at. Maybe nowhere, really. In general, we're very different, but in some ways, we are quite similar... it's interesting being born 4 days apart. On a side note, I've been thinking about POLARIS. There was no comeback this summer, even though I really hoped we would, and we even attempted a first practice. But nothing happened after that... there were plans that were exchanged, but we all knew they weren't going to happen. I may have posted about this before --or at least along the lines-- but POLARIS is starting to become (or is) a name that's only binding the group together (not that we really need to have a "binding name") with no actual reason of why we're POLARIS anymore. I'm thinking... maybe we should disband? It's like not necessary... but we're always on an indefinite hiatus... so I'm wondering should we just bring up disbanding? That way, there's no unnecessary pressure, especially for our leader ;; However, if breaking up is even worse, then I don't mind continuing POLARIS. But what's best? Ah, I always end up writing too much, even though I didn't plan too ^^'
I felt sleepy so fast.. like around 10:30 I couldn't even keep my eyes open. Busy day tomorrow. I know I had something to say... but I forgot... Maybe along the lines of Mystic Messenger? Me & Steph started to play! haha. I can't believe... it's pretty addictive. It really feels like you're talking to a bunch of guys. I also can't believe me & Steph have very very similar tastes haha (ie. going for the same guy), but at the same time, not really. Oh right! I was gonna say I went to watch Kubo and the 2 Strings tonight! at Camera 12 before it shuts down, not to mention it's Kubo's last week up in theaters. So many people came to watch movies on Cam12's last day of business... the line was somewhat long so I missed like 5-10min, or less, of the beginning... The theater was so hot and stuffy because A/C was down. I teared up so much during the last battle... I wonder how much more emotional it would be if it was in Japanese or Chinese... English is just not a very emotional language LOL Also, good thing I stayed for the ending because before the list of credits, they showed a quick behind-the-scene for the skeleton monster stop-motion. Pretty cool~ The young employee who was waiting for us to leave was really nice! He was so smiley, and happily greeted us as we left, bidding us 'good night' and whatnot. He was talking to some elderly about how Cam12 was shutting down, and he seemed sad too... But anyway, this is also the first time I went to the movies by myself! Going by myself, I focused a lot on the movie (because there was no one to talk to or distract me lol), but it was kinda awkward because I went when the movie already started so I couldn't see. Plus, I didn't want to use my flashlight because what if I disturbed someone? Okay, gotta sleep now. ZZzz
written on Wednesday, September 7, 2016 @ 11:44 PM ✈
(Post title does not refer to the LGBTQIA community lol) Last night was a crazy train wreck of stress. Why did I do that to myself? I slept at 4am, woke up at 7:15am, and worked pretty much non-stop 'til before ANI50 (which is at 3:30pm). Got back from ANI12 around 9:40pm-ish? I'm amazed I wasn't falling asleep. Guess that bland coffee this morning helped. Although it was a lot of work, and my back kept hurting throughout my last 2 classes (because I was bent over my work for long periods of time), I noticed this semester may be more enjoyable, even with a larger workload for me. I don't know how well I'll handle this load... but if I stay on top of things, I should be able to. Flora is in my morning and night class; she's my TA in ANI12. I'm so glad to have her there because she's there when I'm stressing or if I have questions. She's always been there since I met her in ANI12, it's crazy <3 Not to mention, ANI28, in which I was pretty scared for because I don't talk that much with people there, I'm starting to talk to more people. Ange, even though I also met her in my 1st year, we never talked ever since our walk back to the dorm after Geography. She's super chill/cool, even though she seems pretty goth & emo haha but she's really funny and nice too. She gave me a cookie this morning during break ^u^ and we talked about random stuff. School stuff. Her reaction to this transfer who low-key has a crush on her ahaha. To be honest, I was embarrassed that I had to retake ANI 12 even though I know it's for my own good. It's like, I didn't really want my classmates to know that I failed John's class. But I wasn't the only one. Plus, everyone was understanding about retakes and needing more time to learn the skills and whatnot. It was actually thanks to Flora's text that I started to relax about the idea of re-taking. The only person who knew was Arlene. Taking ANI 12 again is really making everything I learned 1st semester with John sink in even deeper. At first I was nervous because I added in late to the class; I took a random seat and this 1st year (I believe) sat down next to me. It's only the second day I've been in the class. Today was the 1st day of in-depth notes and demos. Not to be mean saying this, but she didn't really understand what Inga was demo-ing (Inga didn't even know what she was doing haha) and so was slow with notes. Since Inga's notes came from attending John's class, I already knew whatsup, but seeing her struggle made me think about myself in the 1st year, struggling to catch up with John's quick demos and notes. So I was glad to be able to help her. Other than explaining the demo and stuff, I'm not sure if I'm capable enough to help them. So I'm not that confident lol but I know what I can help with, and I will to my best abilities. It made me think, is this how the upperclassmen felt when they helped-and got to know-the 1st years? Though we never made an official introduction to each other. The way she acts kinda reminds me of Flora, like she even kinda looks like her? haha but also a lot shier than Flora xD On a side note, ANI50 was pretty good. (On the way to class though, I felt like throwing up--or felt sickly--after I rushed to flap my 'Match Squares' for ANI12. I don't know if it's because the stress and work was straining me making me feel sick but I stuffed that croissant hamburger in my mouth anyway) We got into the same groups again, and it was nice. After class, I had a little chat with Jassimaran and she was telling me about how scared she was because she didn't finish the cubes. Then I also had a chat with Sarah (I saw her back, but I didn't want to like say hi since we weren't that close. So I was gonna pretend I didn't know it was her; I was looking at the bulletin, and then she called my name so happily.) So we chatted, and she was telling me how she pre-ordered INFINITE's comeback album. It was kinda awkward because I didn't really know what else we could talk about. It was still good though. It's funny though; in the ART building, I part ways with people telling me 'good luck' or vice versa. Haha. Yup, we need all the luck we can get. I'm eating dinner right now; gonna go watch my MAJI Love Live 5th Stage (the download took like 4 tries; 15gb -.-). I still had the last bit of energy when I got home from class. I made dinner, cleaned the restroom sink, and scrubbed the bathtub because it was getting a 'ring' and ew. Me no likey. I also cleaned the toilet the other day. My eyes are starting to get hazy. Not yet tired but my eyes want to sleep lol I'm probably gonna read the "Salem Witch Hunt" before I sleep for my HIST15A quiz tomorrow. Or I could read it tomorrow morning... hm... [Comment reply to Jim: I didn't understand at first LOL but then I remembered: yes mom's teal rain jacket *insert laughing-crying emoji*]
written on Saturday, September 3, 2016 @ 11:28 PM ✈
Planned to do some homework here at Barnes & Noble. I drew a bit in my sketchbook, but then I didn't want to work anymore. I had a venti caramel frap. -- Back at home now because I got picked up. I saw Orion and John at B&N. We exchanged words but didn't talk too much, nor did I give 'em a hug :( Anyway, I was being very bored so I walked around the mall, but I'm not a fan of shopping lol After getting picked up, we went to the mall to buy spray paint. Ooh~ just need to go back to buy light blue and white spray paint & I can DIY backpacks~ what else... ugh, my bites are getting itchier. Just now I got super pissed, and it was all pent up and I needed to hit something, or something. I just needed to watch a video but searching it won't come up. It's on Jo's YT, so I tried to login. Couldn't get in because don't know her password. Tried her combos but none f*ing worked. Asked her but she only half-heartedly answered me and told me she don't know because she's too effin' busy playing LoL. UGH. I'm still kinda annoyed... to the point where I don't want to do anything anymore anyway -.- On a side note, there's still some days I need to catch up on. OOH. But today's dream was, oh my. Why was Michael in it xD I think it's because I watched a movie with a guy named Michael in it. Anyway, long dream short, I was pretty close with him? Like we were close friends. He came over to the house, and I was being slightly clingy in a best friend kind of way? "Camera" panned and he gave a surprised/shy/embarrassed look at me, because I "was tired" apparently and just leaned on him on our couch. Dream skip. It was raining outside. He said he had to go do something. For some reason he was wearing skin-tight, skin-colored shirt? of some sort and I was shocked and embarrassed to look at him. I tried to get his gray coat but couldn't find it. I went inside the room to get it. When I found it and came back, he was already getting in the car to go (he was picked up). I called his name. I thought he didn't hear me; I was gonna run out so I came back in to find shoes but couldn't find any, so I ran out in the rain in socks. The car had moved forward, but had stopped and he got out. My mom lent him her rain jacket? Weird LOL but I told him I had found his coat so he should wear it. He gave me an "affectionate"/surprised, like oh... look, and turned around. At first I was like "huh?" but then I took off his jacket and helped him put on his coat. I think that was the end of the dream... LOL but I was like omg what. LOL
because why not? lol I was going to make myself a sandwich (I don't know why I'm craving food... I'm not even hungry really...) but Steph made me nuggets lol I should've been doing homework, but after League, I got distracted and watched Pokémon. Eep. Lessee... yesterday was a workload. I woke up at 7am to go to the Pencil Test Lab to do my last minute animation. Then had class 'til 9:20pm. Yes 9:20 at NIGHT. Originally I had no night class. But after a few e-mails with a couple advisors, I decided to enroll in Inga's ANI 12. That's 4 ANI classes this semester... 15 units... I'm actually scared I won't be able to handle it, but I should be able to because I have free Tuesdays & Thursdays, until 3pm at least. 3 ANI classes on a Mon/Wed... ANI 28 was good--we had critiques; ANI 50 was pretty fun--we worked in groups & I met a few people but really only talked to 2. Everyone was pretty nice. I actually talked. Like, I wasn't too quiet, which was good; ANI 12 was fun yet boring. Boring because she was talking about the basics that I've learned (this is retake), but it's fun because Inga and them were telling stories too. Since I just enrolled, I have to do catch up work too. Hm. The first one to leave the apartment, the last one to come home. Ha. It was still a good day though :D I woke up this morning pretty sore still, from the gym (Mon), hip hop and walking (yesterday/Tues). I woke up around 10:30am, but laid in bed because I was still pretty tired. and was on my phone. Steph left for class and I spent the next hour and a half reading Bakuman! lol. When I got up, I realized I had a lot of red bumps. At first I thought they'd go away eventually, but nope. They were mosquito bites, and I had a lot. Then I headed out to bookstore and student union to eat with Steph. Then we went home, and I had class. Class went by okay today. Got home and started felting the penguins for Coach. Felted for like 3-4 hours? Around 7 something I think, John asked me to get his backpack from him so he can go to the YG concert (free concert for SJSU students). After the concert, around 10:30pm, he came by to pick it up. Better hurry and go do homeworks! but not tonight... I'ma sleep LOL. And wake up early tomorrow for class. After class, I'ma try to finish the bouncing ball and animate it before we leave. Also, to get Thirst Tea~ hehe. I think I'm forgetting stuff, but I gotta make sure I do me homework!
Whoops. Didn't mean to, but my plan didn't work out lol Got my coffee maker! And can make hot water~ wheee~ Got home, & ended up setting my printer up 'til class. Was going to go to the Pencil Lab, but I heard so many people inside I got scurred so didn't go. I think I need to go in the morning... sigh. Emoji Clan aka Adrian, Samantha, Jenny, & Linda came to visit. Kinda awk, but not really? I had to leave for hip hop. Hip hop was fun! I met up with the other half of Tater Tots, but there's no meeting on Thursday because of the free concert SJ is holding. We danced to "Cold Water;" the dance was fairly easy! I'm so sore... wow... super rusty. Me & Steph gymed yesterday too, just on the ellipticals for like 30min though. Still need to catch up posts, but I forgot about this. Jim was annoyed/angry when she and Jen were going home, about her cats and whatnot. I guess they got home & were still angry & weren't talking to each other, because next thing I know, Jobee Kakoed me and said "... ting im scareeddddddddd" and like what is she scared of? Because them two were hangry. Y'ALL SCARED THE BBY. She said she was gonna die, & I told her to just be a good girl haha Welp. I'm getting super distracted. I should hurry & do homework. I'm excited about my light board that's coming in Thursday~ Waiting for my books to come in & to pick up the cork strips. Still working on that future of mine. Apparently choosing a concentration helps with advising; I think I'll go with animation... though vis dev seems fun too (modeling, character design, background etc; the creative side)
I think I'm already stressing out. I'm already lagging behind a bit (actually caught up today) so let's keep working hard. I want to get on the ball this semester. I just submitted an application to On the Fourth by the way. I'm super scared if I even get the interview. On a side note, I bought a coffee maker + grounds + creamer~ *sigh* This is why I need money. I don't even know if I can work? because 3rd semester is coming up, which means portfolio review leading to only 2 studios recommended for future semesters, leading up to BFA. Wow. BFA. Seems so close *insert crying emoji* but there's still a lot of work to do. Which also means, somewhere in my 3rd/4th year summer, I should be working toward an internship... My future is so... dark. I don't know what lies in wait, but I mean, no one does really, right? Right now, I'm stuck with deciding between animation and visual development. I can't decide because I'm interested in both. But I should focus on the NOW. I have so much on my mind, so much to do. I need to FOCUS. ~ So far, living in the apartment has been great. I still find some moments awkward with everyone. Yes, even Steph, but with her, I'm not as tense?-ish. We all cook our own food, sometimes sharing. We deal with our own stuff. Lately, I've been out with Steph more than with the other 2, too. Laundry stole all my quarters ($4 total!). Learned to cook ramen for myself though! I think it's better because it's an electric stove. I should learn to cook stuff, but where's the time? I was so tempted to buy some sushi molds & whatnot at Daiso; I want to make bento rice/sushi/triangle onigiri etc, but I know I won't have time too (also, that I won't really at the moment). My table is still a mess; I can't really clean up 'til I get my cork strips and going home to get some Command hooks etc. I got my 1TB external drive today from Best Buy; super happy because I cleaned out my laptop! for the most part lol. Can you believe? Almost 200GB in the drive. There's still quite a bit of stuff in my laptop, but I don't think it'll be much stuff that I would want on an external drive. I downloaded LoL. I don't know if it can run at speed though LOL I really want to sleep right now, but LoL is still updating. I guess I'll leave it on. Heading out to Target tomorrow! I have so much going on, physically & mentally, that I don't even think I wrote down everything I was thinking about (which is every time I'm updating), but I sure do need to catch up on a few things that happened over the weekend. Also, today was embarrassing because Michael & I had a super awkward encounter! >///< "I'm embarrassed for life" --quote from my rant text to Steph haha. I said hi to him, but even before we were next to each other, to passing each other, you can feel there's a hesitation and indecisiveness of whether we should stop and talk to each other. He took out his earphone, but didn't stop so what was up with that? LOL because I kinda slowed & literally watched him walk by me. I WATCHED HIS BACK, for like 2 seconds lol. Steph's tummy is growling haha anyway, off to sleep for me~
Yes my baby~ I ended up buying his songs kill me nowww. Maybe around $4-5 total? His EP costed aroud $3.96, but that's all that shows up on my billing so I don't know. I was able to download one song from his Weibo (& I think it was free), but not the other, so I ripped it off YT, along with one other song. Another song I happened upon was hard to find, but I managed to find a Yukou link so I ripped the audio off that, but for some reason it's 7 min.. so I need to cut off some of it. Then I had to rip both of Meng Rui's song from YT. I found NINETY NINE'S Hibernation through a forum, & I managed to get his(?) whole album. I need to reorganize my music; rename and whatnot. [[I just ripped the instrumental of "Dream," & it is also 7min? But if I let it play, it plays correctly & at the end it's just silence 'til 7min are up. Once I scrub anywhere, it plays. Hmph. This isn't the first time.]] Also, gotta watch their fanmeets/interviews/backstages etc omgeeee P.S. While on music, let me mention that Love Live 5th Stage finally released on DVD so now I'm just waiting for download; omgeeee watching the concerts always gets me so happy~~~ I'm sad that I can't have any of IVVY's songs.... they only have 1 EP & 1 single on iTunes store... ToT **Next task is to download his videos where he performed various songs on the show, & to rip them too. Because he sang this song, I looked up the original~ Check it out here~ Here's my baby here~ Too bad he didn't sing the full 3-4min of the song :p On a side note, Adobe is freakin' messin' with me D:< The person who helped ended up not really understanding what I was asking for (I just read the e-mail today; I was assuming I was getting an e-mail by tomorrow). Which means I need to re-"purchase" Adobe, but it's not letting me because it says I'm not a student... I don't know if it's because I need to be using campus Wi-fi, but that shouldn't be the case. I could add the item to cart yesterday, when I was on campus though, so I'ma try tomorrow. -- Went to the ART building to do my animation. Yay~ first simple animation~ but sad I drew twice the number of needed frames so I wasted those extra pieces of paper ToT Afterward, me & Steph had Pizza My Heart for dinner. It was really good~ My gum really hurts; I don't know if it's because my wisdom tooth is coming out? But it's swollen & hurts ToT I didn't write much about today, but hope I didn't forget to write about what I wanted (ie. about the music & stuff, which I did). Wow, much distracted. Haven't read for ANI 28, & forgot about daily sketches. Yikes!
OMG. I just finished Uncontrollable Love 2. And omg. I hate this. Why is there an uncut version? Are they saving it for the happy ending version of the movie? Ugh. Now I got to wait. Maybe it'll be worth it... It was such a rollercoaster watching it. The ending was sad, but not to the point where I cried. I teared, but not to the point where others were bawling their eyes out. Now I'm looking for their songs. I can find all of 王博文/Bowen Wang's but not 孟瑞/Meng Rui's. MR only has 2 songs, while BW has quite a few releases, but other than the iTunes one and the ones from TrackID, there are possibly a few more tracks that he released but I'd have to dig for. His song "Dream" doesn't have an instrumental in the release, but they do play the whole thing at the end of the movie, so I'm probably going to try to rip it. Ugh, I think I'ma end up buying his albums *insert laughing-crying emoji* HALP. MR's discography is too hard to look for; BW is hard too, but I think I found most of them. Anyway, I really need to sleep; this week since school started, I had to wake up around 7:30 because of my 8:30 classes ToT Gah, the OST is gonna haunt me nowwww. At least his albums aren't too expensive haha
So an update on how school's going. First day of school was on Wed, and it went pretty well. To be honest, it felt like I didn't sleep at all, because suddenly I got up and checked my phone and it was 5am. I knew I was rolling around a lot; it felt like it was really hot but then get cold. I think I may have been actually pretty nervous (refer to prev. post). ANI 28 seemed pretty fun; I'm with a lot of my previous classmates. Not too many supplies needed, and not too expensive, but I have to buy this book that's pretty expensive if I bought new, but I bought a good used one. Twice, though, it got bought out before I ordered (I found a $18+ one, then a $19+, & ended up buying $24+ one). Then I tried to find a pretty cheap light table, & I did for about $31. Hopefully it's good. Peg bar & Col-erase pencils at the Spartan bookstore for about $7, and animation paper for $14.14 (bought today, because they ran out on Wed). After class, I bumped into Thomas who just got off of work since 6am (it was 11:20). He seemed so tired, and I was going to walk him back to his apartment, but I was meeting Steph at the lib. ANI50 was kinda scary because they were all first years (what makes them scarier is that they're so outgoing). Also, there's hecka transfers. There's only one other 2nd year I think, but I don't talk to him~ I don't need to spend much for this class either because I'm not buying the kit, since it's not required. Spent time at the library, saw Mouk bboying outside; that boy still thinks I'm Julia/e. Took my "First Day of School" class photo in both ANI28 & 50, omg Dave Chai xD I got kinda awk (to myself) when Uli came into 28, like did we have eye contact when he was at the door & me from the back of the room? Bc when I was coming to class, he was scootering by, but I pretended I didn't see, but out of the corner of my eye, I feel like he last-minute knew it was me & turned back a bit. Is he and Ray TAs for my 28? Hm. -- Today I tried to crash ANI 12, but wow, it was packed so I didn't bother to try. After buying the paper, I just went home and went back to sleep. I woke up around 1:19 to eat and go to my 3pm class. Class was kinda boring... lol -- I forgot to blog about Welcome Week Kickoff! which was Tues I think? Well that day Nancy was going to look for her classes so Jen came over, since she was off too. So we went and got some free stuff; watched my bbys Pitch, Please, perform~ & Pride of the Islands perform too. I'm so sad Hip Hop didn't perform... Oh yeah, at one point I was walking around alone & happened upon Pride's booth. Manny saw me & started walking over so I walked over & he gave me a hug. Talked very little & I left. When did we become good friends? haha. At the end of the day, we were sitting on a bench, waiting for PINK's raffle(?), and SHM were cleaning up their booth so some of them were leaving. I saw Uli~ okay, I saw that they were going to be walking past us, but I didn't want to stare at them as they do. Man, it was kinda awk (to my conscious self) bc I pretended to look away then back at them. Uli saw me and waved & I said "hi~" and waved, but his friend Ray was blocking him a lil (Uli's kinda small 'kay LOL) and I don't think he knew I was waving to Uli bc he awkwardly waved back LOL Kyaaa~ missed his adorkable smile ^///^ Yesterday I was uploading Pride's performance, so I was looking at the Running Man vids from before, and thought I'd send out to the respective "actors" LOL so I Snapchatted to them. Michael got back to me pretty fast lol Then he suddenly messaged "hey i wanna see u and biri soon" and I seriously went 두근두근 haha but I was so happy he missed us! haha 'cause I really missed him & everyone else~ (At Target night, while waiting in line, we saw Andres! omgeeee~) and he was like should he come over now --it was like 10pm-- and I told him Biri said he should come tonight and he said "haha ok ill go". d'awwww~ so he brought his roommate, who is also his high school(?) friend, Van (I feel like it's spelled like Vahn or something haha). He was pretty nice~ and not shy? haha They chatted in Biri's room for quite some time, then came in to our room to watch the video. And then I walked them out; Van was having trouble opening the door haha. I wanted to give them a hug before they left, but psh, his back was to me the whole time. Awww I missed him a lot keke It was just nice seeing him again~ [[I didn't finish typing but I left off at "oh yeah" but I don't know what I was going to keep writing about.... o.o]] -- [12am] There was a 12th floor reunion at Zeke's apt dorm, but when we got there, it was just Zeke's usual friends. The people I hoped to see weren't there, so it wasn't really a reunion. It was great to see Zeke again! Aww, I missed him. They were drinking & smoking. The RAs knocked, and I was worried we were gonna get in trouble, but they just wanted them to turn down the volume. Zeke though *insert laughing-crying emoji* He rushed to hide the bottle lol We didn't stay too long, maybe half an hour at most? But he asked if we had class. When I told him my class started at 8:30, he was like, "GIRL. What are you doing here then?" (read with emphasis on each word haha) & I told him it's because I wanted to see them & he was like aww xD When we left he gave me a really tight hug~ ^w^ To be honest though, I was really awkward with them, because other than Dario & Zeke, I'm not that close with Sarah or Leilani. I felt bad because it felt like LeAnn & Biri couldn't stay & party as "free" as they wanted. Oh yeah, before we went, Biri was craving ice cream, so she hooked us up at Cream. Her co-worker was super nice & wow. Big scoops xD He was super outgoing & really funny too~ Wow this post went on for way too long since I just felt like writing today. I think I missed out some stuff... (apparently in the paragraph before this) Maybe it was someone else I saw? I really shouldn't see people I miss. Because before seeing them, I'll just be thinking 'oh I kinda miss them' but when I see them and we say bye, I start to miss them a lot more LOL well, early morning class tomorrow with Sheldon. Need to shower. I think I cut down on a lot of my thoughts since Kickoff. I'll also need to post about some "internal struggle/thoughts" of mine since living here at the apt.
Ugh, I want to update so badly, but I need to sleep! I still need to read that darn book for history.... I'm splitting the rent price of the textbook with LeAnn, but we also need to get those other supplementary readings... (which reminds me, LeAnn said someone gave her a mint-colored mouse (or a mouse that was my style) & that I could have it if I wanted. I would, if I liked it (I haven't seen it), but I'd feel bad just accepting it from her, even though she didn't pay for it... but yeah. Maybe I'll hold off 'til I really need to buy a new one? even this mouse of mine, that I apparently loved, the cap keeps popping off) I was just shopping for some ART stuff. Trying to buy cheap since I don't need to spend as much this semester... I don't think so at least... 1st day of class was pretty good, but why do I feel like I'm forgetting to upload stuff online already... hm... Ugh. It's late & I didn't sleep last night bc I was paranoid about waking up late, nervous for class, & nervous about my M being here > >
Right now, we're all chilling in the new opened TeenHQ, but just got told that the room is for 12-18yo (luckily I'm still 18 haha) but that's so inconvenient hmph. Me and Steph just moved in this Saturday. We cleaned up quite well hehe I still have a box of my trash to deal with, but I'm doing the best I can with the limited space (no desk) of mine. Biri came back from home this morning & LeAnn moved in Sunday. I really hate our shower ugh. The water pressure is so low that I can't even lather enough shampoo into my hair -.- Been busy with doing lots of stuff before school starts (ie. Steph & her cards, SJSU welcome week events, etc); school starts in 2 days! I really don't like my schedule...? well, not until I get ANI 12, but it doesn't seem like I will bc his class is full... we'll see I guess. If I don't get that class, then I don't start my Tues/Thur 'til 3pm. I guess I'll get a job? Well, Steph keeps telling me I should get a job. She's making me applyyyyy >~< I was right: I won't remember what I want to say about "DmmD" or Love & Gelato lol but after reading L&G, it makes me want to visit Italy. They made Italy sound really pretty. But I mean, it must be lols On a side note, I finally got to satisfy my café coffee+cake at Empresso. I got my latte art; it was a small cup, but it looked medium. I was so full after the coffee. It was pretty good actually. The cake was disappointing; pfft, seeing all those professionally made cakes in AB made me have high expectations xD I guess I'll finally end things. Well, back to the story about that sudden Pokémon outing with Lee & his friend Alvin (let me mention that Alvin was really nice! That was what I thought when I got into the car-- okay, I said he was cool in the first 2 minutes I was in the car LOL-- He reminded me so much of Clarence. When Lee was going to take us home, he asked me if I wanted to sit in the front. I said it was fine & that he could sit back in the front. He said 'are you sure?' hehe) To be honest, I thought it was going to be really awk; it was only slightly awk, I mean, Lee even left me with Alvin at one point while we were catching Pokémon. Then Alvin said, "do you wanna go now, or stay here forever?" haha we went after Lee though. Then that same night, Robin came to pick me up. We went to watch Pete's Dragon & then went to eat at In n' Out. Hanging out with both of them in one day gave me a chance to "evaluate"? I guess? lol and there really wasn't much; it's bc I knew Robin for 4 years. We went to the same school, had the same class. So I felt more free to talk to him, but the way he talks gives me so much pressure. I even told this to Jessica and them, when we had flan at her place. It was really hard to bring up bc it's an awkward topic lol and I don't know what I wanted to achieve by telling them. Lee doesn't try; Robin tries too hard. I'm just so done. But after that day, I finally made up my mind (in like 2 days) to cut Robin off. If he wants to stay friends, that's fine. He keeps persisting on something more, well, I guess 'being friends' is off the list. I guess me unconsciously mentioning going out with Lee & his friend was my way of telling him he's just like any other guy FRIEND I have. Mom teased me about hanging out with too many guys haha Jojo claims I'm cheating bc I'm going out with both of them pft. (I already forgot about the so-called "other day" lol) But at least I came to a sort-of conclusion. I really need to get myself a boyfriend... -.- On another side note, I'm almost done with Bakuman! ! I'm kinda sad... haha guess it's time for the anime~
Hm. I just keep putting off the idea of writing here. I'm so lazy. Everything is piling up so that there's gonna be such a loooong post. Well, I finished DRAMAtical Murder. The ending... I can't believe I teared a bit and wanted to cry :'( but it was still really good. So happy for Aoba; for a second I really thought Ren was gone. The ending when Virus & Trip calls him again, I really couldn't figure out why he called "Sei" Ren. But after I looked up the Wiki, it made sense, but it made me wish Sei wasn't dead. I really like the song Clear sings; it's such a lullaby. ***now I'm here again, in the dark room, at 1:36am, searching desperately for the 2nd disc... only to find out his song was the last 3 songs in the drama CD omg I'm so dumb*** Any who. That relaxed me lol & it did lead me to more links~ Jim is in the dark too, applying for jobs? Aiyo, she works too hard. And dad is still so annoying. I hate it when she's already looking for jobs, and he comes over to see what she's doing and asks her is she looking for jobs. Is this the typical Asian (Chinese) pressure that I haven't felt "correctly"? あーっ もうー. 面倒くさい -.- Another thing I don't know why I'm doki doki for is Lee & Robin. (Well, I guess I know lols) Well, Robin wanted to hang tomorrow night. Of course I wouldn't mind. As a friend right? Then Lee texts me that he wanted to pick up his keychain tomorrow morning. The funny thing is, I'm messaging these 2 guys at the same; it's like I'm cheating on them (this will make sense when I post about the other day/yesterday) I kept trying to think... who is it I'm more comfortable with? To be honest... neither? lol Lee's always teasing me. Hmph. I don't know how to respondddd (bc I guess, sometimes I take his "jokes" literally? Iunno) Yet, it's not like he's always serious. If it had to come down to anything... L or R? At times like these, I wish I didn't feel like this... overthinking things & whatnot. It stresses me... Welp. My eyes are starting to water because they're so dry. Time to sleep!
Originally I was going to post about rafting and then about DRAMAtical Murder, "Love & Gelato," and my guilt when I go on my art insta. (I think that was all...) I'm probably gonna forget about what I was going to say about the anime so far & what I thought about when I finished the book. I'll try though. Right now I'm feelin' a lil' sleepy so I shall sleep now. My dolphin-sunburn hurts when I try to lift my arm.
Woops. I was driving sort of reckless today haha but no one got hurt! lol We sort of cleaned up in the morning then went out to buy Taco Bell for Jobee's lunch. We cleaned up some more at home. When Jo got home, we went to Wal-Mart to buy her notebook. I drove on the freeway. Gosh Jen being picky about my speed limit xD Woke up early this morning, & happened to come up with so many theories for 24K's "Still 24K" MV LOL Going rafting in Sac tomorrow! Coach asked about the bows, but I wasn't even close to done x'D Jim helped a bit, my slight OCD didn't allow me to let her do it LOL. After we finished the green set, I started on the yellow set while trying to finish Antique Bakery (K-drama). I did all 8 pew bows by myself. They all looked better than the green set that we finished, probably because I was on a roll~ & the 2nd glitter tulle I used wasn't as stiff and "sticky" as the 1st one I used; a lot softer. So the yellow bows definitely looked nicer. I finished in like 2hrs? Around 1am. Technically not done because I still need to tie the bows to the front; but I'll do that in the car tomorrow. Welp. Jo is over here memorizing the 1st Amendment for journalism lol I will finish my drama finally~ while Robin is trying to figure out what to do because he wants to hangout before I go back to SJ. Lee needs to come by to pick up his keychain.... hm. Why do guys only take me to movies? LOLOL --EDIT-- It's almost 3am right now & I just finished the drama! Omg the ending was really good~ well, better than the anime's ending. There was some explanation. Some translations that didn't really make sense in the anime, made sense in the movie (the scenes were pretty much identical). I really like the café's interaction with each other when they found out he saved the kidnapped kid and he himself was fine; that was like some amazing friendship/acquaintance <3 Jinhyuk lets them have a group hug, but the group hug went on for too long that he pushed them off. As soon as he turned around, he ran! lol and the other 3 chased after him; that was so cute~ Apparently Jinhyuk was homophobic (as shown in the anime, since the drama didn't really say but hinted), and it's known that Sunwoo is afraid of women, and we also see that. At the end Sunwoo gave Jinhyuk a hug while greeting these 3 school girls who regularly come to the café; I really love how they both changed after going through everything together--Jinhyuk was less homophobic and Sunwoo was getting more comfortable around girls. I think my favorite part was when they spent Christmas together; Jinhyuk says 'merry christmas' to them secretly outside the store & pretend to be all cool and stuff when they were celebrating. (Also when he went to make deliveries & he told them to be good boys & watch the store, Gibeom and Sunwoo gave him such cute smiles and waved him off <3) It's crazy what a little makeup and new hairstyle could do. Seriously, when I watched the beginning, I was like these guys aren't cute & these aren't the same people... right?. After watching the ending, and they had school flashbacks, I realized the people were the same xD Gibeom looked like Eric Nam when I first saw him; such a cutie. Guess who it was? Yoo Ah-in xD The child actor for young Jinhyuk was Yeo Jin-goo & wow, he's actually a pretty well-known actor now, too. (His wiki picture wasn't cute though) & Ju Ji-hoon, who played Jinhyuk reminds me of Road Boyz's Maca in some pics haha & Kim Jae-wook reminds me of Kangnam, especially at some angles in the movie. Well, I shouldn't over-analyze or -comment about the drama. I think it was overall really good (except for some creepy/exorcisy effects... hehe...) <3 <3
Today I went out to Bon Mange with Jessica, Jessie, Steph, and Meimei. Afterward we went to Marshall's. There wasn't much to do so we eventually went home pretty soon. School is starting soon; Jo is going to school tomorrow! So fast. I'm going soon too /cries. Guess no cover. Jim is coming home tomorrow nightttt~ (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡ I stayed up a little too late saving and looking up info on Dynamic Chord, which of course would lead me to different stuff. I happened upon Eight of Triangle, and their song "Adagio" is my favorite. I found them on Spotify today, and when I pushed play, it was the first song played! :D On a side note, Dynamic Chord's BGM is really nice. I only heard one, but I'm pretty sure all the other BGM are up to par~ wonder if they'll release some kind of BGM soundtrack CD... So many albums/singles I want, but seems like Hikarinoakari won't have it or will be slow with it (when I will forget about it). But yeah. I have such a wide range of music taste.... --EDIT-- 1am I just finished watching "Antique Bakery" (anime) & damn. The cakes looked so yummy! I seriously love vintage cafés/coffee shops. Why is it so hard to find oneeeee? Anyway, it was supposed to be shounen ai, but it wasn't much too be honest. It was only a little bit in the beginning, then it turned to wow cakes story, then leading to a traumatic kidnapping lol Overall I think it was pretty good, though it was really slow. I'ma watch the K-drama, but apparently, the J-TV series focused mostly on the bakery and their traumatizing backstories, so I'm not watching that. Really love the OP & ED too
I woke up kinda late today. Watched Massugu ni Ikou, both seasons. They're cute lil' episodes & I cried at some parts, especially at Gen's episodes. It really gives you a dog's perspective, but how accurate it is. Well, who can say. I think I'ma go watch DRAMAtical Murder later.
Was downloading so many drama CDs. I really hate Rejet for releasing so many vocal & drama CDs. & new groups. Can't hardly keep up bc info is hard to find hmph.
I don't even know where to start haha Lessee. Well, where I left off; Nancy came to pick me and Jo up for badminton at SF. It's been a while since I've played~ still getting those corner shots ;D but still missing my drops hmph. Afterward we ate thai food. It was too late for desserts and Tong was already so tired. We packed up the cats and we came home. 2 days later we ended up going back to SF with them for the weekend (which was Wed-Fri). -The night of Wed, there wasn't much to do but Jen took us to Mr.T café for "dinner" lol It was really cold and we were wearing shorts. We had to grab my camcorder from the car so we had to fight the wind and climb uphill lol -Thurs. we woke up early bc Mocha was being loud and hungry, smacking her crunchie bag so we were up around 9:30. Pitch black in the room & Jo thought it was 6am LOL we went to Mr.T café for breakfast and I got my sea salt iced coffee. Mmm~ at first it was very bitter, almost like black coffee. After mixing it and letting it sit, it didn't taste as bitter. The after taste still tasted like black coffee though. I have a thing for coffee... lol Then we played at the playground. First time on see-saws! Jobee fell off omg that was hilarious xD and we did "practice" covers. When Jen got off, we went to play badminton. We get to see Jim's favorite "Benjamin" coach lol. Bc it was only us 4, we were going a little crazy. Apparently when 3 of us fell on the floor laughing, he and his assistant coach ((correction: apparently not assistant coach lol)) laughed at us. *shrugs* He was bored teaching his lil' beginner students; we were his only entertainment. He stared after us when we left o.o We had sushi for dinner~ Mmm~ I could barely finish my udon. First time eating raw fish too. I think it was salmon? But it was thin slice. We also took out dessert from Sweet Indulgences~ -Friday we didn't wake up as early. Mr.T café wasn't open. Did we eat anything? I can't remember. I only remember we drank soup. Then we went out to film my "Emptiness" cover. It was kinda rushed. Jen got off work early and brought us boxed sushi and bibimbap. Eating while dancing keke. After we finished, we headed off to Japantown~ Rushed around to different stores, trying not to waste time. Didn't buy stuff in the beginning. Nothing to buy at Daiso... we tried the Dragon's Breath and was pretty disappointed with it. Other than tasting like Froot Loops, the fog didn't last very long. And it was hard for me to puff much fog like other people (bc I don't vape! lol) It was cool at first, but we didn't even finish half of it before the fog was all gone. Of course, other than the vape, that thing was probably not worth the 4.99 (we got the small one). We looked at Kinokuniya and Maido (really good felting set was $20! > <). Things were too $$$. I wanted a purikura but after taking a look inside, I had a 2nd thought bc it actually was "too much" I guess you could say. We also bought a crepé but we should've gotten the animal one instead of Sophie's crepé :p Next time. We went downstairs to Kinokuniya's manga/anime part of the store. I got... so... tempted... I spent around $30-40 on a box of Uta no Prince-sama's posters, 3 keychains - one from Tsukiuta and another from K-project. Eep. They were pretty much $8.99 each. The poster box included 2 posters (if you realize that most anime merchandise are limited edition, it was a pretty good deal!) *[After opening them, I'm quite happy with what I got; except for the K-project one. And Jim chose that one. She wasn't having a very lucky day LOL my Uta no Prince-sama, I got Syo and Ranmaru. I really wanted Ai, but luckily Ranmaru was my #2~ lol. I think I'm destined for pink; for Tsukiuta, I didn't really have a favorite other than wanting Rui bc Shouta voiced him, but I got Koi~ he's pink-haired and born in Feb~ I kinda wished I got another poster box instead of the K-project keychain... but eep! I want more! >x<] We drove to Oakland bc that's where Dad picked us up. I drove the rest of the way home when we hit Tracy. I think it's been awhile since I've sat in my dad's car; it was so jerky. I had fallen asleep on the ride home and I just know my head's been lolling in every which way. ~ Jo's going back to school in like 2 days. Me, another a week or so. Kinda not ready? *shrug* Still debating over 12u or 15u. 4 ANI classes... I don't know if I can do it... It definitely means no job for me. I don't want to overestimate myself... I'm always thinking about my future... how it will be. I want it one way, but I always doubt that it'll happen. I surround myself with people who are really good and who are really into it to motivate me. Half the time, it just tells me I don't have the same passion as them; I can't do as well as them bc I don't have the talent & obviously too lazy to have the skill (well, it's just coming really slow). But since I chose this path, I guess I'll just have to see what lies at the end of the road. Just one day... I hope I get to realize all those lil' big dreams I have. Just one day... I hope all this money and time spent at school was worth it. So little time but I need to meet up with POLARIS and gotta finish up Coach's stuff. She just messaged me today to ask me to felt her a penguin couple for her cake table. I also messaged Lee about his keychain & I guess he's picking it up some time. Another busy weekend ahead bc apparently I'm going rafting on Saturday. Still need to accept my finaid... It's amazing I remembered so much still. I don't want to be an adult yet... sigh
-- On a side note, I want to watch that J-drama Minar watched. I keep telling myself I need a good cry & I still haven't gotten it! I still need to watch Hachiko Monogatari.
So apparently my hives were because I pretty much overheated? lol Steph took me to SJ yesterday & the weather was a lot cooler. By the end of the trip, all my hives disappeared. I woke up this morning & they were permanently gone. Me and Steph were accidentally matching! <3 lol When we got to SJ, we set up her bed frame and stuff. Then we waited for KG & went to get crepes with Biri too. It was really filling; not too sweet. Then we went to catch Pokemon on the way when we went grocery shopping with Biri. Steph's sister came to pick us up and we went to iTea. I'm still pretty full lol. We went to the Great Mall. After Marshall's, we went to Daiso. I think I splurged again. It's already 9pm and we went to a plaza for dinner, had shawarma for the 1st time. I got a pita bread one and I had to eat slowly. They had to wait a little bit for me lol It was pretty good. Then we went to Honey Berry because her sister wanted roti buns. Dude, the place smelled so good~ My hair ended up soaking it up. I ate so much that day. Since I've only been eating mostly congee, I think my stomach was slow at digesting. I was so full still. Fell asleep on the ride back. Woke up when we gassed up. Thought we were in Stockton, but nope lols. Going to SF tomorrow for badminton, wheee! :D
Today I finished 3 more bows for Coach. I also want to start crocheting. I bought UV resin, crochet hook, and a letter set at Daiso yesterday lol Fought with moths again after we fixed the vacuum cleaner. We had to unscrew the back bc we weren't able to remove the hose bc it was really stuck. Mom vacuumed a glove so it was clogged. We vacuumed a lot of moths but when we finished, more appeared > > War pt3 tomorrow...
Currently catching up on my artist research for ANI 50. Gotta catch up because sketchbook check next week! I still feel guilty that I'm not putting as much time and effort (not like I have a lot of time to spare) that I would like into practicing & studying.
Here are some portions of interviews by some artists I've come upon, and I really like what they had to say. If you guys want to read more of the interviews, go here.
What advise would you give to an artist who is dealing with an art-block? How do you boost your imagination and keep yourself creative? Stop comparing yourself to other artists, and be inspired rather than discouraged. I try to maintain a healthy balance of work and life experiences, which can be anything from traveling, trying new restaurants, watching movies, going dancing, or coffee shop sketching. I also continue to take classes, practice life drawing, and go plein-air painting. Stay motivated by surrounding yourself with people who share similar interests and goals in improving their art, which is helpful on those days you don't feel like waking up early to go painting! (Michelle Lin)
I think an art-block is something that everyone goes though at some stage of their artistic life. I struggled myself with it a lot. During that time, I was seriously considering of quitting art. I think it came when I was at a point where I felt sad with my work. No matter how much I practiced, I never got better. It got worse when people or myself started comparing my artwork with others. It lowered my self-respect and I felt like there was no hope to escape from that feeling. It all changed after my concepts were approved and I saw for the first time the final version of some 3d models based on my artwork in a company. It really encouraged me to practice and worked harder. Once I got inspired to work again, I started to study and watch my favorite art and movies and I kept drawing and painting until I felt satisfied. (Yewon Park)
DRAW DRAW DRAW! It really is the answer for everything! If you want to improve you have to draw anatomy, design, animation, illustration, expression, gesture, everything! The drawing way.. is the only way! (Nicola Sammarco)
If you’re experiencing art block go out and draw from life or pick a few master paintings/drawings to do copies of. It’s a good way to keep yourself drawing without having to think about what you’re going to draw because you’re just drawing what is in front of you. If I ever feel like I can’t think of what to do, I know I need more reference material. As a professional artist you can’t go into work and say “I couldn’t think of anything”, so you need to learn to keep drawing no matter what. (Ann Marcellino)
I report a funny sentence my friends heard from Marko Djurjevick during IFCC last May. " If you try to climb on a horse from the back it will kick you in your face and you'll die. There's only one way to climb on: from the side". Drawing is the main thing. If you want to become a good illustrator there's no shortcut, you must learn to draw. Another thing I found reassuring is knowing that everybody, also great pros, deals with artist-block! It helps me to say "Ok, don't panic, keep working". (Clarissa Corradin)
Art block is something that I can't seem to shake off! When I am in an artistic slump, I try to just sit down and draw things I am familiar with. It helps boost up my moral and get my spirit working again, which helps me get back to work. Studying successful artist helps a ton! It doesn't take a lot of brain power and allows me to figure out how they are coming across something that I am having a hard time figuring out. Life drawing is very relaxing. (Naomi Romero) Concept art, animation, illustration, comics, there are lots of choices. When you’re young, sometimes you know only one thing: you love to draw. What should a young artist take into consideration to make the right decision when choosing an artistic path? I know everyone says this, but do what you love--seriously! And if you don't know what you love, take time to discover what that is. There also isn't one path to finding success. Everyone's path is different and sometimes people take longer to discover what they love to do. Our interests change all the time too, so what we find exciting right now might be replaced by a new passion a few years later. (Michelle Lin)
Sure it's always drawing but the process and the industry can be different, indeed. What you need to take into consideration is whether you'll want to be alone at your table for months, or do you'll need to be in a team. Do you want to control everything or is it okay to be a small part in a pipeline? But the good news is, all these fields are not walled from one another. A lot of people do animation but also illustration and comics, for example. Young artists maybe should start by whatever attracts them and where there is the most opportunities, then see what they like or not. Life is for trying out! (Auérelie Neyret)
I think it is great to experience diverse art fields when you are still young. Some of my friends come from other fields like transportation design or graphic design. Even if they didn’t major something related to animation or concept art, sometimes they have more ideas or skills in many unexpected way. Therefore, experiencing new fields has a lot of potential and can be even better than focusing on only one path. (Yewon Park)
I think it’s important to follow the path of what you feel the strongest about, but don’t be afraid that you’ll be stuck there because professional artists often wear many different hats and change direction throughout the course of their career. When you get to art school (if you end up attending) it is important to stay focused on your portfolio for just one major, but nothing should stop you from making multiple portfolios when you get out or taking different jobs. (Ann Marcellino)
Life drawing, life drawing, life drawing! I wish someone drilled this into my head when I was younger. Yes, it is boring to draw a bowl of fruit.. but it is necessary! It helps you learn form, shape, values, and more. Figure drawing is extremely helpful. Don't be afraid to study from artists that you admire. It helps you figure out many styles! Everything doesn't need to look perfect. Feel free to put your own unique spin on life drawing.. it makes it a lot more fun! Try to draw things in many different ways. There isn't one way to draw a bird. You can draw a parakeet in at least one thousand ways. I am sure they are millions! Lastly, remember that there will be bad drawings. If you are experimenting, studying, or trying to improve, you will start off with drawings that aren't your best. This is okay! This is expected! Keep practicing and it will train your brain to see better and to put the pieces together. You will get to the good drawings soon! Date you drawings so you can see improvement. (Naomi Romero) What are some of the things you have learned from other artists who you have worked with or whose work you have seen? To always draw, to take risks and not be afraid to fail. (Cline Deregnaucourt)
Never get too attached to your work or ideas when working with clients! Your favorite idea may be the least favorite for your director. Remember.. you are envisioning THEIR ideas, not yours! Also, life drawing is so essential! It is like water to artists! (Naomi Romero) Did you go to an art school or are you self taught? How did you develop your skills? Both! I spent one year studying the basics of drawing in an art school in Lyon, named Emile Cohl. But I wasn't good enough at that time so I didn't make it to the next year. It was a very competitive school and I think it wasn't the good way to approaching it for me. Too much pressure gave me art blocks, so I wasn't making progress much. The funny thing is that when I left the school and I started drawing for fun again, without grades, I finally started to apply what I had been learning. I guess it depends on people, I personally need to explore and just draw for the sake of it to develop skills. So I just kept drawing, I took part into online challenges on forum and such, I shared my drawings asking for feedback.. I love learning while having fun, so I try to keep it up and question myself a lot, trying to improve all the time. (Aurélie Neyret)
Many art teachers and schools suggest to their students that a commercial artist should always work in one consistent style if they wish to have a healthy career. In your own experience, do you believe this to be true?
I beleve that artists should always be true to themselves. Of course, it is true that if you can be flexible with your style, you can get more jobs. I have always tried to adapt to any situation, but at the same time I have always tried to push a bit my style to my customers. The major studios need flexible artists, but at the same time they want unique artists in their field, and that's why it's not very easy to work for a major studio. In my opinion it is much easier to work as an independent cartoonist or illustrator. (Nicola Sammarco)
I ended up quoting too much so I'll make it easier to finish this post haha ^^; Mainly these are for myself~ A few quotes seem to apply to other things, not necessarily just art. ~~ I'm just really grateful for everyone who's been so supportive and understanding of my struggles haha Of course, everyone has struggles, just at different degrees. I probably would've collapsed without encouragement :)
Welp. I never finished that rendering. It took a lot longer than I estimated due to the fact that the board won't pick up any of the graphite... anyway, 'tis fine. I was depressed all day due to the guilt. Finally, the day is over. I was stressing so much Sunday night, even though I was working all day Saturday and Sunday... Now I must keep working to catch up. Today was such a mess I couldn't even clearly plan out a schedule. I stayed on campus all day today. Still didn't get much done though...? Side note, Cheritz is restocking the VIP package! Super excited to order it~ Can't believe I'm actually gonna order it lol Alright, I'm off to catch up on my notebook~
No no, not Mystic Messenger lol Yesterday I had My Milkshake for the first time, and I forgot to blog about it. Which reminds me, Biri treated us to Cream the other day~ I got a mini and a caramel macchiato shake. Her worker, Jorge I think?--the same one who served us the other time lol--served us again. It's so weird that we're like good friends when we entered lol well, of course because they were greeting Biri but it was such a warm welcome (even though she doesn't really like the manager LOL) It was comfortable I guess you could say. I got a tummy ache after... probably because of my weird combos of ice cream flavors lol So yesterday I craved Johnny Rockets' milkshake, but they didn't have sea salt caramel anymore. So when we went to Safeway, I couldn't help but go to MM. We looked at the menu from outside. I finally decided to get the Hulk that Leo told me to try. Walked in and guess who~ it was the DC cutie twins! and one of the Joe West RHA members lol Gosh, must they always work at the same place at the same time? LOL One is always nicer than the other~ the other one is alway so quiet/too cool lol The one who's always nicer seems to be the one who dyes his hair more? We walked in and can you tell it was our first time? Because he asked that LOL so nice~ too bad he didn't take my order... the RHA dude did lol but the other twin made my order~ (he doesn't smile as much as his brother). Anyway, glad to see them again LOL and the milkshake was really good! I got another tummy ache though... lolol Welp! I should be rendering my cube right now. Seeing my progress, it's probably going to take me a total of 7 hours just to put down tone on all the planes. Then another 5-ish hours to gradate? Probably longer too xD Ah I got distracted because I was thinking of a watermark; I want to do an Asian seal kind of thing. A small square stamp-like. I figured I could make one digitally, but I suddenly wanted a legit stamp LOLOL it's like $5 for a custom 0.5"x0.5"square stamp. I wonder if I'd really use it... lolol
written on Friday, September 30, 2016 @ 10:09 PM ✈
The one who worked on "Legend of Korra".... and directed... his very... first film... "Voltron"... introducing... Steve Ahn! He was so funny! Though I'd like to type in detail his jokes, I'm really tired right now. Class in the morning for 6 hours, then another 3 hours at his presentation. Of course, I enjoyed it. I might include some later haha [[check notes]] I was thinking about writing a super long post on everything he said, but... I'm tired and lazy haha A few things I just want to say is about his closing. "Have your own intentions in your artistic journey." "Don't pick a dream because you fear your true dream won't make it."(may not be exact words, but same meaning) His experiences were just too relatable. He was told he would never be accepted into an art college because he had too little time to prepare a portfolio (he was a junior in high school when he decided) and he just started going to a private art class. A year later, he was accepted into Cal Arts; it was also the only school he had applied to after high school due to somewhat "destined" reasons. A portfolio of over 300 works. Not the best, but showed lots of passion, hard work, and dedication. I think that's what really inspired me. Just like me, he didn't think he would choose the art path due to parents' expectations. Just like me, we decided to go into art in our 3rd year in high school. Just like me, he was inspired by anime (though technically he was just watching a basketball anime when he suddenly had the thought "I want to make something like that," and I had the same thought when I was watching the behind-the-scenes for Howl's Moving Castle.) When my experiences relate so closely to other artists, I feel like I can make it... just like them... So just like them, I have to work and not be lazy. Even when I'm surrounded by talented people (a 1st year is drawing Disney-styled (to me) characters!), I feel a lot of pressure, but that same pressure is what's pushing me, too. Dreams... so much talk about dreams lately lol Even Yoosung brought up dreams. "What I fear the most is that nothing will change even as time passes me by." "... no matter how fun the activity may be, it's difficult to be 'passionate' about something on [your] own." "Is it sad to not be able to do what you want? or... Is it sad not to know what you want?" This topic is difficult... but the start of one's dreams is something one must figure out on their own... Welp, I guess I'm going to shower. Maybe render a bit... Goodnight.
written on Wednesday, September 28, 2016 @ 1:44 PM ✈
The week seems to go by pretty fast? It's already Wednesday. I don't have homework that I need to rush for next class... but my neck hurts and I wanna just lay down. And my stomach hurts a bit; glad it came before the wedding though. It's next week. omg.
I think I'm handling work slightly better? If I spend the rest of this week doing catch-up homework, I should be able to catch up by next week. Then I just gotta stay on top of things. How many times have I said that? Haha.
I was pretty distracted in class today. I kept thinking about charms again... and I was thinking about an MCx707 charm. You see individual RFA member charms, and ships within the RFA charms, but not really with MC... Hm... I have an idea in my head but I just know it won't come out exactly like that LOL I also was thinking about a collab store with Nana and Moe, but don't know if they're down for it hehe not like I asked though. We may all be too busy...
On a side note, spending so much, I'm planning on a summer job in SJ. I mean, well, since I have an apartment here, might as well make use of that.
Ah, I already don't know what else I wanted to mention....
Yesterday I was doing my ANI 50 masterwork project. Everything was going super dandy... until I realized I cut the bottom of the board an inch too much... OTL I was so disappointed. It was 2:30 in the morning. Luckily it was an inch only so I moved the pictures up and made the top and bottom border 1.5" instead of 2". Oiii, and Lizz was just talking about following directions...
Well that's all I guess? Oh, and also that grayscale? It didn't pass. Technically. I don't have to re-do it, but I hate how it didn't pass. Other than there were like 2 values that seemed similar and "crushed" texture in the 2 darkest squares, there was no other problems; Inga kept praising my craftsmanship so why didn't it passsss ToT I think I put a lot of pressure on myself to do well in a course I've taken...
Ah, I'm tired. There's something nagging in the back of my mind, but since it's not revealing itself, I'ma take a super duper short nap before class. Zzzz
-- EDIT: While I'm on break in class right now let me just say: I thought I got my life together only to find it falling apart right now. Okay, so it's not that dramatic LOL but my masterwork project that I was pretty proud of despite the border problem? Well, the problem increased because I messed up on the borders on the images toooo! On top of that, I just remembered that I didn't do the 20 cubes for ANI 12, but I still have the cubes from last year. Sigh. And here I thought I finished all my homework early. Lesson to be learned: I will never finish homework and not need to rush it before the class. -- EDIT2: I remember! It was about Uta no Prince-sama's 4th season. Omgee it's coming out on Oct.1! I cannot wait for all those collab releases between HEAVENS & STARISH <3 There's also another anime movie coming out called "Koe no Katachi," by the director of "Kimi no na wa." Heard it's gonna be sad~ but a good movie.
written on Tuesday, September 27, 2016 @ 1:46 AM ✈
Just wondering... if my urge to work comes from because I'm spending so much? Lol I feel like I'm trying extra hard in school to make up for spending all my money LOL. At the same time, I just want to do well this semester and not repeat the same mistakes from last semester, so that after working so hard, I just want to reward myself. Haha it seems like a cycle. This morning I skipped ANI 28 because I had work to do for ANI 50 and 12 & I worried I wouldn't have time. Guess what? Ended up finishing maybe 2 hours earlier. Maybe shouldn't have skipped class... kinda guilty about it. It kinda throws me off a bit too... Welp. Let's keep trying to catch up! Ugh. Today was ridiculously hot. 101... whut. Waking up too early this morning when I slept at 3... oh yeah! After ANI 50, I helped Lily with her shadow, Jassimaran and Michelle with their transfer papers. In ANI 12, I asked Michelle if she could send me her notes. She's so adorable~ and dude, I saw her planner. Damn. It was so neat. She has this lil' box for her goals and then of course homework and to-dos. They looked like those really pretty notes by those Korean students on IG. Was going to read and take notes, but my hair's dried now, so I'ma nap! On a side note, I suddenly really really want Kaori Wakamatsu's art book ToT I saw it at Kinokuniya but didn't think I wanted it. Then I did.... but let's save that money for the VIP package //cries// I also tried Daiso's charcoal nose strips. It smelled weird, but not too bad... but bad after a while. I can't tell if it did any good but when I took it off, my nose was left with the sticky black residue from the strip. I don't even know if I waited long enough; it felt like it was coming off so I decided to take it off. Also, first presidential debate for 2016. How was it? From what I've heard/read, seems like it can be summarized as a "child's argument"? *shrugs*
My mind's a mess right now after almost 4 hours of re-rendering the grayscale. Currently at the library. Still have lots of homework to do, and doesn't seem like I'll be anywhere close to finishing any time soon, but here I am taking another break.
Yesterday I took the bart to Jen's. Then we went over to Coach's place to finish up with last minute decorations and stuff. After an hour or two, we headed out to Japantown~ First stop is always Daiso: we didn't buy much. Haven't bought stationery in a while. Then we headed over to Kinokuniya. They don't sell Tsukiuta Neko version anymore! I'm so sad... At first I didn't buy anything, but it feels off to not splurge when I'm at J-town lol so after looking at another cute store and eating a 'happy face' crêpe, I went back to Kinokuniya to buy at least one charm LOL me and Jim went while Jen was still at Face Shop. Jen ended up spending $200 :o I bought 2 charms~ a Tsukiuta standee (I will never get Rui :'D) and this random charm on sale lol
I also told them about my plan to sell charms and stuff; they said it sounds do-able! Well, I hope so too ^^;
Then we bought lots of sushi takeout and my udon at Mr. Teriyaki and ate dinner at Coach's, where we stayed and worked longer than planned. Since it was so late, I ended up staying over instead of coming back to SJ. Woke up early in the morning and Jim took me back. We didn't shower last night, so she showered at my place haha. I wanted food from Mr.T café, but nope, the lady didn't show up on time ToT I napped on the way back; I was turning for a long time last night before sleeping. Must've been the coffee. Hm.
Ahh, I made up my mind. To buy the RFA VIP package. The deal of selling the rest probably doesn't hold anymore... lol I think I'm probably gonna keep everything. There goes all me money T0T
Ah. I got distracted looking up suppliers for other products, influenced by this artist/seller from Berkeley. Kill me nowwww. Welp... back to homework. May be leaving soon.. gotta eat that dinner!
written on Friday, September 23, 2016 @ 12:17 AM ✈
Dreams grow haha I'm doing my drapery study right now. I should've been done already, but I got distracted looking up stickers and other products. It saddens me when I'm not at the level of making prints... Nevertheless, charms and stickers seem fun~ I'm a fan of buttons, but not really making buttons... LOL. I was telling Steph again because she asked if I was gonna do die cut or kiss cut stickers, so I was telling her my plan. She said "well, I'm free everyday" ahaha I love her xD She'd definitely be my business partner (sort of). I showed her a screenshot of someone's packaging and said "if our dreams ever come true" and she replied with Frodo(?) with heart eyes. If only I spent as much time on product research as I have on school work -sigh- On a side note, I finally made the decision to buy 2 Tsukiuta charms from Soumeki@storenvy. About $19 >x< I had to make the choice to buy only 2 instead of 4. Wow... I actually did it. Kind of don't want the VIP package anymore... but I'm really having war in my head right now because the "Top Secret" handbook that comes with it is apparently a concept book that I also want ToT and V's business card is super nice~ -cries- Wasting more money... ToT
written on Wednesday, September 21, 2016 @ 1:35 PM ✈
Last night I stayed up late when I could've avoided that. I went to sleep around 3 because I was working on my B/W masterwork. I would've started around 12 or 1, but ended up talking to Steph about selling charms, and then the flow just wouldn't stop, and me & Steph were brainstorming so much ahaha She said "YES. DO IT. I will package everything for you because I have nothing to do and I'm bored" or something along those lines lol We talked for almost 1-2 hours? I really want to; I mean, I even went as far as to contact some vendors LOL They were really nice about everything and oooh~ just thinking about it makes me jittery haha I wonder when that time will be... I was so sleepy this morning that I took a nap during break (not really a nap because I was still conscious, but at one point I may have really fallen asleep ^^' ) I think work is done... luckily there isn't much to do for ANI 12 but to fix my cube. For ANI 50 (the B/W masterwork), I kinda BS-ed it :p will end up fixing that plus the other files later too... I was looking up 'egg & toast' for some ideas for Steph's pin(?) and the pictures looked really yummy! Then I looked on YT for recipes and ooooh~ I wanna cook LOL Aiyah, better go fix that cube, but I think I'ma make a sandwich. Peace! xP
written on Tuesday, September 20, 2016 @ 10:56 AM ✈
It's almost 11am and I'm crying over here what the heck. It's an hour of Pokémon on kissanime, eps 42-43. Wow. Why did I start? I actually cry pretty easily lol I cried as soon as they showed Citron & Citroid (sorry for using their Japanese names; I'm only watching the subbed) I cried when Puni-chan started talking about why he believed humankind, when he listed all the "great things [he has] seen": cooperation. great efforts. happiness. beliefs. goals. progress. never give up... This probably wouldn't have triggered if they didn't show Citroid "dying" again and didn't play that sad BGM lol I cry when characters achieve what they thought they couldn't, or what they worked hard for; I cry because I'm happy for them... WOW I'M EMOTIONAL LOL Alright, short random rant done. Really need to study now
I cannot believe... that I want to buy more acrylic charms. Everything is so expensive though! (well, mainly shipping. the charms itself are only $5-8; but, they add up to a hefty amount ^^; ) Seeing these charms, I'm looking into making/selling my own charms! Of course, when I do any better on my art LOL I want to be a con artist... not the scamming ones! lol Some 1st years were talking about how getting a table during a convention was "goals." I've always wanted to too... lol selling online was also one for me. Since I'm so tempted, I'm asking the others if they want to buy any merchandise from this one Facebook page, that way shipping is much more worth it. I'm looking at charms from 2 different people so I'm debating... also, there's the problem that I've been wanting Birdy's hoodie and also planning on that RFA VIP package... Everything excluding Birdy's hoodie is ending pre-order in Oct. or starting (pre-)orders in late Sept./early Oct. The moment to make the decision? On a side note, I finally put up my Uta no Prince posters! Though Syo fell this morning, and I almost creased it lol Looks nice! but my side of the room looks so "otaku" LOL Me & Steph were talking last night while I was decorating, that everything I have are brighter/lighter colors compared to her darks and grays LOL Her side is more "aesthetic" while my side is cutesy lol Yesterday I was being so productive! It was a long day, but as usual, it ended as a good day ^^ I should have studied for my HIST midterm yesterday, but I got distracted (-ahem-, charms) The day is starting out differently than I planned, but I'll make it work. Well! Better study now! By the way, INFINITE's 'The Eye' is on loop lol I freakin' love the dance though~
written on Sunday, September 18, 2016 @ 10:43 PM ✈
Today was ridiculously hot omg. The heat made me sick; I felt like throwing up and had a headache. Did not feel well at all. Or maybe I worked too much too... lol When I got back Saturday night, I worked on the grayscale 'til I finished the 1st pass; slept at 2:30am. I woke up around 5:30am (didn't get out of bed 'til 6am though) to completely finish it. I don't know if it'll pass though, but I'm glad I finished that. I went back to sleep around 7:15am. I planned to wake up around 9:30. Couldn't, so I reset my alarm to 10:30. I didn't get up 'til 11. The grayscale was the most time-consuming so it's a good thing I finished that. Then I worked on ANI 50 stuff and finished pretty fast (if you count 1-3 hours fast lol). Then worked on ANI 12 stuff again, finished half. And BS-ed ANI 28, brick drop. Uh, I think it'll look like crap > < I have to wake up early in the morning to go animate it... -sigh- Anyway, now I have time to catch-up with as much stuff as possible! I guess it's ANI 28 readings first... then ANI 50 daily sketches & research... and lastly ANI 12 notebook. I really need to get that notebook done; it was what failed me last semester omg. Today was also Day 11 for Mystic Messenger. I CANNOT. OMG. Though I really want to jump in and play a 2nd route, I think I'ma take a break from it to focus on work. By the way, I've been thinking of getting the RFA VIP package because I really want the CD/DVD. If I did get it, I'd probably sell the other stuff, but I might be tempted to keep it LOL (it's $79+shipping = $90) Everyone says it's really worth it, but if I had to treat this purchase as "a treat to myself," I would rather get Birdy's hoodie as a treat lol I guess we'll see by October if I can't still find a download somewhere...
I do always refer to Espey as our Queen. hehe. It's the cycle of life.... Espey's been with us since we were kids; she watched us grow up. Sadly, today was her last day with us. For a few weeks or so, she has been sick. There wasn't anything the vet could do as s/he said she was old. I think she had an IV treatment though. Yesterday was my last day to see her. It scared me when she started to have her episodic seizure. We thought she was a goner then and there. Amazingly, she made it to today. Jen was able to get to her in time to see her during her last moments. They took her to the vet to put her to sleep. Espey was our first pet to be put to sleep I believe. All our pets were outside pets. When the cats feel like its their time, they quietly leave without us knowing. We know they will never come back when they don't return from a few weeks to a month. Even during her last moments, I believe Espey wanted to hide away and live her last days hidden from us. It feels odd now without her there...
written on Saturday, September 17, 2016 @ 12:47 AM ✈
I am super sleepy right now... early class is one thing, but so is this heat. On a side note, Mystic Messenger is escalating! (Yoosung route, Day 9) Like... wow. So much anticipation lol Right now waiting for Jim and Jo to come pick me up. I'm going home for a day, probably be back Saturday afternoon? Well, let me tell you about today. I may have posted something about this last year (or not) about my teachers. I really love SHM and the A/I major really. I think it was Jo/Flora/& Callum talking about the major, how we're like a big family. John was the dad, Inga the mom, Lizz our crazy fun aunt, Dave Chai the wacky uncle, Brandon the younger brother/uncle, Sheldon the stepdad, Bunny & Courtney the grandparents. Pretty much the major (well-known in the program) professors. And I was thinking "wow... that is so true." ---oh. they're here. gotta go! will finish tonight-- Well, fuck. Excuse the language. I was super pissed off when I realized I left my dirty laundry in my suitcase at the apartment; I only found out when we reached Stockton. I was just mad at myself for doing something so stupid. It sorta stressed? me out too I guess, and I've already been stressing too much. It took me a while to calm down; I calmed down after my shower. I really shouldn't let small things piss me off like that. To be honest, I was thinking about how I'd blog about that, when I was in the shower, and it had a lot more anger and f-bombs haha. But since I'm fine now, it's not necessary for them f-bombs. On a side note, I just re-read a few of the earliest posts. I CRINGE. My grammar and spelling was really off (not counting the text shortcuts), but even the content was ew. But hey, that's how a crushing 5th grader feels like LOL //hides in shame. -- I'm a little lazy to continue the previous post about my A/I family. Maybe next time... Ugh, I really want Birdy's hoodie, but it's now $77 ToT maybe I'll just get a sticker or something for my laptop... I guess I also hesitated on the hoodie because he said it might shrink if put in dryer... and if I'm gonna wash it, I will need to dryer it. Well, I could also hang it to dry.... -sigh- Well, most of his products are out-of-stock anyway. Maybe price will lower later? (his green hoodie was $65 last year...) Me & Steph were also looking at Mystic Messenger charms. They're so cuteeee! I really want, but it's like about $16 +shipping... = about $19... must resist! ToT Guess I just gotta satisfy myself with my own handmade ones haha -sigh- I was trying to finish my grayscale... but I guess it's not happening. Good night.
written on Friday, September 16, 2016 @ 12:50 AM ✈
I cannot believe I did this to myself... I watched 2 things today, and I ended up crying so much. I don't understand why so much for Pokémon but omg Citroid ToT darn AIs... Then I watched Futatsu no Kurumi & it's about the Tokyo bombing in the 1945. The art isn't that great, but damn that story line... and I kinda guessed the ending. I cried hella for this one. I'm still finishing 5cm per sec; there's like 3 "episodes" in it. Well, I had a whole plan to do and finish homework today but going to University Art & OSH took longer than I thought. When I got back, I was working on my icons for ANI 50, but that stupid airplane... > > After class, I attempted the plane again, gave up, and started working on the grayscale. Didn't accomplish anything today *cries* I'm still going home tomorrow though~ Also, almost everyone in POLARIS was on Facebook chatting today~ it felt nice~ ^^ It's been a while since we were all talking. What else... I had something to say... Aish forgot. Either way, I'm off to finish homework for tomorrow. Let's hope for a better plan in the future for my workload (aka next week/this weekend) The second I remembered I came back! Lol it was really about the animes I need to watch. Norn9 is completed, and I still need to watch Amnesia. Then there's Bakuman! that I was going to watch to motivate me -merong- lol Okay, I'ma wash the dishes and finish homework!
written on Thursday, September 15, 2016 @ 12:47 AM ✈
It seems to be like that lately; even though I'm really stressed, I end my Mondays & Wednesdays feeling really good/happy. ((I noticed because I talk a lot... haha)) I was working on my renders all day but we didn't even critique the 1st cube render, and the grayscale wasn't even due. During our mechanical cube critique though, Inga had to start at mine lol she asked it it's okay if she can "butcher" and "destroy" my homework. I just smiled and nodded, but it was the most uncruel butchering LOL she hardly criticized it much, other than 2-3 things, so I felt good about that. Also, Callum and Jo were critiquing grayscales. Callum said mine was really smooth; Flora said the same thing about my cube rendering in ANI 28 this morning :D よかった~ ^//w//^ My most stressful classes are finally over, but the workload is literally piling over /cries/ That horoscope was right: I did need to make a list of things-to-do to stay organized. It'd be crazy if I managed to finish everything by Friday so I can go home. Can I? I wish.... -sigh- I've been waking up pretty early this week, and sleeping super late... -sigh- Have to wake up early in the morning to go out and buy bricks and more paper > > On a side note, I really want Birdy's hoodie~ ToT ++ We had mooncake today! Bc Steph said it was molding D: but it was only the Napoleon brand; the Wing Wah one didn't mold because it was sealed whew. For once, we were all in the living room so we were chatting. That was nice. Andddd I can't keep my mouth shut xP why do I talk so much. wow. I have to sleep now. Long day tomorrow, and I'm going home Friday! and coming back on Saturday. I may be able to finish most of the homework by Friday... except for my brick drop animation.... and then spend Saturday night and all of Sunday reading and catching up on notes... -sigh-
written on Tuesday, September 13, 2016 @ 1:46 AM ✈
I did it again.... I didn't sleep 'til 3am ToT and I was up around 6:30am too~ (but didn't get UP 'til 7:45am) I was stressing for ANI 12 again... but thank goodness Inga is so lenient this week! Better take this chance to catch up. I drank almost 4 cups of coffee today; it still doesn't taste good. I don't know if it's the coffee or if it's because I didn't go into deep sleep that I'm not sleepy... which is a surprise. I also felt shaky in class at the end of the day; don't know if it's the caffeine or nervousness... Also, the 'Match Squares' that I barely finished before class the other day... passed on the first try! :D There was a fire (drill) during class. We were out in the cold for almost an hour! ... and there was no fire... but the firefighters did come though. I'm still thinking this year won't be too bad because I'm talking to people in classes ^^ The first years are really fun~ I was freezing in the cold because I didn't have a sweater and Jassimaran and Jenica(?) huddled up next to me to keep me warm~ ^u^ I've only talked to them 2 or 3 times though, but they're both really chill~ POLARIS spent the the rest of the day talking about MM haha I guess we're all playing~ I really hope Cheritz releases some kind of game soundtrack like other otomes do, especially the BGM~ Omg can you believe Sirius (johjune's friend) sang the ending to Yoosung's route with Han?!? I want clear & full versions~ I would love to talk all about MM haha but that would be too much to say lol MM sure does give a lot of good life advices... haha I'm fully flirting with Yoosung *insert laughing-crying emoji* Ah, been listening to Amber & KSUKE's Breathe Again. EDM, breh. For some reason, I want to do some kind of choreo for it... I have images in my head, but I don't know how to execute it... but I think I will attempt it... hahaha It was a long day, but a good day as soon as the stress was gone for the day. I feel like I was so tense all day today, and as soon as the day was over, I kinda just let it all go and I became full of energy, so I kept talking to Steph about things that happened today. .... and when I'm full of energy and suddenly talk about a topic I'm into... I just won't stop talking and get this short adrenaline rush LOL Well, other than that, it doesn't seem like I remember what else I wanted to say ((probably because I got distracted re-reading my posts; I did grammar corrections haha)) Yesterday while working, I was watching 37.5°C Tears,and I didn't know I was gonna end up crying at the end of each episode. I stopped on like ep4. I should've known with the word "tears" in the title... Hm. Well, I'm not gonna let this lost thought bother me. Time to rest!
written on Sunday, September 11, 2016 @ 11:33 AM ✈
You guys are both right; POLARIS is more than just a name... a group. Thank you for responding to my post. I guess I was getting doubtful, and my pretty optimistic self was becoming pessimistic with thoughts about POLARIS. Our journey here. The problems we had on the road haha I always thought, too, that even if we disbanded, we'll always still be POLARIS, and every memory made then, will be kept away in a secret place within ourselves. I reminisce a lot... haha quite often actually. I don't even remember how many times I re-watched our covers. It's because I worried that being in the group may be a burden to some members, but hearing (reading) your thoughts, you guys relieved me from all this doubt :) I did cry though (not bawling) when I was reading Nana's post, because I was also listening to this song. He covered the song from Jason haha Just like Biri's quote I used in her painting, "good friends are like stars; they are always there but you don't see them." You guys are my stars... that make up the North Star... and whenever I'm lost, I'll know where to look. I love you guys.
written on Saturday, September 10, 2016 @ 9:41 PM ✈
So I painted the sunflower "field" for Biri, and she liked it! :D Also, she recognized that the quote was from her IG haha. Happy happy~ Now off to actually do homework. Finally finished Maji Love Live 5th Stage after 3-4 days... wahhhh sad.
Ah, today's Saturday. The first football game for SJSU. Bea, Biri, and LeAnn went, but me & Steph stayed home. Originally to do work, but I ended up spending the last 4 hours painting a canvas for Biri. I felt like I had to give her something... she's like sooo nice TuT It's in acrylics and literally my first time painting with acrylics and on canvas. It actually didn't turn out too bad. Then I used my micron pen 03 to write a quote I found on her IG. It looks printed because of the ink quality; I messed up on the writing though ToT in some places. I still, and will, need to catch up on work and make sure I have everything done by Sunday. I woke up this morning around 9:30am to turn off my alarm, played MM, and then went back to sleep, not deep sleep, because I got up around 11? and started finishing the last 2 volumes of Bakuman! I was literally tearing up because, wow, they finally reached their dreams :') Steph made me this yummy mushroom omelette~ but she didn't put salt xD Yesterday me & Steph were out for so long after class. We went to Wal-mart to pick up my cork strips in Milpitas; we got back to SJ around 9:30pm and then had dinner at Johnny Rockets. I love Johnny Rockets *3* We were freezing cold haha. This lady who stood behind me in line at Wal-mart asked about my shirt; I was wearing the maroon Anoki Ouchii shirt. I am like a walking advertisement for them lol but I didn't advertise this time like I did last time at Costco. They should sponsor me haha When we finally got home, Steph mopped and I organized my bbys~ They are all nicely pinned up on the cork strip above my headboard. It's a lot shorter in length and depth of the cork, but it still works. I also finally put up my whiteboard. Next up is my Uta no Prince-sama posters~ Aside from that, me and Steph are still playing MM and omgee I can't anymore haha. The game is going to start focusing on a route. "Talking" with them, it's kinda relaxing and always makes me laugh (or stressed), but since they're not real people, I don't have to worry too much about hurting anyone's actual feelings LOL I see Yoosung as Jo (YS plays LOLOL and Jo plays LoL ahaha); Jumin as Jen, because they're both crazy for cats. Speaking of cats, Espey's sick :( She apparently has kidney failure. Jim said, the choices were to prolong her life, or put her to sleep... I don't know... Right now, they're taking care of her in Gramp's house... Also, I hate BigHit LOL yesterday I was looking at 'things you (probably) didn't notice...' for their short films. It gave me the creeps. I had goosebumps up and down my body, it was crazy. But I want to read Demian... and The Little Prince. ~~ Well those weren't really thoughts huh? Actually, thoughts have been running through my head a lot when I'm with Steph, just because I'm not really sure what she's thinking... and I'm always worried that she's actually annoyed at me or something? (because I talk a lot... sometimes ^^; I actually can't/don't know how to explain what exactly I mean) When she's loud, she's loud. When she's quiet, she's quiet. People are like that, but it always feels like we're drifting on two separate icebergs next to each other when we don't talk. It's nothing too negative though; I just worry about what other people think about me-- about my actions-- too much. I don't let it bother me though. We live very different lives (of course), but that's why it seems so hard to live together at some points. I don't know where I'm getting at. Maybe nowhere, really. In general, we're very different, but in some ways, we are quite similar... it's interesting being born 4 days apart. On a side note, I've been thinking about POLARIS. There was no comeback this summer, even though I really hoped we would, and we even attempted a first practice. But nothing happened after that... there were plans that were exchanged, but we all knew they weren't going to happen. I may have posted about this before --or at least along the lines-- but POLARIS is starting to become (or is) a name that's only binding the group together (not that we really need to have a "binding name") with no actual reason of why we're POLARIS anymore. I'm thinking... maybe we should disband? It's like not necessary... but we're always on an indefinite hiatus... so I'm wondering should we just bring up disbanding? That way, there's no unnecessary pressure, especially for our leader ;; However, if breaking up is even worse, then I don't mind continuing POLARIS. But what's best? Ah, I always end up writing too much, even though I didn't plan too ^^'
I felt sleepy so fast.. like around 10:30 I couldn't even keep my eyes open. Busy day tomorrow. I know I had something to say... but I forgot... Maybe along the lines of Mystic Messenger? Me & Steph started to play! haha. I can't believe... it's pretty addictive. It really feels like you're talking to a bunch of guys. I also can't believe me & Steph have very very similar tastes haha (ie. going for the same guy), but at the same time, not really. Oh right! I was gonna say I went to watch Kubo and the 2 Strings tonight! at Camera 12 before it shuts down, not to mention it's Kubo's last week up in theaters. So many people came to watch movies on Cam12's last day of business... the line was somewhat long so I missed like 5-10min, or less, of the beginning... The theater was so hot and stuffy because A/C was down. I teared up so much during the last battle... I wonder how much more emotional it would be if it was in Japanese or Chinese... English is just not a very emotional language LOL Also, good thing I stayed for the ending because before the list of credits, they showed a quick behind-the-scene for the skeleton monster stop-motion. Pretty cool~ The young employee who was waiting for us to leave was really nice! He was so smiley, and happily greeted us as we left, bidding us 'good night' and whatnot. He was talking to some elderly about how Cam12 was shutting down, and he seemed sad too... But anyway, this is also the first time I went to the movies by myself! Going by myself, I focused a lot on the movie (because there was no one to talk to or distract me lol), but it was kinda awkward because I went when the movie already started so I couldn't see. Plus, I didn't want to use my flashlight because what if I disturbed someone? Okay, gotta sleep now. ZZzz
written on Wednesday, September 7, 2016 @ 11:44 PM ✈
(Post title does not refer to the LGBTQIA community lol) Last night was a crazy train wreck of stress. Why did I do that to myself? I slept at 4am, woke up at 7:15am, and worked pretty much non-stop 'til before ANI50 (which is at 3:30pm). Got back from ANI12 around 9:40pm-ish? I'm amazed I wasn't falling asleep. Guess that bland coffee this morning helped. Although it was a lot of work, and my back kept hurting throughout my last 2 classes (because I was bent over my work for long periods of time), I noticed this semester may be more enjoyable, even with a larger workload for me. I don't know how well I'll handle this load... but if I stay on top of things, I should be able to. Flora is in my morning and night class; she's my TA in ANI12. I'm so glad to have her there because she's there when I'm stressing or if I have questions. She's always been there since I met her in ANI12, it's crazy <3 Not to mention, ANI28, in which I was pretty scared for because I don't talk that much with people there, I'm starting to talk to more people. Ange, even though I also met her in my 1st year, we never talked ever since our walk back to the dorm after Geography. She's super chill/cool, even though she seems pretty goth & emo haha but she's really funny and nice too. She gave me a cookie this morning during break ^u^ and we talked about random stuff. School stuff. Her reaction to this transfer who low-key has a crush on her ahaha. To be honest, I was embarrassed that I had to retake ANI 12 even though I know it's for my own good. It's like, I didn't really want my classmates to know that I failed John's class. But I wasn't the only one. Plus, everyone was understanding about retakes and needing more time to learn the skills and whatnot. It was actually thanks to Flora's text that I started to relax about the idea of re-taking. The only person who knew was Arlene. Taking ANI 12 again is really making everything I learned 1st semester with John sink in even deeper. At first I was nervous because I added in late to the class; I took a random seat and this 1st year (I believe) sat down next to me. It's only the second day I've been in the class. Today was the 1st day of in-depth notes and demos. Not to be mean saying this, but she didn't really understand what Inga was demo-ing (Inga didn't even know what she was doing haha) and so was slow with notes. Since Inga's notes came from attending John's class, I already knew whatsup, but seeing her struggle made me think about myself in the 1st year, struggling to catch up with John's quick demos and notes. So I was glad to be able to help her. Other than explaining the demo and stuff, I'm not sure if I'm capable enough to help them. So I'm not that confident lol but I know what I can help with, and I will to my best abilities. It made me think, is this how the upperclassmen felt when they helped-and got to know-the 1st years? Though we never made an official introduction to each other. The way she acts kinda reminds me of Flora, like she even kinda looks like her? haha but also a lot shier than Flora xD On a side note, ANI50 was pretty good. (On the way to class though, I felt like throwing up--or felt sickly--after I rushed to flap my 'Match Squares' for ANI12. I don't know if it's because the stress and work was straining me making me feel sick but I stuffed that croissant hamburger in my mouth anyway) We got into the same groups again, and it was nice. After class, I had a little chat with Jassimaran and she was telling me about how scared she was because she didn't finish the cubes. Then I also had a chat with Sarah (I saw her back, but I didn't want to like say hi since we weren't that close. So I was gonna pretend I didn't know it was her; I was looking at the bulletin, and then she called my name so happily.) So we chatted, and she was telling me how she pre-ordered INFINITE's comeback album. It was kinda awkward because I didn't really know what else we could talk about. It was still good though. It's funny though; in the ART building, I part ways with people telling me 'good luck' or vice versa. Haha. Yup, we need all the luck we can get. I'm eating dinner right now; gonna go watch my MAJI Love Live 5th Stage (the download took like 4 tries; 15gb -.-). I still had the last bit of energy when I got home from class. I made dinner, cleaned the restroom sink, and scrubbed the bathtub because it was getting a 'ring' and ew. Me no likey. I also cleaned the toilet the other day. My eyes are starting to get hazy. Not yet tired but my eyes want to sleep lol I'm probably gonna read the "Salem Witch Hunt" before I sleep for my HIST15A quiz tomorrow. Or I could read it tomorrow morning... hm... [Comment reply to Jim: I didn't understand at first LOL but then I remembered: yes mom's teal rain jacket *insert laughing-crying emoji*]
written on Saturday, September 3, 2016 @ 11:28 PM ✈
Planned to do some homework here at Barnes & Noble. I drew a bit in my sketchbook, but then I didn't want to work anymore. I had a venti caramel frap. -- Back at home now because I got picked up. I saw Orion and John at B&N. We exchanged words but didn't talk too much, nor did I give 'em a hug :( Anyway, I was being very bored so I walked around the mall, but I'm not a fan of shopping lol After getting picked up, we went to the mall to buy spray paint. Ooh~ just need to go back to buy light blue and white spray paint & I can DIY backpacks~ what else... ugh, my bites are getting itchier. Just now I got super pissed, and it was all pent up and I needed to hit something, or something. I just needed to watch a video but searching it won't come up. It's on Jo's YT, so I tried to login. Couldn't get in because don't know her password. Tried her combos but none f*ing worked. Asked her but she only half-heartedly answered me and told me she don't know because she's too effin' busy playing LoL. UGH. I'm still kinda annoyed... to the point where I don't want to do anything anymore anyway -.- On a side note, there's still some days I need to catch up on. OOH. But today's dream was, oh my. Why was Michael in it xD I think it's because I watched a movie with a guy named Michael in it. Anyway, long dream short, I was pretty close with him? Like we were close friends. He came over to the house, and I was being slightly clingy in a best friend kind of way? "Camera" panned and he gave a surprised/shy/embarrassed look at me, because I "was tired" apparently and just leaned on him on our couch. Dream skip. It was raining outside. He said he had to go do something. For some reason he was wearing skin-tight, skin-colored shirt? of some sort and I was shocked and embarrassed to look at him. I tried to get his gray coat but couldn't find it. I went inside the room to get it. When I found it and came back, he was already getting in the car to go (he was picked up). I called his name. I thought he didn't hear me; I was gonna run out so I came back in to find shoes but couldn't find any, so I ran out in the rain in socks. The car had moved forward, but had stopped and he got out. My mom lent him her rain jacket? Weird LOL but I told him I had found his coat so he should wear it. He gave me an "affectionate"/surprised, like oh... look, and turned around. At first I was like "huh?" but then I took off his jacket and helped him put on his coat. I think that was the end of the dream... LOL but I was like omg what. LOL
because why not? lol I was going to make myself a sandwich (I don't know why I'm craving food... I'm not even hungry really...) but Steph made me nuggets lol I should've been doing homework, but after League, I got distracted and watched Pokémon. Eep. Lessee... yesterday was a workload. I woke up at 7am to go to the Pencil Test Lab to do my last minute animation. Then had class 'til 9:20pm. Yes 9:20 at NIGHT. Originally I had no night class. But after a few e-mails with a couple advisors, I decided to enroll in Inga's ANI 12. That's 4 ANI classes this semester... 15 units... I'm actually scared I won't be able to handle it, but I should be able to because I have free Tuesdays & Thursdays, until 3pm at least. 3 ANI classes on a Mon/Wed... ANI 28 was good--we had critiques; ANI 50 was pretty fun--we worked in groups & I met a few people but really only talked to 2. Everyone was pretty nice. I actually talked. Like, I wasn't too quiet, which was good; ANI 12 was fun yet boring. Boring because she was talking about the basics that I've learned (this is retake), but it's fun because Inga and them were telling stories too. Since I just enrolled, I have to do catch up work too. Hm. The first one to leave the apartment, the last one to come home. Ha. It was still a good day though :D I woke up this morning pretty sore still, from the gym (Mon), hip hop and walking (yesterday/Tues). I woke up around 10:30am, but laid in bed because I was still pretty tired. and was on my phone. Steph left for class and I spent the next hour and a half reading Bakuman! lol. When I got up, I realized I had a lot of red bumps. At first I thought they'd go away eventually, but nope. They were mosquito bites, and I had a lot. Then I headed out to bookstore and student union to eat with Steph. Then we went home, and I had class. Class went by okay today. Got home and started felting the penguins for Coach. Felted for like 3-4 hours? Around 7 something I think, John asked me to get his backpack from him so he can go to the YG concert (free concert for SJSU students). After the concert, around 10:30pm, he came by to pick it up. Better hurry and go do homeworks! but not tonight... I'ma sleep LOL. And wake up early tomorrow for class. After class, I'ma try to finish the bouncing ball and animate it before we leave. Also, to get Thirst Tea~ hehe. I think I'm forgetting stuff, but I gotta make sure I do me homework!
Whoops. Didn't mean to, but my plan didn't work out lol Got my coffee maker! And can make hot water~ wheee~ Got home, & ended up setting my printer up 'til class. Was going to go to the Pencil Lab, but I heard so many people inside I got scurred so didn't go. I think I need to go in the morning... sigh. Emoji Clan aka Adrian, Samantha, Jenny, & Linda came to visit. Kinda awk, but not really? I had to leave for hip hop. Hip hop was fun! I met up with the other half of Tater Tots, but there's no meeting on Thursday because of the free concert SJ is holding. We danced to "Cold Water;" the dance was fairly easy! I'm so sore... wow... super rusty. Me & Steph gymed yesterday too, just on the ellipticals for like 30min though. Still need to catch up posts, but I forgot about this. Jim was annoyed/angry when she and Jen were going home, about her cats and whatnot. I guess they got home & were still angry & weren't talking to each other, because next thing I know, Jobee Kakoed me and said "... ting im scareeddddddddd" and like what is she scared of? Because them two were hangry. Y'ALL SCARED THE BBY. She said she was gonna die, & I told her to just be a good girl haha Welp. I'm getting super distracted. I should hurry & do homework. I'm excited about my light board that's coming in Thursday~ Waiting for my books to come in & to pick up the cork strips. Still working on that future of mine. Apparently choosing a concentration helps with advising; I think I'll go with animation... though vis dev seems fun too (modeling, character design, background etc; the creative side)
I think I'm already stressing out. I'm already lagging behind a bit (actually caught up today) so let's keep working hard. I want to get on the ball this semester. I just submitted an application to On the Fourth by the way. I'm super scared if I even get the interview. On a side note, I bought a coffee maker + grounds + creamer~ *sigh* This is why I need money. I don't even know if I can work? because 3rd semester is coming up, which means portfolio review leading to only 2 studios recommended for future semesters, leading up to BFA. Wow. BFA. Seems so close *insert crying emoji* but there's still a lot of work to do. Which also means, somewhere in my 3rd/4th year summer, I should be working toward an internship... My future is so... dark. I don't know what lies in wait, but I mean, no one does really, right? Right now, I'm stuck with deciding between animation and visual development. I can't decide because I'm interested in both. But I should focus on the NOW. I have so much on my mind, so much to do. I need to FOCUS. ~ So far, living in the apartment has been great. I still find some moments awkward with everyone. Yes, even Steph, but with her, I'm not as tense?-ish. We all cook our own food, sometimes sharing. We deal with our own stuff. Lately, I've been out with Steph more than with the other 2, too. Laundry stole all my quarters ($4 total!). Learned to cook ramen for myself though! I think it's better because it's an electric stove. I should learn to cook stuff, but where's the time? I was so tempted to buy some sushi molds & whatnot at Daiso; I want to make bento rice/sushi/triangle onigiri etc, but I know I won't have time too (also, that I won't really at the moment). My table is still a mess; I can't really clean up 'til I get my cork strips and going home to get some Command hooks etc. I got my 1TB external drive today from Best Buy; super happy because I cleaned out my laptop! for the most part lol. Can you believe? Almost 200GB in the drive. There's still quite a bit of stuff in my laptop, but I don't think it'll be much stuff that I would want on an external drive. I downloaded LoL. I don't know if it can run at speed though LOL I really want to sleep right now, but LoL is still updating. I guess I'll leave it on. Heading out to Target tomorrow! I have so much going on, physically & mentally, that I don't even think I wrote down everything I was thinking about (which is every time I'm updating), but I sure do need to catch up on a few things that happened over the weekend. Also, today was embarrassing because Michael & I had a super awkward encounter! >///< "I'm embarrassed for life" --quote from my rant text to Steph haha. I said hi to him, but even before we were next to each other, to passing each other, you can feel there's a hesitation and indecisiveness of whether we should stop and talk to each other. He took out his earphone, but didn't stop so what was up with that? LOL because I kinda slowed & literally watched him walk by me. I WATCHED HIS BACK, for like 2 seconds lol. Steph's tummy is growling haha anyway, off to sleep for me~
Yes my baby~ I ended up buying his songs kill me nowww. Maybe around $4-5 total? His EP costed aroud $3.96, but that's all that shows up on my billing so I don't know. I was able to download one song from his Weibo (& I think it was free), but not the other, so I ripped it off YT, along with one other song. Another song I happened upon was hard to find, but I managed to find a Yukou link so I ripped the audio off that, but for some reason it's 7 min.. so I need to cut off some of it. Then I had to rip both of Meng Rui's song from YT. I found NINETY NINE'S Hibernation through a forum, & I managed to get his(?) whole album. I need to reorganize my music; rename and whatnot. [[I just ripped the instrumental of "Dream," & it is also 7min? But if I let it play, it plays correctly & at the end it's just silence 'til 7min are up. Once I scrub anywhere, it plays. Hmph. This isn't the first time.]] Also, gotta watch their fanmeets/interviews/backstages etc omgeeee P.S. While on music, let me mention that Love Live 5th Stage finally released on DVD so now I'm just waiting for download; omgeeee watching the concerts always gets me so happy~~~ I'm sad that I can't have any of IVVY's songs.... they only have 1 EP & 1 single on iTunes store... ToT **Next task is to download his videos where he performed various songs on the show, & to rip them too. Because he sang this song, I looked up the original~ Check it out here~ Here's my baby here~ Too bad he didn't sing the full 3-4min of the song :p On a side note, Adobe is freakin' messin' with me D:< The person who helped ended up not really understanding what I was asking for (I just read the e-mail today; I was assuming I was getting an e-mail by tomorrow). Which means I need to re-"purchase" Adobe, but it's not letting me because it says I'm not a student... I don't know if it's because I need to be using campus Wi-fi, but that shouldn't be the case. I could add the item to cart yesterday, when I was on campus though, so I'ma try tomorrow. -- Went to the ART building to do my animation. Yay~ first simple animation~ but sad I drew twice the number of needed frames so I wasted those extra pieces of paper ToT Afterward, me & Steph had Pizza My Heart for dinner. It was really good~ My gum really hurts; I don't know if it's because my wisdom tooth is coming out? But it's swollen & hurts ToT I didn't write much about today, but hope I didn't forget to write about what I wanted (ie. about the music & stuff, which I did). Wow, much distracted. Haven't read for ANI 28, & forgot about daily sketches. Yikes!
OMG. I just finished Uncontrollable Love 2. And omg. I hate this. Why is there an uncut version? Are they saving it for the happy ending version of the movie? Ugh. Now I got to wait. Maybe it'll be worth it... It was such a rollercoaster watching it. The ending was sad, but not to the point where I cried. I teared, but not to the point where others were bawling their eyes out. Now I'm looking for their songs. I can find all of 王博文/Bowen Wang's but not 孟瑞/Meng Rui's. MR only has 2 songs, while BW has quite a few releases, but other than the iTunes one and the ones from TrackID, there are possibly a few more tracks that he released but I'd have to dig for. His song "Dream" doesn't have an instrumental in the release, but they do play the whole thing at the end of the movie, so I'm probably going to try to rip it. Ugh, I think I'ma end up buying his albums *insert laughing-crying emoji* HALP. MR's discography is too hard to look for; BW is hard too, but I think I found most of them. Anyway, I really need to sleep; this week since school started, I had to wake up around 7:30 because of my 8:30 classes ToT Gah, the OST is gonna haunt me nowwww. At least his albums aren't too expensive haha
So an update on how school's going. First day of school was on Wed, and it went pretty well. To be honest, it felt like I didn't sleep at all, because suddenly I got up and checked my phone and it was 5am. I knew I was rolling around a lot; it felt like it was really hot but then get cold. I think I may have been actually pretty nervous (refer to prev. post). ANI 28 seemed pretty fun; I'm with a lot of my previous classmates. Not too many supplies needed, and not too expensive, but I have to buy this book that's pretty expensive if I bought new, but I bought a good used one. Twice, though, it got bought out before I ordered (I found a $18+ one, then a $19+, & ended up buying $24+ one). Then I tried to find a pretty cheap light table, & I did for about $31. Hopefully it's good. Peg bar & Col-erase pencils at the Spartan bookstore for about $7, and animation paper for $14.14 (bought today, because they ran out on Wed). After class, I bumped into Thomas who just got off of work since 6am (it was 11:20). He seemed so tired, and I was going to walk him back to his apartment, but I was meeting Steph at the lib. ANI50 was kinda scary because they were all first years (what makes them scarier is that they're so outgoing). Also, there's hecka transfers. There's only one other 2nd year I think, but I don't talk to him~ I don't need to spend much for this class either because I'm not buying the kit, since it's not required. Spent time at the library, saw Mouk bboying outside; that boy still thinks I'm Julia/e. Took my "First Day of School" class photo in both ANI28 & 50, omg Dave Chai xD I got kinda awk (to myself) when Uli came into 28, like did we have eye contact when he was at the door & me from the back of the room? Bc when I was coming to class, he was scootering by, but I pretended I didn't see, but out of the corner of my eye, I feel like he last-minute knew it was me & turned back a bit. Is he and Ray TAs for my 28? Hm. -- Today I tried to crash ANI 12, but wow, it was packed so I didn't bother to try. After buying the paper, I just went home and went back to sleep. I woke up around 1:19 to eat and go to my 3pm class. Class was kinda boring... lol -- I forgot to blog about Welcome Week Kickoff! which was Tues I think? Well that day Nancy was going to look for her classes so Jen came over, since she was off too. So we went and got some free stuff; watched my bbys Pitch, Please, perform~ & Pride of the Islands perform too. I'm so sad Hip Hop didn't perform... Oh yeah, at one point I was walking around alone & happened upon Pride's booth. Manny saw me & started walking over so I walked over & he gave me a hug. Talked very little & I left. When did we become good friends? haha. At the end of the day, we were sitting on a bench, waiting for PINK's raffle(?), and SHM were cleaning up their booth so some of them were leaving. I saw Uli~ okay, I saw that they were going to be walking past us, but I didn't want to stare at them as they do. Man, it was kinda awk (to my conscious self) bc I pretended to look away then back at them. Uli saw me and waved & I said "hi~" and waved, but his friend Ray was blocking him a lil (Uli's kinda small 'kay LOL) and I don't think he knew I was waving to Uli bc he awkwardly waved back LOL Kyaaa~ missed his adorkable smile ^///^ Yesterday I was uploading Pride's performance, so I was looking at the Running Man vids from before, and thought I'd send out to the respective "actors" LOL so I Snapchatted to them. Michael got back to me pretty fast lol Then he suddenly messaged "hey i wanna see u and biri soon" and I seriously went 두근두근 haha but I was so happy he missed us! haha 'cause I really missed him & everyone else~ (At Target night, while waiting in line, we saw Andres! omgeeee~) and he was like should he come over now --it was like 10pm-- and I told him Biri said he should come tonight and he said "haha ok ill go". d'awwww~ so he brought his roommate, who is also his high school(?) friend, Van (I feel like it's spelled like Vahn or something haha). He was pretty nice~ and not shy? haha They chatted in Biri's room for quite some time, then came in to our room to watch the video. And then I walked them out; Van was having trouble opening the door haha. I wanted to give them a hug before they left, but psh, his back was to me the whole time. Awww I missed him a lot keke It was just nice seeing him again~ [[I didn't finish typing but I left off at "oh yeah" but I don't know what I was going to keep writing about.... o.o]] -- [12am] There was a 12th floor reunion at Zeke's apt dorm, but when we got there, it was just Zeke's usual friends. The people I hoped to see weren't there, so it wasn't really a reunion. It was great to see Zeke again! Aww, I missed him. They were drinking & smoking. The RAs knocked, and I was worried we were gonna get in trouble, but they just wanted them to turn down the volume. Zeke though *insert laughing-crying emoji* He rushed to hide the bottle lol We didn't stay too long, maybe half an hour at most? But he asked if we had class. When I told him my class started at 8:30, he was like, "GIRL. What are you doing here then?" (read with emphasis on each word haha) & I told him it's because I wanted to see them & he was like aww xD When we left he gave me a really tight hug~ ^w^ To be honest though, I was really awkward with them, because other than Dario & Zeke, I'm not that close with Sarah or Leilani. I felt bad because it felt like LeAnn & Biri couldn't stay & party as "free" as they wanted. Oh yeah, before we went, Biri was craving ice cream, so she hooked us up at Cream. Her co-worker was super nice & wow. Big scoops xD He was super outgoing & really funny too~ Wow this post went on for way too long since I just felt like writing today. I think I missed out some stuff... (apparently in the paragraph before this) Maybe it was someone else I saw? I really shouldn't see people I miss. Because before seeing them, I'll just be thinking 'oh I kinda miss them' but when I see them and we say bye, I start to miss them a lot more LOL well, early morning class tomorrow with Sheldon. Need to shower. I think I cut down on a lot of my thoughts since Kickoff. I'll also need to post about some "internal struggle/thoughts" of mine since living here at the apt.
Ugh, I want to update so badly, but I need to sleep! I still need to read that darn book for history.... I'm splitting the rent price of the textbook with LeAnn, but we also need to get those other supplementary readings... (which reminds me, LeAnn said someone gave her a mint-colored mouse (or a mouse that was my style) & that I could have it if I wanted. I would, if I liked it (I haven't seen it), but I'd feel bad just accepting it from her, even though she didn't pay for it... but yeah. Maybe I'll hold off 'til I really need to buy a new one? even this mouse of mine, that I apparently loved, the cap keeps popping off) I was just shopping for some ART stuff. Trying to buy cheap since I don't need to spend as much this semester... I don't think so at least... 1st day of class was pretty good, but why do I feel like I'm forgetting to upload stuff online already... hm... Ugh. It's late & I didn't sleep last night bc I was paranoid about waking up late, nervous for class, & nervous about my M being here > >
Right now, we're all chilling in the new opened TeenHQ, but just got told that the room is for 12-18yo (luckily I'm still 18 haha) but that's so inconvenient hmph. Me and Steph just moved in this Saturday. We cleaned up quite well hehe I still have a box of my trash to deal with, but I'm doing the best I can with the limited space (no desk) of mine. Biri came back from home this morning & LeAnn moved in Sunday. I really hate our shower ugh. The water pressure is so low that I can't even lather enough shampoo into my hair -.- Been busy with doing lots of stuff before school starts (ie. Steph & her cards, SJSU welcome week events, etc); school starts in 2 days! I really don't like my schedule...? well, not until I get ANI 12, but it doesn't seem like I will bc his class is full... we'll see I guess. If I don't get that class, then I don't start my Tues/Thur 'til 3pm. I guess I'll get a job? Well, Steph keeps telling me I should get a job. She's making me applyyyyy >~< I was right: I won't remember what I want to say about "DmmD" or Love & Gelato lol but after reading L&G, it makes me want to visit Italy. They made Italy sound really pretty. But I mean, it must be lols On a side note, I finally got to satisfy my café coffee+cake at Empresso. I got my latte art; it was a small cup, but it looked medium. I was so full after the coffee. It was pretty good actually. The cake was disappointing; pfft, seeing all those professionally made cakes in AB made me have high expectations xD I guess I'll finally end things. Well, back to the story about that sudden Pokémon outing with Lee & his friend Alvin (let me mention that Alvin was really nice! That was what I thought when I got into the car-- okay, I said he was cool in the first 2 minutes I was in the car LOL-- He reminded me so much of Clarence. When Lee was going to take us home, he asked me if I wanted to sit in the front. I said it was fine & that he could sit back in the front. He said 'are you sure?' hehe) To be honest, I thought it was going to be really awk; it was only slightly awk, I mean, Lee even left me with Alvin at one point while we were catching Pokémon. Then Alvin said, "do you wanna go now, or stay here forever?" haha we went after Lee though. Then that same night, Robin came to pick me up. We went to watch Pete's Dragon & then went to eat at In n' Out. Hanging out with both of them in one day gave me a chance to "evaluate"? I guess? lol and there really wasn't much; it's bc I knew Robin for 4 years. We went to the same school, had the same class. So I felt more free to talk to him, but the way he talks gives me so much pressure. I even told this to Jessica and them, when we had flan at her place. It was really hard to bring up bc it's an awkward topic lol and I don't know what I wanted to achieve by telling them. Lee doesn't try; Robin tries too hard. I'm just so done. But after that day, I finally made up my mind (in like 2 days) to cut Robin off. If he wants to stay friends, that's fine. He keeps persisting on something more, well, I guess 'being friends' is off the list. I guess me unconsciously mentioning going out with Lee & his friend was my way of telling him he's just like any other guy FRIEND I have. Mom teased me about hanging out with too many guys haha Jojo claims I'm cheating bc I'm going out with both of them pft. (I already forgot about the so-called "other day" lol) But at least I came to a sort-of conclusion. I really need to get myself a boyfriend... -.- On another side note, I'm almost done with Bakuman! ! I'm kinda sad... haha guess it's time for the anime~
Hm. I just keep putting off the idea of writing here. I'm so lazy. Everything is piling up so that there's gonna be such a loooong post. Well, I finished DRAMAtical Murder. The ending... I can't believe I teared a bit and wanted to cry :'( but it was still really good. So happy for Aoba; for a second I really thought Ren was gone. The ending when Virus & Trip calls him again, I really couldn't figure out why he called "Sei" Ren. But after I looked up the Wiki, it made sense, but it made me wish Sei wasn't dead. I really like the song Clear sings; it's such a lullaby. ***now I'm here again, in the dark room, at 1:36am, searching desperately for the 2nd disc... only to find out his song was the last 3 songs in the drama CD omg I'm so dumb*** Any who. That relaxed me lol & it did lead me to more links~ Jim is in the dark too, applying for jobs? Aiyo, she works too hard. And dad is still so annoying. I hate it when she's already looking for jobs, and he comes over to see what she's doing and asks her is she looking for jobs. Is this the typical Asian (Chinese) pressure that I haven't felt "correctly"? あーっ もうー. 面倒くさい -.- Another thing I don't know why I'm doki doki for is Lee & Robin. (Well, I guess I know lols) Well, Robin wanted to hang tomorrow night. Of course I wouldn't mind. As a friend right? Then Lee texts me that he wanted to pick up his keychain tomorrow morning. The funny thing is, I'm messaging these 2 guys at the same; it's like I'm cheating on them (this will make sense when I post about the other day/yesterday) I kept trying to think... who is it I'm more comfortable with? To be honest... neither? lol Lee's always teasing me. Hmph. I don't know how to respondddd (bc I guess, sometimes I take his "jokes" literally? Iunno) Yet, it's not like he's always serious. If it had to come down to anything... L or R? At times like these, I wish I didn't feel like this... overthinking things & whatnot. It stresses me... Welp. My eyes are starting to water because they're so dry. Time to sleep!
Originally I was going to post about rafting and then about DRAMAtical Murder, "Love & Gelato," and my guilt when I go on my art insta. (I think that was all...) I'm probably gonna forget about what I was going to say about the anime so far & what I thought about when I finished the book. I'll try though. Right now I'm feelin' a lil' sleepy so I shall sleep now. My dolphin-sunburn hurts when I try to lift my arm.
Woops. I was driving sort of reckless today haha but no one got hurt! lol We sort of cleaned up in the morning then went out to buy Taco Bell for Jobee's lunch. We cleaned up some more at home. When Jo got home, we went to Wal-Mart to buy her notebook. I drove on the freeway. Gosh Jen being picky about my speed limit xD Woke up early this morning, & happened to come up with so many theories for 24K's "Still 24K" MV LOL Going rafting in Sac tomorrow! Coach asked about the bows, but I wasn't even close to done x'D Jim helped a bit, my slight OCD didn't allow me to let her do it LOL. After we finished the green set, I started on the yellow set while trying to finish Antique Bakery (K-drama). I did all 8 pew bows by myself. They all looked better than the green set that we finished, probably because I was on a roll~ & the 2nd glitter tulle I used wasn't as stiff and "sticky" as the 1st one I used; a lot softer. So the yellow bows definitely looked nicer. I finished in like 2hrs? Around 1am. Technically not done because I still need to tie the bows to the front; but I'll do that in the car tomorrow. Welp. Jo is over here memorizing the 1st Amendment for journalism lol I will finish my drama finally~ while Robin is trying to figure out what to do because he wants to hangout before I go back to SJ. Lee needs to come by to pick up his keychain.... hm. Why do guys only take me to movies? LOLOL --EDIT-- It's almost 3am right now & I just finished the drama! Omg the ending was really good~ well, better than the anime's ending. There was some explanation. Some translations that didn't really make sense in the anime, made sense in the movie (the scenes were pretty much identical). I really like the café's interaction with each other when they found out he saved the kidnapped kid and he himself was fine; that was like some amazing friendship/acquaintance <3 Jinhyuk lets them have a group hug, but the group hug went on for too long that he pushed them off. As soon as he turned around, he ran! lol and the other 3 chased after him; that was so cute~ Apparently Jinhyuk was homophobic (as shown in the anime, since the drama didn't really say but hinted), and it's known that Sunwoo is afraid of women, and we also see that. At the end Sunwoo gave Jinhyuk a hug while greeting these 3 school girls who regularly come to the café; I really love how they both changed after going through everything together--Jinhyuk was less homophobic and Sunwoo was getting more comfortable around girls. I think my favorite part was when they spent Christmas together; Jinhyuk says 'merry christmas' to them secretly outside the store & pretend to be all cool and stuff when they were celebrating. (Also when he went to make deliveries & he told them to be good boys & watch the store, Gibeom and Sunwoo gave him such cute smiles and waved him off <3) It's crazy what a little makeup and new hairstyle could do. Seriously, when I watched the beginning, I was like these guys aren't cute & these aren't the same people... right?. After watching the ending, and they had school flashbacks, I realized the people were the same xD Gibeom looked like Eric Nam when I first saw him; such a cutie. Guess who it was? Yoo Ah-in xD The child actor for young Jinhyuk was Yeo Jin-goo & wow, he's actually a pretty well-known actor now, too. (His wiki picture wasn't cute though) & Ju Ji-hoon, who played Jinhyuk reminds me of Road Boyz's Maca in some pics haha & Kim Jae-wook reminds me of Kangnam, especially at some angles in the movie. Well, I shouldn't over-analyze or -comment about the drama. I think it was overall really good (except for some creepy/exorcisy effects... hehe...) <3 <3
Today I went out to Bon Mange with Jessica, Jessie, Steph, and Meimei. Afterward we went to Marshall's. There wasn't much to do so we eventually went home pretty soon. School is starting soon; Jo is going to school tomorrow! So fast. I'm going soon too /cries. Guess no cover. Jim is coming home tomorrow nightttt~ (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡ I stayed up a little too late saving and looking up info on Dynamic Chord, which of course would lead me to different stuff. I happened upon Eight of Triangle, and their song "Adagio" is my favorite. I found them on Spotify today, and when I pushed play, it was the first song played! :D On a side note, Dynamic Chord's BGM is really nice. I only heard one, but I'm pretty sure all the other BGM are up to par~ wonder if they'll release some kind of BGM soundtrack CD... So many albums/singles I want, but seems like Hikarinoakari won't have it or will be slow with it (when I will forget about it). But yeah. I have such a wide range of music taste.... --EDIT-- 1am I just finished watching "Antique Bakery" (anime) & damn. The cakes looked so yummy! I seriously love vintage cafés/coffee shops. Why is it so hard to find oneeeee? Anyway, it was supposed to be shounen ai, but it wasn't much too be honest. It was only a little bit in the beginning, then it turned to wow cakes story, then leading to a traumatic kidnapping lol Overall I think it was pretty good, though it was really slow. I'ma watch the K-drama, but apparently, the J-TV series focused mostly on the bakery and their traumatizing backstories, so I'm not watching that. Really love the OP & ED too
I woke up kinda late today. Watched Massugu ni Ikou, both seasons. They're cute lil' episodes & I cried at some parts, especially at Gen's episodes. It really gives you a dog's perspective, but how accurate it is. Well, who can say. I think I'ma go watch DRAMAtical Murder later.
Was downloading so many drama CDs. I really hate Rejet for releasing so many vocal & drama CDs. & new groups. Can't hardly keep up bc info is hard to find hmph.
I don't even know where to start haha Lessee. Well, where I left off; Nancy came to pick me and Jo up for badminton at SF. It's been a while since I've played~ still getting those corner shots ;D but still missing my drops hmph. Afterward we ate thai food. It was too late for desserts and Tong was already so tired. We packed up the cats and we came home. 2 days later we ended up going back to SF with them for the weekend (which was Wed-Fri). -The night of Wed, there wasn't much to do but Jen took us to Mr.T café for "dinner" lol It was really cold and we were wearing shorts. We had to grab my camcorder from the car so we had to fight the wind and climb uphill lol -Thurs. we woke up early bc Mocha was being loud and hungry, smacking her crunchie bag so we were up around 9:30. Pitch black in the room & Jo thought it was 6am LOL we went to Mr.T café for breakfast and I got my sea salt iced coffee. Mmm~ at first it was very bitter, almost like black coffee. After mixing it and letting it sit, it didn't taste as bitter. The after taste still tasted like black coffee though. I have a thing for coffee... lol Then we played at the playground. First time on see-saws! Jobee fell off omg that was hilarious xD and we did "practice" covers. When Jen got off, we went to play badminton. We get to see Jim's favorite "Benjamin" coach lol. Bc it was only us 4, we were going a little crazy. Apparently when 3 of us fell on the floor laughing, he and his assistant coach ((correction: apparently not assistant coach lol)) laughed at us. *shrugs* He was bored teaching his lil' beginner students; we were his only entertainment. He stared after us when we left o.o We had sushi for dinner~ Mmm~ I could barely finish my udon. First time eating raw fish too. I think it was salmon? But it was thin slice. We also took out dessert from Sweet Indulgences~ -Friday we didn't wake up as early. Mr.T café wasn't open. Did we eat anything? I can't remember. I only remember we drank soup. Then we went out to film my "Emptiness" cover. It was kinda rushed. Jen got off work early and brought us boxed sushi and bibimbap. Eating while dancing keke. After we finished, we headed off to Japantown~ Rushed around to different stores, trying not to waste time. Didn't buy stuff in the beginning. Nothing to buy at Daiso... we tried the Dragon's Breath and was pretty disappointed with it. Other than tasting like Froot Loops, the fog didn't last very long. And it was hard for me to puff much fog like other people (bc I don't vape! lol) It was cool at first, but we didn't even finish half of it before the fog was all gone. Of course, other than the vape, that thing was probably not worth the 4.99 (we got the small one). We looked at Kinokuniya and Maido (really good felting set was $20! > <). Things were too $$$. I wanted a purikura but after taking a look inside, I had a 2nd thought bc it actually was "too much" I guess you could say. We also bought a crepé but we should've gotten the animal one instead of Sophie's crepé :p Next time. We went downstairs to Kinokuniya's manga/anime part of the store. I got... so... tempted... I spent around $30-40 on a box of Uta no Prince-sama's posters, 3 keychains - one from Tsukiuta and another from K-project. Eep. They were pretty much $8.99 each. The poster box included 2 posters (if you realize that most anime merchandise are limited edition, it was a pretty good deal!) *[After opening them, I'm quite happy with what I got; except for the K-project one. And Jim chose that one. She wasn't having a very lucky day LOL my Uta no Prince-sama, I got Syo and Ranmaru. I really wanted Ai, but luckily Ranmaru was my #2~ lol. I think I'm destined for pink; for Tsukiuta, I didn't really have a favorite other than wanting Rui bc Shouta voiced him, but I got Koi~ he's pink-haired and born in Feb~ I kinda wished I got another poster box instead of the K-project keychain... but eep! I want more! >x<] We drove to Oakland bc that's where Dad picked us up. I drove the rest of the way home when we hit Tracy. I think it's been awhile since I've sat in my dad's car; it was so jerky. I had fallen asleep on the ride home and I just know my head's been lolling in every which way. ~ Jo's going back to school in like 2 days. Me, another a week or so. Kinda not ready? *shrug* Still debating over 12u or 15u. 4 ANI classes... I don't know if I can do it... It definitely means no job for me. I don't want to overestimate myself... I'm always thinking about my future... how it will be. I want it one way, but I always doubt that it'll happen. I surround myself with people who are really good and who are really into it to motivate me. Half the time, it just tells me I don't have the same passion as them; I can't do as well as them bc I don't have the talent & obviously too lazy to have the skill (well, it's just coming really slow). But since I chose this path, I guess I'll just have to see what lies at the end of the road. Just one day... I hope I get to realize all those lil' big dreams I have. Just one day... I hope all this money and time spent at school was worth it. So little time but I need to meet up with POLARIS and gotta finish up Coach's stuff. She just messaged me today to ask me to felt her a penguin couple for her cake table. I also messaged Lee about his keychain & I guess he's picking it up some time. Another busy weekend ahead bc apparently I'm going rafting on Saturday. Still need to accept my finaid... It's amazing I remembered so much still. I don't want to be an adult yet... sigh
-- On a side note, I want to watch that J-drama Minar watched. I keep telling myself I need a good cry & I still haven't gotten it! I still need to watch Hachiko Monogatari.
So apparently my hives were because I pretty much overheated? lol Steph took me to SJ yesterday & the weather was a lot cooler. By the end of the trip, all my hives disappeared. I woke up this morning & they were permanently gone. Me and Steph were accidentally matching! <3 lol When we got to SJ, we set up her bed frame and stuff. Then we waited for KG & went to get crepes with Biri too. It was really filling; not too sweet. Then we went to catch Pokemon on the way when we went grocery shopping with Biri. Steph's sister came to pick us up and we went to iTea. I'm still pretty full lol. We went to the Great Mall. After Marshall's, we went to Daiso. I think I splurged again. It's already 9pm and we went to a plaza for dinner, had shawarma for the 1st time. I got a pita bread one and I had to eat slowly. They had to wait a little bit for me lol It was pretty good. Then we went to Honey Berry because her sister wanted roti buns. Dude, the place smelled so good~ My hair ended up soaking it up. I ate so much that day. Since I've only been eating mostly congee, I think my stomach was slow at digesting. I was so full still. Fell asleep on the ride back. Woke up when we gassed up. Thought we were in Stockton, but nope lols. Going to SF tomorrow for badminton, wheee! :D
Today I finished 3 more bows for Coach. I also want to start crocheting. I bought UV resin, crochet hook, and a letter set at Daiso yesterday lol Fought with moths again after we fixed the vacuum cleaner. We had to unscrew the back bc we weren't able to remove the hose bc it was really stuck. Mom vacuumed a glove so it was clogged. We vacuumed a lot of moths but when we finished, more appeared > > War pt3 tomorrow...
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^
: afeeqah azhar, 19 march, malaysian .
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