 konnichiwa~
Hello there & welcome to my blog. Here you'll read tidbits about my daily life, some random thoughts, & maybe a rant here and there. I'm sure you'll learn something about me, if you don't know me of course. Down below are links to find me (personal accounts not posted). I hope you enjoyed your stay while listening to the songs I'm recently listening to. Come back & read again~ ^w^/
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A good morning
written on Thursday, August 16, 2018 @ 11:43 AM ✈
This morning I woke up at around 7:20am -ish. My earphone had come out, so I checked my phone--because we were on Messenger call-- I thought the call ended, but I double-checked, and just then, he turned on his video. I thought he heard me rustling. And I turned on my video. Usually he's awake in the morning studying. This time, he actually woke up at about the same time I did. He said he was calling out to me a lot but my earphones weren't even in LOL
But I thought that was cute, when you wake up at the same time (via video chat LOL)
Not just knowing each other woke up, but to actually see each other wake up at the same time LOL
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[Tues]
It wasn't like we had a fight or anything. Maybe a close one, but he was annoyed that I wasn't paying attention to him when we talked. Okay, it's difficult when I need to not ignore the people who are with me, but also not ignore him. I'm doing what I can. It's also hard to hear him because of the connection sometimes.
He didn't tell me at first. He said he didn't know why he was so mad that he wanted to punch a wall. It wasn't until after a little while that he said it was because of me. Like, what did I do!?
To be honest I was more sad that he was annoyed, surprised that I did something, & lost as to how I can even make him feel better? (Well, he said I did, but he was still mad LOL) but he was also mad at himself for getting mad at me & then he kept apologizing. The next morning he apologized too, not that I needed him to.
[Wed]
I was a lil' cautious with him after that because it didn't feel like he was back to "normal." But I guess he was? BUT. Then I started overthinking I guess. Like, dayum, he really thought I was annoying (LOL) as in, he might come to hate me *insert gloomy me in a corner* So then, it was my turn to get sorta moody. I just kept thinking too much...
(I was wary last night so at work I didn't text/call him on my break. My break time was different because I worked a different time. But he texted me --so sad! lol-- around 8pm & I wasn't sure if I shoulda texted him or called him, but I called him & he picked up but he sounded so sleepy. I was still not in the mood & was thinking, maybe we shouldn't be on call. But he wanted to, so we did)
He seems fine now. I'm fine now too.
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A good morning
written on Thursday, August 16, 2018 @ 11:43 AM ✈
This morning I woke up at around 7:20am -ish. My earphone had come out, so I checked my phone--because we were on Messenger call-- I thought the call ended, but I double-checked, and just then, he turned on his video. I thought he heard me rustling. And I turned on my video. Usually he's awake in the morning studying. This time, he actually woke up at about the same time I did. He said he was calling out to me a lot but my earphones weren't even in LOL
But I thought that was cute, when you wake up at the same time (via video chat LOL)
Not just knowing each other woke up, but to actually see each other wake up at the same time LOL
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[Tues]
It wasn't like we had a fight or anything. Maybe a close one, but he was annoyed that I wasn't paying attention to him when we talked. Okay, it's difficult when I need to not ignore the people who are with me, but also not ignore him. I'm doing what I can. It's also hard to hear him because of the connection sometimes.
He didn't tell me at first. He said he didn't know why he was so mad that he wanted to punch a wall. It wasn't until after a little while that he said it was because of me. Like, what did I do!?
To be honest I was more sad that he was annoyed, surprised that I did something, & lost as to how I can even make him feel better? (Well, he said I did, but he was still mad LOL) but he was also mad at himself for getting mad at me & then he kept apologizing. The next morning he apologized too, not that I needed him to.
[Wed]
I was a lil' cautious with him after that because it didn't feel like he was back to "normal." But I guess he was? BUT. Then I started overthinking I guess. Like, dayum, he really thought I was annoying (LOL) as in, he might come to hate me *insert gloomy me in a corner* So then, it was my turn to get sorta moody. I just kept thinking too much...
(I was wary last night so at work I didn't text/call him on my break. My break time was different because I worked a different time. But he texted me --so sad! lol-- around 8pm & I wasn't sure if I shoulda texted him or called him, but I called him & he picked up but he sounded so sleepy. I was still not in the mood & was thinking, maybe we shouldn't be on call. But he wanted to, so we did)
He seems fine now. I'm fine now too.
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
whose life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
I kept the image on the left bc it was kawaii-ne~ & this above bc I really liked what the creator wrote ^^
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: afeeqah azhar, 19 march, malaysian .
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