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Volunteered at SHMcon today! It was fun but really tiring. We hardly did anything as volunteers though ^^; Arlene and I literally walked around asking artists if they needed help, but they didn't want us helping them pack. In the end, an artist came looking for helpers, asked us if we were volunteers and if we could help them. We were like "yes, please!" lol and he joked like "(you guys were like) just give us something to do!" xD So we ended up carrying their stuff for them to their car, and chatted a bit. Most of the artists had already left by the time we got back to the ballroom. (Technically, Arlene's shift already ended, but she just stuck with me, since I was with her on her shift, but she didn't really do anything much either lol)

Aigoo. Yesterday when Jen dropped me off, I had a throbbing headache, so I ended up napping. Steph didn't come back after 9 so I thought something happened to her, or maybe closing took longer. After 12, I was like UHHH. So I ended up calling her lol She was just at work cutting chicken :p They took longer because there were only 2 of them.

Anyway, that headache. It was gone when I woke up from my nap. It almost sorta came back this morning. I got ready to go meet Arlene at SHMcon. Ah, when we got there, we saw Celine and Andy. When we were walking towards them she was nudging me alsdkf lol. Celine and Arlene went to the props table, and I was trying to pin my volunteer pin on my sweater, and Andy came over to greet me. ALSDKFJ I don't know why, I was pretty flustered for some reason. Maybe because he seemed so unsure or something when talking to me. He literally just asked me how's it going, and me tryna focus on the pin, waited and then said "I'm good, just woke up with a headache this morning" and he was like "aww" and I forgot what happened? I think I just walked to Arlene at the table and I had forgotten to return the question. WHY DO I ALWAYS DO THAT ToT It sounded like I didn't want to talk to himmmm and then we were getting ready for our photobooth picture and he told Celine he was gonna go, I didn't even get to say bye to him ToT REGERTS.
It bothered me the whole time the three of us walked throughout the con. Who knew that it'd take us an hour to visit all the tables. Celine also said my waves (I had braided my hair overnight) were cute TvT At the end, we took a break and ate snacks from BFA's bake sale. After we were done, we went around to actually buy stuff. Celine ended up saying an early bye to us so she can zoom through the tables since she had to leave for work. After Arlene and I finished buying stuff, we went out to eat pizza. I just had to tell her about the Andy incident. lol And she was like "but it's so long ago!" Me: "I know! but it was bothering me the whole time we were walking the con~" xD
After pizza, Arlene's shift was about to start, so she went ahead and I met her in there later. There wasn't much for her to do, so we ended up walking the con again LOL (I also noticed Andy had come back with his friends, chilling at the side tables) She also bought stuff, even though she was on duty. lol Someone asked for water, so we went to Starbucks for water since we ran out of bottled water. On our way to the door, Andy and his friends were also leaving, so we were walking towards each other. I pretended I didn't see, and faced Arlene, talking to her. And she goes "oh!" and starts nudging me LOL and I was like "I knuuuu" x'D Couldn't bring myself to greet him OTL.
Speaking of greetings. ULI. We saw Uli like 3 times today, and we greeted him (or at least, I) with a nod, and/or a silent hi. Why do I nod to people nowadayssss. I don't know when this habit came about hahaha. I think Arlene caught it too x'D Oh, and I was buying a shirt from Yuki at the SHMerch table. And then Uli came over and stood RIGHT NEXT TO ME. I turned to say hi, but he didn't hear/see (my hi) and ignored me ALSKDFJ hmph lolol
Anyway, con was really fun! Also got to see Flora~
We talked about tabling next year~ It sounds fun, if we can keep it simple for our first time. Arlene creates a Pug character and I create a Corgi/-cat specie- character and we create some kind of "joint collab" thingy ^^ I mean, I already have research done. For con, we'll probably look for a local print shop or something... It's still a dream, but it's something Arlene and I look forward to attempting? ^^; tabling looks fun so we wanna try~

I didn't realize we spent so much, but I'm happy with all the prints and stickers etc I got~ Redecorated my wall to fit everything ^^ Seems busy, but also nicely busy hehe


Also, it was 2/18, our club's anniversary~




Ahh, also, I'm currently playing Ray's route and you cannot believe how intense it is. I'm worried about every single decision I'm making... Well, 3 more days still. Let's manage for a good/normal ending.
Anyway, time to sleep. Gotta wake up early :p
[Also, I didn't write a post about when Chris and Yishan just randomly came up to talk to me when I was just tryna have my salad. Literally didn't know them. Chris came up to me asking if I was in his class 2 semesters ago ahahaha..... but anyway, I'm too lazy to type that up xD it was a funny story that I told my fam though lol]

I totally forgot to post that 4 days ago, my phone fell 2.5 floors to its doom.
Amazingly, nothing broke. The screen was scratch-free despite landing on its face, and the screen protector flew off.
$50 phone case was worth. Despite the little broken, removable flap popped off so I had to glue it for the 3rd time. BLESS.

At least, I don't think I have posted about it yet? Aigoo, bad memory with what I had or hadn't posted.

I gotta make this quick because I gotta sleep soon (even though I feel like I haven't done any homework... )
--ahh I said I'd make it quick but guess who just got distracted for a good 30 or so minutes LOL

Let's see, I woke up this morning and found out my only class today (MATH 42) got cancelled. Whoop whoop! So Steph and I walked to the Student Union. We both woke up in a pretty good mood? Idunno, I "dressed up" LOL (not really apparently x'D) But anyway, she had to interview someone & I went to Starbucks because there was a live music show. I got a table, and dude, it was weird because this Asian guy comes and just takes a seat. Like, I understand we'd share tables, but usually people would ask if it's okay to sit there. And then he kept cursing under his breath? At one point he asked me to watch his stuff and he took his laptop elsewhere. He came back later and he placed his laptop like really close to mine. Also, he had to take the seat next to me instead of across from me (it's a + seating around a round table). But yeah, he eventually slowly packed and left. I was just creeped for a bit lol. And then a girl asks to sit across from me. I think that dude came back later because out of the corner of my eye, I saw his purple sweater, but then he walked away. I think it's because the girl was sitting in front of me. When she left, Celine later joined me. And then Steph joined me and we saw Romuel. I spent around 2 hours going through my Udacity course. My laptop was low on battery and it was time for Steph to go to class, so I walked her to class. I got to the Art building only to find out I had left my key and ID at home, so I couldn't get into the Pencil Test Lab, plus it sounded like there were a lot of people in there, so I didn't want to knock. I ended up putting my stuff in the locker and sat outside the PTL next to a plug and I kept working on my coding.

I glanced around, and I saw Andy going into the PTL. I internally panicked lol Later I hear him coming out saying "I'll see you guys later, like in 10 minutes" and I'm focusing on my coding, but I looked up because he was walking past me (I realized... I may have used passed/past wrong in previous posts LOL). I didn't think we'd make eye contact, but his body wasn't even completely forward. He was slightly turned in my direction... Aigoo we were awkward but we still greeted each other lol. I didn't greet him when he came back though.
Then met up with Steph, got her keys to get mine, met up with her again in the SU, waited for Arlene to get out of class. Met up with Arlene at the locker. She was surprised at the big pinecone, and as I was about to explain to her about it, Andy came out of the PTL, and I don't know why but I automatically said "it's his" while laughing, because well, we were both laughing. And he was like "huh?" and stepped back and was like "ohhh yeah" and then he reminded me to bring it to class :p Oh, awk.
I took my stuff and sat in the SU with Arlene. Well, we went out to play with "snow" but they were super icy lol Back in the SU, she got food and when she got back, I was slowly started my painting but I ended up talking a lot about Andy... Like, you just know if I start to constantly talk about someone LOL and I guess Arlene picked that up and started teasing me about it LOL she's so funny <3 To be honest, I don't really think I accepted that until like tonight (but did I really accept it? haha) I told her about the hike and how we went to Sweet Corner afterward, and she like "oh~ a date~" and how the whole thing was so K-drama lol I'M DEAD. I showed her the group posts and our messages and stuff. And she was like sing-songing "kiss kiss and fall in love" and I was like omg nooo alskdfj xD And Steph joined us a lil' later, and I keep bringing up stuff, and Arlene mentions how I keep talking about him and Steph was like "I know right" GOSH LOL. 
So then Steph left. Arlene had to go too so she walked me back to the Art building, but I kept whining to her like, what if it's just himmm alskdfj lol I got into the PTL and there was a few other people. I was trying so hard not to be awkward. I was carrying my set-up in, and straight ahead, Andy is sitting at the corner of the table closest to 218. I can't even remember how he greeted me. I just remember I gave a slight nod, looked down as I tried to gently close the door. I walk in and Sean is like staring at me? And I think I may have nodded first? but then he says hey, so I say hey. I wasn't sure where to sit, my goodness, so I sat a seat away from Andy, 'cause y'know, we need room for our set-up. GAWD I WAS READY TO DIE. But anyway, Andy asks me what I was working on, and I tell him acorn, and he says he hadn't even started on it yet. I was so confused as to why he was still working on his walnut, and I can't remember what he said, but he replied. And then he offered acorns to me? and I felt like I was betraying him or something (because we had picked acorns and I'm not using those, also because he offered but I didn't accept them) and then I told him I got acorns from Celine. He asked if they had caps, so I gave him the extra ones. I knew he liked a challenge, so I gave him the acorn with the 2 caps first and he got so excited he exclaimed loudly lol and then he apologized. But yeah. I was frantic and kept messaging Arlene lol She was teasing me again ahaha she told me to "TALK TO ANDY!!!!!" and then asked how close we were sitting lol Okay, so I'm like working on my acorn, and then he decides to take a break, and GOSH I can't paint with him standing behind me! He did ask about my acorn photos, and I tried to answer as normal as possible ^^;
[was scrolling through IG. It's so funny how both of our 1st photos on our feed is the same sun x'D >///< ]
Other than me panicking internally, it was all good I guess? because I was the only one working, and everyone else was talking to each other and laughing over a video. So there's this girl who I don't know, but everyone called her Jessica. Some reason they started talking about "Asian tradition to beat their kids when they're young" and Andy mentioned how he's half-Taiwanese (because Sean asked?) and Sean was like "everyone's Taiwanese" and I'm like whispering that I'm not, and Jessica saw me but didn't hear me, so she walked over and I told her and she was like "it's okay!" xD She walked back to Sean. He was "dissing China" and then she came over to ask me where I was from. I was so flustered, I don't know why. I don't know why I didn't know how to answer the question. Yo, my whole face was probably super red. IT WAS HOT. I was so incoherent, but I managed to say "here?" lol And she was like "oh oh! okay." She wanted to know if I was from China because Sean was dissing LOL and then I just laughed and said "No I'm good" or something like that. And then Andy asked, "Wait, where are you from?" and yeah lol I texted this to Arlene and she was like "it's understandable you're nervous w andy HAHAHAHA" DANG IT ARLENE x'D
I turned off my lamp and was using a red brush to outline my acorn because I didn't like the shape. And Andy started "mocking" (yelling?) me saying, "what!? you're painting without lighting? what are you doing?" (not exact wording) I tried to explain while laughing a bit, because I knew he was playing around. And then he switched to, "wow, you're really working that highlight. It's so red." OMG ANDY x'D He was talking to Haruka, asking if she started her acorn yet and she said no. And somehow he got to mentioning me, and how my acorn is good to go like that for class. And I turned in his direction a bit, and just smilingly nodded in agreement because (inside joke). 
Then Steph texted me about going to Boba Bar with her and Jessie. To be honest, I didn't want to leave x'D but then Steph called me, and I decided I'll join them. So I started packing up, and then Andy asked if I finished lol I said "Nope, but you said my acorn was good to go~" and he was like "you right." I wanted to say bye but at the moment I was about to grab my stuff and go, Haruka called him over for help on her modeling so he had turned his back to me. I wasn't too close to the people in the lab so I didn't really say bye >x< 
(Also, Jo was in the lab too and said "Oh yeah, happy PALentine's" and she said something about how she's never had a Valentine in her 20 years. Me in my head: same. And Andy was like, "Me too. I don't think." Me: huh? but you had a girlfriend, possibly girlfriends, but none for V-day? and then he was like "oh, maybe I did" x'D)
As I was leaving, I was texting Arlene. Here's how the text went:

Me: I CANT. I CANT BE AROUND HIM LOL// I could barely talk to him normally.
A: omg HAHAHAHA AWWW
Me: Nope. Nope. NOPE. lolol
A: *crying laughing emoji* 3x

At Boba Bar, we just talked a lot. It was funny because the topic somehow got to talking about the past. (all related in a way lol) It's really hard to summarize what we ended up talking about, because it was literally everywhere but it was really funny! I laughed so much. I mentioned that I went on a hike with a classmate, and she was all attentive with that smile of hers, and curled her hair behind her ears LOL I didn't tell her about 'til later though.
On the walk back, I guess I really wanted to talk about it again so I asked her if she wanted to hear about it, but we were almost at our parting intersection, and she was like "tell me. cross at Williams (which was her apartment street)" So I had to summarize everything within a block. At Williams, she was like "let me know when there's a 2nd date" OMG x'D

My text with Arlene continues:

Me: Its been a while since I talked bout crushes & i just met up w my friend w steph & we were just talking bout the past. And then she wanted to hear about the hike so I summarized it w/i one block to her house. Lol oh lawd i need to stop talking bout him *blush emoji*
A: omgggg HAHAHA that's so sweeeet
Me: & i hate that its vday LOL 
Me: -crying cat sticker img-
A: omg nooooo it's ok have these photos from my downloads LOOL
A: -images of random cute/funny animals- 3x

But yeah, the fact that I even mentioned "crushes"... it's been a while lol. She also knows about Lee already too :p Anyway, I didn't mean to expose so much of our text lol

I don't know why, but I'm really dreading class tomorrow AHAHAHA
I am totally overthinking... ^^;

I'm super sleepy right now. I just finished my PHYS homework.

Today was a fun day though. Facebook group for class --> looking for acorns. Katherine said there were acorns at Alum Rock Park, so Andy said he'll drive there and "Feel free to come. Or I'll just go by myself. That's cool. I won't be sad or anything." AW. I didn't want him to go pick acorns for the whole class by himself, but I didn't know him to go with him. I waited for someone to reply but only Haruka commented, to say thanks and to remember to get them acorns LOL I was freakin' out before I posted because I though it'd be weird since we don't "know" each other? but I finally commented, after Haruka, that I'll come along, so I met him at the art quad. (He didn't let me know he parked, so he ended up waiting for me at the quad ^^; )

On the way to the quad, he messaged me to let me know he was there and said "Looks like it'll just be us two hopefully that's ok?" and I was like awww so nice! That was so polite of him to make sure it was okay for me for us two to be alone. Because we literally "don't know" each other. He tried to make a joke during the message, but I didn't get it because I didn't know the guy he said and he was like "Don't worry about it/ that was a super dumb joke." I sent a blushing Pusheen sticker and said "Sorry LOL" and he said "It's ok/ It wasn't witty/ Or even smart/ I just say things" and I was like ALKSDJF as I was walking to him.

He got up to greet me and was like "Justina?" Like, uh, yah? LOL I just nodded and we shook hands. Me in my head, why so formal LOL he said "I don't think we really met" when we shook hands and I said, "mhm, just in the same classes." And he just started talking as we walked to the parking garage. Uh, I realized he walks fast LOLOL I thought it'd be awkward, but the walk there was okay because he talked a lot lol I guess the only awkward thing was I would try to say something, but it'd accidentally cut him off LOL We got to the garage, walked up the stairs. To the 5th floor. WHY WE NO TAKE THE ELEVATOR. But anyway, as we walked up the stairs, he said that after he posted it, it sounded creepy. He's "that" guy, who tells someone to hey, come sit in a car with a stranger to go some place. My response: "It's not like you're gonna kidnap me" (I think). And he said just saying it like that sounded creepy LOL and people saw the post but didn't respond and he was worried people might think that lol but I said, "Naw, I don't think people thought that." He said that Haruka replied so it kinda made up for it and that he was glad that I offered to go along. awww.
Andy has a really nice 2-door Scion. Short, but nice haha. So the "rules of his car," as he put it, is that the passenger has to navigate lol On the spiral drive out the garage, we were talking about how he doesn't look like an otaku LOL because he apologized for listening to his anime music, and I had to tell him I listen to it too. And he mentioned Vocaloid, which is how we got to how he didn't look like an otaku LOL When we were almost there, we were following behind motorcyclists, and he brought up how he loves motorcycles and stuff.

When we got to the park, it was literally trails? So we ended up hiking. It was about 3 hours with him hiking up the trail, so that's too much to cover. Just know, he talked a lot LOL his excuse was because he had milk tea and 3 coffees yesterday, and he slept late. (Oh, he was just getting out of his sickness). When he said he wanted milk tea afterward, I said he just had it yesterday and he said he can't enjoy yesterday's milk tea today lol and then he suddenly dropped the bomb that he and his girlfriend broke up. It was a long-winded correlation, but it was because he was saying he likes to live in the present, and the analogy was, when he and his girlfriend broke up his friends told him at least you have your memories with her and he said he doesn't want the "memories," but to be in the present (with her, I guess?)
It was a fun hike. At the beginning we just talked a lot about anime lol Like what kind of anime we watched etc. He was thirsty because he forgot water. He was like "there's running water! should I drink it?" LOL (On the drive I told him he should've told me to bring him water and he was like, "I can't just say hey stranger, bring me water. And I said I would've still did it, and he said "well, I didn't know you, but now I know." LOL) Luckily, we managed to find a water fountain on the way. We also picked up a large pinecone for him, which I carried. On the hike up he said, "I'm glad you can walk." Me: ?? lol and he mentioned how Gia and Celine would've been out of breath already ahaha. I told him we weren't dressed for hiking, nor did we have water LOL We ended up going to the top, climbed a large rock to get a better view of the sun setting. I climbed the rock after him, but I was wearing my sweater on the front of me, and it was really windy so the hood kept flying in my view. Plus it was difficult climbing with a pinecone. There wasn't much footing near the top, and I was too scared to continue, so I just crouched. We were still talking, and then we had eye contact, and I said "I'm scared" so he had to come over to help me up LOL He literally had to pull me up. Uhm, I don't think I trusted anyone else with my life except Tong LOL

We saw quail on the hike~ <3
Anyway, we went back to a tree we passed to look for acorns. Our first time passed it, we saw only caps. So on our way back down, we really looked hard for them. And we found a few, but most were babies. I found most of them LOL A lady asked us what we were looking for lol I let Andy do the talking. Anyway, he was looking out for me when I was climbing the lil' incline up to the tree, and I'd pass the acorns to him. The sun was setting and he said we should go before it gets to dark. So we finished gathering and started going down. On the way down we spotted a decaying bird wing with feathers attached. I think I kinda told him I want a feather? I forgot how lol but I told him I had notepad paper; I gave it to him so he plucked a feather and we put it in the pinecone/acorn bag. He went for another one; this one was attached to the wing bone still. So I had to help him snap the tip. I tried to step on the bone but missed lol it was on a decline. I had to support my weight by holding on to his shoulder, and I stepped down on the wing bone and he pulled the feather off. Afterward I gave him hand sanitizer because he touched the wing LOL We finally got down, and he drove us to Sweet Corner. He asked me where I wanted to go but I said he could choose. We took the wrong freeway LOL aigoo, I always panic and give wrong directions lol but we got back on track. At one point, I said "how are you driving 40-45mph but it feels so fast? xD" and he goes into explaining his car and speed and race cars lol. He said acceleration on turns feel faster than acceleration going straight; it was true. Sheesh, his turns were really sharp, even though they really weren't. Sharp as in, I had to resist the force? I don't know how to explain lol but it was fun; his car was manual.
On the way there, he was saying he was getting sleepy, and that the mountain was really tiring. I said something along the lines of "crashing from the caffeine" lol At Sweet Corner, there were cakes~ but I thought we were going to grab our drinks and go. Nope. He said "let's unwind for a bit." So we just sat there for a while. He finished his Thai Tea really fast and I said that, and he said "I'm thirsty AF" LOL He looked at his watch and said "we should at 7, or whenever you want." And when I asked him why me, he said it's because he chose the place, so I should choose when to leave. OY, decisions decisions. Since I didn't want him to get home too late, I just said "let's go" after a minute or two. And then he dropped me off at home, and I took home the pinecone and acorns. (AH! I forgot to tell him to drive safe...)
His heater was... really good. Like, it was so hot. Because he was recovering from his sickness, he was still cold after the hike (it was really windy on that rock) and I guess I just warm up faster than he does? And he turned on his heater. There was a fan blowing right in my face and it was so hot. I got home with a red face I think. It's a really good heater because it was only on 1, and on the lowest heat setting but it was still so freakin' hot LOL His car is still cool :p
I think he waited a bit for me to get to the stairs before leaving. Or not. Lol I didn't turn back.
Genai had commented an hour later, like she would've joined if she saw the post, but I enjoyed our time alone lol because we got to know each other a lot. I wonder if we'll go back to being awkward classmates... lol
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Also, I got home and got a notification from Lee. He "waved" to me on Messenger. So I waved back. I thought it may have been an accident that he waved so I said "?? lol" and then he was like "how you been?"
Me in my head: ??
But I answer casually. And when I said "hbu?" he said he got back from a "being in a drama." Note that I'm still hyper from hiking with Andy so my brain is overthinking so many scenarios right. Like, I know Lee wouldn't message me after so long unless something's up, and I really hoped it didn't have anything to do with his girlfriend. The fact that he mentioned 'drama' felt like he wanted to talk about it so I asked "should i ask bout this drama?" and he said "you should/ lol/ but it's up to you." So, I let him vent. (At first he asked if I was still in SJ. I hope that wasn't a precursor for "meeting up" if I was in Stockton kind of thing :p ) So then he dropped the bomb: "My girlfriend just broke up with me lol" (By the way, it was a stupid reason she decided to break up with him) It's a delicate subject right? I mean, I don't know. It's only delicate depending on the person, so I was really cautious that I wasn't helping him make decisions. I just asked the questions. After a few other messages I asked, "And how are you feeling?" He said "Idk/ I'm supposed to be heartbroken but somehow I feel happy" so like, hey, if you feelin' good, then the break up is no big deal LOL and that's what I told him after I asked if he wanted to get back with her. He said "Definitely/ No/ Lol" I said "Ahh, in that case, is no big deal?" followed up by "Dude, i feel bad, like I'm telling you not to get with her/ But like, whether you want to really depends on you" and he flat out said "I don't want to"
Me in my head: then why are you messaging me...??? Like, I thought he wanted to vent because he was sad or something. And he was super positive afterward... LOL weird...
Also, because I haven't talked to him in so long, I found that his many uses of "lol" were odd because I still remember him as a person who doesn't really use lols or stickers/emojis. Usually I'm the one who spams stickers, but he ended our convo with a (:p) sticker and a thumbs up. Like... is this the Lee I know? hahaha Anyway, I just find it really weird that the unexpected messages from Lee tend to be timed around when I finish hanging out/messaging with a guy LOL (alone sometimes at that o.o) Like, if you read previous posts where he's involved, it's either I just messaged Robin/Deilys/Victor or I just came back from hanging with them or something LOL
Weird...

Ah the post ended up being super long because so many things happened > < I tried to eliminate stuff, but, haha, no can do when I want to write it all. Andy messaged me after he got home, I guess, and after talking about the acorns, I asked if he washed his hands. He said "Uhhh/ If we're thinking fourth dimensionally/ I already did when I get* home" LOL I have no idea what he meant but I just said "LOL ok good/ Now go get some rest :p dont get sick again" (nagging him already LOL) and he tried to joke around again but it flew over my head. Again LOL Then I showed him my taped feather later that said "Erm, dont really need to clean it right? ^^; " and he replied "LOL/ Bruh that dirty A F" LOLOL he so fun to talk toooo, I really wish we could stay, y'know, friends.
Lol, anyway, I should really sleep. Darn my eventful day LOL
Steph napped liked around 12:30am... I should wake her to shower after I wash up.
*his actual typo :p

Welp. I had CS minor advising this morning. I was pretty nervous, but the advisor was really friendly! Reminded me of Inga. She said it's not impossible, just really difficult and very unlikely. She's still letting me try though, so I gotta do paperwork...

Then I met up with Jessie so she can get Philz and I ended up getting Gongcha, and delivery for Hsiu Hsiu. Took Jessie to the pencil test lab, and got there to be greeted by David and Justin. AWK. Hsiu Hsiu had gone to the SU for food. ^^; Later I went with Jessie to eat before she left for work. When I got back, another surprise. Lol. Monique and Jewlinna were in the seats on either side of me lol

Later Arlene joined us~ Ah, I was so focused painting my walnut I didn't check my texts. So she called me, and my phone was loud x'D playing EDM (Virtual Self - "Particles" was my ringtone) LOL So we just kept working because we were waiting for James Baxter's presentation. Justin kept talking about his love life with Tiffany and Monique ^^; (Also, Arlene and I went out to film reference for PHYS homework. Tiffany and Justin happened to be walking back from the SU. Arlene was filming me, but she didn't see but Justin asked Tiffany, what's that for? lolol)
So yeah, we're working in the pencil test lab and suddenly Dave Yee opened the door to introduce us as "oh, these are our younger students" lol we didn't know what was happening, just thought they were giving a tour to someone. We just automatically said hello. Dave asked if they wanted to go in, but the guest was already walking away. After they left, we started talking amongst ourselves lol It was freakin' James Baxter x'D
After a while, Jewlinna left for the auditorium. 10 minutes after, Arlene was like let's go, so I started packing up. Then Justin and Aerik got up too. Tiffany was like, "are you guys going already?" and they were like yeah, she was like "so early!" and Aerik: "I like to get there earlier" xD When I went out to meet Arlene, I told her how I thought they started packing because we did lol (Justin offered Hello Panda cookies to us earlier, but I kinda just looked at it because I was still thinking but the others didn't respond to him. And he was like "oh okay" awkwardly, and I felt bad, so I took one LOLOL)

The James Baxter presentation was pretty awesome~
We had to wait out in the lobby though because they were still setting up. It was so hot. Uli came in and we had like eye contact twice. The first time was like, both of us had flitting eyes and weren't sure if we should maintain eye contact. Ugh, we both weren't sure if we should say hi LOL Our 2nd eye contact was a little longer, so we did say hi. It was such an awkard hi toooo ToT Because he had pretty much passed by us. And it was too crowded for him to raise his hand to say hi, but he moved his arm back to sorta wave. Oh it was so awkward. The exchange was between me and him, and I was with Arlene and Elaine. Arlene asked me if he was saying hi to me or her. I forgot how I answered, but I think I just said me really quick and followed up with that was such an awkward hi. I could feel my face heating up. Was it turning red? Let's just say the lobby was getting too hot. Aigoo, must be because I haven't really seen Uli in so long OTL.
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I loved his animation demo, and it made me want to animate. There were non-ANI majors sitting behind us, and they fangirling over the animation for this one animation I haven't watched. At the end of the presentation, the guy in front of us were like "we love you!" (non-ANI LOL) and as everyone was leaving, the girls behind us were talking to each other, about how they're gonna go to the next one too. LOL. NICE.
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I walked Elaine to her car, and then met up with Steph to go to Gongcha. Wow, her co-worker Matthew was working again. It was probably the third time that he and Huey were working and we were customers. I was in a really good mood, so I sorta waved to him when Steph went to get her check and he glanced over the counter. I don't think he saw my wave hmph. Matthew's like, so adorable??? He has a funny laugh and dorky smile. He always plays TWICE for Steph? and complies to Steph's song requests? haha and with Steph's personality toward them, she jokes/teases them, so yeah. I was laughing a lot today. Erm, so me and Steph literally got the same drinks as last time. And I mentioned to her we got the same drinks as last time, and I think he tried to guess my sugar level lol. He made my smoothie and he filled it to the top, to the point it kept spilling lol Meanwhile, Steph's milk tea was a little low LOL
Steph requested BTS songs, so Matthew happily complied, then Huey got "mad" (because he always goes against Steph lol) and Matthew "fought" him off before he could change the song. Lol he kept kicking Huey back to the kitchen. One time, Huey changed the song and then he back hugged Matthew and Matthew kept yelling at him to get off, while laughing. The first time I almost choked on my smoothie LOL Toward the end, I was kinda just staring off into space, and had like a 2 sec eye contact with him. Every time we were there and he's making drinks, he always looks over and then we just all burst out laughing lol
I really like him, but probably not in that way LOL He's a fun and nice dude lol
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Gah, I have "work" with Arlene tomorrow, and we gotta go to the zoo too.
I should sleep now eek.

Uwah! Today hip hop was tiring~
Jonny taught today and uwahhhh I feel like I haven't seen him in forever? I mean, I have in photos and stuff but YO. IN PERSON.
OMG FANGIRL MOMENT. My spirits were waaaay high when I saw him walking toward us, yellow FIFA (?) hoodie, and black dance sweats (what are they called? lol) and YO. HE JUST MODEL STATUS AIGHT.

I was walking to them, but there were very little people? Jonny wasn't here yet. BJ saw me first and he waved and then I awkwardly waved with all my stuff in my hand (I carry my phone and water bottle) and he was still waving. And I think he was waving with both his hands? So I had lowered my hand at first, but when he continued waving, so I waved both my hands at him. Some time during this, Vira saw me and waved too LOL

Amy & Herman were behind Jonny (not directly) & I was super happy because I haven't seen Amy in so long! So I was excitedly waving both my hands at her. There was a guy in front of me who I have never seen. So I was lowering my hands while scanning my eyes left, and then Jonny and I had a short eye contact and he raised his hand in a sort of wave gesture. And I wasn't sure if he was greeting the guy in front of me or if he thought I was saying hi to him. Automatically I gave him a nod of acknowledgement just in case and quickly looked away. Afterward I was trying to process all that. Uh, the guy in front of me didn't even respond to him? So I'm pretty sure he didn't know Jonny... lol. And obviously, Jonny wouldn't know him. Uhm that guy's mom(?) also came to pick him up or something? She was recording him. How cute...? ^^;
Some of the dancers thought she needed to move her car or something, because we never have elders here, so they were like "CAR." to Jonny. Jonny turned off the music, apologized to the group who was gonna dance, and then turned to the dancers who said car. Jonny was like "where?" Literally, everyone was looking in the lady's direction, but she was also looking around. We figured there was no car needing to leave, so the dancers peaced him out (they were already on their way to leave) and Jonny started the music again. It was a weird moment lol

Anyway, so after workshop ended, I wanted to go give him a hug, because like, it's my only chance LOL I was sitting down and he be walking back and forth in front of me. Usually I leave right after workshop ends. So I finally get up (he already passed me) and say bye to Amy & Herman who were heading off to Modern (Akbayan dance) and then I walk passed him, made short eye contact:

Me: thanks for teaching -bows a little-
Him: thank you for coming -returns bow with hands together-
Me: -bows a little as I walk off-

I backed out of the hug in the end LOL I continue walking toward Matthew to give him a hug and say bye. I think Dillon was with BJ and Vira, so I was walking away and Dillon yelled bye to me (he still calls me Justine) and so I waved back to them. (Dillon came midway in the dance, and he was also in the back. He was walking toward me, and then I looked over at him and then he noticed me and gave me a hug)
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Other than that, classes were okay? Jef was joking around like usual. Owen had to keep our sketchbooks because he didn't have time to mark them. Eek. I didn't finish the 7 trees... I hadn't really been eating a lot the past few days? And last night I didn't eat dinner, so I knew my stomach would probably end up growling in class. It did, and Cindy who was next to me heard it. At first it was a short grrr, but then it was longer that I had to hold my stomach. Me and Cindy kept laughing at it 'cause it happened like 3 times? And the last time, she was drinking water and it happened. She almost choked on her water? We bursted out laughing, and she was like "It's just so cute. I just want to feed you." Like, aww Cindyyy x'D I barely talk to her :p We had 112A together like 2 semesters ago, and just started talking to each other more because we sit next to each other.
I was really tired because I had woken up around 6 because I was gonna do my trees. I woke up, didn't feel like it, and went back to sleep. Had a short, stressed "nightmare" and woke up thinking I was late. So yeah, I was sleepy, but I was in the pencil test lab to do my animation rough for 114 (my last class). I thought I'd take longer, but I finished pretty fast, so I went to do my coding, but wasn't really able to finish the assignment. I thought my rough was pretty crappy and was worried about what Jef was gonna say about it. But he was like it was looking good :o
Oh yeah, I was taking notes and suddenly I felt my hands trembling. Also, it suddenly got very hot, and I was feeling all tingly. Guess who was low on sugar? ^^; I told Hsiu Hsiu that I wanted candy, and Vivian gave us some Swedish Fish. I don't really like them, but I needed the sugar so I ate some. I felt better afterward. Accidentally ate all her fishies ^^;

In class, he kept telling us to not put down our own work, and told us a story about he had an interview. And the guy came in, saw his portfolio, and said "that's some good work." My professor, being young then said they weren't good. So the guy packed his portfolio pieces back in my professor's folder and left. The receptionist told him he was done. A week or 2 later, my professor gets the courage to call them and ask about it. They told him, "you said it sucked." So basically, if it sucks, it wasn't worth looking in to?
Basically, even though you don't like it or think it was good work, someone else is going to have a different view of it. You telling them, oh I messed up here or this part sucked is literally telling your viewers to find the mistakes and flaws, even though they wouldn't have seen it if you hadn't pointed it out.
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After hip hop, I showered and waited for Jim because she was making a delivery~ Mmm and then I ate dinner kekeke

I AM SO DONE WITH THIS EGG.
I've been working on the egg since like 12pm. I did well and all, only for my classmate to tell me my values did not have enough contrast so I redid it. Now theres a lot more darks. But is it too dark? Aiyah.

Also, I was watching Maji LOVE LIVE 6th stage. Not HD but OMG. STILL LOVE.
Hontoni saikou suteji! <3 

HEAVENS' first stage, & OMG they were crying so much ToT
MAMO. WHY YOU CRY SO MUCH.
Terashii & Mamo are such best friends omg <3
Tattsun is so adorable? like?? Maeno's makeup & hair is <3 (Dude, Maeno's so cute??)
Kiryun's seiyuu is so cute?? hahaha
Daiki's adorable~
My precious loves.


Also, watched 연애하루전 (A Day Before Us) on Youtube. The English subs are slow updates, but it's really cute! And the OST is <3 Watching that led to a Dingo playlist called, When a Man Loves a Woman, I think? I thought it was a live-action of A Day Before Us because they were so similar haha

Ah... I feel like I have lots to do this week ^^; I'm not procrastinating.. at the same time I'm procrastinating on other stuff? Well, I've been waking up pretty early lately anyway. Let's make it a habit? I'm probably gonna die mid-way into the semester LOL

Alright, time to go fold my laundry & get ready to sleep... & fall in to post-6th stage feels ToT
I LOVE UTAPRI

I'm currently taking the Sexual Assault Prevention education thingy. So many freakin' slides, when am I doneee I just want to sleeeep.

But anyway, I'm on the trauma section. And they mention that trauma causes them to recall the event hesitantly or have difficulty recalling things in a linear fashion... so if studies show that trauma impacts memory... why do lawyers question rape victims in such way and says they're lying because they couldn't recall things? Like, wouldn't the question be invalid anyway? (or does this only happen in movies, lol, with the questioning etc)

Finally done OTL
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Today I woke up early to go work with Arlene in the ART building, but I got distracted by Uta no Prince-sama: Shining Live lol I played too much xD I was confused at first, but I think I'm getting the hang of it. I finally headed over at around 1:30 LOL Mckenzie brought leftover Psycho Donuts from work! Worked for a bit, and then we went to the SU for Starbucks. Afterward, we went to 14F. Gah, I spaced out and was daydreaming here and there. And thinking about all the things I want/need to do.

Afterward, I walked Arlene to the parking garage, and then she dropped me off at home. It's been a long day ^^; I've been pretty productive this semester? Hahaha. Ate dinner of curry. After I showered, I tried to catch up with the Google/Udacity thing. 1 hour of basics OTL. Am I ever gonna catch up ahaha

Steph just came back from ASTRO's concert. She seems dead again ahaha. She's showering right now, which means she'll be sleeping soon. My tummy hasn't been feeling well because it's here. At least it'll be gone when Jonny teaches at hip hop! Speaking of hip hop... guess what Dillon surprised us with yesterday!? Choreo to "I Need a Girl"! I was really feelin' it last night haha and because I'm super familiar with the song, I didn't forget the moves, and I was pretty much on beat. Definitely my most confident dance ahahaha I was center back for the group! kekeke. Also, I was super happy when Dillon brought Beau ahaha.

It's been a good week. Trying to be super productive because I have lots to do ToT

Currently nomming on Hokkaido Melon Kit-Kat from Japan~
Ahh I'm really sleepy right now, but I still have homework to do.  ^^;

Yesterday was a good day~ It's been a while since I last animated traditionally lol FAIL.
Anyway, it was a good day because hip hop was fun! Also, because Steph treated me to Gongcha and then walked me to hip hop. I thought I was late, but Matthew hadn't even arrived yet. Thien from Parang greeted me. Vira brought his Dachshund, Beau! Beau was so adorable~~ I gave Matthew a hug when he arrived, and Vira gave me a hug too, interestingly enough LOL like, we hardly talked. We knew of each other though xD Then there's same ol' same ol' Anthony haha. 
Matthew taught the choreo to Chris Brown's "Is This Love" and hm, I was feelin' it? lol When it came to the group dances, Matthew split us into pairs since there were only 14 of us. But then he made us switch our partner to someone we don't know/talk to. I'm glad Thien decided to partner with me because he's so peppy haha so much moral support; it was fun. For the last 8 counts, he had us choreo a groove with our partner. Fuhhh I was freakin' out so much lol but Thien was like, just have fun. And I was thinking, had I partnered with the other girl, we would've been screwed ^^;
While waiting for our turn, I went to play with Beau. He/she sat on my lap~ sooo cute~ and it kept nudging its nose into my hand; I ended up covering its eyes here and there lol I didn't want to let him/her go. When it came to our turn, I of course messed up a bit, but at one part Thien messed up and forgot what the next move was. For some reason, I had the extra energy and courage to keep going? (Matthew gestured toward me with the face that said, what? she gots it! lol at least, that's what I got at a glance) He turned to look at me and exclaimed "ah that's it!" and he kept going afterward like nothing happened xD We finished with our grooveeee woot woot!

It was such a good time that I took the initiative to say bye to Matthew (usually I just sneak away lol)  BJ (a choreographer who taught us before but I never talked to) made eye contact with me as I moved away from the hug with Matthew, so I waved to him. I said bye to Celine, waved to Anthony who was ecstatically saying bye to me, and then Vira saw that I was leaving and he waved too. D'awww everyone~ <3
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This morning I met up with Arlene to work in the Pencil Test Lab. Stupid me forgot my egg, so I walked back for it. [A quick note. This girl came in and sat across from me. She had headphones on, looking at her laptop, and started vlogging? saying, "Right now I'm in the Pencil Test Lab, and I'm gonna be doing some work... etc etc" and the girl next to her just kinda glanced over. You know, when someone is talking loudly in a place where you should speak quietly? A little later, she asks "So, uh, did you pass portfolio review yet?" I look up at her. She's staring at her laptop, so I thought she was talking to someone else. So I continue helping Arlene. A few minutes later she repeats it again. I give her a quick glance; still looking at her laptop, so I ignore it. Again, it happens. I look at her, the girl next to her glanced at us and said, "I think she's talking to you" quietly and I point to myself and I ask the girl "are you asking me?" and she says "yeah" and I'm like whoops in my head lol So I answer that question, and then she just starts asking me question after question! I answer stiffly with some awkward laughs here and there. Afterward, I just had to text Arlene because that was such an awkward interaction.
I also gave her and Celine a cheesecake cupcake, and they both liked it. Yays~

I only had MATH 42 today. I did pretty much all the homework last night, thinking we had a quiz today. But it was next week. And then I headed over to the Blue Sky Studio presentation. Later I chilled with Arlene, Celine, and Gia in the SU before heading home to make curry.
The curry took me about 2 hours to cook? but just in time, because Jessie got out of class! The curry rice was good. Kune was also there for dinner. They and Steph got seconds, so I'm glad! ^^
Also! John's back!? Like, what a surprise! haha He's moving back here for school tomorrow; right now he's commuting from Santa Barbara or Monterey...

I also got my Believer's Package and it's so freakin' amazingggg! Taking the CDs out of the case was so difficult though xD It felt like I was going to snap it. I was stressin' so much ahaha. I'm feeling good because I'm excited for the next 2 days: SHMeeting = new hoodie! on Thursday; Dillon's teaching at hip hop; 14F on Friday, Best of Ottawa~

OH! I totally forgot to mention that I got accepted into...


I totally missed this when I checked my e-mail? and totally forgot about it, 'til one of the project manager's reminded me, and I was so confused LOL I'm a week behind but I'll working on Android Development. Ah, there's just so much to do, but we'll make it happen~
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Ah, I didn't mean to post so much. I really am sleepy, and it's a long day tomorrow, so I'ma quickly do 2 tree drawings and sleep

Yay! So yesterday Steph and I went to Round 1 with Jessie, though she left early 'cause she had work, but my goal was to get a Pomeranian plush. The game was to know down a bowling pin keychain from a zip tie on a metal grid with just a screw. What are the chances right? We almost gave up, but my determination to obtain the plush made me waste money LOL but! I finally got it! (Named it Clover because of the 4-leaf clover on its head and the luck we had to get it xD) We couldn't believe ourselves when the screw actually hit the zip tie :o Anyway, apparently it's not as hard as it seems because by the end of the day, all the Poms were gone x'D
We spent the rest of the day at Round 1, time play, and I was pretty tired lol Also, I was breaking in new shoes, so the back of my heel was chafed and bleeding.
I woke up this morning with sore inner thighs. Like, I've never been sore there. How do you stretch it? ^^; I do think it's because I was tip-toeing a bit to lessen the chafing and I walked a lot like that LOL weird...

Today I went to play badminton with Jim, Alin, Nancy, Tong, Qi + her boyfriend and his brother, and Liang. Super. Rusty. o.o It always pressures me when I play with Tong but I know he's nice about it ^^; and then we had BBQ and hot pot at Hot Point Station. Linda's boyfriend came. I ate so much, that by the time we left, I was a Wigglytuff and super uncomfy walking. We went to Happy Lemon though for milk tea lol and I rode Liang's car while Jim rode in Qi's. I thought it was going to be awkward, but it was okay LOL He got so skinny and his haircut made him look like a baby x'D And then we went to Qi's place for a bit, but it was pretty late and everyone was tired so we didn't even finish the movie and went home. Ah, we're gonna be sore tomorrow? lol
Side note, I was going to bus to BBC to meet them, but it was going to take me around an hour to get there. Jim told the group that and Alin said they'll come pick me lol Jim said that when I told them this morning that I won't join them for lunch and maybe badminton and that I went back to sleep (it was early morning and I didn't feel like getting out of bed lol), Alin wanted me to go to badminton. AWWW. More love~ (I just remembered this after the next paragraph lol)
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It was the first week of school, and it seems to be going pretty good! My Tues/Thur class of Physics 23 is only every other Thursday so now I have a big gap between my ANI classes x'D Also, first day of ANI 114 with Jeff, I sat in the front with Genai and Jeff kept picking on me! LOL Apparently I'm "friendless" x'D I am so dead. I was laughing so much that I started tearing, but I didn't want him to see because he'll think he made me cry LOL He was going to stop, but he kept joking and apologizing lol This semester seems good.
On a side note, Arlene told me there will be openings at her workplace after her co-workers quit. I told her I was interested, and she told me her boss remembered and liked me and already got me a shirt with my name on it? AWWW. I feel so loved hehe Anyway, I think I'm pretty much secured with this job? ^^; Let's hope I don't jinx it hehe And the "volunteer" thing I did last year? I'll be helping her again, but I'm getting paid $60 this time? Interesting...

I gotta be up tomorrow to do homework, though I'm not too worried since class doesn't start 'til 3PM anyway on Monday LOL ugh, the stupid blog for my other class won't save my template changes -.-

Gyahhh! I finished Season 2 and it was a MESS but obviously, things worked~ and I can't stop blabbering to Steph about it keke somehow ended up summarizing S1 too... hehe. Maybe I should do some art because it was sho cute...

Ahh, school tomorrow. I'M SCURRED. Still debating whether I should drop Design... I don't know. Because it's a pre-req. for taking typography. I want to take Typography... but I guess I could learn new skills too? (they're not necessarily new either though ^^; ) and Yay! Got my Adobe renewed~ not like I paint on Ps, but it feels good to have it again ^^ also because I need it so I can correctly recreate my Ps brushes for CSP lol

I got back to SJ today. I bought a new chair and currently, it's very comfy! Though it took me quite a while to assemble. I also bought 2 frames for my prints that I could finally put up! Not the best (DIY) matting, but hey, it looks pretty nice ^^ I didn't have 3D foam stickers to make it "pop" more, but it'll do. I also managed to clean! But to be honest, they're just hidden in the closet and under the bed ^^;

Steph said she'll go Eastridge with me so I can get my Pomeranian at Round 1 ALKSJDF
Pray we get it, but the game seems hard? ToT
Anyway, time to sleep! Super nervous, but I'll be having lunch with Arlene tomorrow! :D

Currently at my sister's.

Last night I practiced "Want You to Say" & especially "Jebal" for so long, I'm so tired. My calves are just slightly sore. I don't know if it's the dancing or carrying heavy bags of stuff (met up with parents and grandpa at Chinatown) and/or after getting to Coach's (also, after ordering McD and Cool Tea Bar and walking to her place) that my whole body is starting to ache. Or, just me carrying my backpack and duffel bag to the bus stop and onto Bart that I'm sore. It hit me late.

Ordered Jonghyun's album. I don't care. I'm getting it. (I should really really stop spending ToT)
I'm still super sad that my NU'EST W photocard didn't come in yet! I'm really giving it until February...
Oh! Yadi also gave me her paintbrushes. Seems like she didn't use them yet? Though I don't know how's the quality... some of the hairs were falling out. Looks like oil paintbrushes. The other ones seem like watercolor or acrylic paintbrushes... Oh. Just looked it up. It came up on Amazon. The reviews were as expected: good for beginners/amateurs but definitely not the quality someone with experience would use. I don't know about the oil brushes, but the acrylic brushes seem good. I won't know 'til I test them though. Hopefully they aren't too bad. Grawr. I can't wait to start painting some stuff~ so many ideas~ and after turning in my sketchbook, and watching Leigh Ellexson's YT videos on her sketchbook, I really want to just draw/paint/color/ink without any worries. 

Ah, I got distracted by Coco's OST.

I drove to Jessica's today so we talked a lot, had flan and pizza, played with her guinea pigs and painted. Well, we were supposed to paint but I mostly watched Jessica paint, though I had an idea there but didn't end up painting it because Jessica's tubes of paint of were so small, I didn't want to waste them lol I did a sketch but really, I didn't do anything really, because I was busy watching "Okja." The ending made me cry~
Jessica was painting though; I made her work on her Hamtaro lol Next time, hopefully it's an actual sketchventure~
Later, I drove us to T4 and dropped her off at home.
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Heh!? It's already a week? lol timelapse because, I was writing that last Friday, but was too lazy to finish. Ahhh, I don't want to wrack my brain to remember stuff that happened. So, welp. Not like much happened anyway. I'm lazy and I want to watch my drama, so let me wrap this up.

Last night, pulled an all-nighter to scramble to finish my portfolio sketchbook. What a fail; I mean, I finished, but I crammed so many drawings. Are they even good? I do think I improved drawing cats LOL it looks like Latte! Turned it in this morning and slept until 4pm afterward. My hand was starting to cramp; I could feel ittt. Now I can relax... but after turning it in, I suddenly had so many ideas and things I want to do. But hey, what's new.

I also finished "Good Morning Call" yesterday! It was so cute! Gonna go watch the 2nd season now~ Need to read the manga too... Speaking of manga, there are so many cute ones on eBook Renta (rated though.... LOL not really, but yeah lol don't get wrong xD) So many cute anime I want to watch too... trying to get back my shoujo fluffy heart LOL
Also need to stop buying stuff... things haven't even arrived and I keep purchasing. Ooops. But. Definitely need to purchase Jonghyun's album when it's released on the 28th.... speaking of which, Believer's package is getting shipped out too, Woot woot!

If I stop blogging, I get lazy to blog afterward haha but anyway, last night I didn't sleep 'til 6:40am and didn't wake up 'til 6pm. Jobee came home to wake me, but I went back to sleep and she napped. While doing her homework last night, I was watching "Miss Rose" and watched so many episodes lol I thought I was close to done but it actually had 35 episodes lol

Anywho, I ate dinner while watching "Itsudatte Bokura no Koi wa 10cm Datta" and I was crying since episode 2 to the end. My eyes still hurt right now ^^;
Afterward, me and Jo played "Doki Doki Literature Club." We still need to finish Natsuki's route. It wasn't too bad because we played without music lol
We had to reinstall because Monika destroyed the script... lol so while looking to re-download, we came upon a game called Nekojishi. The art was appealing; we looked at the trailer and read the description... it's a freakin' furry BL LOLOL /DED.

My eyebags are so bad. My lips are pale too so it makes me seem sickly lolol I really do need to sleep early. Tomorrow I'm meeting up with Jessica, and then Mon or Tues, I'm meeting up with Deilys.

I meant to watch Idolm@ster Side M but it's too late now xD Oh yeah, on the day I got picked up, I ended up catching up on a lot of Webtoon comics (mainly my BLs kekeke). "Super Secret" continues to be really cute, and "My Boo" ended bittersweet... </3
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> Nothing much happened on my last day of work. I boarded to work because I was running late. Boarding was risky, but I made it lol with 3 minutes to spare. (It was because I was watching "Hitorijime My Hero" lol) Work was slow as usual, but we got steady business, but still wasn't super busy. After closing, my co-worker Prianka(?)'s mom dropped me off.

> Mom counted my tips; it was around $300+~ I gave the money to her though because I don't want to deal with it lol. My 2nd check was about $840 or so. I already pretty much spent all that because my credit card bill was $800+ ^^; wow I don't know how though LOL It probably included bills from Dec. but I did spend quite a lot in Jan. already ^^; Really need to stop spending.... ToT

I'm finally home for my last weeks of break. I didn't get to see Meimei or Mina over winter break~ I mean I saw Meimei in SJ but I didn't even get to hang with them for long~ Wonder if I should stop by Davis hehehe

Currently watching "Miss Rose" with my mom and Roy is so freakin' cute! <3 I love his tsundere side. His character roles are always about the same though~ hehe. He always acts childish, throws tantrums, and overly protective <3

Ah,----
I was gonna blog but Jo is making me do her homework. I'll be back > > lol

So I didn't sleep 'til 6:40am because I still had to shower. But anyway, I went to sleep when everyone else was about to wake up lol I'll just make a new post.
Also, I think Jolly Rancher would've been a fun friend, if I didn't have a crush on him. But yeah, with my mindset now, I'd probably say, he's a fun friend I want to keep. Or something like that.

Reminder: last week/days of work. Purchases. Money/bills.

Quite a few stuff to mention, but I want to just do a quick quick update.

Last time, Minar also encouraged me somewhat to add him on FB and follow on IG, which I did, and which he accepted. Upon seeing his IG feed, I loved that video of him spiking alsdkfj lol but I also sorta died seeing his birthday post for his dance partner.
On the way to SF, I kept telling Minar and Steph I miss *ahem* LOL

Wednesday night, I was telling Jim about Chaz but she was too sleepy to really listen. Also, we got distracted having an argument with Siri LOL But I was just having a lot to think about and all of a sudden. An earthquake. 4.7 from Berkeley. We still felt the aftershock too. It gave me a little headache; probably because I tensed? Jim woke up thinking I was shaking her LOL That was the strongest, and felt like the longest, earthquake we felt. Earlier, Jen also took me to Japantown late at night. We didn't buy much; just a quick walk through Kinokuniya (surprisingly, nothing appealed lol) but I did buy "Kiki's Delivery Service" washi tape~ expensive but oh wells x'D

Thursday morning, we were late to babysit Caleb (Coach's baby). We were there for like 2-ish hours. I tried to sketch a lot, but did only 2.5 ^^; Coach came back and mentioned a box of plushies. I ended up bringing a small and large version of the seals home. They're really flat though LOL flat cushions. I'm thinking of opening them and stuffing them some more hmmm. And then we went to have dim sum with Jen, Isaac, Kyle, and ah Hill. I was really hungry, but after eating a little bit, I was already full. Afterward, we went with Jen to the eye doctor. Me and Jim went to a store called Beverley's Crafts. I bought ink pads and a pack of canvasses (who knew that they ripped us off though x'D the pack was on sale for $25 but the same pack but different brand of canvasses was at Michael's for $13) Well, Jim paid because I left my card in the car lol Then we went to buy cake because it was Isaac's birthday. Oh, we also stopped at Daiso afterward to buy some stuff. We went home, Jim went to work soon, and we had cake upstairs. It was awkward... and I felt bad for Isaac because his mom kept nagging him. I was literally observing; it was a super weird atmosphere.

This morning, woke up a lil' late, later than wanted lol Jen got back and we went out to Michael's. I'm so happy with my purchases~ I'm finally starting a stamp collection~ also got gold ink, and black and white paints, since mine are super low. I didn't buy the expensive brand though. Everything totaled together is still pricey, despite everything being on discount x'D Jim got tempted to getting a set of mini letter stamps. We went to Jen's workplace to pick up her birthday gift to Isaac. I think we went straight home after that. Even though we planned to go do Japantown again, nawhh.
It was a good day, but I don't know what happened. The fact that I had work soon and Jen was worrying I wasn't gonna get back to SJ on time? She just started getting moody and whatnot. Then she and Jim started an argument. I was just tryna cook for Jim. I felt like the whole problem stemmed from her wanting to go out shopping with Isaac because she didn't get to spend his birthday with him and because it's the first time he initiated going out, but that she needed to take me back to SJ too. But like Jim said, we already had plans because I was over, and he's always free so why she decided to cram all her plans with us and him on the same day. When we got back, the plan was she and Isaac go shopping and come back to pick me up after cooking. (To be honest though, with the drive, I don't think they could've done much shopping o.o) but she didn't because she thought of the traffic to SJ.
So yeah, their argument. Then Jen angrily went upstairs after replying to Jim, "Okay, it's my fault" (said huffily). And Jim wasn't trying to find anyone to blame; she was just stating the truth. So when Jen left, she was just complaining to me and started to cry, saying "see? all she does is yell" etc, that's why she doesn't talk to her or hang with her as much anymore, only because I was here, and because she places him so high in priority. I sorta agree. It's not like she doesn't see him at all. In my case, she literally doesn't see me, but she still prioritizes him instead. I mean, I don't really mind. It's also because if it was me, I wouldn't mind spending a day or two with my family instead of my boyfriend. Also, I can see that she's trying to balance time with him and us, but she doesn't do that very well. And with so little time after work, and the time it takes to drive to places and actually do stuff, you can already tell that trying to do everything you planned to was not gonna happen. You know, there's very little things that make Jim mad or sad, and that's usually family-related. The fact that Jim cried/stressed because of Jen and him, a few times is just... SMH.
At some point I was also thinking, none of this would've happened if I hadn't decided to stay over in SF. Chose the wrong time to (because it was his birthday and in the middle of the week).
I was going to have a chat/lecture with her during the ride, but decided against it because the mood was obviously dead and stifling, also, she would easily road rage. And seeing as her eye as an infection, wouldn't want to add to her difficulty of seeing of tears and rain etc. According to our past arguments, it would definitely pass over at some point... albeit a little more damp... (I don't even know what that means x'D)

So I'm home now. I tried to clean a bit. Where do I put my pack of canvasses? I have so many plans and ideas of stuff to do, but I'm either too lazy to do them or just don't have time ^^;
Steph got me a poster of watercolor sketches from "Serendipity" MV. It's so pretty under my cherry blossom and quote decal~ <3 I'm really into watercolors lately. I still want to purchase that watercolor painting from the gallery...
I still need to start on my bullet journal...
I need to start a journal for my washi tape and stamp collection, so I can actually use my washi tape without regretting x'D

Oh yeah, I was getting ready for work, but after I finished braiding my hair, I got a text from my boss Tom saying that because it was raining, I didn't need to come to work. I had a super short chat with him but omg my boss is so sarcastic and funny xD I feel conflicted over the fact that I didn't get to go to work today (probably Chaz's last shift) but also because I could've been in SF still, and we wouldn't have had to rush anything.

Also, feeling very slightly, slightly, SLIGHTLY hurt/depressed? because I think Chaz has a girlfriend now LOL She's his dance partner so it's all good with me. I mean, y'all know I just love "love"~ lol and they're cute together~ I told Minar all this. I'm probably not to the point where I'm heartbroken? but Eric Zhou's "How are you" kept playing in my head (probably because Jim was playing it in the car today lol). I guess I'm feeling glum because having a crush kept me occupied, my mind light and fluffy. I'm probably just feeling empty again.
If I ever really did like him that way, that "like" easily transfers over to a best friend kind of like. Because I really do love his personality! If we had become good friends, he'd definitely be a friend I'd love to keep in touch with :D

Ah, my laptop is dying and I need to shower. I'm feeling empty so I'll probably watch "Hitorijime My Hero" after I shower lol. Also, there's an AU fic going around for BTS called "Outcast" and yo, no joke, it's intriguing xD Me being visual with everything I read, is getting goosebumps and freaked out then and now LOL
EDIT: I'm really sleepy right now... and I went on a shopping splurge because stamps/embossing stuff were on sale??? x'D guess 2018 is a year for crafts etc. I have so many things shipping to me... I need a list xD Considering I made around $800 for my 2nd paycheck, I spent a little too much within a few days of the new year. I need to stop. I'M POOR. That needs to stick in my head lol

It's been a while since I had a crush? haha.
--I had started this post yesterday I think, but I got lazy to finish typing. Also because Jim distracted me haha currently in SF, but let me finish this....--

So yeah, crushing. To be honest though, I think I'm actually a little salty right now x'D We'll just start from at work on Tues, 1/2.
It was another slow night, so slow that Andrew wanted to send people home. No one wanted to go home though. He asked us how much we wanted to stay; everyone was kinda here for the money LOL and Joley said she was 50/50 about leaving and staying. As the night progressed (not even 2 hours yet) she said that she wanted to go home lol so she left early. Andrew also tried to call the other 3 workers who were coming in from 6-10pm to not come in, but Andrea was already on her way; the other 2 actually showed up, but they didn't clock in and went home. Andrea clocked in, was supposed to probably work for 30 min, but she ended up staying for her whole shift because Stephanie and Chaz went home early. 

Chaz and I were there early at work, so we were just standing in the back room waiting to clock in. We talked a bit, like very little. I don't even remember what.
It was slow, and I made myself a pretty early cup of chocolate. It only had marshmallows, and Chaz was like "Is it just gonna be like that?" and I tell him "No~ I need my whipped cream~" and he dare says "You're always like that." like ALKSDJF x'D
Quinn got some guy's number on a piece of paper. He just kept stuffing it to her, and from the coffee station, I thought it was trash LOL and I was wondering why he stuffed trash to her. Quinn said, laughing "I'm kinda scared to open this." She opens it and reads the contents. It was his number telling her to call him some time. Andrew took it and ripped it up lol He said something like nope and you don't know those people/they're weird. I don't know.
I also talked with Andrew about DDLC and it's weirdddd lol crazy xD Still gotta go finish that game with Jo.

I don't know why... but Chazny kept whispering to me? Ahahaa it was always a bunch of random stuff that he keeps telling me. One time we were serving this customer, and he had his hair styled. Chaz turned around and came close to my ear to tell me "I used to do my hair like that" and I guess we talked a bit about that? (His hair now is 50-50 part LOL) He was saying how he was lazy to style his hair. At this point, I also told him I didn't recognize him that one time lol.
Earlier, I think he was telling me that the only bad thing about this job was you couldn't sit. I told him to go sit on the chocolate boxes in the back room lol
His friends also stopped by. It was 2 girls and I wasn't sure if they were together so I went to stand next to Chaz (he's at the window serving). And before I even asked, Chaz lowered his head a little closer to me to tell me that they were his volleyball friends. I wasn't sure what to say that to that so I just smiled and nodded at them. The girl at the front quietly said "he's really good" and I still don't know what to say to that ^^; something like "oh~..." and an awkward laugh. But Chaz kept shaking his head saying no xD After they paid and stuff, Chaz was quietly telling me how they were the only friends he didn't manage to give free drinks because Andrew was right next to him, checking the tip box. And I was telling him, Andrew wouldn't have known if we had taken the money first or not, and that he didn't mind if we hit up friends. And Chaz was like "oh, then I'll give it back to her" (of course he was joking but he made the "attempt to") and I was like "nooo don't do that!~" like, scolding him. And he said "I'm just organizing~" and touching the money and I continue to whine no and playfully hit his arm.

I was sent on my lunch after Quinn. I just sat in the swivel chair and ate Twix. Chaz had asked me if I was on my lunch too. Toward the end of my lunch, Chaz was sent on his 10 minute break. When I finished I got up and he was like "are you off your break?" and I told him yeah. He happily took the chair with a sigh of relief, and mentioning how his back hurts/has a back problem. He decided to hug the back rest instead of sitting properly in it. After I clocked in, I was like "do you want a massage?" I was partially joking, but he gave me puppy eyes, and "offered" his back to me. So I gave him a massage. The first pressure/rub/squeeze or whatever you call it, he kinda jolted forward, and I thought I hurt him x'D and after double checking with him, he was like "no, that actually felt good" and I was relieved lol He was saying he's all tense/stiff because he hasn't been dancing" and I told him he should at least keep stretching and he said he's too lazy for that lol. We were joking around saying, "You're being paid to get a massage, and I'm being paid to massage you" lol and Andrew just looked us and nodding, giving us that "what the..." smile, you-guys-are-weird look lol (because we were both clocked in xD but I mean, no customers so whatever lol) and then he said "thank you, --- I love you for this, I feel so much looser." Something along those lines, and I just gave him a final pat on the shoulders and went on my way. [If you wonder if my heart went dugun-dugun, I gotta say, probably not? haha instead I was thinking if he's just too nice to tell me my massage sucked LOLOL; I told Steph this when I got back and she was like "oh. OH. Y'all WILD." LOL]
I told Minar I was "infatuated" ahaha it's been a while for me to even admit that lol so I must be quite smitten.

After Joley left, we used Andrew's bluetooth speakers. We kept switching "DJs." Andrew plays J-rock/"orcehstral metal" (I think that's what he said) from Pandora I think. And I was serving a customer. Suddenly "Silent Scream" plays and I started singing quietly and Chaz was next to me saying, "you would know it" but it wasn't even an anime song x'D

Chaz and Stephanie clocked out at 9:30. Before then, I was at a window and Chaz came over and asked if he should go home early. No lie, internally I was pretty much screaming NO, but appearance-wise, I had no emotional change. I told him, "uh, if you want to." He was still thinking about it. Later, he tells me he's gonna go home early. I was really regretting not telling him to stay, but like, for what reason did I have to hold him back? I think it'll just sound weird. My mood dropped so low when he left, I'm telling you. Even though he clocked out, he was waiting for his ride, so he was just joking around in the booth. I was at the coffee station, and he was leaving, so when he was leaving he said bye to us, and he punched me lightly on the shoulder, and I don't know why there was just a weird exchange? because I tapped him on the shoulder... Iuno it was all weird LOL
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Well that's the end of the work day. Uhm, nothing else haha

Wouldya look at the time.

I just finished lettering with my Speedball dip pen and silver ink on my painted galaxy sketchbook cover. Calligraphy really strains my hand and back ^^; but the outcome is super nice! I never thought to paint my sketchbook cover but it definitely makes me want to art more! instead of looking at the cover that says "mixed media".
I was going to start my bullet journal again, but I was too lazy to take out my rulers right now, so I'ma just blog about today, wait for my hair to dry and sleep. Biri came back today, so I don't think I'ma sleep in ^^;
Speaking of bullet journals, I was watching a lot of "plan with me" videos, and it seems everyone's Januray/2018 theme is gold and winter lolol so now I want some gold pens or inks. Speaking of my stationery stuff, I want to start a stamp collection lol

Today I baked potatoes, but I didn't evenly coat them with oil, so some stuck to the foil when I tried to flip them and I didn't evenly bake them so one side was a lil' more cooked. Biri came back then, and I was actually on Barnes & Noble's website. I purchased "Art of Blizzard" because it was on an incredible saleeee. Online only, so I got it shipped to me.
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Anyway, PMS-ing.
I don't know why but I was getting annoyed today at work? For the first time since I've started working there. Like, forreal annoyed. I think it's because Andrew (econ major) was working next to me and I just didn't like the way he was talking??? It felt like he was trying to tell me how I should be doing things and stuff, and sometimes when he asks me questions, and I answer them normally, he answers back as if I gave him attitude??? Like??? I don't even know. -huge sigh-
**distracted. look who bought more CDs??? but hey, I stopped myself from the other ones LOL**
So yeah. He was working next to me. And when I started getting annoyed, I was legit thinking, "can I switch with Ryan so I can work next to Chazny?" (I was seriously so happy to see him when he and Andrew & Ryan came from the other booth. And then I thought about that dream LOL) And then I guess what really hit me was, I was helping some customers and I had ordered coffee from Joley for another customer. I was occupied, but I knew Henry and them were asking about someone's coffee but I thought they had picked up the coffee from the window that was for the security guard. After I finished and went to grab my coffee, it was "swooped," as Joley called it. And then after going around, we found out Reese had thrown it out just minutes from when I went to get it. And then Andrew had the nerve to pretty much blame me??? Saying why I didn't say anything when they asked. UHHH first of all. They only said "coffee" so how am I supposed to know they were talking about my "large french roast" when I was finishing up with another customer? Second, if it's not your coffee... WHY'D YOU TAKE IT. (I don't know who took it, I just know I glanced and saw Henry holding a capped cup) Although I was laughing and joking it off, I was about to start crying??? but Joley made me a new cup really fast so yeah. Also because Chazny came back from his lunch so that sorta saved me too. (When Chazny was going off to lunch, he walked by me and I jokingly in my head was thinking, what if he hung his apron around my neck hahaha... WELL. He almost did LOL He asked "do you want a double apron?" and I shook my head while smiling and he made it seem like he was going to put it over my head anyway, but then he just smiled and continued walking toward the door) I was glad when he took the station next to me. He already made my day from joking around. We were just standing around, and Chaz was messing around, pretended he would squirt whipped cream on my counter, and after I said "don't do it" jokingly... HE DID IT ANYWAY. And I told him that he had to clean it up and he threw a towel on it instead of cleaning it with a napkin alskdjf this boy. And I pretended that I was going to put that whipped cream rag on his face and he was like "you wouldn't dare" LOL
We also chatted a bit. He was saying how he was going to enjoy his shift today, and I was like why. He said "Because I have you... -turns to his right- I have them two... -turns to the people on our left- those two... -turns to the back- them" I interrupt and say "that's everyone!" (technically said simultaneously) and he turns to the back room "and those two" and turns back to me laughing. 

It was a slow day so to be honest, a lot of us just milled about and found busy work ^^; I had 4 small cups of hot chocolate... wow. When Dan and I were going on our lunch, Chazny asked Liz if he could take a 2nd lunch after giving me a glance as I passed by, and asking if I'm going on my break, to which I said I was going on my lunch LOL (and then of course, it's gonna be me overthinking stuff) I just ate an It's-It for lunch. It was good~
(Skye and Kat were talking about how nice Henry's teeth were LOL and then he mentioned about how he and his girlfriend were gonna open a clinic together (Bekah already announced this to the staff earlier LOL) HOW CUTE. He said, next month is going to be 2 years together (me eavesdropping when he was talking to Ryan lolol))
When I got back from my lunch, there wasn't anything to do, so I joined Chazny at the coffee station. He was getting overwhelmed with so many coffee orders ahaha He asked me if I had anything to do, and I told him if Reese had anything for me~ and I looked at Reese at his right, and he was like "no, you can stay here and help me" or something along those lines. I ended up going on my Snapchat, and snapchatted us ahaha (Despite seeing me using Snapchat, he wouldn't add me hmph. LOL) Oh yeah, he and Ryan were roasting marshmallows in the fire... and he took out a flaming marshmallow omg LOL caught that on snapchat ahaha

At the end, we got churros from the other booth~ Also, Reese literally put everyone on their 10 minute break at the same time, so it was like a party in the back room. While we were cleaning up, I put my drink on the counter on the side. And even though Chaz knew, he jokingly said, "this is trash right~" while holding it up to me and I whined "nooo~" Of course he put it back on the counter. I refilled it and added whipped cream and stuff again and set it aside. They were cleaning the counters later, and whoever it was picked up my drink, but Chaz got it for me, telling them it was mine. And I got it back from him. I again, filled it up and added whipped cream (both times, it wasn't a full refill okay LOL) and I set it in front of the coffee station/pots. When we were pretty much done, I was going to grab my drink. Chazny was in front of it and he pointed to it saying "that's probably yours?" And I jokingly whined, "what's that supposed to mean~" and he said "nothing. you have a sweet tooth right?" to which I nodded.
Earlier when they were going to throw away the apple cider, Chaz had got a cup (this was before we closed) and I was manning the coffee station. I put a lid on it for him and lettered his name on it. He kinda left it there for a long while, but he came over to sip after refilling the coolers. He was digging under ice/ice water so his hands were red, so the hot apple cider warmed them. And considering how long he left it there, he was like "still warm." I looked at him and he asked if I wanted to try it. Of course, no, because I prefer sparkling cider LOL I was kinda disappointed he didn't say anything about my lettering (I had lettered "happy new year!" on one of the cups and Henry saw it and said it was cute ^u^) but when he came back a second time, he asked if I wrote his name, and gave me a smile, but was teasing me that I wrote his name like an equation, something about log and power LOL

While we were cleaning, he and Joley just kept dancing ahahaha I was standing by the coffee window drinking my hot chocolate, and he was cleaning the window and somehow... almost fell out the window LOL and he was saying "for safety reasons, I'm going to hook onto someone" and he hooked his foot on my ankle??? LOL
I don't know what song came up, but I was slightly behind him as he finished the coffee window counter and was going towards the front counters, and I guess it was a lit song?
And he literally... a sexy dance of sorts... no joke. Internally fangirled. It was like a body roll? Seriously, he was making me laugh all day. I was drinking my hot chocolate and he did it again in front of the counter, and I literally choked on my drink. Aigoo x'D I forreal love watching him (& Joley) dance.

So sorry this is way out of order, but things keep coming back to me lol so around like 9ish, 10, Liz sent people out to advertise because we were slow. Advertise as in, walk around with drinks, pretending they bought the drinks y'know LOL I was fantasizing in my head, what if they sent us to go but to be honest, it was going to be super awkward and embarrassing so I was glad they told Chaz to go. Liz said to not lose him, he needed to go with someone, and he chose to go with Ryan. So them 2 awkwardly went around LOL A couple... LOL I cannot. The second time they came back to "recreate their drinks," Chazny was... trying to be sexy at the door. OTL I cannot. He was so CRINGY. I literally got goosebumps. But at the same time it was so funny xD Liz was teasing them, that they legit look like a gay couple out there (naw, I don't think so though LOL) and she sent Bekah and Skye with them later, but not long, Bekah came back saying she gave up because it was super awkward LOL

Hm... seems like that's all.
So today was pretty rocky--with my mood--but thanks to Chaz, Joley, Henry, Bekah, Dan, Liz, and Reese, it ended up pretty fun again. ^^ I'm seriously going to miss everyone, especially Chaz of course, but yay~ I'll probably see him again tomorrow. (Not trying to be mean, but low-key glad Andrew has the day off tomorrow...)

Alright, how did this post take an hour to write. Lol. Because Chaz does too many weird things.
Also, last night I slept around 5am too because I was posting the digital galaxy speedpaint and I showered late. Goodnights now!
[Reading this must be as tedious as it is for me to write it all out xD]

Happy new year!
I can't believe it's already 2018.

I spent the new year with my co-workers! Oh how much I love them; they make me happy :3 (Although some of them though.... > >) ANYWAY. Nothing special at work today. Pretty slow. Random crowds here and there. It was also Reese's first shift as manager, though Liz was "babysitting" lol I worked with the Le siblings today~ (Henry, Randy, and Liz) There were lots of laughs today :3 I didn't get to take my 10min break... ^^; Tom also came by. And he checked on me that I got my tips back lol I feel bad making everyone worry about my tips. And every time he leaves, he always thanks me but I didn't do anything...?

The Ice Rink closed early today. CITP didn't need everyone, so me and Bekah clocked out (doesn't seem like she wanted to stay anyway lol) While we were finishing up at the ice rink, we were just standing around. Somehow I ended up between Henry and Randy lol And when I was helping to bag the trash cans, my apron fell, and Henry picked it up for me. Earlier, I was flapping my time card, and pricked my cheek, and I quietly said to myself "oww, I scratched myself" and he was like "are you okay?" At first I was ??? but then realized why he asked lol he's such a brotherly figure, I feel so loved :3 (shh, he has a girlfriend) We were all teasing Henry about his "year old boba" LOL because it was 2018 ahahaha. Also found out he's a graduate from UOP omg x'D for dentistry.
Oh, I was behind Bekah while we working and I was trying to get by, and her ponytail whacked me, like, right across my brows. Henry so happened to be in front of me and saw it all happen x'D

Hmm, seems like a good day.
Before going to work, I did a 30 minute digital painting of the same galaxy as the one I painted on my sketchbook cover. I think I really got into skies and galaxies ^^ so hopefully I'll explore more. I also feel like I'm getting more into traditional painting?
I've been trying to be active on Amino, and I posted my painting on the groups, and I got a really positive response. I've been feeling really good, really positive, so I've been thinking about some new year resolutions :3 Still not organized enough yet. Hopefully, 2018 will be full of creativity for me ^^
I also didn't wash my hair yesterday & slept with my braids on, so my hair was super curly (Jim called them curly fries OMG x'D) & I didn't want to braid them again so I was going to do loops, but they got messy pretty soon, so I just went with simple loose pigtails in the front :p
Anyway, I'ma try to do more speedpaintings or stuff this year. Covers? but I doubt I have time for that. Maybe going to SJSU hip hop :p And learning more recipes ^^
I cooked omurice with spam today ^^

Volunteered at SHMcon today! It was fun but really tiring. We hardly did anything as volunteers though ^^; Arlene and I literally walked around asking artists if they needed help, but they didn't want us helping them pack. In the end, an artist came looking for helpers, asked us if we were volunteers and if we could help them. We were like "yes, please!" lol and he joked like "(you guys were like) just give us something to do!" xD So we ended up carrying their stuff for them to their car, and chatted a bit. Most of the artists had already left by the time we got back to the ballroom. (Technically, Arlene's shift already ended, but she just stuck with me, since I was with her on her shift, but she didn't really do anything much either lol)

Aigoo. Yesterday when Jen dropped me off, I had a throbbing headache, so I ended up napping. Steph didn't come back after 9 so I thought something happened to her, or maybe closing took longer. After 12, I was like UHHH. So I ended up calling her lol She was just at work cutting chicken :p They took longer because there were only 2 of them.

Anyway, that headache. It was gone when I woke up from my nap. It almost sorta came back this morning. I got ready to go meet Arlene at SHMcon. Ah, when we got there, we saw Celine and Andy. When we were walking towards them she was nudging me alsdkf lol. Celine and Arlene went to the props table, and I was trying to pin my volunteer pin on my sweater, and Andy came over to greet me. ALSDKFJ I don't know why, I was pretty flustered for some reason. Maybe because he seemed so unsure or something when talking to me. He literally just asked me how's it going, and me tryna focus on the pin, waited and then said "I'm good, just woke up with a headache this morning" and he was like "aww" and I forgot what happened? I think I just walked to Arlene at the table and I had forgotten to return the question. WHY DO I ALWAYS DO THAT ToT It sounded like I didn't want to talk to himmmm and then we were getting ready for our photobooth picture and he told Celine he was gonna go, I didn't even get to say bye to him ToT REGERTS.
It bothered me the whole time the three of us walked throughout the con. Who knew that it'd take us an hour to visit all the tables. Celine also said my waves (I had braided my hair overnight) were cute TvT At the end, we took a break and ate snacks from BFA's bake sale. After we were done, we went around to actually buy stuff. Celine ended up saying an early bye to us so she can zoom through the tables since she had to leave for work. After Arlene and I finished buying stuff, we went out to eat pizza. I just had to tell her about the Andy incident. lol And she was like "but it's so long ago!" Me: "I know! but it was bothering me the whole time we were walking the con~" xD
After pizza, Arlene's shift was about to start, so she went ahead and I met her in there later. There wasn't much for her to do, so we ended up walking the con again LOL (I also noticed Andy had come back with his friends, chilling at the side tables) She also bought stuff, even though she was on duty. lol Someone asked for water, so we went to Starbucks for water since we ran out of bottled water. On our way to the door, Andy and his friends were also leaving, so we were walking towards each other. I pretended I didn't see, and faced Arlene, talking to her. And she goes "oh!" and starts nudging me LOL and I was like "I knuuuu" x'D Couldn't bring myself to greet him OTL.
Speaking of greetings. ULI. We saw Uli like 3 times today, and we greeted him (or at least, I) with a nod, and/or a silent hi. Why do I nod to people nowadayssss. I don't know when this habit came about hahaha. I think Arlene caught it too x'D Oh, and I was buying a shirt from Yuki at the SHMerch table. And then Uli came over and stood RIGHT NEXT TO ME. I turned to say hi, but he didn't hear/see (my hi) and ignored me ALSKDFJ hmph lolol
Anyway, con was really fun! Also got to see Flora~
We talked about tabling next year~ It sounds fun, if we can keep it simple for our first time. Arlene creates a Pug character and I create a Corgi/-cat specie- character and we create some kind of "joint collab" thingy ^^ I mean, I already have research done. For con, we'll probably look for a local print shop or something... It's still a dream, but it's something Arlene and I look forward to attempting? ^^; tabling looks fun so we wanna try~

I didn't realize we spent so much, but I'm happy with all the prints and stickers etc I got~ Redecorated my wall to fit everything ^^ Seems busy, but also nicely busy hehe


Also, it was 2/18, our club's anniversary~




Ahh, also, I'm currently playing Ray's route and you cannot believe how intense it is. I'm worried about every single decision I'm making... Well, 3 more days still. Let's manage for a good/normal ending.
Anyway, time to sleep. Gotta wake up early :p
[Also, I didn't write a post about when Chris and Yishan just randomly came up to talk to me when I was just tryna have my salad. Literally didn't know them. Chris came up to me asking if I was in his class 2 semesters ago ahahaha..... but anyway, I'm too lazy to type that up xD it was a funny story that I told my fam though lol]

I totally forgot to post that 4 days ago, my phone fell 2.5 floors to its doom.
Amazingly, nothing broke. The screen was scratch-free despite landing on its face, and the screen protector flew off.
$50 phone case was worth. Despite the little broken, removable flap popped off so I had to glue it for the 3rd time. BLESS.

At least, I don't think I have posted about it yet? Aigoo, bad memory with what I had or hadn't posted.

I gotta make this quick because I gotta sleep soon (even though I feel like I haven't done any homework... )
--ahh I said I'd make it quick but guess who just got distracted for a good 30 or so minutes LOL

Let's see, I woke up this morning and found out my only class today (MATH 42) got cancelled. Whoop whoop! So Steph and I walked to the Student Union. We both woke up in a pretty good mood? Idunno, I "dressed up" LOL (not really apparently x'D) But anyway, she had to interview someone & I went to Starbucks because there was a live music show. I got a table, and dude, it was weird because this Asian guy comes and just takes a seat. Like, I understand we'd share tables, but usually people would ask if it's okay to sit there. And then he kept cursing under his breath? At one point he asked me to watch his stuff and he took his laptop elsewhere. He came back later and he placed his laptop like really close to mine. Also, he had to take the seat next to me instead of across from me (it's a + seating around a round table). But yeah, he eventually slowly packed and left. I was just creeped for a bit lol. And then a girl asks to sit across from me. I think that dude came back later because out of the corner of my eye, I saw his purple sweater, but then he walked away. I think it's because the girl was sitting in front of me. When she left, Celine later joined me. And then Steph joined me and we saw Romuel. I spent around 2 hours going through my Udacity course. My laptop was low on battery and it was time for Steph to go to class, so I walked her to class. I got to the Art building only to find out I had left my key and ID at home, so I couldn't get into the Pencil Test Lab, plus it sounded like there were a lot of people in there, so I didn't want to knock. I ended up putting my stuff in the locker and sat outside the PTL next to a plug and I kept working on my coding.

I glanced around, and I saw Andy going into the PTL. I internally panicked lol Later I hear him coming out saying "I'll see you guys later, like in 10 minutes" and I'm focusing on my coding, but I looked up because he was walking past me (I realized... I may have used passed/past wrong in previous posts LOL). I didn't think we'd make eye contact, but his body wasn't even completely forward. He was slightly turned in my direction... Aigoo we were awkward but we still greeted each other lol. I didn't greet him when he came back though.
Then met up with Steph, got her keys to get mine, met up with her again in the SU, waited for Arlene to get out of class. Met up with Arlene at the locker. She was surprised at the big pinecone, and as I was about to explain to her about it, Andy came out of the PTL, and I don't know why but I automatically said "it's his" while laughing, because well, we were both laughing. And he was like "huh?" and stepped back and was like "ohhh yeah" and then he reminded me to bring it to class :p Oh, awk.
I took my stuff and sat in the SU with Arlene. Well, we went out to play with "snow" but they were super icy lol Back in the SU, she got food and when she got back, I was slowly started my painting but I ended up talking a lot about Andy... Like, you just know if I start to constantly talk about someone LOL and I guess Arlene picked that up and started teasing me about it LOL she's so funny <3 To be honest, I don't really think I accepted that until like tonight (but did I really accept it? haha) I told her about the hike and how we went to Sweet Corner afterward, and she like "oh~ a date~" and how the whole thing was so K-drama lol I'M DEAD. I showed her the group posts and our messages and stuff. And she was like sing-songing "kiss kiss and fall in love" and I was like omg nooo alskdfj xD And Steph joined us a lil' later, and I keep bringing up stuff, and Arlene mentions how I keep talking about him and Steph was like "I know right" GOSH LOL. 
So then Steph left. Arlene had to go too so she walked me back to the Art building, but I kept whining to her like, what if it's just himmm alskdfj lol I got into the PTL and there was a few other people. I was trying so hard not to be awkward. I was carrying my set-up in, and straight ahead, Andy is sitting at the corner of the table closest to 218. I can't even remember how he greeted me. I just remember I gave a slight nod, looked down as I tried to gently close the door. I walk in and Sean is like staring at me? And I think I may have nodded first? but then he says hey, so I say hey. I wasn't sure where to sit, my goodness, so I sat a seat away from Andy, 'cause y'know, we need room for our set-up. GAWD I WAS READY TO DIE. But anyway, Andy asks me what I was working on, and I tell him acorn, and he says he hadn't even started on it yet. I was so confused as to why he was still working on his walnut, and I can't remember what he said, but he replied. And then he offered acorns to me? and I felt like I was betraying him or something (because we had picked acorns and I'm not using those, also because he offered but I didn't accept them) and then I told him I got acorns from Celine. He asked if they had caps, so I gave him the extra ones. I knew he liked a challenge, so I gave him the acorn with the 2 caps first and he got so excited he exclaimed loudly lol and then he apologized. But yeah. I was frantic and kept messaging Arlene lol She was teasing me again ahaha she told me to "TALK TO ANDY!!!!!" and then asked how close we were sitting lol Okay, so I'm like working on my acorn, and then he decides to take a break, and GOSH I can't paint with him standing behind me! He did ask about my acorn photos, and I tried to answer as normal as possible ^^;
[was scrolling through IG. It's so funny how both of our 1st photos on our feed is the same sun x'D >///< ]
Other than me panicking internally, it was all good I guess? because I was the only one working, and everyone else was talking to each other and laughing over a video. So there's this girl who I don't know, but everyone called her Jessica. Some reason they started talking about "Asian tradition to beat their kids when they're young" and Andy mentioned how he's half-Taiwanese (because Sean asked?) and Sean was like "everyone's Taiwanese" and I'm like whispering that I'm not, and Jessica saw me but didn't hear me, so she walked over and I told her and she was like "it's okay!" xD She walked back to Sean. He was "dissing China" and then she came over to ask me where I was from. I was so flustered, I don't know why. I don't know why I didn't know how to answer the question. Yo, my whole face was probably super red. IT WAS HOT. I was so incoherent, but I managed to say "here?" lol And she was like "oh oh! okay." She wanted to know if I was from China because Sean was dissing LOL and then I just laughed and said "No I'm good" or something like that. And then Andy asked, "Wait, where are you from?" and yeah lol I texted this to Arlene and she was like "it's understandable you're nervous w andy HAHAHAHA" DANG IT ARLENE x'D
I turned off my lamp and was using a red brush to outline my acorn because I didn't like the shape. And Andy started "mocking" (yelling?) me saying, "what!? you're painting without lighting? what are you doing?" (not exact wording) I tried to explain while laughing a bit, because I knew he was playing around. And then he switched to, "wow, you're really working that highlight. It's so red." OMG ANDY x'D He was talking to Haruka, asking if she started her acorn yet and she said no. And somehow he got to mentioning me, and how my acorn is good to go like that for class. And I turned in his direction a bit, and just smilingly nodded in agreement because (inside joke). 
Then Steph texted me about going to Boba Bar with her and Jessie. To be honest, I didn't want to leave x'D but then Steph called me, and I decided I'll join them. So I started packing up, and then Andy asked if I finished lol I said "Nope, but you said my acorn was good to go~" and he was like "you right." I wanted to say bye but at the moment I was about to grab my stuff and go, Haruka called him over for help on her modeling so he had turned his back to me. I wasn't too close to the people in the lab so I didn't really say bye >x< 
(Also, Jo was in the lab too and said "Oh yeah, happy PALentine's" and she said something about how she's never had a Valentine in her 20 years. Me in my head: same. And Andy was like, "Me too. I don't think." Me: huh? but you had a girlfriend, possibly girlfriends, but none for V-day? and then he was like "oh, maybe I did" x'D)
As I was leaving, I was texting Arlene. Here's how the text went:

Me: I CANT. I CANT BE AROUND HIM LOL// I could barely talk to him normally.
A: omg HAHAHAHA AWWW
Me: Nope. Nope. NOPE. lolol
A: *crying laughing emoji* 3x

At Boba Bar, we just talked a lot. It was funny because the topic somehow got to talking about the past. (all related in a way lol) It's really hard to summarize what we ended up talking about, because it was literally everywhere but it was really funny! I laughed so much. I mentioned that I went on a hike with a classmate, and she was all attentive with that smile of hers, and curled her hair behind her ears LOL I didn't tell her about 'til later though.
On the walk back, I guess I really wanted to talk about it again so I asked her if she wanted to hear about it, but we were almost at our parting intersection, and she was like "tell me. cross at Williams (which was her apartment street)" So I had to summarize everything within a block. At Williams, she was like "let me know when there's a 2nd date" OMG x'D

My text with Arlene continues:

Me: Its been a while since I talked bout crushes & i just met up w my friend w steph & we were just talking bout the past. And then she wanted to hear about the hike so I summarized it w/i one block to her house. Lol oh lawd i need to stop talking bout him *blush emoji*
A: omgggg HAHAHA that's so sweeeet
Me: & i hate that its vday LOL 
Me: -crying cat sticker img-
A: omg nooooo it's ok have these photos from my downloads LOOL
A: -images of random cute/funny animals- 3x

But yeah, the fact that I even mentioned "crushes"... it's been a while lol. She also knows about Lee already too :p Anyway, I didn't mean to expose so much of our text lol

I don't know why, but I'm really dreading class tomorrow AHAHAHA
I am totally overthinking... ^^;

I'm super sleepy right now. I just finished my PHYS homework.

Today was a fun day though. Facebook group for class --> looking for acorns. Katherine said there were acorns at Alum Rock Park, so Andy said he'll drive there and "Feel free to come. Or I'll just go by myself. That's cool. I won't be sad or anything." AW. I didn't want him to go pick acorns for the whole class by himself, but I didn't know him to go with him. I waited for someone to reply but only Haruka commented, to say thanks and to remember to get them acorns LOL I was freakin' out before I posted because I though it'd be weird since we don't "know" each other? but I finally commented, after Haruka, that I'll come along, so I met him at the art quad. (He didn't let me know he parked, so he ended up waiting for me at the quad ^^; )

On the way to the quad, he messaged me to let me know he was there and said "Looks like it'll just be us two hopefully that's ok?" and I was like awww so nice! That was so polite of him to make sure it was okay for me for us two to be alone. Because we literally "don't know" each other. He tried to make a joke during the message, but I didn't get it because I didn't know the guy he said and he was like "Don't worry about it/ that was a super dumb joke." I sent a blushing Pusheen sticker and said "Sorry LOL" and he said "It's ok/ It wasn't witty/ Or even smart/ I just say things" and I was like ALKSDJF as I was walking to him.

He got up to greet me and was like "Justina?" Like, uh, yah? LOL I just nodded and we shook hands. Me in my head, why so formal LOL he said "I don't think we really met" when we shook hands and I said, "mhm, just in the same classes." And he just started talking as we walked to the parking garage. Uh, I realized he walks fast LOLOL I thought it'd be awkward, but the walk there was okay because he talked a lot lol I guess the only awkward thing was I would try to say something, but it'd accidentally cut him off LOL We got to the garage, walked up the stairs. To the 5th floor. WHY WE NO TAKE THE ELEVATOR. But anyway, as we walked up the stairs, he said that after he posted it, it sounded creepy. He's "that" guy, who tells someone to hey, come sit in a car with a stranger to go some place. My response: "It's not like you're gonna kidnap me" (I think). And he said just saying it like that sounded creepy LOL and people saw the post but didn't respond and he was worried people might think that lol but I said, "Naw, I don't think people thought that." He said that Haruka replied so it kinda made up for it and that he was glad that I offered to go along. awww.
Andy has a really nice 2-door Scion. Short, but nice haha. So the "rules of his car," as he put it, is that the passenger has to navigate lol On the spiral drive out the garage, we were talking about how he doesn't look like an otaku LOL because he apologized for listening to his anime music, and I had to tell him I listen to it too. And he mentioned Vocaloid, which is how we got to how he didn't look like an otaku LOL When we were almost there, we were following behind motorcyclists, and he brought up how he loves motorcycles and stuff.

When we got to the park, it was literally trails? So we ended up hiking. It was about 3 hours with him hiking up the trail, so that's too much to cover. Just know, he talked a lot LOL his excuse was because he had milk tea and 3 coffees yesterday, and he slept late. (Oh, he was just getting out of his sickness). When he said he wanted milk tea afterward, I said he just had it yesterday and he said he can't enjoy yesterday's milk tea today lol and then he suddenly dropped the bomb that he and his girlfriend broke up. It was a long-winded correlation, but it was because he was saying he likes to live in the present, and the analogy was, when he and his girlfriend broke up his friends told him at least you have your memories with her and he said he doesn't want the "memories," but to be in the present (with her, I guess?)
It was a fun hike. At the beginning we just talked a lot about anime lol Like what kind of anime we watched etc. He was thirsty because he forgot water. He was like "there's running water! should I drink it?" LOL (On the drive I told him he should've told me to bring him water and he was like, "I can't just say hey stranger, bring me water. And I said I would've still did it, and he said "well, I didn't know you, but now I know." LOL) Luckily, we managed to find a water fountain on the way. We also picked up a large pinecone for him, which I carried. On the hike up he said, "I'm glad you can walk." Me: ?? lol and he mentioned how Gia and Celine would've been out of breath already ahaha. I told him we weren't dressed for hiking, nor did we have water LOL We ended up going to the top, climbed a large rock to get a better view of the sun setting. I climbed the rock after him, but I was wearing my sweater on the front of me, and it was really windy so the hood kept flying in my view. Plus it was difficult climbing with a pinecone. There wasn't much footing near the top, and I was too scared to continue, so I just crouched. We were still talking, and then we had eye contact, and I said "I'm scared" so he had to come over to help me up LOL He literally had to pull me up. Uhm, I don't think I trusted anyone else with my life except Tong LOL

We saw quail on the hike~ <3
Anyway, we went back to a tree we passed to look for acorns. Our first time passed it, we saw only caps. So on our way back down, we really looked hard for them. And we found a few, but most were babies. I found most of them LOL A lady asked us what we were looking for lol I let Andy do the talking. Anyway, he was looking out for me when I was climbing the lil' incline up to the tree, and I'd pass the acorns to him. The sun was setting and he said we should go before it gets to dark. So we finished gathering and started going down. On the way down we spotted a decaying bird wing with feathers attached. I think I kinda told him I want a feather? I forgot how lol but I told him I had notepad paper; I gave it to him so he plucked a feather and we put it in the pinecone/acorn bag. He went for another one; this one was attached to the wing bone still. So I had to help him snap the tip. I tried to step on the bone but missed lol it was on a decline. I had to support my weight by holding on to his shoulder, and I stepped down on the wing bone and he pulled the feather off. Afterward I gave him hand sanitizer because he touched the wing LOL We finally got down, and he drove us to Sweet Corner. He asked me where I wanted to go but I said he could choose. We took the wrong freeway LOL aigoo, I always panic and give wrong directions lol but we got back on track. At one point, I said "how are you driving 40-45mph but it feels so fast? xD" and he goes into explaining his car and speed and race cars lol. He said acceleration on turns feel faster than acceleration going straight; it was true. Sheesh, his turns were really sharp, even though they really weren't. Sharp as in, I had to resist the force? I don't know how to explain lol but it was fun; his car was manual.
On the way there, he was saying he was getting sleepy, and that the mountain was really tiring. I said something along the lines of "crashing from the caffeine" lol At Sweet Corner, there were cakes~ but I thought we were going to grab our drinks and go. Nope. He said "let's unwind for a bit." So we just sat there for a while. He finished his Thai Tea really fast and I said that, and he said "I'm thirsty AF" LOL He looked at his watch and said "we should at 7, or whenever you want." And when I asked him why me, he said it's because he chose the place, so I should choose when to leave. OY, decisions decisions. Since I didn't want him to get home too late, I just said "let's go" after a minute or two. And then he dropped me off at home, and I took home the pinecone and acorns. (AH! I forgot to tell him to drive safe...)
His heater was... really good. Like, it was so hot. Because he was recovering from his sickness, he was still cold after the hike (it was really windy on that rock) and I guess I just warm up faster than he does? And he turned on his heater. There was a fan blowing right in my face and it was so hot. I got home with a red face I think. It's a really good heater because it was only on 1, and on the lowest heat setting but it was still so freakin' hot LOL His car is still cool :p
I think he waited a bit for me to get to the stairs before leaving. Or not. Lol I didn't turn back.
Genai had commented an hour later, like she would've joined if she saw the post, but I enjoyed our time alone lol because we got to know each other a lot. I wonder if we'll go back to being awkward classmates... lol
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Also, I got home and got a notification from Lee. He "waved" to me on Messenger. So I waved back. I thought it may have been an accident that he waved so I said "?? lol" and then he was like "how you been?"
Me in my head: ??
But I answer casually. And when I said "hbu?" he said he got back from a "being in a drama." Note that I'm still hyper from hiking with Andy so my brain is overthinking so many scenarios right. Like, I know Lee wouldn't message me after so long unless something's up, and I really hoped it didn't have anything to do with his girlfriend. The fact that he mentioned 'drama' felt like he wanted to talk about it so I asked "should i ask bout this drama?" and he said "you should/ lol/ but it's up to you." So, I let him vent. (At first he asked if I was still in SJ. I hope that wasn't a precursor for "meeting up" if I was in Stockton kind of thing :p ) So then he dropped the bomb: "My girlfriend just broke up with me lol" (By the way, it was a stupid reason she decided to break up with him) It's a delicate subject right? I mean, I don't know. It's only delicate depending on the person, so I was really cautious that I wasn't helping him make decisions. I just asked the questions. After a few other messages I asked, "And how are you feeling?" He said "Idk/ I'm supposed to be heartbroken but somehow I feel happy" so like, hey, if you feelin' good, then the break up is no big deal LOL and that's what I told him after I asked if he wanted to get back with her. He said "Definitely/ No/ Lol" I said "Ahh, in that case, is no big deal?" followed up by "Dude, i feel bad, like I'm telling you not to get with her/ But like, whether you want to really depends on you" and he flat out said "I don't want to"
Me in my head: then why are you messaging me...??? Like, I thought he wanted to vent because he was sad or something. And he was super positive afterward... LOL weird...
Also, because I haven't talked to him in so long, I found that his many uses of "lol" were odd because I still remember him as a person who doesn't really use lols or stickers/emojis. Usually I'm the one who spams stickers, but he ended our convo with a (:p) sticker and a thumbs up. Like... is this the Lee I know? hahaha Anyway, I just find it really weird that the unexpected messages from Lee tend to be timed around when I finish hanging out/messaging with a guy LOL (alone sometimes at that o.o) Like, if you read previous posts where he's involved, it's either I just messaged Robin/Deilys/Victor or I just came back from hanging with them or something LOL
Weird...

Ah the post ended up being super long because so many things happened > < I tried to eliminate stuff, but, haha, no can do when I want to write it all. Andy messaged me after he got home, I guess, and after talking about the acorns, I asked if he washed his hands. He said "Uhhh/ If we're thinking fourth dimensionally/ I already did when I get* home" LOL I have no idea what he meant but I just said "LOL ok good/ Now go get some rest :p dont get sick again" (nagging him already LOL) and he tried to joke around again but it flew over my head. Again LOL Then I showed him my taped feather later that said "Erm, dont really need to clean it right? ^^; " and he replied "LOL/ Bruh that dirty A F" LOLOL he so fun to talk toooo, I really wish we could stay, y'know, friends.
Lol, anyway, I should really sleep. Darn my eventful day LOL
Steph napped liked around 12:30am... I should wake her to shower after I wash up.
*his actual typo :p

Welp. I had CS minor advising this morning. I was pretty nervous, but the advisor was really friendly! Reminded me of Inga. She said it's not impossible, just really difficult and very unlikely. She's still letting me try though, so I gotta do paperwork...

Then I met up with Jessie so she can get Philz and I ended up getting Gongcha, and delivery for Hsiu Hsiu. Took Jessie to the pencil test lab, and got there to be greeted by David and Justin. AWK. Hsiu Hsiu had gone to the SU for food. ^^; Later I went with Jessie to eat before she left for work. When I got back, another surprise. Lol. Monique and Jewlinna were in the seats on either side of me lol

Later Arlene joined us~ Ah, I was so focused painting my walnut I didn't check my texts. So she called me, and my phone was loud x'D playing EDM (Virtual Self - "Particles" was my ringtone) LOL So we just kept working because we were waiting for James Baxter's presentation. Justin kept talking about his love life with Tiffany and Monique ^^; (Also, Arlene and I went out to film reference for PHYS homework. Tiffany and Justin happened to be walking back from the SU. Arlene was filming me, but she didn't see but Justin asked Tiffany, what's that for? lolol)
So yeah, we're working in the pencil test lab and suddenly Dave Yee opened the door to introduce us as "oh, these are our younger students" lol we didn't know what was happening, just thought they were giving a tour to someone. We just automatically said hello. Dave asked if they wanted to go in, but the guest was already walking away. After they left, we started talking amongst ourselves lol It was freakin' James Baxter x'D
After a while, Jewlinna left for the auditorium. 10 minutes after, Arlene was like let's go, so I started packing up. Then Justin and Aerik got up too. Tiffany was like, "are you guys going already?" and they were like yeah, she was like "so early!" and Aerik: "I like to get there earlier" xD When I went out to meet Arlene, I told her how I thought they started packing because we did lol (Justin offered Hello Panda cookies to us earlier, but I kinda just looked at it because I was still thinking but the others didn't respond to him. And he was like "oh okay" awkwardly, and I felt bad, so I took one LOLOL)

The James Baxter presentation was pretty awesome~
We had to wait out in the lobby though because they were still setting up. It was so hot. Uli came in and we had like eye contact twice. The first time was like, both of us had flitting eyes and weren't sure if we should maintain eye contact. Ugh, we both weren't sure if we should say hi LOL Our 2nd eye contact was a little longer, so we did say hi. It was such an awkard hi toooo ToT Because he had pretty much passed by us. And it was too crowded for him to raise his hand to say hi, but he moved his arm back to sorta wave. Oh it was so awkward. The exchange was between me and him, and I was with Arlene and Elaine. Arlene asked me if he was saying hi to me or her. I forgot how I answered, but I think I just said me really quick and followed up with that was such an awkward hi. I could feel my face heating up. Was it turning red? Let's just say the lobby was getting too hot. Aigoo, must be because I haven't really seen Uli in so long OTL.
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I loved his animation demo, and it made me want to animate. There were non-ANI majors sitting behind us, and they fangirling over the animation for this one animation I haven't watched. At the end of the presentation, the guy in front of us were like "we love you!" (non-ANI LOL) and as everyone was leaving, the girls behind us were talking to each other, about how they're gonna go to the next one too. LOL. NICE.
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I walked Elaine to her car, and then met up with Steph to go to Gongcha. Wow, her co-worker Matthew was working again. It was probably the third time that he and Huey were working and we were customers. I was in a really good mood, so I sorta waved to him when Steph went to get her check and he glanced over the counter. I don't think he saw my wave hmph. Matthew's like, so adorable??? He has a funny laugh and dorky smile. He always plays TWICE for Steph? and complies to Steph's song requests? haha and with Steph's personality toward them, she jokes/teases them, so yeah. I was laughing a lot today. Erm, so me and Steph literally got the same drinks as last time. And I mentioned to her we got the same drinks as last time, and I think he tried to guess my sugar level lol. He made my smoothie and he filled it to the top, to the point it kept spilling lol Meanwhile, Steph's milk tea was a little low LOL
Steph requested BTS songs, so Matthew happily complied, then Huey got "mad" (because he always goes against Steph lol) and Matthew "fought" him off before he could change the song. Lol he kept kicking Huey back to the kitchen. One time, Huey changed the song and then he back hugged Matthew and Matthew kept yelling at him to get off, while laughing. The first time I almost choked on my smoothie LOL Toward the end, I was kinda just staring off into space, and had like a 2 sec eye contact with him. Every time we were there and he's making drinks, he always looks over and then we just all burst out laughing lol
I really like him, but probably not in that way LOL He's a fun and nice dude lol
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Gah, I have "work" with Arlene tomorrow, and we gotta go to the zoo too.
I should sleep now eek.

Uwah! Today hip hop was tiring~
Jonny taught today and uwahhhh I feel like I haven't seen him in forever? I mean, I have in photos and stuff but YO. IN PERSON.
OMG FANGIRL MOMENT. My spirits were waaaay high when I saw him walking toward us, yellow FIFA (?) hoodie, and black dance sweats (what are they called? lol) and YO. HE JUST MODEL STATUS AIGHT.

I was walking to them, but there were very little people? Jonny wasn't here yet. BJ saw me first and he waved and then I awkwardly waved with all my stuff in my hand (I carry my phone and water bottle) and he was still waving. And I think he was waving with both his hands? So I had lowered my hand at first, but when he continued waving, so I waved both my hands at him. Some time during this, Vira saw me and waved too LOL

Amy & Herman were behind Jonny (not directly) & I was super happy because I haven't seen Amy in so long! So I was excitedly waving both my hands at her. There was a guy in front of me who I have never seen. So I was lowering my hands while scanning my eyes left, and then Jonny and I had a short eye contact and he raised his hand in a sort of wave gesture. And I wasn't sure if he was greeting the guy in front of me or if he thought I was saying hi to him. Automatically I gave him a nod of acknowledgement just in case and quickly looked away. Afterward I was trying to process all that. Uh, the guy in front of me didn't even respond to him? So I'm pretty sure he didn't know Jonny... lol. And obviously, Jonny wouldn't know him. Uhm that guy's mom(?) also came to pick him up or something? She was recording him. How cute...? ^^;
Some of the dancers thought she needed to move her car or something, because we never have elders here, so they were like "CAR." to Jonny. Jonny turned off the music, apologized to the group who was gonna dance, and then turned to the dancers who said car. Jonny was like "where?" Literally, everyone was looking in the lady's direction, but she was also looking around. We figured there was no car needing to leave, so the dancers peaced him out (they were already on their way to leave) and Jonny started the music again. It was a weird moment lol

Anyway, so after workshop ended, I wanted to go give him a hug, because like, it's my only chance LOL I was sitting down and he be walking back and forth in front of me. Usually I leave right after workshop ends. So I finally get up (he already passed me) and say bye to Amy & Herman who were heading off to Modern (Akbayan dance) and then I walk passed him, made short eye contact:

Me: thanks for teaching -bows a little-
Him: thank you for coming -returns bow with hands together-
Me: -bows a little as I walk off-

I backed out of the hug in the end LOL I continue walking toward Matthew to give him a hug and say bye. I think Dillon was with BJ and Vira, so I was walking away and Dillon yelled bye to me (he still calls me Justine) and so I waved back to them. (Dillon came midway in the dance, and he was also in the back. He was walking toward me, and then I looked over at him and then he noticed me and gave me a hug)
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Other than that, classes were okay? Jef was joking around like usual. Owen had to keep our sketchbooks because he didn't have time to mark them. Eek. I didn't finish the 7 trees... I hadn't really been eating a lot the past few days? And last night I didn't eat dinner, so I knew my stomach would probably end up growling in class. It did, and Cindy who was next to me heard it. At first it was a short grrr, but then it was longer that I had to hold my stomach. Me and Cindy kept laughing at it 'cause it happened like 3 times? And the last time, she was drinking water and it happened. She almost choked on her water? We bursted out laughing, and she was like "It's just so cute. I just want to feed you." Like, aww Cindyyy x'D I barely talk to her :p We had 112A together like 2 semesters ago, and just started talking to each other more because we sit next to each other.
I was really tired because I had woken up around 6 because I was gonna do my trees. I woke up, didn't feel like it, and went back to sleep. Had a short, stressed "nightmare" and woke up thinking I was late. So yeah, I was sleepy, but I was in the pencil test lab to do my animation rough for 114 (my last class). I thought I'd take longer, but I finished pretty fast, so I went to do my coding, but wasn't really able to finish the assignment. I thought my rough was pretty crappy and was worried about what Jef was gonna say about it. But he was like it was looking good :o
Oh yeah, I was taking notes and suddenly I felt my hands trembling. Also, it suddenly got very hot, and I was feeling all tingly. Guess who was low on sugar? ^^; I told Hsiu Hsiu that I wanted candy, and Vivian gave us some Swedish Fish. I don't really like them, but I needed the sugar so I ate some. I felt better afterward. Accidentally ate all her fishies ^^;

In class, he kept telling us to not put down our own work, and told us a story about he had an interview. And the guy came in, saw his portfolio, and said "that's some good work." My professor, being young then said they weren't good. So the guy packed his portfolio pieces back in my professor's folder and left. The receptionist told him he was done. A week or 2 later, my professor gets the courage to call them and ask about it. They told him, "you said it sucked." So basically, if it sucks, it wasn't worth looking in to?
Basically, even though you don't like it or think it was good work, someone else is going to have a different view of it. You telling them, oh I messed up here or this part sucked is literally telling your viewers to find the mistakes and flaws, even though they wouldn't have seen it if you hadn't pointed it out.
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After hip hop, I showered and waited for Jim because she was making a delivery~ Mmm and then I ate dinner kekeke

I AM SO DONE WITH THIS EGG.
I've been working on the egg since like 12pm. I did well and all, only for my classmate to tell me my values did not have enough contrast so I redid it. Now theres a lot more darks. But is it too dark? Aiyah.

Also, I was watching Maji LOVE LIVE 6th stage. Not HD but OMG. STILL LOVE.
Hontoni saikou suteji! <3 

HEAVENS' first stage, & OMG they were crying so much ToT
MAMO. WHY YOU CRY SO MUCH.
Terashii & Mamo are such best friends omg <3
Tattsun is so adorable? like?? Maeno's makeup & hair is <3 (Dude, Maeno's so cute??)
Kiryun's seiyuu is so cute?? hahaha
Daiki's adorable~
My precious loves.


Also, watched 연애하루전 (A Day Before Us) on Youtube. The English subs are slow updates, but it's really cute! And the OST is <3 Watching that led to a Dingo playlist called, When a Man Loves a Woman, I think? I thought it was a live-action of A Day Before Us because they were so similar haha

Ah... I feel like I have lots to do this week ^^; I'm not procrastinating.. at the same time I'm procrastinating on other stuff? Well, I've been waking up pretty early lately anyway. Let's make it a habit? I'm probably gonna die mid-way into the semester LOL

Alright, time to go fold my laundry & get ready to sleep... & fall in to post-6th stage feels ToT
I LOVE UTAPRI

I'm currently taking the Sexual Assault Prevention education thingy. So many freakin' slides, when am I doneee I just want to sleeeep.

But anyway, I'm on the trauma section. And they mention that trauma causes them to recall the event hesitantly or have difficulty recalling things in a linear fashion... so if studies show that trauma impacts memory... why do lawyers question rape victims in such way and says they're lying because they couldn't recall things? Like, wouldn't the question be invalid anyway? (or does this only happen in movies, lol, with the questioning etc)

Finally done OTL
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Today I woke up early to go work with Arlene in the ART building, but I got distracted by Uta no Prince-sama: Shining Live lol I played too much xD I was confused at first, but I think I'm getting the hang of it. I finally headed over at around 1:30 LOL Mckenzie brought leftover Psycho Donuts from work! Worked for a bit, and then we went to the SU for Starbucks. Afterward, we went to 14F. Gah, I spaced out and was daydreaming here and there. And thinking about all the things I want/need to do.

Afterward, I walked Arlene to the parking garage, and then she dropped me off at home. It's been a long day ^^; I've been pretty productive this semester? Hahaha. Ate dinner of curry. After I showered, I tried to catch up with the Google/Udacity thing. 1 hour of basics OTL. Am I ever gonna catch up ahaha

Steph just came back from ASTRO's concert. She seems dead again ahaha. She's showering right now, which means she'll be sleeping soon. My tummy hasn't been feeling well because it's here. At least it'll be gone when Jonny teaches at hip hop! Speaking of hip hop... guess what Dillon surprised us with yesterday!? Choreo to "I Need a Girl"! I was really feelin' it last night haha and because I'm super familiar with the song, I didn't forget the moves, and I was pretty much on beat. Definitely my most confident dance ahahaha I was center back for the group! kekeke. Also, I was super happy when Dillon brought Beau ahaha.

It's been a good week. Trying to be super productive because I have lots to do ToT

Currently nomming on Hokkaido Melon Kit-Kat from Japan~
Ahh I'm really sleepy right now, but I still have homework to do.  ^^;

Yesterday was a good day~ It's been a while since I last animated traditionally lol FAIL.
Anyway, it was a good day because hip hop was fun! Also, because Steph treated me to Gongcha and then walked me to hip hop. I thought I was late, but Matthew hadn't even arrived yet. Thien from Parang greeted me. Vira brought his Dachshund, Beau! Beau was so adorable~~ I gave Matthew a hug when he arrived, and Vira gave me a hug too, interestingly enough LOL like, we hardly talked. We knew of each other though xD Then there's same ol' same ol' Anthony haha. 
Matthew taught the choreo to Chris Brown's "Is This Love" and hm, I was feelin' it? lol When it came to the group dances, Matthew split us into pairs since there were only 14 of us. But then he made us switch our partner to someone we don't know/talk to. I'm glad Thien decided to partner with me because he's so peppy haha so much moral support; it was fun. For the last 8 counts, he had us choreo a groove with our partner. Fuhhh I was freakin' out so much lol but Thien was like, just have fun. And I was thinking, had I partnered with the other girl, we would've been screwed ^^;
While waiting for our turn, I went to play with Beau. He/she sat on my lap~ sooo cute~ and it kept nudging its nose into my hand; I ended up covering its eyes here and there lol I didn't want to let him/her go. When it came to our turn, I of course messed up a bit, but at one part Thien messed up and forgot what the next move was. For some reason, I had the extra energy and courage to keep going? (Matthew gestured toward me with the face that said, what? she gots it! lol at least, that's what I got at a glance) He turned to look at me and exclaimed "ah that's it!" and he kept going afterward like nothing happened xD We finished with our grooveeee woot woot!

It was such a good time that I took the initiative to say bye to Matthew (usually I just sneak away lol)  BJ (a choreographer who taught us before but I never talked to) made eye contact with me as I moved away from the hug with Matthew, so I waved to him. I said bye to Celine, waved to Anthony who was ecstatically saying bye to me, and then Vira saw that I was leaving and he waved too. D'awww everyone~ <3
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This morning I met up with Arlene to work in the Pencil Test Lab. Stupid me forgot my egg, so I walked back for it. [A quick note. This girl came in and sat across from me. She had headphones on, looking at her laptop, and started vlogging? saying, "Right now I'm in the Pencil Test Lab, and I'm gonna be doing some work... etc etc" and the girl next to her just kinda glanced over. You know, when someone is talking loudly in a place where you should speak quietly? A little later, she asks "So, uh, did you pass portfolio review yet?" I look up at her. She's staring at her laptop, so I thought she was talking to someone else. So I continue helping Arlene. A few minutes later she repeats it again. I give her a quick glance; still looking at her laptop, so I ignore it. Again, it happens. I look at her, the girl next to her glanced at us and said, "I think she's talking to you" quietly and I point to myself and I ask the girl "are you asking me?" and she says "yeah" and I'm like whoops in my head lol So I answer that question, and then she just starts asking me question after question! I answer stiffly with some awkward laughs here and there. Afterward, I just had to text Arlene because that was such an awkward interaction.
I also gave her and Celine a cheesecake cupcake, and they both liked it. Yays~

I only had MATH 42 today. I did pretty much all the homework last night, thinking we had a quiz today. But it was next week. And then I headed over to the Blue Sky Studio presentation. Later I chilled with Arlene, Celine, and Gia in the SU before heading home to make curry.
The curry took me about 2 hours to cook? but just in time, because Jessie got out of class! The curry rice was good. Kune was also there for dinner. They and Steph got seconds, so I'm glad! ^^
Also! John's back!? Like, what a surprise! haha He's moving back here for school tomorrow; right now he's commuting from Santa Barbara or Monterey...

I also got my Believer's Package and it's so freakin' amazingggg! Taking the CDs out of the case was so difficult though xD It felt like I was going to snap it. I was stressin' so much ahaha. I'm feeling good because I'm excited for the next 2 days: SHMeeting = new hoodie! on Thursday; Dillon's teaching at hip hop; 14F on Friday, Best of Ottawa~

OH! I totally forgot to mention that I got accepted into...


I totally missed this when I checked my e-mail? and totally forgot about it, 'til one of the project manager's reminded me, and I was so confused LOL I'm a week behind but I'll working on Android Development. Ah, there's just so much to do, but we'll make it happen~
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Ah, I didn't mean to post so much. I really am sleepy, and it's a long day tomorrow, so I'ma quickly do 2 tree drawings and sleep

Yay! So yesterday Steph and I went to Round 1 with Jessie, though she left early 'cause she had work, but my goal was to get a Pomeranian plush. The game was to know down a bowling pin keychain from a zip tie on a metal grid with just a screw. What are the chances right? We almost gave up, but my determination to obtain the plush made me waste money LOL but! I finally got it! (Named it Clover because of the 4-leaf clover on its head and the luck we had to get it xD) We couldn't believe ourselves when the screw actually hit the zip tie :o Anyway, apparently it's not as hard as it seems because by the end of the day, all the Poms were gone x'D
We spent the rest of the day at Round 1, time play, and I was pretty tired lol Also, I was breaking in new shoes, so the back of my heel was chafed and bleeding.
I woke up this morning with sore inner thighs. Like, I've never been sore there. How do you stretch it? ^^; I do think it's because I was tip-toeing a bit to lessen the chafing and I walked a lot like that LOL weird...

Today I went to play badminton with Jim, Alin, Nancy, Tong, Qi + her boyfriend and his brother, and Liang. Super. Rusty. o.o It always pressures me when I play with Tong but I know he's nice about it ^^; and then we had BBQ and hot pot at Hot Point Station. Linda's boyfriend came. I ate so much, that by the time we left, I was a Wigglytuff and super uncomfy walking. We went to Happy Lemon though for milk tea lol and I rode Liang's car while Jim rode in Qi's. I thought it was going to be awkward, but it was okay LOL He got so skinny and his haircut made him look like a baby x'D And then we went to Qi's place for a bit, but it was pretty late and everyone was tired so we didn't even finish the movie and went home. Ah, we're gonna be sore tomorrow? lol
Side note, I was going to bus to BBC to meet them, but it was going to take me around an hour to get there. Jim told the group that and Alin said they'll come pick me lol Jim said that when I told them this morning that I won't join them for lunch and maybe badminton and that I went back to sleep (it was early morning and I didn't feel like getting out of bed lol), Alin wanted me to go to badminton. AWWW. More love~ (I just remembered this after the next paragraph lol)
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It was the first week of school, and it seems to be going pretty good! My Tues/Thur class of Physics 23 is only every other Thursday so now I have a big gap between my ANI classes x'D Also, first day of ANI 114 with Jeff, I sat in the front with Genai and Jeff kept picking on me! LOL Apparently I'm "friendless" x'D I am so dead. I was laughing so much that I started tearing, but I didn't want him to see because he'll think he made me cry LOL He was going to stop, but he kept joking and apologizing lol This semester seems good.
On a side note, Arlene told me there will be openings at her workplace after her co-workers quit. I told her I was interested, and she told me her boss remembered and liked me and already got me a shirt with my name on it? AWWW. I feel so loved hehe Anyway, I think I'm pretty much secured with this job? ^^; Let's hope I don't jinx it hehe And the "volunteer" thing I did last year? I'll be helping her again, but I'm getting paid $60 this time? Interesting...

I gotta be up tomorrow to do homework, though I'm not too worried since class doesn't start 'til 3PM anyway on Monday LOL ugh, the stupid blog for my other class won't save my template changes -.-

Gyahhh! I finished Season 2 and it was a MESS but obviously, things worked~ and I can't stop blabbering to Steph about it keke somehow ended up summarizing S1 too... hehe. Maybe I should do some art because it was sho cute...

Ahh, school tomorrow. I'M SCURRED. Still debating whether I should drop Design... I don't know. Because it's a pre-req. for taking typography. I want to take Typography... but I guess I could learn new skills too? (they're not necessarily new either though ^^; ) and Yay! Got my Adobe renewed~ not like I paint on Ps, but it feels good to have it again ^^ also because I need it so I can correctly recreate my Ps brushes for CSP lol

I got back to SJ today. I bought a new chair and currently, it's very comfy! Though it took me quite a while to assemble. I also bought 2 frames for my prints that I could finally put up! Not the best (DIY) matting, but hey, it looks pretty nice ^^ I didn't have 3D foam stickers to make it "pop" more, but it'll do. I also managed to clean! But to be honest, they're just hidden in the closet and under the bed ^^;

Steph said she'll go Eastridge with me so I can get my Pomeranian at Round 1 ALKSJDF
Pray we get it, but the game seems hard? ToT
Anyway, time to sleep! Super nervous, but I'll be having lunch with Arlene tomorrow! :D

Currently at my sister's.

Last night I practiced "Want You to Say" & especially "Jebal" for so long, I'm so tired. My calves are just slightly sore. I don't know if it's the dancing or carrying heavy bags of stuff (met up with parents and grandpa at Chinatown) and/or after getting to Coach's (also, after ordering McD and Cool Tea Bar and walking to her place) that my whole body is starting to ache. Or, just me carrying my backpack and duffel bag to the bus stop and onto Bart that I'm sore. It hit me late.

Ordered Jonghyun's album. I don't care. I'm getting it. (I should really really stop spending ToT)
I'm still super sad that my NU'EST W photocard didn't come in yet! I'm really giving it until February...
Oh! Yadi also gave me her paintbrushes. Seems like she didn't use them yet? Though I don't know how's the quality... some of the hairs were falling out. Looks like oil paintbrushes. The other ones seem like watercolor or acrylic paintbrushes... Oh. Just looked it up. It came up on Amazon. The reviews were as expected: good for beginners/amateurs but definitely not the quality someone with experience would use. I don't know about the oil brushes, but the acrylic brushes seem good. I won't know 'til I test them though. Hopefully they aren't too bad. Grawr. I can't wait to start painting some stuff~ so many ideas~ and after turning in my sketchbook, and watching Leigh Ellexson's YT videos on her sketchbook, I really want to just draw/paint/color/ink without any worries. 

Ah, I got distracted by Coco's OST.

I drove to Jessica's today so we talked a lot, had flan and pizza, played with her guinea pigs and painted. Well, we were supposed to paint but I mostly watched Jessica paint, though I had an idea there but didn't end up painting it because Jessica's tubes of paint of were so small, I didn't want to waste them lol I did a sketch but really, I didn't do anything really, because I was busy watching "Okja." The ending made me cry~
Jessica was painting though; I made her work on her Hamtaro lol Next time, hopefully it's an actual sketchventure~
Later, I drove us to T4 and dropped her off at home.
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Heh!? It's already a week? lol timelapse because, I was writing that last Friday, but was too lazy to finish. Ahhh, I don't want to wrack my brain to remember stuff that happened. So, welp. Not like much happened anyway. I'm lazy and I want to watch my drama, so let me wrap this up.

Last night, pulled an all-nighter to scramble to finish my portfolio sketchbook. What a fail; I mean, I finished, but I crammed so many drawings. Are they even good? I do think I improved drawing cats LOL it looks like Latte! Turned it in this morning and slept until 4pm afterward. My hand was starting to cramp; I could feel ittt. Now I can relax... but after turning it in, I suddenly had so many ideas and things I want to do. But hey, what's new.

I also finished "Good Morning Call" yesterday! It was so cute! Gonna go watch the 2nd season now~ Need to read the manga too... Speaking of manga, there are so many cute ones on eBook Renta (rated though.... LOL not really, but yeah lol don't get wrong xD) So many cute anime I want to watch too... trying to get back my shoujo fluffy heart LOL
Also need to stop buying stuff... things haven't even arrived and I keep purchasing. Ooops. But. Definitely need to purchase Jonghyun's album when it's released on the 28th.... speaking of which, Believer's package is getting shipped out too, Woot woot!

If I stop blogging, I get lazy to blog afterward haha but anyway, last night I didn't sleep 'til 6:40am and didn't wake up 'til 6pm. Jobee came home to wake me, but I went back to sleep and she napped. While doing her homework last night, I was watching "Miss Rose" and watched so many episodes lol I thought I was close to done but it actually had 35 episodes lol

Anywho, I ate dinner while watching "Itsudatte Bokura no Koi wa 10cm Datta" and I was crying since episode 2 to the end. My eyes still hurt right now ^^;
Afterward, me and Jo played "Doki Doki Literature Club." We still need to finish Natsuki's route. It wasn't too bad because we played without music lol
We had to reinstall because Monika destroyed the script... lol so while looking to re-download, we came upon a game called Nekojishi. The art was appealing; we looked at the trailer and read the description... it's a freakin' furry BL LOLOL /DED.

My eyebags are so bad. My lips are pale too so it makes me seem sickly lolol I really do need to sleep early. Tomorrow I'm meeting up with Jessica, and then Mon or Tues, I'm meeting up with Deilys.

I meant to watch Idolm@ster Side M but it's too late now xD Oh yeah, on the day I got picked up, I ended up catching up on a lot of Webtoon comics (mainly my BLs kekeke). "Super Secret" continues to be really cute, and "My Boo" ended bittersweet... </3
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> Nothing much happened on my last day of work. I boarded to work because I was running late. Boarding was risky, but I made it lol with 3 minutes to spare. (It was because I was watching "Hitorijime My Hero" lol) Work was slow as usual, but we got steady business, but still wasn't super busy. After closing, my co-worker Prianka(?)'s mom dropped me off.

> Mom counted my tips; it was around $300+~ I gave the money to her though because I don't want to deal with it lol. My 2nd check was about $840 or so. I already pretty much spent all that because my credit card bill was $800+ ^^; wow I don't know how though LOL It probably included bills from Dec. but I did spend quite a lot in Jan. already ^^; Really need to stop spending.... ToT

I'm finally home for my last weeks of break. I didn't get to see Meimei or Mina over winter break~ I mean I saw Meimei in SJ but I didn't even get to hang with them for long~ Wonder if I should stop by Davis hehehe

Currently watching "Miss Rose" with my mom and Roy is so freakin' cute! <3 I love his tsundere side. His character roles are always about the same though~ hehe. He always acts childish, throws tantrums, and overly protective <3

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I was gonna blog but Jo is making me do her homework. I'll be back > > lol

So I didn't sleep 'til 6:40am because I still had to shower. But anyway, I went to sleep when everyone else was about to wake up lol I'll just make a new post.
Also, I think Jolly Rancher would've been a fun friend, if I didn't have a crush on him. But yeah, with my mindset now, I'd probably say, he's a fun friend I want to keep. Or something like that.

Reminder: last week/days of work. Purchases. Money/bills.

Quite a few stuff to mention, but I want to just do a quick quick update.

Last time, Minar also encouraged me somewhat to add him on FB and follow on IG, which I did, and which he accepted. Upon seeing his IG feed, I loved that video of him spiking alsdkfj lol but I also sorta died seeing his birthday post for his dance partner.
On the way to SF, I kept telling Minar and Steph I miss *ahem* LOL

Wednesday night, I was telling Jim about Chaz but she was too sleepy to really listen. Also, we got distracted having an argument with Siri LOL But I was just having a lot to think about and all of a sudden. An earthquake. 4.7 from Berkeley. We still felt the aftershock too. It gave me a little headache; probably because I tensed? Jim woke up thinking I was shaking her LOL That was the strongest, and felt like the longest, earthquake we felt. Earlier, Jen also took me to Japantown late at night. We didn't buy much; just a quick walk through Kinokuniya (surprisingly, nothing appealed lol) but I did buy "Kiki's Delivery Service" washi tape~ expensive but oh wells x'D

Thursday morning, we were late to babysit Caleb (Coach's baby). We were there for like 2-ish hours. I tried to sketch a lot, but did only 2.5 ^^; Coach came back and mentioned a box of plushies. I ended up bringing a small and large version of the seals home. They're really flat though LOL flat cushions. I'm thinking of opening them and stuffing them some more hmmm. And then we went to have dim sum with Jen, Isaac, Kyle, and ah Hill. I was really hungry, but after eating a little bit, I was already full. Afterward, we went with Jen to the eye doctor. Me and Jim went to a store called Beverley's Crafts. I bought ink pads and a pack of canvasses (who knew that they ripped us off though x'D the pack was on sale for $25 but the same pack but different brand of canvasses was at Michael's for $13) Well, Jim paid because I left my card in the car lol Then we went to buy cake because it was Isaac's birthday. Oh, we also stopped at Daiso afterward to buy some stuff. We went home, Jim went to work soon, and we had cake upstairs. It was awkward... and I felt bad for Isaac because his mom kept nagging him. I was literally observing; it was a super weird atmosphere.

This morning, woke up a lil' late, later than wanted lol Jen got back and we went out to Michael's. I'm so happy with my purchases~ I'm finally starting a stamp collection~ also got gold ink, and black and white paints, since mine are super low. I didn't buy the expensive brand though. Everything totaled together is still pricey, despite everything being on discount x'D Jim got tempted to getting a set of mini letter stamps. We went to Jen's workplace to pick up her birthday gift to Isaac. I think we went straight home after that. Even though we planned to go do Japantown again, nawhh.
It was a good day, but I don't know what happened. The fact that I had work soon and Jen was worrying I wasn't gonna get back to SJ on time? She just started getting moody and whatnot. Then she and Jim started an argument. I was just tryna cook for Jim. I felt like the whole problem stemmed from her wanting to go out shopping with Isaac because she didn't get to spend his birthday with him and because it's the first time he initiated going out, but that she needed to take me back to SJ too. But like Jim said, we already had plans because I was over, and he's always free so why she decided to cram all her plans with us and him on the same day. When we got back, the plan was she and Isaac go shopping and come back to pick me up after cooking. (To be honest though, with the drive, I don't think they could've done much shopping o.o) but she didn't because she thought of the traffic to SJ.
So yeah, their argument. Then Jen angrily went upstairs after replying to Jim, "Okay, it's my fault" (said huffily). And Jim wasn't trying to find anyone to blame; she was just stating the truth. So when Jen left, she was just complaining to me and started to cry, saying "see? all she does is yell" etc, that's why she doesn't talk to her or hang with her as much anymore, only because I was here, and because she places him so high in priority. I sorta agree. It's not like she doesn't see him at all. In my case, she literally doesn't see me, but she still prioritizes him instead. I mean, I don't really mind. It's also because if it was me, I wouldn't mind spending a day or two with my family instead of my boyfriend. Also, I can see that she's trying to balance time with him and us, but she doesn't do that very well. And with so little time after work, and the time it takes to drive to places and actually do stuff, you can already tell that trying to do everything you planned to was not gonna happen. You know, there's very little things that make Jim mad or sad, and that's usually family-related. The fact that Jim cried/stressed because of Jen and him, a few times is just... SMH.
At some point I was also thinking, none of this would've happened if I hadn't decided to stay over in SF. Chose the wrong time to (because it was his birthday and in the middle of the week).
I was going to have a chat/lecture with her during the ride, but decided against it because the mood was obviously dead and stifling, also, she would easily road rage. And seeing as her eye as an infection, wouldn't want to add to her difficulty of seeing of tears and rain etc. According to our past arguments, it would definitely pass over at some point... albeit a little more damp... (I don't even know what that means x'D)

So I'm home now. I tried to clean a bit. Where do I put my pack of canvasses? I have so many plans and ideas of stuff to do, but I'm either too lazy to do them or just don't have time ^^;
Steph got me a poster of watercolor sketches from "Serendipity" MV. It's so pretty under my cherry blossom and quote decal~ <3 I'm really into watercolors lately. I still want to purchase that watercolor painting from the gallery...
I still need to start on my bullet journal...
I need to start a journal for my washi tape and stamp collection, so I can actually use my washi tape without regretting x'D

Oh yeah, I was getting ready for work, but after I finished braiding my hair, I got a text from my boss Tom saying that because it was raining, I didn't need to come to work. I had a super short chat with him but omg my boss is so sarcastic and funny xD I feel conflicted over the fact that I didn't get to go to work today (probably Chaz's last shift) but also because I could've been in SF still, and we wouldn't have had to rush anything.

Also, feeling very slightly, slightly, SLIGHTLY hurt/depressed? because I think Chaz has a girlfriend now LOL She's his dance partner so it's all good with me. I mean, y'all know I just love "love"~ lol and they're cute together~ I told Minar all this. I'm probably not to the point where I'm heartbroken? but Eric Zhou's "How are you" kept playing in my head (probably because Jim was playing it in the car today lol). I guess I'm feeling glum because having a crush kept me occupied, my mind light and fluffy. I'm probably just feeling empty again.
If I ever really did like him that way, that "like" easily transfers over to a best friend kind of like. Because I really do love his personality! If we had become good friends, he'd definitely be a friend I'd love to keep in touch with :D

Ah, my laptop is dying and I need to shower. I'm feeling empty so I'll probably watch "Hitorijime My Hero" after I shower lol. Also, there's an AU fic going around for BTS called "Outcast" and yo, no joke, it's intriguing xD Me being visual with everything I read, is getting goosebumps and freaked out then and now LOL
EDIT: I'm really sleepy right now... and I went on a shopping splurge because stamps/embossing stuff were on sale??? x'D guess 2018 is a year for crafts etc. I have so many things shipping to me... I need a list xD Considering I made around $800 for my 2nd paycheck, I spent a little too much within a few days of the new year. I need to stop. I'M POOR. That needs to stick in my head lol

It's been a while since I had a crush? haha.
--I had started this post yesterday I think, but I got lazy to finish typing. Also because Jim distracted me haha currently in SF, but let me finish this....--

So yeah, crushing. To be honest though, I think I'm actually a little salty right now x'D We'll just start from at work on Tues, 1/2.
It was another slow night, so slow that Andrew wanted to send people home. No one wanted to go home though. He asked us how much we wanted to stay; everyone was kinda here for the money LOL and Joley said she was 50/50 about leaving and staying. As the night progressed (not even 2 hours yet) she said that she wanted to go home lol so she left early. Andrew also tried to call the other 3 workers who were coming in from 6-10pm to not come in, but Andrea was already on her way; the other 2 actually showed up, but they didn't clock in and went home. Andrea clocked in, was supposed to probably work for 30 min, but she ended up staying for her whole shift because Stephanie and Chaz went home early. 

Chaz and I were there early at work, so we were just standing in the back room waiting to clock in. We talked a bit, like very little. I don't even remember what.
It was slow, and I made myself a pretty early cup of chocolate. It only had marshmallows, and Chaz was like "Is it just gonna be like that?" and I tell him "No~ I need my whipped cream~" and he dare says "You're always like that." like ALKSDJF x'D
Quinn got some guy's number on a piece of paper. He just kept stuffing it to her, and from the coffee station, I thought it was trash LOL and I was wondering why he stuffed trash to her. Quinn said, laughing "I'm kinda scared to open this." She opens it and reads the contents. It was his number telling her to call him some time. Andrew took it and ripped it up lol He said something like nope and you don't know those people/they're weird. I don't know.
I also talked with Andrew about DDLC and it's weirdddd lol crazy xD Still gotta go finish that game with Jo.

I don't know why... but Chazny kept whispering to me? Ahahaa it was always a bunch of random stuff that he keeps telling me. One time we were serving this customer, and he had his hair styled. Chaz turned around and came close to my ear to tell me "I used to do my hair like that" and I guess we talked a bit about that? (His hair now is 50-50 part LOL) He was saying how he was lazy to style his hair. At this point, I also told him I didn't recognize him that one time lol.
Earlier, I think he was telling me that the only bad thing about this job was you couldn't sit. I told him to go sit on the chocolate boxes in the back room lol
His friends also stopped by. It was 2 girls and I wasn't sure if they were together so I went to stand next to Chaz (he's at the window serving). And before I even asked, Chaz lowered his head a little closer to me to tell me that they were his volleyball friends. I wasn't sure what to say that to that so I just smiled and nodded at them. The girl at the front quietly said "he's really good" and I still don't know what to say to that ^^; something like "oh~..." and an awkward laugh. But Chaz kept shaking his head saying no xD After they paid and stuff, Chaz was quietly telling me how they were the only friends he didn't manage to give free drinks because Andrew was right next to him, checking the tip box. And I was telling him, Andrew wouldn't have known if we had taken the money first or not, and that he didn't mind if we hit up friends. And Chaz was like "oh, then I'll give it back to her" (of course he was joking but he made the "attempt to") and I was like "nooo don't do that!~" like, scolding him. And he said "I'm just organizing~" and touching the money and I continue to whine no and playfully hit his arm.

I was sent on my lunch after Quinn. I just sat in the swivel chair and ate Twix. Chaz had asked me if I was on my lunch too. Toward the end of my lunch, Chaz was sent on his 10 minute break. When I finished I got up and he was like "are you off your break?" and I told him yeah. He happily took the chair with a sigh of relief, and mentioning how his back hurts/has a back problem. He decided to hug the back rest instead of sitting properly in it. After I clocked in, I was like "do you want a massage?" I was partially joking, but he gave me puppy eyes, and "offered" his back to me. So I gave him a massage. The first pressure/rub/squeeze or whatever you call it, he kinda jolted forward, and I thought I hurt him x'D and after double checking with him, he was like "no, that actually felt good" and I was relieved lol He was saying he's all tense/stiff because he hasn't been dancing" and I told him he should at least keep stretching and he said he's too lazy for that lol. We were joking around saying, "You're being paid to get a massage, and I'm being paid to massage you" lol and Andrew just looked us and nodding, giving us that "what the..." smile, you-guys-are-weird look lol (because we were both clocked in xD but I mean, no customers so whatever lol) and then he said "thank you, --- I love you for this, I feel so much looser." Something along those lines, and I just gave him a final pat on the shoulders and went on my way. [If you wonder if my heart went dugun-dugun, I gotta say, probably not? haha instead I was thinking if he's just too nice to tell me my massage sucked LOLOL; I told Steph this when I got back and she was like "oh. OH. Y'all WILD." LOL]
I told Minar I was "infatuated" ahaha it's been a while for me to even admit that lol so I must be quite smitten.

After Joley left, we used Andrew's bluetooth speakers. We kept switching "DJs." Andrew plays J-rock/"orcehstral metal" (I think that's what he said) from Pandora I think. And I was serving a customer. Suddenly "Silent Scream" plays and I started singing quietly and Chaz was next to me saying, "you would know it" but it wasn't even an anime song x'D

Chaz and Stephanie clocked out at 9:30. Before then, I was at a window and Chaz came over and asked if he should go home early. No lie, internally I was pretty much screaming NO, but appearance-wise, I had no emotional change. I told him, "uh, if you want to." He was still thinking about it. Later, he tells me he's gonna go home early. I was really regretting not telling him to stay, but like, for what reason did I have to hold him back? I think it'll just sound weird. My mood dropped so low when he left, I'm telling you. Even though he clocked out, he was waiting for his ride, so he was just joking around in the booth. I was at the coffee station, and he was leaving, so when he was leaving he said bye to us, and he punched me lightly on the shoulder, and I don't know why there was just a weird exchange? because I tapped him on the shoulder... Iuno it was all weird LOL
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Well that's the end of the work day. Uhm, nothing else haha

Wouldya look at the time.

I just finished lettering with my Speedball dip pen and silver ink on my painted galaxy sketchbook cover. Calligraphy really strains my hand and back ^^; but the outcome is super nice! I never thought to paint my sketchbook cover but it definitely makes me want to art more! instead of looking at the cover that says "mixed media".
I was going to start my bullet journal again, but I was too lazy to take out my rulers right now, so I'ma just blog about today, wait for my hair to dry and sleep. Biri came back today, so I don't think I'ma sleep in ^^;
Speaking of bullet journals, I was watching a lot of "plan with me" videos, and it seems everyone's Januray/2018 theme is gold and winter lolol so now I want some gold pens or inks. Speaking of my stationery stuff, I want to start a stamp collection lol

Today I baked potatoes, but I didn't evenly coat them with oil, so some stuck to the foil when I tried to flip them and I didn't evenly bake them so one side was a lil' more cooked. Biri came back then, and I was actually on Barnes & Noble's website. I purchased "Art of Blizzard" because it was on an incredible saleeee. Online only, so I got it shipped to me.
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Anyway, PMS-ing.
I don't know why but I was getting annoyed today at work? For the first time since I've started working there. Like, forreal annoyed. I think it's because Andrew (econ major) was working next to me and I just didn't like the way he was talking??? It felt like he was trying to tell me how I should be doing things and stuff, and sometimes when he asks me questions, and I answer them normally, he answers back as if I gave him attitude??? Like??? I don't even know. -huge sigh-
**distracted. look who bought more CDs??? but hey, I stopped myself from the other ones LOL**
So yeah. He was working next to me. And when I started getting annoyed, I was legit thinking, "can I switch with Ryan so I can work next to Chazny?" (I was seriously so happy to see him when he and Andrew & Ryan came from the other booth. And then I thought about that dream LOL) And then I guess what really hit me was, I was helping some customers and I had ordered coffee from Joley for another customer. I was occupied, but I knew Henry and them were asking about someone's coffee but I thought they had picked up the coffee from the window that was for the security guard. After I finished and went to grab my coffee, it was "swooped," as Joley called it. And then after going around, we found out Reese had thrown it out just minutes from when I went to get it. And then Andrew had the nerve to pretty much blame me??? Saying why I didn't say anything when they asked. UHHH first of all. They only said "coffee" so how am I supposed to know they were talking about my "large french roast" when I was finishing up with another customer? Second, if it's not your coffee... WHY'D YOU TAKE IT. (I don't know who took it, I just know I glanced and saw Henry holding a capped cup) Although I was laughing and joking it off, I was about to start crying??? but Joley made me a new cup really fast so yeah. Also because Chazny came back from his lunch so that sorta saved me too. (When Chazny was going off to lunch, he walked by me and I jokingly in my head was thinking, what if he hung his apron around my neck hahaha... WELL. He almost did LOL He asked "do you want a double apron?" and I shook my head while smiling and he made it seem like he was going to put it over my head anyway, but then he just smiled and continued walking toward the door) I was glad when he took the station next to me. He already made my day from joking around. We were just standing around, and Chaz was messing around, pretended he would squirt whipped cream on my counter, and after I said "don't do it" jokingly... HE DID IT ANYWAY. And I told him that he had to clean it up and he threw a towel on it instead of cleaning it with a napkin alskdjf this boy. And I pretended that I was going to put that whipped cream rag on his face and he was like "you wouldn't dare" LOL
We also chatted a bit. He was saying how he was going to enjoy his shift today, and I was like why. He said "Because I have you... -turns to his right- I have them two... -turns to the people on our left- those two... -turns to the back- them" I interrupt and say "that's everyone!" (technically said simultaneously) and he turns to the back room "and those two" and turns back to me laughing. 

It was a slow day so to be honest, a lot of us just milled about and found busy work ^^; I had 4 small cups of hot chocolate... wow. When Dan and I were going on our lunch, Chazny asked Liz if he could take a 2nd lunch after giving me a glance as I passed by, and asking if I'm going on my break, to which I said I was going on my lunch LOL (and then of course, it's gonna be me overthinking stuff) I just ate an It's-It for lunch. It was good~
(Skye and Kat were talking about how nice Henry's teeth were LOL and then he mentioned about how he and his girlfriend were gonna open a clinic together (Bekah already announced this to the staff earlier LOL) HOW CUTE. He said, next month is going to be 2 years together (me eavesdropping when he was talking to Ryan lolol))
When I got back from my lunch, there wasn't anything to do, so I joined Chazny at the coffee station. He was getting overwhelmed with so many coffee orders ahaha He asked me if I had anything to do, and I told him if Reese had anything for me~ and I looked at Reese at his right, and he was like "no, you can stay here and help me" or something along those lines. I ended up going on my Snapchat, and snapchatted us ahaha (Despite seeing me using Snapchat, he wouldn't add me hmph. LOL) Oh yeah, he and Ryan were roasting marshmallows in the fire... and he took out a flaming marshmallow omg LOL caught that on snapchat ahaha

At the end, we got churros from the other booth~ Also, Reese literally put everyone on their 10 minute break at the same time, so it was like a party in the back room. While we were cleaning up, I put my drink on the counter on the side. And even though Chaz knew, he jokingly said, "this is trash right~" while holding it up to me and I whined "nooo~" Of course he put it back on the counter. I refilled it and added whipped cream and stuff again and set it aside. They were cleaning the counters later, and whoever it was picked up my drink, but Chaz got it for me, telling them it was mine. And I got it back from him. I again, filled it up and added whipped cream (both times, it wasn't a full refill okay LOL) and I set it in front of the coffee station/pots. When we were pretty much done, I was going to grab my drink. Chazny was in front of it and he pointed to it saying "that's probably yours?" And I jokingly whined, "what's that supposed to mean~" and he said "nothing. you have a sweet tooth right?" to which I nodded.
Earlier when they were going to throw away the apple cider, Chaz had got a cup (this was before we closed) and I was manning the coffee station. I put a lid on it for him and lettered his name on it. He kinda left it there for a long while, but he came over to sip after refilling the coolers. He was digging under ice/ice water so his hands were red, so the hot apple cider warmed them. And considering how long he left it there, he was like "still warm." I looked at him and he asked if I wanted to try it. Of course, no, because I prefer sparkling cider LOL I was kinda disappointed he didn't say anything about my lettering (I had lettered "happy new year!" on one of the cups and Henry saw it and said it was cute ^u^) but when he came back a second time, he asked if I wrote his name, and gave me a smile, but was teasing me that I wrote his name like an equation, something about log and power LOL

While we were cleaning, he and Joley just kept dancing ahahaha I was standing by the coffee window drinking my hot chocolate, and he was cleaning the window and somehow... almost fell out the window LOL and he was saying "for safety reasons, I'm going to hook onto someone" and he hooked his foot on my ankle??? LOL
I don't know what song came up, but I was slightly behind him as he finished the coffee window counter and was going towards the front counters, and I guess it was a lit song?
And he literally... a sexy dance of sorts... no joke. Internally fangirled. It was like a body roll? Seriously, he was making me laugh all day. I was drinking my hot chocolate and he did it again in front of the counter, and I literally choked on my drink. Aigoo x'D I forreal love watching him (& Joley) dance.

So sorry this is way out of order, but things keep coming back to me lol so around like 9ish, 10, Liz sent people out to advertise because we were slow. Advertise as in, walk around with drinks, pretending they bought the drinks y'know LOL I was fantasizing in my head, what if they sent us to go but to be honest, it was going to be super awkward and embarrassing so I was glad they told Chaz to go. Liz said to not lose him, he needed to go with someone, and he chose to go with Ryan. So them 2 awkwardly went around LOL A couple... LOL I cannot. The second time they came back to "recreate their drinks," Chazny was... trying to be sexy at the door. OTL I cannot. He was so CRINGY. I literally got goosebumps. But at the same time it was so funny xD Liz was teasing them, that they legit look like a gay couple out there (naw, I don't think so though LOL) and she sent Bekah and Skye with them later, but not long, Bekah came back saying she gave up because it was super awkward LOL

Hm... seems like that's all.
So today was pretty rocky--with my mood--but thanks to Chaz, Joley, Henry, Bekah, Dan, Liz, and Reese, it ended up pretty fun again. ^^ I'm seriously going to miss everyone, especially Chaz of course, but yay~ I'll probably see him again tomorrow. (Not trying to be mean, but low-key glad Andrew has the day off tomorrow...)

Alright, how did this post take an hour to write. Lol. Because Chaz does too many weird things.
Also, last night I slept around 5am too because I was posting the digital galaxy speedpaint and I showered late. Goodnights now!
[Reading this must be as tedious as it is for me to write it all out xD]

Happy new year!
I can't believe it's already 2018.

I spent the new year with my co-workers! Oh how much I love them; they make me happy :3 (Although some of them though.... > >) ANYWAY. Nothing special at work today. Pretty slow. Random crowds here and there. It was also Reese's first shift as manager, though Liz was "babysitting" lol I worked with the Le siblings today~ (Henry, Randy, and Liz) There were lots of laughs today :3 I didn't get to take my 10min break... ^^; Tom also came by. And he checked on me that I got my tips back lol I feel bad making everyone worry about my tips. And every time he leaves, he always thanks me but I didn't do anything...?

The Ice Rink closed early today. CITP didn't need everyone, so me and Bekah clocked out (doesn't seem like she wanted to stay anyway lol) While we were finishing up at the ice rink, we were just standing around. Somehow I ended up between Henry and Randy lol And when I was helping to bag the trash cans, my apron fell, and Henry picked it up for me. Earlier, I was flapping my time card, and pricked my cheek, and I quietly said to myself "oww, I scratched myself" and he was like "are you okay?" At first I was ??? but then realized why he asked lol he's such a brotherly figure, I feel so loved :3 (shh, he has a girlfriend) We were all teasing Henry about his "year old boba" LOL because it was 2018 ahahaha. Also found out he's a graduate from UOP omg x'D for dentistry.
Oh, I was behind Bekah while we working and I was trying to get by, and her ponytail whacked me, like, right across my brows. Henry so happened to be in front of me and saw it all happen x'D

Hmm, seems like a good day.
Before going to work, I did a 30 minute digital painting of the same galaxy as the one I painted on my sketchbook cover. I think I really got into skies and galaxies ^^ so hopefully I'll explore more. I also feel like I'm getting more into traditional painting?
I've been trying to be active on Amino, and I posted my painting on the groups, and I got a really positive response. I've been feeling really good, really positive, so I've been thinking about some new year resolutions :3 Still not organized enough yet. Hopefully, 2018 will be full of creativity for me ^^
I also didn't wash my hair yesterday & slept with my braids on, so my hair was super curly (Jim called them curly fries OMG x'D) & I didn't want to braid them again so I was going to do loops, but they got messy pretty soon, so I just went with simple loose pigtails in the front :p
Anyway, I'ma try to do more speedpaintings or stuff this year. Covers? but I doubt I have time for that. Maybe going to SJSU hip hop :p And learning more recipes ^^
I cooked omurice with spam today ^^

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^

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