 konnichiwa~
Hello there & welcome to my blog. Here you'll read tidbits about my daily life, some random thoughts, & maybe a rant here and there. I'm sure you'll learn something about me, if you don't know me of course. Down below are links to find me (personal accounts not posted). I hope you enjoyed your stay while listening to the songs I'm recently listening to. Come back & read again~ ^w^/
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Life...
written on Wednesday, December 20, 2017 @ 1:57 AM ✈
I've been going back and forth from being really sad and then happy.
Sad, because every time I read more news about Jonghyun, I just start crying...
Why do we live?
Because he couldn't find a way to be happy alive, he decided to end it.
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It's the choices we make... I choose to endure the pains and hardships because for me, the happy moments I cherish outweigh the pain by a lot. (Wow, this is a heavy topic... it probably doesn't help that I'm listening to Reynah's "Y Si Fuera Ella" piano cover either ^^; )
I still mourn for Jonghyun... the reality that he's not with us anymore is constantly hitting me every time I think about him, and the tears won't stop.
But I'll live. Because he'd want all his fans to continue to live... to live on and to find their reasons to live... to be happy...
It was disheartening to realize that despite all the friends he could rely on, he still felt the need to choose his final path... the fact that he planned everything--who knows for how long--and to end it all at the end of the year...
Now every song that I listen to, I can't help but redirect the subject to him/them actually singing about their depression or their inner selves, not some girl...
It took me a while to be able to collect my thoughts...
May this beautiful angel finally gain the peace and happiness he could not find with the Living.
[I had planned to blog about this week, but who knew I'd end up crying again, and I'm not in the mood to write about it... so you'll see me again. Soon. The end of 2017 is just not going so well huh...]
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Life...
written on Wednesday, December 20, 2017 @ 1:57 AM ✈
I've been going back and forth from being really sad and then happy.
Sad, because every time I read more news about Jonghyun, I just start crying...
Why do we live?
Because he couldn't find a way to be happy alive, he decided to end it.
...
It's the choices we make... I choose to endure the pains and hardships because for me, the happy moments I cherish outweigh the pain by a lot. (Wow, this is a heavy topic... it probably doesn't help that I'm listening to Reynah's "Y Si Fuera Ella" piano cover either ^^; )
I still mourn for Jonghyun... the reality that he's not with us anymore is constantly hitting me every time I think about him, and the tears won't stop.
But I'll live. Because he'd want all his fans to continue to live... to live on and to find their reasons to live... to be happy...
It was disheartening to realize that despite all the friends he could rely on, he still felt the need to choose his final path... the fact that he planned everything--who knows for how long--and to end it all at the end of the year...
Now every song that I listen to, I can't help but redirect the subject to him/them actually singing about their depression or their inner selves, not some girl...
It took me a while to be able to collect my thoughts...
May this beautiful angel finally gain the peace and happiness he could not find with the Living.
[I had planned to blog about this week, but who knew I'd end up crying again, and I'm not in the mood to write about it... so you'll see me again. Soon. The end of 2017 is just not going so well huh...]
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^
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: afeeqah azhar, 19 march, malaysian .
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