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Yay! So yesterday Steph and I went to Round 1 with Jessie, though she left early 'cause she had work, but my goal was to get a Pomeranian plush. The game was to know down a bowling pin keychain from a zip tie on a metal grid with just a screw. What are the chances right? We almost gave up, but my determination to obtain the plush made me waste money LOL but! I finally got it! (Named it Clover because of the 4-leaf clover on its head and the luck we had to get it xD) We couldn't believe ourselves when the screw actually hit the zip tie :o Anyway, apparently it's not as hard as it seems because by the end of the day, all the Poms were gone x'D
We spent the rest of the day at Round 1, time play, and I was pretty tired lol Also, I was breaking in new shoes, so the back of my heel was chafed and bleeding.
I woke up this morning with sore inner thighs. Like, I've never been sore there. How do you stretch it? ^^; I do think it's because I was tip-toeing a bit to lessen the chafing and I walked a lot like that LOL weird...

Today I went to play badminton with Jim, Alin, Nancy, Tong, Qi + her boyfriend and his brother, and Liang. Super. Rusty. o.o It always pressures me when I play with Tong but I know he's nice about it ^^; and then we had BBQ and hot pot at Hot Point Station. Linda's boyfriend came. I ate so much, that by the time we left, I was a Wigglytuff and super uncomfy walking. We went to Happy Lemon though for milk tea lol and I rode Liang's car while Jim rode in Qi's. I thought it was going to be awkward, but it was okay LOL He got so skinny and his haircut made him look like a baby x'D And then we went to Qi's place for a bit, but it was pretty late and everyone was tired so we didn't even finish the movie and went home. Ah, we're gonna be sore tomorrow? lol
Side note, I was going to bus to BBC to meet them, but it was going to take me around an hour to get there. Jim told the group that and Alin said they'll come pick me lol Jim said that when I told them this morning that I won't join them for lunch and maybe badminton and that I went back to sleep (it was early morning and I didn't feel like getting out of bed lol), Alin wanted me to go to badminton. AWWW. More love~ (I just remembered this after the next paragraph lol)
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It was the first week of school, and it seems to be going pretty good! My Tues/Thur class of Physics 23 is only every other Thursday so now I have a big gap between my ANI classes x'D Also, first day of ANI 114 with Jeff, I sat in the front with Genai and Jeff kept picking on me! LOL Apparently I'm "friendless" x'D I am so dead. I was laughing so much that I started tearing, but I didn't want him to see because he'll think he made me cry LOL He was going to stop, but he kept joking and apologizing lol This semester seems good.
On a side note, Arlene told me there will be openings at her workplace after her co-workers quit. I told her I was interested, and she told me her boss remembered and liked me and already got me a shirt with my name on it? AWWW. I feel so loved hehe Anyway, I think I'm pretty much secured with this job? ^^; Let's hope I don't jinx it hehe And the "volunteer" thing I did last year? I'll be helping her again, but I'm getting paid $60 this time? Interesting...

I gotta be up tomorrow to do homework, though I'm not too worried since class doesn't start 'til 3PM anyway on Monday LOL ugh, the stupid blog for my other class won't save my template changes -.-

Gyahhh! I finished Season 2 and it was a MESS but obviously, things worked~ and I can't stop blabbering to Steph about it keke somehow ended up summarizing S1 too... hehe. Maybe I should do some art because it was sho cute...

Ahh, school tomorrow. I'M SCURRED. Still debating whether I should drop Design... I don't know. Because it's a pre-req. for taking typography. I want to take Typography... but I guess I could learn new skills too? (they're not necessarily new either though ^^; ) and Yay! Got my Adobe renewed~ not like I paint on Ps, but it feels good to have it again ^^ also because I need it so I can correctly recreate my Ps brushes for CSP lol

I got back to SJ today. I bought a new chair and currently, it's very comfy! Though it took me quite a while to assemble. I also bought 2 frames for my prints that I could finally put up! Not the best (DIY) matting, but hey, it looks pretty nice ^^ I didn't have 3D foam stickers to make it "pop" more, but it'll do. I also managed to clean! But to be honest, they're just hidden in the closet and under the bed ^^;

Steph said she'll go Eastridge with me so I can get my Pomeranian at Round 1 ALKSJDF
Pray we get it, but the game seems hard? ToT
Anyway, time to sleep! Super nervous, but I'll be having lunch with Arlene tomorrow! :D

Currently at my sister's.

Last night I practiced "Want You to Say" & especially "Jebal" for so long, I'm so tired. My calves are just slightly sore. I don't know if it's the dancing or carrying heavy bags of stuff (met up with parents and grandpa at Chinatown) and/or after getting to Coach's (also, after ordering McD and Cool Tea Bar and walking to her place) that my whole body is starting to ache. Or, just me carrying my backpack and duffel bag to the bus stop and onto Bart that I'm sore. It hit me late.

Ordered Jonghyun's album. I don't care. I'm getting it. (I should really really stop spending ToT)
I'm still super sad that my NU'EST W photocard didn't come in yet! I'm really giving it until February...
Oh! Yadi also gave me her paintbrushes. Seems like she didn't use them yet? Though I don't know how's the quality... some of the hairs were falling out. Looks like oil paintbrushes. The other ones seem like watercolor or acrylic paintbrushes... Oh. Just looked it up. It came up on Amazon. The reviews were as expected: good for beginners/amateurs but definitely not the quality someone with experience would use. I don't know about the oil brushes, but the acrylic brushes seem good. I won't know 'til I test them though. Hopefully they aren't too bad. Grawr. I can't wait to start painting some stuff~ so many ideas~ and after turning in my sketchbook, and watching Leigh Ellexson's YT videos on her sketchbook, I really want to just draw/paint/color/ink without any worries. 

Ah, I got distracted by Coco's OST.

I drove to Jessica's today so we talked a lot, had flan and pizza, played with her guinea pigs and painted. Well, we were supposed to paint but I mostly watched Jessica paint, though I had an idea there but didn't end up painting it because Jessica's tubes of paint of were so small, I didn't want to waste them lol I did a sketch but really, I didn't do anything really, because I was busy watching "Okja." The ending made me cry~
Jessica was painting though; I made her work on her Hamtaro lol Next time, hopefully it's an actual sketchventure~
Later, I drove us to T4 and dropped her off at home.
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Heh!? It's already a week? lol timelapse because, I was writing that last Friday, but was too lazy to finish. Ahhh, I don't want to wrack my brain to remember stuff that happened. So, welp. Not like much happened anyway. I'm lazy and I want to watch my drama, so let me wrap this up.

Last night, pulled an all-nighter to scramble to finish my portfolio sketchbook. What a fail; I mean, I finished, but I crammed so many drawings. Are they even good? I do think I improved drawing cats LOL it looks like Latte! Turned it in this morning and slept until 4pm afterward. My hand was starting to cramp; I could feel ittt. Now I can relax... but after turning it in, I suddenly had so many ideas and things I want to do. But hey, what's new.

I also finished "Good Morning Call" yesterday! It was so cute! Gonna go watch the 2nd season now~ Need to read the manga too... Speaking of manga, there are so many cute ones on eBook Renta (rated though.... LOL not really, but yeah lol don't get wrong xD) So many cute anime I want to watch too... trying to get back my shoujo fluffy heart LOL
Also need to stop buying stuff... things haven't even arrived and I keep purchasing. Ooops. But. Definitely need to purchase Jonghyun's album when it's released on the 28th.... speaking of which, Believer's package is getting shipped out too, Woot woot!

If I stop blogging, I get lazy to blog afterward haha but anyway, last night I didn't sleep 'til 6:40am and didn't wake up 'til 6pm. Jobee came home to wake me, but I went back to sleep and she napped. While doing her homework last night, I was watching "Miss Rose" and watched so many episodes lol I thought I was close to done but it actually had 35 episodes lol

Anywho, I ate dinner while watching "Itsudatte Bokura no Koi wa 10cm Datta" and I was crying since episode 2 to the end. My eyes still hurt right now ^^;
Afterward, me and Jo played "Doki Doki Literature Club." We still need to finish Natsuki's route. It wasn't too bad because we played without music lol
We had to reinstall because Monika destroyed the script... lol so while looking to re-download, we came upon a game called Nekojishi. The art was appealing; we looked at the trailer and read the description... it's a freakin' furry BL LOLOL /DED.

My eyebags are so bad. My lips are pale too so it makes me seem sickly lolol I really do need to sleep early. Tomorrow I'm meeting up with Jessica, and then Mon or Tues, I'm meeting up with Deilys.

I meant to watch Idolm@ster Side M but it's too late now xD Oh yeah, on the day I got picked up, I ended up catching up on a lot of Webtoon comics (mainly my BLs kekeke). "Super Secret" continues to be really cute, and "My Boo" ended bittersweet... </3
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> Nothing much happened on my last day of work. I boarded to work because I was running late. Boarding was risky, but I made it lol with 3 minutes to spare. (It was because I was watching "Hitorijime My Hero" lol) Work was slow as usual, but we got steady business, but still wasn't super busy. After closing, my co-worker Prianka(?)'s mom dropped me off.

> Mom counted my tips; it was around $300+~ I gave the money to her though because I don't want to deal with it lol. My 2nd check was about $840 or so. I already pretty much spent all that because my credit card bill was $800+ ^^; wow I don't know how though LOL It probably included bills from Dec. but I did spend quite a lot in Jan. already ^^; Really need to stop spending.... ToT

I'm finally home for my last weeks of break. I didn't get to see Meimei or Mina over winter break~ I mean I saw Meimei in SJ but I didn't even get to hang with them for long~ Wonder if I should stop by Davis hehehe

Currently watching "Miss Rose" with my mom and Roy is so freakin' cute! <3 I love his tsundere side. His character roles are always about the same though~ hehe. He always acts childish, throws tantrums, and overly protective <3

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I was gonna blog but Jo is making me do her homework. I'll be back > > lol

So I didn't sleep 'til 6:40am because I still had to shower. But anyway, I went to sleep when everyone else was about to wake up lol I'll just make a new post.
Also, I think Jolly Rancher would've been a fun friend, if I didn't have a crush on him. But yeah, with my mindset now, I'd probably say, he's a fun friend I want to keep. Or something like that.

Reminder: last week/days of work. Purchases. Money/bills.

Quite a few stuff to mention, but I want to just do a quick quick update.

Last time, Minar also encouraged me somewhat to add him on FB and follow on IG, which I did, and which he accepted. Upon seeing his IG feed, I loved that video of him spiking alsdkfj lol but I also sorta died seeing his birthday post for his dance partner.
On the way to SF, I kept telling Minar and Steph I miss *ahem* LOL

Wednesday night, I was telling Jim about Chaz but she was too sleepy to really listen. Also, we got distracted having an argument with Siri LOL But I was just having a lot to think about and all of a sudden. An earthquake. 4.7 from Berkeley. We still felt the aftershock too. It gave me a little headache; probably because I tensed? Jim woke up thinking I was shaking her LOL That was the strongest, and felt like the longest, earthquake we felt. Earlier, Jen also took me to Japantown late at night. We didn't buy much; just a quick walk through Kinokuniya (surprisingly, nothing appealed lol) but I did buy "Kiki's Delivery Service" washi tape~ expensive but oh wells x'D

Thursday morning, we were late to babysit Caleb (Coach's baby). We were there for like 2-ish hours. I tried to sketch a lot, but did only 2.5 ^^; Coach came back and mentioned a box of plushies. I ended up bringing a small and large version of the seals home. They're really flat though LOL flat cushions. I'm thinking of opening them and stuffing them some more hmmm. And then we went to have dim sum with Jen, Isaac, Kyle, and ah Hill. I was really hungry, but after eating a little bit, I was already full. Afterward, we went with Jen to the eye doctor. Me and Jim went to a store called Beverley's Crafts. I bought ink pads and a pack of canvasses (who knew that they ripped us off though x'D the pack was on sale for $25 but the same pack but different brand of canvasses was at Michael's for $13) Well, Jim paid because I left my card in the car lol Then we went to buy cake because it was Isaac's birthday. Oh, we also stopped at Daiso afterward to buy some stuff. We went home, Jim went to work soon, and we had cake upstairs. It was awkward... and I felt bad for Isaac because his mom kept nagging him. I was literally observing; it was a super weird atmosphere.

This morning, woke up a lil' late, later than wanted lol Jen got back and we went out to Michael's. I'm so happy with my purchases~ I'm finally starting a stamp collection~ also got gold ink, and black and white paints, since mine are super low. I didn't buy the expensive brand though. Everything totaled together is still pricey, despite everything being on discount x'D Jim got tempted to getting a set of mini letter stamps. We went to Jen's workplace to pick up her birthday gift to Isaac. I think we went straight home after that. Even though we planned to go do Japantown again, nawhh.
It was a good day, but I don't know what happened. The fact that I had work soon and Jen was worrying I wasn't gonna get back to SJ on time? She just started getting moody and whatnot. Then she and Jim started an argument. I was just tryna cook for Jim. I felt like the whole problem stemmed from her wanting to go out shopping with Isaac because she didn't get to spend his birthday with him and because it's the first time he initiated going out, but that she needed to take me back to SJ too. But like Jim said, we already had plans because I was over, and he's always free so why she decided to cram all her plans with us and him on the same day. When we got back, the plan was she and Isaac go shopping and come back to pick me up after cooking. (To be honest though, with the drive, I don't think they could've done much shopping o.o) but she didn't because she thought of the traffic to SJ.
So yeah, their argument. Then Jen angrily went upstairs after replying to Jim, "Okay, it's my fault" (said huffily). And Jim wasn't trying to find anyone to blame; she was just stating the truth. So when Jen left, she was just complaining to me and started to cry, saying "see? all she does is yell" etc, that's why she doesn't talk to her or hang with her as much anymore, only because I was here, and because she places him so high in priority. I sorta agree. It's not like she doesn't see him at all. In my case, she literally doesn't see me, but she still prioritizes him instead. I mean, I don't really mind. It's also because if it was me, I wouldn't mind spending a day or two with my family instead of my boyfriend. Also, I can see that she's trying to balance time with him and us, but she doesn't do that very well. And with so little time after work, and the time it takes to drive to places and actually do stuff, you can already tell that trying to do everything you planned to was not gonna happen. You know, there's very little things that make Jim mad or sad, and that's usually family-related. The fact that Jim cried/stressed because of Jen and him, a few times is just... SMH.
At some point I was also thinking, none of this would've happened if I hadn't decided to stay over in SF. Chose the wrong time to (because it was his birthday and in the middle of the week).
I was going to have a chat/lecture with her during the ride, but decided against it because the mood was obviously dead and stifling, also, she would easily road rage. And seeing as her eye as an infection, wouldn't want to add to her difficulty of seeing of tears and rain etc. According to our past arguments, it would definitely pass over at some point... albeit a little more damp... (I don't even know what that means x'D)

So I'm home now. I tried to clean a bit. Where do I put my pack of canvasses? I have so many plans and ideas of stuff to do, but I'm either too lazy to do them or just don't have time ^^;
Steph got me a poster of watercolor sketches from "Serendipity" MV. It's so pretty under my cherry blossom and quote decal~ <3 I'm really into watercolors lately. I still want to purchase that watercolor painting from the gallery...
I still need to start on my bullet journal...
I need to start a journal for my washi tape and stamp collection, so I can actually use my washi tape without regretting x'D

Oh yeah, I was getting ready for work, but after I finished braiding my hair, I got a text from my boss Tom saying that because it was raining, I didn't need to come to work. I had a super short chat with him but omg my boss is so sarcastic and funny xD I feel conflicted over the fact that I didn't get to go to work today (probably Chaz's last shift) but also because I could've been in SF still, and we wouldn't have had to rush anything.

Also, feeling very slightly, slightly, SLIGHTLY hurt/depressed? because I think Chaz has a girlfriend now LOL She's his dance partner so it's all good with me. I mean, y'all know I just love "love"~ lol and they're cute together~ I told Minar all this. I'm probably not to the point where I'm heartbroken? but Eric Zhou's "How are you" kept playing in my head (probably because Jim was playing it in the car today lol). I guess I'm feeling glum because having a crush kept me occupied, my mind light and fluffy. I'm probably just feeling empty again.
If I ever really did like him that way, that "like" easily transfers over to a best friend kind of like. Because I really do love his personality! If we had become good friends, he'd definitely be a friend I'd love to keep in touch with :D

Ah, my laptop is dying and I need to shower. I'm feeling empty so I'll probably watch "Hitorijime My Hero" after I shower lol. Also, there's an AU fic going around for BTS called "Outcast" and yo, no joke, it's intriguing xD Me being visual with everything I read, is getting goosebumps and freaked out then and now LOL
EDIT: I'm really sleepy right now... and I went on a shopping splurge because stamps/embossing stuff were on sale??? x'D guess 2018 is a year for crafts etc. I have so many things shipping to me... I need a list xD Considering I made around $800 for my 2nd paycheck, I spent a little too much within a few days of the new year. I need to stop. I'M POOR. That needs to stick in my head lol

It's been a while since I had a crush? haha.
--I had started this post yesterday I think, but I got lazy to finish typing. Also because Jim distracted me haha currently in SF, but let me finish this....--

So yeah, crushing. To be honest though, I think I'm actually a little salty right now x'D We'll just start from at work on Tues, 1/2.
It was another slow night, so slow that Andrew wanted to send people home. No one wanted to go home though. He asked us how much we wanted to stay; everyone was kinda here for the money LOL and Joley said she was 50/50 about leaving and staying. As the night progressed (not even 2 hours yet) she said that she wanted to go home lol so she left early. Andrew also tried to call the other 3 workers who were coming in from 6-10pm to not come in, but Andrea was already on her way; the other 2 actually showed up, but they didn't clock in and went home. Andrea clocked in, was supposed to probably work for 30 min, but she ended up staying for her whole shift because Stephanie and Chaz went home early. 

Chaz and I were there early at work, so we were just standing in the back room waiting to clock in. We talked a bit, like very little. I don't even remember what.
It was slow, and I made myself a pretty early cup of chocolate. It only had marshmallows, and Chaz was like "Is it just gonna be like that?" and I tell him "No~ I need my whipped cream~" and he dare says "You're always like that." like ALKSDJF x'D
Quinn got some guy's number on a piece of paper. He just kept stuffing it to her, and from the coffee station, I thought it was trash LOL and I was wondering why he stuffed trash to her. Quinn said, laughing "I'm kinda scared to open this." She opens it and reads the contents. It was his number telling her to call him some time. Andrew took it and ripped it up lol He said something like nope and you don't know those people/they're weird. I don't know.
I also talked with Andrew about DDLC and it's weirdddd lol crazy xD Still gotta go finish that game with Jo.

I don't know why... but Chazny kept whispering to me? Ahahaa it was always a bunch of random stuff that he keeps telling me. One time we were serving this customer, and he had his hair styled. Chaz turned around and came close to my ear to tell me "I used to do my hair like that" and I guess we talked a bit about that? (His hair now is 50-50 part LOL) He was saying how he was lazy to style his hair. At this point, I also told him I didn't recognize him that one time lol.
Earlier, I think he was telling me that the only bad thing about this job was you couldn't sit. I told him to go sit on the chocolate boxes in the back room lol
His friends also stopped by. It was 2 girls and I wasn't sure if they were together so I went to stand next to Chaz (he's at the window serving). And before I even asked, Chaz lowered his head a little closer to me to tell me that they were his volleyball friends. I wasn't sure what to say that to that so I just smiled and nodded at them. The girl at the front quietly said "he's really good" and I still don't know what to say to that ^^; something like "oh~..." and an awkward laugh. But Chaz kept shaking his head saying no xD After they paid and stuff, Chaz was quietly telling me how they were the only friends he didn't manage to give free drinks because Andrew was right next to him, checking the tip box. And I was telling him, Andrew wouldn't have known if we had taken the money first or not, and that he didn't mind if we hit up friends. And Chaz was like "oh, then I'll give it back to her" (of course he was joking but he made the "attempt to") and I was like "nooo don't do that!~" like, scolding him. And he said "I'm just organizing~" and touching the money and I continue to whine no and playfully hit his arm.

I was sent on my lunch after Quinn. I just sat in the swivel chair and ate Twix. Chaz had asked me if I was on my lunch too. Toward the end of my lunch, Chaz was sent on his 10 minute break. When I finished I got up and he was like "are you off your break?" and I told him yeah. He happily took the chair with a sigh of relief, and mentioning how his back hurts/has a back problem. He decided to hug the back rest instead of sitting properly in it. After I clocked in, I was like "do you want a massage?" I was partially joking, but he gave me puppy eyes, and "offered" his back to me. So I gave him a massage. The first pressure/rub/squeeze or whatever you call it, he kinda jolted forward, and I thought I hurt him x'D and after double checking with him, he was like "no, that actually felt good" and I was relieved lol He was saying he's all tense/stiff because he hasn't been dancing" and I told him he should at least keep stretching and he said he's too lazy for that lol. We were joking around saying, "You're being paid to get a massage, and I'm being paid to massage you" lol and Andrew just looked us and nodding, giving us that "what the..." smile, you-guys-are-weird look lol (because we were both clocked in xD but I mean, no customers so whatever lol) and then he said "thank you, --- I love you for this, I feel so much looser." Something along those lines, and I just gave him a final pat on the shoulders and went on my way. [If you wonder if my heart went dugun-dugun, I gotta say, probably not? haha instead I was thinking if he's just too nice to tell me my massage sucked LOLOL; I told Steph this when I got back and she was like "oh. OH. Y'all WILD." LOL]
I told Minar I was "infatuated" ahaha it's been a while for me to even admit that lol so I must be quite smitten.

After Joley left, we used Andrew's bluetooth speakers. We kept switching "DJs." Andrew plays J-rock/"orcehstral metal" (I think that's what he said) from Pandora I think. And I was serving a customer. Suddenly "Silent Scream" plays and I started singing quietly and Chaz was next to me saying, "you would know it" but it wasn't even an anime song x'D

Chaz and Stephanie clocked out at 9:30. Before then, I was at a window and Chaz came over and asked if he should go home early. No lie, internally I was pretty much screaming NO, but appearance-wise, I had no emotional change. I told him, "uh, if you want to." He was still thinking about it. Later, he tells me he's gonna go home early. I was really regretting not telling him to stay, but like, for what reason did I have to hold him back? I think it'll just sound weird. My mood dropped so low when he left, I'm telling you. Even though he clocked out, he was waiting for his ride, so he was just joking around in the booth. I was at the coffee station, and he was leaving, so when he was leaving he said bye to us, and he punched me lightly on the shoulder, and I don't know why there was just a weird exchange? because I tapped him on the shoulder... Iuno it was all weird LOL
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Well that's the end of the work day. Uhm, nothing else haha

Wouldya look at the time.

I just finished lettering with my Speedball dip pen and silver ink on my painted galaxy sketchbook cover. Calligraphy really strains my hand and back ^^; but the outcome is super nice! I never thought to paint my sketchbook cover but it definitely makes me want to art more! instead of looking at the cover that says "mixed media".
I was going to start my bullet journal again, but I was too lazy to take out my rulers right now, so I'ma just blog about today, wait for my hair to dry and sleep. Biri came back today, so I don't think I'ma sleep in ^^;
Speaking of bullet journals, I was watching a lot of "plan with me" videos, and it seems everyone's Januray/2018 theme is gold and winter lolol so now I want some gold pens or inks. Speaking of my stationery stuff, I want to start a stamp collection lol

Today I baked potatoes, but I didn't evenly coat them with oil, so some stuck to the foil when I tried to flip them and I didn't evenly bake them so one side was a lil' more cooked. Biri came back then, and I was actually on Barnes & Noble's website. I purchased "Art of Blizzard" because it was on an incredible saleeee. Online only, so I got it shipped to me.
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Anyway, PMS-ing.
I don't know why but I was getting annoyed today at work? For the first time since I've started working there. Like, forreal annoyed. I think it's because Andrew (econ major) was working next to me and I just didn't like the way he was talking??? It felt like he was trying to tell me how I should be doing things and stuff, and sometimes when he asks me questions, and I answer them normally, he answers back as if I gave him attitude??? Like??? I don't even know. -huge sigh-
**distracted. look who bought more CDs??? but hey, I stopped myself from the other ones LOL**
So yeah. He was working next to me. And when I started getting annoyed, I was legit thinking, "can I switch with Ryan so I can work next to Chazny?" (I was seriously so happy to see him when he and Andrew & Ryan came from the other booth. And then I thought about that dream LOL) And then I guess what really hit me was, I was helping some customers and I had ordered coffee from Joley for another customer. I was occupied, but I knew Henry and them were asking about someone's coffee but I thought they had picked up the coffee from the window that was for the security guard. After I finished and went to grab my coffee, it was "swooped," as Joley called it. And then after going around, we found out Reese had thrown it out just minutes from when I went to get it. And then Andrew had the nerve to pretty much blame me??? Saying why I didn't say anything when they asked. UHHH first of all. They only said "coffee" so how am I supposed to know they were talking about my "large french roast" when I was finishing up with another customer? Second, if it's not your coffee... WHY'D YOU TAKE IT. (I don't know who took it, I just know I glanced and saw Henry holding a capped cup) Although I was laughing and joking it off, I was about to start crying??? but Joley made me a new cup really fast so yeah. Also because Chazny came back from his lunch so that sorta saved me too. (When Chazny was going off to lunch, he walked by me and I jokingly in my head was thinking, what if he hung his apron around my neck hahaha... WELL. He almost did LOL He asked "do you want a double apron?" and I shook my head while smiling and he made it seem like he was going to put it over my head anyway, but then he just smiled and continued walking toward the door) I was glad when he took the station next to me. He already made my day from joking around. We were just standing around, and Chaz was messing around, pretended he would squirt whipped cream on my counter, and after I said "don't do it" jokingly... HE DID IT ANYWAY. And I told him that he had to clean it up and he threw a towel on it instead of cleaning it with a napkin alskdjf this boy. And I pretended that I was going to put that whipped cream rag on his face and he was like "you wouldn't dare" LOL
We also chatted a bit. He was saying how he was going to enjoy his shift today, and I was like why. He said "Because I have you... -turns to his right- I have them two... -turns to the people on our left- those two... -turns to the back- them" I interrupt and say "that's everyone!" (technically said simultaneously) and he turns to the back room "and those two" and turns back to me laughing. 

It was a slow day so to be honest, a lot of us just milled about and found busy work ^^; I had 4 small cups of hot chocolate... wow. When Dan and I were going on our lunch, Chazny asked Liz if he could take a 2nd lunch after giving me a glance as I passed by, and asking if I'm going on my break, to which I said I was going on my lunch LOL (and then of course, it's gonna be me overthinking stuff) I just ate an It's-It for lunch. It was good~
(Skye and Kat were talking about how nice Henry's teeth were LOL and then he mentioned about how he and his girlfriend were gonna open a clinic together (Bekah already announced this to the staff earlier LOL) HOW CUTE. He said, next month is going to be 2 years together (me eavesdropping when he was talking to Ryan lolol))
When I got back from my lunch, there wasn't anything to do, so I joined Chazny at the coffee station. He was getting overwhelmed with so many coffee orders ahaha He asked me if I had anything to do, and I told him if Reese had anything for me~ and I looked at Reese at his right, and he was like "no, you can stay here and help me" or something along those lines. I ended up going on my Snapchat, and snapchatted us ahaha (Despite seeing me using Snapchat, he wouldn't add me hmph. LOL) Oh yeah, he and Ryan were roasting marshmallows in the fire... and he took out a flaming marshmallow omg LOL caught that on snapchat ahaha

At the end, we got churros from the other booth~ Also, Reese literally put everyone on their 10 minute break at the same time, so it was like a party in the back room. While we were cleaning up, I put my drink on the counter on the side. And even though Chaz knew, he jokingly said, "this is trash right~" while holding it up to me and I whined "nooo~" Of course he put it back on the counter. I refilled it and added whipped cream and stuff again and set it aside. They were cleaning the counters later, and whoever it was picked up my drink, but Chaz got it for me, telling them it was mine. And I got it back from him. I again, filled it up and added whipped cream (both times, it wasn't a full refill okay LOL) and I set it in front of the coffee station/pots. When we were pretty much done, I was going to grab my drink. Chazny was in front of it and he pointed to it saying "that's probably yours?" And I jokingly whined, "what's that supposed to mean~" and he said "nothing. you have a sweet tooth right?" to which I nodded.
Earlier when they were going to throw away the apple cider, Chaz had got a cup (this was before we closed) and I was manning the coffee station. I put a lid on it for him and lettered his name on it. He kinda left it there for a long while, but he came over to sip after refilling the coolers. He was digging under ice/ice water so his hands were red, so the hot apple cider warmed them. And considering how long he left it there, he was like "still warm." I looked at him and he asked if I wanted to try it. Of course, no, because I prefer sparkling cider LOL I was kinda disappointed he didn't say anything about my lettering (I had lettered "happy new year!" on one of the cups and Henry saw it and said it was cute ^u^) but when he came back a second time, he asked if I wrote his name, and gave me a smile, but was teasing me that I wrote his name like an equation, something about log and power LOL

While we were cleaning, he and Joley just kept dancing ahahaha I was standing by the coffee window drinking my hot chocolate, and he was cleaning the window and somehow... almost fell out the window LOL and he was saying "for safety reasons, I'm going to hook onto someone" and he hooked his foot on my ankle??? LOL
I don't know what song came up, but I was slightly behind him as he finished the coffee window counter and was going towards the front counters, and I guess it was a lit song?
And he literally... a sexy dance of sorts... no joke. Internally fangirled. It was like a body roll? Seriously, he was making me laugh all day. I was drinking my hot chocolate and he did it again in front of the counter, and I literally choked on my drink. Aigoo x'D I forreal love watching him (& Joley) dance.

So sorry this is way out of order, but things keep coming back to me lol so around like 9ish, 10, Liz sent people out to advertise because we were slow. Advertise as in, walk around with drinks, pretending they bought the drinks y'know LOL I was fantasizing in my head, what if they sent us to go but to be honest, it was going to be super awkward and embarrassing so I was glad they told Chaz to go. Liz said to not lose him, he needed to go with someone, and he chose to go with Ryan. So them 2 awkwardly went around LOL A couple... LOL I cannot. The second time they came back to "recreate their drinks," Chazny was... trying to be sexy at the door. OTL I cannot. He was so CRINGY. I literally got goosebumps. But at the same time it was so funny xD Liz was teasing them, that they legit look like a gay couple out there (naw, I don't think so though LOL) and she sent Bekah and Skye with them later, but not long, Bekah came back saying she gave up because it was super awkward LOL

Hm... seems like that's all.
So today was pretty rocky--with my mood--but thanks to Chaz, Joley, Henry, Bekah, Dan, Liz, and Reese, it ended up pretty fun again. ^^ I'm seriously going to miss everyone, especially Chaz of course, but yay~ I'll probably see him again tomorrow. (Not trying to be mean, but low-key glad Andrew has the day off tomorrow...)

Alright, how did this post take an hour to write. Lol. Because Chaz does too many weird things.
Also, last night I slept around 5am too because I was posting the digital galaxy speedpaint and I showered late. Goodnights now!
[Reading this must be as tedious as it is for me to write it all out xD]

Happy new year!
I can't believe it's already 2018.

I spent the new year with my co-workers! Oh how much I love them; they make me happy :3 (Although some of them though.... > >) ANYWAY. Nothing special at work today. Pretty slow. Random crowds here and there. It was also Reese's first shift as manager, though Liz was "babysitting" lol I worked with the Le siblings today~ (Henry, Randy, and Liz) There were lots of laughs today :3 I didn't get to take my 10min break... ^^; Tom also came by. And he checked on me that I got my tips back lol I feel bad making everyone worry about my tips. And every time he leaves, he always thanks me but I didn't do anything...?

The Ice Rink closed early today. CITP didn't need everyone, so me and Bekah clocked out (doesn't seem like she wanted to stay anyway lol) While we were finishing up at the ice rink, we were just standing around. Somehow I ended up between Henry and Randy lol And when I was helping to bag the trash cans, my apron fell, and Henry picked it up for me. Earlier, I was flapping my time card, and pricked my cheek, and I quietly said to myself "oww, I scratched myself" and he was like "are you okay?" At first I was ??? but then realized why he asked lol he's such a brotherly figure, I feel so loved :3 (shh, he has a girlfriend) We were all teasing Henry about his "year old boba" LOL because it was 2018 ahahaha. Also found out he's a graduate from UOP omg x'D for dentistry.
Oh, I was behind Bekah while we working and I was trying to get by, and her ponytail whacked me, like, right across my brows. Henry so happened to be in front of me and saw it all happen x'D

Hmm, seems like a good day.
Before going to work, I did a 30 minute digital painting of the same galaxy as the one I painted on my sketchbook cover. I think I really got into skies and galaxies ^^ so hopefully I'll explore more. I also feel like I'm getting more into traditional painting?
I've been trying to be active on Amino, and I posted my painting on the groups, and I got a really positive response. I've been feeling really good, really positive, so I've been thinking about some new year resolutions :3 Still not organized enough yet. Hopefully, 2018 will be full of creativity for me ^^
I also didn't wash my hair yesterday & slept with my braids on, so my hair was super curly (Jim called them curly fries OMG x'D) & I didn't want to braid them again so I was going to do loops, but they got messy pretty soon, so I just went with simple loose pigtails in the front :p
Anyway, I'ma try to do more speedpaintings or stuff this year. Covers? but I doubt I have time for that. Maybe going to SJSU hip hop :p And learning more recipes ^^
I cooked omurice with spam today ^^

Continuing from where I left off...
On Wednesday I went out with Arlene! I rode the bus to the Great Mall, and surprisingly the bus ride was pretty short. The plan was to go sketching, but we ended up shopping lol we went to Daiso and Arlene's friends were working there too. She was talking to one for a long time ^^; It was a little awk but we talked a bit too. She told me he was Mickey's other owner xD (Mickey is the doggo we saw in our neighbor's apartment, Erin's dog) and then he told us my neighbor was also working x'D
So when we finished shopping, my neighbor checked me out. And they were telling him we were neighbors and when we left he was like, "see you around" LOLOL
We went to Forever21 and she got so much stuff ahaha. I ended up buying a sweater too. Lessee... afterward we wanted to get Jollibee but there was such a long line, we went straight to Paris Baguette and we got some pastries. Ended up being so full, I had to take home my one pastry lol Her friend was working then too. We went to Happy Lemon afterward. It was pretty good. She had to meet up with her boyfriend afterward, so she dropped me back off at Great Mall.
At first I was thinking of sketching in the mall, but there was no room at all anywhere to sit. So I ended up walking to the lightrail, decided to just sketch a bit outside. It was all good until this Black guy comes up and started asking me inappropriate questions. I kept trying to ignore him but he kept pestering me! At some point my heart started racing and I had a danger signal like during the Joey incident. Anyway, I had to call Jo on the phone. He still kept pestering me so I was like, "gotta catch the bus" and high-tailed it to the lightrail. Afterward, he ended up coming up to the lightrail station too. Everytime he started walking toward my direction, I hid behind one of the walls of the waiting station(?) and when I saw his shadow pass by, I walked the opposite direction. He kept walking in my direction so I had to keep hiding ALSKDKFJ.
...sigh...
Anyway, I got home safe afterward, on call with Jo the whole time.
--Also I had a very emotionally disturbing dream about Chazny that I ended up voice recording. Currently too lazy to type the story, so I'll save that for another post--

I did laundry and made baked potatoes! Despite waking up a little late lol
Work yesterday was pretty slow. Eh... I don't really remember what happened. Only that I was working with Henry at the end. I don't remember if I mentioned him... anyway, we were filling up the coolers with whipped cream. Poor him, digging under ice water. His hands were pretty red. Er, I made a shlee (breath intake through clenched teeth) sound because I sorta hurt myself or whatever (but not actually getting an injury) and he was like "are you okay" x'D So nice. After we finished filling the last cooler and putting it back, he was like "we did it~" and high fived me LOL I worked with him like twice and I barely found out his name but he knew mine LOL Andrew and Reese left for lunch so I had to step in for pots. But somehow, I ended up being an unofficial step-in manager...? ^^; I don't know why people ask me stuffffff alskdjf. But yeah, working with the usual crew. Ehhh, Randy, Henry's brother, came over to help out. I was cleaning the coolers so I'm bent down next to one of the trash cans. Andrew was throwing away trash and trying to push the trash down, but one of the whipped cream cans squirted and I got whipped cream on meeee x'D and he laugheddd how meannn lolol
After we finished, we waved and said bye to Randy and Henry. They're so nice~ (with the way they talk though, and sometimes their gestures? seem a lil'... feminine. But I shouldn't judge ^^; _) I walked with Andrew and Reese down to the Christmas in the Park booth, but before we made it, we saw Bekah's car stop at the red light, so I ran across and hopped in since she was dropping me off. Funny thing was, she asked if I needed a ride but I told her Joley's been taking me home. And she was joking around and complained to Joley, and then I was like okay you can take me home ^^;
Anyway, I got home realizing I left my tips in my apron! ToT
Luckily I didn't put the apron for laundry so I managed to pick it up this morning.

Speaking of this morning, I woke up after a 3 hr nap (slept at 6am because I was up doing some quick silhouettes for the Party Banter critique, which ended up being moved to next Wed at 10am so I stayed up for NOTHING. *ahem* anyway...) and Katie was opening manager for the 1st time! She couldn't unlock the door with the code, so she had another of the younger(?) workers to try the lock. They managed to get in. (That guy reminds me of Patrick C. from SECA) and I only saw him once, but when he saw me waiting at the door, he gave me a peace sign? Surprised, I just 'supped him (head gesture). After grabbing my tips I said bye to them and the dude (whom I still don't know the name of) said, "already?" (I think) and I was like "yup, just getting my tips that I left in my apron, see yah!" and he responded too. They all gave me that "you're leaving already?" sad puppy look ^^;
I ended up going home and took a nap. Risky, because I didn't even set an alarm. I woke up at 2:30 so it was all good though.

I got to work, and Katie was like, "are you working now?" lol
The dude was like, "oh you're back" LOL dang, okay peoples xD I was almost late waiting for my coffee from Gongcha. I made it within 5min. PHEW.
It was a slow day because the ice rink was closed due to some problems. Shannon ended up letting most people go, and calling others who were scheduled to not come in. I ran errands to the other booth, and awww~ Kat was happy to see me :3 so was Wendy lol
I took 2 trips. Dead tired. I was going to clock out soon after, but a line ended up forming, so I hopped on the window for 30min or so. lolol Afterward, Joley wanted to stay so me and Bekah were sent home. Bekah dropped me off but we couldn't find her car in the parking garage LOL
Also I keep hurting myself??? Yesterday I banged my back on the cash register after trying to move the cooler for Randy, and now it's bruised. Tonight, Henry gently accidentally elbowed my back LOL and I bumped into the time stamp card machine again x'D

But anyway, I'm home now. Going to finish that galaxy painting... and do some more silhouettes? I don't think I forgot anything... I finished watching "Dynamic Chord" yesterday, and also started "Tsukipro the Animation." Seeing these characters and mascots makes me want to sculpt and make keychains etc. Eep, where's the time though?
Did I mention I cried a lot for "Song of the Sea"? I guess not. I was BAWLING at the end. I cried my heart out. It was a good movie :'D

Today wasn't too busy.

I made perfect rice.

Okay, so yesterday I just pre-ordered Chertiz's Believer package ^^; KMN it's more $$$ than RFA VIP package.

Anyway, I just want to sleep right now, but I better write some stuff up... wow, but I actually don't know where to start hm... Lessee~

So it's been so long so I can't really write a whole lot but, on Wed, 12/13, me and Steph walked with Alan (her new friend from stats; her cutie lol) to the library. They were going to study. I thought it would be awkward. It was, but Alan was really easy to get along with. So they didn't start studying 'til later. He gets easily distracted and talks a lot lol. Later that night, Jessie and Romuel joined us. We had so many laughs omg it was a great night! I was working, so no worries lol I was doing my animation for Raquel's final (51B animation). My renders took forever. Jessie left around 1am or so. The rest of us didn't leave until 5 or 6am omg. It was freezing cold when we left. Steph showered and slept. Meanwhile, I had to keep rendering. I barely made it on time, before 8. Well, I submitted at like 7:30am, but when I saw a mistake, I didn't have time to fix it because the render would've taken too long. I showered after that and went to sleep... at 8:30am LOL Lucky for us, we didn't need to go to class for our final. I slept in and woke up around 4:30 pm LOL
Went to Target after Steph got out of her final (I think).
Also, Anna finally connected with me LOL and I told her that we already talked when she asked me about Birdy's hoodie when she was still working at Quickly LOL


Sat, 12/16: Work
I don't remember much but... I had work at the Ice Rink. There was a cosplay gathering so there were so many cute outfits~ Anyway, today I was getting off my lunch and was washing my hand and suddenly the pipe/bucket under the sink disconnected and back flowed so I got dirty water all over my pants and I had wet socks for the rest of the night... YUP. There was 2-hour, never-ending crowd tonight.
Andrew (non-manager, Econ major) clocked out, and I saw him outside the door, but someone closed the door. I was about to clock out too. I wasn't sure if he was waiting...? but when someone came in, I looked out and he wasn't there anymore. Oops. My other co-workers, Rebecca (Beka)h and Matt offered to take me home, so I took it, since Andrew already walked off. I thought Bekah was dropping off her parking pass first. So when she asked me where my apt was, & I was like "you're dropping me off?" she was like, "oh, are you coming home with us?" And I was so confused lol but Matt reminded her she needed to drop off the pass LOL Today Tom (boss) also popped in the booth and once again, praised my drinks. Aww :3

Sun, 12/17: Work
Last night, I was joking with Andrew and Roy and told them I'm working again tomorrow too~ but Andrew was like, but are you at this booth. I thought about it and was like, you're right I'm at the other booth. He said, that's what I thought. But I said, "hey, but Tom keeps modifying my schedule so you never know." And I was right. Tom switched my schedule and I was working at the Ice Rink again.
I was wearing my Pokémon t-shirt with the Unova starters, and Andrew asked which one I picked. I told him Oshawott, but I probably should've went with Snivy. He was like, "you should've" LOL I was in a good mood today (I think) I saw Kevin (in a long while) but I'm guessing he was working at the other booth, just came by to pick up some cider. And then Chazny was working today! :D I was busy so I couldn't properly greet him. And someone was working between us lol 
I think today was the day we ended up running out of a lot of stuff. Later that night, Andrew (manager) left Eli in charge as "manager-in-training" and I was asking him what I should do and he told me to talk to Eli. So I ask Eli; he told me to bar back. When another worker needed a job, he sent her to me LOL WHUT ELI. I worked at the end window, near the storeroom and Eli and Chaz were refilling the coolers so they were putting it back under my counter. I squeezed to the side because I was making a drink for a customer. They pushed, and ended up hitting my leg LOL Chazny apologized, touched my shin(?) where the cooler hit, and asked if I was okay lol and he kept apologizing xD
We closed at 10 today, so we finished around 11:30pm. Since we were scheduled 'til 1am, we went to the other booth, but Berto said they didn't need us since they were pretty much cleaned up too. Lyxi missed me~ aww~
[also the night we found out Jonhyun passed away...]

Mon, 12/18: Surprise visit & all-nighter
Today, Meimei, Arianne/Louegie, & Jessica/Karla came to visit. They called me at 10-ish AM but I was still asleep. The day before, Meimei asked if we had parking so I kinda expected them, but not really the day after being asked lol Steph was still asleep.
They chose the wrong day to come though because I had work at 4:30 and Steph had a final at 5 (so she didn't get to study) but yeah, there's only so many things we could do in so little time ToT Jessie and Zairah hung out with us too. We had Greek food, and Gongcha. Walked around campus. There wasn't much to do. We sent them off to Eastridge to Round 1 lol
Doesn't look like I had much for work... but that my co-worker, Joley, dropped me off but she lost her parking ticket so it took us a while to get out of the lot. I got home, and after grabbing some stuff and dropping stuff off, I headed to La Vic's to grab food (my treat) for Jonathan and Celine since we were going to be working in the PC lab for the final. Jonathan was hyperactive because he was tired. I felt bad, because the last part was the rocks, which I didn't texture yet, so Celine ended having to do most of it. But she was really nice about it and taught me stuff. We went home around 6am.

Tues, 12/19: Final
I was running a little late for finals, but Dave, Jonathan, and Callum went to grab coffee anyway. So I made it to finals technically. There were cheddar biscuits and cookiessss yummmm lol I ate so many cheddar biscuits... x'D We looked at everyone's work, then Dave "taught" us how to render the fly-through properly, so he had us do it in class. But it wasn't working, but we finally got it to work, but the render was taking hours. Justin and David came in to crash the finals. They were talking to Lily about stuff, and Dave and I just popped in randomly in their convo lol I actually talked to Justin, wow. lol Dave had us upload the fly-through by the end of the day. I had my RTVF final to attend to so Lily had to stay to watch the render. As soon as I was done with the final, I made a Starbucks run, and treated Lily to coffee. When I got there, she had to go to the hospital to attend to some family things. So I waited for the rest of the render. When it was finished, it was messed up, so I had to make some fixes, and re-render. It was another 3 hours. The computer display slept, so I had to text Jonathan for his password since we were on his computer, but he was out on a date, so I didn't get a reply 'til an hour later. But I fell asleep on the chairs in the PC lab lol so Jonathan called me x'D Issok, 300 frames were rendered while it slept anyway lol. Steph stopped by to give me my TonTon blanket because it was cold lol We also went to Student Union to grab food. At first I was going for a salad, but I already had salad recently, so I went for Steak n' Shake. Someone paid for my meal! because they had too many Dining Dollars left, so they gave the cashier their ID, and had her swipe for any following customers. Put me in a totally good mood after finals! What a treat!
We ate in the PC lab. Steph grabbed leftover donuts from class lol and then she went to her final a lil' before 5. The render finally finished around 5pm. Afterward, I went home, dropped off stuff and grabbed Arlene's present, and met her and Angeline at Christmas in the Park. There wasn't much to do. After a walk around the park, we went to Muji's for a bit. It was Arlene's 2nd time that day, and she bought so many pens LOL the cashier recognized her, and I think she told him she forgot to buy some stuff and he said "that's a lot of things you forgot" LOL Afterward, I met up with Steph at Student Union, and from there we met up with Jessie at Boba Bar.
I couldn't resist and opened my gift from Arlene, and I got this cute sleeping Shiba Inu pillow and a Pokemon notebook.


Wed, 12/20: Round 1
I was going to go to the final day screening, but I woke up late; late because the screening started at 10, I thought it started at 10:30 :p So I ended up not going, and instead, went to the art building to grab some files before they locked the labs.
Afterward, I got home and Steph was still sleeping. So after I woke her up, I met up with Jessie and we went to Target. I decided to draw while on the bus, and this guy started talking to me, because he was like I'm an artist too. So cool, I thought it'd be a fun chat. He wanted to sit next to me, so I move to the seat next to Jessie, but he was like, oh, I was gonna sit there. Uhm... why did it matter? It felt like he wanted to get between me and Jessie (a feeling I got afterward). He shows me his sketchbook. I find out that he's self-taught, obviously starting out with anime. But hey, he spent time to learn and study anatomy so props to him. I feel like he doesn't have anyone he can "talk" to about his art and stuff, so he was overly excited and wanted to just tell me everything. At some point I started to feel weirded out; a sort of "Joey-incident" all over again, where I thought things were normal but then I get a danger warning from within. Not long after, we reached our stop, so I started getting off. And he was like "oh, are you leaving already?" and I reply, yeah and apologize etc and he says "I was gonna show you more stuff." I continue to apologize and leave. As I get off the bus, he yells out to ask what my name was. WHY DID I SAY MY NAME OTL. Why do I always do this... I hope I never bump into him again... I'm never drawing in public again ToT
Steph meets up with us at Panera. (Panera's soup was so good~) First time at Panera.
After we got back to Jessie's apartment to wrap her co-worker's gift, we sent her off to work and me and Steph went to Eastridge. It was a long day. For some reason, I didn't want to go home at all. So we kept going back into Round 1. We literally spent all day there, 'til the mall closed. We didn't leave Round 1 'til 11:30pm. We went all out at the arcade. We played some games. I danced some. She played a shooting game. And we raced each other. We got tickets. We analyzed the ticket games LOL And we just relaxed and played all day. It was a great de-stress day after finals. Of course, our poor wallets lol so we had to limit ourselves for once a month x'D (We get home & Steph was like, if we're going to spend so many credits, we might as well buy the max credits lolol) We would've left earlier, but Steph was suddenly attached to this elephant plush so we had to get it. I finally got it for her, on our very last try. That cost a lot haha. 


Thur, 12/21: Work (Christmas in the Park booth)
Steph slept over at Kune's today. Jim Snow video-called me and we chatted for like an hour x'D Didn't sleep 'til like 3am. I was telling her about Jacob at work and showed her the TonTon friends plushies.
Speaking of Jacob, he was very talkative today o.o My first time actually talking to him. He's sociable today because "his boys" Keenan (Yo, I totally guessed on his spelling. Checked HotSchedules and I got it right x'D) and Eli were working too, except they were towards the other end of the booth when we were at the end end lol. He set up station next to me. [I told Jim all those, and I already forgot for the most part] But I found, he's actually a really nice and fun guy! When I first worked with him, he looked mean and scary. He didn't talk a lot. Today... he was really talkative lol It was really slow today. There wasn't much to do; our stations were clean and stocked. So I started to take the candy canes out of the wrappers and hanging them on the container. He joined me. This boy though; there is so much room on the other side of the container, but he had to hang them on my side, so our hands kept hitting each other, especially when we tried to take the candy canes out of the container. It was super cold today too so I was really shivering. After a while he said, let's see how many we can fit. So we just kept at it. When either of us had a customer who ordered more than 3 drinks, we technically shared the load lol We chatted about how customers don't come to the ends and instead go for the middle. This old man was walking towards me, but my very energetic co-worker next to us was like "I can help you over here if you're ready!" so the old man drifted toward him, and Jacob was like, "and he was coming for you too" lol (but the old man ended up going down the booth and away) After the candy canes, we were very idle. I'm over here shivering, and I realized he was standing so close to me lol are you trying to keep me warm boy? I could feel his body heat like very, very slightly. And then he was sorta playing around, trying to call Keenan but he had a customer. And he wasn't being loud either LOL but while he was trying to get Keenan's attention, in between he was telling me, those are my boys over there x'D Michelle was being initiated as manager, so she was manager today while Berto watched over things. So during our idle time, Michelle came over to tell us about how managers need to check bills greater than $20, and she was explaining to us. But at this point, there were customers in front of us; they didn't come up to us yet to order, but we both weren't sure if we should interrupt Michelle while she was talking. I glanced at the customers, but tried to give attention to Michelle. Same for Jacob lol after she left, Jacob told me how he didn't know if we should call over customers and I was like, "same" lol I think we ended up helping them afterwards anyway. I was helping a customer and he was talking to me. He was about to yell out "I can help the next customer in line" but he stopped because there was no line LOL (sometimes, we get a crowd just milling about and we don't know if they're in line or not) And he said "I feel stupid when I'm yelling and there's no one" LOL same Jacob, same.
At some point I got called for my 10min break. When I got back, I think it was Christian on my left and then Jacob on the right. So I go between them, and said "I'm back~" to let them know, I'm squeezing back in. And Jacob was like, "were (are?) you leaving me?" but I replied, "No~ I was just on my 10" and got back to work. Later in the night, Michelle comes over to double check I took my 10, and I tell her I did, but that Jacob hadn't yet.
Oh yeah, I bumped butts with Eli. IT WAS SO AWKWARD OMG. I was getting hot apple cider from the station behind him, and he bent down to grab a can of whipped cream from the coolers so fast... that he bumped butts with me. I almost spilled. BUT IT WAS AWK.
Manager's siblings took me home. $27 in tips~
Got home, and made potstickers. Room smelled like potstickers afterward lol Also, bought the Believers package~ Wheee~ <3 there goes $100+. It's $10 more than RFA VIP package, but I shipped with K-packet, instead of EMS this time.
[Edit: I totally forgot this until today, but when it was slow, Jacob started singing behind me. It wasn't even like really quiet LOL and I sorta turned towards him and he was like, I know you know this song. LOL it was "Rocketeer" I think... but I just laughed a bit and turned my attention out the windows LOL]


Fri, 12/22: Grocery shopping & Work
I went to the post office to ask about my photo card; only told that if wasn't deliverable, it'll be sent straight back to the sender. Poor guy at the post office had blood shot eyes. My bus driver was very peppy ^^;
I walked to Safeway afterward to do some grocery shopping. Decided to get ingredients for quesadilla, Chinese chicken salad, and baked potato wedges. Everything totaled up to around $26+, which is all my tips from yesterday LOL I met Steph on the walk back to the apartment. She was going to be late for work lol I walked her to work, but since I didn't eat anything, I got fish balls from Gongcha and Steph used her employee discount. She was like 3min late because of that I think LOL
Worked at the ice rink today. Jacob had an angry look again, but got so peppy as soon as Eli walked in LOL Around 6-ish, Eli asked everyone if anyone wanted to go home at 11. Nobody said they did. I was on my 10min break. I thought about it and decided I should go home early, since Steph was getting off around 11 too. So I went and told Andrew that I could go home early, and he told me Eli wanted to work 'til 1 to stay with Jacob. Oh the bromance ahahaha I can't with them xD I got sent on my lunch soon after my 10 lol I asked Eli just to double check that we could get an ice cream. He confirmed and I was like, "I want an Its-it kekeke" or something along those lines and Eli. ELI. Mocked me lol he was like "teehee. sneaky~" omg xD Oh, and when Reed saw me on break, again, I told him it's because I'm going home early because of Eli. And Eli, walking by, was like "thanks~" hahaha
I was at the 1st window, closest to the booth's door, so when security guards wanted drinks, I was told to make them and take them out the window. My boss was there and he kept praising my drinks and thanked me because I made those drinks for the officers. And then he asked me how I did on the finals (for the contest, but I don't know haha) So I got off early, not too many tips :p Didn't really meet up with Steph because she already walked off to campus lol so I had to wait for her at the corner, gave her her hot chocolate, and I got baked potato wedges from Jack-in-the-Box (2nd time in a row) & curly fries.


Sat, 12/23: Work? [so, my 1st draft of this didn't save so now I need to re-write it, & of course, it's not going to be as good as when I first wrote it -.-]
Anyway, I went to work today when I wasn't scheduled. I mean, I was, but for some reason my HotSchedules didn't have a shift for me today, and I didn't get an e-mail that my schedule was changed .-. So I went to work & didn't realize until my manager Wendy told me I wasn't on her roster. At lunch, I double-checked and found out, yup, wasn't scheduled today. Told Wendy, and she said she wasn't going to send me home because she needed me. I told Michelle too, and she said the same thing lol They give me way too much credit. So I stayed the whole time. Nothing much happened today. Michelle and I are the finalists for the "Best Hot Chocolate Snowman" contest on Facebook, so near the end of the night, we both made a new drink for a picture. Didn't even feel like we were against each other; she put marshmallows in my drink for me, and I went to grab her her cherries while she opened a new can of whipped cream LOL I love Michelle. My right arm is currently sore because I mopped too much yesterday. I forgot I bought a sandwich from Togo's from lunch, so I ate it when I got home :p
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Wow. I managed to blog about the week and some. No biggie, just took like 2-3 hours or so OTL lol
Well, it's been a good run. Today I didn't have work, so I chilled at home, went to sketch at Gongcha. And then went to practice photography at Sonic Runway~
Can't wait 'til the 27th because I'm trying to meet up with Arlene~

Alright, I'm also trying to get back into dA and working with the group I started on there lol Let's try to enter some DTAs, finish some WAAAY overdue art, and concept work for Party Banter?

I've been going back and forth from being really sad and then happy.

Sad, because every time I read more news about Jonghyun, I just start crying...
Why do we live?
Because he couldn't find a way to be happy alive, he decided to end it.
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It's the choices we make... I choose to endure the pains and hardships because for me, the happy moments I cherish outweigh the pain by a lot. (Wow, this is a heavy topic... it probably doesn't help that I'm listening to Reynah's "Y Si Fuera Ella" piano cover either ^^; )
I still mourn for Jonghyun... the reality that he's not with us anymore is constantly hitting me every time I think about him, and the tears won't stop.
But I'll live. Because he'd want all his fans to continue to live... to live on and to find their reasons to live... to be happy...
It was disheartening to realize that despite all the friends he could rely on, he still felt the need to choose his final path... the fact that he planned everything--who knows for how long--and to end it all at the end of the year...
Now every song that I listen to, I can't help but redirect the subject to him/them actually singing about their depression or their inner selves, not some girl...

It took me a while to be able to collect my thoughts...
May this beautiful angel finally gain the peace and happiness he could not find with the Living.

[I had planned to blog about this week, but who knew I'd end up crying again, and I'm not in the mood to write about it... so you'll see me again. Soon. The end of 2017 is just not going so well huh...]

I was in a really good mood after work...
Got home, finished my quick dinner/snack, ready to work on my final...
only for my mood to plummet to the depths of Earth (or so) tonight.

I'm not feeling "well" so I'm gonna head to bed...
I'll blog later when I feel better...

RIP SHINee's Jonghyun... </3

Just got off work. My co-worker Andrew walked me up to campus since he lived on campus. He's pretty chill. A good friend :3
An awkward-ish walk though LOL
Let's start from the beginning of work.

Shannon (our manager) was running late because of her previous work, so we were all waiting for the booth to open. I greeted Andrew when I got there. It's my first time opening/prepping so it was cool. It was slow today; it didn't start to rush until after 8.
Overall, it was a good day. I was busy at the window for the most part. Talked to Stephanie, Cynthia, and Love-lie (Loveline? I forget) a lot today. Talked to others too, but not as much. When I was going for lunch, Andrew was telling Shannon he'll take over my window 'cause he was washing dishes, but he said the wrong name LOL
[Also, we have this contest where if we make a really good looking chocolate, we take a pic and it gets posted or something? So Shannon said I made it really nice but I didn't tell them to take a pic (I'm not really into the contests lol) & I all said was thanks, then I made my 2nd one & she said, that one's good too, here let me take a pic. So I did x'D And she was telling my co-workers that I made it really good & they need to beat it. At some point she also mentioned not to pre-sleeve the cups, and that I knew what I was doing because I didn't pre-sleeve the cups and I make nice snowmen hot chocolate x'D I got 2 pics, one in the beginning of work, and another towards the middle of work. I don't know why Shannon always watches me LOL I think she realized I'm not the type to really show myself off lol]

It was towards the last couple hours of work. Andrew got into a strife with some customers. Shannon ended up just giving them the drinks for free & said it wasn't even worth dealing with (over payment). Speaking of which, apparently we got some fake $100 last week. Today I got a really old $20 and we couldn't tell if it was real or not, so we had to ask for a different bill.
Anyway, minutes later, when we had down time, Andrew turns to our other co-worker, Roy (whom he was talking with when the customers started arguing with him) and Roy was like, still thinking about it? to which he nodded, and I'm like aw :( I know how he feels because that was me when a customer "yelled" at me for not having a 'cash only' sign. She didn't yell at me, but she was my customer, so, yeah. I almost had another customer who wanted to argue about the 'cash only' sign; luckily, they only grumbled about it and walked away. I could just feel his whole mood drop.

When we were cleaning up, Andrew asked where I parked, to which I said I walked, and he said he'll walk me. Shannon, who was listening on, said psychhh, you were going to walk alone young lady? x'D (managers don't let us walk home alone after 12:30am) At first I thought we were going to walk with Cynthia and Gloria, but they said bye to us halfway, so it ended up being just me and Andrew walking to campus.

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Woops, I took a break from typing. Just finished showering & is currently masking. Always sleeping late + cold weather = really bad/dry skin. My hands have been really dry too, from that, & the bleach during work. I really need to do laundry tomorrow too... but anyway, to continue my story...

So Andrew & I are walking to campus. He's judging me for not going to parties and getting f*d up ("let loose," he says), asking 'bout my major. Afterwards, he asks me what kind of art I like (technically), and y'all know I ain't a Old Masters kind of gal, but if I had to answer... I told him if he meant an art era, it'd probably be Impressionism. And he was like, so like van Gogh. I tell him I don't particularly like that, instead, more of Monet. MAH-nay (Manet), he says.
Me: hm? no, Monet.
Him: You mean Manet.
Me: No~ that's a different artist.
And here he continues to argue with me that he's right LOL "ask your roommate, ask your boyfriend. I think I'm right about this." Of course, this is just us joking around.
Then he asks, "are you seeing someone?" I answer no~ and he says, "Sorry, this is a weird question". And I'm thinking in my head, yes it is, why you suddenly ask that~, but answer "It's totally fine~ but no, I'm not seeing anyone." He asks me if I knew what "cuffing season" was. I didn't, but I heard of it; it was the feeling of needing to be in a relationship, he said. So he's asking me why etc. I don't remember what I said? Something along the lines of: not thinking about it, too busy for it. He asks, "so the guys in animation are no good?" I answer, "..... mm, not my type?" And he goes "OKAY. Right through the heart. Dayum" (or something) lolol And I try to answer it better lol He tells me that he gets that question too, about why he doesn't have a girlfriend, and he answers that he just got out of a 10-month thing and doesn't want to get back into another one so fast. I don't remember if there was something else to that. Then he asks me, "so what's your type?" I really hate this question because I can never answer it lol I tell him that I don't really know/have one? And he keeps trying to get me to say, so I answer, "someone nice?" He said that's too general, that as a friend, he'll help me narrow it down LOL And I keep telling him it's really hard etc. So he says, "okay, how about an ideal date?" That's even harder because no one's ever asked me that. LOL So I'm thinking. I answer along the lines of: going out to eat... it doesn't matter as long as it's with the guy I like (?)... but I did want to go to the zoo.
He asks, don't I want a date at the museum, and I say, I actually don't like going to museums LOL and then I mention the zoo. I think at this point, we reached the spot where we have to part ways. I was slightly away from him, but he extended his arm so I gave him a hug. And he said "walk home safe, I'll see you tomorrow."
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Yup. It was a slightly awkward convo ^^;
I wonder if I forgot anything... anyway, it's 5:22am right now. I think I'm done masking. Wow, I better wake up at a decent time tomorrow.
I meant to write about that day we pulled an all-nighter at the library on Tues; I'll write tomorrow. This post ended up being quite long ^^;

By the way Minar, that was a really cute story! I could see a whole drama unfolding haha (plus, I also thought it was a story you wrote on yourself LOL at first. I could totally imagine her as you. *raises eyebrows, up & down* You be seeing your neighbor and classmate on the buses LOL
Also, totally understand the "I-remember-them, they-don't-remember-me" thing x'D

Alright, forreal goodnight. My shoulder blades hurt and I'm sleepy ZZzzz

gotta keep going.

I'm super tired; work was tiring last night.
Today was the last day of class. Raquel cancelled this morning though, so I got up, walked almost to the end of the block, checked my e-mail, & went home to nap before Dave's class. Dave ended up coming back an hour late from Las Vegas.
I just got back from working with Tanner on our RTVF group project (I was there for 30min, doing nothing) and walking Steph to class. Now waiting for Steph and Jess, so we can go get dinner.

Currently looking at videos for inspiration because I'm starting to work on my sketchbook... If you want, check some of them out! (Of course there's more :3 )

• Sketchbook Tips
• Building Confidence
• Crhistine's Sketchbook
• Inspirational Quotes
• 7 Ways to Fill a Sketchbook

... is not a good combo x'D

I was, of course, closing again. I worked at the Ice Rink. The manager there when I got there-- she was like 18 y/o-- was addressing me, but she called me Kathy x'D I was like, I'm not Kathy lolol she said I really looked like her haha. Anyway, after I clocked in, Andrew came in a lil' bit later and was manager for my shift. He brought 2 other guys (his friends?) to work and they all ended up taking me home after closing.

It was busy like usual. Okay, maybe more than usual; we had a never-ending crowd for like 2 or 3 hours OTL. Everyone at the window was dying. We were so busy we had to ask for a worker from Christmas in the Park. It was Benson! haha
I also saw Chazny! To be honest, he looked really familiar but I wasn't sure who he was lolol and my only guess was, Chazny. I was working at the window when he and his friends came up. I was finishing up a drink. I look up and see him on the side, coming up. He flashes me this really bright, gentle, innocent cute smile (Okay. Y'all know I'm a sucker for eyes and smiles) And I don't remember how I reacted, but I turn back to finish up with the customer. He comes up to the window and asks for 3 large chocolates, so I start making them while constantly thinking, why'd he smile... Then Derek who was working next to me was like, give it to him for free. I'm like, okay in my head, thinking, so he works with us? My mind is just constantly thinking lol. So then he and Derek starts talking about working tomorrow and I'm like, okay, so he does. He was also saying he feels bad getting 3 large drinks (for his friends) and was gonna pay for it but Derek was like nah, you good. After giving his friends the drinks, he asks Derek for one more large. I couldn't stand not knowing so I ask him, have we worked together before? And he was telling me his first shift at Christmas in the Park a week or 2 ago and I'm still trying to think lol Derek finishes up and Chazny leaves.
After a while I was turn to Derek, what was his name? Derek laughs and says he doesn't remember his name. And I say, oh so you just recognized him? He says they worked together last night. lol. And I say, was his name Chazny? And Derek goes, oh yeah. Lol And I'm feeling bad forgetting Chazny xD (Sorry Chaz)
Hey, to my credit I did remember him, just wasn't sure xD He looked different okay. He wasn't wearing the hat, and he was dressed so fanxy. So adorable haha. Awwww
Anyway, also saw Jassimran and Jessamae!

Okay, that was probably all. Me and Steph be waking up too late to do anything before work ^^; Same with today too. OTL Well, I slept to my heart's content Friday night because I was dead tired from the week. Not to mention, I was out all Friday from 9am for final, to picking up my Tonton Friends package (look forward to an unboxing!), to having the winter Party Banter meeting (we doing some character designs :p), to going to 14F later that night.
I have work soon! I didn't pick up a shift to close, but that's what Tom did... denied that 1st one but decided to book me for closing. AGAIN. I hate being an available 20 y/o LOL (minors can't do closing) Also planning to work 'til end of December, since the season's gonna be over and might as well.
I want Parmesan bites.
~Lip & lip & hips~

EDIT: EEYYYY I just got my paycheck~ :D

Yay! So yesterday Steph and I went to Round 1 with Jessie, though she left early 'cause she had work, but my goal was to get a Pomeranian plush. The game was to know down a bowling pin keychain from a zip tie on a metal grid with just a screw. What are the chances right? We almost gave up, but my determination to obtain the plush made me waste money LOL but! I finally got it! (Named it Clover because of the 4-leaf clover on its head and the luck we had to get it xD) We couldn't believe ourselves when the screw actually hit the zip tie :o Anyway, apparently it's not as hard as it seems because by the end of the day, all the Poms were gone x'D
We spent the rest of the day at Round 1, time play, and I was pretty tired lol Also, I was breaking in new shoes, so the back of my heel was chafed and bleeding.
I woke up this morning with sore inner thighs. Like, I've never been sore there. How do you stretch it? ^^; I do think it's because I was tip-toeing a bit to lessen the chafing and I walked a lot like that LOL weird...

Today I went to play badminton with Jim, Alin, Nancy, Tong, Qi + her boyfriend and his brother, and Liang. Super. Rusty. o.o It always pressures me when I play with Tong but I know he's nice about it ^^; and then we had BBQ and hot pot at Hot Point Station. Linda's boyfriend came. I ate so much, that by the time we left, I was a Wigglytuff and super uncomfy walking. We went to Happy Lemon though for milk tea lol and I rode Liang's car while Jim rode in Qi's. I thought it was going to be awkward, but it was okay LOL He got so skinny and his haircut made him look like a baby x'D And then we went to Qi's place for a bit, but it was pretty late and everyone was tired so we didn't even finish the movie and went home. Ah, we're gonna be sore tomorrow? lol
Side note, I was going to bus to BBC to meet them, but it was going to take me around an hour to get there. Jim told the group that and Alin said they'll come pick me lol Jim said that when I told them this morning that I won't join them for lunch and maybe badminton and that I went back to sleep (it was early morning and I didn't feel like getting out of bed lol), Alin wanted me to go to badminton. AWWW. More love~ (I just remembered this after the next paragraph lol)
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It was the first week of school, and it seems to be going pretty good! My Tues/Thur class of Physics 23 is only every other Thursday so now I have a big gap between my ANI classes x'D Also, first day of ANI 114 with Jeff, I sat in the front with Genai and Jeff kept picking on me! LOL Apparently I'm "friendless" x'D I am so dead. I was laughing so much that I started tearing, but I didn't want him to see because he'll think he made me cry LOL He was going to stop, but he kept joking and apologizing lol This semester seems good.
On a side note, Arlene told me there will be openings at her workplace after her co-workers quit. I told her I was interested, and she told me her boss remembered and liked me and already got me a shirt with my name on it? AWWW. I feel so loved hehe Anyway, I think I'm pretty much secured with this job? ^^; Let's hope I don't jinx it hehe And the "volunteer" thing I did last year? I'll be helping her again, but I'm getting paid $60 this time? Interesting...

I gotta be up tomorrow to do homework, though I'm not too worried since class doesn't start 'til 3PM anyway on Monday LOL ugh, the stupid blog for my other class won't save my template changes -.-

Gyahhh! I finished Season 2 and it was a MESS but obviously, things worked~ and I can't stop blabbering to Steph about it keke somehow ended up summarizing S1 too... hehe. Maybe I should do some art because it was sho cute...

Ahh, school tomorrow. I'M SCURRED. Still debating whether I should drop Design... I don't know. Because it's a pre-req. for taking typography. I want to take Typography... but I guess I could learn new skills too? (they're not necessarily new either though ^^; ) and Yay! Got my Adobe renewed~ not like I paint on Ps, but it feels good to have it again ^^ also because I need it so I can correctly recreate my Ps brushes for CSP lol

I got back to SJ today. I bought a new chair and currently, it's very comfy! Though it took me quite a while to assemble. I also bought 2 frames for my prints that I could finally put up! Not the best (DIY) matting, but hey, it looks pretty nice ^^ I didn't have 3D foam stickers to make it "pop" more, but it'll do. I also managed to clean! But to be honest, they're just hidden in the closet and under the bed ^^;

Steph said she'll go Eastridge with me so I can get my Pomeranian at Round 1 ALKSJDF
Pray we get it, but the game seems hard? ToT
Anyway, time to sleep! Super nervous, but I'll be having lunch with Arlene tomorrow! :D

Currently at my sister's.

Last night I practiced "Want You to Say" & especially "Jebal" for so long, I'm so tired. My calves are just slightly sore. I don't know if it's the dancing or carrying heavy bags of stuff (met up with parents and grandpa at Chinatown) and/or after getting to Coach's (also, after ordering McD and Cool Tea Bar and walking to her place) that my whole body is starting to ache. Or, just me carrying my backpack and duffel bag to the bus stop and onto Bart that I'm sore. It hit me late.

Ordered Jonghyun's album. I don't care. I'm getting it. (I should really really stop spending ToT)
I'm still super sad that my NU'EST W photocard didn't come in yet! I'm really giving it until February...
Oh! Yadi also gave me her paintbrushes. Seems like she didn't use them yet? Though I don't know how's the quality... some of the hairs were falling out. Looks like oil paintbrushes. The other ones seem like watercolor or acrylic paintbrushes... Oh. Just looked it up. It came up on Amazon. The reviews were as expected: good for beginners/amateurs but definitely not the quality someone with experience would use. I don't know about the oil brushes, but the acrylic brushes seem good. I won't know 'til I test them though. Hopefully they aren't too bad. Grawr. I can't wait to start painting some stuff~ so many ideas~ and after turning in my sketchbook, and watching Leigh Ellexson's YT videos on her sketchbook, I really want to just draw/paint/color/ink without any worries. 

Ah, I got distracted by Coco's OST.

I drove to Jessica's today so we talked a lot, had flan and pizza, played with her guinea pigs and painted. Well, we were supposed to paint but I mostly watched Jessica paint, though I had an idea there but didn't end up painting it because Jessica's tubes of paint of were so small, I didn't want to waste them lol I did a sketch but really, I didn't do anything really, because I was busy watching "Okja." The ending made me cry~
Jessica was painting though; I made her work on her Hamtaro lol Next time, hopefully it's an actual sketchventure~
Later, I drove us to T4 and dropped her off at home.
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Heh!? It's already a week? lol timelapse because, I was writing that last Friday, but was too lazy to finish. Ahhh, I don't want to wrack my brain to remember stuff that happened. So, welp. Not like much happened anyway. I'm lazy and I want to watch my drama, so let me wrap this up.

Last night, pulled an all-nighter to scramble to finish my portfolio sketchbook. What a fail; I mean, I finished, but I crammed so many drawings. Are they even good? I do think I improved drawing cats LOL it looks like Latte! Turned it in this morning and slept until 4pm afterward. My hand was starting to cramp; I could feel ittt. Now I can relax... but after turning it in, I suddenly had so many ideas and things I want to do. But hey, what's new.

I also finished "Good Morning Call" yesterday! It was so cute! Gonna go watch the 2nd season now~ Need to read the manga too... Speaking of manga, there are so many cute ones on eBook Renta (rated though.... LOL not really, but yeah lol don't get wrong xD) So many cute anime I want to watch too... trying to get back my shoujo fluffy heart LOL
Also need to stop buying stuff... things haven't even arrived and I keep purchasing. Ooops. But. Definitely need to purchase Jonghyun's album when it's released on the 28th.... speaking of which, Believer's package is getting shipped out too, Woot woot!

If I stop blogging, I get lazy to blog afterward haha but anyway, last night I didn't sleep 'til 6:40am and didn't wake up 'til 6pm. Jobee came home to wake me, but I went back to sleep and she napped. While doing her homework last night, I was watching "Miss Rose" and watched so many episodes lol I thought I was close to done but it actually had 35 episodes lol

Anywho, I ate dinner while watching "Itsudatte Bokura no Koi wa 10cm Datta" and I was crying since episode 2 to the end. My eyes still hurt right now ^^;
Afterward, me and Jo played "Doki Doki Literature Club." We still need to finish Natsuki's route. It wasn't too bad because we played without music lol
We had to reinstall because Monika destroyed the script... lol so while looking to re-download, we came upon a game called Nekojishi. The art was appealing; we looked at the trailer and read the description... it's a freakin' furry BL LOLOL /DED.

My eyebags are so bad. My lips are pale too so it makes me seem sickly lolol I really do need to sleep early. Tomorrow I'm meeting up with Jessica, and then Mon or Tues, I'm meeting up with Deilys.

I meant to watch Idolm@ster Side M but it's too late now xD Oh yeah, on the day I got picked up, I ended up catching up on a lot of Webtoon comics (mainly my BLs kekeke). "Super Secret" continues to be really cute, and "My Boo" ended bittersweet... </3
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> Nothing much happened on my last day of work. I boarded to work because I was running late. Boarding was risky, but I made it lol with 3 minutes to spare. (It was because I was watching "Hitorijime My Hero" lol) Work was slow as usual, but we got steady business, but still wasn't super busy. After closing, my co-worker Prianka(?)'s mom dropped me off.

> Mom counted my tips; it was around $300+~ I gave the money to her though because I don't want to deal with it lol. My 2nd check was about $840 or so. I already pretty much spent all that because my credit card bill was $800+ ^^; wow I don't know how though LOL It probably included bills from Dec. but I did spend quite a lot in Jan. already ^^; Really need to stop spending.... ToT

I'm finally home for my last weeks of break. I didn't get to see Meimei or Mina over winter break~ I mean I saw Meimei in SJ but I didn't even get to hang with them for long~ Wonder if I should stop by Davis hehehe

Currently watching "Miss Rose" with my mom and Roy is so freakin' cute! <3 I love his tsundere side. His character roles are always about the same though~ hehe. He always acts childish, throws tantrums, and overly protective <3

Ah,----
I was gonna blog but Jo is making me do her homework. I'll be back > > lol

So I didn't sleep 'til 6:40am because I still had to shower. But anyway, I went to sleep when everyone else was about to wake up lol I'll just make a new post.
Also, I think Jolly Rancher would've been a fun friend, if I didn't have a crush on him. But yeah, with my mindset now, I'd probably say, he's a fun friend I want to keep. Or something like that.

Reminder: last week/days of work. Purchases. Money/bills.

Quite a few stuff to mention, but I want to just do a quick quick update.

Last time, Minar also encouraged me somewhat to add him on FB and follow on IG, which I did, and which he accepted. Upon seeing his IG feed, I loved that video of him spiking alsdkfj lol but I also sorta died seeing his birthday post for his dance partner.
On the way to SF, I kept telling Minar and Steph I miss *ahem* LOL

Wednesday night, I was telling Jim about Chaz but she was too sleepy to really listen. Also, we got distracted having an argument with Siri LOL But I was just having a lot to think about and all of a sudden. An earthquake. 4.7 from Berkeley. We still felt the aftershock too. It gave me a little headache; probably because I tensed? Jim woke up thinking I was shaking her LOL That was the strongest, and felt like the longest, earthquake we felt. Earlier, Jen also took me to Japantown late at night. We didn't buy much; just a quick walk through Kinokuniya (surprisingly, nothing appealed lol) but I did buy "Kiki's Delivery Service" washi tape~ expensive but oh wells x'D

Thursday morning, we were late to babysit Caleb (Coach's baby). We were there for like 2-ish hours. I tried to sketch a lot, but did only 2.5 ^^; Coach came back and mentioned a box of plushies. I ended up bringing a small and large version of the seals home. They're really flat though LOL flat cushions. I'm thinking of opening them and stuffing them some more hmmm. And then we went to have dim sum with Jen, Isaac, Kyle, and ah Hill. I was really hungry, but after eating a little bit, I was already full. Afterward, we went with Jen to the eye doctor. Me and Jim went to a store called Beverley's Crafts. I bought ink pads and a pack of canvasses (who knew that they ripped us off though x'D the pack was on sale for $25 but the same pack but different brand of canvasses was at Michael's for $13) Well, Jim paid because I left my card in the car lol Then we went to buy cake because it was Isaac's birthday. Oh, we also stopped at Daiso afterward to buy some stuff. We went home, Jim went to work soon, and we had cake upstairs. It was awkward... and I felt bad for Isaac because his mom kept nagging him. I was literally observing; it was a super weird atmosphere.

This morning, woke up a lil' late, later than wanted lol Jen got back and we went out to Michael's. I'm so happy with my purchases~ I'm finally starting a stamp collection~ also got gold ink, and black and white paints, since mine are super low. I didn't buy the expensive brand though. Everything totaled together is still pricey, despite everything being on discount x'D Jim got tempted to getting a set of mini letter stamps. We went to Jen's workplace to pick up her birthday gift to Isaac. I think we went straight home after that. Even though we planned to go do Japantown again, nawhh.
It was a good day, but I don't know what happened. The fact that I had work soon and Jen was worrying I wasn't gonna get back to SJ on time? She just started getting moody and whatnot. Then she and Jim started an argument. I was just tryna cook for Jim. I felt like the whole problem stemmed from her wanting to go out shopping with Isaac because she didn't get to spend his birthday with him and because it's the first time he initiated going out, but that she needed to take me back to SJ too. But like Jim said, we already had plans because I was over, and he's always free so why she decided to cram all her plans with us and him on the same day. When we got back, the plan was she and Isaac go shopping and come back to pick me up after cooking. (To be honest though, with the drive, I don't think they could've done much shopping o.o) but she didn't because she thought of the traffic to SJ.
So yeah, their argument. Then Jen angrily went upstairs after replying to Jim, "Okay, it's my fault" (said huffily). And Jim wasn't trying to find anyone to blame; she was just stating the truth. So when Jen left, she was just complaining to me and started to cry, saying "see? all she does is yell" etc, that's why she doesn't talk to her or hang with her as much anymore, only because I was here, and because she places him so high in priority. I sorta agree. It's not like she doesn't see him at all. In my case, she literally doesn't see me, but she still prioritizes him instead. I mean, I don't really mind. It's also because if it was me, I wouldn't mind spending a day or two with my family instead of my boyfriend. Also, I can see that she's trying to balance time with him and us, but she doesn't do that very well. And with so little time after work, and the time it takes to drive to places and actually do stuff, you can already tell that trying to do everything you planned to was not gonna happen. You know, there's very little things that make Jim mad or sad, and that's usually family-related. The fact that Jim cried/stressed because of Jen and him, a few times is just... SMH.
At some point I was also thinking, none of this would've happened if I hadn't decided to stay over in SF. Chose the wrong time to (because it was his birthday and in the middle of the week).
I was going to have a chat/lecture with her during the ride, but decided against it because the mood was obviously dead and stifling, also, she would easily road rage. And seeing as her eye as an infection, wouldn't want to add to her difficulty of seeing of tears and rain etc. According to our past arguments, it would definitely pass over at some point... albeit a little more damp... (I don't even know what that means x'D)

So I'm home now. I tried to clean a bit. Where do I put my pack of canvasses? I have so many plans and ideas of stuff to do, but I'm either too lazy to do them or just don't have time ^^;
Steph got me a poster of watercolor sketches from "Serendipity" MV. It's so pretty under my cherry blossom and quote decal~ <3 I'm really into watercolors lately. I still want to purchase that watercolor painting from the gallery...
I still need to start on my bullet journal...
I need to start a journal for my washi tape and stamp collection, so I can actually use my washi tape without regretting x'D

Oh yeah, I was getting ready for work, but after I finished braiding my hair, I got a text from my boss Tom saying that because it was raining, I didn't need to come to work. I had a super short chat with him but omg my boss is so sarcastic and funny xD I feel conflicted over the fact that I didn't get to go to work today (probably Chaz's last shift) but also because I could've been in SF still, and we wouldn't have had to rush anything.

Also, feeling very slightly, slightly, SLIGHTLY hurt/depressed? because I think Chaz has a girlfriend now LOL She's his dance partner so it's all good with me. I mean, y'all know I just love "love"~ lol and they're cute together~ I told Minar all this. I'm probably not to the point where I'm heartbroken? but Eric Zhou's "How are you" kept playing in my head (probably because Jim was playing it in the car today lol). I guess I'm feeling glum because having a crush kept me occupied, my mind light and fluffy. I'm probably just feeling empty again.
If I ever really did like him that way, that "like" easily transfers over to a best friend kind of like. Because I really do love his personality! If we had become good friends, he'd definitely be a friend I'd love to keep in touch with :D

Ah, my laptop is dying and I need to shower. I'm feeling empty so I'll probably watch "Hitorijime My Hero" after I shower lol. Also, there's an AU fic going around for BTS called "Outcast" and yo, no joke, it's intriguing xD Me being visual with everything I read, is getting goosebumps and freaked out then and now LOL
EDIT: I'm really sleepy right now... and I went on a shopping splurge because stamps/embossing stuff were on sale??? x'D guess 2018 is a year for crafts etc. I have so many things shipping to me... I need a list xD Considering I made around $800 for my 2nd paycheck, I spent a little too much within a few days of the new year. I need to stop. I'M POOR. That needs to stick in my head lol

It's been a while since I had a crush? haha.
--I had started this post yesterday I think, but I got lazy to finish typing. Also because Jim distracted me haha currently in SF, but let me finish this....--

So yeah, crushing. To be honest though, I think I'm actually a little salty right now x'D We'll just start from at work on Tues, 1/2.
It was another slow night, so slow that Andrew wanted to send people home. No one wanted to go home though. He asked us how much we wanted to stay; everyone was kinda here for the money LOL and Joley said she was 50/50 about leaving and staying. As the night progressed (not even 2 hours yet) she said that she wanted to go home lol so she left early. Andrew also tried to call the other 3 workers who were coming in from 6-10pm to not come in, but Andrea was already on her way; the other 2 actually showed up, but they didn't clock in and went home. Andrea clocked in, was supposed to probably work for 30 min, but she ended up staying for her whole shift because Stephanie and Chaz went home early. 

Chaz and I were there early at work, so we were just standing in the back room waiting to clock in. We talked a bit, like very little. I don't even remember what.
It was slow, and I made myself a pretty early cup of chocolate. It only had marshmallows, and Chaz was like "Is it just gonna be like that?" and I tell him "No~ I need my whipped cream~" and he dare says "You're always like that." like ALKSDJF x'D
Quinn got some guy's number on a piece of paper. He just kept stuffing it to her, and from the coffee station, I thought it was trash LOL and I was wondering why he stuffed trash to her. Quinn said, laughing "I'm kinda scared to open this." She opens it and reads the contents. It was his number telling her to call him some time. Andrew took it and ripped it up lol He said something like nope and you don't know those people/they're weird. I don't know.
I also talked with Andrew about DDLC and it's weirdddd lol crazy xD Still gotta go finish that game with Jo.

I don't know why... but Chazny kept whispering to me? Ahahaa it was always a bunch of random stuff that he keeps telling me. One time we were serving this customer, and he had his hair styled. Chaz turned around and came close to my ear to tell me "I used to do my hair like that" and I guess we talked a bit about that? (His hair now is 50-50 part LOL) He was saying how he was lazy to style his hair. At this point, I also told him I didn't recognize him that one time lol.
Earlier, I think he was telling me that the only bad thing about this job was you couldn't sit. I told him to go sit on the chocolate boxes in the back room lol
His friends also stopped by. It was 2 girls and I wasn't sure if they were together so I went to stand next to Chaz (he's at the window serving). And before I even asked, Chaz lowered his head a little closer to me to tell me that they were his volleyball friends. I wasn't sure what to say that to that so I just smiled and nodded at them. The girl at the front quietly said "he's really good" and I still don't know what to say to that ^^; something like "oh~..." and an awkward laugh. But Chaz kept shaking his head saying no xD After they paid and stuff, Chaz was quietly telling me how they were the only friends he didn't manage to give free drinks because Andrew was right next to him, checking the tip box. And I was telling him, Andrew wouldn't have known if we had taken the money first or not, and that he didn't mind if we hit up friends. And Chaz was like "oh, then I'll give it back to her" (of course he was joking but he made the "attempt to") and I was like "nooo don't do that!~" like, scolding him. And he said "I'm just organizing~" and touching the money and I continue to whine no and playfully hit his arm.

I was sent on my lunch after Quinn. I just sat in the swivel chair and ate Twix. Chaz had asked me if I was on my lunch too. Toward the end of my lunch, Chaz was sent on his 10 minute break. When I finished I got up and he was like "are you off your break?" and I told him yeah. He happily took the chair with a sigh of relief, and mentioning how his back hurts/has a back problem. He decided to hug the back rest instead of sitting properly in it. After I clocked in, I was like "do you want a massage?" I was partially joking, but he gave me puppy eyes, and "offered" his back to me. So I gave him a massage. The first pressure/rub/squeeze or whatever you call it, he kinda jolted forward, and I thought I hurt him x'D and after double checking with him, he was like "no, that actually felt good" and I was relieved lol He was saying he's all tense/stiff because he hasn't been dancing" and I told him he should at least keep stretching and he said he's too lazy for that lol. We were joking around saying, "You're being paid to get a massage, and I'm being paid to massage you" lol and Andrew just looked us and nodding, giving us that "what the..." smile, you-guys-are-weird look lol (because we were both clocked in xD but I mean, no customers so whatever lol) and then he said "thank you, --- I love you for this, I feel so much looser." Something along those lines, and I just gave him a final pat on the shoulders and went on my way. [If you wonder if my heart went dugun-dugun, I gotta say, probably not? haha instead I was thinking if he's just too nice to tell me my massage sucked LOLOL; I told Steph this when I got back and she was like "oh. OH. Y'all WILD." LOL]
I told Minar I was "infatuated" ahaha it's been a while for me to even admit that lol so I must be quite smitten.

After Joley left, we used Andrew's bluetooth speakers. We kept switching "DJs." Andrew plays J-rock/"orcehstral metal" (I think that's what he said) from Pandora I think. And I was serving a customer. Suddenly "Silent Scream" plays and I started singing quietly and Chaz was next to me saying, "you would know it" but it wasn't even an anime song x'D

Chaz and Stephanie clocked out at 9:30. Before then, I was at a window and Chaz came over and asked if he should go home early. No lie, internally I was pretty much screaming NO, but appearance-wise, I had no emotional change. I told him, "uh, if you want to." He was still thinking about it. Later, he tells me he's gonna go home early. I was really regretting not telling him to stay, but like, for what reason did I have to hold him back? I think it'll just sound weird. My mood dropped so low when he left, I'm telling you. Even though he clocked out, he was waiting for his ride, so he was just joking around in the booth. I was at the coffee station, and he was leaving, so when he was leaving he said bye to us, and he punched me lightly on the shoulder, and I don't know why there was just a weird exchange? because I tapped him on the shoulder... Iuno it was all weird LOL
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Well that's the end of the work day. Uhm, nothing else haha

Wouldya look at the time.

I just finished lettering with my Speedball dip pen and silver ink on my painted galaxy sketchbook cover. Calligraphy really strains my hand and back ^^; but the outcome is super nice! I never thought to paint my sketchbook cover but it definitely makes me want to art more! instead of looking at the cover that says "mixed media".
I was going to start my bullet journal again, but I was too lazy to take out my rulers right now, so I'ma just blog about today, wait for my hair to dry and sleep. Biri came back today, so I don't think I'ma sleep in ^^;
Speaking of bullet journals, I was watching a lot of "plan with me" videos, and it seems everyone's Januray/2018 theme is gold and winter lolol so now I want some gold pens or inks. Speaking of my stationery stuff, I want to start a stamp collection lol

Today I baked potatoes, but I didn't evenly coat them with oil, so some stuck to the foil when I tried to flip them and I didn't evenly bake them so one side was a lil' more cooked. Biri came back then, and I was actually on Barnes & Noble's website. I purchased "Art of Blizzard" because it was on an incredible saleeee. Online only, so I got it shipped to me.
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Anyway, PMS-ing.
I don't know why but I was getting annoyed today at work? For the first time since I've started working there. Like, forreal annoyed. I think it's because Andrew (econ major) was working next to me and I just didn't like the way he was talking??? It felt like he was trying to tell me how I should be doing things and stuff, and sometimes when he asks me questions, and I answer them normally, he answers back as if I gave him attitude??? Like??? I don't even know. -huge sigh-
**distracted. look who bought more CDs??? but hey, I stopped myself from the other ones LOL**
So yeah. He was working next to me. And when I started getting annoyed, I was legit thinking, "can I switch with Ryan so I can work next to Chazny?" (I was seriously so happy to see him when he and Andrew & Ryan came from the other booth. And then I thought about that dream LOL) And then I guess what really hit me was, I was helping some customers and I had ordered coffee from Joley for another customer. I was occupied, but I knew Henry and them were asking about someone's coffee but I thought they had picked up the coffee from the window that was for the security guard. After I finished and went to grab my coffee, it was "swooped," as Joley called it. And then after going around, we found out Reese had thrown it out just minutes from when I went to get it. And then Andrew had the nerve to pretty much blame me??? Saying why I didn't say anything when they asked. UHHH first of all. They only said "coffee" so how am I supposed to know they were talking about my "large french roast" when I was finishing up with another customer? Second, if it's not your coffee... WHY'D YOU TAKE IT. (I don't know who took it, I just know I glanced and saw Henry holding a capped cup) Although I was laughing and joking it off, I was about to start crying??? but Joley made me a new cup really fast so yeah. Also because Chazny came back from his lunch so that sorta saved me too. (When Chazny was going off to lunch, he walked by me and I jokingly in my head was thinking, what if he hung his apron around my neck hahaha... WELL. He almost did LOL He asked "do you want a double apron?" and I shook my head while smiling and he made it seem like he was going to put it over my head anyway, but then he just smiled and continued walking toward the door) I was glad when he took the station next to me. He already made my day from joking around. We were just standing around, and Chaz was messing around, pretended he would squirt whipped cream on my counter, and after I said "don't do it" jokingly... HE DID IT ANYWAY. And I told him that he had to clean it up and he threw a towel on it instead of cleaning it with a napkin alskdjf this boy. And I pretended that I was going to put that whipped cream rag on his face and he was like "you wouldn't dare" LOL
We also chatted a bit. He was saying how he was going to enjoy his shift today, and I was like why. He said "Because I have you... -turns to his right- I have them two... -turns to the people on our left- those two... -turns to the back- them" I interrupt and say "that's everyone!" (technically said simultaneously) and he turns to the back room "and those two" and turns back to me laughing. 

It was a slow day so to be honest, a lot of us just milled about and found busy work ^^; I had 4 small cups of hot chocolate... wow. When Dan and I were going on our lunch, Chazny asked Liz if he could take a 2nd lunch after giving me a glance as I passed by, and asking if I'm going on my break, to which I said I was going on my lunch LOL (and then of course, it's gonna be me overthinking stuff) I just ate an It's-It for lunch. It was good~
(Skye and Kat were talking about how nice Henry's teeth were LOL and then he mentioned about how he and his girlfriend were gonna open a clinic together (Bekah already announced this to the staff earlier LOL) HOW CUTE. He said, next month is going to be 2 years together (me eavesdropping when he was talking to Ryan lolol))
When I got back from my lunch, there wasn't anything to do, so I joined Chazny at the coffee station. He was getting overwhelmed with so many coffee orders ahaha He asked me if I had anything to do, and I told him if Reese had anything for me~ and I looked at Reese at his right, and he was like "no, you can stay here and help me" or something along those lines. I ended up going on my Snapchat, and snapchatted us ahaha (Despite seeing me using Snapchat, he wouldn't add me hmph. LOL) Oh yeah, he and Ryan were roasting marshmallows in the fire... and he took out a flaming marshmallow omg LOL caught that on snapchat ahaha

At the end, we got churros from the other booth~ Also, Reese literally put everyone on their 10 minute break at the same time, so it was like a party in the back room. While we were cleaning up, I put my drink on the counter on the side. And even though Chaz knew, he jokingly said, "this is trash right~" while holding it up to me and I whined "nooo~" Of course he put it back on the counter. I refilled it and added whipped cream and stuff again and set it aside. They were cleaning the counters later, and whoever it was picked up my drink, but Chaz got it for me, telling them it was mine. And I got it back from him. I again, filled it up and added whipped cream (both times, it wasn't a full refill okay LOL) and I set it in front of the coffee station/pots. When we were pretty much done, I was going to grab my drink. Chazny was in front of it and he pointed to it saying "that's probably yours?" And I jokingly whined, "what's that supposed to mean~" and he said "nothing. you have a sweet tooth right?" to which I nodded.
Earlier when they were going to throw away the apple cider, Chaz had got a cup (this was before we closed) and I was manning the coffee station. I put a lid on it for him and lettered his name on it. He kinda left it there for a long while, but he came over to sip after refilling the coolers. He was digging under ice/ice water so his hands were red, so the hot apple cider warmed them. And considering how long he left it there, he was like "still warm." I looked at him and he asked if I wanted to try it. Of course, no, because I prefer sparkling cider LOL I was kinda disappointed he didn't say anything about my lettering (I had lettered "happy new year!" on one of the cups and Henry saw it and said it was cute ^u^) but when he came back a second time, he asked if I wrote his name, and gave me a smile, but was teasing me that I wrote his name like an equation, something about log and power LOL

While we were cleaning, he and Joley just kept dancing ahahaha I was standing by the coffee window drinking my hot chocolate, and he was cleaning the window and somehow... almost fell out the window LOL and he was saying "for safety reasons, I'm going to hook onto someone" and he hooked his foot on my ankle??? LOL
I don't know what song came up, but I was slightly behind him as he finished the coffee window counter and was going towards the front counters, and I guess it was a lit song?
And he literally... a sexy dance of sorts... no joke. Internally fangirled. It was like a body roll? Seriously, he was making me laugh all day. I was drinking my hot chocolate and he did it again in front of the counter, and I literally choked on my drink. Aigoo x'D I forreal love watching him (& Joley) dance.

So sorry this is way out of order, but things keep coming back to me lol so around like 9ish, 10, Liz sent people out to advertise because we were slow. Advertise as in, walk around with drinks, pretending they bought the drinks y'know LOL I was fantasizing in my head, what if they sent us to go but to be honest, it was going to be super awkward and embarrassing so I was glad they told Chaz to go. Liz said to not lose him, he needed to go with someone, and he chose to go with Ryan. So them 2 awkwardly went around LOL A couple... LOL I cannot. The second time they came back to "recreate their drinks," Chazny was... trying to be sexy at the door. OTL I cannot. He was so CRINGY. I literally got goosebumps. But at the same time it was so funny xD Liz was teasing them, that they legit look like a gay couple out there (naw, I don't think so though LOL) and she sent Bekah and Skye with them later, but not long, Bekah came back saying she gave up because it was super awkward LOL

Hm... seems like that's all.
So today was pretty rocky--with my mood--but thanks to Chaz, Joley, Henry, Bekah, Dan, Liz, and Reese, it ended up pretty fun again. ^^ I'm seriously going to miss everyone, especially Chaz of course, but yay~ I'll probably see him again tomorrow. (Not trying to be mean, but low-key glad Andrew has the day off tomorrow...)

Alright, how did this post take an hour to write. Lol. Because Chaz does too many weird things.
Also, last night I slept around 5am too because I was posting the digital galaxy speedpaint and I showered late. Goodnights now!
[Reading this must be as tedious as it is for me to write it all out xD]

Happy new year!
I can't believe it's already 2018.

I spent the new year with my co-workers! Oh how much I love them; they make me happy :3 (Although some of them though.... > >) ANYWAY. Nothing special at work today. Pretty slow. Random crowds here and there. It was also Reese's first shift as manager, though Liz was "babysitting" lol I worked with the Le siblings today~ (Henry, Randy, and Liz) There were lots of laughs today :3 I didn't get to take my 10min break... ^^; Tom also came by. And he checked on me that I got my tips back lol I feel bad making everyone worry about my tips. And every time he leaves, he always thanks me but I didn't do anything...?

The Ice Rink closed early today. CITP didn't need everyone, so me and Bekah clocked out (doesn't seem like she wanted to stay anyway lol) While we were finishing up at the ice rink, we were just standing around. Somehow I ended up between Henry and Randy lol And when I was helping to bag the trash cans, my apron fell, and Henry picked it up for me. Earlier, I was flapping my time card, and pricked my cheek, and I quietly said to myself "oww, I scratched myself" and he was like "are you okay?" At first I was ??? but then realized why he asked lol he's such a brotherly figure, I feel so loved :3 (shh, he has a girlfriend) We were all teasing Henry about his "year old boba" LOL because it was 2018 ahahaha. Also found out he's a graduate from UOP omg x'D for dentistry.
Oh, I was behind Bekah while we working and I was trying to get by, and her ponytail whacked me, like, right across my brows. Henry so happened to be in front of me and saw it all happen x'D

Hmm, seems like a good day.
Before going to work, I did a 30 minute digital painting of the same galaxy as the one I painted on my sketchbook cover. I think I really got into skies and galaxies ^^ so hopefully I'll explore more. I also feel like I'm getting more into traditional painting?
I've been trying to be active on Amino, and I posted my painting on the groups, and I got a really positive response. I've been feeling really good, really positive, so I've been thinking about some new year resolutions :3 Still not organized enough yet. Hopefully, 2018 will be full of creativity for me ^^
I also didn't wash my hair yesterday & slept with my braids on, so my hair was super curly (Jim called them curly fries OMG x'D) & I didn't want to braid them again so I was going to do loops, but they got messy pretty soon, so I just went with simple loose pigtails in the front :p
Anyway, I'ma try to do more speedpaintings or stuff this year. Covers? but I doubt I have time for that. Maybe going to SJSU hip hop :p And learning more recipes ^^
I cooked omurice with spam today ^^

Continuing from where I left off...
On Wednesday I went out with Arlene! I rode the bus to the Great Mall, and surprisingly the bus ride was pretty short. The plan was to go sketching, but we ended up shopping lol we went to Daiso and Arlene's friends were working there too. She was talking to one for a long time ^^; It was a little awk but we talked a bit too. She told me he was Mickey's other owner xD (Mickey is the doggo we saw in our neighbor's apartment, Erin's dog) and then he told us my neighbor was also working x'D
So when we finished shopping, my neighbor checked me out. And they were telling him we were neighbors and when we left he was like, "see you around" LOLOL
We went to Forever21 and she got so much stuff ahaha. I ended up buying a sweater too. Lessee... afterward we wanted to get Jollibee but there was such a long line, we went straight to Paris Baguette and we got some pastries. Ended up being so full, I had to take home my one pastry lol Her friend was working then too. We went to Happy Lemon afterward. It was pretty good. She had to meet up with her boyfriend afterward, so she dropped me back off at Great Mall.
At first I was thinking of sketching in the mall, but there was no room at all anywhere to sit. So I ended up walking to the lightrail, decided to just sketch a bit outside. It was all good until this Black guy comes up and started asking me inappropriate questions. I kept trying to ignore him but he kept pestering me! At some point my heart started racing and I had a danger signal like during the Joey incident. Anyway, I had to call Jo on the phone. He still kept pestering me so I was like, "gotta catch the bus" and high-tailed it to the lightrail. Afterward, he ended up coming up to the lightrail station too. Everytime he started walking toward my direction, I hid behind one of the walls of the waiting station(?) and when I saw his shadow pass by, I walked the opposite direction. He kept walking in my direction so I had to keep hiding ALSKDKFJ.
...sigh...
Anyway, I got home safe afterward, on call with Jo the whole time.
--Also I had a very emotionally disturbing dream about Chazny that I ended up voice recording. Currently too lazy to type the story, so I'll save that for another post--

I did laundry and made baked potatoes! Despite waking up a little late lol
Work yesterday was pretty slow. Eh... I don't really remember what happened. Only that I was working with Henry at the end. I don't remember if I mentioned him... anyway, we were filling up the coolers with whipped cream. Poor him, digging under ice water. His hands were pretty red. Er, I made a shlee (breath intake through clenched teeth) sound because I sorta hurt myself or whatever (but not actually getting an injury) and he was like "are you okay" x'D So nice. After we finished filling the last cooler and putting it back, he was like "we did it~" and high fived me LOL I worked with him like twice and I barely found out his name but he knew mine LOL Andrew and Reese left for lunch so I had to step in for pots. But somehow, I ended up being an unofficial step-in manager...? ^^; I don't know why people ask me stuffffff alskdjf. But yeah, working with the usual crew. Ehhh, Randy, Henry's brother, came over to help out. I was cleaning the coolers so I'm bent down next to one of the trash cans. Andrew was throwing away trash and trying to push the trash down, but one of the whipped cream cans squirted and I got whipped cream on meeee x'D and he laugheddd how meannn lolol
After we finished, we waved and said bye to Randy and Henry. They're so nice~ (with the way they talk though, and sometimes their gestures? seem a lil'... feminine. But I shouldn't judge ^^; _) I walked with Andrew and Reese down to the Christmas in the Park booth, but before we made it, we saw Bekah's car stop at the red light, so I ran across and hopped in since she was dropping me off. Funny thing was, she asked if I needed a ride but I told her Joley's been taking me home. And she was joking around and complained to Joley, and then I was like okay you can take me home ^^;
Anyway, I got home realizing I left my tips in my apron! ToT
Luckily I didn't put the apron for laundry so I managed to pick it up this morning.

Speaking of this morning, I woke up after a 3 hr nap (slept at 6am because I was up doing some quick silhouettes for the Party Banter critique, which ended up being moved to next Wed at 10am so I stayed up for NOTHING. *ahem* anyway...) and Katie was opening manager for the 1st time! She couldn't unlock the door with the code, so she had another of the younger(?) workers to try the lock. They managed to get in. (That guy reminds me of Patrick C. from SECA) and I only saw him once, but when he saw me waiting at the door, he gave me a peace sign? Surprised, I just 'supped him (head gesture). After grabbing my tips I said bye to them and the dude (whom I still don't know the name of) said, "already?" (I think) and I was like "yup, just getting my tips that I left in my apron, see yah!" and he responded too. They all gave me that "you're leaving already?" sad puppy look ^^;
I ended up going home and took a nap. Risky, because I didn't even set an alarm. I woke up at 2:30 so it was all good though.

I got to work, and Katie was like, "are you working now?" lol
The dude was like, "oh you're back" LOL dang, okay peoples xD I was almost late waiting for my coffee from Gongcha. I made it within 5min. PHEW.
It was a slow day because the ice rink was closed due to some problems. Shannon ended up letting most people go, and calling others who were scheduled to not come in. I ran errands to the other booth, and awww~ Kat was happy to see me :3 so was Wendy lol
I took 2 trips. Dead tired. I was going to clock out soon after, but a line ended up forming, so I hopped on the window for 30min or so. lolol Afterward, Joley wanted to stay so me and Bekah were sent home. Bekah dropped me off but we couldn't find her car in the parking garage LOL
Also I keep hurting myself??? Yesterday I banged my back on the cash register after trying to move the cooler for Randy, and now it's bruised. Tonight, Henry gently accidentally elbowed my back LOL and I bumped into the time stamp card machine again x'D

But anyway, I'm home now. Going to finish that galaxy painting... and do some more silhouettes? I don't think I forgot anything... I finished watching "Dynamic Chord" yesterday, and also started "Tsukipro the Animation." Seeing these characters and mascots makes me want to sculpt and make keychains etc. Eep, where's the time though?
Did I mention I cried a lot for "Song of the Sea"? I guess not. I was BAWLING at the end. I cried my heart out. It was a good movie :'D

Today wasn't too busy.

I made perfect rice.

Okay, so yesterday I just pre-ordered Chertiz's Believer package ^^; KMN it's more $$$ than RFA VIP package.

Anyway, I just want to sleep right now, but I better write some stuff up... wow, but I actually don't know where to start hm... Lessee~

So it's been so long so I can't really write a whole lot but, on Wed, 12/13, me and Steph walked with Alan (her new friend from stats; her cutie lol) to the library. They were going to study. I thought it would be awkward. It was, but Alan was really easy to get along with. So they didn't start studying 'til later. He gets easily distracted and talks a lot lol. Later that night, Jessie and Romuel joined us. We had so many laughs omg it was a great night! I was working, so no worries lol I was doing my animation for Raquel's final (51B animation). My renders took forever. Jessie left around 1am or so. The rest of us didn't leave until 5 or 6am omg. It was freezing cold when we left. Steph showered and slept. Meanwhile, I had to keep rendering. I barely made it on time, before 8. Well, I submitted at like 7:30am, but when I saw a mistake, I didn't have time to fix it because the render would've taken too long. I showered after that and went to sleep... at 8:30am LOL Lucky for us, we didn't need to go to class for our final. I slept in and woke up around 4:30 pm LOL
Went to Target after Steph got out of her final (I think).
Also, Anna finally connected with me LOL and I told her that we already talked when she asked me about Birdy's hoodie when she was still working at Quickly LOL


Sat, 12/16: Work
I don't remember much but... I had work at the Ice Rink. There was a cosplay gathering so there were so many cute outfits~ Anyway, today I was getting off my lunch and was washing my hand and suddenly the pipe/bucket under the sink disconnected and back flowed so I got dirty water all over my pants and I had wet socks for the rest of the night... YUP. There was 2-hour, never-ending crowd tonight.
Andrew (non-manager, Econ major) clocked out, and I saw him outside the door, but someone closed the door. I was about to clock out too. I wasn't sure if he was waiting...? but when someone came in, I looked out and he wasn't there anymore. Oops. My other co-workers, Rebecca (Beka)h and Matt offered to take me home, so I took it, since Andrew already walked off. I thought Bekah was dropping off her parking pass first. So when she asked me where my apt was, & I was like "you're dropping me off?" she was like, "oh, are you coming home with us?" And I was so confused lol but Matt reminded her she needed to drop off the pass LOL Today Tom (boss) also popped in the booth and once again, praised my drinks. Aww :3

Sun, 12/17: Work
Last night, I was joking with Andrew and Roy and told them I'm working again tomorrow too~ but Andrew was like, but are you at this booth. I thought about it and was like, you're right I'm at the other booth. He said, that's what I thought. But I said, "hey, but Tom keeps modifying my schedule so you never know." And I was right. Tom switched my schedule and I was working at the Ice Rink again.
I was wearing my Pokémon t-shirt with the Unova starters, and Andrew asked which one I picked. I told him Oshawott, but I probably should've went with Snivy. He was like, "you should've" LOL I was in a good mood today (I think) I saw Kevin (in a long while) but I'm guessing he was working at the other booth, just came by to pick up some cider. And then Chazny was working today! :D I was busy so I couldn't properly greet him. And someone was working between us lol 
I think today was the day we ended up running out of a lot of stuff. Later that night, Andrew (manager) left Eli in charge as "manager-in-training" and I was asking him what I should do and he told me to talk to Eli. So I ask Eli; he told me to bar back. When another worker needed a job, he sent her to me LOL WHUT ELI. I worked at the end window, near the storeroom and Eli and Chaz were refilling the coolers so they were putting it back under my counter. I squeezed to the side because I was making a drink for a customer. They pushed, and ended up hitting my leg LOL Chazny apologized, touched my shin(?) where the cooler hit, and asked if I was okay lol and he kept apologizing xD
We closed at 10 today, so we finished around 11:30pm. Since we were scheduled 'til 1am, we went to the other booth, but Berto said they didn't need us since they were pretty much cleaned up too. Lyxi missed me~ aww~
[also the night we found out Jonhyun passed away...]

Mon, 12/18: Surprise visit & all-nighter
Today, Meimei, Arianne/Louegie, & Jessica/Karla came to visit. They called me at 10-ish AM but I was still asleep. The day before, Meimei asked if we had parking so I kinda expected them, but not really the day after being asked lol Steph was still asleep.
They chose the wrong day to come though because I had work at 4:30 and Steph had a final at 5 (so she didn't get to study) but yeah, there's only so many things we could do in so little time ToT Jessie and Zairah hung out with us too. We had Greek food, and Gongcha. Walked around campus. There wasn't much to do. We sent them off to Eastridge to Round 1 lol
Doesn't look like I had much for work... but that my co-worker, Joley, dropped me off but she lost her parking ticket so it took us a while to get out of the lot. I got home, and after grabbing some stuff and dropping stuff off, I headed to La Vic's to grab food (my treat) for Jonathan and Celine since we were going to be working in the PC lab for the final. Jonathan was hyperactive because he was tired. I felt bad, because the last part was the rocks, which I didn't texture yet, so Celine ended having to do most of it. But she was really nice about it and taught me stuff. We went home around 6am.

Tues, 12/19: Final
I was running a little late for finals, but Dave, Jonathan, and Callum went to grab coffee anyway. So I made it to finals technically. There were cheddar biscuits and cookiessss yummmm lol I ate so many cheddar biscuits... x'D We looked at everyone's work, then Dave "taught" us how to render the fly-through properly, so he had us do it in class. But it wasn't working, but we finally got it to work, but the render was taking hours. Justin and David came in to crash the finals. They were talking to Lily about stuff, and Dave and I just popped in randomly in their convo lol I actually talked to Justin, wow. lol Dave had us upload the fly-through by the end of the day. I had my RTVF final to attend to so Lily had to stay to watch the render. As soon as I was done with the final, I made a Starbucks run, and treated Lily to coffee. When I got there, she had to go to the hospital to attend to some family things. So I waited for the rest of the render. When it was finished, it was messed up, so I had to make some fixes, and re-render. It was another 3 hours. The computer display slept, so I had to text Jonathan for his password since we were on his computer, but he was out on a date, so I didn't get a reply 'til an hour later. But I fell asleep on the chairs in the PC lab lol so Jonathan called me x'D Issok, 300 frames were rendered while it slept anyway lol. Steph stopped by to give me my TonTon blanket because it was cold lol We also went to Student Union to grab food. At first I was going for a salad, but I already had salad recently, so I went for Steak n' Shake. Someone paid for my meal! because they had too many Dining Dollars left, so they gave the cashier their ID, and had her swipe for any following customers. Put me in a totally good mood after finals! What a treat!
We ate in the PC lab. Steph grabbed leftover donuts from class lol and then she went to her final a lil' before 5. The render finally finished around 5pm. Afterward, I went home, dropped off stuff and grabbed Arlene's present, and met her and Angeline at Christmas in the Park. There wasn't much to do. After a walk around the park, we went to Muji's for a bit. It was Arlene's 2nd time that day, and she bought so many pens LOL the cashier recognized her, and I think she told him she forgot to buy some stuff and he said "that's a lot of things you forgot" LOL Afterward, I met up with Steph at Student Union, and from there we met up with Jessie at Boba Bar.
I couldn't resist and opened my gift from Arlene, and I got this cute sleeping Shiba Inu pillow and a Pokemon notebook.


Wed, 12/20: Round 1
I was going to go to the final day screening, but I woke up late; late because the screening started at 10, I thought it started at 10:30 :p So I ended up not going, and instead, went to the art building to grab some files before they locked the labs.
Afterward, I got home and Steph was still sleeping. So after I woke her up, I met up with Jessie and we went to Target. I decided to draw while on the bus, and this guy started talking to me, because he was like I'm an artist too. So cool, I thought it'd be a fun chat. He wanted to sit next to me, so I move to the seat next to Jessie, but he was like, oh, I was gonna sit there. Uhm... why did it matter? It felt like he wanted to get between me and Jessie (a feeling I got afterward). He shows me his sketchbook. I find out that he's self-taught, obviously starting out with anime. But hey, he spent time to learn and study anatomy so props to him. I feel like he doesn't have anyone he can "talk" to about his art and stuff, so he was overly excited and wanted to just tell me everything. At some point I started to feel weirded out; a sort of "Joey-incident" all over again, where I thought things were normal but then I get a danger warning from within. Not long after, we reached our stop, so I started getting off. And he was like "oh, are you leaving already?" and I reply, yeah and apologize etc and he says "I was gonna show you more stuff." I continue to apologize and leave. As I get off the bus, he yells out to ask what my name was. WHY DID I SAY MY NAME OTL. Why do I always do this... I hope I never bump into him again... I'm never drawing in public again ToT
Steph meets up with us at Panera. (Panera's soup was so good~) First time at Panera.
After we got back to Jessie's apartment to wrap her co-worker's gift, we sent her off to work and me and Steph went to Eastridge. It was a long day. For some reason, I didn't want to go home at all. So we kept going back into Round 1. We literally spent all day there, 'til the mall closed. We didn't leave Round 1 'til 11:30pm. We went all out at the arcade. We played some games. I danced some. She played a shooting game. And we raced each other. We got tickets. We analyzed the ticket games LOL And we just relaxed and played all day. It was a great de-stress day after finals. Of course, our poor wallets lol so we had to limit ourselves for once a month x'D (We get home & Steph was like, if we're going to spend so many credits, we might as well buy the max credits lolol) We would've left earlier, but Steph was suddenly attached to this elephant plush so we had to get it. I finally got it for her, on our very last try. That cost a lot haha. 


Thur, 12/21: Work (Christmas in the Park booth)
Steph slept over at Kune's today. Jim Snow video-called me and we chatted for like an hour x'D Didn't sleep 'til like 3am. I was telling her about Jacob at work and showed her the TonTon friends plushies.
Speaking of Jacob, he was very talkative today o.o My first time actually talking to him. He's sociable today because "his boys" Keenan (Yo, I totally guessed on his spelling. Checked HotSchedules and I got it right x'D) and Eli were working too, except they were towards the other end of the booth when we were at the end end lol. He set up station next to me. [I told Jim all those, and I already forgot for the most part] But I found, he's actually a really nice and fun guy! When I first worked with him, he looked mean and scary. He didn't talk a lot. Today... he was really talkative lol It was really slow today. There wasn't much to do; our stations were clean and stocked. So I started to take the candy canes out of the wrappers and hanging them on the container. He joined me. This boy though; there is so much room on the other side of the container, but he had to hang them on my side, so our hands kept hitting each other, especially when we tried to take the candy canes out of the container. It was super cold today too so I was really shivering. After a while he said, let's see how many we can fit. So we just kept at it. When either of us had a customer who ordered more than 3 drinks, we technically shared the load lol We chatted about how customers don't come to the ends and instead go for the middle. This old man was walking towards me, but my very energetic co-worker next to us was like "I can help you over here if you're ready!" so the old man drifted toward him, and Jacob was like, "and he was coming for you too" lol (but the old man ended up going down the booth and away) After the candy canes, we were very idle. I'm over here shivering, and I realized he was standing so close to me lol are you trying to keep me warm boy? I could feel his body heat like very, very slightly. And then he was sorta playing around, trying to call Keenan but he had a customer. And he wasn't being loud either LOL but while he was trying to get Keenan's attention, in between he was telling me, those are my boys over there x'D Michelle was being initiated as manager, so she was manager today while Berto watched over things. So during our idle time, Michelle came over to tell us about how managers need to check bills greater than $20, and she was explaining to us. But at this point, there were customers in front of us; they didn't come up to us yet to order, but we both weren't sure if we should interrupt Michelle while she was talking. I glanced at the customers, but tried to give attention to Michelle. Same for Jacob lol after she left, Jacob told me how he didn't know if we should call over customers and I was like, "same" lol I think we ended up helping them afterwards anyway. I was helping a customer and he was talking to me. He was about to yell out "I can help the next customer in line" but he stopped because there was no line LOL (sometimes, we get a crowd just milling about and we don't know if they're in line or not) And he said "I feel stupid when I'm yelling and there's no one" LOL same Jacob, same.
At some point I got called for my 10min break. When I got back, I think it was Christian on my left and then Jacob on the right. So I go between them, and said "I'm back~" to let them know, I'm squeezing back in. And Jacob was like, "were (are?) you leaving me?" but I replied, "No~ I was just on my 10" and got back to work. Later in the night, Michelle comes over to double check I took my 10, and I tell her I did, but that Jacob hadn't yet.
Oh yeah, I bumped butts with Eli. IT WAS SO AWKWARD OMG. I was getting hot apple cider from the station behind him, and he bent down to grab a can of whipped cream from the coolers so fast... that he bumped butts with me. I almost spilled. BUT IT WAS AWK.
Manager's siblings took me home. $27 in tips~
Got home, and made potstickers. Room smelled like potstickers afterward lol Also, bought the Believers package~ Wheee~ <3 there goes $100+. It's $10 more than RFA VIP package, but I shipped with K-packet, instead of EMS this time.
[Edit: I totally forgot this until today, but when it was slow, Jacob started singing behind me. It wasn't even like really quiet LOL and I sorta turned towards him and he was like, I know you know this song. LOL it was "Rocketeer" I think... but I just laughed a bit and turned my attention out the windows LOL]


Fri, 12/22: Grocery shopping & Work
I went to the post office to ask about my photo card; only told that if wasn't deliverable, it'll be sent straight back to the sender. Poor guy at the post office had blood shot eyes. My bus driver was very peppy ^^;
I walked to Safeway afterward to do some grocery shopping. Decided to get ingredients for quesadilla, Chinese chicken salad, and baked potato wedges. Everything totaled up to around $26+, which is all my tips from yesterday LOL I met Steph on the walk back to the apartment. She was going to be late for work lol I walked her to work, but since I didn't eat anything, I got fish balls from Gongcha and Steph used her employee discount. She was like 3min late because of that I think LOL
Worked at the ice rink today. Jacob had an angry look again, but got so peppy as soon as Eli walked in LOL Around 6-ish, Eli asked everyone if anyone wanted to go home at 11. Nobody said they did. I was on my 10min break. I thought about it and decided I should go home early, since Steph was getting off around 11 too. So I went and told Andrew that I could go home early, and he told me Eli wanted to work 'til 1 to stay with Jacob. Oh the bromance ahahaha I can't with them xD I got sent on my lunch soon after my 10 lol I asked Eli just to double check that we could get an ice cream. He confirmed and I was like, "I want an Its-it kekeke" or something along those lines and Eli. ELI. Mocked me lol he was like "teehee. sneaky~" omg xD Oh, and when Reed saw me on break, again, I told him it's because I'm going home early because of Eli. And Eli, walking by, was like "thanks~" hahaha
I was at the 1st window, closest to the booth's door, so when security guards wanted drinks, I was told to make them and take them out the window. My boss was there and he kept praising my drinks and thanked me because I made those drinks for the officers. And then he asked me how I did on the finals (for the contest, but I don't know haha) So I got off early, not too many tips :p Didn't really meet up with Steph because she already walked off to campus lol so I had to wait for her at the corner, gave her her hot chocolate, and I got baked potato wedges from Jack-in-the-Box (2nd time in a row) & curly fries.


Sat, 12/23: Work? [so, my 1st draft of this didn't save so now I need to re-write it, & of course, it's not going to be as good as when I first wrote it -.-]
Anyway, I went to work today when I wasn't scheduled. I mean, I was, but for some reason my HotSchedules didn't have a shift for me today, and I didn't get an e-mail that my schedule was changed .-. So I went to work & didn't realize until my manager Wendy told me I wasn't on her roster. At lunch, I double-checked and found out, yup, wasn't scheduled today. Told Wendy, and she said she wasn't going to send me home because she needed me. I told Michelle too, and she said the same thing lol They give me way too much credit. So I stayed the whole time. Nothing much happened today. Michelle and I are the finalists for the "Best Hot Chocolate Snowman" contest on Facebook, so near the end of the night, we both made a new drink for a picture. Didn't even feel like we were against each other; she put marshmallows in my drink for me, and I went to grab her her cherries while she opened a new can of whipped cream LOL I love Michelle. My right arm is currently sore because I mopped too much yesterday. I forgot I bought a sandwich from Togo's from lunch, so I ate it when I got home :p
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Wow. I managed to blog about the week and some. No biggie, just took like 2-3 hours or so OTL lol
Well, it's been a good run. Today I didn't have work, so I chilled at home, went to sketch at Gongcha. And then went to practice photography at Sonic Runway~
Can't wait 'til the 27th because I'm trying to meet up with Arlene~

Alright, I'm also trying to get back into dA and working with the group I started on there lol Let's try to enter some DTAs, finish some WAAAY overdue art, and concept work for Party Banter?

I've been going back and forth from being really sad and then happy.

Sad, because every time I read more news about Jonghyun, I just start crying...
Why do we live?
Because he couldn't find a way to be happy alive, he decided to end it.
...
It's the choices we make... I choose to endure the pains and hardships because for me, the happy moments I cherish outweigh the pain by a lot. (Wow, this is a heavy topic... it probably doesn't help that I'm listening to Reynah's "Y Si Fuera Ella" piano cover either ^^; )
I still mourn for Jonghyun... the reality that he's not with us anymore is constantly hitting me every time I think about him, and the tears won't stop.
But I'll live. Because he'd want all his fans to continue to live... to live on and to find their reasons to live... to be happy...
It was disheartening to realize that despite all the friends he could rely on, he still felt the need to choose his final path... the fact that he planned everything--who knows for how long--and to end it all at the end of the year...
Now every song that I listen to, I can't help but redirect the subject to him/them actually singing about their depression or their inner selves, not some girl...

It took me a while to be able to collect my thoughts...
May this beautiful angel finally gain the peace and happiness he could not find with the Living.

[I had planned to blog about this week, but who knew I'd end up crying again, and I'm not in the mood to write about it... so you'll see me again. Soon. The end of 2017 is just not going so well huh...]

I was in a really good mood after work...
Got home, finished my quick dinner/snack, ready to work on my final...
only for my mood to plummet to the depths of Earth (or so) tonight.

I'm not feeling "well" so I'm gonna head to bed...
I'll blog later when I feel better...

RIP SHINee's Jonghyun... </3

Just got off work. My co-worker Andrew walked me up to campus since he lived on campus. He's pretty chill. A good friend :3
An awkward-ish walk though LOL
Let's start from the beginning of work.

Shannon (our manager) was running late because of her previous work, so we were all waiting for the booth to open. I greeted Andrew when I got there. It's my first time opening/prepping so it was cool. It was slow today; it didn't start to rush until after 8.
Overall, it was a good day. I was busy at the window for the most part. Talked to Stephanie, Cynthia, and Love-lie (Loveline? I forget) a lot today. Talked to others too, but not as much. When I was going for lunch, Andrew was telling Shannon he'll take over my window 'cause he was washing dishes, but he said the wrong name LOL
[Also, we have this contest where if we make a really good looking chocolate, we take a pic and it gets posted or something? So Shannon said I made it really nice but I didn't tell them to take a pic (I'm not really into the contests lol) & I all said was thanks, then I made my 2nd one & she said, that one's good too, here let me take a pic. So I did x'D And she was telling my co-workers that I made it really good & they need to beat it. At some point she also mentioned not to pre-sleeve the cups, and that I knew what I was doing because I didn't pre-sleeve the cups and I make nice snowmen hot chocolate x'D I got 2 pics, one in the beginning of work, and another towards the middle of work. I don't know why Shannon always watches me LOL I think she realized I'm not the type to really show myself off lol]

It was towards the last couple hours of work. Andrew got into a strife with some customers. Shannon ended up just giving them the drinks for free & said it wasn't even worth dealing with (over payment). Speaking of which, apparently we got some fake $100 last week. Today I got a really old $20 and we couldn't tell if it was real or not, so we had to ask for a different bill.
Anyway, minutes later, when we had down time, Andrew turns to our other co-worker, Roy (whom he was talking with when the customers started arguing with him) and Roy was like, still thinking about it? to which he nodded, and I'm like aw :( I know how he feels because that was me when a customer "yelled" at me for not having a 'cash only' sign. She didn't yell at me, but she was my customer, so, yeah. I almost had another customer who wanted to argue about the 'cash only' sign; luckily, they only grumbled about it and walked away. I could just feel his whole mood drop.

When we were cleaning up, Andrew asked where I parked, to which I said I walked, and he said he'll walk me. Shannon, who was listening on, said psychhh, you were going to walk alone young lady? x'D (managers don't let us walk home alone after 12:30am) At first I thought we were going to walk with Cynthia and Gloria, but they said bye to us halfway, so it ended up being just me and Andrew walking to campus.

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Woops, I took a break from typing. Just finished showering & is currently masking. Always sleeping late + cold weather = really bad/dry skin. My hands have been really dry too, from that, & the bleach during work. I really need to do laundry tomorrow too... but anyway, to continue my story...

So Andrew & I are walking to campus. He's judging me for not going to parties and getting f*d up ("let loose," he says), asking 'bout my major. Afterwards, he asks me what kind of art I like (technically), and y'all know I ain't a Old Masters kind of gal, but if I had to answer... I told him if he meant an art era, it'd probably be Impressionism. And he was like, so like van Gogh. I tell him I don't particularly like that, instead, more of Monet. MAH-nay (Manet), he says.
Me: hm? no, Monet.
Him: You mean Manet.
Me: No~ that's a different artist.
And here he continues to argue with me that he's right LOL "ask your roommate, ask your boyfriend. I think I'm right about this." Of course, this is just us joking around.
Then he asks, "are you seeing someone?" I answer no~ and he says, "Sorry, this is a weird question". And I'm thinking in my head, yes it is, why you suddenly ask that~, but answer "It's totally fine~ but no, I'm not seeing anyone." He asks me if I knew what "cuffing season" was. I didn't, but I heard of it; it was the feeling of needing to be in a relationship, he said. So he's asking me why etc. I don't remember what I said? Something along the lines of: not thinking about it, too busy for it. He asks, "so the guys in animation are no good?" I answer, "..... mm, not my type?" And he goes "OKAY. Right through the heart. Dayum" (or something) lolol And I try to answer it better lol He tells me that he gets that question too, about why he doesn't have a girlfriend, and he answers that he just got out of a 10-month thing and doesn't want to get back into another one so fast. I don't remember if there was something else to that. Then he asks me, "so what's your type?" I really hate this question because I can never answer it lol I tell him that I don't really know/have one? And he keeps trying to get me to say, so I answer, "someone nice?" He said that's too general, that as a friend, he'll help me narrow it down LOL And I keep telling him it's really hard etc. So he says, "okay, how about an ideal date?" That's even harder because no one's ever asked me that. LOL So I'm thinking. I answer along the lines of: going out to eat... it doesn't matter as long as it's with the guy I like (?)... but I did want to go to the zoo.
He asks, don't I want a date at the museum, and I say, I actually don't like going to museums LOL and then I mention the zoo. I think at this point, we reached the spot where we have to part ways. I was slightly away from him, but he extended his arm so I gave him a hug. And he said "walk home safe, I'll see you tomorrow."
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Yup. It was a slightly awkward convo ^^;
I wonder if I forgot anything... anyway, it's 5:22am right now. I think I'm done masking. Wow, I better wake up at a decent time tomorrow.
I meant to write about that day we pulled an all-nighter at the library on Tues; I'll write tomorrow. This post ended up being quite long ^^;

By the way Minar, that was a really cute story! I could see a whole drama unfolding haha (plus, I also thought it was a story you wrote on yourself LOL at first. I could totally imagine her as you. *raises eyebrows, up & down* You be seeing your neighbor and classmate on the buses LOL
Also, totally understand the "I-remember-them, they-don't-remember-me" thing x'D

Alright, forreal goodnight. My shoulder blades hurt and I'm sleepy ZZzzz

gotta keep going.

I'm super tired; work was tiring last night.
Today was the last day of class. Raquel cancelled this morning though, so I got up, walked almost to the end of the block, checked my e-mail, & went home to nap before Dave's class. Dave ended up coming back an hour late from Las Vegas.
I just got back from working with Tanner on our RTVF group project (I was there for 30min, doing nothing) and walking Steph to class. Now waiting for Steph and Jess, so we can go get dinner.

Currently looking at videos for inspiration because I'm starting to work on my sketchbook... If you want, check some of them out! (Of course there's more :3 )

• Sketchbook Tips
• Building Confidence
• Crhistine's Sketchbook
• Inspirational Quotes
• 7 Ways to Fill a Sketchbook

... is not a good combo x'D

I was, of course, closing again. I worked at the Ice Rink. The manager there when I got there-- she was like 18 y/o-- was addressing me, but she called me Kathy x'D I was like, I'm not Kathy lolol she said I really looked like her haha. Anyway, after I clocked in, Andrew came in a lil' bit later and was manager for my shift. He brought 2 other guys (his friends?) to work and they all ended up taking me home after closing.

It was busy like usual. Okay, maybe more than usual; we had a never-ending crowd for like 2 or 3 hours OTL. Everyone at the window was dying. We were so busy we had to ask for a worker from Christmas in the Park. It was Benson! haha
I also saw Chazny! To be honest, he looked really familiar but I wasn't sure who he was lolol and my only guess was, Chazny. I was working at the window when he and his friends came up. I was finishing up a drink. I look up and see him on the side, coming up. He flashes me this really bright, gentle, innocent cute smile (Okay. Y'all know I'm a sucker for eyes and smiles) And I don't remember how I reacted, but I turn back to finish up with the customer. He comes up to the window and asks for 3 large chocolates, so I start making them while constantly thinking, why'd he smile... Then Derek who was working next to me was like, give it to him for free. I'm like, okay in my head, thinking, so he works with us? My mind is just constantly thinking lol. So then he and Derek starts talking about working tomorrow and I'm like, okay, so he does. He was also saying he feels bad getting 3 large drinks (for his friends) and was gonna pay for it but Derek was like nah, you good. After giving his friends the drinks, he asks Derek for one more large. I couldn't stand not knowing so I ask him, have we worked together before? And he was telling me his first shift at Christmas in the Park a week or 2 ago and I'm still trying to think lol Derek finishes up and Chazny leaves.
After a while I was turn to Derek, what was his name? Derek laughs and says he doesn't remember his name. And I say, oh so you just recognized him? He says they worked together last night. lol. And I say, was his name Chazny? And Derek goes, oh yeah. Lol And I'm feeling bad forgetting Chazny xD (Sorry Chaz)
Hey, to my credit I did remember him, just wasn't sure xD He looked different okay. He wasn't wearing the hat, and he was dressed so fanxy. So adorable haha. Awwww
Anyway, also saw Jassimran and Jessamae!

Okay, that was probably all. Me and Steph be waking up too late to do anything before work ^^; Same with today too. OTL Well, I slept to my heart's content Friday night because I was dead tired from the week. Not to mention, I was out all Friday from 9am for final, to picking up my Tonton Friends package (look forward to an unboxing!), to having the winter Party Banter meeting (we doing some character designs :p), to going to 14F later that night.
I have work soon! I didn't pick up a shift to close, but that's what Tom did... denied that 1st one but decided to book me for closing. AGAIN. I hate being an available 20 y/o LOL (minors can't do closing) Also planning to work 'til end of December, since the season's gonna be over and might as well.
I want Parmesan bites.
~Lip & lip & hips~

EDIT: EEYYYY I just got my paycheck~ :D

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^

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