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Wow. I think I'm understanding myself more?
I feel like my emotions/mental state become a rollercoaster when I get too stressed. I won't try to explain it, but I think you'll understand. Just yesterday I was being as gray as Branch in Trolls. I had no motivation to do anything and feeling pathetic (refer to previous post, I think). Basically, I was in a temporary state of depression. I ended up skipping school all day. (The week goes by faster when I skip Monday LOL) I woke up this morning and still wasn't feeling great, but not too bad at the same time. I was a little less stressed, I guess? I still didn't feel like doing any work, less so than yesterday though. So I worked on my render during History. The sphere was coming along well. I continued at home and finally finished. I wasn't feeling bad about it; it was decent. Then I thought to myself, why couldn't I finish this? Here I thought it wasn't even gonna look correct, yet it looks decent now. Understand that I was worried that it wouldn't look good so I didn't feel like finishing it, aka I was delaying the 'bad result.'
I suddenly had a surge of motivation to work despite having so little time, which resulted from being distracted with things and not feeling all that motivated. So it really wasn't a "surge," but it was a higher peak than yesterday.
Remember that slump I had for about a week? I don't remember mentioning this, but it was followed by a week of sudden motivation, workaholicism. And it eventually evened out to a regular--as regular as can be--work schedule. Then work piled again, the stress came again, and of course the depression started creeping in again.

I told Mina that all my positive attitude was used up last year. I still manage to squeeze out enough to last me a week, but apparently, I run out then and gotta wait a week to replenish, eh?
But anyway, my mood and mental state improved by the end of the day. I'm still anxious about tomorrow, but I don't have that "I-don't-want-to-go-to-class" attitude; that tends to be a sure warning sign that I am super stressed and need a break. I guess this is the 2nd time this semester? Or third hm...

I'm also forcing myself to stop worrying about what other people think too. If they judge, then they judge quietly, and it has nothing to do with me. I'm just living life my way.

I'm so pathetic. I feel pathetic.
I swear, all I do is whine. I just couldn't help but complain to Minar. Thanks to her for hearing me out, I feel a lot better. Also, it's because I skipped my classes. 2 out of 3 though, since Lizz cancelled class. I rendered all day. Like, you must be kidding me ToT I finally finished the sphere. I don't think I'ma do the 3-tonal value... maybe over winter break. I'm just going to focus on the cylinder, sphere, and woodpecker. Oh, by the way, there were NO WOODPECKERS. I mean, there was a cute guy working at the Great Valley Museum in Modesto, but there were still no woodpeckers. The museums were cool and all but where da woodpeckers at!? Like, they're native here yet none in the museums? OTL

Also, feeling a lil' good because of all the support I got on the teaser vid. People who don't even usually like my photos/vids, and then there's Caleb with an outburst of "you dance?!" xD Oh man, his was the funniest when I woke up to see he commented lol

Alright, I only had a cup noodle for dinner, apples and soup. Yup, didn't eat much since I woke up. I just found a video talking about depressive disorder aka (chronic) depression. I don't have it, but I sure was depressed here and there this month o_o
Time to sleep...

I really shouldn't be on here, but just a quickie.
I just can't anymore. I don't think I can anymore, but I will myself--I force myself-- to get through these last few weeks of this semester. I didn't suffer through all these long nights & crazy stress just to fail again. I absolutely cannot.
I'm definitely stressed right now. And that's probably the case because of all the work I have left to do, haven't done, & is due tomorrow (today). That happens all the time & the only way to de-stress, even just a bit, is to prioritize. Organize. Prioritizing for me tends to mean skipping my morning class, only knowing that I won't miss anything too important though. To be honest, I really just want to break down right now. But I don't have time for that & it's not worth it.

Victor took me out to In-n-Out, then to watch "Moana" but it was sold out so we watched "Trolls" instead. I have not been to the movies in so long; wow, the changes. Haha reclining seats? Nice. The soundtrack was awesome, & towards the end I cried. Why do I get emotional over small things? Lol It was really cute though~ some of the trailers looked interesting, especially "The Space Between Us." I think I might watch that. It wasn't too awkward, but once again I feel like I talked about myself too much, not necessarily about me but yeah... he just asks a lot relating to me lol When he dropped me off, he gave me a souvenir from Disneyland~  a cute bracelet with a letter 'J' charm~ ^^

Also, me & Jim finally recorded "White Night." Posted a fun teaser on my IG, & wow, all the likes. Awww, love y'alls hehe I just said "I'ma need help y'alls" but then gonna need to do another post for when the Youtube link's available ^^; The ending is so bad because I had to rush learn this dance in 2 days! So it's not as good as I would have wanted it, since this is the only time we can record, etc. Jim said I put so much power in this dance and technically, enthusiasm lol I didn't even notice; it felt the same. But, the moves didn't look as bad or as awkward as I imagined (except for the sitting part; jeans too tight LOL) Really want to win the prizes, not necessarily a cover reaction video from them though xD

Alright, I've been on here a little too long. Goodnight... ToT

The day flew by fast. I woke up super sore from "White Night." Figured lol

Dinner went by fast. I didn't eat a lot. I drank Jim's mango margarita though lol Of course, I didn't get drunk, just a light Asian glow lol I am gaining so much weight -sigh- Not to mention, I didn't really do as much homework as I like... Jim plucked my excessive hairs LOL
Tomorrow we're heading out to Dublin for lunch with our cousin. Gonna go get some reference photos from the museum too. I swear. They better have woodpeckers OTL

Need to figure out a plan to get most of my work done... hm... Jim is heading out next week for New Jersey oooh~ means I'm not going home for 3 weeks lol might stay over at Jen's though hm...
Alright! Heading to sleep now! Long day tomorrow, plus Black Friday shopping? ;)

Side note, I realized I can't be a mean or overly-possessive girlfriend. Zen doesn't even mind though like what the heck? lol But Seven's all "how could you!?" to me xD Omgee, it breaks my heart to be mean or aggressive and not supportive to Zen ahaha

Wow. Blogger changed lol
Finally home for Thanksgiving break! After I got picked up yesterday, we went to Great Mall, but ended up choosing the wrong size Daiso again lol (Remember! Eastridge has the bigger Daiso! lol)
I got home and got the biggest, fluffiest huggles from the pets. It was super cold so I cuddled with them. So much flufffff~ lol Bob on my left, Nga Sat on my lap, and Reno on my right ahaha.

It was so cold today I didn't want to get up. I got up before 12 though and stayed home to render while Mom and Jim went out shopping with Jo. I watched Howl's Moving Castle. Omg how I missed that movie~ <3 I cannot get over how handsome Howl is~ how sweet he is, yet he's still just a kid. Speaking of handsome, bad ending for Zen is so difficult LOL I can't bear to be mean to him~ ah, but I need to read that bad ending xD I already missed most of the chats and being mean to him sometimes. I think I'm off track to a bad ending LOL He keeps giving hearts even with the "mean" responses lol
I learned half of UP10TION's "White Night." No wonder there's no covers up LOL. Why do they have 3 dance breaksssss and why do they use their shoulders and pound so much in their dances. Ah, I think I'ma be sore tomorrow. There goes my shoulders. I think "Catch me" also made me sore around my shoulders lol

Watching "Hello Counselor" with Jim, "A father that is too busy having fun!" Poor baby Myung from 5urprise cried so much awwww.
Anyway, gotta work hard on them homeworks!

I worked all day. Kinda.
I had coffee at night, and didn't sleep 'til 4am. Woke up, pulled myself unwillingly to class. Managed to not get distracted during my gap, and did work for 12, then 50.
12 was cut short because Inga had a headache. I am so tired to even post in detail. I only had apples, soy milk and chocolate to last me through the day. Less than 3 hours of sleep, waking up early, and barely having anything to eat... I seriously amaze myself at how I haven't fainted yet.

Finally got dinner when I got home. Gobbled it up in seconds, and now I have food coma. I was annoyed when I got back because the screen door was locked. Called Steph but she didn't pick up. Called Biri and she sounded like she just woke up? When she picked up I felt like I woke her up or something, so that annoyed me even more (because I felt bad). Also, I guess because I was hangry.

It's so weird that I had an urge to keep working. I was starting to feel like I might become a workaholic haha. Not really, because you know, sleep is very tempting. Speaking of sleep, I'ma shower and probably K.O., even though I was hoping I'd get more work done to get ready to leave tomorrow. Anywho, I still need to figure out how to get a bad ending LOL

This morning was not a good morning. It was good until I got phone calls. I was so ready, at 8:30 in the morning, to get up and fire it up and do homework. But no. Inca, being all pissed, has to call me, and me using every bit of my morning-conscience to understand what she's saying and making sure I'm not saying anything stupid because I BARELY WOKE UP. I think I woke Steph up having to deal with all that... I guess I'm kind of a true Libra? Lol trying to make sure neither side is super mad (but like, yeah, I get pissed myself too :p )
Ended up going back to sleep, even though to be honest, I wasn't all that sleepy. I just wanted to restart my day sigh. Woke up pretty much around 1? It was cloudy out, having rained, and it was my kind of weather aight. The doorbell rings and I'm dreading it's Inca. Luckily, just the deliveryman with my Tsukiuta fan book! Now that made my day~ I couldn't resist and made a really quick unpacking and flip-through and it's up on Youtube! ;D

The day went by fast; in the blink of an eye it was already almost 3pm. I didn't eat except for yogurt and apples. We headed out for pho around 6 and met up with Bea there. After dinner, I was having food coma. Amazingly, I fought through, and did quite a lot, and by a lot I mean my rendering LOL (which also means, not much...) I rendered for 3 hours straight watching Bakuman! I don't even know... how... I usually feel like "ugh" after rendering for 10 min or so. So I'm pretty proud pfft. I was going crazy rendering for that long, so I went to shower. Afterward, saw Birdy's tweet. GOOD BYE $95 ToT I am so sad. Why did I spend so much money this yearrrrr... I seriously need a job. Time to rationalize other parts of my spendings, mainly food LOL
Aside from that, didn't go ice skating today. Can we go tomorrow? lol Can't wait to go home in two days! Oops, I wrote for too long. Time to sleep because I plan to wake up early! (Again! & it better work this time lol) Hm, missing Minar because she hasn't replied my messages... she must be busy keke I think it's becoming a sort of routine, chatting with Minar. And it feels off when I don't xD
Anyway, watch my fan book unpacking on LPinkMuzik! and U10's performance MV on their V app! Adios for now!  

The week is finally over. I made it. Somehow.

All my classes went pretty well! Sorta. lol I wasn't too stressed. I wasn't even stressed for Sheldon's class this morning. It was so cold this morning I didn't want to wake up, so I ended up leaving the apartment around 8:25. Luckily, Sheldon's plane was late I guess. Today was just a bunch of demos so we didn't draw much. No more slump! so I did okay.
Got my portfolio back. Glad it gots a B now. Let's keep working on that head though.

Plans to go get my quotes from print shops and then to the cat café. Ended up not going because wow, lazy bug. Also, my ribcage started hurting. More like... it was super tense when I tried to stretch?
Tomorrow! Ship out the Tsu-kitties to Soumeki (it's been a week!) and then get quotes, and then ice skating time~ :D

On a side note, I asked Leadah to design my persona (not really my persona... my spirit animal...? lol and not even that... POLARIS mascot? bahaha) I need to design a persona... the one that resembles me... Anywho! I felt bad just asking her out of the blue, but it came out really cute! and the outfit she designed looks medieval-wintery haha perfect for christmas~ Can't wait to make an avi and header out of it~
She's thinking of designing outfits for POLARIS. And starting "Mina Couture" (or something haha) on deviantArt~ :D Welp, before I start dreaming too much, gotta make dinner and do homework.

Another side note: KMR WAVE III IS DROPPING IN 3 HOURS. I THINK I MADE UP MY MIND
UPDATE: I failed to buy anything due to my hesitation. I managed to grab the black hoodie but hesitated because... did it have the Shadow OPs mask? The green already sold out when I decided to switch. Not to mention the shipping is $18!? And not even combined shipping. I'm so sad... I kinda knew I wouldn't end up buying anything LOL though I wanted to. And I guess and I'm not backing Anna either. I will eventually buy KMR merch though! Eventually... now I cry quietly inside as I work on my homework....
UPDATE 2: Soooo the black one does have a mask. He wore it in his Snapchat but I couldn't remember his hood. Also, that boy literally "dropping" merch because when you open the store, he still posting the new stuff -insert laughing-crying emoji- I guess, it really just means, I've spent enough this year. In a way I feel sort of relieved? that I've decided to not spend $$ on those 2, but at the same time, I know there's a slight nag in the back of my mind saying 'you'll regret it.' I guess I'll just make life a game: let's earn/save money. (Well, life is a game right? lol)

Eyyy! Finally posted up the Romwe haul, will probably regret it at some point.. LOL but I used Premiere Pro for the first time! to add text, anyway. I will probably start using it to put together videos...
I was working on my animatic for 28. It looks, decent haha. So far, I'm the only one who went overboard with my animatic LOL (ooh, which reminds me, I should make an animatic template...) Oh! and I used After Effects for that. Learning so many new skills suddenly haha. I feel very proud :3
I'm gonna miss Adobe CC when I finish school *insert laughing crying emoji*

Talking to Mina about my dilemma: Anna Blue or Birdy. OMG. ToT Still can't decide...

Took our 3rd history midterm today. Wasn't bad I guess? I stayed up 'til 3am helping to finish the group study guide. I feel so accomplished when I did terms for two chapters LOL Hm, what else... I'm not too stressed because I don't think there's homework due for 50? haha

Well, I skipped ANI 12. It's all good though :p Gonna study and try to do lots of ANI homework. Working late into the night like Birdy~ (Still debating about backing Anna Blue vs KMR merch... why Birdy restock this Fridayyy lol) That's not the thing that's ridiculous.

I just went to shower, and I find the tub full of hair. WHY. And there's something even grosser, but I will save you the trouble of imagining that. I don't know who keeps leaving their hair (& other "stuff") in the restroom. Come on! My bathtub/room at home is way cleaner. Ugh.

Was talking to Leadah again~ we're talking less in the group chat, but it's always so fun to chat with Leadah one-on-one~

EDIT: it is 2:55am right now. Ooh it's getting chilly. I might catch a cold haha. I just did 2 chapters for the class-group study guide. I'm glad I contributed. Time to study tomorrow though! Also, my first time using Premiere Pro. Gah, it was pretty fun~ I liked being able to easily place the text where I want. I just barely used it, and I already know I'ma miss Premiere Pro when I finish school lol I think Meimei has the hack though... lolol Anyway, keep a lookout for my very first haul+try-on video LOL it is so bad It'll be followed up by 2 more unpacking videos I think. By then, maybe I'll be home for Thanksgiving and have recorded one or two dance covers for ready-to-be-uploaded for the future ;)

Once again, I feel the stress hitting me. Why do I do this? Why do I even ask -.- 
I'm rushing work right now. I didn't get quotes, but I will just have to tell her I wasn't in town to ask. I forreal need to pick up the slack. I need to focus on one class to catch up on. Right now, I'm behind in all my classes...

Plan:
1. Catch up on ANI 50 sketches/scanning
2. Catch up on readings/notes for ANI 28
3. Catch up on diagrams/notes for ANI 12

Though ANI 12 is priority because I already "failed" it once, I want to get more things done. And since it's just reading (28), I should be fine...
Ugh, I still gotta prep for History midterm on Tuesday. I seriously regret taking 4 ANI classes... Raquel was right: get done better than faster (I paraphrased, so hope you understand what I mean)
I'm 50/50; it's so weird. I feel like I'm getting things done, then I think about all the stuff I need to do, and it's like I have a bunch left (really, it's the long project ones aka my notebooks/journals) and then I feel overwhelmed. But I shouldn't be. I feel like I'm doing well turning in assignments that are due the next class, sometimes. I'm really betting my big projects over Thanksgiving to finish. To be honest, if I really worked over Thanksgiving and weekends, I could seriously catch up. I gave myself a 4-day weekend, and because I didn't diligently work like I wanted to, I didn't make much progress...

Well, I haven't gotten as much done as I wanted. I will try to finish everything today, as I had coffee from Starbucks ^^ The barista cashier was really chill & joked around because the sun was setting & so happened to be glaring in from the window behind her, and I was struggling to see lol Then the guy who made my drink apparently smiled at me according to Jim, but I didn't even see xD I did say thank you after he gave me my second drink to make up for it keke It was a buy one get one free deal for the weekend.

Tried to dye my hair pink yesterday, but that failed. Either my hair wasn't light enough (it actually darkened since I bleached it, and because we had no toner, my hair was actually orange-ish), or we didn't use enough/didn't let it sit long enough. It doesn't even look like we did anything, except it looks more red-orange, a reddish tint. Wondered why when I rinsed it, the water was super pink, more than the red that rinsed off when Jen dyed my hair red lol Jim also insist that I get straight bangs to twin with her haha Kinda can't wait for short hair again, but although I really like Bulldok Kimi's short hair, I don't think I could pull that off lolol

Was helping Jo with her magazine layouts. What I was telling her was what I need to do for my class lol yet I couldn't pull it off for myself ^^;
So bored, because where did POLARIS go? Lol we're talking less than before. Well, I guess there's not much to talk about? So it feels off because we're not texting 100+ messages to each other lol because everyone's busy--midterm and finals are coming up. Can't for winter break. I still don't know if I'll be here winter break because Michael hasn't contacted me about going to Korea yet hm... If not, me & Jen might just go by ourselves? But that's a little scary lol Jim got herself a job so she's gonna be flown out to New Jersey for training for 3 weeks then back to Berkeley for work. Wheee~ Wow, flight & board all paid for by the company xD

Guess who's president now.
The world is in turmoil now. It's ridiculous how much hate crime is starting to happen. I just want to protect everyoneeee :( I don't understand why or how anyone can think anyone else is inferior in anyway. Please read and watch this. Like that one person said: how can there ever be a pure race? Has there ever been a pure race? And if there has been, it has been lost many years ago. I won't get too political in this, but, I don't really care if you support Trump because you prefer his policies; I don't care if you did not like Obama because he could not do anything (in favor) for you; I don't care if you don't like Clinton because of her e-mail scandals. To be honest, I don't know too much about this year's politics; I just don't know I definitely don't want someone who's racist or someone who brags about sexually harassing women.
Anyway, I just can't. I'm glad there are so many people who has progressed forward and showing their support for all the various communities. Share the love!
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I didn't mean to throw such a depressing beginning of this post ^^;
I'm back at home already! I went home Wednesday night, and we went to Icicles for some Thai rolled ice cream. Yes, I skipped History lol I gave myself a 4-day weekend xD hopefully to catch up on some work. All I've been doing is eating candy omg. Also, I think I'm going to back Anna Blue and Damien Dawn's physical album, here on Kickstarter! I didn't back for Mecha-Ude lol. Pokémon XY&Z finally updated omg can't wait to watch! But let me finish my homework first, merong. I have two journals to be printed out. I'm excited for my ANI 50 one~ I really like the theme I decided with, and I hope it'll come out well~ but ugh, I really hate the notebook for ANI 12 OTL
Also, I got my cat headphones~ the LED lights are working fine and hopefully they stay that way. Ah, I've been feeling so off without my headphones. Now I shall get back on a roll~
Planned to do a cover this weekend too, but hm, which one? Waiting for POLARIS to make a comeback but omygahhhh.
Ooh! Also, can't wait for Black Friday because we gon' get a DSLR~ hopefully ;)

Voted earlier; had to walk to a polling post for a provisional ballot because the state couldn't send one FREAKIN' mail before today.
The election right now is so ridiculously close, and it SHOULDN'T be. I don't know what runs through the people's mind who vote for Trump. Weighing the negatives of each candidate, it's definitely heavier on Trump's side, considering the degree of them all. So why?
Can I just fly to JeffreyFever? lol
I'm tired of getting into it; had a slightly political convo with Minar, Steph, and Meimei on Twitter.
Ugh, I need to do homework. So much to do.

Yesterday was a long day, but it was decent. In ANI 12, we looked over sphere mechanicals; mine was the only one done fully and correctly. Inga gave me the okay; Callum was saying how he'll buy lunch under $20 for anyone who does a shadow on the wall, and Inga said "you owe one already" lol, and he said "well, she has to render it and pass it" lolol Hm.. tempting... LOL

I was craving food yesterday, and when I finally made dinner, I only ate half because I got full LOL So many DTAs~ Wheeee //dead/
I was reading Sacco & Vanzetti for the quiz, and I didn't think I'd get so into it, but the Massachusetts' judicial system was just so stupid in its times! Though really, they weren't "stupid"; they were trying to force a conviction. The evidence was so flawed; the judge was biased; and witnesses were just coming from nowhere, half of them making up lies. I was just so annoyed lol
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My left bicep hurts LOL it's sore from carrying my laptop all afternoon yesterday :p
argh, need to do homework... so much due tomorrow OTL.
Side note, it's been kinda awkward with Steph. She seems so... distant? I don't know... I feel like it's because she "lives" differently than us; we all like to get out there, do stuff. She likes to hang with close friends and stay in her room kind of thing. I don't know... Actually I hardly spoke to Steph, conversationally, other than asking about this or that or informing. She doesn't say bye when she leaves, but not like I mind; I stopped saying bye because it feels... "off"? Short rant :p

I am hungry. Even though I ate a lot at Mr. T yesterday and today haha. Eating cup noodle now~
Laundry was $10+ omg. Drying was 0.25c for 4 min. and I think we did almost 20 min? I was catching up on my sketchbook today; I drew this lil' girl eating ice cream (because for some reason she took a liking to us? lol) and her mom's friend saw it, and she asked if it was the lil' girl. I think she ended up telling the mom, because later the mom sat next to me with the little girl and she said (the other lady) show her the picture ahaha. The lil' girl smiled shyly and the mom told her to say thank you. I don't know why but d'aww haha :)
I'm working on my ellipses right now. Decided to make a physical 3D model using one of my cubes from ANI 14. Need to redo my walk too.

By the way, my slump is gone! I also am watching a lot of different artists talk about random stuff, usually some tips or motivational stuff. I really do feel lighter after the slump is gone... excited to do some fun drawings for myself! But I know I won't have time... I still want to though :p So I'm kinda pumped to work at the moment lol
Enrollment on Tuesday :p So far my classes are still open.
I think I had some more stuff to talk about this weekend, but I forgot, and I'm gonna work myself over that.

I hope you're doing well Leadah~ don't stress too much either; an overly stretched elastic would snap ya know.
Anyway, feeling down? Please take a break and watch this beautiful short, whether you already watched it or not :)

I'm chilling at Jen's place right now. Barted over in the afternoon to do laundry LOL jk not only to do laundry but to get some Mr.T~

I've been telling Mina I've been in a slump. It looks like yesterday night the slump was starting to leave. Oh yeah this morning I still didn't want to wake up lol so I ended up doing a crappy 2nd pass, then heading out to Jen's later than I wanted. I managed to do half the render 1st pass. I probably won't finish by tomorrow. But yeah, I managed to push myself to at least finish the walls. Maybe I just needed a change in environment; I mean I have been stuck in the apartment for the most part.
Which leads me to breaks! Take meaningful breaks, and I mean not ones where you end up slacking off. Maybe eat something, take a walk, watch or read something short, just chillax, or even a short nap! Then get back to work. Your brain gets fried if you work nonstop--I would know. Even a computer would overheat!

I came upon someone's fashion DIY Youtube, I guess you could call it, and I'm super excited for the summer because I really plan to go over to Jessica's & make my Mimikyu costume~ :D
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I don't think I mentioned about 14F yesterday? Bunny & Courtney, the founders of our program, came back to visit & chose a film for us to watch. It was "A Face in the Crowd." It was a pretty darn good watch. We passed around a bag of popcorn x'D I was confused; the guy I passed the bag to was confused! Lol As we left I happened to walk behind Ange and she was talking to Jonathan, I didn't think it was right to interrupt and say bye but she ended up saying bye to me as I tried to sneak off~ keke

It's been a while since I've had a pretty serious talk. Thanks to Leadah for always listening and ready to give some deep thought-advice/words lol I don't know why I suddenly just got serious and ranting (not really) to her... and we just had a pretty good-lengthed serious conversation (it's serious because there were limited lols, hahas, and emojis xD) The topic was pretty heavy too :p It just felt nice to talk to her one-on-one. I guess because we never talk about such topics too much/seriously in a group...

Also, Romwe orders finally got here! Did a pretty quick unpack + try on + review lol all ready edited, just gotta add some text. Should be able to be uploaded tomorrow? Or Sunday. I'm going over to Jen's tomorrow~ to do laundry lol So that ruins my plan in the previous previous post :p
Well, I'm kinda satisfied with the order. I mean, it's from China. The sizes are going to be off. Surprisingly, they were all pretty good. My long tee definitely was fine, even if it wasn't as long as they said, but it's not like I know lol The paint drip sweater was slightly on the smaller size, so it was a little tight when putting on, but the sleeve and sweater lengths were fine. The only problematic ones would be my coffee and meow sweater. The meow sweater is on the small size: the sleeves are barely past the wrist, but the length of the sweater rests just on the hipline, so raising your hands is a no-no. The coffee sweater--beside the fact that 'morning' isn't spelled right on the coffee cup--is on the small size; the sleeves are about half an inch before the wrist, the length of the sweater is only slightly longer than the meow sweater, so it's not all that good. I wonder if mommy can make adjustments to those... because it's really not too problematic to need to be refunded. Any who, look out for a Romwe 2016 haul/review on my cover channel! (I was thinking of putting it on another of my YTs, but eh. It doesn't really matter because it's mostly going to be covers, so it'll be fine if I have a few miscellaneous videos here and there)

Aside from that... I really need to clean my desktop... AGAIN.

Is being too positive a bad thing?

I don't think so. There is a balance between being positive and negative, just like that little robot in "Infinity Train." Being positive is good because it will definitely push you to do more things, in a way, and also to have a better attitude toward things.
But it could be bad at one point. I mentioned in some post that when I'm positive, I could be overly positive; but to balance that, I could be overly negative too.

I don't know what I'm trying to get at lol just some pre-class thoughts .-. I always repeat myself pfft

It's been a while. Or not. I managed to force myself to give up on the CDs that ultimately cannot be found -shrug- sort of.

Wow. I think I'm understanding myself more?
I feel like my emotions/mental state become a rollercoaster when I get too stressed. I won't try to explain it, but I think you'll understand. Just yesterday I was being as gray as Branch in Trolls. I had no motivation to do anything and feeling pathetic (refer to previous post, I think). Basically, I was in a temporary state of depression. I ended up skipping school all day. (The week goes by faster when I skip Monday LOL) I woke up this morning and still wasn't feeling great, but not too bad at the same time. I was a little less stressed, I guess? I still didn't feel like doing any work, less so than yesterday though. So I worked on my render during History. The sphere was coming along well. I continued at home and finally finished. I wasn't feeling bad about it; it was decent. Then I thought to myself, why couldn't I finish this? Here I thought it wasn't even gonna look correct, yet it looks decent now. Understand that I was worried that it wouldn't look good so I didn't feel like finishing it, aka I was delaying the 'bad result.'
I suddenly had a surge of motivation to work despite having so little time, which resulted from being distracted with things and not feeling all that motivated. So it really wasn't a "surge," but it was a higher peak than yesterday.
Remember that slump I had for about a week? I don't remember mentioning this, but it was followed by a week of sudden motivation, workaholicism. And it eventually evened out to a regular--as regular as can be--work schedule. Then work piled again, the stress came again, and of course the depression started creeping in again.

I told Mina that all my positive attitude was used up last year. I still manage to squeeze out enough to last me a week, but apparently, I run out then and gotta wait a week to replenish, eh?
But anyway, my mood and mental state improved by the end of the day. I'm still anxious about tomorrow, but I don't have that "I-don't-want-to-go-to-class" attitude; that tends to be a sure warning sign that I am super stressed and need a break. I guess this is the 2nd time this semester? Or third hm...

I'm also forcing myself to stop worrying about what other people think too. If they judge, then they judge quietly, and it has nothing to do with me. I'm just living life my way.

I'm so pathetic. I feel pathetic.
I swear, all I do is whine. I just couldn't help but complain to Minar. Thanks to her for hearing me out, I feel a lot better. Also, it's because I skipped my classes. 2 out of 3 though, since Lizz cancelled class. I rendered all day. Like, you must be kidding me ToT I finally finished the sphere. I don't think I'ma do the 3-tonal value... maybe over winter break. I'm just going to focus on the cylinder, sphere, and woodpecker. Oh, by the way, there were NO WOODPECKERS. I mean, there was a cute guy working at the Great Valley Museum in Modesto, but there were still no woodpeckers. The museums were cool and all but where da woodpeckers at!? Like, they're native here yet none in the museums? OTL

Also, feeling a lil' good because of all the support I got on the teaser vid. People who don't even usually like my photos/vids, and then there's Caleb with an outburst of "you dance?!" xD Oh man, his was the funniest when I woke up to see he commented lol

Alright, I only had a cup noodle for dinner, apples and soup. Yup, didn't eat much since I woke up. I just found a video talking about depressive disorder aka (chronic) depression. I don't have it, but I sure was depressed here and there this month o_o
Time to sleep...

I really shouldn't be on here, but just a quickie.
I just can't anymore. I don't think I can anymore, but I will myself--I force myself-- to get through these last few weeks of this semester. I didn't suffer through all these long nights & crazy stress just to fail again. I absolutely cannot.
I'm definitely stressed right now. And that's probably the case because of all the work I have left to do, haven't done, & is due tomorrow (today). That happens all the time & the only way to de-stress, even just a bit, is to prioritize. Organize. Prioritizing for me tends to mean skipping my morning class, only knowing that I won't miss anything too important though. To be honest, I really just want to break down right now. But I don't have time for that & it's not worth it.

Victor took me out to In-n-Out, then to watch "Moana" but it was sold out so we watched "Trolls" instead. I have not been to the movies in so long; wow, the changes. Haha reclining seats? Nice. The soundtrack was awesome, & towards the end I cried. Why do I get emotional over small things? Lol It was really cute though~ some of the trailers looked interesting, especially "The Space Between Us." I think I might watch that. It wasn't too awkward, but once again I feel like I talked about myself too much, not necessarily about me but yeah... he just asks a lot relating to me lol When he dropped me off, he gave me a souvenir from Disneyland~  a cute bracelet with a letter 'J' charm~ ^^

Also, me & Jim finally recorded "White Night." Posted a fun teaser on my IG, & wow, all the likes. Awww, love y'alls hehe I just said "I'ma need help y'alls" but then gonna need to do another post for when the Youtube link's available ^^; The ending is so bad because I had to rush learn this dance in 2 days! So it's not as good as I would have wanted it, since this is the only time we can record, etc. Jim said I put so much power in this dance and technically, enthusiasm lol I didn't even notice; it felt the same. But, the moves didn't look as bad or as awkward as I imagined (except for the sitting part; jeans too tight LOL) Really want to win the prizes, not necessarily a cover reaction video from them though xD

Alright, I've been on here a little too long. Goodnight... ToT

The day flew by fast. I woke up super sore from "White Night." Figured lol

Dinner went by fast. I didn't eat a lot. I drank Jim's mango margarita though lol Of course, I didn't get drunk, just a light Asian glow lol I am gaining so much weight -sigh- Not to mention, I didn't really do as much homework as I like... Jim plucked my excessive hairs LOL
Tomorrow we're heading out to Dublin for lunch with our cousin. Gonna go get some reference photos from the museum too. I swear. They better have woodpeckers OTL

Need to figure out a plan to get most of my work done... hm... Jim is heading out next week for New Jersey oooh~ means I'm not going home for 3 weeks lol might stay over at Jen's though hm...
Alright! Heading to sleep now! Long day tomorrow, plus Black Friday shopping? ;)

Side note, I realized I can't be a mean or overly-possessive girlfriend. Zen doesn't even mind though like what the heck? lol But Seven's all "how could you!?" to me xD Omgee, it breaks my heart to be mean or aggressive and not supportive to Zen ahaha

Wow. Blogger changed lol
Finally home for Thanksgiving break! After I got picked up yesterday, we went to Great Mall, but ended up choosing the wrong size Daiso again lol (Remember! Eastridge has the bigger Daiso! lol)
I got home and got the biggest, fluffiest huggles from the pets. It was super cold so I cuddled with them. So much flufffff~ lol Bob on my left, Nga Sat on my lap, and Reno on my right ahaha.

It was so cold today I didn't want to get up. I got up before 12 though and stayed home to render while Mom and Jim went out shopping with Jo. I watched Howl's Moving Castle. Omg how I missed that movie~ <3 I cannot get over how handsome Howl is~ how sweet he is, yet he's still just a kid. Speaking of handsome, bad ending for Zen is so difficult LOL I can't bear to be mean to him~ ah, but I need to read that bad ending xD I already missed most of the chats and being mean to him sometimes. I think I'm off track to a bad ending LOL He keeps giving hearts even with the "mean" responses lol
I learned half of UP10TION's "White Night." No wonder there's no covers up LOL. Why do they have 3 dance breaksssss and why do they use their shoulders and pound so much in their dances. Ah, I think I'ma be sore tomorrow. There goes my shoulders. I think "Catch me" also made me sore around my shoulders lol

Watching "Hello Counselor" with Jim, "A father that is too busy having fun!" Poor baby Myung from 5urprise cried so much awwww.
Anyway, gotta work hard on them homeworks!

I worked all day. Kinda.
I had coffee at night, and didn't sleep 'til 4am. Woke up, pulled myself unwillingly to class. Managed to not get distracted during my gap, and did work for 12, then 50.
12 was cut short because Inga had a headache. I am so tired to even post in detail. I only had apples, soy milk and chocolate to last me through the day. Less than 3 hours of sleep, waking up early, and barely having anything to eat... I seriously amaze myself at how I haven't fainted yet.

Finally got dinner when I got home. Gobbled it up in seconds, and now I have food coma. I was annoyed when I got back because the screen door was locked. Called Steph but she didn't pick up. Called Biri and she sounded like she just woke up? When she picked up I felt like I woke her up or something, so that annoyed me even more (because I felt bad). Also, I guess because I was hangry.

It's so weird that I had an urge to keep working. I was starting to feel like I might become a workaholic haha. Not really, because you know, sleep is very tempting. Speaking of sleep, I'ma shower and probably K.O., even though I was hoping I'd get more work done to get ready to leave tomorrow. Anywho, I still need to figure out how to get a bad ending LOL

This morning was not a good morning. It was good until I got phone calls. I was so ready, at 8:30 in the morning, to get up and fire it up and do homework. But no. Inca, being all pissed, has to call me, and me using every bit of my morning-conscience to understand what she's saying and making sure I'm not saying anything stupid because I BARELY WOKE UP. I think I woke Steph up having to deal with all that... I guess I'm kind of a true Libra? Lol trying to make sure neither side is super mad (but like, yeah, I get pissed myself too :p )
Ended up going back to sleep, even though to be honest, I wasn't all that sleepy. I just wanted to restart my day sigh. Woke up pretty much around 1? It was cloudy out, having rained, and it was my kind of weather aight. The doorbell rings and I'm dreading it's Inca. Luckily, just the deliveryman with my Tsukiuta fan book! Now that made my day~ I couldn't resist and made a really quick unpacking and flip-through and it's up on Youtube! ;D

The day went by fast; in the blink of an eye it was already almost 3pm. I didn't eat except for yogurt and apples. We headed out for pho around 6 and met up with Bea there. After dinner, I was having food coma. Amazingly, I fought through, and did quite a lot, and by a lot I mean my rendering LOL (which also means, not much...) I rendered for 3 hours straight watching Bakuman! I don't even know... how... I usually feel like "ugh" after rendering for 10 min or so. So I'm pretty proud pfft. I was going crazy rendering for that long, so I went to shower. Afterward, saw Birdy's tweet. GOOD BYE $95 ToT I am so sad. Why did I spend so much money this yearrrrr... I seriously need a job. Time to rationalize other parts of my spendings, mainly food LOL
Aside from that, didn't go ice skating today. Can we go tomorrow? lol Can't wait to go home in two days! Oops, I wrote for too long. Time to sleep because I plan to wake up early! (Again! & it better work this time lol) Hm, missing Minar because she hasn't replied my messages... she must be busy keke I think it's becoming a sort of routine, chatting with Minar. And it feels off when I don't xD
Anyway, watch my fan book unpacking on LPinkMuzik! and U10's performance MV on their V app! Adios for now!  

The week is finally over. I made it. Somehow.

All my classes went pretty well! Sorta. lol I wasn't too stressed. I wasn't even stressed for Sheldon's class this morning. It was so cold this morning I didn't want to wake up, so I ended up leaving the apartment around 8:25. Luckily, Sheldon's plane was late I guess. Today was just a bunch of demos so we didn't draw much. No more slump! so I did okay.
Got my portfolio back. Glad it gots a B now. Let's keep working on that head though.

Plans to go get my quotes from print shops and then to the cat café. Ended up not going because wow, lazy bug. Also, my ribcage started hurting. More like... it was super tense when I tried to stretch?
Tomorrow! Ship out the Tsu-kitties to Soumeki (it's been a week!) and then get quotes, and then ice skating time~ :D

On a side note, I asked Leadah to design my persona (not really my persona... my spirit animal...? lol and not even that... POLARIS mascot? bahaha) I need to design a persona... the one that resembles me... Anywho! I felt bad just asking her out of the blue, but it came out really cute! and the outfit she designed looks medieval-wintery haha perfect for christmas~ Can't wait to make an avi and header out of it~
She's thinking of designing outfits for POLARIS. And starting "Mina Couture" (or something haha) on deviantArt~ :D Welp, before I start dreaming too much, gotta make dinner and do homework.

Another side note: KMR WAVE III IS DROPPING IN 3 HOURS. I THINK I MADE UP MY MIND
UPDATE: I failed to buy anything due to my hesitation. I managed to grab the black hoodie but hesitated because... did it have the Shadow OPs mask? The green already sold out when I decided to switch. Not to mention the shipping is $18!? And not even combined shipping. I'm so sad... I kinda knew I wouldn't end up buying anything LOL though I wanted to. And I guess and I'm not backing Anna either. I will eventually buy KMR merch though! Eventually... now I cry quietly inside as I work on my homework....
UPDATE 2: Soooo the black one does have a mask. He wore it in his Snapchat but I couldn't remember his hood. Also, that boy literally "dropping" merch because when you open the store, he still posting the new stuff -insert laughing-crying emoji- I guess, it really just means, I've spent enough this year. In a way I feel sort of relieved? that I've decided to not spend $$ on those 2, but at the same time, I know there's a slight nag in the back of my mind saying 'you'll regret it.' I guess I'll just make life a game: let's earn/save money. (Well, life is a game right? lol)

Eyyy! Finally posted up the Romwe haul, will probably regret it at some point.. LOL but I used Premiere Pro for the first time! to add text, anyway. I will probably start using it to put together videos...
I was working on my animatic for 28. It looks, decent haha. So far, I'm the only one who went overboard with my animatic LOL (ooh, which reminds me, I should make an animatic template...) Oh! and I used After Effects for that. Learning so many new skills suddenly haha. I feel very proud :3
I'm gonna miss Adobe CC when I finish school *insert laughing crying emoji*

Talking to Mina about my dilemma: Anna Blue or Birdy. OMG. ToT Still can't decide...

Took our 3rd history midterm today. Wasn't bad I guess? I stayed up 'til 3am helping to finish the group study guide. I feel so accomplished when I did terms for two chapters LOL Hm, what else... I'm not too stressed because I don't think there's homework due for 50? haha

Well, I skipped ANI 12. It's all good though :p Gonna study and try to do lots of ANI homework. Working late into the night like Birdy~ (Still debating about backing Anna Blue vs KMR merch... why Birdy restock this Fridayyy lol) That's not the thing that's ridiculous.

I just went to shower, and I find the tub full of hair. WHY. And there's something even grosser, but I will save you the trouble of imagining that. I don't know who keeps leaving their hair (& other "stuff") in the restroom. Come on! My bathtub/room at home is way cleaner. Ugh.

Was talking to Leadah again~ we're talking less in the group chat, but it's always so fun to chat with Leadah one-on-one~

EDIT: it is 2:55am right now. Ooh it's getting chilly. I might catch a cold haha. I just did 2 chapters for the class-group study guide. I'm glad I contributed. Time to study tomorrow though! Also, my first time using Premiere Pro. Gah, it was pretty fun~ I liked being able to easily place the text where I want. I just barely used it, and I already know I'ma miss Premiere Pro when I finish school lol I think Meimei has the hack though... lolol Anyway, keep a lookout for my very first haul+try-on video LOL it is so bad It'll be followed up by 2 more unpacking videos I think. By then, maybe I'll be home for Thanksgiving and have recorded one or two dance covers for ready-to-be-uploaded for the future ;)

Once again, I feel the stress hitting me. Why do I do this? Why do I even ask -.- 
I'm rushing work right now. I didn't get quotes, but I will just have to tell her I wasn't in town to ask. I forreal need to pick up the slack. I need to focus on one class to catch up on. Right now, I'm behind in all my classes...

Plan:
1. Catch up on ANI 50 sketches/scanning
2. Catch up on readings/notes for ANI 28
3. Catch up on diagrams/notes for ANI 12

Though ANI 12 is priority because I already "failed" it once, I want to get more things done. And since it's just reading (28), I should be fine...
Ugh, I still gotta prep for History midterm on Tuesday. I seriously regret taking 4 ANI classes... Raquel was right: get done better than faster (I paraphrased, so hope you understand what I mean)
I'm 50/50; it's so weird. I feel like I'm getting things done, then I think about all the stuff I need to do, and it's like I have a bunch left (really, it's the long project ones aka my notebooks/journals) and then I feel overwhelmed. But I shouldn't be. I feel like I'm doing well turning in assignments that are due the next class, sometimes. I'm really betting my big projects over Thanksgiving to finish. To be honest, if I really worked over Thanksgiving and weekends, I could seriously catch up. I gave myself a 4-day weekend, and because I didn't diligently work like I wanted to, I didn't make much progress...

Well, I haven't gotten as much done as I wanted. I will try to finish everything today, as I had coffee from Starbucks ^^ The barista cashier was really chill & joked around because the sun was setting & so happened to be glaring in from the window behind her, and I was struggling to see lol Then the guy who made my drink apparently smiled at me according to Jim, but I didn't even see xD I did say thank you after he gave me my second drink to make up for it keke It was a buy one get one free deal for the weekend.

Tried to dye my hair pink yesterday, but that failed. Either my hair wasn't light enough (it actually darkened since I bleached it, and because we had no toner, my hair was actually orange-ish), or we didn't use enough/didn't let it sit long enough. It doesn't even look like we did anything, except it looks more red-orange, a reddish tint. Wondered why when I rinsed it, the water was super pink, more than the red that rinsed off when Jen dyed my hair red lol Jim also insist that I get straight bangs to twin with her haha Kinda can't wait for short hair again, but although I really like Bulldok Kimi's short hair, I don't think I could pull that off lolol

Was helping Jo with her magazine layouts. What I was telling her was what I need to do for my class lol yet I couldn't pull it off for myself ^^;
So bored, because where did POLARIS go? Lol we're talking less than before. Well, I guess there's not much to talk about? So it feels off because we're not texting 100+ messages to each other lol because everyone's busy--midterm and finals are coming up. Can't for winter break. I still don't know if I'll be here winter break because Michael hasn't contacted me about going to Korea yet hm... If not, me & Jen might just go by ourselves? But that's a little scary lol Jim got herself a job so she's gonna be flown out to New Jersey for training for 3 weeks then back to Berkeley for work. Wheee~ Wow, flight & board all paid for by the company xD

Guess who's president now.
The world is in turmoil now. It's ridiculous how much hate crime is starting to happen. I just want to protect everyoneeee :( I don't understand why or how anyone can think anyone else is inferior in anyway. Please read and watch this. Like that one person said: how can there ever be a pure race? Has there ever been a pure race? And if there has been, it has been lost many years ago. I won't get too political in this, but, I don't really care if you support Trump because you prefer his policies; I don't care if you did not like Obama because he could not do anything (in favor) for you; I don't care if you don't like Clinton because of her e-mail scandals. To be honest, I don't know too much about this year's politics; I just don't know I definitely don't want someone who's racist or someone who brags about sexually harassing women.
Anyway, I just can't. I'm glad there are so many people who has progressed forward and showing their support for all the various communities. Share the love!
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I didn't mean to throw such a depressing beginning of this post ^^;
I'm back at home already! I went home Wednesday night, and we went to Icicles for some Thai rolled ice cream. Yes, I skipped History lol I gave myself a 4-day weekend xD hopefully to catch up on some work. All I've been doing is eating candy omg. Also, I think I'm going to back Anna Blue and Damien Dawn's physical album, here on Kickstarter! I didn't back for Mecha-Ude lol. Pokémon XY&Z finally updated omg can't wait to watch! But let me finish my homework first, merong. I have two journals to be printed out. I'm excited for my ANI 50 one~ I really like the theme I decided with, and I hope it'll come out well~ but ugh, I really hate the notebook for ANI 12 OTL
Also, I got my cat headphones~ the LED lights are working fine and hopefully they stay that way. Ah, I've been feeling so off without my headphones. Now I shall get back on a roll~
Planned to do a cover this weekend too, but hm, which one? Waiting for POLARIS to make a comeback but omygahhhh.
Ooh! Also, can't wait for Black Friday because we gon' get a DSLR~ hopefully ;)

Voted earlier; had to walk to a polling post for a provisional ballot because the state couldn't send one FREAKIN' mail before today.
The election right now is so ridiculously close, and it SHOULDN'T be. I don't know what runs through the people's mind who vote for Trump. Weighing the negatives of each candidate, it's definitely heavier on Trump's side, considering the degree of them all. So why?
Can I just fly to JeffreyFever? lol
I'm tired of getting into it; had a slightly political convo with Minar, Steph, and Meimei on Twitter.
Ugh, I need to do homework. So much to do.

Yesterday was a long day, but it was decent. In ANI 12, we looked over sphere mechanicals; mine was the only one done fully and correctly. Inga gave me the okay; Callum was saying how he'll buy lunch under $20 for anyone who does a shadow on the wall, and Inga said "you owe one already" lol, and he said "well, she has to render it and pass it" lolol Hm.. tempting... LOL

I was craving food yesterday, and when I finally made dinner, I only ate half because I got full LOL So many DTAs~ Wheeee //dead/
I was reading Sacco & Vanzetti for the quiz, and I didn't think I'd get so into it, but the Massachusetts' judicial system was just so stupid in its times! Though really, they weren't "stupid"; they were trying to force a conviction. The evidence was so flawed; the judge was biased; and witnesses were just coming from nowhere, half of them making up lies. I was just so annoyed lol
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My left bicep hurts LOL it's sore from carrying my laptop all afternoon yesterday :p
argh, need to do homework... so much due tomorrow OTL.
Side note, it's been kinda awkward with Steph. She seems so... distant? I don't know... I feel like it's because she "lives" differently than us; we all like to get out there, do stuff. She likes to hang with close friends and stay in her room kind of thing. I don't know... Actually I hardly spoke to Steph, conversationally, other than asking about this or that or informing. She doesn't say bye when she leaves, but not like I mind; I stopped saying bye because it feels... "off"? Short rant :p

I am hungry. Even though I ate a lot at Mr. T yesterday and today haha. Eating cup noodle now~
Laundry was $10+ omg. Drying was 0.25c for 4 min. and I think we did almost 20 min? I was catching up on my sketchbook today; I drew this lil' girl eating ice cream (because for some reason she took a liking to us? lol) and her mom's friend saw it, and she asked if it was the lil' girl. I think she ended up telling the mom, because later the mom sat next to me with the little girl and she said (the other lady) show her the picture ahaha. The lil' girl smiled shyly and the mom told her to say thank you. I don't know why but d'aww haha :)
I'm working on my ellipses right now. Decided to make a physical 3D model using one of my cubes from ANI 14. Need to redo my walk too.

By the way, my slump is gone! I also am watching a lot of different artists talk about random stuff, usually some tips or motivational stuff. I really do feel lighter after the slump is gone... excited to do some fun drawings for myself! But I know I won't have time... I still want to though :p So I'm kinda pumped to work at the moment lol
Enrollment on Tuesday :p So far my classes are still open.
I think I had some more stuff to talk about this weekend, but I forgot, and I'm gonna work myself over that.

I hope you're doing well Leadah~ don't stress too much either; an overly stretched elastic would snap ya know.
Anyway, feeling down? Please take a break and watch this beautiful short, whether you already watched it or not :)

I'm chilling at Jen's place right now. Barted over in the afternoon to do laundry LOL jk not only to do laundry but to get some Mr.T~

I've been telling Mina I've been in a slump. It looks like yesterday night the slump was starting to leave. Oh yeah this morning I still didn't want to wake up lol so I ended up doing a crappy 2nd pass, then heading out to Jen's later than I wanted. I managed to do half the render 1st pass. I probably won't finish by tomorrow. But yeah, I managed to push myself to at least finish the walls. Maybe I just needed a change in environment; I mean I have been stuck in the apartment for the most part.
Which leads me to breaks! Take meaningful breaks, and I mean not ones where you end up slacking off. Maybe eat something, take a walk, watch or read something short, just chillax, or even a short nap! Then get back to work. Your brain gets fried if you work nonstop--I would know. Even a computer would overheat!

I came upon someone's fashion DIY Youtube, I guess you could call it, and I'm super excited for the summer because I really plan to go over to Jessica's & make my Mimikyu costume~ :D
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I don't think I mentioned about 14F yesterday? Bunny & Courtney, the founders of our program, came back to visit & chose a film for us to watch. It was "A Face in the Crowd." It was a pretty darn good watch. We passed around a bag of popcorn x'D I was confused; the guy I passed the bag to was confused! Lol As we left I happened to walk behind Ange and she was talking to Jonathan, I didn't think it was right to interrupt and say bye but she ended up saying bye to me as I tried to sneak off~ keke

It's been a while since I've had a pretty serious talk. Thanks to Leadah for always listening and ready to give some deep thought-advice/words lol I don't know why I suddenly just got serious and ranting (not really) to her... and we just had a pretty good-lengthed serious conversation (it's serious because there were limited lols, hahas, and emojis xD) The topic was pretty heavy too :p It just felt nice to talk to her one-on-one. I guess because we never talk about such topics too much/seriously in a group...

Also, Romwe orders finally got here! Did a pretty quick unpack + try on + review lol all ready edited, just gotta add some text. Should be able to be uploaded tomorrow? Or Sunday. I'm going over to Jen's tomorrow~ to do laundry lol So that ruins my plan in the previous previous post :p
Well, I'm kinda satisfied with the order. I mean, it's from China. The sizes are going to be off. Surprisingly, they were all pretty good. My long tee definitely was fine, even if it wasn't as long as they said, but it's not like I know lol The paint drip sweater was slightly on the smaller size, so it was a little tight when putting on, but the sleeve and sweater lengths were fine. The only problematic ones would be my coffee and meow sweater. The meow sweater is on the small size: the sleeves are barely past the wrist, but the length of the sweater rests just on the hipline, so raising your hands is a no-no. The coffee sweater--beside the fact that 'morning' isn't spelled right on the coffee cup--is on the small size; the sleeves are about half an inch before the wrist, the length of the sweater is only slightly longer than the meow sweater, so it's not all that good. I wonder if mommy can make adjustments to those... because it's really not too problematic to need to be refunded. Any who, look out for a Romwe 2016 haul/review on my cover channel! (I was thinking of putting it on another of my YTs, but eh. It doesn't really matter because it's mostly going to be covers, so it'll be fine if I have a few miscellaneous videos here and there)

Aside from that... I really need to clean my desktop... AGAIN.

Is being too positive a bad thing?

I don't think so. There is a balance between being positive and negative, just like that little robot in "Infinity Train." Being positive is good because it will definitely push you to do more things, in a way, and also to have a better attitude toward things.
But it could be bad at one point. I mentioned in some post that when I'm positive, I could be overly positive; but to balance that, I could be overly negative too.

I don't know what I'm trying to get at lol just some pre-class thoughts .-. I always repeat myself pfft

It's been a while. Or not. I managed to force myself to give up on the CDs that ultimately cannot be found -shrug- sort of.

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^

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